#THE OTHER ONE I RUN AWAY FROM EACH TIME

[whatimdoing-here]

WARRIOR NUN | 1.08-all of S2 | Camila, captain of the ship.

#warrior nun #ava silva #sister beatrics #sister camila #watched 1.08 last night and was like 'OPE' in true midwesterner and then this happened #fun times i can't see like an inch in the middle of my screen vertically because bless my sweet ancient laptop so i missed a misspelling #which i do a lot i just hate when it's not until i'm posting #anyway i'll never be over it though in gifing the last one i was thinking she finally got away from bea BUT SHE DIDN'T WANT TO #all of s2 all those two did was run towards each other #i can't #leave me in my pain #mine #mine: warrior nun

[vimbry]

"nanobots" the song is this deconstructed view of child development and parenthood where it's like, 'wow have you ever thought about how weird producing offspring is. like, it's weird, right! we make these little people and they quickly grow into their own individual personalities with their own lives and autonomy and I've lost all authority and there's so many and you've gotta be responsible for them all the time, what did I do !!!'

but as well as approaching it with this slightly overwhelmed perspective, there's a sort of affectionate optimism in there, too. that even tho the concept's intimidating, there's a sense of wonder in how humans develop and raising them and watching them grow up. hey this kid thing's fun actually, yeah I wish they'd leave me alone sometimes, but look at how cute and resilient they are look at what they can do. and then "replicant" is like jesus parenting a teenager is hard.

#tmbg #it's a tough competition with about 200 songs #but I honestly think ''I turn my back for two minutes and they've grown again'' is one of tmbg's most poignant lyrics #it's not an original sentiment and one that could even be viewed as somewhat sentimental and hokey with a less skilled execution #like what person or piece of art Hasn't expressed the bittersweet experience of feeling a child's growing up too quickly a million times #but there's just something about the way it's slotted into nanobots #nanobots is honestly cute. and I don't mean that in a reductive ''cutesy'' way I mean as a good thing it's just genuinely very adorable #from a band whose music is a lot of things but you wouldn't typically describe as ''adorable'' #I think it's because their songs so often Don't carry this sort of tone that it works in the same way ''another first kiss'' does #there's an uncountable amount of lovesongs in the world. like. THE most popular theme. what can you say that hasn't already been expressed #but lines like ''we've run out of things to say. and we'll be happy any way'' and ''grabs my coat to walk away'' #are just such beautifully deceptively simplistic ways to express the mundanity of a healthy relationship #they like each other's company still after all these years and they share their clothes waaah #anyway to get back on topic I love nanobots much for the same reasons as ''I love you for psychological reasons'' and ''mammal'' lmao #myautismhasnothingtodowiththis.jpg

[padfootastic]

in a turn of events that doesn’t surprise anyone im sure, @impishtubist has caused yet another scene to be stuck in my head until i wrote it down. so, have some sexy, greying sirius; a deeply thirsty, appreciative james who won’t let him dye it; and a very-fed-up-of-his-parents-antics harry for prongsfoot wednesday!

x

Harry entered the house with ‘I’m home!’ on his lips that died an instant death as soon as he registered what he was seeing.

“Er,” he hesitated. Does he really want to—? One more look at the scene in front of him and he decided to bite the bullet. Better to clear the air now than keep stewing on it later.

“Um. Is this a—kink? A fetish? Should I leave and never come back?”

In any other scenario, the way both his parents froze and looked at him with wide eyes would’ve been comical.

If only Dad wasn’t straddling his Papa on the ground, one of his hands holding both of Papa’s above him with disturbing ease.

“Er—“

“It’s not what it looks like, Haz!” Dad yelped, cutting across Papa who’s face and neck were turning a steady pink. “I swear.”

“Then why are you still—like that?” Harry asked, deciding to play it safe and look at the boring grey couch in the living room instead. Nothing scandalous going on there.

He could hear the scrambling of feet, a few thumps, and a mini-yelp, absently wondering about the amount of noise the simple act of getting up could produce.

“Right.” Dad cleared his throat. “So, Harry, would you please tell your Papa that he is, under no circumstances, allowed to dye his hair?”

