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notproofread · 1 year

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so i finished a court of wings and ruin

man i have so many thoughts i don't even know where to start but this time i made notes while reading so strap in because there is A LOT to say

i'll start with dearest Feyre darling because damn she is one hell of a main character and not in a good way.

The psychological warfare at the beginning of the book? So cool, especially when she was working against ianthe and the hybern-Siblings because it really felt like her feelings towards them were truly justified and the pure dislike made it all the more satisfying when she won against them (especially ianthe that disgusting piece of shit i fucking hate her).

But i am not too much of a fan of the whole "let tamlin and lucien suffer" thing... Or more like her plan to rope in the whole spring Court and basically leave them to die at hyberns mercy very cool feyre you totally are morally superior

actually it kinda feels like she is taking the moral high ground over EVERYONE which... idk girly you are not exactly perfect and flawless either

also ummmm why is the first thing she and rhys do after being re-uinted fukcing? what about your oh so important sisters bestie... i am actually disgusted

after feyre arrives in the night court again she seems off somehow. there is no focus to her character, she is all over the place even. her part in the spring court was so clear, thoughtful and she had a goal. now that she is back in the night court it feels like a lot of building up (but it is rather boring lol)

alsoi need her to stop meddling with other peoples romantic feelings and romantic interests you don't have to force everyone into a relationship especially if they don't want to!!!!!!!

ALSO also start thinking about your actions before you do them. I'm tired of having to read about how she regrets something she did over and over again

the fact that she FORGETS her sisters????? FORGET??? A HUMAN BEING??? HELOO?? especially elain??? wtf how are you not worried to death about your starving, grieving, lovesick, maybe probably traumatized sister(s)???

and besides why does she think so ill of nesta? wow she is smiling? omg i thought she was made of stone?!?!!? (this is sarcasm btw) she says its an "eternal shock" for her to see nesta almost smile wtf she is still your sister that went through trauma since childhood not a monster you found in the fucking woods

why is feyre happy for elain slowly overcoming her trauma but shocked at nesta? i smell favoritism

and AGAIN i hate that she doesn't like to hear/feel/see the consequences of her own actions. like i already said her actions aren't always justified and when she faces repercussions she blocks the images from her mind lol sure okay that's how growing as a character works

example: she starts arguments with other high lords, insults them and gets pissed when they insult back or not jump immediately to her proposition like babe... what did you expect?

im tired of feyre hoping/thinking that everyone will fold backwards for her and rhys. we know that what you are fighting for is right and important but other high lords do not. they are centuries old, ignorant bastards not everyone is a rhys or a tarquin or even a kallias. they will cause problems on purpose, get used to it please or at least stop being overdramatic at every insult they throw your way jesus

unfiltered thoughts after the weird mor-feyre-beef (??): FUCK THIS i am OVER it, i am OVER feyre what in the dumb fuck is this? mor just told you that she was angry with you because you lied to her and rhys and could have been captured or killed by hybern so feyre responds with confronting mor about her feelings ("lies" ok bitch) towards az and helion. what kind of a shit friend are you??? jesus fuck i hate her so much rn

no wtf wtf i cant believe that this is how feyre defends herself??? MORS (romantic) FEELINGS ARE NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS. YOU VANISHING ON HER AND LYING IS HER BUSINESS. STOP FUCKING MEDDLING WITH EVERYONES ROMANCES AND SORT OUT YOUR OWN FUCKING ISSUES

fuck off

#can you tell i am over this #with every page i read i disliked her more #main characters are what makes or breaks a story #feyre clearly breaks it #acotar #feyre #rhysand #nesta #elain #azriel #helion #tarquin #tamlin #acowar #a court of wings an ruin

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soldier-poet-king · 2 years

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So when Cassandra de Rolo or Jon Sims or Jason Todd undergoes trauma and get white streaks in their hair they get hot, but when *I* experience a decade's worth of traumatic family dysfunction and untreated mental illness and start prematurely greying, I simply look old. And combined with my comically round face? I just look ridiculous and simultaneously too old and too young to be my actual age

