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#and 2017 was neutral throughout lol
eggmeralda · 2 years
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this whole year's been really good so far and I'm starting to get suspicious
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storiesbyjes2g · 1 year
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@therichantsim tagged me for this
1. What’s your favorite sims death? I haven't really had many other deaths besides old age. Even if I did I don't think I could choose a favorite way for them to go. I'm gonna steal @mysimsloveaffair's answer lol. She said her favorite death is old age because it means they lived a full life.
2. Alpha CC or Maxis Match? Maxis Mix
3. Do you cheat when your sims gain weight? For gameplay, not at all. But for stories I might if it makes sense for the character. For example, Kameron is a very fit character. But in real life, he doesn't workout as much as he used to so he often loses muscle mass. Lean Kam just don't look right, so I used MCCC to freeze his body frame so he doesn't gain or lose weight/muscle.
4. Do you use move objects? Absolutely
5. Favorite mod? MC Command Center closely followed by Relationships and Pregnancy Overhaul by lumpinou. These two keep me on my toes and give you guys all the drama you love lol.
6. First expansion/game/stuff pack you got? I got the first one when it came out.
7. Do you pronounce “live mode” like aLIVE or LIVing? ALIVE!! I will die on this hill lol. Don't get me started!
8. Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made? Either Kameron or Amina Pope. I've been with Kameron the longest, and he is my dude forever. Amina was special to me even in CAS, and when I finally found the right story for her, she made it so easy. The story wrote itself!
9. Have you made a simself? I've been making simselves since TS2
10. What sim traits did you give yourself? I think she is creative, music lover, loner?
11. What is your favorite EA hair color? I use the neutral black the most, but I really love that new ashy brown. I think it's the 3rd one? It's Tori's hair dye color.
12. Favorite EA hair? Ehhhh...I tend to ignore EA hairs lol
13. Favorite life stage? Young Adult
14. Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay? Building is not my ministry lol
15. Are you a CC creator? No, but I have recolored some things before.
16. Do you have any simblr friends/a sim squad? Sure do! (Hey y'all!)
17. What’s your favorite game? That's tough to say. Gameplay-wise, I think I'm still partial to Sims 2. But seeing as I'm addicted to Create-a-Sim, I'd have to say Sims 4 because the other games can't hold a candle to the current genetics and options!
18. Do you have any Sims merch? Yep. I used to have this ginormous mouse pad with that Sims mouse. I also got those notebooks from the shop that came out a few years ago. Now I want to burn them all LOL.
19. Do you have a YouTube for sims? Sure do! My list of videos to make keeps growing. I just need to make the time to do them...and my hair LOL.
20. How has your “sim style” changed throughout your years of playing? I'm not sure if this question is referring to play style or CAS style so I'll do both. My play style has not changed. I've always enjoyed family play even though that's not all I do. People say I have a sim style and they know a sim is mine when they see them, but I can't see it. I just like making unique sims. Not sure if I've changed or not.
21. What’s your Origin ID? Jes2G
22. Who’s your favorite CC creator? No way I can pick just one...or even 5 lol. Just to name a few... peacemaker, simstrouble, severinka, mclaynesims, jius, wisteriasims, crypticsim, pralinesims, sifix...
23. How long have you had a simblr? I technically joined in 2014 but I wasn't active. I decided to give it a real shot in 2017 and decided to go all in in 2019.
24. How do you edit your pictures? I have a set of actions I created in Photoshop that I run. I used to make different actions for all my stories to give them unique looks. Now I create ReShade presets and let it do the heavy lifting.
25. What expansion/game/stuff pack is your favorite so far? GROWING TOGETHER! It's all I really wanted.
26. What expansion/game/stuff pack do you want next? I don't want or need anything else EXCEPT for all the bugs to be fixed! I'm ready for this version of the game to be over so the modders can make the game great in peace!
Tagging @shunohoney626 @bridgeportbritt @digital-deluxe @nilonne @maladi777 @wannabecatwriter @ladytee918 @saps-sims
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wileyfern · 1 year
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sims tag
i got tagged by @akitasimblr & @wastelandwhisperer ❤️
1. What’s your favourite sims death? death by flies!
2. Alpha CC or Maxis Match? maxis mix! I like alpha-y clothes but mm hairs
3. Do you cheat when your sims gain weight? nope
4. Do you use move objects? it’s permanently turned on in my game thanks mccc
5. Favorite mod? oof this is hard i like the health, eye care, and dental mods those add some fun little gameplay things
6. First expansion/game/stuff pack you got? i got get to work, cool kitchen, and dine out all at the same time
7. Do you pronounce “live mode” like aLIVE or LIVing? LIVing idk why lol i think it’s aLIVE but i say the opposite
8. Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made? you want me to choose!? Ugh idk Ce is one of my fav ocs
9. Have you made a simself? I do kinda 1 & 2
10. What sim traits do you give yourself? loaded question lol. geek, clumsy, animal enthusiast, loves the outdoors, and outgoing
11. Which is your favorite EA hair color? ooo the red is nice but the new neutral dusty white swatch is my fav
12. Favorite EA hair? i literally dont know 😭
13. Favorite life stage? i play with YA the most but probably infants or toddlers
14. Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay? i mean i mostly do gameplay but i will be in the mood to build from time to time its only residential tho i cant make a community lot at all
15. Are you a CC creator? i have made a few recolors for personal use but thats really it. ive made conversions too but nothing ive released or plan too unless i get more free time
16. Do you have any simblr friends/a sim squad? lol yeah i have simblr friends ive been SUPER inactive tho lol
17. What’s your favorite game? (1, 2, 3, or 4) 3 is probably my fav but i really do enjoy 4. 2 will always amazing that’s how i got introduced and i will always love it
18. Do you have any sims merch? not that i can think of
19. Do you have a YouTube for sims? nope
20. How has your “sim style” changed throughout your years of playing? I USED TO USE ALPHA HAIR. thats all thats how its changed. i went really mm after the alpha hair and now ive been more mix the last few years
21. What’s your Origin ID? oh um wileyfern i think i dont actually know
22. Who’s your favorite CC creator? lol uhh too many
23. How long have you had a simblr? 2017?? maybe 16. it was active in spurts when i first started
24. How do you edit your pictures? RESHADE, lol that does all the work. oil paint, smart sharpen, and increase/decrease brightness when needed
25. What expansion/game/stuff pack do you want next? at this point i dont even know. horseys please ❤️ just more worlds actually thats what i want
25. What expansion/game/stuff pack is your favorite so far? island living, cottage living, uhh idk i like a lot of them
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julsdsweet · 7 years
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2017 Testimonials
Siti Nursyakila & Muhammad Syafiq wedding Date of Event: 30 & 31 Dec 2017 via Email
Salam Kak Juls ❤❤❤❤❤
Hi Kak! First of all, i would like to apologies for th delay on this testimonial. I was kinda busy lately. Jangan marah yewww  
To be honest, i swear i really fall in love with your touch. It was OVER what i expected!! Your touch is just like a fairy with a magical wand! SUMPAH! hehee.  Those who came for my majlis really puji your makeup.Sho shantek lah! I am sooooo happy and so satisfied with your work you've done to my face. And also your assistant, MummyWati, who made my makeover a fun one throughout th makeover. YOU ARE TOTALLY HGHLY RECOMMENDED KAK!  In Sha Allah see you around ya!   *CUMI CUMI*  
Norain & Muhammad Faris wedding Date of Event: 17 Dec 2017 via Email
Dear Kak Ju
My sincere tesimonial jus for U.
To My MUA Kak Ju from JULdSWEET,Just wanted to thank you for being amazing on my big day 17/12/17. I could never of achieved what you did, I felt beautiful.Thank you so much for making me look so lovely on my wedding day!!! (You really can work miracles) My photos look amazing and to the fabulous skills of yours.I just can't thank you enuf for the great job you did. Most importantly I appreciate your commitment and professionalism throughout. I had a fantastic day and have received a lot of comments on how beautiful I looked, thanks to your efforts! I would recommend you to everyone!
Best Regards Norain
Siti Aisyah & Mohamed Hasan solemnization Date of Event: 03 Dec 2017 via Email
Salaam Sis,
I just want to extend my heartiest gratitude for the make-up that you did on me. Although the make-up wasn't as neutral as my initial idea, the make-up looked natural and I love it! I received numerous compliments and have recommended your services to potential brides. hehe. And oh thank you for being so generous with your time to ensure my majlis went well. For calming me down and for making me comfortable.
The makeup actually stayed on through the outdoor shoot :) It wasnt cakey and required no touching up at all. (Thank you for providing the touch-up sponge up anyway).
I wish you best in your business Kak ;). Have a great new year!
Noorshahira & Khairil Nazir wedding Date of Event: 07 & 08 Oct 2017 via Email
Dear Kak Juls, 
I'd just like to say my husband & i have no regrets in choosing you to be the MUA for #khaiairara You're sucha fun person to be around with!
Kak Juls is crazy talented..she's literally like a fairygodmother who turns you into a beautiful princess on your big day. 
Very experienced MUA. Very passionate about her work. She preps you with things that you really didn't think of that you might need but u do actually need! 
Very nice, humble, sincere person to talk to..made me feel at ease..especially with some of those gila-gila-LOL moments. 
Kak Juls came highly recommended by my cousin who has previously engaged her. I don't usually wear much makeup, and was cautious about choosing the right MUA especially because i have tanned skin & was afraid of experiencing 'makeup disasters' some tanned-skin brides have had.
Alhamdulillah..i received lots of compliments about how on point my makeup was & how beautiful i looked on both days. I don't know how she does it, transforming my face like that yet everything felt light and my face could amazingly breathe! 
Oh! And even my dad went up to thank her saying this - "Terima kasih eh kasi anak pakcik cantik..dier tak pernah pakai makeup makeup semue" hahhahaha My mom gave me two thumbs up and I've never seen her look that excited & happy looking at me all dolled up in a bollywood themed outfit (her favourite) 
All that thanks to you Kak Juls!!!  From the bottom of our hearts, THANK YOU!!  Please don't stop doing what you're doing!!!  May Allah shower countless blessing upon you your family and your business. 
Regards,  Noorshahira & Khairil
Nuraisha's engagement Date of Event: 13 Sep 2017 via Email
Testimonial:
“From her portfolio, it’s clear that Kak Juls is a talented make-up artist. I was impressed with the look that she created for my engagement in September. Throughout the hair and make-up process, Kak Juls was efficient and meticulous in her efforts; always ensuring that everything was applied exactly right with not a smudge or strand out of place. The outcome was just transformative!
Besides her talent, Kak Juls also impressed me with her dedication and enthusiasm for the job. For a nervous bride-to-be, her calm professionalism and perky personality was reassuring to have in the days before and during the event. Kak Juls always went the extra mile to offer her help and honest advice when I needed it (e.g. explaining through the sequence of events, on choosing outfit, accessories, how to pose, etc.). Also, during the hair and make-up process, Kak Juls filled the time with diverting conversation to distract me from my nervousness.
