#I use her for every hard fight

[matchandelure]

i fear that the undercover top secret government assassins are growing on me (cp9)

#I HAD ZERO THOUGHTS ABOUT THEM AT FIRST #IN FACT I WAS DEVASTATED THAT THE WATER 7 QUARTET WERE ACTUALLY CP9 #BUT THEN??????? I READ CP9'S INDEPENDENT REPORT AND. I!?!??!?@?!? #the thoughts are endless ive been having one piece dreams every night for the past few days and they have all been cp9 related the brainrot #is so bad. i am sodgjkadhg #i love one piece there are so many characters with each new arc i get to i get some new characters to obsess over i love it i feel so alive #ive been fighting tooth and nail avoiding spoilers for the latest episode BUT GOD IM SO SO TEMPTED TO. TAKE A PEEK #anyways last night i was once again doing a wiki deep dive and i found some silly things on cp9's pages #JABRA AND LUCCI ARE THE SAME HEIGHT!!!!! THIS IS SO FUCKING FUNNY #CAN YOU IMAGINE?!?!?! the kid you've had beef with since he was 13 (maybe even earlier since lucci alreayd knew him when he was 6) who you #used to have a whole head over is now at eye level with you i would actually be so embarrased #KAKU IS FROM EAST BLUE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS OS IMPORTANT ACTUALLY!! THE MOST IMPORATNT FACT EVER!!!!!!!!!!! #so he knows the strawhats are...also from the east blue right?!? right??????! and ik the wg steals these kids early on to train them so i #doubt he has lingering attachments to his home sea but i still think this so both so so sad and so important :'(( #also not getting over how oda's depiction of tiny kaku has him holding a toy boat BC ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!?! ARE YOU K IDDING ME #kalifa and jabra's favourite dishes are both lamb based!!!!!!!!! silly because her animal motif is a sheep haha #BUT ALSO considering how her father was also cp9 and she's probably been conditioned since birth to also follow his footsteps and how jabra #holds seniority in the current lineup id like to think that these two have known each other a very long time and there were influences #the most dysfunctional fcked up family ever. cp9 #blueno and jabra are both from the north blue!!!!!!!!!!!!! and that one falshbakc we see that the two of them plus 6year old lucci trained #together but also it would be so fcked up if the two actually knew of each other before being roped into the governemnt #idk how the wg works do they just??? routinely scout around and pick up a bunch of kids ata time???? were jabra and blueno taken together?? #also wondering if ... kalifa jabra and kumadori knew each other the longest as fellow agents or soemthing #i feel like im entertaining a gazillion thoughts all at once its so hard ot balance but we know both kalifa nad kumadori have #parents in the governemnt/assassin profession that also influenced them right #idk maybe one thing they can bond over #cp9 to me is just a fucked up family of some sort. they are not found family they are like some weird forged family where they were all #forced together and somehow made it work and they all love lucci and care for his wellbeing enough to raise all that money to get him to a #doctor and they cared about each other enough to get off enies lobby together without leaving anyone behind and they went cafe hopping and #shopping and bowling together and they all care for each other in their own way

[girlypsyop]

Man. Leaving a toxic relationship is just an exercise in learning how to live in your own head again.

#lot going on in here folks :'( #but also :') #for a few weeks i couldnt be alone couldnt be in silence couldnt just. think. #im loving myself again. im laughing and connecting and god im so excited for what comes next #june 19th lana..... you are my soulmate my rock my queen you are everything to me #bc june 19th lana had the strength to leave #june 19th lana swept me off my fucking feet and she fought and yelled and stayed up for 4 days straight #so that 4 days later i could be free again <3 #i will work so fucking hard for june 19th lana.... i never want her to have any regrets... any whatifs.... #im going to give june 19th lana the life she hopes shes fighting for #those four days were torture... moving... yelling... crying crying crying... more moving... driving... #she did that... for me.... #literally she talked to me often... she would sit amongst the boxes and fear and heartbreak and shed talk to her future self #which ig is me <3 and shed tell me how she loved me and how i better not screw this up and she begged me to love her again #god i love her again. i love that mess of a girl. beautiful and strong and terrible! and she got out despite the torture. #june 19th lana. also june 20th 21st and 22nd lana. i hear you. you will have such a beautiful wonderful life i swear #one you will never ever second guess #he fucking killed us! he killed you! the connection the devotion the love it masked the insidious truth that you had to die for that shit #the life he could give you...its pathetic compared to what im gonna give you. #and unlike every promise he ever made... i never go back on my word :) #ok bye

