Still cant believe a fucking terf is in fallout fandom intecacting with trans creators and drawing her ugly stereotypical twink transmasc character. You should be ashamed
What is even happening to my inbox anymore. Idk if it's the same person that asked about Sharky or not, but it really makes me uncomfortable.
I don't know where the TERF stuff even come from, but I'm very open with my political views and yeah, I was a radfem in 2019 or something. I also was a very vulnerable sad russian teenager. I know not a lot of people on tumblr aware of all the intricacies of russian internet scene, but I assume you, anon, have some knowledge, because you called me a TERF in the first place.
There's an internet phenomenon called "alt-right pipeline" and I fell in the simular thing called "TERF pipeline". This shit is inevitable for every single afab person that speaks russian. It's a really big thing. I don't say it's an excuse to be a bigot, but I was 12 when i first touched the internet. I was insecure, very fucking poor and spiteful. Also I had and (still have) some hormone problems and was generally a pretty ugly girl so coped with it by drawing ponies and hating on elusive and mysterious "men in skirts" these smart twitter girlies always talked about.
To be perfectly honest, I genuinely don't understand what russian TERFs are fighting for or against, I was in this shit for solid few years and still have no idea. I mean, now it's illegal to be transgender in Russia (a real law), but it wasn't a win for these angry teenage girls, it was a win for genocidal bigoted russian government, the same one that legalized domestic violence (also a law. its officially not a real crime in this country). I went off the topic and started ranting about my frustrations with the government again FUCK 😭
I tried to say that russian internet is genuinely a fucked up place, but I lived in the middle of Siberia in a village, ideologically only had my orthodox grandma, racist older brother and TERFs on the internet. I only started to learn english a few years ago, so i didn't have enough options before that. Or, to better words, didn't have enough knowledge to be a better person.
I'm really really and sincerely fucking sorry for that. Like, truly. It was really fucked up and I'm ashamed of stuff I said and supported blindly. I now have resources and have some media literacy in my disposal and basic understanding of english to educate myself about the topics I'm talking about. I'm trying my hardest to show support and love to all my queer friends and mutuals, and as an artist I do all I can to be inclusive, not because I feel the need to, but because I want to.
I have no right to speak about trans people and their issues and I won't. I don't know if Sharky is as bad as anon described, because I'm biased (this is my character after all) and not educated enough to acknowledge all the stereotypes associated with transmasculinity. I would really enjoy to hear opinions of my fellow transmen. To address some of my choices regarding his design and writing:
- He wears pink, because it's a quirky color that doesn't show up much in Fallout. Never meant to de-masculate him or to ridicule him. It's my favorite color, after red and brown, which are the primary colors of Wendy.
- He has a silly personality and a carefree attitude because 1) I'm projecting and 2) Wendy needed a character to balance out her awkward and moody autism
- He's a girl's boy and has wives. I didn't have the reason to make him not like girls. I wanted him to be an example of positive masculinity and solidarity. He is a straight dude who loves women. Not just sexually attracted to them or sees them as pets. They are his partners. With their own personalities and lives. Also I wanted to make a full circle 😭😭😭 I'm asexual and bi-romantic. I like boys, girls, all between and beyond boys and girls and don't really think sex is a big thing for me. Aletus likes boys, Sharky likes girls and Wendy likes when there's no sex. Pretty simple, I think.
Hope this explains why Sharky is the way he is. Would still really appreciate an opinion from a trans person. Or any kind of feedback really, because I've been feeling really fucking bad lately and can't objectively reflect on my choices. Also more questions about my OCs are very much welcome. There's a lot of stuff that made me feel like I've been misiforming people, including this anonymous message, and I will specify anything you want to know. Thank you all a lot.