Overall, I’m very grateful to Kak Juls for her help throughout the engagement event.
She will definitely be my make-up artist of choice for my wedding next year!”
Hairianna's solemnization Date of Event: 02 Sep 2017 via IG Posting
2/9/17 20:00 marks my most favourite part of the wedding, the solemnization. Hence, here is a legit appreciation post to the one who made me the prettiest yet most comfortable I've ever felt, Kak @julsdsweet :heart:
She wasn't on time, instead she was super early! Very well prepared, knowledgeable, calm and collected, chitty chatty, kindest and thoughtful, gave very good spontaneous advices and last but not least.. her touch is out of the world, I promise you.
With make up, there goes a saying "A little goes a long way" and she implemented that, despite the many products that was used, my make up didn't feel the slightest cakey and I felt that my skin was still able to breathe throughout. Flawed yet flawless! All these photos you're seeing are raw and unedited, just under different lightings. Beautiful isn't it? :heart_eyes: (Video quality may suck a little because I'm using an old phone to upload)
She was meant to touch and go, but she went the extra mile to ensure I was seated on the dais in worries that I'll get pushed around without the presence of a Mak Andam. She gave me tips, dos and don'ts, and a positive mindset before she left.
Thanks to you, I now have set a standard and expectations of a Mak Andam/MUA. They don't only doll you up but they're meant to prep you in many different perspectives, as a Muslim bride I was touched by how she naturally said dua for me and somehow guided me even for that brief moment.
I have 0.00% regrets engaging her and I 1001% recommend her to BTBs or anyone at all looking to be dolled up. She will not disappoint, I promise. I even received tons of positive feedback on how beautiful the look was :heart_eyes:
Thank you Kak @julsdsweet for your hard work! May you be blessed with health and wealth to pursue your passion. You're on speed dial for my future events :heart:
#julsdsweet #shajim #bridalmakeup
Nur Alyssa & Shazwan wedding Date of Event: 12 & 13 Aug 2017 via Email
Assalamualaikum Kak Juls!
Hope you are doing well kak :)
First and foremost i would like to sincerely thank you for your wonderful service throughout my nikah and sanding event. Alhamdulillah everything was perfect. You made me feel comfortable and calm with your guidance and funny jokes. Me and Shazwan had fun with your company :) And your makeup and hijab styling is definitely on point. We all loved it very much!
We would definitely recommend your service to future bride to be and friends! Tip top service provided. A very professional, humble and easy going person to work with. Two thumbs up
Once again thank you so much Kak!!! 
Sincerely, Alyssa & Shazwan
Siti Nur 'Alaniah & Jufri wedding Date of Event: 22 Apr 2017 via Email
Salaam Sis,
Hope you and your family are in the best of health and always be in His care and Protection inshaAllah.
Anyway Jufri and I can't thank you enough for the awesome andaman service during our big day! We truly appreciate your time and assistance throughout our sanding by taking care of my makeup, making sure our baju are perfectly in place, reminding us to smile and even assisting our cameraman for our wedding poses. I can't imagine how to go thru the day without you around that day.  MashaAllah. You're like a big sis whom I could really trust and rely on, and am so glad that you followed us around that day. 
Also, our deepest apologies for any shortcomings on our part and may we cross path again in future. We wish you the best and May Allah reward your kindness and patience with abundant blessings and goodness. :)
Wassalam.
Sincerely, Alaniah & Jufri 220417
Siti Nazreen & Muhammad Zul Hairi wedding Date of Event: 10 & 12 Mar 2017 via Email
Assalammualaikum Kak Juli,
Sincerely, I would like to thank you for your fabulous & excellent services. My husband and I have no doubt to hire you from day 1 as we both know that you will definitely did an extra mile for us. We love the outfits and definitely the make up. Many compliments received from our guests and family. Definitely we will recommend you to our bride/groom to be friends for your services, some are already asking about you. (:
We really appreciate effort you have put in to work within our budget. Thank you once again for your services, time and patience throughout our event. May you succeed in your business and may Allah shower you with His blessings. Amin!
Lots of Love,
Reen & Zul
Nur Zahidah & Syed Husaini wedding Date of Event: 14 Jan 2017 via Email
Salam Kak Juls,
May you be in the best health and iman.
Sorry for the long awaited testimonial. 
The humble and down to earth make up artist for my graduation photoshoot, my engagement and now my wedding.
Since I know you I have already know that you will be my make up artist for my wedding day. Alhamdulillah thank you for making me look amazing and always be there for me. Not only did you do a superb job but you were so lovely to have around, and you went far beyond your 'remit' as makeup artist by even to keep me calm. Not  forgetting abang Im, for the advise and entertaining us asyik gelak je.
We will highly recommend your service to any of the future bride and groom. May your business success. 
Jazakallah Khair
Amin.
Yours sincerely Zahidah and Husaini  #nzshweds
Suhainah & Muhammad Fitri wedding Date of Event: 30 & 31 Dec 2016 via Email
Assalamualaikum Kak Juls!
Sue & hubby want to say a big THANK YOU for your wonderful service.. From the 1st time we met till our wedding day..
Your magic hands had turned me into a beautiful princess.. Many people complimented on the makeup.. Loving the eyes makeup especially when I got to wear niqab.. It's a dream came true.. ^_^
Thank you to Abg Im for the advice and entertaining our nonsense (more to Fitri's).. Gonna miss all the usik2 and inside jokes..
Semoga business Kak JulsDsweet maju selalu.. Till we meet again.. 
Best wishes,  Suhainah & Fitri #sxfstory
Nur Hafizah & Abdul Khalid wedding Date of Event: 6 & 7 Jan 2017 via Email
Dear Kak Juls,
We would like to give a million thanks for being the most fantastic mak andam we could ever deserve on our big day. Right from liaising with you in the beginning, to addressing our concerns via Whatsapp and to the selection of outfits towards our big day, I can safely say that we were in good hands through and through.
Honestly, I rarely wear makeup. So when the time came for me to look for a mak andam or makeup artist, I was actually quite nervous coz I did not know what to look for. Through my friend’s (Azlin) recommendation, I decided to browse through your past work and with tawakkal, we chose you.
On the actual nikah and sanding days, you were very professional and prompt in delivering your service towards me, as well as to Khalid too. We were blessed to receive compliments from many who commended on your skills.
I am grateful for those moments where you were there to calm, advise and guide me, Kak. I will miss our conversations and gurau senda especially.
Kak Juls, to say you are talented is an understatement. You did an amazing job and I can’t thank you enough. May you always be blessed with His abundance, Insya Allah.
Hafizah & Khalid
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nightswithkookmin · 3 years
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Hello Goldy 💜 So JK dint post for Jin and so does Tae. Both of them di t post for Jinins bday also. Whats going on here ? I dont understand if JK and Tae have been banned from posting on their boyfriends bday. As u can tell i am both Jikook and Taejin shipper. What do u think is happening or should i say not happening.
This topic...
Hold on, lemme put on my tinfoil hat:
I got nothing. Lol.
Secondly, aaaaah Tae Kook!
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Lol. Tae Kook. The evil power duo of BTS, my favorite rageddy boogie men of ship street Avenue, PPP- pathological party poopers of Bangtan fantasyland- stomping on shipper's parade, putting commas in people's hopes and dreams. Y'all didn't get the memo? When we said y'all be snatching hearts, this is not the kind of horror heart snatching we was talking about! Y'all ratchet for this shit. Lol.
Someone give them the memo. Atatatatatat.
Lmho.
I mean for Jk, I've already speculated a few times- several times now, how I feel he's kind off been on a self assertive journey since late 2019 and coupled with a lot of things I felt was happening with him, Jimin and group around that period, that him not posting for the members' birthdays sort of make a lot of sense to me.
I've also speculated on what I felt was going on with Kook, RM and Tae around JM's birthday this year, so Tae not posting for JM also sort of made sense to me?
Tae missed Jimin's birthday as well. It would have been 'problematic' in today's social media climate if he posted for any body else within the group after that. It's the same with JK when he missed Jin's birthday last December- had he posted for anybody else, I'm afraid several trucks would have been sent to BigHit HQ demanding his head on a spike. Chileee.
Can't blame them though. Even the members themselves, during 2017 Festa, descended hard on JK for gifting a present to Jimin and not the others- they pay attention to these things, you know? Jin in his recent VLive had said he had been up waiting for texts and all- or something along the lines of that, and I'm pretty sure he pays attention to who posts what on their Twitter account on his birthday. Well we know Jimin does this too. Lol.
You don't need to be a mad scientist to figure out that one member posting for another and not the others would make the members feel some kind of way about it even if they don't say it out loud.
Frankly, like I said, I feel they set themselves up for this shit- miss one, miss them all or risk solo stans coming for your ass. That's how we roll on these fang gang streets. Lol.
But for Kook, I sort of felt his was deliberate- may be an impulsive decision at the time, but deliberate nonetheless. I mean he had all 24 hours post Jin's birthday to belate that shit- better late than never, but he didn't do that.
Whatever had transpired within that period- which I've speculated on in past posts, I feel that had pushed him to his breaking point and had incentivized him or propelled him to reel back, reevaluate his goals, intentions, purpose, calling- whatever you wanna call it, and eventually had embarked on a journey to reassert himself and take back control of his life all throughout 2020- until recent times...
- Y'all see Jikook's dynamics have flipped again post Jimin's birthday right? Clear your schedules. We gone talk. Soon. Muhahaha.
I don said, Jikook have/had been asserting themselves against eachother and against the group this year. And for Jk, that self assertion would come in the form of him putting up boundaries and reinforcing already existing boundaries among other things, which would in turn require him demanding and demonstrating his independence from anything and anyone he had relinquished his self autonomy to- prior to. In my opinion.
I'm gonna step on a few toes here and regurgitate, JK didn't just take a step back from his life, he took a step back from Jimin as well, in my opinion- I can literally hear temperatures rising. Chilee. Lmho.
It's easy to lose yourself in the process of loving someone. And when you love this person more than you love yourself, in the thick of love, under heavy public and peer scrutiny, where you are being told to change this and that about yourself everyday and everytime as a prerequisite for being able to love this person you want within a group; then you are bound to end up with nothing but the total eradication of who you are at your core or at least a drift away from your true self and the expressions of it... Sigh.
I mean all the, 'try not to be so possessive, he's our friend too' 'operation neutralize Jikook' 'chilee, don't lean too much into him, this is an award' 'I've got Jimin, restrain Kook' 'oh I think you stared too long here' 'look away' 'you got him a present, why didn't you get us any' 'is that your heart eyes?' 'Tuck it away' 'why do you film Jimin a lot?' 'use this person, not Jimin for your GCF if you want the clicks' 'GCF in Tokyo? How about OT7 in wherever mate?' - all these little tweaks and adjustments he's had to make to his personality and his expressions of self in order to hide his relationship within the group climaxes honestly. In my opinion. And late 2019 to me was that peak for JK. Again, in my opinion.
