#also job stuff is all okay again!!

[leenfiend]

what’s ur type first < prev next > full comic

#sorry for everyone who’s been reblogging the full comic post and thinks it’s over im cursing you with more #im still only like … 3k into this 10k fic #and i haven’t finished editing it still #whomp whomp #also job stuff is all okay again!! #in case u were curious about the ongoings of my life #Klance #vld #my art #what’s ur type #wut

[drev-the-procrastinator]

love waking up to my mom giving me an ultimatum and ordering that i have to give up my (admittedly expensive) apartment 1n 2 weeks and move back home for good. i had stuff to do today but i guess being gripped by dread and anxiety works too

#i had been thinking about moving to a smaller one too. but now she's ordering me to do that #and expects me to move back home #when my university and all of my two friends are in the city. #and i have TWO WEEKS to live here if she wants me to move before summer because i have to go back home anyway in early may #for my summer job. #like sure i wouldve understood like a hey. my child. your financial situation is oretty tough so i have some suggestions that could help #but she was like okay here's whay you do: option a) [something i couldnt do before fall] b) find a cheaper apartment and live in two weeks #c) move home for good and commute over an hour any day you have university stuff to do and also essentially lose access to your #friends and all and any independence you have managed to cobble together so i can treat you like a child and yeall at you #the last part wasnt included but it's what she does anyways so i assume it's part of the deal #then i would have to commute or drive an hour any time i wanted to see either of my friends. after every summer im already #tired and desperate to come back to my apartment to get to be on my own. and now she's saying i have to never do that again #and here's the fuckin thing. her husband is planning on fixing my car. my mom pays my phone bill. i know what a loser i am whatever. #she actually owns my dogs and my childhood home. i cannot. piss her ofd too much. because then i'll lose all of those #phone. whatever i can get a new one. car. slightly more heartbrwakin but like i still own it. but the house? #my dogs?? i think i would rather die atm if im being honest #so what the fuck am i supposed to do. huh. #maybe i should just walk into the sea foe good i feel like that would just so neatly solve all of my problems

[stillcominback]

hey friends!! just wanted to share the mini TWD inspired drop i’m adding to my shop this afternoon @ 3PM PST! 🧟❤️💫 i mean who would i be if my new small shop didn’t have SOMETHING for rick or richonne in it??? it’s currently planned to be a limited run until 4/8 (if it’s popular we may keep it up, but if there’s anything you like, i would grab it this week)!

just wanted to share with my friends here! i’m still struggling to find any full-time or freelance work so, i’m really trying to work on this little shop and earn some extra $$$ that i could really use. any support is greatly appreciated!! ❤️❤️❤️ ( IG / website )

#** NO LONGER IN OUR SHOP BUT IF PPL WANT THEM BACK … MAYBE IN FUTURE! ** #(sadly we only ship in the US for the moment so apologies to my international friends 🥺🫶 #unless you have a US friend who can ship stuff to you — i only say because my best friend in the UK uses me as her little US mailbox 😂) #but aside from shopping literally ANY and ALL support means the world to me!! #engaging on our ig (whether it’s comments or likes or shares etc) #spreading the word #and literally just kind words and all the lovely feedback i’ve gotten is so special to me 🥹💕 #losing my job and having such a hard time finding work has been kinda crushing to my confidence #so getting to channel creativity into this shop has me feeling excited and hopeful again #(but also if anyone needs any freelance work/customs or knows anyone I’d appreciate throwing my name out there!) #okay back to the regularly scheduled rick and michonne screaming #💖💖💖💖💖💖 #00. // OUT OF AMMO ( OOC POST. )

[studiousbotanist]

#does a bear blog in the woods #just phantom period stuff fuckingbw my brain chem i think is whats going on this week ! #i knew the new tfb would rip emotions outta me but im messed uppppp . #ive been single the longest ive been in a Long Time now ... #theres good and bad . theres so much cooking in my head from these few months #dealint with grief . bad job . good job now #and still working on getting my life and health togethwr #and im really trying to craft and make shit again . its So necessary for your soul and ive been neglecting #tabletop has helped so much and roleplay will too qhen i get into it #in the mean time though . im LONELY !! im in a mood where being by myself is Torrrtureeee . butnive also been overstimmed ! #i was very somber earlier cuz i jusf did Not have rhe energy to be up and do shit ..wjich is why i called out #but was just thinking the thing i miss most abt a relationship is always having some1 to hang out w or be around #especially physical side cause i am very physically affectionate !!! and tryin to get back to it . #its been hard cus of well ...trauma and also the pandemic . overthinking . itd help if i cried i think #i coulsve put this all ina read more ..too late now LOL ! #i just want to word vomit . been stuck in a bad nasty rude to myself feedback loop abt NOT venting and NEEDING to reach out directly #but good gd its difficult when we are All exhausted . and when i judt Need the vocal speak vs typing #if u read all this mess thank you LOL . ill be okay . ive got to let myself feel this