#/j #this is mostly a joke but alsoi didnt even touch on characters whose hair goes completely silver #like percy de rolo or fenris #also im just. hm. today.#having that desperate clawing need ti be otherworldly and ethereal and hot #but i am small and round and soft and blegh #it doesnt even have to dk with v day??? bc ive been honestly too busy and tired ti notice or think abt it?#perhaps my dreams of late are partially to blame. for being so melancholy #itll pass etc etc etc #doesn't mean im not extremely empty about it #oh tswift the archer we're in it now #brought to u by the fact that i can no longer convince myself the increasinf amount of stray greys can be passed of as light brown blonde #or just sunlight.#my hair is such a dark shade of brown that any deviation from the norm is noticeable #even just like. 15-20 hairs #also i kinda wanna buzz my head kinda wanna grow out a bob again #im very unhappy with it as it is #but I'm afraid a bob will weigh it down and make it look too thin and fine #im not super thrilled with my current cut but im running out of ideas for short hair #longer is pixies are Bad Sensory Time for me even tho theyre cute #and short cuts just arent doing it for me anymore #alas. im going to bed

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jinbeizametsune · 5 years

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unwoke: celebrity production of Cats

woke: all khajit production of Cats

#yeah i know my last post was about cats #i am very tired #i am suffering #please forgive me #also i just watched cats agian lmao #the original broadway recording not the trailer #text #alsoi forgot if theres an actual word for unwoke or not #i am so tire

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drangues · 3 years

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asdfghjkl on the one hand I Get You but on the other hand,, I don’t hate you,,, I’m sure not everyone does. Also I’m jealous of your ability to turn your head off, mine is like a glitched out radio, unwanted and unceasing. I Hate It. But I’m glad you see what I mean with Lucy and Kunikida!!! I just feel like they’d play off of each other really well,,, Alsoi can imagine Dazai trying to ditch work in the cafe and she just. Thwacks him and drags him back upstairs. (Nyanon, 1/4)

Anyways LISTEN they are SOFT and I am soft FOR THEM, they’re so good for each other,,, I just love them very very much, I want them to be domestic nerds and slow dance in the middle of the night when they can’t sleep (and they keep tripping because Atsushi hasn’t danced before but they can’t stop laughing anyways aaahhh). I wanna see them listening to each other’s heartbeats because they like knowing they’re alive!!! I’m sorry I’m rambling I’m just,, (Nyanon, 2/4)

Very in love with these two hhh. (And! Congratulations!!! I’m proud of you, I hope your test went well and that your new WIPs are fun to work with!) And I’m not gonna lie, I feel like, at all times, Dazai is just like: “I’m gonna troll our viewers” // “Dazai-san no-“ // “dAZAI-SAN YES-“ and he’d definitely get a kick out of it. (Don’t worry, you’re fine!!! I get being tired, and I hope you can get some rest soon. And it’s also okay that you didn’t post!!! (Nyanon, 3/4)

I get it, stuff happens, sometimes you forget or you just think you did it. Happens to me all the time!) Anyways, another Scenario Concept: Do you think the ADA believes their office is haunted? I feel like quite a few workplaces argue that they are, and the ADA is absolutely chaotic enough to Actually be haunted. I’m not talking materializing ghosts, more just paranormal happenings- Doors slamming shut, loud bangs, flickering lights, etc. (Nyanon, 4/4)

BRO I LOVE YOU<333 and here u go, take my ability, you deserve it

lucy dragging dazai up the stairs to Get To Work? we love to see it, as she should be doing what a whole queen also,,,the fact that dazai will keep on dancing with atsushi even tho he “sucks” cause he loves him so much and wouldnt wanna dance with anybody else,,,just that comfortable domestic shit,,,,god,,,i wanna draw them cuddling so bad but i have Yet to find the perfect reference that is plaguing my Mind i just,,,,yeah </3 im just so in love like theyre LEGIT my otp in any fandom and my comfort ship no other ship have i ever been THIS obsessed with seriously

(uwuwu thank you for understanding, i was so tired AGHSJKDSK but now im better!! and yeah sometimes people forget stuff and so will i defintely knowing Me)

i think the ADA dEFINITELY believes their office is haunted, just for shits and giggles. and because of that theyll also play into it, making their own hauntings to scare the other members

#anon #ask #ask anon #anon ask #bsd #nyanon #nyatsushi anon

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adacic1033-blog · 7 years

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