Changes like these don't come drastically. They creep up on you. Its slippery slope till you're caught knee deep in the mud. For instance, notice when the members complained about him not caring for them because he hadn't presented them with gifts like he did Jimin, he had agreed immediately to give them presents in the future in order to not answer to their question of why he had chosen to give just Jimin a present. That compromise to me was one of the early signs of him losing his authenticity. In my opinion.
Jimin and the members were quick to point out that he didn't have to do that because giving and gifting were not obligations and honestly they were right. He doesn't have to do things if he doesn't want to.
That's the paradox of Jungkook. He does the things he wants to do without shame and he is fearless and unapologetic about it. But you see, he is also often very passive when it comes to the things he doesn't want to do and would hesitate in insisting on his boundaries until he is pushed to his limits- from my observation of his interactions with the members and I think Suga and RM have talked about this too.
A classic example of this is his conversation with Jimin about their friendship- when Jimin said they were in between love and friends. His hesitation was a sign he was uncomfortable with that description but he didn't assert himself over it.
Another example would be Jimin saying during their log that he was taking a liking to JK- JK didn't react as much but JM turning to ask him if he was ok with him saying things like that was a sign they had had the talk about 'boundaries.'
JK is a very assertive person but his position as the youngest within the group places a lot of restrictions on his assertiveness I feel.
We talk a lot about Jimin being Kumbaya and sacrificing a lot of their personal happiness for the good of the group- well, I've been talking. Y'all don't say shit much- fuxking lurkers 😒 y'all suck. Lol. [Delete before you post, you idiot. They don't know you like that]
Anywho, we often talk about Jimin in this context but we- by we, I mean I, don't talk enough about all the ways JK often sacrifices his authenticity for the Kumbaya of the group as well. But unlike Jimin, I feel JK does it so he can keep his glass closet- fucking whippidy whip whipped. Lol.
And it's crazy because that sacrifice he makes of his true feelings and it's expression is what often leads people to question whether he acts exclusively with JM at all.
Often I hear shippers complain about how he did this with Jimin but he did similar thing with another member- listen, if you've heard JK sigh upon seeing RM imitating his mannerisms to try to neutralize his nonverbal gestures around Jimin, you'd understand what exclusivity means for him.
And when, you think about that he had to apologize to and explain himself for choosing to wear his man's bag over another member- it's not hard to see where his authentic self began to erode- It started from the moment the apologies begun. Never apologize for who you are- class dismissed. Lol.
Then he goes on to talk about losing his passions for his GCFs, his music- this is a person everyone within the group had said is or was the most passionate member within the group... You gotta wonder where it all went wrong. Know what I mean? Come on work me. I'm writing this at 2am. Lol.
I think Jimin was right when he said giving should never be a task. You should give from your heart and from your own free will. Not for show, and certainly not to please anyone.
Wishing a member a happy birthday should never be a duty, task or obligation- especially when such moments and expressions of it has become performative over the years rather than as true expressions of the love and affections they have for eachother- ok, I'm dozing off now. Lmho.
I mean let's face it, posting on Twitter for eachother has become more of a culture and an established tradition within the group that sentimental members within the group hold on to.
The birthday twitter post has been hijacked and lowkey/highkey advances the OT7 kumbaya agenda BigHit is bent on pushing and sells the BTS bromance fantasy to us rather than an actual representation of their love for eachother. In my opinion. I could be wrong about this.
JK asserting himself would mean him choosing not to participate in expressions that to him are performative, shallow and lacks depth whatsoever.
I know what you are gonna say- but but Jimin's birthday. But but but nothing. Lol. I have said I felt he was going to post for Jimin's birthday. Dude geared up for it with the 5/8 and everything.
And given as he's been on a journey to do the things he wants to and to pursue meaning in his expressions of self within the group, I feel and I believe he believes wishing his man a happy birthday on social is meaningful- Confirmation bias this shit. Lol.
Not that the act itself is meaningful, but that the act holds meaning to Jimin. I think I've talked extensively about Jimin and how important his birthday is to him. The only reason I feel he wouldn't or didn't post for him was if Jimin had asked him not to- which I believe he did. Posting for Jimin would have been tantamount to outing their relationship gangster style. Lol.
And we all know how the members feel about that. Smirk.
So no, I don't think he's been banned from posting for his man's birthday. I think this is him deciding not to partake in performative expressions of love- perhaps because that has never been him?
I don't know for Tae's Journey. His decision not to post feels very random to me. Who knows, he and JK have been talking a lot lately it seems and getting closer post Sope. So if you ask me, this perhaps is him taking a page out of JK's self help book and pursuing that authenticity of self expressions I've talked about?
I mean he did do awesome things for Jin's birthday so I don't think we can complain much. Getting his friends to wish Jin a happy birthday certainly pulls weight over a second post on Twitter. Jin got a birthday party with the members, RM had the same.....
The thing that bothers me and my friends over here about Jikook's incident is the lack of closure after that traumatizing experience.
With the others JK didn't post for, at least we got to see him in a VLive with them interacting and just giving us moments here and there. So even if he didn't post, we know he was with them and they shared the memory of that day together- which I feel is what we shippers want. For them to show eachother love- whatever way they express it.
With Jimin- Nada. Zero. Zilch. We got nothing my guy. Jimin didn't share any insight or give any details remotely resembling closure for us. We were hoping for a bangtan bomb or Episode but nothing so far. I hate it here.
We didn't get to see JK showing the love we know he feels for Jimin- he's proven time and again he loves that man. We didn't get to see them share the memories of that day together. Not even through narration- Jimin, you sonova bish! Lol.
Would I ever move on from that incident? No.
Do I want to move on from that incident- chileee I've been trying. It would haunt me for the rest of my Jikook life. Lol. I still get get nightmares thinking about it and it's Christmas. Sigh.
I think we would have to observe rather than anticipate how they choose to express and communicate their love for one another- especially Jikook and by extension Taejin- chilee Anon, I respect your hustle. Lol.
I don't blame you though. I mean sometimes Jin be looking like he wants to gobb-ok
What was your question again? Lol. I hope I answered it. Chilee. Keep supporting Jikook.
Signed,
GOLDY
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keikigoodbetter · 3 years
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Rules: Tag 10 other blogs you want to learn more about!
Ahhh a tag from @sp-oops Thanks dude! Sorry this took me a thousand years to get around to T.T
Name: Catherine
Nicknames: Catie and Keiki
Starsign: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Height: 5′7" when I think about my posture lol
Fave Color: sunshine yellow :)
Current Time: 5:30am
Current Location: Colorado, USA
Average Hours of Sleep: a solid 8-9 most nights
Lucky Number: ? I don’t really have one, but I’ve always liked the way 20 feels, I guess. 3s and 5s are nice too
Last thing I Googled: ski areas in Montana
Number of Blankets I Sleep With: blanket + comforter in the winter, just the quilt in summer
Fave Fictional Characters: If I’m not careful then I’ll just turn this into a list of “characters I project on” instead of my actual favorites lol but let’s give it a shot. Elizabeth Swann (POTC), Elliot Spencer (Leverage), Mulan (1998 movie), Elizabeth Bennet (P&P), Luke Skywalker (SW original trilogy only; new trilogy Luke? I don’t know her), Vax and Jester (Critical Role), Thor (Marvel), Baru Cormorant (The Masquerade. I don’t actually LIKE her very much, but she is extremely compelling).
Fave Bands/Artists: Fall Out Boy, The Birthday Massacre, John Denver, The Cure, HIM
Dream Job: ooof. No idea.
Random Fact: I’ve got a 253 day streak on duolingo!!
Do You Have Any Other Blogs? (x) for aesthetic/photography, (x) as a semi-ironic scene kid blog, (x) is called College Hell so I’m sure you can guess what it’s about, plus a couple others just for me lmao
When Did Your Blog Reach its Peak? It has literally never had one lmao, but I used it most frequently during 2017-2018ish
What Made You Decide to Get Tumblr: Back in middle/high school I was first getting into the idea of online fandom. Between spending a lot of time creeping on my friends’ blogs, and seeing a lot of screenshot-ed tumblr stuff over on pinterest, I eventually caved and made my own blog instead of continuing to get my content secondhand lol
Do You Get Asks on a Daily Basis? Heck no, but they’re fun when they show up!
Why did you choose your URL?  Ok haha so it's based on nicknames I had when I was a little kid. My baby brother couldn't say "Catie" when he was learning to talk and always pronounced it "Cay-key", which is the same way you say "child" in Hawaiian ("keiki"). My mom spent a lot of time in Hawaii throughout her life so she loved using that as my nickname. Plus my parents were as gende-neutral as possible with everything pregnancy/baby related, so before I was given a name their families used "Good Better" as a silly, nongendered nickname to talk about the baby (Our last name is "Best" so "good, better, best"; like the adjective progression)
No brainpower this early in the morning to tag other people, I’m sorry. Pick it up and tag me if you wanna do it too!
<3
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spiritmaiden23 · 4 years
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THE POSITIVE & NEGATIVE; Mun & Muse - Meme.
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fill out & repost ♥ This meme definitely favors canons more, but I hope OC’s still can make it somehow work with their own lore, and lil’ fandom of friends & mutuals. Multi-Muses pick the muse you are the most invested in atm.
My muse is:   canon / oc / au / canon-divergent / fandomless /
Is your character popular in the fandom?  YES / NO / IDK. For sure, for being the cutest of cutes!! All Zeldas are cute though but she was the blueprint ;v; 
Is your character considered hot™ in the fandom?  YES / NO / IDK. I’m a devout christian virgin I would never ever look at those kind of topics the only hot I see is the flames of hell for even considering this smh smh bUT NO FOR REAL THO I’M NOT REALLY SURE???? I mostly see people gushing over how cute she is rather than hot. 
Is your character considered strong in the fandom?  YES / NO / In some aspects. We don’t really see Skyward Sword Zelda’s abilities in the games as we did in, say, BOTW where she goes full goddess mode. Aside from blessing the master sword, sealing herself away, and the implications that the game gives us with Zelda being not only a student at the knight school but also a badass warrior goddess in her past life; I’d say she’s pretty up there in terms of strength. 
Are they underrated?  YES / NO. GONNA GO WITH YES AND NO ON THIS. As a character, Zelda is far from underrated she’s actually cliche blonde character we all love and stan but in this incarnation.... also yes and no because while I see a lot of people like SS Zelda keep in mind that SS is the black sheep of the series so not a lot of people have good opinions on it. I’ve seen some say she’s annoying, too shoujo or even Mary Sue at some points and hweoh we all know that the last one ain’t even close to true since she’s far from bland and OP written. But it’s all a matter of perspective!  
Were they relevant for the main story?  YES / NO.
Were they relevant for the main character? YES / NO /
Are they widely known in their world?  YES / NO.
How’s their reputation?  GOOD / BAD / NEUTRAL / FOR THE MOST PART, if we were talking verses like say witch verse she’d have more of a neutral reputation considering witches aren’t really well-liked ;-; 
How strictly do you follow canon?  
