#ITS GOOD N PEACEFUL

[komashkathesilly]

sensory hell on planet wonderland sekai

#idk. its just funny joyful pic i made it drunk #im coping w the amount of sad beige bare concrete i had to see from my classmates n profs #project sekai #emu otori #tsukasa tenma #nene kusanagi #rui kamishiro #komashkart #peace and love on planet autism have a good day everyone

[b4kuch1n]

wizard of both ways

#pokemon #swsh #champion leon #wizard leon! Ive messed arounf with this piece for literal months #and like yesterday my brain was like okay either you finish this or you explode and die #so. been finishing this up #now I can return to work in peace.... #this is! also a revision of an old design #which was kinda made up as I was goin so it wasnt the most coherent thing. but I was like well. its a wizard design #cowboy wizard... sword and pen..... being in two places at the same time..... this is what this wizard is about now #the number of wizard leons Ive got is still at a round ten rn I think. into this new year I'd like to shore up and make a zine for em #got a big to do list this year... hope I get to everything #but for now. we return to the good work. we live n we see #have a good day guys! I get a snack now. a botato jacket. I wish u the opportunity for the same

[23b0075nke]

"draw your characters as they would draw themselves"

#river flows both ways #i love this a lot bc its got so many layers #how do they express themselves how do they see themselves #dog is COOL GUYS INC. pass the glitter glue #gwen is a tryhard who cant let go of the past also has had a couple hundred years to pick up hobbies #beekeeper keeps it real also collages bc they like collecting bits and pieces (and have unsteady hands) #catamount throws it down quick n dirty and is not interested in finesse or persona #anyway this was mad fun and also a good excuse to fuck around with weird brushes more #peace & love on planet earth #👁 #🔦 #🐝 #🌱

[pikkish]

I thought it was hilarious, at first, that everyone’s decided Doomguy is still the protagonist of MyHouse.wad. After all, it doesn’t really have much more to do with Doom than gmod has to do with Half-Life 2. But then I remembered, isn’t that a plot point of Doom II? Visiting the burnt out ruins of your hometown on your way to the portal to Hell? Why couldn’t Doomguy take a few minutes to have a nightmare of an emotional journey in a childhood friend’s home to come to terms with everyone and everything he ever loved being destroyed?

#doom #myhouse.wad #lines i did #just to be clear i still do think its very funny that its been unanimously decided that dg is the protagonist of myhouse.wad #man has been fighting demons for thirty years and what does he get for his thirtieth birthday? more demons #except this time theyre mental and emotional demons #myhouse.wad does deserve all the popularity its getting tho #like.. yeah its amazing in its atmosphere n stuff #but its also nuts on a purely technological level #stepped inside the house the first time and just had to stop for a sec bc is that a hecking. BASEMENT?? a SECOND FLOOR in CLASSIC DOOM???? #that shouldnt even be POSSIBLE. #(i mean. it obviously IS possible w clever use of various teleport effects. but still. it was a bit of a :O !!!!!!! moment) #setting a ridiculously high bar right off the bat and then following through for the rest of the game in meeting it #anyway. it was really good. #i guess in this case the good end would be more of a metaphorical/mental state? #being at peace internally as u go to voluntarily enter the depths of hell... #or something like that; anyway. idk man i am still just going :eyes: at the whole thing

[lacking-hydration]

stu . if you even care

#i always get screencaps for drawing n i just have these #which reminds me one of the funniest things i ever see in reference to the insane shit foley is in is always like #'dave is the only enjoyable part of this movie' and i see that ALL THE TIME and yeah. most of the time theyre right. #i want to say hes tje enjoyable part of california dreaming but hes jusf as depressing as everyone else #I mean IN A GOOD WAY ITS WELL PREFORMED. but man #dave foley #stu gainor #california dreaming 2007 #god i cant stand this movie i need it to leave my mind so i can be at peace #OH MY GOD. ALSO. TNIS MOVIE COMING OUT THE SAME YEAR AS POSTAL IS SO FUNNY TO ME #BECAUSE I THINK THE CHARACTERS HE PLAYS IN THOSE TWO MOVIES COULD NOT BE MORE DIFFERENT from bad movies for entirety different reasons #ok im done bye

[mariemariemaria]

Does anybody else feel like mental health awareness has done very little to help them in material reality