Harry blinks, turning to his other, exasperated, father in silent question.

“Harry, will you please tell your Dad that this is my hair and I can do with it as I please?”

“Not when you promised yourself to me!” Dad yelps and Harry is hit with an intense wave of regret at instigating this.

“Promised—?”

“Yes! Our wedding, you said, and I quote, ‘I give myself to you, James Potter, mind, body and soul’, don’t tell me you forgot.”

“Of course I didn’t forget,” Papa throws his hands up in the air. “But c’mon James—this is not what I meant when I said body!”

“What, you think I only wanted you for that ars—“

“Dad!” Harry, yelps, mortified. He can feel his cheeks heating in a violent blush. He can feel a similar flush creeping up Papa’s neck. Sadly, his words don’t have the deterring effect he’d intended.

“I mean, it is spectacular, don’t get me wrong, but you’re more than just a beautiful body, Si!”

“James, please, have some mercy for our child, if not me,” Papa says. Thankfully, this seems to register as Dad’s eye widened, part horror and part apology. Harry waves it away tiredly; though he’s no less embarrassed every time it happens, growing up in the Potter household with two extremely affectionate parents has exposed him to much worse. He’s accepted it as his lot in life.

“Er—yeah, anyway,” he coughs, ruffling his hair, “Bottom line—Sirius isn’t allowed to dye his hair.”

“I literally never agreed to that.”

“Too bad because you will,” Dad says, slowly moving towards Papa with a look on his face that Harry is loath to describe as predatory. If only it wasn’t so true.

“Oh?” Papa’s left eyebrow rises extraordinarily high, as it tends to do quite often. He crosses his arms over his chest in challenge. The motion makes his Dad smile.

“Mhm.” The two of them are chest-to-chest by this point, staring into each other’s eyes. Harry could probably conduct a whole rave party right here, right then, and they wouldn’t even notice. That is when he decides it’s high time he should step in—not literally, Merlin, no—before they end up doing something that makes him try to run away (again).

“So I was right—it is a kink,” Harry says dryly, once again regretting starting this entire conversation in the first place. He should’ve just turned back around and gone to the Weasleys instead.

“Harry, no—“

x

Three years later, Harry—who’s almost blissfully forgotten about the entire incident—walks into his parents’ house to an almost identical scene, just with his Papa on top this time. This time, he makes the sensible choice he still regrets not making all those years ago, and walks right back out the door.

Let those two sort it out on their own. Merlin knows his intervention hadn’t helped a bit the last time around.

#sirius black #james potter #prongsfoot wednesday #bambibelle #prongsfoot #harry potter #not one person far has the ability to make me write on command like miss imp #it’s absolutely ridiculous (i love every second of it) #which reminds me #my sentient black tapestry fic is still in the drafts 😭😭😭 #(yes there is a reference to harry running away from home bc he saw his parents kiss each other—and more—one too many times) #i just think the idea is exceedingly funny hehehe #little harry packing a backpack and running away to the weasleys #or hell. teen harry walking in & out of the house and not being found for the next day and a half bc he saw them snogging #also just want it to be known that i was giggling so much while writing amorous j/s and traumatised harry #bc it’s all jokes anyway. harry lowkey adores how in love his dads are. wants the same for himself #boys got HIGH standards #as he should #bc his parents aren’t gonna allow anyone but the best for their son #also SPOILER ALERT: sirius obviously loses. james employs some *creative persuasion* a box of dye never entered their house after that #pen’s writing #tumblr works

[von-karmas-a-bitch]

me, playing tgaa1: ok so this stronghart guy is obviously evil-

stronghart: london is the centre of the modern world. objectively best city. we have AAAAALL the cool technology you WISH you had our technology and public transport don't you ohhhh you wanna be a londoner so bad aren't you jealous of our trams

me, a rural english bitch and certified london hater: well now it's personal. it is on like donkey kong. i am going to have so much fun obliterating this man.

