#always looking out not to upset anyone

[lunarharp]

"Found out" set in kind of a made-up chapter where the girls are in trouble, or something.

#witch hat tag #orufrey #i hate having a strong cinematic image in your mind for months..working hours on it..& at the end looking you have to be like “Sure. :/" #i'm especially unsatisfied with the beginning and the end and how i can't get eyebrows to work as i want #but i dont care any more... this is probably the comic that has given me the most trouble ever i just dont care #i barely even care whatsoever if anyone even sees this..Ugh..but at least i can move on to the next era now #i'm just annoyed i cant get out good enough my image of qifrey flinching bc he thinks oru will hit him but then he is not hit #i feel like sensei will do something along these lines. i want to see what she will do. #there are also other variations i have in my mind. i just want to know #i just don't want it to happen with qifrey on his deathbed or something. but it possibly will. I DONT EVEN KNOW. #i have another very cinematic image in my mind for something sort of along those lines which i will do soon. it never ends... #btw after this is probably my fics. yeah.... i think it has to be my fics. jasmine sort of goes along these lines #i need that space for dialogue. look - i'm a writer. this is HARD for me. so i am really glad i had the space and freedom of words #to process all the feelings. but i tried to get something out in a quick visual space too. <- me defending myself to myself at cai court #anyway going along the lines of 'Jasmine' - they talk this out and argue and cry and oru pushes the hat at him and tells him #why not just erase every memory i have of you then. That would be easier for us all wouldn't it? #they kiss and sob and kiss and lie outside in the flowers for many hours in that one. and then there's 'Deep End' where it turns out #way way way way more time and words is needed for this actually and that's upsetting for everyone. #the destruction of the hat is certainly another path to take. Can you make this work without that hat going up in flames? #something you have always had and have been clinging to will have to be destroyed. You have to lose something now. This is the crux qifrey #I CANT GET IT OUT IN ONE COMIC!!! I CANT DRAW IT OUT!!!! I NEEDED THOSE FICS!!!! PRAISE WORDS!!!! whatever im going to have dinner now

[kelpiemomma]

He hesitated as the child below him smiled and reached up. His claws rested right above its head and yet it looked delighted to see him. Did it not realize the danger it was in? It grabbed his fur and giggled.

"Puppy!"

...if he was asked, he was simply raising it up to help him infiltrate human settlements better.

#Khan a. #Zoroark Khan #Raised by Zoroarks au #Khan finds Akari in the middle of nowhere and is about to kill her (bc all humans deserve to die in his eyes) #But when she smiles at him he can't do it and decides to take her in and raise her instead #There was something about her looking... Happy to see him that stopped him #(when was the last time anyone was happy to see him?) #(this is bc I thought it'd be funny if Khan raised akari as a Zoroark and then got upset and jealous #When ingo drops the fuck out of the sky and after becoming the warden becomes friendly #the weird feral child running with Zoroarks. He tries to guide her into human behaviors which she finds so INTERESTING #Esp when he decides she's good enough to go into town!!! The town humans are neat and not at all scary like khan had always said #Ingo lies and says she's his daughter. That they had gotten separated during travel. That she had to survive on her own for a time #Which is why she's... Like That. Everyone eats it up. Gives her free stuff. Tells her they're glad she's reunited with her dad. #Akari tells Khan (who's only referred to as 'malice' yet) and Khan gets jealous as FUCK. #That is HIS BABY. HE FOUND HER. HE RAISED HER. SHE'S HIS DAUGHTER. NOT INGO'S!!! #But when he tries to sneak into Jubilife to steal her back? Bring her home? Do something? He's caught and chased out. And the next morning #Things are abuzz with the news that a black Zoroark had tried to break in!! Those things are so dangerous!! Say... #Hadn't the clans mentioned a black Zoroark before? #Akari discovers then (long after befriending ingo and months since she started coming into town) that Khan had told her the truth. #That these people hated Zoroarks. Feared them. But Ingo tells her that the clans have been harassed by them for generations. #That Malice is right but also he's wrong. And Akari decides she's going to show how GOOD Zoroarks are!!! How loving the are to their family #She ends up helping Laventon and Rei with the dex. She is still known as Warden Ingo's Feral Daughter. And everyone wonders and fears #Bc somehow one of the first pokemon she caught was a zorua she keeps in her party ALWAYS. Ingo thinks her wanting to show the good side #of Zoroarks is a good thing. Peace would be beneficial. He's heard hunters in the pearl clan discuss wanting to track down and kill #Every Zoroark and zorua to keep them from hunting the clans. He doesn't want an entire species wiped out! #So there is Ingo and his 'daughter' (who he is genuinely starting to see as his daughter) and then suddenly #One day there is a knock at the door. And ingo opens it to see a young man with a nasty scar GLARING at him #And the first thing he says is 'give me back my child' which makes ingo ???) #There were more tags but Tumblr said 'fuck you that's too many' #TLDR ingo has to lie to Jubilife residents and tell them Khan is his ex and the residents are LIVING for the perceived Family Drama™️