#i was gonna say done nothing to help but that seemed too harsh #like there definitely is more knowledge about it now. maybe more people feel comfortable speaking about it which is good #but personally i don't feel that. like idk. workplaces will post about mental health awareness and then do nothing to help employees #the same w universities. my uni cut back the already meager mental health support #and then the government is doing absolutely fuck all as well #like idk im just back in a place i thought id gotten out of long ago and i still don't feel comfortable talking about it with people #maybe that's a me problem or maybe it's cultural or something idk. but in the 10 years ive been depressed (🫠) i don't think it's gotten a #whole lot better. teenagers are still dealing with the same shit i did and they're still not being taken seriously #women's mental health is not even spoken about.....anxiety depression sh eds etc are still ignored or seen as hysterical behaviour in women #or just normal esp with disordered eating. society hasn't changed people still want women to be stick thin and weak #like i know 10 years is a short time and there has been massive improvements in mh awareness if we look back over the past 50+ years #but idk i just think that it hasn't gotten better for a lot of people #i think specifically of belfast and like god. the amount of trauma there is the amount of homelessness the amount of substance abuse #drug abuse in particular that has gotten visibly worse over the past decade or so* #and i connect the dots n see the 2008 recession + a tory gov defunding the nhs + dehumanisation of homeless people & addicts + the troubles #+ ptsd + generational trauma + a negative peace + classism + paramilitary drug dealers + parties linked to those paramilitaries #and its like hmmmm i think we live in a society. and a mental health approach based on individual actions like journaling and meditation #isn't the way to go. or at least is not the be all and end all which is what a lot of mental health awareness raising seems to promote #*visibly worse on the streets. it was always a problem ofc but even a decade ago my parents never imagined it would be as bad as it is now #and it's become so normalised. i do think there's less individualism here than there seems to be elsewhere which can be good and can be bad #but i think we are becoming more and more individualistic. slowly. there's still a sense of community here but i do think it's changing #and callousness towards homeless people is one of the most obvious examples of this. #love when i put a wee asterisk in the tags of a post. like i have A Lot To Say lol

[lemongogo]

#i love when characters challenge each other like this #bc they arent so vehemently opposed to one another to where its like .. just continous unending dissent without ever achieving a resolution #theyre both entrenched in their ways and have rzns for what they do #and both have good points . wolfwood ab how fighting back is all that people have to decide for themselves #and vash refusing to kill as a promise to rem and the life that sustained bc of her sacrifice and the importance of peace and love for #prosperity / human nature to Him #like they agree . ab the end result but they are both right in how they feel (maybe wolfwood a bit more as vash obvi benefits from being ) #(a plant) #(and interpersonal conflicts being unavoidable on large scale yk. bad ppl do exist n violence can be necessary 4 change) #IDDDK ITS JUST GOOD I LUV ITT I love it . i love the back and forth and the way they push and prod at each other but work so well 2gether #nonetheless #vash #wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #trigun manga #trigun spoilers #IM ACTUALLY SO SURPRISED BTW??? IRT THEIR DYNAMIC? #like its actu refreshing . and funny . and goofy . and pathetic #bc i was so ready for wolfwood to be this borin broody angsty isolated character type #that is soo common in stories like this #but hes like . SILLY!!! they both are. the four of them are. millie meryl wolfwood and vash #idk i just like it a lott a lot a lot. idk much ab stampede but i got the impression that hes like . emo skype emoji but i hope they channel #1998 wolfwood at some point LMAOO #i love the spread where . u knwo the panel where hes like stop fuckinf crying🤬🤬🤬 @ vash HAJAHAHAHAHH #right after he was like ik we’ve talked ab this before (whatev whatev) and later brings it up again but apologizes in advance for what hes #gna say #and its just like. kind of sweet HELP KINDAA SRU . ..\STOP IT!!!! anywyas #ANYWAYS!!! i do rly enjoy their dynamic . and their ideals . and wolfwoods priest schtick . HAJAHA #we r back to essays in the tags era

[slashingdisneypasta]

Incorrect Quote

Tiffany, after pouring Carrie a juice: Wait, honey- are you legal to drink??

Jennifer: ... *Shrugs* The ID in my wallet says I am.

Tiffany: I can work with that.

#they're having a ladies night! #this is a thought I've had in my head for a while that i kinda wanna write #horror house ladies night! with y/n tiffany jennifer pam and carrie #they drink wine/juice. they bitch about the men in the house (and each other) #they share killing tips #its a good time #just- different kindsa women of different ages and different styles and different backgrounds hanging out and having a peaceful night!! #Horror Villains #Slashers #Incorrect Quote #Incorrect Quotes #IQs #Slashers Incorrect Quote #Slashers Incorrect Quotes #Horror Villains Incorrect Quote #Horror Villains Incorrect Quotes #Tiffany Valentine #Carrie White #Jennifer Check #source: TFR's Writing Prompts

[mydemonsdrivealimo]