I try to do the best that I can do given with what we’re working with here all while adding my own spin to her characterization because we all have different perspective when it comes to art! How I see Zelda is someone who’s bubbly, playful (big ol bully hweoh), a bit of a busybody if she feels she needs to step in due to worrywart tendencies yet highly responsible and carries a wisdom that’s beyond her age, she doesn’t like seeing people bullying others and isn’t afraid to put her foot down to speak her mind if something is up. While kindness is sorta her strong suit I wanted to go beyond “nice girl” and just showcase other sides of her too, hence why main verse is typically set during the events of SS because here we see her growth into the girl we see at the end of the game where she’s melancholic of her past but is looking forward to seeing what the future holds and wants to build a brighter tomorrow with Link by her side along with friends and loved ones. I’m not at all confident in playing as her, despite playing as Zelda since 2017 haha!! So I can’t really say that I’m super strict in following canon considering that’s how I view the character through the actions and dialogue throughout the game, perhaps the creators had something different in mind than how I see Sky Zelda.   
SELL YOUR MUSE! Aka try to list everything, which makes your muse interesting in your opinion to make them spicy for your mutuals.  
DO YOU LIKE WHOLESOME GIRLS?! Wait no, hold on, that’s a little too vague, so let’s try that again. Do you like wholesome genki girls who were once a god who fought in a war in their past life? How about pastel girls who may seem sweet but are deep down bullies towards loved ones? Are you at a point in your life where you find yourself wondering: where on earth can I find someone who’s ray of sunshine can brighten up my day. Will do I have good news for you buddy! Introducing your very own friend: Zelda from hit series Legend of Zelda: Skyward Sword. This Zelda is more extreme than the others due to the fact that she’s not a princess, that’s right no princess titles clogging up that beautiful name. Just a knight who somehow finds out she’s actually a goddess reborn as human, no biggie! 
Now the OPPOSITE, list everything why your muse could not be so interesting (even if you may not agree, what does the fandom perhaps think?)
SHOUJO PROTAG WHO’S TOO FREAKING CUTE!! So.... if that’s not your cup of tea ;v; but nah I can see people not liking Zelda because not everyone like the nice girl who’s your childhood friend characrter, I totally get it but if you dig a little deeper you see that there’s more to it than that.
What inspired you to rp your muse?  
My close friend was FINALLY getting into the LOZ series back when BOTW was first coming out, her playthrough of SS made me remember how much I loved each characters and honestly Zelda’s design in that game was always my fav right next to Tetra and ALTTP/ALBW! At the time I mostly played more introverted muses or straight up villains and I wanted to try my hand at playing more wholesome characters like Sky Zel and ALTTP Zel ;v; now look at me, the CEO of wholesome cute girls ;v; 
What keeps your inspiration going?  
Motivation and time at this point, I’m not the young starry-eyed rper who used to have playlists and replay things to keep up with canon. I just pray to god I’m doing ok, let jesus take the wheel and just sorta do my own thing. I think having fun threads or a friendship with partners or just good vibes from them def helps a whole lot. 
Some more personal questions for the mun.
Give your mutuals some insight about the way you are in some matters, which could lead them to get more comfortable with you or perhaps not.
Do you think you give your character justice?  YES / NO.
Do you frequently write headcanons?  YES / NO. SORTA KINDA NOT AS MUCH AS I DO WITH ALTTP ZEL BECAUSE I’M ALWAYS NERVOUS THAT I MIGHT LIKE BREAK THE CANON OR ZEL’S CHARACTER!! 
Do you sometimes write drabbles?  YES / NO.  
Do you think a lot about your Muse during the day?  YES / NO.
Are you confident in your portrayal?   YES / NO.
Are you confident in your writing?  YES / NO / Most of the time!
Are you a sensitive person?  YES / NO. I mean, that’s a trick question because I can be sensitive in picking up tones and reading between the lines but like if you mean if someone says something mean than no not anymore at least, I’m too old to care about what people say about me or think about me. 
Do you accept criticism well about your portrayal?  
YE! I do! I mean we’re all improving and junk so I see no issues with criticisms uvub I always worry about whether or not you can hear different voices within the characters I rp as among writing issues I have that comes with learning disability and ADD, I try my hardest but I know at the end of the day there will always be grammar mistakes and even spelling! 
Do you like questions, which help you explore your character?
YES YES YES!! OMG YES!! I TAKE WHATEVER QUESTIONS YOU MAY HAVE AND JUST... WORD VOMIT BACK SEVEN PAGE ESSAY SOMETIMES ;V; 
If someone disagrees to a headcanon of yours, do you want to know why?
Eh, well yeah it’d be nice honestly to hear feedbacks and thoughts. Just saying ‘I don’t like this or I don’t agree with this’ doesn’t really help anyone who wants to improve but I’m not gonna like press them for it either because again I’m at the stage in my life where I’m just like ‘it is what it is’. 
If someone disagrees with your portrayal, how would you take it?
Shrug emoji, and then move on! Again it’d be nice if they can tell me though but I won’t press them for it if they don’t feel like it. We’re allowed to have our opinions after all yo!
If someone really hates your character, how do you take it?
It is illegal to hate sky zel or any Zel really... NAH JK I DON’T REALLY CARE I’ve liked characters who aren’t popular among the fandom, I’m more or less used to seeing character bashing for faves so like it doesn’t really affect me at all I’m just like “lol” and move on. 
Are you okay with people pointing out your grammatical errors?
YES! Though keep in mind, despite me using Grey instead of Gray, I use US English ;v; so keep that in mind when spotting out certain words other parts of the world may spell differently because us US Americans just..... gotta be extra like that. 
Do you think you are easy going as a mun?  
I TRY!!! IDK IF I COME ACROSS AS THAT but I’m very much someone who goes with the flow anyway, I’ve been told that much IRL and I’m just hweoh not really someone who’s a stick in the mud or has a stick up their ass, you know? I’m pretty laid back and not much bothers me, I can get petty if I have to come across rude people that’s the one thing that kills it for me but aside from that, I just wanna try to get along with people. We don’t have to be friends if you’re not feeling the vibes but friendly terms is good enough for me!
That’s about it, congrats for filling out!
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purplesurveys · 4 years
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What was the last thing you posted on a Instagram? A photo of a plate of corndogs that my dad made me. Welp, I had planned to come up with one of those one-photo-a-day-for-a-year for 2020, but that plan is obviously ruined given the current situation. I tried keeping it up during the quarantine but everything has just been so fucking monotonous I’ve failed to update it since April 4th. Do you consider yourself a nature person? I do. I know I am, but I just haven’t been submerged in a lot of nature-y experiences yet. Like I’ve never legit camped in the middle of nowhere or climbed a mountain before, but I’m always willing to do those kinds of things. What kind of collection would you like to start? Wrestling memorabilia. I’ve always wanted to start collecting DVD sets, figures, and belts, and I hope I get to keep that goal up once I start earning my own money :) What helps you take your mind off your problems? SURVEYS, for suuure. The more problems I have, the more I take lol. YouTube videos also help and it’s my go-to website whenever I’m not feeling perfect. And hugging my dog. Who do you miss, if anyone? Been missing Gabie since March and it’s only gotten worse since.
What do you miss, if anything? Normalcy. I really hate how much I’ve had to adjust and even give up/miss out on because of the virus, like an eventful final semester in college or actually doing on-ground work for my thesis. I miss being stuck in traffic and getting shawarma with Laurice and regularly seeing protests on campus and everything else that came with university life. Do you prefer to live alone or live in a family? I would love to live with a roommate or two – basically, people who have vastly different backgrounds than I do that I could share stories and experiences with. This lockdown has made me realize that I don’t want to live with my family for long; and I feel like I’d eventually lose it if I lived alone so both of your options seem unattractive. What states have you visited, that you remember? None of them. What countries have you visited? China, Japan, South Korea, Indonesia, Malaysia, and Singapore. What countries do you want to visit? Thailand, Vietnam, India, Turkey, and Morocco. What states would you most like to visit? New York, Illinois, Utah, Colorado, and Alaska. What are five careers you've considered? Throughout my life, I’ve considered beinggggg a pro wrestler, a model, a veterinarian, an astronaut, and an author. Do you use a sunlamp when it's cloudy? No, I’ve never needed one because it’s super bright here 24/7, 365. Even if it’s cloudy you wouldn’t something as bright as a sunlamp. What's your latest discovery? People are assholes and will share jumpscare videos at 2 AM even if so many others have expressed their legitimate panic and anxiety over them.
What do you wish your hair looked like? Nothing, I’m happy with it right now. Which family member has your exact smile? Sometimes I’ll resemble my mom, but for the most part I don’t think I share my smile with anybody. Do you still feel anything for the first person you fell in love with? Yep, she’s remained very important to me this whole time. What's one thing you're behind on? Kdramas. Lol I get soooooo lazy when it comes to watching them because every episode is an hour long and I just don’t have the attention span for that. I’ve seen so many shows trend over the last few weeks and yet I’ve barely met any progress watching Descendants of the Sun. Who was the last person you called? Gabie. Do you take pictures on your phone? ...Duh? But yeah, I like saving my memories so I have a couple thousand photos in my camera roll at present. How old were you the first time you loved school? 19, I guess. I hated the culture in my first school and I hated my freshman year in college. I only started taking studying seriously in my second year, when I turned 19. How old were you the first time you encountered God? Idk, the second I was born. Have you ever hallucinated? It doesn’t really count as hallucinate but once when I was 8, I had a very high fever and I had a nightmare alongside it, so when I woke up to my grandma soaking hot water all over my body to treat my fever I was still in dream-mode and screaming out stuff to her that was within the universe of that dream. Does it annoy you when people share their ignorant opinions online? Sometimes it can be annoying but sometimes it can be entertaining too, just watching their ignorance unfold haha. Do you clean your place often? I wouldn’t say often, but I will tidy up my room occasionally. Do you struggle to get by? Not right now since I’m still dependent on my parents. But I suppose when I get my first job, my financial situation wouldn’t be rainbows and unicorns at first. What color is your wristwatch? I don’t have one. I stopped wearing watches after I realized I just lose every single one of them. :/ Who is the best looking male celebrity, in your opinion? Timothée Chalamet. Do you still miss a friend who betrayed you? No. How many subscribers do you have on youtube? 0. And rightfully so, I don’t post anything on it. If you'd like to share, what is your screenname on Instagram? Nope. Do you use Snapchat? Barely. I’ll use it for the filters sometimes, but otherwise I stopped using it as a social media since 2017. Do you enjoy typing? Idk, enjoy is a little loaded. I’m neutral about it, it’s just what I have to do to post text online lol. Are you a fast texter? I’d say that, sure. Would you rather text or call? TEXT do not call me ever Do you know anyone who has everything handed to them? Yep. I try not to think of those people because it’s such an unfair situation and it’ll just stress me out. Would you ever want to be a famous youtuber? Haha yeah, I’ve thought about making it as a vlogger. But the career is super unpredictable and it’s so easy to fall behind in it because so many people are getting into it and are just doing the same thing, so if anything it’s something I wanna do as a side project, and solely for fun. Do you know anyone who's colorblind? Not that I know of. What are three of your pet peeves? People who are late, people who don’t meet their deadlines, and people who don’t smile back or say thank you whenever a barista or a server serves them.