[vampyrsm]

if you're incapable of writing and resort to stealing stuff, just fuck off honestly. i promise no one likes you :)

#— alex rambles #im tired and sick #my head hurts so much and im bored of seeing her every fucking day doing something new #like. it's ridiculous #and shes fighting so hard for work thats not hers #all because shes scared of losing money from youtube #get a fucking grip #we dont make money from our work 99% of the time #so why should YOU profit from us #fuck off. #i have a lot more to say but im not looking to be reported

[the-mighty-glow-cloud]

GORT DOWN GORT DOWN

#holy fuck the gortash fight was wild #i can't even imagine what it would be like if i hadn't killed the steel watch first #used damn near every spell slot i had and lae'zel was this close to Fucking Dying #is2g she gets targeted so hard in every fight #she spent like 80% of the cazador fight asleep bc that skeleton motherfucker kept hitting her with eyebite #my murder wife orin said she was proud of me though so it was all worth it #baldur's gate

[selfinflictedgunshotwound]

i think i've finally come to understand why i'm so bad at communicating with friends 👍 at one point or another i've thought i was in love with every single person i've ever been friends with (for the most part, at least) because i don't expect other people to like me. OBVIOUSLY this is not true but platonic feelings are not dissimilar to romantic ones (baseline they're the same: you want to love and be loved by someone) but i always end up realizing that i'm not in love with them, just that they matter to me very much and i wouldn't know what do to w/o their presence in my life. BUT this brings me to facet number 2 of my awful communication skills: i hate it when things Get Real. i find myself retreating any time it seems like Something Could Change in my day-to-day life due to them being around and "forcing" the change. i run away from talking to one of my only irl friends on almost a daily basis bc i dread the idea of having to do anything she might want me to do. i think, at the end of the day, my problem might just be that i don't want to change... ANYWAYS

#i actually think the funniest example of this comes from the irl guy friend i think i actually DO have romantic feelings for #i never used to have feelings for him but i always kind of nursed the idea of such a thing (as i said i think i could be in love with most #friends before i realize i'm not - but with him specifically i never had a moment where i realized i... wasn't?) also my previously #aforementioned irl friend kind of insinuated he might have feelings for me or we might end up with one another and now every time i think #abt him i think about THAT so. #anyways a few years ago he came by my house and picked me up and we got ice cream and talked for hours bc we have a lot in common #and he actually manages to keep in contact with me despite how hard it is (how hard i make it) to talk to me on a consistent basis lol #like we don't talk a LOT but he's also the one who convinced me to contact my former other irl best friend that i hadn't talked to in 6 yrs #anyways back to what i was talking abt from a few years ago... it was 4 yrs ago at this point but after the ice cream - i got a job #and we talked a lot - he took me and my irl bff out but she had a HUGE fight with her bf and he tracked her down and it was. a disaster #but after that they made up (lucikly she broke up with him not too long after lmao) but me and him were put in the middle of it #and anyways we went to the mall with the annoying couple LMAO but we broke off and it was just... really nice to be with him? #and then we went to walmart and rented a movie and went back to my irl's apartment and i tried to dye his hair in her bathroom LMAO #and it just felt really natural to be close to him and whatnot. we really get along and i really don't dislike him and i'm not NOT into him #but yeah anyways a few days later he messaged me and asked if he could pick me up from work but i told him no because at that point i was. #afraid. because i had a dream that i had kissed hik and he turned into rick sanchez and drowned LMFAOOO IT SOUNDS RETARDED BUT. #like i think the point of the dream was that if i showed him that i had some kind of feelings for him he would change or die or disappear? #i always assume the worst. but yeah the dream literally put me off so bad that i cut contact with him for almost 2 years #because i was afraid of him and i was afraid of my life changing #idk. maybe i should give it a try now. i'm still scared but you never know. #i at least wanna say 'thanks' for him convincing me to message my friend from 6 years ago so 🤷‍♀️ who knows