[pigtailedgirl]

He's got the look! Of LOVE

Seriously, re-watch is just noticing how much time Fraser spends staring uncomfortably in love, focused, at Ray, multiple editions. EXAMPLE : This is first episode right here! Fraser stare.

Or you know his doing sly smiles and reactions every five seconds too.

And I love it. Because it's hard to gif! And because it's Fraser.

He says nothing. What he doesn't say screams.

Fraser is a closed book type character. For all he shares stories with others about his values, or anecdotes or stories of his life, for all his acts and oddities, his kindness and helping, or his passive aggressive snits; he uses that and presentation and it's to put up walls to block us the audience and the other characters from seeing him fully with these things. He doesn't tell the whole truth. He manipulates so it's entirely on his terms and comfort level just what level of Fraser you get. He's scared to show people he has wants or needs or feelings for himself. Maybe I think a part of him doesn't know the how or what on those things too. When he tells others things, his personal stories, notice how often he leaves out the and this is how I felt or feel. He doesn't want that to be the focus for others. For others to see him unless he shows it.

So it's very important I think you have to look for not just what he says, but what he does and shows consistently to us or someone. And about that someone. That's the key to understanding how Fraser feels and expresses his wants.

Great thing about the show is when it understands Fraser may consciously not want to show himself but through his voyeurism and nature and we the audience, sorry Fraser you do.

Anyways...

So with Ray, he drags Ray into all kinds of things, without really honestly asking or saying the why. Because the honest answer half the time boils down to just I want you along and with and that's one you can't say without saying I want or need you. Fraser's very bad that.

They do the odd couple routine of you Canadian, me American. They, and Fraser is way more master, manipulate and operate in understanding one another is a case of really playing with or verbalizing out the differences, to get us on to continue along in sync while avoiding or letting slip well, duh, we are together because emotionally we feel easily connected, even with differences.

So Fraser shows Ray, or thinks he does best he can, by dragging and tagging along. Sticking close by choice.

He shows us the audience too.

He shows all the time by considering or studying Ray how much he's paying attention to, wanting to get to know. He shows by leaning in or reacting to, verbal or physically, or even to other's reactions of, how much Ray has an affect on him.

And to me one of the biggest ways Fraser is obvious in his feeling's with Ray, is Ray is just about the only one besides Dief and his ghost Dad, that he'll seek out or let him in enough to see him back.

Goes back to The Pilot. Of its' not like Fraser doesn't connect or have emotional scenes with others. But Ray is the one who gets the honesty back outta him. Who he can show he's emotionally down to and try an feel understood by. Like there, yeah I'm here in this diner because I'm lonely and my dads gone, this is my only way to connect or do for him now...

Fraser shows he wants Ray to see his feelings in a way he opens about the why of himself to no one else.

And it's a recurrent throughout the series, even as they have some blow-outs and screw-ups on it. He shows Ray because Fraser trusts enough to be sad around or silly, or snippy, or teasing. But also just unsure. There's a comfort level in their interactions. He wants Ray to know him as a person and relate emotionally and even when he himself struggles how to handle that within, well if Ray sees it, that's okay.