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nicaninetynine · 6 years
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I’m a bit sad today..
Sad, because the game that introduced me to friends online has also made me realize that not all things stay the same. Ragnarok Online unlike any other online games I’ve played, makes me really happy. Emphasis on the really because it really does. It wasn’t the first online game I’ve played but it was the first game that I truly fell in love with. Cheesy, huh. I’ve been through a lot - winning small events, invested so much time and even money, got hacked, scammed and even got my heart broken. But I was sure that it was because of all these experiences that I felt that my social life was very alive even if I was just in front of the computer. I met friends from this game. The reason why Ragnarok Online is a game that I constantly come back to is because of my friends. I met my friends for almost 8 years in our country’s official server back when we were young and were still in what we call “jeje” stage. I could only provide a short description here, but these friends namely Jen, Lisha, Aica, Kring and Ella (we lost contact a few years ago) were the people I never thought I’d share an 8-year friendship with. What makes it fun is that even when RO’s official server in the PH closed down 3 years ago, we still played the game through different private servers. It’s just sad that most of the private servers we played eventually closed down too.. but that isn’t strong enough to stop playing the game we enjoy.
I’m grateful to the Lord that He has given me friends likes them even if we don’t always communicate (busy lives IRL lol). I’d also like to thank the owners of Facebook and Discord for creating instruments of communication (HAHA). Anyway, the real reason why Ragnarok Online also made me sad is because it is where I saw how my friends transitioned to a “regular gamer in the game” to “busy with real life” kind of person. I might be exaggerating because my friends and I still play the game but I always get the feeling that it wasn’t like before - that we might have reached the point that we’d go into our own separate ways. It isn’t THAT major actually. I think I am just exaggerating (seriously). But seriously speaking, I guess we just can’t control that. I have RO friends who are able to play the game while busy with work/studies. That’s great and all but when I think about the future, I realize that it won’t be the same. My friends and I might meet opportunities in real life with regards to their career paths.. even love. Get what I’m saying? We might have played War of Emperium in different private servers, collected costumes and headgears, helped each other with equipment sets, fangirled when seeing a hottie player (hehe), meeting each other in real life or just simply sat and did little chit-chats in the area we that we became friends -- Payon Forest BUT who knows what the future holds? As we grow older, we realize that Ragnarok Online has always been a part of who we are but we just can’t stay in it forever, can we? That thought scares me.. That we would arrive to the point that we have to bid our goodbyes to each other because we have bigger responsibilities and opportunities but at the same time, thanking them for the great x years of friendship. In simple terms, that we might permanently stop playing the game.
Ragnarok Online wouldn’t be Ragnarok Online if it weren’t for all the experiences and memories made with our friends. We might live a hundred or a thousand miles apart (I’m the farthest tbh. We have friends abroad but in the PH, I’m the farthest from my friends living here in the country), but thanks to internet connection and mobile data, the 8 years of playing felt like my friends were just like real life friends. Throughout the 8 years, I have not only met the 5 friends I mentioned earlier. I call it “group”, this “group” has grew by meeting different people in both official and private servers.
 ~TIMELINE~ OF THE GROUP! 
2010-2011: Firsts
 I was part of this “group” called Tropang Payon Forest (TPF), the first word is in Filipino which means Tropa or Friends in English so it’s like Friends in Payon Forest. I think they already existed even before 2010 (the year I first played Ragnarok Online) and by that time Payon Forest was filled with people but some people stopped playing by 2011. I temporarily stopped playing around January 2011 and played again on October of the same year. When I came back, Payon forest was empty. January was still filled with people summoning monsters from dead branches! Wth. It was then I discovered that some players migrated from Payon Forest to Prontera Field! These two maps share something in common: They are both located south of Payon Town and Prontera respectively. I visited Prontera Field, it became a place where I could spend my time AFK-ing but the people there weren’t the same people in Payon Forest - my friends quit the game. I don’t know why because I kind of “left” my friends back then. I got really sad because my account got hacked and even got my friend’s item stolen. 
2011-2012: Reunion
 By this time, I got in touch with some of my friends (Jen and Lisha). I deleted my RO friends when I quit in 2011 because I did not want to be reminded of the game anymore so I added them again when I played again until news spread and my friends played the game again. It was also this time that I first played a private server with them! I also met additional TPF friends, Erika and Nald.
2013: Private Servers again
We played a private server but I had to temporarily stop playing because I was busy with school. In a certain server (Fatal RO), Lisha and Kring who stayed active made friends there. These friends, we still communicate with them from time to time even played with them around 2016-2017. Hello to the friends I made here even if I was inactive. Hi Ronnie! There were some others but I actually never got to become official friends with them, it happened in 2016 though.
2014: Official Server
Ever since school became busier, I only played during summer vacation, semestral and Christmas breaks but if my memory serves me right, we played in the Official server during this time.
2015: Busy, Official server closed down
We got really busy and inactive but I wasn’t that sad because we still communicated with each other through social media.
Late 2015: New Private Server
A friend of ours made a private server so we decided to play RO again. Negative RO was the name. I stopped playing because of school around January 2016.
2016: FO
Not finger offensive but friendship over. A LOT happened during this year. I still play during vacation, when I came back March 2016, my friends had really strong equipment now. Their guild was really strong and I was kinda left out (HAHA). Good thing my friends were there to help me so I was able to join a few wars. The best WoEs happened when I wasn’t around (daaamn it), so when I came back there were a few people because apparently, my friends’ guild always had the advantage of beating them. I think the server only had two guilds left playing and this was where friendships started to fall. I hope nobody from TPF/Fox reads this because I’m going to narrate bits of a conflict  that appeared out of nowhere.
NOTE: My narration will only be one of the things that have caused problems between the persons involved. I don’t have the best memory out there and I will narrate only what I remember correctly!
My friend, L was the guild leader of Fox (our guild) and there was a time that she could not play in a certain WoE night. She passed the guild leader position to S, a good player in my opinion but S had a poor connection so he wasn’t able to play properly. J, got disappointed and thought that the guild leader position should have been passed to someone else (I think L liked S and also thought that S had the potential to lead the guild) but J was still upset. Bla bla bla I was busy with school and then a notification from Messenger showed up. A new group was made without L. This was another guild but had the Fox members in it except for L. I felt bad for L so I stayed with her for a while, we were both in a guild led by her friend. I was still busy because of school that time so I still wasn’t that active, I even hoped that J and L would fix the problem. It didn’t happen. Things even got worse (won’t narrate them because I might write wrong information because my memory isn’t that good especially when it comes to things like these lol + read NOTE above). When school ended, I played again. I decided to play with the new guild so L also became an enemy in WoE. I think I was neutral at that time(?). I wanted them to be friends again. 
The private server also closed down without them being friends again. L still plays with us when she isn’t busy until now.
Problems aside, I also made friends with people I should have met if it weren’t for me being inactive for sooo long. Will greet them through the letters of their first names. Haha. I’m too shy to actually greet them loool. Basta yon. If ever one of you reads this (super duper low probability of ever happening), I included short descriptions of how we met OR a random description about you! Hi to my good friend Z which I talked more in iRO, Japan friend G, Digital artist D, cousin of a classmate of mine J, became friends because I adopted him c, cousin of the person before this N, ROPH friend M, event gm I, love of the life of a friend of mine E, and another gm R. 
Late 2017: New Server again
I was in 12th grade, graduating actually. I became really busy by this time! My friends played another server. They were all there but I wasn’t because I was super busy with school as usual. I became friends with R also a Negative RO player and RoS master A. I was too late for all the action. When I played, there were two guilds left playing! Whew.
2018: The present
Who would’ve have thought that we’d come this far? It has been 8 years since I played Ragnarok Online, met different people and had my own share of good and bad memories. As I type this super long composition, I only hope that our future may be good for each of us. Ragnarok Online isn’t the only game that we are playing now, there are many to mention! Just kidding. I’m sad that we might not play Ragnarok Online in the future anymore but I’m happy to have come across people who turned into friends that I can keep in my lifetime. Very cheesy. Masyadong OA, I tell myself. But friends or companions are one of the main factors to be able to keep playing a game. Playing becomes really boring when your friends don’t play with you anymore and I’m really happy and thankful that my friends have stayed the same fun people I met when I first talked to them. Lord, I cannot thank You enough! You have given me the opportunity to meet all the other people I’ve met in Ragnarok Online. I hope we cross each other in private servers again because I miss playing with everyone. I know we just recently played a private server but I have to focus on my responsibilities too. 
All the love, 
Mon
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maxfauvelind241 · 3 years
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I think I over analyzed my last design example and will try to just relate the next ones to my criteria of good design. 
This is the Lift-Bit From the international design firm Carlo Ratti Associati Made in 2017
Good design is open-ended. Open-ended design creates the opportunity to go beyond its original purpose. - The Lift Bit has an open ended approach to furniture design. Allowing users to change the configuration and layout of the seats is great it means people can interpret how they want it to be used. The movement of each part allows it to become many things, a bed, a chair, a sofa, or a play space for children (or adults lol). Lift Bit has identified that people will use this for many purposes and have design accordingly.
Good design should push to use more sustainable aspects or materials. Sustainable design should aspire to use renewable materials and lessen negative effects on the environment. Although there isn't a huge focus on sustainability within this design there is slight aspects that are in the right direction, the use of wood on the legs is better than some other materials. Although the technology is very cool it does make the product less sustainable, If the wires or electronics brake there will be a lot of materials put into the repair. Sources electronics can be an unsustainable practice and electronic waste is horrible for the environment.
Good design is inclusive, human centered and provides solutions. When designing a product, the aim should be to progress, positively change or improve the current standard. Lift Bit embodies these ideas strongly, the modular system is completely based on humans and inclusivity. It all about how people want to use this and make it there own. Although modular furniture has been around for a while now the lift bit has progressed what the current standard of modular was. Instead of just changing configurations into a new static object the motion censored nodes allow for constant change and fluidity.    
Good design that doesn’t conform to a single conventional design field is great design. Integrating technology into what is usually a craft based feild (furniture) is such a big step in the right direction. also the technology used is user friendly and shows how different fields of design can merge as one.
Good design must be aesthetically appealing and not over complicated. All the nodes that make up the Lift Bit are the same shape keeping consistency strong throughout the design. They have used a neutral colour that could make its way into any space comfortably. The legs are laminated ply and are very simple. Even if you added 100 of these nodes together it wouldn't look over complicated, lift bit has achieved this by keeping shapes and design very simple.
https://www.designboom.com/design/carlo-ratti-opendot-lift-bit-sofa-05-02-2017/
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detoxdolan · 6 years
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Another Late Tag
🎀Rules: Answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people some of your faves.
I am aware that this is hella long and hella late, but I appreciate being tagged in these things and I love learning about all you lovely people in the fandom.