#words cannot describe. my seething hatred. for london. and everything it represents. #they steal like 99% of the resources and infrastructure meant for the rest of the country and for what #to have a public transport system that is so overly punctual that it's hostile to human life?? #no i don't want your stupid trams. but an hourly bus that actually shows up on time or at all would be nice #london bus driver who closed the doors on my sister while she was in the doorway on purpose #bc you were mad that my sister knew you were gonna not let me on so she stood in the doorway to protect me #from getting stuck alone in my personal hell for the crime of needing a second to get my debit card out #all because heaven forbid you be 0.0000002 milliseconds behind schedule #and be humiliated by showing up at the same time as the 3:04pm bus when you're the 3:03pm bus #because londoners are that fucking privileged i guess #oh london bus driver how i loathe you #don't even get me started on london underground don't get me STARTED #every time i am offered to go see a musical or whatever but i have to make my way there alone without someone else to help me #i decline. i have to. me + london = recipe for disaster. i am not navigating that shit alone absolutely not #i only did that once when i was running away/being kicked out (it's complicated) and had no choice but to do it to get to my grandma's #(which is why i lived near london for a few years bc i went to live with my grandma) #and like. i barely made it. bc why are there two stations with the same name right near each other #and why is the international one the one i have to go to even though it's supposed to be for when you're like #going through the channel tunnel to france or whatever #st pancras international train station i hope you explode #with the rest of london #i am going to look at a map of england really hard so i can explode london with my mind #anyways haha oopsie time to tag this ''properly'' #text post #mael stronghart #sophia's soliloquies #tgaac

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: February 20

“Run Away” by Sarah Jarosz

#song of the day #I just woke up from my nap and I think I'm going to go back to sleep and try to have this be my night's sleep actually #it'll put my 'morning' at between three and four most likely but that's better than going to sleep at sunrise #considering I still have work from nine to five #so this is a very oddly placed song of the day but I'm rolling with it. time is fake and this is a self-run project #I don't know much Sarah Jarosz but she's got a lovely voice. maybe I should look up more of her music #heard this song for the first time just before I went to sleep and now I've woken up humming it #don't know most of the words yet but I know there's something about a heart #something something 'creatures of the night / set each other free / run away with me' and then into the chorus #lovely lovely sound on that chorus something like #'hold me tight / don't let me go / sweet and soft / no one will know / we can run away' #don't quote me on these lyrics I've heard it once and I'm half asleep but do believe me when I say it's very pretty #gonna be a good song to sing to the bread once I get the words down

[dykedivorce]

if any other bitch in konoha had been gay apart from sasuke none of this would have happened to my son naruto.

#pussy from the turbotron edgelord 3000 and his whole life went up in flame. NOT worth it #no but fr it's insane how he bamboozled every fan into thinking he was so interesting and cool and badass when . #at the point im at in shippuden hes by far the least interesting of the main characters. one track mind (vengeance) and no depth beyond that #like the other characters rn : sakura coming in to her own ; finding her path and her strength + sharing a connection so deep with naruto #over their common loss that they both just Know although they absolutely cant talk about it #yamato: the only survivor of orochimaru's monstrous experiments on children; kakashi's stand in thats so different from kakashi #it makes you wonder what it would have been like with him as their teacher from the start; #a mystery thats clearly trying his best but whose mission truly is A Lot #SAI: A BRAINWASHED SPY A PAWN FOR A SECRET ORGANISATION WHO CLINGS TO HIS HUMANITY NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES HES BEEN PUNISHED FOR IT #WHO FELL IN LOVE WITH NARUTO FOR MAKING HIM REALIZE HOW DEEP THINGS COULD BE FELT AND HOW DEEP RELATIONSHIPS COULD RUN #WHO HAS BEEN DRAWING A BOOK FOR HIS DEAD BROTHER FOR YEARS EVEN IF HE'S FORGOTTEN WHAT HIS BROTHER LOOKS LIKE #WHO DECIDED TO SPARE SASUKE BECAUSE HE'S LOVED. WHO JUST WANTS TO LEARN HOW TO LIVE A HUMAN LIFE. #MOST AUTISTIC CODED CHARACTER OF ALL TIMES HAS NEVER SUCCESSFULLY MASKED A DAY IN HIS LIFE. #sasuke: sasuke #anyway. im not touching on naruto because i could be here for days #BUT while sasuke on his own so far is very whatever. the narusasu dynamic is truly one for the ages #bc i just saw the ep where sasuke manages to see kyuubi inside naruto and wooshes him away and it's very like. #oh so hes literally seeing naruto's demons and banishing them even as hes telling naruto they dont matter to each other anymore. #oh ok cool cool cool cool this feels normal and not something to obsess over #jesus christ why am i typing all this. who here cares #naruto thoughts