[rosicheeks]

i am a little worried about you Princess. are you ok?

#I’m doing….. okay?????? #I love my new job so that’s great #I get to be with puppies all day #have to do a lot of cleaning but they are worth it 🫶 #but my depression and anxiety have been baaaaaaad lately #I have a few ideas why my depression has been rough lately #but that doesn’t make it any easier #I want to work and be with dogs all day every day but I can’t work thaaaat much (only part time) #also it doesn’t pay amazingly unfortunately so I’ll probably have to find another job on top of it #especially with my 26th birthday coming A LOT faster than I’d like #I’ve had to do a lot of cleaning and packing which is completely fair since my parents want to have people over for the holidays #totally totally fair #but it’s also sad cause I have to box up a lot of my stuff/hobbies #like I boxed up practically all of my painting stuff since idk when I’ll be able to do that again #my room is jam packed with shit so I’ve only been home to sleep #spend the rest of the time in the car but it’s not really mine so I can’t smoke in here so half of the time I fall asleep #idk idk idk I just feel like I’m complaining all the damn time so I’m trying to shut up and keep it to myself a bit #it’s just the same thing over and over again and nothing is gonna change unless I move #and that’s incredibly unrealistic right now #also I’m worried about my dad more and more each day so that doesn’t help #I want to do something with him or for him but our relationship hasn’t been the best and idk how to fix it #and I’m terrified something is going to happen and I won’t be able to #oooofda that was a lot #and that was only a little bit of what’s going on #but at least I have a job now so that’s cool haha #sometime I’ll have to show you guys some puppy pics I have so many now haha #thanks for checking in lovely #I hope you’ve been doing ok 🫶 #ask

[biracy]

Tbh I should probably take a break. I almost definitely won't but I should, yknow

#idk i don't have much 'real stuff' happening irl besides like. job hunting and college applications. so it's hard #but i think if i at least ease off some time on here n read a little more n watch more movies i might start to feel better #haven't really liked where my head's been at lately it feels like whatever persona is The One Who Blogs is 'taking over' more #to put it in a very dorky comic book-sounding ass way LMAO but that's how i feel! like i'm losing my own 'voice' yknow #my mental health is Bad my physical health is also Not Great n i kinda feel like ass. if i'm being honest #idk i feel like i'm crashing from whatever high i've been on for the past couple of days n i'm not Really super happy w myself #except the media literacy posts those were good. but like the more discoursey stuff i'm not proud of #again sorry to like. publicly vent LMAO i'll be fine i'm good. i'm trying really hard to pull myself out of this #but again. sorry abt the Shite i was posting earlier today i wasn't really in my own right head #just kinda wanted 2 get all that off my chest idk if it's clear that i don't really have anyone i feel like i can talk to right this moment #i'm very socially isolated irl and i'm so scared of becoming socially isolated online too just bc i'm an idiot who doesn't think b4 he post #NOT to make it sound all about me or whatever but it's true. i'm very very scared of losing people n right now this is My Space #i'd forgotten just how bad it felt. in this Specific case it is kinda my fault tho LMAO don't worry i've apologized as best i know how #okay i'm done. i'm done. i'm gonna go watch tv and go to bed i hope #open mick night

[caramiaaddio]

well the nice thing about having had a life changing codependent relationship for most of my life is that whenever something bad is going on I can always switch my brain over to feeling bad about that instead

like it’s gonna feel bad either way but I’d much rather be in ‘mourning the loss of a dear friend’ mode than ‘my entire life is falling apart’ mode y’know