#due south #f/v #fraser/vecchio #meta #like i cant name anyone else in the series fraser got as close to being open with #him almost telling ray about victoria #sure it fucked up #way to not listen ray #but he wanted to #that is something #huge #fraser wants to be seen emotionally #my fav headcanon #and he seems always seeking ray to look and be seen #to relate #to contrast #being sad at #trusting #even in their blow-outs or disconnect moments #the upset is the it's so wrong #contrast to how fraser is forced to try to connect with others #frannie's feelings and how to relate or tell her #being seen as feeling with say welsh #coping or figuring it out with thatcher #ray k being the other buddy duo of not in a good headspace to share and back and forth to overshare they both give off

[quietwingsinthesky]

what if. Amy “fix-it” because hallucifer makes sam so paranoid about dean leaving for no reason that sam gives in and follows him and is witness to the whole thing

#hallucifer: wow. big brother really trusts us. (beat) so something’s up right? we know it’s never this easy. #sam: (visibly restraining himself from saying shut up. about to grab his scar.) #hallucifer: (aware he’s about to be banished) don’t listen to me if you want but. I’m just trying to help. #don’t blame me if you look in the papers tomorrow and find a obit for your brain-eating girlfriend. and… what was her kid’s name again? #sam: (touching the scar. not pressing down. face all screwed up.) || hallucifer: :3 it’s not like it’ll hurt anyone #if he really does trust you he doesn’t even have to know we’re following him. *and* you’ll know your brother still trusts you. #even when I’m here. maybe he won’t even punch you again. that still hurting? #sam: (grimace. because yeah. it does.) || hallucifer: door number two - he thinks you’ve lost it and he’s going to stab that woman to death. #so what’s it gonna be Sam? ready to gamble your friend’s life on if Dean gives a shit about your opinion? #[and that’s the point where sam goes to follow dean. still doesn’t talk to Lucifer. not there yet. but oh hallucifer is sooo pleased with #himself about this. because he’s Sam. and he picks up on what Sam doesn’t. and he could see all of Dean’s little giveaways that Sam was #turning a blind eye to. and now here’s the perfect opportunity to put a wedge between them and get sam to trust him more <3) #GOD. FUCK. IM UPSET NOW. WHY WASNT HALLUCIFER IN THAT EPISODE. MOST OF THE EPISODES? #such a good fucking concept. squandered. #anyway. idk if sam saves Amy but he DEFINITELY here’s Dean’s little speech to her about how she can’t change. #hallucifer with faux sympathy like (sigh) damn. well. i always told you what he was like. Michael. Michael-sword. no difference. #both of them want us dead the moment we step out of line. #and Sam just frozen there in horror with Lucifer’s voice sinking in. and he believes him. how can he not. with dean proving him right #hallucifer #spn #sam winchester #amy pond

[godsfavoritescientist]

So there's this webserial called 'worm' about a world where superpowers started suddenly showing up in the 70's, and I'm trying so hard to think of a way to merge it with the stans-and-fidds 70s-and-80s plot events. The thing is, powers are caused by going through a traumatic event, and the powers are tied to both that event and to the person's various issues in ways that sometimes seems cruelly ironic. So you see my dilemma here, with there being so many options for events that could've given these guys powers

#godsrambles #fidds is easy: within worm's power classification system he'd be a tinker #which is where you get a superpowered understanding of how to create things that would otherwise be impossible #e.g. making killer robots far more advanced than current science is capable of #if working on the portal was what gave him powers though...... he could either get tinker powers specifically related to making portals #or if it was the greloblin then somethjng related to memory erasing #for stan. idk what would be the most upsetting. shapeshifting restricted to looking like other humans probably. #great for evading the law and for pretending to be ford for 30 years though #oh maybe ford would get precognition. ability to see hundreds of potential futures #maybe in combination with no longer needing to sleep. able to trap himself in literally endless rumination as he tries to figure out- #-how to stop bill #none of these are the Fun Flashy kind of powers though. stan would have fun with fire powers #oh wait. even worse for stan: powers that evoke leeches. able to temporarily steal or drain powers from others or something #or able to copy others' powers permanently in a weaker form than the original power. and he can have multiple weak powers at a time #in this world the mob would have powered folks in it of course so maybe a situation involving them could cause that power #OR. if his powers happened in the aftermath of the portal incident. #ability to teleport anything and anyone within his line of sight directly to him. #he'd be mad for 30 years straight about not getting that power before ford fell through the portal #that or the ability to summon common tools out of nowhere. such as a long rope #idk the powers are always very specific. pretty sure no one following me knows what worm is. #but you can at least appreciate the exercise of thinking up what powers would deal the most psychic damage to these guys