MMH GUESS WHO GOT MORE OF THEIR FAV RASPBERRY TEA

#literally screaming #the dance i did after the first drink is not even funny #its so good #if youve ever had the razzleberry peace tea its like that but yk.. actual tea #its so light and sweet and delicious #AND its a black tea so ofc it has caffeine. my fav <3 #i could literally write books about this tea though its so good #literally debating on going back and getting another case so i can make a concentrate <3 #n e ways i was out for a month bc i couldnt find it at the store but now i have it again #the world is back on its axis #personal

[unicornofgt]

alright, i have come to the decision i am keeping this blog up as an archive and leaving the gt tumblr community for the foreseeable future.

when i made my post about chamomile-g-tea’s damaging treatment of my story, gtms, my goal was to acknowledge the situation so i could hopefully move forward and restore gtms/my blog as mine again, without her influence. and while i anticipated backlash, some of the responses were just...downright disturbing. lots of comments echoed a victim-blaming sentiment that i am responsible for the emotional and creative damage done to me by another person because ‘why didn’t you just say no or tell her to stop?’ not only does this ignore the several attempts i did make to express discomfort and set boundaries—which were not respected—but even if i didn’t manage to express a ‘no’, that doesn’t make what happened ok; it doesn’t erase the year of crippling pressure and guilt i lived with and still struggle to shake daily. realizing that so many people in this community think otherwise is just...disturbing. it’s disturbing. that’s the only word i can think to use.

the response to all this does not make me feel safe being here—that’s what this situation has unfortunately showed me: that the audience i hoped to allow to view my reclaiming process would also contain the same crowd who make me feel so unsafe—and why the fuck would i let those people see something as personal as that? why would i let them see anything? it’s made me understand i can’t continue to heal myself and my writing if i am posting it for other people, especially harmful people. and even though it turned out this way, i’m glad i gave it a shot; that i made that post as an effort to see if it was even possible or worth it to restore this space—even if the answer was no! absolutely fucking not!—because it saved me from even more time spent sharing my work with people who do not respect me as a person or a creator. i’m glad i tried, however much it sucked, because it allowed me to understand: it is not just one person in this community i feel unsafe with, but a solid percentage of the community at large that i just cannot healthily engage with, and no amount of blocking will fix that.

but of course this is not the only situation that showed me this community’s true colors—the dismissive or outright aggressive response to the calling out of racism in our tropes has also been deeply disturbing. to clarify, there is no problem in identifying with and finding comfort or catharsis in problematic tropes such as the pet trope, but there is a problem with using that comfort to make others feel unsafe and speak over people of color. and the solution to this trope problem is very simple—generally apply critical thinking skills to the media you enjoy, and tag your shit properly (dead dove, particularly when the giant owner/abuser doesn’t face consequences and/or if the abused/abuser fall in ‘love’—dead dove is not actually currently used in this community, that’s the problem). but rather than taking this as an opportunity to listen and improve, it was instead used as a chance to lash out at and make clear that poc are not welcome in this community and come secondary to the feelings of white creators and readers.

over the last few years, this community has fostered and been exposed for bigotry such as terfs, ableists, racists, etc, and especially in the current political era, this is no longer a community i want to share my work with or even just lurk in. and i know on the surface this community seems progressive, but take a better look and you’ll find members of the community doing and saying…questionable things, or keeping quiet and enabling their friends who do and say questionable things because they would rather be passive and polite than be genuinely kind and compassionate through active accountability.

of course this is the risk you take interacting with any person ever—but it’s especially taxing to look around at such a small, close knit community you know is riddled with these problems and wonder if the people making innocent posts are actually harmful; if they prioritize their comfort over the safety of marginalized people, if they even see you as a full person, and for me, personally—if they are willing to overlook consent to blame you for your trauma and defend the person who inflicted it. it’s taxing to explain basic basic concepts to strangers over and over in a place that prides itself on being a safe space, where people just have fun and mentally escape from irl hardships. it’s taxing to ride out shitty, hateful treatment when you are just simply one person (voluntarily providing free services btw) with only so much energy and fucks to give. it is not worth the strain it puts on you as a person, nor is it your responsibility to sit there and accept it, and i am not the only creator in this community who feels this way. we are fucking tired.

quite simply, this is not a community i feel comfortable participating in or sharing anything with. and that’s a shame, because there are wonderful, creative and caring people here who i have enjoyed sharing this space with, and maybe someday i’ll give this community another chance, but currently it’s just not worth the time of day. and i want to make it clear: my leaving is not simply because of just one person or just one situation—that i could handle—it is the community itself that is the root problem; that continues to be harmful, in multiple contexts—that is the reason why i and several other creators are leaving for greener pastures and more enjoyable communities—or just simply for a fucking moment’s worth of peace, because lord knows you won’t find it here.