#like there’s so much to think about there I can very easily distract myself #whatever happened at work today? nah. instead consider: why didn’t they love me and could we ever be friends again? #it’s sad but it doesn’t give me a panic attack lol #and unlike thinking about things that make me happy my brain doesn’t snap back to the bad thing #it’s wild though that even after I’ve kind of forgiven them for all the stuff that happened it all kind of hits different #like yeah okay I was valid in feeling violated but also it wasn’t like it was on purpose and stupid kids do stupid kid shit #but even knowing that there’s just a part of me that can’t help but think about everything that went down #gives Greek tragedy vibes. the perfect storm of missteps is what ruined things in the end #and at this point like. I spent so long bothering them that I don’t wanna teach out and continue the pattern #plus there’s always that lingering fear and insecurity over being dumped in the first place #but it’s just so strange to have someone in your life for so long and then to just…not #I still bring them up in conversation sometimes like ‘oh yeah my ex liked that movie’ it’s weirdly natural #like we were inseparable for a decade it’s wild that they’re just…not part of my life anymore #and my brain will be stuck on this tangent for DAYS. great coping mechanism for whatever the fuck is happening at work #which like. don’t ask I don’t wanna talk about it I just want to move past this job and never see these people again

[papiermachecat]

Did you like it?

I did! I posted a very insubstantial review on my (wildly popular) twitter lol. Basically I though Harry was very good, particularly at shouting and at wide-eyed beseeching looks. I thought Olivia was great as Bunny—her scene towards the end with Alice was the most moving one of the film IMO, along with the car scene (and the interaction that led to it) with Jack & Alice. I didn’t yawn even once which is very impressive considering I’m an old lady and it was past my bedtime and I’ve had a particularly exhausting week. There are a couple things I’m still mulling over—I actually wish it were based on a book, because it’s exactly the sort of film that had an interesting enough storyline to make me think okay I need more details, I’m going to read the book. I prefer neatly wrapped endings (a “3 years later” is ideal) but i knew going in that wasn’t going to be the case so I dealt with it. It was beautiful to look at, interesting, and I’m going to put some spoiler-y stuff in my tags ☺️

#SPOILERS AHEAD IN THESE TAGS #I REPEAT IT’S A SPOILER HABITAT TURN AROUND!! #okay so I saw a few reviews/reactions say the quick cuts where weird stuff happens #then Alice wakes up and makes breakfast again #were too indulgent or stylized or whatever on Olivia’s part BUT #to me it made perfect sense because essentially she’s unconscious? #and when you’re dreaming and you go from your own backyard to your elementary school to Paris in the space of 10 minutes #you don’t really question it? you just react to whatever is in that moment #which is why when you dream you’re at work naked you usually don’t stop to wonder #how you left your house and got to work without realizing you were naked #you’re just like oh shit I can’t believe I’m naked #ANYWAY #I thought all that made sense and ~felt like a bad dream feels #also I can’t believe how seedy Harry looked as real-life Jack #and he held himself differently? like I think he did such a great job I’m proud of him #but now I hope he never acts again because damn this has been stressful #(I understand he has marvel I’m just saying) #DWD #don’t worry darling

[alloutshirt]

disclaimer : this is a personal life vent look away

shouldn’t be sharing this but i need to take it off my brain (wow reading it back it really sounds like i lost my mind but unfortunately it’s all true and not all of it fits in 30 tags lmaooo)