[optiwashere]

I liked doing this last week, but it will get kinda repetitive in the coming weeks. So I'm not sure if I'll do it often while I'm posting the modern/band AU, but oh well!

It's another Saturday morning in a blanket with new music. Truly all I could ever need to write.

Here's what I've been working on...

Modern/band AU is fit and ready to start posting this upcoming week. Chapter [redacted] is complete, and I'm now far enough ahead that even a few weeks of busy life won't stop a regular posting schedule. And if I keep up writing then I'll be able to post around Xmas without needing a break!

Chapter [redacted+1] has an opening sentence, which is often the hardest part.

The outline for the AU has been modified a little. Combined three chapters into one, split out another chapter into two. Probably lots of consolidation to be done otherwise. There's a weird bit in the outline that's kinda fuzzy, but I'm sure I'll knuckle my way through it since it's not thematically deep. Might even be another chapter consolidation. This fic is definitely going to be longer than the 40k I was hoping it would top out at...

Editing the previous chapters has been a fun exercise in trimming the fat! I still want there to be scenes that are just ~vibes~ but I axed 1k words and the whole thing is cleaner for it.

More Minthara/Lae'zel is in the works, but it's mostly only the skeleton of an idea as I've had to rework it multiple times. I've a little under 1k actually written, and I'm not too convinced of what it is at the moment either. Quite frustrating.

Another seedling of an idea for non-smutty Asheera/Shadowheart fics. But it's really just "Shadowheart meets Asheera's parents" and boy I'm not ready for the mixed emotions Shadowheart's going to feel in that one. You know it's not just going to be fluff.

The Gauntlet/Nightsong segment for my core Shadowheart/Asheera series has a skeleton of an outline now. The POVs have been picked, the core beats are there, and I know it's going to hurt like a motherfucker to write some of this.

#random rambling about writing #anotheropti fanfiction mind soup #OK a lot of these tags are truly mind soup so I don't advise anyone to take them as anything but letting off steam #if I was smarter I would just type the shit in these tags into a word doc and delete it lol #in which I look at the modern/band AU and wonder what I've gotten myself into #the anxiety of feeling like it's a disaster already and mentally preparing myself for that #mixed with the panic of realizing I'll be locking myself into months of it #bc I *cannot* stand having unfinished works #if you've been wondering why I'm writing as much as I can before posting anything this is why! #if I get hit with a week of hating what I've put out in the world then I can recover and still have chapters out #which is... #it's the same feeling I get when I submit writing to literary agents #except agents will tell you bluntly that they don't want it whereas people in fandom just glide by #as is everyone's right don't get me wrong #but I have severe problems with imposter syndrome and it's always worst when I'm posting longer stuff #and translating these characters to a modern setting and struggling with their characterizations gave me -10 to Will saves #so it's like “who is this for? is this for me and only me? does anyone need this? why make myself upset?” #anyways that was a lot of venting so now I write

[jinstronaut]

🙄🙄🙄

#bro idk what else to do lmao #sorry for not posting 1749 gifsets a day sorry for not having energy sorry for having a job that’s incredibly demanding and taxing #like i went from one gif series that was 8 months long to this current gif series that’s 18 months long #and it’s just fruitless lmao i’m never part of any community ever #i’m sorry i don’t reach out as much i’m so so so tired all the time #i have 2 days off a week and they’re spent sleeping #idk what to do i don’t Owe anyone my time that’s such a huge thing for me #but also like how the fuck am i This invisible #it’s always look at all these amazing people. and emmeline is here too i guess idk i forgot #i work so hard to make content of people i love and enjoy #esp for a member that often doesn’t Get the same amount of content made #and it’s just feels like Shit to get constantly overlooked #bc of idk i’m #sorry if i did something to make anyone upset i just try to stay in my lane #but it hurts so badly to always be excluded #like So fucking badly #when i work so hard and have been working so hard #idk i’ll just never fit in i guess #tbd