[eatyourdamnpears]

I hate the fact that I couldn’t get out if I needed to. I don’t have a car or license. I can’t work. I can’t afford any rent in my area with disability. I don’t have control of my finances. I can’t take care of myself. I’m just… stuck here. I’m stuck living in a house that can become so easily volatile and I don’t know how to get out if the time comes where I need to

#vent tw #but yeah shit is scary #before my older nephew was put in a place for kids with severe psychological issues (brain fog woop woop) it was really scary here #just so much yelling and throwing things and self harm I had to step in and stop and it was just. a lot. #just the constant fear of him going too far and hitting one of us because we knew he was capable of that with his parents #he even swung at me at one point and even my mom before my brother stepped in to protect her #I’m fearing for the day he comes back #because his parents pushed him onto us and they don’t want him back but like. we don’t either #he’s a good kid he’s just going through some shit that makes him an unsafe person to be around #and then there’s my mom who’s emotionally volatile and living with her is leaving me in a constant state of fight or flight #like even if I was lucky enough to get on section 8 I probably still wouldn’t be able to afford the cost of living in my area #at least not safely #fuck I hate this shit #living is just really hard sometimes #I keep hoping for the day I’m able to work and afford an apartment and have a good life but every day it seems less and less possible

[c6jpg]

okay i've been messing around with a bunch of teams trying to fit candace in somewhere and i think i like how this one feels. i'm gonna make this fucking work or die trying

#0.txt #not totally sure who's gonna be the main dps between kaeya and rosaria yet #the thing with kaeya is i have a bunch of good swords i can just throw on him meanwhile i don't rly #have a lot of offensive polearm options for rosaria but she is so nice with r5 fav lance since you already want to build her w a lot of cri #but rosaria feels better to play. she's also c6 and actually built i have to fucking level kaeya and shit ajsdfklajsf #originally i wanted candace to main dps but she then has split scaling so her own personal damage is kinda :| #so i'm just going full hp on her instead #and albedo is just kinda There LMAO i mostly needed an off fielder who wouldn't interfere too much with reactions #i could also just use zhongli if dodging ends up being too hard #i also tried yun jin but idk. i have her built and when she buffs SHE BUFFS but despite having 222% er i always struggle getting #her burst up unless there's another battery/favonius weapon user on the team #yun jin being there also means her and rosaria fight over the favonius lance #i actually have another one bc i'm r8 on that weapon but the other one is not leveled at all and i don't rly wanna farm materials for it #anyways this is gonna be my team building project for the next rotation of things #cyno's team was basically done before i even got cyno lol i could still improve artifacts all around but for now im happy w that team #and i need something to do other than suffer in the emblem domain every day

[jankwritten]

Chapter 9 of hockey AU will probably not be going up today by way of 1) i have therapy and 2) It's not finished yet

It's a very heavy chapter, so I want to make sure everything lines up properly and makes sense and doesn't feel trivial or like I'm rushing through it. Hopefully I'll have the chapter up before the end of the week, but apologies in advance if not.

#hockey au #WHOOPS #i got super sucked into BOTW again this week too #and normally I write at night but I've been busy every single night so whoops #and also thalia is fighting back (AKA it's so hard to write the transition into her Scenes I'm so not used to writing her)

[intergalacticaquarium]

Just outlined the next chapter and got some of it written and have I mentioned before that my core competency as a writer is writing angsty arguments that drive forward character devopment bc it is and I have