#because at this point it’s too funny not to share #keep in mind that all of this happened in the last two months 😭 #so my dad wants to introduce us to his new gf who he met barely two weeks ago on holidays and will now move in and look for a job here caus #she’s from romania and wants to stay ????? #i know because my dad asked me to clear my room so she has one which okay i guess #my room that’s currently full cause we had to get the stuff we stored at my grandparents following my parents breakup as they’re themselves #getting a divorce after 60 years together and selling the family home we all grew up in #this happening because my grandma got diagnosed with alzheimer n my grandpa so this as an escape door to talk about her being violent #cause breaking news we all looked up to them as the inspiration for a couple but apparently she’s been abusive their whole life #we also just learned to our last name should be different as my grandpa never knew his dad and too his mothers name #all of this we learned having to question our aunt cause we found out by randomly seeing to house on selling website and our dad just sayin #'sometimes people aren’t in love anymore' like we’re 5 yo #i don’t think my dad ever processed any emotion #taking it back to my dad he wants to introduce us on the 16th which funny thing is the day my mom is getting married to her partner #and im still not sure if my dad knows #marriage that makes me sicker the closer it gets cause the guy is a walking red flag and lately i haven’t seen my mom that much #cause i can’t stand him and how she is when he’s around #which he always. is. #oh and his daughter who hasn’t talked to him in years and truly i get it sis will be here but everyone knows #it’s to ask him for the money he doesn’t have again #so im torn but also i up she makes a fuss and everything gets cancel so i don’t have to talk to my mom about how she’s doing exactly #what she promised to never fall for again after finally ditching my dad #and like at least my mom’s side is out of the equation as there’s probably still a murderer on the loose looking for her sicko sister #who herself threatened my mom several times cause my mom dared calling her out on abandoning her disabled daughter to live #with their parents for twenty years and still now with them nearing 80 being sick and broke cause they never made it official and she’s #still the one getting money support lmaooo #oh how could i forget im also staying at my dads cause my big sister moved back with my mom and took my room #following her breakup with her bf of 4 years when she caught him cheating with a 16 years old #oh and now some of my best friends are still deliberating wether they ever wanna talk to me again #this could be fine if i could cry **** *** and dissociate but i no longer have my own room :) being so so brave rn :)

[sovamurka]

Doomsday // Конец Света (2022)

Varvara 'Varya' Bazhenova & Azazello 'Azik' Mitrohin

- Why didn't you tell me about all of this?

- Because you fell for a demon. For the beautiful and magnificent one!

- Are you dumb? I fell for someone who talked to me when nobody else gave a shit and who looked at me differently!

- And you don't care for who I am?

- And you left me because of this?

- I didn't. I just... panicked. I felt awful, scared, anxious and...

- It's completely normal. You're human now, remember?

#I don't understand how but it seems like creators INTENTIONALLY made them a queer couple with Azik being coded as enby/trans and also ace #they also directly specified that Varya is an intersectional feminist and I was so glad to hear that #and I suspect that one of the reasons they specified it was for her relationship with Azik to work #exactly because of queer implications #AND I'M NOT EVEN KIDDING. this shit was actually depicted there! #there. in a russian tv-series about about Satan coming to Moscow to create the Apocalypse. #this shit is crazy! but so fucking nice! #and it's kinda funny how queer implications don't go away even after Azik is turned human #although it was made under very unfortunate circumstances but him losing his demon status is treated like gender assignment surgery #that he has a lot of complexes and emotions about and that's the reason why Varya saying that it's okay to feel this way is damn important #listen. I know all of this because here we constantly use supernatural elements to talk about stuff we're not allowed to talk about. #and this series is FUCKING FULL of things we're not allowed to talk about. #Azik and Varya and their relationship are just a VERY small part of what this series actually has to offer. #(also: once again we make a couple that looks straight from the outside but is actually queer on the inside assdfgh) #off topic: I'm kinda sad that they cut their first kiss scene. it was meant to show how sincere and vulnerable they're around each other #😭😭😭 why can't we have nice things?!?!?! #anyway... Vladimir Kanuhin and Ekaterina Novokreshenova did an excellent job with their characters! ♥️💙 #doomsday (2022) #конец света (2022)

[maeamian]

Saw a post claiming that the Biden memes on here are why Joe Biden is generally not getting as much criticism as he probably should for the bad parts of his agenda, and some offense, but it really seems to me like that doesn't pass the sniff test at all and maybe if you believe this you need to go log off and get some outside air.