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Random stuff that literally happened to me today
Character on a t-fic: *says the most criminal tease to ever exist*
Me, internally: FIGHT ME COME HERE AND FIGHT ME RN COME ON LET'S GO LET'S GO IF I SEE YOU WALKING ON THE STREET IT WILL BE ON SIGHT I WILL *G E T* YOU COME HERE COME HERE
Suddenly a heavy something falls on my rooftop
Me, automatically: :)) :) :)))) :) *get up and closes my window* :)) :) what a nice night
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hi, it's the anxious y3 anon, long time no see! i really enjoyed your minedai art the you posted the other day, even though you mentioned you weren't a fan. i really like the way daigo is a bit dishevelled and totally enjoying himself and mine is still neat and collected and tense while obliviously quite flustered! i think it turned out wonderfully and in character for both of them <3 what i'm not enjoying is y3 lol. rgg really said we're going to give you one of the most interesting antagonists in the series but suck out all the fun from the game with broken physics and annoying random encounters while making it the most half assed remastered port you have ever played. you might disagree but i had to put it out there somewhere. sorry it had to be your inbox lol. anyway! i really wanna know if y4 and y5 are gonna have the same issues just to prepare myself and mb take a longer break before i go there
howdy hey AY3 anon long time no ask :] thank you for enjoyin the art, im glad you were able to appreciate the lil details bout it that i put in 🤭
and yeah. that's the common complaint for Y3 LMAO IM TELLING YOU DUDE JUST GRAB GUNS AND YOU'RE SET. if not uhhh just learn to grab ig- it doesnt work for every enemy but it'll work for the most troublesome ones. the random encounters ARE annoying tho, esp cause of the mini dialogue segment that happens every time. poor mine's trapped behind a frustrating game </3
if it's any consolidation, Y4 and Y5 don't have anywhere near as much of an issue with combat as Y3 colloquially does, so im sure you'll have a more fun time playin those two when you get to them :)
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Bruh avatar men when they hiss is just HOOOT. Just imagine our dilf man jake hissing at human fem reader, when he’s pissed that she almost hurt herself in the war. But then snuggles her in his chest when she got scared of him. ❤️❤️❤️
anon your brain be very very big <3333
Jake was honestly fuming as he landed his ikran back at base in the Hallelujah Mountains. You were so good at sticking to the plan and following through for Jake, but just this one time you decided to go rogue. What you did was honestly impressive, but he was too angry to acknowledge that. You took down two armored trucks with just a bow and arrow all by yourself with no help of an avatar or Na'vi. You could've easily gotten killed. Now here you are cheering with Norm and other avatars on your achievement.
Jake's nose scrunched in anger as he gritted his teeth and marched forward to the group. This caused the group to disband as they spotted the angry Olo'eyktan approached and you turn to him, still ignorant to his anger.
"Jake! Did you see that?" You beamed and jumped up in down, your fingers clutching the bow that Jake carved for you himself.
Jake, bless him, tried to keep his cool and gripped your chin, "are you hurt?" He asked curtly as he examined you.
You giggle at the attention and playfully push his hand off of your chin, "Jake, really I'm fine. Just a couple of scratches. It's no big--" You couldn't finish your sentence.
Jake hissed. All his frustration leaving with that hiss and his tail flicked back and forth in annoyance. It truly startled you causing you to take a step back and tears to well up in your eyes. Jake has been mildly annoyed with you before, but he has never hissed at you.
"It's no big deal?" Jake raised his voice and continued, "you could've been killed, 'ya hear?"
"I had it under control." You tried to keep your voice steady and grip your bow tighter.
"Baby, you are human! When you do something like that you gotta ask for someone's help or clear it through me, you understand?" Jake put his hand on his hips as he spoke and his eyes just bore through yours.
"Yes sir." You whimpered as the tears started to free flow for your eyes.
Jake's ears and tail dip down as he watched you cry. His heart sank to his stomach. He didn't mean to make you cry. "Oh, sweetheart."
Jake reached down and picked you up bridal style. He moved to a more private area behind some rocks to avoid any unwanted attention from avatar and Na'vi alike. He sat down with his legs crossed and placed you in his lap, moving your bow to the ground beside him. His large hands cupped your face and his thumbs grazed against the glass of your mask, desperately wanting to rub the tears that was smudging your blue paint away.
"I'm sorry, sweet girl." Jake mumbled and kissed your head before pushing it into his chest.
You sniffle and shift to make yourself comfortable, "you've never hissed at me before." You spoke quietly.
"I know, baby. You scared me real bad today." His fingers gently smooth down your wild, war-ridden hair.
There was a moment of silence as he comforted you.
"It was still pretty kick ass of me though." You added.
"Baby." Jake looked down at you with a stern look.
"Come on, admit it!" You push two fingers into his chest as you teased.
Jake grumbled and looked away from you, "the look at that guy's face was priceless." He shamefully admitted.
"I told you!" You giggled and reach up, pressing a finger lightly against the tip of his nose. "Cheer up, old man." You teased again.
"Old man?" Jake nearly gasped and his ears flickered, "oh, you're so in trouble now."
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