#and it is. good. #99% of the time i do it bc im actually arguing in spirit w fanon #bc it kinda annoys me when i see a fic w the cheerleader main and eddie is like babe u dont have to tell anybody bc i know u worked so hard #2 be popular ur too good for ke and then like ghosts her its infuriating #eddies childish but i dont think he would just completely ignore somebody or assume that they had a huge fight #based on something insignificant and i dont really think hed have the patience for somebody like that either. nor should anyone #also wow lost my original point about the cheerleader i do not buy that hed be cool w keeping ur legit official relationship a secret bc he #doesnt want to put your fucking popularity at risk #he might keep it a secret to stop u from being bullied but not bc youd stop being popular he would have 0 respect for that #also when hes like ur the only person that doesnt think im a freak #WRONG #do u not remember jonathans talk with will in season 2 where he says so what ur a freak im a freak id rather be friends with a freak than #a normie #eddie only says freak in a bad way when he says hunt the freak right bc now its bad and they turned on him for being a freak #not that hes a freak because everybody hates him #ppl dont stand on tables and say pretentious shit like that if they dont absolutely relish #in people insulting them by saying something true about them and then feeling cocky about it #old subcultures used to just be about lettin ur freak flag fly bc you didnt want to fit in i do not accept an eddie that is not #absolutely deliberately where he is on the social ladder he knows what hes doing hes enjoying every second of it #until everybody gets fed up and tries to fucking kill him for it #wow ok that was a rant #when ppl say that ppl write fanfiction bc something in canon is lacking theyre wrong its bc fanon interpretations are lacking #boy got woobified within 24 hours of s4 dropping i just need to be on the defense #and be out here screaming that hes a wild little freak boy that is probably very unsettling at times and needs to be transported #in a cat carrier #and hes doing it on purpose #all of this is said with all the love in my heart btw

[definitely-ellie]

#once again i find myself roiling in these turbulent breakup emotions #sickening stabbing pain #agonizing yearning #im the annoying arsehole for not moving on. cos i couldnt stop reaching out to try and hold on #i dont know. its hard to be objective. think clearly about this #fighting the urge to blame everything on myself. to hyperbolise. to villainise her. #i cant be unbiased #but those words stabbed deep #rattling around in my head. all day every day for months #brain constantly stuck on you. on us. what was and what ended and what could have been #forever and a day .... #i miss you #and even though i shouldnt. i desperately hope you miss me too #that the cup will come back together. and we can be together again #gravity did its work. and whats broken can never truely be restored to its former state. but we can reforge #kintsugi... remake it but better. stronger. more precious #but thats not gonna happen. #im sorry #goodbye

[genekies]

my sister couldn't wait and gave me my gift already

#everythijg my mom does makes me want to scream and snap at her #somethings she cant even help like coughing or whatever #but literally if she breathes differently i want to fight her #i hate being here #my family doesnt believe i have autism #i was officially diagnosed even (and never told them abt self diagnosing before) #they make me insane #i have always had a hard time controlling my tone and volume especially when i have strong emotions or they would feel i needed to sound a #specific way but ive been finally able to unmask around my roommates and it feels liem im suffocating every second im here #why did i decide to do this #i cant even use my chewelry around them ive had to keep it hidden while im here just constantly around my neck so i can only use it when im #up late or in the other room knowing no one will come in. im so tired and ive only been here a little over a day

[takumis86]

just reached the finale chapter of yakuza like a dragon ARRGGHHH THIS GAMES SO GOOD

#txt #of all the yakuza games ive played its probably....second favourite #which i wasn't expecting at all #that said i havent deep dived most of the games except for this one and zero i mostly just breezed thru the story for 1-6(hyperfixation yay #but this one ive tried to take my time with a decent enough amount #so much more shit i wanna do though #but oh my god its so fucking good #when ***** showed up and said ************** and then ******************* all over the place #i knew majima and saejima were coming but for some reason i didnt fully expect That even tho i feel like i had it spoiled before. i just. #forgor #also hell stew zhao version slaps so hard its going on my workout playlist #btw i dont run him on my main team but zhao is <333333 i like him a lot #also i like joongi a lot too he is also <33333 except i DO run him on my team because he is busted #my team setup right now is hero ichi for team support and extra dps and also just to absorb damage #default job joongi for that bigboy damage also he gives me gun access which is very useful #default job eri bc she could defeat god if she wanted to. her damage parallels joongis which is so funny bc one is a refined underworld #assassin and one is an office worker #anyways and then saeko on the idol job for heals and team support and stuff #thats got me through every fight since majima/saejima