#i considered making this post just ‘yea i feel unsafe here i’m leaving’ #but i did want to post a clear explanation for mutuals still here n the ppl who come across my blog in the future #instead of leaving it to speculation and guess work #so i wrote a fucking essay lmao #but there are more personal details i didn’t go into bc they’re distressing and some of y’all are straight awful<3 #however i will say you are not inside anyone else’s head if they say they feel unsafe it is not for you to question that #anyways privileges to myself and my writing are officially revoked #when i’m ready to share writing it’ll be with close friends in private #and maybe eventually on another site like ao3 but if that happens it won’t be for a while #and if i do post gtms there it will prolly be v different from the version here bc it’ll be the restored and improved version #i hate the version on this site<3 #for now i just need to get back into the swing of things bc rn it is. so hard to Think at all #i’ll also be doing things on my fandom account i am just leaving this community bc good lord #if you told me a month ago i’d be leaving this community i’d have been devastated but now? #having seen sm of this community’s true colors one after another? #i don’t give a fuck now #the only thing i feel is relief #the community i thought i was apart of does not exist and it made me physically sick to realize and experience that reality #for all its problems i did not think so MUCH of the gt community was this vile #i’ve run this blog for years and closing this chapter just brings me closure and peace #and to those of y’all who are alright n still here: good fucken luck lmfao wish y’all the best dealing w this shitshow #gt community #giant/tiny #gt #g/t #sfw g/t #gtms #gt mech suits

[astrolionking]

I currently can’t stop thinking about this movie so here’s genderbent version of the gays cause the only genderbent versions were heavily sexualized soooo… yeah!

Bonus:

#the RR tag is full of negativity and like. i get it. Peter Pan’s VA and all that #but ffs other than that yall act like the movie is terrible #which it isn’t #it’s not PERFECT #it has its flaws #but it’s a good movie #so PLEASE let me enjoy the movie in peace #dizzy (art tag) #chip n dale rescue rangers #chip n dale #rescue rangers #chip x Dale

[oh-cramity-its-amity]

its so weird to read some of my old fics (do NOT do it but i'm just being hypothetical rn) and reading it. like who even was this person?? i completely was in a haze back in 2020. i literally was posting 3 chapters a day. A DAY. what in the WORLD was that shit.

anyway i remembered some STUPID sappy shit and i didnt remember if i'd put it into a fic or not BUT I FOUND IT.

She and Hope had been dating in secret for months anyway, and any attempt to go talk to Ryan only filed her disposition of displeasure upon knowing that she couldn’t tell anyone, Molly especially, it destroyed herself mentally. They couldn’t really go anywhere near the school, always having to lie to everyone about having projects together when Molly wasn’t around them. It’d consisted with 9 PM - 2 AM intervals of being able to actually see each other. Hope would sneak through her small bedroom window with a portable record player and whatever she had gotten from the vintage record store downtown, and Amy would always fall asleep around eleven because of her internal clock. She would always wake up to find a single sticky note stuck on the edge of her desk whenever she woke up to her alarm the next morning. One of them, Amy still had tucked inside of her phone case, a heavily detailed human heart, with blue and red ink sketched onto a neon pink sticky note, there was a caption that headed the small paper reading the phrase over every now and again makes her almost melt every time. “You have my heart.”

yeah idk why the fuck but i thought of this fucking idea again today and i was like "omg did i ever put that heart note thing in a fic???" yeah you fucking did.

all that to say ME AND WHO???? imagine. thats so fucking.... RAHHHH.

#NOT TOH FANFIC #see this is why i write fanfic. to enact some gay ass shit like this. #the fucking STICKY NOTE WITH A DRAWING OF A HUMAN HEART AND SAYING “YOU HAVE MY HEART” I AM ON THE FLOOR. #*sighs* sucks i cant reuse it on lumity though. #my friend making me realize i actually have rizz but am just too much of a disaster to actually understand cues with people #its a MESS. im just all over the place. i literally ranted to THE SAME FRIEND yesterday (or the day before??) abt some girl jesus. #anyway i remember writing A LOT OF POETRY back in hs about this one girl and then the same girl i got to talk to-- #--my first actual conversation with her i blurted out that i wanted to shave my head. she was like.... oooooo god i was A MESS #still slid into her school dms during covid and was like “haha guess what i actually mf did???” anyway all that to say underlying dysphoria #they're nonbinary now too and i kinda ghosted them like a complete idiot :(. its been two years or so but i still think of them... a lot... #actually i have more lore about this person and its like istg they actually really liked me but i could not pick it up. #we had such SUCH good chemistry and vibes. n they were really pretty. ughhhhhh. #anyway yeah idk crushes are weird sometimes. the universe knows how unstoppable id be with a partner #i feel like i was the reason they were able to find themself and their identity because when we were talking i always encouraged them #and told them to do what felt right. im glad they did. i think sometimes that brings me peace. like i served a purpose. #STILL showed them toh. STILL SHOWED THEM TOH. #we were talking about amity LMAO “this green haired girl seems interesting” SHE SO WAS. #...yeah i wish i could text them but i kinda probably fucked it up. #shitposting shit #idk what this post is i just wanted to talk about this dumb sticky note thing because im rotating it in my brain and remembering how #mentally ill i was back in 2020 #talking into the void yk how it isssss