[cryptidafter]

anyone that calls LXC 'boring' hasn't listened to the audio drama bc that man can be SAUCY when he wants

#relistening to some of the extras and the pure annoyance that radiates from him at times is delicious lol #just bc he's kind and diplomatic doesn't mean he isn't tearing people to shreds in his mind #running a sect is not easy or fun #let him run off and have adventures with the love of his life too #I seriously have been thinking about xiyao nighthunting together so much lately #the one time they both get to relax and enjoy each others company away from all the stress and drama #i'm not very good at writing fluff but I might take a crack at something soon #bc my brain has been gnawing on this for weeks lol #cryptid’s thoughts

[flamboyant-king]

We saw the beginning, now I be thinking about all the possible...uhh the word is like aftermath...epilogues? Seeing as the narrative will be left open ended, we can hypothesize and fantasize just about anything!

This one is Harvey carrying on with what he idealized as a normal life, getting married, having kids, going out with the boys, stuff you see on TV. But Cammy is still there, still a part of his life. And that's pretty neat. And also I cry.

#i went on a spree yesterday with a bunch of aftermathematics that made me cry myself to sleep #because no matter what. every single end. cammy will outlive harvey. every thing in between can be different #cammy leaving. cammy staying. reluctance. romance. etc etc. cammy will live on without harvey. and it will hurt them. a lot. #it hurts me a lot. im still crying over 'thank you for keeping me in your life' #cammy could be living in the garden until the very end. either of harveys life. or the tree they took care ofs life. #maybe cammy leaves but visits from time to time. or maybe they visit right before harvey kicks the bucket #who knows! thinking about anything past the narrative makes me cry #because we dont see that in media. we always get the good ending but that is never the end. what happens afterwards? #cause grow as we go's narrative ends after harvey finally reunites with his family in the philippines and decides #i want to stay at my house and take care of my garden. ill be sure to visit every year from now on. #and the credits would roll as him and cammy travel back. on the plane. the taxi ride. harvey getting the key in the door. #harvey putting cammy in the little makeshift bed he made. and him looking out the window of his room down at the garden. him smiling #and then it says end. thank you for watching. this took fourty two years to make oopsie whoops #god i go on long rants when its late. anywho compare to last time i made a possible ending #cammy reluctantly leaving as they both start to fall in love with each other #cammy willingly running away knowing harvey will heal from this and move on and be normal #this one here theres no leaving. there is no normal. its just living dude #grow as we go #sketches #harvey #camellia

[fourteenthz]

balthier.... the girl almost died balthier. come on get it together man.