[comradekatara]

i know that a lot of people take issue with the fact that pakku only agrees to teach katara because he realizes that she’s the granddaughter of the woman he tried to get with a bajillion years ago, but i actually see that moment of him realizing that kanna left to escape their marriage as a moment of self-reflection from him. like, imagine having to contend with the fact that your rancid vibes drove the love of your life away after having just publicly humiliated her fourteen year old granddaughter who was begat on the literal other side of the earth because how that’s far she went to escape him. sokka gets the moment of realizing “oh, men and woman are ontologically equal in their capacities, and divisions between genders are socially assigned and arbitrary,” but that isn’t really pakku’s deal at all. pakku’s deal is more like, “oh, my unyielding insistence on adhering to and imposing unjust patriarchal traditions actually makes me deeply unpleasant to be around and drives my loved ones away. maybe I should take a fucking chill pill perhaps.”

like, the fact that katara ultimately loses the fight and nothing she actually says or does persuades him is interesting, because it means that his reflection is internal, his moment of revelation not brought about by didactic moralizing, but through taking a long, hard look in the mirror, and realizing that being kind is more important than being right. and that’s why he seems to make an effort to be friendlier and more helpful, more so than making any effort to become a male feminist and fight for women’s rights. sokka, for example, initially has a narrow view of gender because his worldview is limited and then it expands, but pakku, by contrast, is literally a member of the white lotus; he is old and worldly, so he clearly already understands that their tribe’s traditions are not ontologically necessitated, but he nonetheless supports them because they benefit him. it is only when he learns that the love of his love literally escaped their tribe and left behind everything she ever knew just to avoid him that he decides to reevaluate his staunch insistence on clinging to his patriarchal values. and who wouldn’t. i mean, that’s gotta fucking hurt!

i know that katara’s fight against him does feel like a grand feminist moment as she fights for her ideals and her rights as a girl, and to her (and to us as the audience) it certainly does feel that way, but to pakku, his change of heart is one of realizing that he should probably stop being an asshole to every woman he’s ever met while he still has a few good years left. a core motif of katara’s arc is that she cannot actually preach her ideals and simply enlighten every asshole she meets, as much as she’d certainly like to; enlightenment comes from within. and so it is pakku’s regrets that motivate him to be kinder, because it’s never too late to change for the better. and that’s kind of beautiful actually.

#pakku #katara #sokka #(ish) #kanna #I feel like ive never really given pakku enough attention #im always kind of just like ‘L+ ratio + bowling pin ass head’ #but he is interesting. he is #thinking abt the nwt in general. is fascinating #I love it sm

[roturo]

ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ OH! SO YOU'RE INTO OLDER MEN?

˚₊·➳❥ JJK MEN SHOWING YOU HOW A REAL MEN FUCKS! satoru gojo, suguru geto, kento nanami, toji fushiguro ✧˚ · .

tags: afab!reader, reader is mentioned as a female, use of nicknames (baby, princess, doll, slut, whore), cheating, degradation, caught cheating, getting caught, unprotected sex, blowjob, pussy slapping, mating press, breeding, age-gaps, virginity loss [...] rbs are appreciated!

satoru gojo (Daddy’s girl)

well, that’s the word he used for the little girl you're babysitting right now. he’s a great dad and husband. there’s just this tiny whiny little thing he couldn’t do right– and that’s loving his wife as he should.

like– it’s not that he doesn’t feel guilty, it’s just… well, you looked really cute in that mini dress, he and his wife have been fighting lately anddd– he could tell his daughter liked you more than her fatality of mother she has these days. she even called you mommy by accident once! and that was the last water drop gojo needed for the glass to break.