[vcrnons]

man. why was yuta in my dream again

#shut up j #this time he was a cool older guy whose car had broken down and he asked me if I could drive him to work #so I pulled up at his place at 8am and there are like 30 people all dressed UP in these clubbing fits #meanwhile im in my fuckin JIMJAMS AND FUZZY SLIPPERS. #and one of his friends came to my car and was like heyyyy come inside he’s just getting dressed. And I was like :| look at the state of me #hair scraped back. hormonal acne all over the joint. it was BAD but for some reason I did go inside anyway #asked this girl how on earth she looked so good at 8am and she just laughed and shook her head saying I had nothing to worry about #LIKE MAAM I WASNT WORRIED UNTIL NOW WHAT DO YOU M E A N. anyway I get inside and yuta finally comes downstairs and is in a whole suit #pressed trousers white shirt tie jacket. a whole SUIT. and he’s like ‘oh did you bring the Jack Daniels’ and I was like bitch NO GET IN THE #CAR ALR YOURE GONNA BE LATE #also WHAT fuckin jack daniels. ITS 8AM WHY DO YOU NEED WHISKEY #never did find out but 🤷🏻‍♀️ anyway #so then I drove him to work and he was being a menace the whole time. just. making fun of my driving and saying the pyjamas were cute #and then he was like ‘can u pick me up at 5 too? and bring the JD with u. thanks’ kissed my cheek and skedaddled #I don’t know what triggered this I just know im gonna tear down a house over it. I hate him😭😭😭😭 #I DONT KNOW THIS MAN WELL ENOUGH FOR HIM TO BE UP IN MY DREAMS LIKE THIS😭 #can I pls have five minutes peace. good god

[princemick]

#kyle.vent #new tag wow #anyway #uh tw eating disorders #ed tw #all that #okay #cool #like I knew i have been losing weight like i can see n feel that I'm not dumb I'm noticing that im beraly eating n shit n im getting weaker #I know that n it sucks I'm trying to beat it but I'm just not hungry n when i do get food i can never finish it and it sucks ass #but i just weighed myself bc my body dysphoria/morphia combo can still fuck w my brain and i lost like 2 kilos #which isnt a lot but I'm not actively trying n this is the first time in like 6 years I've gone below my goal weight #n like that kinda freaks me out bc thats like 'the goal weight' that I always needed to get to it moved over the years since i was a kid #but i remember that being like the eventual weight that was the minimum for me to be healthy w my height n all that #n this is the first time I'm below it since i first hit it which is like 5 years ago #n its lit 0.7 kilo below but still #kinda freaking out n annoyed abt that #so peace n love lads all fun very good ha ah aha hahahah 😘✌️ #I'm fine btw #just needed to write it out its been stuck in my head n all that

[itspileofgoodthings]

In general I feel I have a certain perspective—wisdom, compassion etc.—that helps keep me sane and balanced especially about other people and right now it is almost completely submerged in waters the origins of which I don’t completely understand. And it’s so painful.

#it’ll come back. I know this #but I hate feeling its lack #i can’t be peaceful about other people without it. i can’t keep my own insecurities in check #it’s all just—pain and fear and doubt #and feeling stupid and small because I’ve lost the vision that lets me see the common humanity to my own experiences #or not lost it. but it’s submerged right now #anyway #i suppose that just means it’s time for the practice of charity and good manners and restraint without an understanding #that makes all of those easier to practice #a chance for the Goudge build from the outside philosophy #which I know is good for me #cries #a n y. w a y.

[nthflower]

I think I am feeling more real today. That's a great feeling. Still not permanent but great.

#derealization is what i experience i think #for almost two years #and sometimes for so little times i feel real #no i feel reality i know i am real i just cant feel reality normally #and now its not like that i am existing also outside of my mind #i feel so good #not a manic good but good good #peaceful #n.