#Are we sure it's the memes #Not the same large scale consent manufacturing machine that's been doing that job our entire lives #Well okay my entire life the fall of the Fairness doctrine is where a lot of this stuff gets worse in particular #As well as the post Watergate belief of conservatives that this CANNOT happen to them again #But not the post-watergate belief that they needed to let it not happen by not doing bad shit #At any rate if I were a gambling man I'd put my single crisp US dollar bill down on 'the media' before 'the memes' #For starters 'websites the Biden VP memes circulated on' and 'websites with the best overall impression of him' don't correlate at all #I don't think I can remember any pro-Joe posts in the primaries on this website #But this website is also where I saw the vast majority of my Biden memes #Even still the most love I see for him on here right now is like 'You're gonna have to vote for him again because he'll be the nominee' #I just would like to see a lot more evidence for the memes theory before I believe a much mroe straightforward theory #That the institution of the presidency holds an undue reverence especially in the national press #and as such regularly goes under-questioned and under-critiqued during pretty much every administration of my lifetime #The meme just doesn't seem even remotely powerful enough to move the same amount of belief comparatively #If nothing else it's an absurdly online model of US politics that fails to account for a bunch of other factors #For God's sake they're fawning over GW Bush and his artisitic endeavors and that dude needs to be in the Hague #And I don't remember any pro GWB memes on here to justify that #So something else beyond the memes may be at play here #I really just don't see that the model has any upside whatsoever as an explanation of things #It doesn't explain anything better than more coherent and fleshed out theories of politics #But also does explain several things worse or not at all #Full disclosure there are Biden memes in this blog's history #But the way I feel about him currently is literally entirely unrelated to that #If you wanna look at them and go 'we probably could've and should've known better' I'll give you that #But not 'because of the long term impact it has had'

[dragonofdojima]

   One day when I properly get back on here to write, I will properly befriend you all, I promise this.

#(I just have... to go and deal with irl stuff at like the worst time possible I s2g) #(I never had such an active dash in such a long time and I can't even participate 😭) #(But yeah this has been a YEAR) #(So set out to improve my life offlien the best I can) #(And okay so far it's FINALLY looking up) #(At least my dream job is finally and slowly coming to fruition 😔) #(Financial wise? Still suuuper rocky but-- I will get there too eventually-- where I will be more secure) #(But yeah if you read all the way up to this point-- thank you again for your patience and for your interest ;;) #(Heck I'm also just waiting on those new graphics too for this blog-- rubs my hands together)

[heartshattering]

Feeling like I want to give up again...

#now it's my dad who's deciding to be a jerk towards me because he's mad at my mom #okay that's cool I guess #I haven't been feeling well at all today #I can't even distract myself #my dad's being so dramatic too like it's not my fault he's on a break from work but still doing stuff he could probably get out of doing #but he wants to be away from me and my mom so. I get it #he's never at home even when he's supposedly on a break from his job lol #this is how my mom and I know he's lying about retiring #because he's always putting it off #he was supposed to retire this year but nope #if he doesn't have his job he has no excuse to get out of the house and he hates being around us #Goddddd #he is such a fucking hypocrite #getting mad at me over something he has also done before and then saying it was fine when HE did it because it was 'months ago already' #(dropping something except in his case he actually SHATTERED it lmao) #but yeah... me dropping something without breaking it is WORSE than him dropping and actually breaking it... #wow #amazing logic #then my dad keeps complaining about how we don't care. when he's the one who proves over and over again that he's the one who doesn't care #I forget what they're called but he's the parent type who doesn't get involved in anything #he's never stood up for me and he's watching me rot and hurt myself and he's just like 'oh okay as long as it doesn't involve me idc' #he's not fucking stupid like he can tell there's shit clinically wrong with me but not once has he acted like an actual parent towards me #and yeah I'm an adult now but it's still fucked me up so badly #he is such a fucking coward #and selfish #if he could drop me and my mom somehow I know he would at the drop of the hat #but remember he's a coward so. I know he fucking won't #God this is making my urges get bad again #I'm crying 'cause I'm just so fucking pathetic :')

[lilgynt]

i’m gonna COMPLAIN. SHOCKER.

#personal #it guy hasn’t said anything or made comments or has been sitting with me at lunch which cool #at most it’s like damn lost the only person i talk to at my job at all but then i remember the convos and im like yeah it’s fine #but anyway i just get a weird vibe and im mad! #i’m just mad bc i don’t go after coworkers bc one coworkers im not shitting where i eat #two it’s a very confusing process for me and i don’t need that in my work place #i didn’t ask for him to get weird i didn’t ask for him to get weird after #and now i’m stuck with this awareness and unease bc it stresses me out! #and usually dudes who are into me scare me! #but it’s just frustrating i’m already struggling (socially work wise im super duper killing it) at work #and then you throw that into the mix it’s very confusing and i feel like a bad person #and it’s one of the times i just hate being autistic #would i still be confused and annoyed if i wasn’t? probably but probably not as bad #anyway lip stuff coming today. win. #trying dating apps again #chatting with a body builder rn so that’s going alright #crazy start he wrote. i don’t want to say a poem but a rhyme about king kong and my ass #in under a minute when i said something homo sapien #i was like do i. do i unmatch for this. but also it was really witty for writing in under a minute like i cannot deny that #anyway that’s going okay usual levels of stress with talking with people from dating apps #there’s this one gorgeous guy but he is so fucking boring to talk to #one dude has just been arguing about avatar the last air bender first sentence in and that’s been relaxed engaging #and this one trans dude matched with me and talked about patches but that was a minute ago so 😔😔😔😔😔😔 #girls. r scary is my answer to that