“Oh- I bet you’d love to be full of me right now.” His thrusts became messier each time he pounded on you, “Mhh, fill you up ‘n make me a daddy again– you’d like that princess?” you couldn’t even talk anymore with how good he’s making you feel– he had your legs pressed on the bed thanks to his arms, almost bending you in half, he was making sure that mating press works.

“Ffffuckk- You feel s’good baby” He felt your walls clenching again, no matter how many times he made you come, he’s making sure you’re coming again after he does. A not ending cycle for him. “Such a slut for me hm? Coming all nice and pretty to this house just to be ruined at night–” his words made you feel dirty, but the euphoria of it was stronger, “such” slap, “a nasty” slap, “slut” slap– “and all f’me” with those last thrusts your body couldn’t take it anymore, spasming and trembling while your poor hole was filled up again. gojo’s wife didn’t even bothered to break your little encounter, she suspected it long time ago.

all that was left was a wide grinning gojo satoru and some divorce papers.

suguru geto (Daddy’s best-friend)

you didn’t intend this to happen… you always knew your dad’s best-friend was hot. he’s geto, ‘cmon. he brings a new girl every weekend whispering in your dad’s ear swearing she’s the one this time.

he saw you grow up, turn into this beautiful and strong woman. so how he couldn’t love you? you were like a doll for him, so beautiful and radiant in every way. a porcelain doll he needed to protect, he couldn’t lose you to any dangerous or stupid man, he swears he would beat the shit out of the guy who breaks your heart first.

“Shhiiiitt– Heh– I can tell how tight your pussy is princess–” His cock was stretching the living shit out of you, touching places never in a thousand years you could imagine you would feel. “what d’ya think daddy would say if he saw his little girl being fucked by his best-friend huh?” your brain was a fuzzy mess, you couldn’t make coherent words to say, and just feel how good geto is making you feel. you couldn’t remember how many times he had made you cum with his toungue and he’s just starting to fuck your pussy.

“ ‘m such a lucky guy if i'm the first you’re giving this pussy to, don’t ya think so doll? marking it as mine, baby I swear you’ll need no man to ever fuck this pussy of yours again– shit I won’t need another woman for myself, you’re the one baby” those words filled your heart of a tingly feeling, making more butterflies roam around your tummy, touching yourself you could sense geto’s cock coming and leaving with every thrust, your brain full of air and in need of more of his cock.

he couldn’t resist himself anymore when he was next to you, his cock would get hard the minute he enters your house, and thankfully he has a pretty doll to release himself with.

kento nanami (Big Boss)

Nanami thinks he’s a good and mature guy– At least for his wife and kids… He has this aura of a serious and mature guy but inside every time he’s just this close to breaking it, just to say what he really thinks or feels.

the first time he saw you at work with your tiny skirts and tight blouses he didn’t mind any type of attention to it, you were another cute worker, that’s all. One of another– he can think other women are pretty too right? maybe even prettier than his wife… and nicer, and cuter, and more homely feeling to be a mom. but he wouldn't do anything he would later regret right?...

“You’re s’pretty baby, such a dirty whore for my cock mhm?” he had you pounding from behind, his desk becoming even messier than it was before, one of his hands keeping you laid down on the desk arching your back like if he’s trying to break it– a sudden ringing brought you back from your unconsciousness of nanami’s cock– he answered the call, not a single sing of him trying to stop thrusting into you.

“Yeah?” his voice was out of breath, almost sounding like a sigh when he answered the call, “Where am I? Huh– I’m at the office r-right now…?” he wasn’t even sure if he could keep this act, losing himself more in the feeling of your pussy clenching on his cock– “Oh yeah- I’m okay, uhh- the kids? yyeah, yeah, they’re with my mom right now–” the feeling of keeping up a call with his wife while fucking you made his cock twitch inside of you, feeling like a teenager kissing their crush for the first time. it was no surprise for him that his wife was cheating, but he wanted to keep it like that for the sanity of his kids. 