[tariah23]

Well, I’m still glad that Gojo was always a character who was growing and learning at least. He’s literally one of my favorite characters of all time now. Like, he’s never been as perfect as how the fans would make him out to be despite canonically being viewed as an absolute nuisance to everyone around him (I don’t think his peers necessarily hate him but a lot of them probably hate to see him coming and the ones who’ve dealt with him long enough to consider him a friend, tolerate him and groan whenever he opens his mouth, too 😭… out of love. He’s extremely childish so there is only sm the other adults around him can take and to an extent, his students. I think the only characters in canon who adore him and their eye’s sparkle whenever he’s around, and being a silly teacher was Yuuji and Miwa (she asked him for his autograph (he’s the most famous sorcerer in the jjk world) and when she was alone, she did a little dance in the empty hallway 🥺…) from what we’ve seen even though the others still care about him, too. They just find him rather annoying, which he most definitely is. And he does it on purpose. He plays too much.)

#I’m also not usually one to get annoyed whenever ppl shit on the things I like #like I’m an adult sorry idc 😵‍💫 #but it’s always annoying seeing ppl who know nothing about the story complaining about it #even just as recently with the Gojo being racist shit 😭.. #like he’s a really great character despite all of that and even though Gege’s #execution of that could’ve been better or didn’t need to happen at all #because idk what gege was doing even though I do strongly believe that he used a moment like this to showcase Gojo’s ignorance and #that how he’s also human and makes mistakes since if you’re familiar with the series Gojo isn’t really treated like person at all #more like a deity and he doesn’t like that #but he’s never been one to voice his personal feelings and talk about his trauma ever #he gets treated like a god and because of this he’s never felt like he could truly connect with other people #so that’s why he puts on that whole act of being overly friendly/ playing with others and even rude to shut others out because of his #aversion to opening his traumatized self To other ppl like he’s so cool #and when he’s friendly he gives the others just enough of his affection so that he wouldn’t be worried about and not have others pry #but he’s incredibly flawed as well #I feel like gege could’ve showed Gojo being ‘humbled’ some other kind of way over the racism tho 😭. But it’s fine lmfao #I’m still so grateful that he had Gojo actually apologize instead of waving Miguel off like he didn’t matter because like I’ve said before #he literally never apologizes (this is probably the first time that I’ve ever seen gojo apologize to anyone in canon I’m so serious 🗿) #that’s literally not part of him #like he feels regret but he never apologies or shows that he actually cares about what others are expressing to him when they’re upset with #him. like this is crazy. but it shows that he did care about the mistake that he made which I appreciate…. like idk how I would’ve felt #about his character if he showed that he could care less when hurting someone like this🗿….. #I adore him so much sorry sorry for taking about anime I’m just 😭…. ❤️❤️❤️ #rambling #I’m glad that everyone is fucking with Miguel now because he is a really interesting character even though we haven’t seen much of him #he’s one of the few ppl who Gojo trusted enough to look after someone who he cared about despite the horrors #because he knew that Miguel would protect yuuta and do right by him #it’s very 😭❤️…

[sakhafa]

I wish religious ppl critically thought ab religion lmao

#Muslims especially lmao like everything is taught to us as face value and ppl fr take all the text as just. the text #ppl don’t gaf ab context until it’s something that makes them ‘look bad’ then it’s ‘oh but the context is…’ #esp when it comes to things pertaining to women. it’s always ‘the text said this’ and never ‘the context is this’ #oh but if u dare bring this up it’s ‘how dare u question god’….I’m not questioning god I’m questioning the fact u don’t dig deeper #no one ever thinks ‘oh this might actually be harming ppl let’s think of how to unharm ppl’ it’s always ‘god knows what’s best :)’ #god didn’t create the damn patriarchy u dumb shits…let us think!!!! let us critically think!!!!!! #& it feeels like anyone who does think ab things is labelled a bad Muslim or just straight up leaves the religion which is so upsetting #like u r literally encouraged to read and seek out knowledge… #but it’s so upsetting ppl only agree w that if the knowledge u find is what’s already mainstream lmfao like ok thanks for the groupthink! #it’s exhausting fr fr. & im sure it’s the same in other religious circles but ofc I wouldn’t know I can only speak ab my own lol