ALRIGHT LETS GET ITTTTT.
Last: 1. Drink - H2O bro 2. Phone call - I got a phone call from an unknown number while I was at work, so I called back and a random lady with a British accent answered and said she never called me??? 🤔 3. Text message - I’m currently absent from a game, so one of my teammates is filling me in on all the tea I’m missing. Apparently there’s beef between teams. 👀 4. Song you listened to - Praise You by Fatboy Slim (it was in a playlist, let me live.) 😂 5. Time you cried - uhhh Monday (today is Wednesday). So basically two days ago. 😅
Ever: 6. Dated someone twice? - Yes haha 7. Kissed someone and regretted it - Definitely.  8. Been cheated on - stealing this quote from @spiffydolan​ 👉 “technically yes, but really no” 9. Lost someone special - Yes 😳 10. Been depressed - ..Yes. 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up - haha never 😁😁
3 Favorite colours: 12. Neutrals - Black, white, and beige  13. Blue!!! 14. Trendy Colours - so your basic olive green, millennial pink, maroon etc etc 
In the last year (2017) have you: 15. Made new friends - I made this account in December and made so many friends on here that I’m so grateful for every day 😭AND THAT’S JUST ON TUMBLR. I feel like I branched out a lot this year and met so many cool ppl. 2017 was a good year.  16. Fallen out of love - Yes..and tbh it’s one of the worst feelings ever.  17. Laughed until you cried - not something I do often, but I think so. 18. Found out someone was talking about you - haha all the time #TalkShitGetHit 19. Met someone who changed you - Yes.  20. Found out who your friends are - “When people show you their true colours, believe them.” 👉 I feel like we all know the truth about who people are and its just a matter of whether we want to admit it to ourselves or not. There are a lot of people in my life that I know shouldn’t be here but I don’t have the heart to let go of just yet..it’s a work in progress.  21. Kissed someone on your Facebook friends list - uhhhhh probably LOL
General: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know irl - tbh, I tried to do a facebook cleanse and remove anyone I didn’t associate with in real life but that lasted for like 2 seconds LMAO 23. Do you have any pets - I have a weenie dog 😊 24. Do you want to change your name - I don’t quite like my name, but I don’t think anything else would match me???  25. What did you do for your last birthday - I went to a club with my 2 best friends and we ran into some friends and celebrated all together. Then I had a intimate little dinner with all my closest friends and family. OH I also cut all my hair off - so I guess there’s that 😂😂 Best birthday I’ve had so far. 26. What time did you wake up today - 7:45 am, even though my alarm was set for 8:45 🙄 27. What were you doing at midnight last night - Sleeping, most likely. Or finishing up a FaceTime sesh with @silly-silly-fangirl​  28. What is something you can’t wait for - Everything and anything involving @silly-silly-fangirl​ #Toronto2k18 30. What are you listening to right now - Teen Rocket by Tigers Jaw (against my better judgement, this is for a music challenge)  31. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom - I..don’t think so? 32. Something that’s getting on your nerves - Haha a lot of things. Uhh lets see: My boss, my friends, negative ppl EVERYWHERE 33. Most visited website - Probably Tumblr or YouTube 34. Hair color - Chestnut Brown. I know this because when I used to colour pictures as a kid with pencil crayon, I would use the Chestnut Brown pencil crayon for my hair. 😂😂 35. Long or short hair -  In the aforementioned birthday question, I cut all my hair off, but its growing back.                                                                                          36. Do you have a crush on someone - Lol I have like..a crush for every occasion. I have a work crush, a school crush, a basketball crush..literally a crush for every place I go.                                                                                   37. What do you like about yourself - Turning Pain into Power, Positivity, and Patience. 4 P’s 🙏
38. Want any piercings? - I was thinking about getting my seconds because literally everyone has so many badass piercings and I dont (my parents would kill me). 39. Blood type - B positive! I got tested at a lil set up at my school for blood donation. DONATE BLOOD YALL!!!! Seriously, you could save like 3 lives from that ish.  40. Nicknames - Ni, Nina, Nitts/Mama Nitts (why), Nids, NiNi, T, Nitty, Littya etc etc 41. Relationship status - Single and satisfied ✌️ 42. Zodiac - Leo ♌ 43. Pronouns - she/her 44. Favorite TV shows - Jane the Virgin, How To Get Away With Murder, Riverdale (these are just recents)  45. Tattoos - Honey....would u put a bumper sticker on a bentley  46. Right or left handed - righty is tighty  ✌️ ✌️ 47. Ever had surgery - I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed, but I wasn’t put to sleep. I had local anesthetic and I was awake for the whole thing, IT WAS FUCKING BRUTAL I cried the whole time the dental assistant had to wipe my tears throughout the procedure lmao  48. Piercings - I have a tongue ring 😜🤘 49. Sport - Cheerleading 🎀 50. Vacation - Tryna reach NOLA for Mardi Gras next year you already knowwww @spiffydolan​ 🎉🎉 51. Trainers - wut
More general: 52. Eating - either way too much or not enough and no in between 53. Drinking - Water. Always water. I got some free coconut water at work though, so I mean that was pretty cool. 54. I’m about to watch - Riverdale? idk I got a lot of shows to catch up on. 55. Waiting for - My new apartment to be ready! 🤗 56. Want - mostly just a bunch of household things for my new place. But also, want @silly-silly-fangirl​ to come visit me in Toronto :( 57. Get married - Yeah, maybe. I gotta find someone to like me first 😅 58. Career - I’ve lowkey always wanted to be a teacher and my entire life has basically been me avoiding becoming a teacher soooo yeah lmao. Right now I’m on the track to Midwifery but I’m? chaning my mind?? idk. 
Which is better: 59. Hugs or kisses - I wanna say hugs cause I feel like you can’t kiss everyone. But the people you can kiss...damn.  60. Lips or eyes - eyes 61. Shorter or taller - I’m not one of those cute, dainty, short girls. I’m 5′6, so taller would be appreciated  😅 62. Older or younger - older 63. Nice arms or stomach - I have neither so 💁 64. Hookup or relationship - Relationship? idk I’m kinda living the single life rn and I’m just chilling so I wouldn’t mind a casual thing here or there BUT WHO HAS THE TIME 65. Troublemaker or hesitant - I’m the best mix of both 😏
Have you ever: 66. Kissed a stranger - Yes 🙈 67. Drank hard liquor - Yes 68. Lost glasses - Probably 69. Turned someone down - Yes 😪 70. Sex on first date - Not...yet? 71. Broken someones heart - Yes  72. Had your heart broken - Yes 😞 73. Been arrested - Nope 😇 74. Cried when someone died - Yes 💔 75. Fallen for a friend - Not a close friend, but yeah.
Do you believe in: 76. Yourself - I do 😌 77. Miracles - Absolutely 78. Love at first sight - Maybe not? Probably more like a significant encounter typa vibe
79. Santa Claus - haha no 80. Kiss on a first date - To be proper, no. Butttt there are def exceptions. 81. Angels - YES 
Other: 82. Best friend’s name - In the great words of Mindy Kaling “Best friend is a tier, not a person.” Butttt @silly-silly-fangirl​ (If u couldn’t already tell) is one of my favorite people on this planet atm. 83. ‎Eye color - Brown? I wanna say hazel, but the twins literally INVENTED hazel w their eye colour and I cannot compete. 84. Favorite movie - Hardest question ever...I always say Zorro 85. ‎Favorite actor - Leonardo DiCaprio? Viola Davis? Robert DeNiro??
Thank you so so much to @spiffydolan for the tag. U da best. 💜💜
Gonna tag some of my favorite blogs at the moment. If you’ve already been tagged/want to sit out of this tag, consider this a shoutout! Thanks for being awesome 😊 @ethandolanakae-tee-wee-tee @laneswervingdolan @pandasaremyspritanimal @broncodolan @silly-silly-fangirl @coconutethan @dolanwaffles
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floraone · 6 years
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28-30? If you take multiple lol
I do take multiple, haha
28. How do you make sure your plot points are there while also making them blend in with the story?
So, I think it reall depends on the definition of “plot points” how I answer this story. This thing is, plot, for me, is any story arc that “goes somewhere”. Anything that I pick up again later, anything that has developement. So, in fact, to me, they ARE the story, and thus… there really isn’t that much blending to be done? BUT, that being said, I “hide” stuff. I foreshadow certain things. Like, when I had Mamoru gush about physics in Ikigai I made him say stuff that was needed WAY later in Yugen for my explanation of Chaos. Of course here I did try to blend it in like crazy, and I only put things in that are reasoable and make sense where they are. So, in essence, I want my reader go “ahhhhh riiight THAT’S why that was thereeee.”, when the time comes, but not when the scene where I hid it is actually happening. Basically, whenever go out of my way to bring across something vehemently, an emotion, an explanation, anything, I do it because I’ll pick up on it later, because it’ll become important. Other things, of course, are there to emphasize a character’s traits and habits. Like, having Mamoru figet all the time or write in crazy neat handwriting doesn’t drive any plot forward, but it fleshes out a character, without having to actively say, oh, btw, this character is actually really conscientious but also pretty flustered all the time even when he doesn’t want to show it.
So, yeah, anything is plot, or story arc. If you take Yugen, plot would be Mamoru’s coming into confidence of playing the supporter role, and that the supporter role is just as important. Plot would also be Minako and her internal struggle with her high expectations of herself, her need to be important to a cause, and everything she has to give up for it. Plot would also be te animosity between Mamoru and Minako, and that little dance they do to avoid each other at all cost cause the other represents certain things they don’t wanna face. So, you see, these are examples that blend really well together, when laid out like this, and basically DRIVE my storytelling?
But, this can lead easily to the next question.
29. How do you plot your stories?
Sometimes it starts with a random idea of a scene. Sometimes it starts with a theme. Either way, I definitely, DEFINITELY don’t go from the beginning.
Themes are really important to me to make a story “round”. But a story doesn’t need to have only one theme for me, especially when it’s a multichapter. But those it has need to be clearly the essence of what I’m writing about, and present alost anywhere throughout.
Ikigai, for example, had two themes. It was an origin story - you know, the kind you’d know from any first issue/film Marvel and DC superhero story. How did this person become a super hero. And theme two would be “free choice” - they become a super hero because they choose to be. So naturaly, all my plot derives from this (And really, even the title would reflect that, ideally - thankfully that worked out for both Ikigai and Yugen, but knock on wood for the future). How do the girls get into it seperately. How do Mamoru and Usagi figure it all out. Who do they confide in. What does the enemy do.
So, once I know the “themes” and the end, I can build my plot around this. Usually I put everything in one document, and it would spell out these plots and ideas how they interact, and then I plan the scenes. So it might look like,
Chapter 10
Usagi and Mamoru finally meet Rei. She’s pretty catty, Mamoru immediately doesn’t like her, Usagi’s in love.
Next scene: Date. Something terribly cute.
Next scene: Enemy attacks. Mass panic.