“Quit the act Kento– I know you’re fucking somebody else right now. See ya at home.”

toji fushiguro (Step-Daddy)

you hated when your mother started dating new guys. they just kept breaking her heart– but you just stopped telling her that it's okay to live without a partner, that she had you by her side, but well… this new man was something else i guess and you didn’t say anything for the sake of your own good mother.

you didn’t like him, but for the sake of your mother you pretended like you do– and let’s be honest, toji doesn’t like children, so when he first met you he wasn’t as social as others… your mom was just too good to simply let go– but the way you moved, talked, dressed caught his attention, and as time passes and he spends more time with your mom– he's no longer drawn to your house just to see your mother, but to see you. 

“Sshhiit- You’re making me feel s’good baby” the lack of air was making you feel giddy, but the way his cock twitched inside your mouth made your core get even wetter. “C’mon baby, ride my shoe,” you wasted no time before your hips started moving, trying to gain some friction and release that tingly feeling coming from your core. 

“D’ya think your mother would like to see her daughter being full of his step-daddy’s cum?” he gets one of his arms behind himself trying to gain some support while his other free hand caresses your cheeks while you continue sucking– this same hand moves out your head and frees his cock out of your mouth, a small strand of saliva connecting your mouth with it–

“Fuck– guess i choose the wrong out of you two”

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[babydarkstar]

honestly no wonder harrow forced ianthe to lobotomize her so she could save gideon. listen…LISTEN…if i was a secret-war-crime cult nunlet princess worshipped by my entire planet and the only person that (barely) kept me in check was my childhood nemesis—a butch a year older than me, towering over me in stature and physical prowess, and so hot it made my teeth hurt from how hard my jaw clenched in her presence, who wielded a two-handed seven-foot sword and had irritatingly huge biceps and told very lewd stupid jokes and also learned how to wield an entirely new weapon and be my bodyguard with startling accuracy in three months—only to have us finally learn to trust each other because we got invited to a magic murder mystery and then before the bubble burst i spilled the worst secret about myself that i was born because my parents murdered an entire generation and tried to Kill Her along with them and she just wouldnt die, and i told her this expecting a swift death i believed i deserved, only for her to fucking cradle me in her big butch arms and kiss me on my forehead with her soft butch mouth and just. forgive me for a shameful weight ive carried my entire life and then MAKE AN ACTUAL NECRO/CAV VOW with me despite every evil thing i have done to her……to have her tell me, in the end, bleeding and broken after putting up the most beautiful and glorious fight of her life, that she understands purpose and she understands duty and she knows loyalty more fiercely than ever now, that she knows who she is to me, that there is no her without me….to have her backed into a corner and make the ultimate sacrifice…..for me…..to recite scriptural wedding vows of eternity to me in her last wisps of soul-consciousness…..if i thought there was even a snowflake’s chance in the pyre that i could save her by turning myself into her very own locked tomb, i’d be begging ianthe tridentweirdius to crack my skull open and turn me to mush too, goddamn. i understand you harrowhark girl you don’t have to explain a thing to me. god said you couldn’t undo the lyctor’s bond bc it’d kill you. you told god and his angels that not even a lyctor’s bond could outshine the power of female spite and lesbianism and they didn’t listen. they didn’t believe you. but i heard you loud and clear and i was 17 and hormonal and hopelessly romantic not too long ago unlike those fucking dinosaurs and i’m saying it’s valid it’s what i would have done and really everyone should be thanking you for not being worse and more wretched about it, all things considered

#i think about gideon nav every day #she makes me want to eat drywall #shes so jesus shes so her own thing shes so god and savior It Is Finished divinity of love and sacrifice #honestly so much of harrow is so so relatable to me shes so real for everything she does #her little griddlehark meetcute au her little divine highness au #ive already waxed poetic about the harrow nova au #sorry to keep waxing poetic about this but i really am rotted about them #like im going insane. tamsyn muir when i get you tamsyn when i catch you #griddlehark #tlt spoilers #harrowhark nonagesimus #i am you as you are me we are one and two and two and one #i cannot conceive of a universe without you. #should i forget you let my right hand also be forgotten; add more also. if aught but death part me and thee. #I FELL INTO THE WATER AND NOW IM FREE