[exopelagic]

I love my degree I love my department I love my uni

#killing and biting and screaming #if I have to do one more thing ever again I’m gonna lose it I can’t wait for may I can’t wait for may #I had a very nice chat with a phd student today who confirmed everything I’ve been thinking from a different perspective #and let me tell you. vindication is nice. #I’m so close to things being bearable but to get there I have to make it through The Horrors. there are so many horrors #okay the one thing has happened someone’s asking me to read an email that’s it I’m done forever #I will keep going even though I’m gonna have to claw my way through. bc unfortunately I have responsibilities #such as ‘run this dumb club’ and ‘give this dumb presentation’ and ‘email these dumb supervisors’ #and my friend is being so fucking annoying abt how we like the same supervisors and is complaining abt me going for similar people #oh people are fucking upstairs that’s fun love to hear it #anyway I’m literally sending her people to talk to and she’s complaining that I like the sound of this person she brings up. #sorry dude im not applying to shit I don’t like to save your ego #anyway I can’t wait to get out of this city maybe I’ll move somewhere else when I graduate and spend the year there #phd student earlier was suggesting places to go to get research assistant jobs #oh my god she was also talking abt how biology is so nepotistic it’s all abt the people you know #and then I go talk to the friend again whose dad has a fancy research job and she’s LITERALLY CITING HIM IN HER PRESENTATION #HE OFFERED TO GET HER A JOB AT DEFRA. HES GIVEN HER THE IDEAS FOR HER LAST TWO PROJECTS. #PEOPLE KEEP THINKING ITS CUTE AND COOL AND SHIT THAT SHES GETTING STUFF FROM HER DAD AND I WANT TO SCREAM #LAST YEAR SOMEONE TOLD HER SHE SHOULD PUBLISH THIS ANALYSIS SHE DID OF DATA SHE GOT FROM HER DAD. BC NOBODY ELSE HAS DONE ANYTHING WITH IT. #I’m gonna have to live with her next year #murder. murder #why did saving as draft give everything double tags will that show up when I post #weird. #I am being soooooo normal abt everything I can function so good sleep deprived #okay it’s fine. I’m gonna. finish eating. wash up. call home. write presentation. read this guy’s thing so I can email him. hockey? #very ambitious but if I get some things done that’s fine #luke.txt

[straykats]

started thinking about qpps again last night,,

#the first time i was introduced to the convept was like. almost a decade ago ig 💀💀 #but then stuff happened lol and i forgpt about it but recently ive been reminfef of of it again #anf like. when i first heard about it it was a hella neat concept (?) to me and even now it still is #but i dont. idk like idk hoe to navigate it #i hardly know how to navigate my own sexuality and i think ?? theres some overlap here #but anyways idk. #this might sound bad but sometimes i feel like theres such a string need to identity yourself and to understand urself in the current day #and i get so caught up in trying to understand myself that i just confuse myself more? #but i also completely understand the.. the need for people to feel understood etc #im doing a horrible job explaining ehat i mean anf idk if anyone cal tell hoe these points are interconnrcted #but anyways. many fears and worries across the board #also lits of introgue and curiosity #but my heaf is not big enough for this rn #kats personal #??? #kat talks #ANYWAYS if anyone read all of this lol and wants to idk share some insight or smth thatd be neat HAHA #regarding qpps? #OKAY okay so i think my problem id that idk if i drift between birom or bisexuality or if like idk its a gender pref thing or or like idkidk #im STRRSGSHDJSJDJDJDJDJDN #bc there are defs time when i feel like the rom >>>>>>>>> over the sexuality #am i. gettin a bit too personal/tmi or amything here idk sorry guys #but then i also like. (more thoughts which i'll spare) #anyways. just felt that rambling about this would help me get it off my mind so i can go about my day hopefully 💀💀