#this is also a call out for ME I was crying before this scene but then she was fine and balthier said that #and I switched SO FAST to giggling. he can't keep fran out of his mind. insane. get a room. or not I don't mind. who said that #this one goes to the the list of “fran hasn't said shit but balthier insists in including/complimenting/teasing her in the conversation” #for a character that talks so much he talks a lot more about her than I expected like not being prompted AT ALL #it's so cute she think's fran is foolhardy... you'd expect he would be the most reckless of the two of them but thinking abt it hes actuall #so paranoid with some stuff... makes sense why he would think her to be reckless. #maybe he was just talking abt running away from the forest but I mean he IS a sky pirate. he isn't home anymore wherever that place might b #so I don't think he would think running away is wild so idk. cute. everytime he talks abt her to others when fran is like RIGHT THERE #I get all sort of emotions. giggles. they mean so much to me. #also for more updates: i'm more obsessed with fran's VA by the day. the voice crack on “I fear.. I fear She hates” and the tone of #“a pleasant lie that.” just. man. #actually there is so much to be said about the whole “the wood is jealous of the humes who have taken you” “I am as them now” but I truly #think I got to sleep on that one to have any coherent thoughts. it's always easier talking about ships than like emotional moments like thi #but I just... man. the whole viera notion of not being part of the wood anymore is nice BUT fran saying she is part of them now? BETTER. #jote says the world with disgust but it just doesn't feel like that for fran. not of the world outside the woods but it feels so heavy how #she talks about her path being cut away from her. remember like one day ago lol when I said her and balthier have the "we've been together #for a long time“ + ”we only have had each other for a long time“? yeah. seeing her saying ”this solitude you want?“ to convince mjrn but #having her turn back and have balthier and vaan waiting her (and everyone else further back) is just....... hmmm..... them. #so obsessed about how balthier waits her longer than even vaan. he didn't talk to the vieras he was just there. and he was the last to leav #i'm putting a screenshot of that scene under read more also just bc man.................................................... family :) #also them being married but :)) family :)) #“goodbye sister” turns around and walks away with them....... MAN. HEAD IN HANDS. #I'll never stop praising xii writers with how they made fran shine so much even being like supposedly a sidekick quiet character. just. MAN #I too am just like balthier and can't keep myself from speaking about her SO JUST BC OF THAT he can brag all he want's. I would too. #kelly plays xii #kelly says #last update today I swear sorry I'm too loud again they just YOU KNOW THE LINE (make me insane) #giving myself one week to change my pfp to her. AUGHSH

[united-under-skyfall]

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#i think one thing i really didn't prepare for w overnights is just how fucking lonely it is. like yeah 80% of the reason i took it was to #get away from customers but like. it worked. and the night shift team is v v small. there's only 4 of us and we've never been scheduled all #at once yet. and usually we're running around on completely opposite ends of the building going long periods of time without #radioing each other. and then i come home all amped up and the rest of my house is still asleep. and then when they wake up #it's just to get ready and go and we don't really have time to talk. and by the time they get back i'm sleeping #and it's my first night off and i can't fuck up my whole schedule i worked so hard to switch over to w them flipping me all over the place #so now i'm just like. sitting in the half light trying not to wake anybody up not doing anything. the only places near us open are #gas stations and i can't exactly loiter there and what would i do even if i could. and it's too cold to go for a walk or to the park #or something. and i feel like i haven't talked to another human being about something that wasn't related to work in years #and it's only been a week. #and we can listen to music or podcasts or something but our carts and machines are so loud you miss half of it. and we can't hold #super long conversations when we ARE in the same room for the same reasons. plus we all want to die so none of us feel like talking. #and just. im tired and lonely and want to sleep and im already regretting this but i'd feel bad for backing out now when they have so #few options and i volunteered for it in the first place #and then there's also like. even just doing my usual solitary thing at home feels so much more isolated bc there's not the noises #of other people existing nearby. the nearest signs of life are some coughing and then a car on the other side of the block #just. what am i even doing here. #tag ramble

[captainsjack]

listen jack and the doctor are narrative parallels but i don’t have the words to explain it right now

#i will. come back to this #something something both are souls destined for a lonely forever. forever running from happiness and to it at the same time #souls thousands/millions of years old pushing those away who dare try to love them. because they know in the end they will be the ones left #behind. finding happiness in the smallest moments while running from loneliness. #the only two people in the universe who can understand each other. #the only two people in the universe who’s chance at eternal happiness is with each other #but they have both faced so much loss that they push the other away . they push their happy ending away because that’s what they’re used to #they’ve both resigned themselves to the fact that immortality is forever lonely #something something how jack knows this and calls the doctor ‘one like himself #but how that’s a paradox in itself because the doctor does not know it is jack himself saying it #because he is met with the face of boes death not knowing who he is. #how jacks final moments are with someone he knows and loves but who does not know and love him #the one person who he could have a happy ending with is the one who he spends his last moments with as a stranger #hhhnnnnnngggggggg. i have thoughts. #doctor who #doctor/jack #captain jack harkness #*

[baezdylan]

Some more comparisons that I genuinely lost sleep over last night...

mHmHmhMhm and after this Heathcliff's forehead is described as "shaded with a heavy cloud" -> Eleven literally living on a cloud after Amy's departure... also the fact that Wuthering Heights is written as a story within a story (actually... concentric circles is more like it), Lockwood perpetuating Nelly's perspective in his diary. (reminiscent of Amy's books reaching into the present, similarly to how we as readers get to experience Emily Brönte today) -> "we are all stories in the end"

And... here's what I've lost sleep over:

This should be illegal. ALL of it.