And these get fleshed out more and more. Especially scenes that don’t directly belong TO the plot, but are to flesh out a character, or bring in comedic elements, and the like. That date for instance would be a moment where you get to characterize. Like, right this moment on the train I watched a Youtube video of a guy who regularly talks about japanese culture. What’s up in Japan, the like. And today’s video was on a japanese online survey to rate your “best anime wife(waifu) 2017″…. and I was shocked. Appalled. Rating women on their “wife-qualities” like it’s 1960. And I immediately felt… MINAKO WOULD THROW A FIT. So, this might be an idea for a scene. And then I’d go, where can I put this, where does it fit? And if I might already know where it goes and works well with my scene outline, I might even go ahead and script it while my rage is fresh in my mind, lol.
30. How do you edit your stories?
SO, I don’t write linear at all. AT. ALL. So, by the time I’m actually polishing up a chapter of a multichapter work to post it, it will have been plotted months ago, filled in with scripts of scenes weeks ago, some scenes will have been written from the start, and there’s pretty much always this one part that gives me a headache that I still need to write. But, since there is SO MUCH on the page already at that point, I also get to edit some of these elements with a more neutral eye. Since I’d have written or at least scripted the “Minako throws a fit on Waifu polls” scene as I thought of it, I now get to revise it. Does this actually make sense? Is this neccessary? Can I tone this down? Is it still funny weeks afterwards? Does it convey about my character what I want to convey? A lot of stuff I thought was brilliant ages ago falls victim to the backspace button this way. And then, I still have my lovely beta to assure me that the rest that survived that little test of time is actually worthwhile.
Anyway, I do hope I answered these in a way that makes sense outside of my own head, and thank you SO MUCH for stopping by, I loved answering these!!!
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character questions
Does your character have siblings or family members in their age group? Which one are they closest with?  No direct siblings! But if I app to DA7, my character will be around Adachi’s age and related to him. This is true no matter which of my top 2 choices I go with, really.
What is/was your character’s relationship with their mother like? Very positive! She babies him a bit too much, and he gets a little annoyed with this. That’s about the extent of the negativity in their relationship.
What is/was your character’s relationship with their father like? Adachi’s dad had a heart attack and then quit crab fishing, divorced Adachi’s mom, and fucked off to who-knows-where. What a weird mid-life crisis!
Has your character ever witnessed something that fundamentally changed them? If so, does anyone else know? I’m pretty sure he’s watched someone else drown on at least one occasion but I regularly forget about this like a good roleplayer lol
On an average day, what can be found in your character’s pockets? keys, phone, (unless he’s at sea, in which case why even bring your phone if there’s not gonna be reception) gun, ammo. his coat has a specially designed concealed carry pocket. i hate this.
Does your character have recurring themes in their dreams? who tf knows
Does your character have recurring themes in their nightmares? now? lots of nightmares of suddenly falling ill and dying. thanks, chou! (dis a Joke i personally stan for chou. seriously go have your OC interact with her, hear her out, and you’ll stan too)
Has your character ever fired a gun? If so, what was their first target? sIFUISGHJDGKSJGSGhskJGSHJKSDGKJHGSDKGJHUGJKHSGK yes, but he only shoots large animals because they’re larger, easier targets. (also, birds + rabbits are too cute to kill.) first target was probably a rabbit at the insistence of his peers and he cried afterwards.
Is your character’s current socioeconomic status different than it was when they were growing up? not really! adachi’s dad may have fucked off to the middle of nowhere, but he inherited his dad’s job. so they’re still making a comfortable middle class income.
Does your character feel more comfortable with more clothing, or with less clothing? well i mean he grew up in alaska and prefers not dying of hypothermia so
In what situation was your character the most afraid they’ve ever been? ch8 lol
In what situation was your character the most calm they’ve ever been? who kno
Is your character bothered by the sight of blood? If so, in what way? no
Does your character remember names or faces easier? both fairly easy. he notices small things about people easily.
Is your character preoccupied with money or material possession? Why or why not? he’s preoccupied with making an income, on account of uh. being forced to be the primary breadwinner of his household for a while there. but for that same reason, he’s also preoccupied with not spending it recklessly. he prides himself on keeping a fairly large rainy day fund in case of emergencies. he’s probably legitimately saving up for retirement at the age of 19. i hate this
Which does your character idealize most: happiness or success? success, because you kind of have to uh make an income if you want to be happy and not a homeless bum like his dad lol
What was your character’s favorite toy as a child? guns
Is your character more likely to admire wisdom, or ambition in others? both are important
What is your character’s biggest relationship flaw? Has this flaw destroyed relationships for them before? what the fuck is tact or making an effort to be friendly and agreeable ever. tbh the crab fishing didn’t help, because it’s a REALLY REALLY toxic working environment. consider it a less-organized military setting, in terms of toxicity. adachi pissed off his irl friends back in alaska and now they’re not friends anymore. now he’s living in japan and well, if you’re rude even by american standards, you’re not gonna get along with people in japan either
In what ways does your character compare themselves to others? Do they do this for the sake of self-validation, or self-criticism? “iiiiiii’m the best” - captain kaito adachi, 2017 (in all seriousness he’s somewhat more inclined towards self-reflection these days)
If something tragic or negative happens to your character, do they believe they may have caused or deserved it, or are they quick to blame others? “FUCK YOU EVERYONE IS TO BLAME BUT MYSELF” -capt. kaito adachi (unless it was very very VERY clearly his fault in which case he’ll fess up quickly b/c he’s an honest man. he’s not tactful, but at least he’s honest.)
What does your character like in other people? drive, work ethic, honesty, not being a goddamned moron, sharing his basic philosophy towards this whole murder game thing
What does your character dislike in other people? being an idiot, laziness, dishonesty
How quick is your character to trust someone else? Not Very you have no idea how many kids in this game he didn’t trust right off the bat LOL
How quick is your character to suspect someone else? Does this change if they are close with that person? Very fast, he has a tendency to jump to one conclusion and stick with it tbh. But he’s not 100% unreasonable surprisingly
How does your character behave around children? you know when you go over to your friend’s house and you get weird vibes from their dad, but it feels more like they’re Just Like That rather than that they’re actively going out of their way to antagonize you. it’s like that. for the record, he grew up in a fairly conservative household where men weren’t supposed to have “caretaker” roles, so he’s kind of internalized that a lot. it’s more that he thinks this is how he’s “supposed” to act around children than anything.
How does your character normally deal with confrontation? he doesn’t “deal with it” he starts it LOL
How quick or slow is your character to resort to physical violence in a confrontation? actually usually pretty slow believe it or not. but he’s in a. murder game setting. so there’s that. for the record, at the moment he’s not going to resort to violence anymore except in self defense/defense of people he cares about.
What did your character dream of being or doing as a child? Did that dream come true? a crab man. he is now a crab man. thanks, life.
What does your character find repulsive or disgusting? not much considering he’s a pretty disgusting person himself
Describe a scenario in which your character feels most comfortable. The Sea
Describe a scenario in which your character feels most uncomfortable. The Land
In the face of criticism, is your character defensive, self-deprecating, or willing to improve? surprisingly willing to improve if the point is driven home hard enough but if you don’t get to that point, he’s just going to be defensive.
Is your character more likely to keep trying a solution/method that didn’t work the first time, or immediately move on to a different solution/method? keep trying the solution/method that didn’t work the first time. no his first guess was right damnit
How does your character behave around people they like? surprisingly agreeable
How does your character behave around people they dislike? Hiss
Is your character more concerned with defending their honor, or protecting their status? status
Is your character more likely to remove a problem/threat, or remove themselves from a problem/threat? whatever’s most practical for the objective of self-preservation (and the preservation of those he cares about). much more inclined towards removing the problem/threat tho
Has your character ever been bitten by an animal? How were they affected (or unaffected)? one time he got run over by a moose he failed to shoot and that’s his traumatic backstory. he doesn’t trust those damn things anymore
How does your character treat people in service jobs? neutrally. it’s the manager’s job to determine if the employees are doing a good job or not, not him. when back home in america, usually tips well but will only leave an 8% tip if the waiter is clearly being exceptionally rude.
Does your character feel that they deserve to have what they want, whether it be material or abstract, or do they feel they must earn it first? Earn Your Keep, Greenhorn. I Had To, Why Can’t You. (kill this man)
Has your character ever had a parental figure who was not related to them? he has a step-dad does that count
Has your character ever had a dependent figure who was not related to them? nah
How easy or difficult is it for your character to say “I love you?” Can they say it without meaning it? very very difficult. adachi cannot say it without meaning it.
What does your character believe will happen to them after they die? Does this belief scare them? adachi’s parents are irreligious - they’re not Rigid Atheists, it’s just that they grew up in japan in fairly secular households. by contrast, adachi himself grew up in a rural american town that was mostly christian. throughout his childhood, adachi’s friends were fairly pushy about their christianity - and to be frank, he found this culturally insensitive. as such, he’s a bit averse to traditional christian ideas of heaven/hell/etc. as for what adachi himself thinks happens after he dies, he’s not totally sure, but he’s also not sure he cares. he’s determined to live life to the fullest, and whatever happens afterwords is not something he needs to worry about right now.
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violetemerald · 7 years
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Kissing Aversion, but Demi-Sensual About Other Touch
This is my entry for the May 2017 Carnival of Aces, which I hosted and chose to theme around "Kissing, Hand Holding, Bed Sharing, etc!". The call for submissions is here. I'm sorry this post is so long. I'm sort of overflowing with thoughts. Also this was written in one sitting late at night so please feel free to point out errors. This has been cross-posted to my WordPress blog.
I don't feel like I need touch in my life much at all, most of the time.
That being said, I have the ability to really like it. In a kinda demi-sensual kind of way, if that's a thing. (I'm 100% asexual, no grayness there, no sexual attraction, but if I have a lot of trust-feelings for you, like a LOT of positive feelings about our relationship, then there is a pretty good chance I'll like touch.)
I am comfortable but fairly neutral with touch when it comes to me and small children. (They can still cross boundaries that make me uncomfortable, such as making me take off my glasses and then I feel overly vulnerable, which kind of happened to me a week and a half ago with a 3 year old in my extended family lol.) I don't crave touch from small children - I crave other types of attention from children, I want to make them happy, I love the emotional reaction they can have to me at times, but I'm not overly touchy feely unless they initiate it. I am much more comfortable holding babies than holding any animal though.
With people who are peers though, fellow young adults, or from older family members... I can have positive associations with touch!
I have such a visceral aversion to hugs from strangers, and even with friends and family I'm not necessarily skilled at hugging because I so rarely practice the act so people think I'm uncomfortable sometimes when I'm actually not really, but my touch-aversion is quite selective and if I like a person a lot, hugging them can be the one type of touch I find myself actually yearning for, fantasizing about briefly even, or something I relish for the moment it's happening.
It's not a romantic thing for me, no kind of touch is, not really. When I say I like a person a lot, I mean "like" in the broadest sense. They could be friends, family, romantic partner, whatever.