[moonsaurora]

everytime louis or harry “denies” larry there are always people who claimed to be for them who leave…and they’re so weak lmao cause if you genuinely believed they were together you would’ve done enough research to know why they deny it and everything. y’all weren’t in the community for the right reasons if you didn’t care about them being free and supporting them

#larry #larry stylinson #i saw like two tiktoks about it and they made me upset lol #i really hope this doesn’t reach antis lmao #i don’t care what yall have to say i’ve been supporting them for 9 years and will continue to do so 🤷‍♀️ #if anyone is rude i’m just blocking i’m not dealing with that so #there is so much proof that they want to be out and hate hiding.. #there’s a powerpoint i have in case anyone wants to be convinced 👀 lol and i can answer any questions #ya know i would be willing to have a RESPECTFUL conversation with an anti or just whoever doesn’t believe #as to why they don’t want to look into it. like you’re not curious? not even a little bit? #as to why soo many people believe in this thing? #message me ab that though i don’t want that taking up my whole post #like i promise there is a reason we disregard whenever they deny it #it’s never #me and harry were never and are not in a relationship #but #there’s nothing i can do to stop the rumors #there’s many things he could do but he always dances around the question

[countess-of-edessa]

probably my least trad trait ever is how irrationally annoyed the idea of changing my name on marriage/giving my children someone else's name makes me

#i just feel like there's no good solution #except theoretically hyphenating but in reality it pretty much always looks stupid #and i would not do it #but like the idea that your children can carry the surnames of both of their parents is a nice idea even if it fails in execution #instead it's (1) take someone else's name which i hate it's not my name and it's not like im joining his family we are creating our own uni #(2) don't take his name. but you still have to give his name to your kids. and now you and your kids don't share a last name. #I don't know why this makes me so irrationally upset #i mean i do and it's because I have literally the exact same feelings as 100% of men do on both of these matters #but because they're men it doesn't matter and it works out for them either way. they can just feel like that and get what they want. #and because i am a woman I don't have a good solution available #I mean it's not like anyone wants to marry me so who even really cares i just heard a podcast where people debated whether the fact that th #wife didn't change her name on marriage was a foreshadowing of her later murder of her husband and idk

[cinna-bunnie]

i didn't immediately get a follow-up text saying someone i hung out with had a good time

#😔 my brain is sooooo annoying #i hope there is a Next Time™ though 🥲 i had a rly nice time and.. i don't have reason to Not think they didn't have a good time #👉👈 but ppl can b nice and still ghost u. i just hope that's not the case this time 😭 I've rly been hoping this friendship works out #and if it doesn't tbh I'll be SO upset about it 😭 like if this doesn't work then idk what will man #just give up and be a shut in who does god knows what all day because being a person is too hard #this is like the longest I've talked w anyone from tinder and the most I've actually carried conversation on discord #and we hung out yesterday for the first time and it Seemed good but i haven't heard from them today #and i feel dumb and silly for feeling this way..? being anxious and hopeful has a girl holding her breath all the time 😔 #any step forward feels like my last ykwim? u do something simple and small but always feel like it's Too Much #and like Anything u do is enough to push or scare ppl away 😬 but no one will ever tell u what's wrong!! #so u don't know what u did or what to look out for or idk. it just makes u feel like literally everything and anything is Too Much #and like u shouldn't even try.. but u Should or else you'll be alone frfr. 😮‍💨 idk i feel crazy lol I'm gonna go grab a coffee n draw

[katandsquad]

.