#💌restless wind inside a letter box💌 #amy pond unrelated media universe #wuthering heights #amy pond 🌻 #amy x eleven #doctor who #dw the most show ever #everything that i highlighted is from chapter XXIX i think? after edgar's funeral #obviously heathcliff and 11 don't resemble each other physically but you get the point :( #especially considering the way that topic is explored with 12 later on #and those first two passages come one right after the other which is making me 😵💫 #i shouldn't have reread this nonononono i did it last summer too without these two in mind it's WORSE now #+ i had to rewatch THAT scene from time of the doctor again to take screenshots #i feel ill i am tearing up #platonic romance: beautiful & world ending #platonic romance: some people stay some are born to run away #platonic romance: i think i made you up inside my head #platonic romance: you said i killed you; haunt me then!

[dragpinkman]

had to scream and spray at someones off leash dog today and hold in the urge to yell "none of you deserve dogs"

#i fucking hate the group of people at the dog park i try to walk when they arent there but i dont always know #they have a bunch of untrained dogs constantly fighting each other that they never correct and let bark at everyone who passes #today one of them arrived late ig and let their off leash dog just run out of the car barking heading straight for my dogs face #i screamed “HEY. LEAVE IT” full deep volume at the dog and it ran off the trail startled so i start speed walking my dog and i out of the #area and the dog comes back less aggressive this time but still im not letting them sniff especially in a situation that started off #aggressive on that dogs part and as the other dogs in the fenced area are barking so i spray him #he runs away comes back spray 2 more times then he leaves us alone #(the spray is water mixed with a bit of bitter apple dog chewing spray like the stuff to deter dogs from chewing on furniture. its #fine to ingest & breaks the dogs concentration even if u just spray it on their back and not at their mouth if theyre trying to bite/bark) #if you were wondering what the dogs owner was doing- he was standing doing nothing attempted twice to recall his obviously untrained dog #then gave up and stood there. and the 8 other people in the fenced in area were doing nothing too to even call their dogs down. not even #trying. ive literally seem the dogs in the dog park start attacking each others necks when another dog walks by and the only time the #owners have stopped talking to each other and done barely any corrections was when one small dog was screaming for help #i genuinely hate those people and their lack of respect for their dogs and everyone elses #he could've atleast grabbed his dog or something. this would've never happened if he leashed his dog instead of doing what all of the #owners do and leave and enter the dog park with no leash sometimes no collar with untrained aggressive dogs

[bytebun]

ok i need to. rethink my dnd campaign plans because my players’ characters are so stupid (NOT MY PLAYERS! THE CHARACTERS!) that today they managed to fail every single investigations check/roll that would have revealed any of the intrigue & worldbuilding. every. single. one

#in retrospect they also failed these last session. which is. #this is a team of himbos #actually ok we are use the see you space cowboy ttrpg not dnd i just say dnd as a shorthand #and their brain stats aren't even BAD like it's not anybody's BEST skill #but it's second best for two people #and somehow they are. not even partial success (like 50% chance AND they have rerolls if they've previously failed). all failures #orz #on the other hand they managed to completely curbstomp a. well it wasn't a hard fight but it wasn't supposed to be that easy LMAO #while not intending to fight but rather run the fuck away #they failed their running away rolls like 4 times and so just had to retaliate to being attacked #they took out each opponent in ONE ATTACK #meme abt 'guy crying and screaming but he's obviously winning the fight' #anyways the combat was probably the most successful scene so far in terms of player engagement which is GREAT but also profoundly funny #because they were in way less danger than they thought they were. you can't even die in this game #new thing learnt abt my players: they are cowards when it comes to the health & livelihoods of their characters #which is very good that's a fantastic trait for getting them attached to & embodying their characters and means i don't need to curb overly #risky behaviour that doesn't make sense in the story context #but also means. i need to kinda railroad them into not running away from every noise in the dark lmaooooo #bytebun rambles #high moon