#i'm just so tired and angry about everything #i'm late on my period #that could explain why i'm feeling like that #i'm just hurt and annoyed by my irl friends #lately i'm always the one that reaches out to them #except for 2 people #and even of they reach out to me ots just because they wanna know something that would benefit them #i know they are not doing that on purpose #shit still hurts #i'm just so tired of saying “oh dont worry its fine” #its not fine if you take 2-4 weeks to reply to something #especially if you asked me something and i gave you an answer immediately #its not fine when you havent messaged me in a month just to ask where you can buy something specific #i'm tired of people asking me how i am and when i tell them that i'm fucking depressive #they just go “oh sorry to hear that. i'm here for you. anyway did you know.” #or “anyway look at these tiktoks” #i'm just angry and tired today #i dont want to talk to anyone #i'm also very upset that havent found a new job yet #the unemployment center hasnt paid me my money yet either #i'm losing it

[turing-tested]

someone once described my childhood like 'yeah the ways you were abused and punished are insane and creative in fucked up ways and bizarre and if i didn't know you personally and hadn't met your mom i would have thought you were making stuff up' and im like. what could have possibly given someone this impression

uhhhh abuse mention in the tags I guess sorry idk how to add spacers on mobile I'm sorry

#abuse mention #i was writing in my journal about how my moms boyfriend would put me in a sleeper hold #and how they would try to convince me i was lying about losing conciousness and get angry at me for saying i passed out #like uhhh #'you didnt pass out. you were on the floor for like two seconds. get up. you're just doing this for show #'get up' #and anyways #im like huh thats weird i guess that probably sucked i guess. #i dont have super bad emptions attached to it bc i liked rough housing #its more so i was upset mostly bc they tried to convince me i hadnt lost conciousness #i always got the impression they didnt want me to tell anyone about it because it would look bad #like again i do wanna be clear i enjoyed playing uncle or whatever its called #like that specifically was not upsetting to me really #it was just more so about...their reaction i guess

[ratasum]

Before I forget again:

Vezz and Zojja are the same age. They were classmates, in fact. Vezz was by far nowhere near Zojja's genius, and she was ahead of him in classes on account of being a prodigy.

And boy did they butt heads on the occasions they did meet. Zojja was brilliant, and let's be real, she's never been shy about hiding her intellect. It's a very asuran thing, and she is very asuran in that regard. The two of them would often get into verbal spats.

Vezz knew very well he didn't walk away from those the winner.

But Zojja has a long memory, and there was a bitter, dogged sort of determination around Vezz.

She heard he joined the Inquest. Pity, but he was smarter than Kudu. If they were lucky, he would survive. But she had Destiny's Edge to worry about... nothing that she could do about it at the moment. Snaff needed her on top of her game.

But then six years pass after Snaff's death and she hears a fascinating rumor, just as she's starting to put together the pieces of his and Gorr's research into the Elder Dragons:

Vezz had left the Inquest.

He's been in hiding, jumping from place to place in Metrica to avoid detection from the Inquest after his Explosive Exit.

And she remembers him from classes. She can sniff him out.

When she finds him, he's haggard and dirty, exhausted from constantly having to move his hiding spots. And now Zojja's found him... meaning he'll have to move again. But she has a proposition for him, one that - if it works - means he may finally be able to stop running.

After all... he has nothing to lose and everything to gain.

#bunny thoughts #keeper vezz #I might go through and like... write out what Vezz's PS missions would've looked like from where he started #I'll play with the idea a little later #but anyway their relationship is super complicated #he was always resentful and a little jealous of her #and he honestly feels incredibly upset at what's become of her #it honestly bears SEVERAL posts lmao #so if anyone's curious just hmu I could talk for days

[geffenrecords]

theydid not lie that misgend3ring does slowly kill you overtime

#imtoo scared to come out to anyone because everyone is terrible andso now i just want 2 die. garh. #zyz #ive been at such a low lately i had to go to my one friend for my relationship issues bc simone is so fucking awful at advice for dating n #shit. everytime i complain shes like oh well dude you just always look so upset. and yr always so miserable. no wonder he says that to you #like thanx. #like im sorry im pissed off everytime i interact with you its because i see you literally twice a day cause you cant stop ditching me for #every single other friend you have for some fucking reason. and then go off about how much you miss me. #okay im sorry my wrist has been fucked up for the past week so i cant use my journaldiary and its fucking me up. goodnight.