The only things that "Feel romantic" to me tend to be language-related, or broad traditions around times like Valentine's day, lovey-dovey sappiness, using words like "girlfriend" or "boyfriend"... idk.
Weirdly, I conceptualized intimacy really strongly in my head as a not necessarily romantic thing really early on, and a lot of types of things can feel somewhat "intimate" to me, can make me feel really bonded more than ever with people. Most often it's conversation related, not necessarily "sharing secrets" but sharing really personal stories with the intention of building on the relationship with more of those types of conversations later on down the line. I only feel like I "love" someone - an aunt or uncle or cousin, a friend, etc - if I have a pretty high degree of intimacy with them.
Certain kinds of touch feel really intimate to me too. The first guy I ever tried dating, at the end of our (wonderfully emotionally intimate, conversation-heavy) first date, kissed my cheek. It felt so intimate, I felt like a flutter through my body and a rush of... something in my chest, a blush. I'd been on OkCupid for months and after messaging back and forth with him decided I was ready for my first date ever, and it was such a success. I mainly just did things I'd do with new friends, except I didn't have any experiences yet, post college, as an adult making new friends. I just did whatever felt natural and comfortable to try to get to know him better and get him to know me better and it felt like everything was going right.
On our second date, all touch didn't feel intimate at all. It felt bad. Uncomfortable. Forced. This same guy I felt SO intimate with did thing after thing to ruin my positive feelings for him. He betrayed me in multiple ways - being VERY late for the date, forcing me to walk way more than I physically was able and causing me extreme pain and exhaustion, implying he knew the restaurant we were going to was good from his personal experience and then it turning out he'd never been there, not being flexible and being willing to see ANY other movie when the one he wanted to see was sold out so instead making me stand (still in pain) for a long time while he looked up on his phone other theaters and called to see if the movie wasn't sold out. And then on top of this disastrous date he touched me repeatedly. A lot of that walking was holding hands, and it was I think all about walking around the city with PDA and I hated that. Publicly declaring "we're a couple" in a physical way probably is never gonna be a thing I'm comfortable with, and it didn't feel natural, it was beyond awkward, and it was sweaty, and my hand started to cramp. Plus it felt really juvenile since despite this being my first foray into romance, I was already 22 years old.
And then he kissed me. At the end of that entire night, he started making out with me (I don't really like the term French kissing but yes, that, with tongue) in public on a sidewalk at night. There weren't that many people around. It being in public was oddly extremely low on my list of things that made that uncomfortable. Who cares what other people around might be thinking when I was a wreck, had literally just slept through most of a movie in a theater because I was so exhausted, and had no idea how to kiss, and I didn't know what he was thinking, and didn't know what I was thinking about the kiss yet either. One of us asked to "try again" after we pulled away and walked a few more paces of sidewalk. I knew I must be kissing wrong, this was... not pleasurable and beyond awkward. He asked if this was my first time ever kissing anyone and was shocked when I admitted it was, and I was frustrated because he should've known that already if he'd paid close attention to my dating profile. But I was mainly mortified.
I had completely repressed any inkling that I might be asexual until that night. I had probably first come across asexuality years earlier. I also had only a few months prior binge watched the entire series of House M.D. and took the ace-erasure episode in stride without even thinking anything of it lol. But after THAT KISS, the fact that asexuality existed came immediately back to my mind, and I couldn't really shake it, however hard my internalized anti-ace sentiments tried to push it away. I really felt sure that this kiss felt exactly how fictional media had shown me "kissing the wrong gender" felt for monosexual (gay or straight) folks, or like kissing a sibling even, someone with whom you had no attraction. I was jump-started into questioning my entire sexuality that night, and I couldn't help myself from crying on the metro in public on the ride home.
I researched how to kiss.
http://www.wikihow.com/Kiss-a-Boy and http://www.wikihow.com/French-Kiss were literally web pages I visited.
I asked my brother what kissing felt like the first time and if it got better. I went on a third date with the guy where we had a time crunch and he brought me back to his apartment after dinner in a restaurant. He wanted me to take off my shoes and the literal moment I finished, while I was standing in what I felt was a really awkward position near our shoes, he leaned in to try to kiss me for the first time since our second date. I wanted to give kissing him another chance but not like that. He wanted to kiss me while we were watching a movie sitting on separate chairs because he didn't have a couch, too. And he also wanted me to definitely follow the plot. I said unless we paused the movie I was going to miss the plot, come on now. But we didn't have time to finish the movie if we paused it, I was on a deadline to get back to the metro before it closed for the night lol. So I never ended up kissing this guy again.
But almost a full year later, the third guy I tried dating, I kissed a lot. Always in private. Always in much more comfortable positions. We cuddled a lot too which was moderately pleasant but it wasn't as intimate for me as it was for him, and for him it often was psuedo-sexual and super-romantic, both things that made me really uncomfortable. This guy was my first boyfriend, I got past just dates and into relationship status with him. He held my hand in private while we were cuddling too. Cuddling... it felt frustratingly stifling some of the time, but it was so much better than kissing, and I might not have been quite identifying as asexual yet but I was HEAVILY questioning throughout our whole relationship and researching asexuality like every single day and I... I knew I was somewhere on the asexual spectrum from our second date when we tried kissing. I felt guilty for being asexual, for not liking kissing when he did like it, for always pulling away and kinda hating kissing actually, etc etc... so I think cuddling with him was an unspoken compromise I was doing, rather than anything I really wanted.
Honestly though, being that close to him was... maybe something I was indifferent to, because I wasn't that emotionally intimate with him, so I didn't have the necessary prerequisite to really want it. Kasey Weird mentioned in their submission for this carnival,
the best cuddling very much is a non-verbal dialogue of sorts: it’s active, and responsive to each other.
and I had an epiphany reading that that yes, yes it is, that's what I was lacking back in 2013 when I did this cuddling with my boyfriend, that's what I actually like about snuggling up against my dad or my brother when we're watching TV and it's cold and we're tired, on rare occasions, that we do it in some kind of "sync" with one another, and it's less all-consuming of my body or theirs, and it's something I basically have never really gotten a chance to try with someone I feel entirely safe with since being an adult and it becoming a lot less socially "appropriate" to do it with family. I didn't feel 100% safe with my boyfriend in 2013, because I knew all along he desired me sexually, and I have always been sex-averse even if I didn't know it. Being the cause of arousal and the star of fantasies felt kind of like a violation of sorts, and in some ways just existing around him made me feel guilty. I think he was a great person and I was remarkably safe with him, he was letting me call the shots, he was understanding about my asexuality, he was patient and passive in many ways, but even so, I didn't end up getting a chance to explore very much at all in terms of romantic actions or sensual/physical things with him. Our cuddling was kind of boring and not really my style. Same with our hand-holding. I decided I never want to hold hands "just to hold hands" ever again after that relationship, just like I decided cuddling really wasn't all that it was cracked up to be, and I was definitely not going to be having sex or kissing more people.
Rachel mentioned in the guest post submission this month:
But knowing that I supposed to be feeling something positive, and getting nothing from it internally, no matter how sincerely-intended the gesture, makes touch a dissonant and hollow experience.
And it's just... SO TRUE. Like wow. That's how I was feeling. Throughout so much of my relationship with my boyfriend, and even with the first guy I dated, especially, especially, when it came to kissing, which I knew was supposed to be positive, I'd built up for a decade that kissing was... Okay so like a couple days ago I saw this "first line" generator to help you with your fiction writing endeavors going around tumblr: http://writingexercises.co.uk/firstlinegenerator.php and I kid you not, the first line I generated was:
The kiss reminded him of chemistry lessons in school, when if the right two elements were put together, they'd explode.
Now I know kissing is not always like that for allosexual people, but I think it must sometimes be, and it's not even in the realm of possible for me. My kissing aversion is 100% a part of how I experience my sexual orientation. This isn't about romance. I am asexual, and this kind of kiss described just... sounds sexual to me. Anything about "chemistry" between people feels sexual to me, unless maybe you're talking about actors having great chemistry, sometimes that can be like... people can observe squishes (which are platonic) from the first meeting of two actors or something similar.
I really really crave acknowledgement that not liking kissing at all is a part of the asexual experience for not just me but for a lot of people. I'm tired of headcanons (including my own) where "it doesn't matter" that a character is shown passionately kissing a partner or many partners because they 'could' still be asexual anyway. No I want kissing aversion to actually be shown on TV at some point. I want to read fanfiction where asexual characters aren't written as thinking kissing is amazing. I want my version of asexuality represented! Where even cuddling is complicated and fraught at times. I don't care about the characters' romantic orientations that much. I care about the aspects of the asexual experience that would resonate strongly with me, like realizing you might be asexual from the awful/hollow/confusing experience of kissing alone.
I don't necessarily want it to all be clear-cut romance-repulsion either, though! "Ew, gross, why would anyone want to kiss or say I love you or build a life with a partner" isn't really an experience that resonates with me either. I told my queerplatonic partner I love him, I felt in love with him, and I would love to one day get married, probably wearing some color that isn't white, definitely not kissing in front of family or friends or at any point in whatever relationship I end up in.
Besides, I get why people want to kiss. It feels different for them than it does for me. They like that feeling.
I know I'm not alone in how I feel about kissing.
This Reddit thread from a year ago titled
Any other Asexuals here dislike kissing?
started off with:
I've tried so hard to enjoy kissing but all it feels is wet and slobbery and overall unpleasant. Anyone else have similar feelings? I feel so alone about this.
And I hate that so many of us feel so alone about this! I've felt alone in this on-and-off since I was 22 years old. I am 27 now.
People replied to that poster with:
My mind wanders off to something else, such as dinner plans, or why we're even doing this because it's gross, etc.
or
A short peck is all right with me and is about the limit of intimacy to which I can go, anything more and it just gets repulsing and uncomfortable.
There was:
Can't bring myself to even try an open-mouthed kiss
and
This is part of what made me feel like something was wrong with me for so many years
and even
YES. I hate kissing
These were all different people's answers! And if you look at these 14 narratives of asexuals describing dating collected from around the internet, all of the references to kissing are negative!
They include... well... @redbeardace mentioned in his narrative
here
that:
I didn’t feel anything when I kissed her.
Anwen:
She explains: 'Holding hands is as far as I would ever take anything. For me [sex is] just revulsion, it really is. Just, ugh, no. [Cuddling] – that’s OK. Not kissing.’
Julie Sondra Decker (/ @swankivy ) was interviewed for Salon:
She wasn’t attracted to her first boyfriend but kissed him anyway “because I was expected to,” she says.
The first boy was basically an experiment, I guess, because I’d never been asked out before and I figured I’d see what it was like, but all I found out was that we didn’t have much in common and I didn’t like French kissing.
Cathy Roberts, asexual lesbian mentions:
I thought there was something wrong with me because I didn’t want to even kiss my boyfriends, let alone have sex with them.
(Unsure if she ever decided she likes kissing women. It's not mentioned there either way.)
Her quote reminds me of another issue, the relationship escalator and steps and how "okay, maybe not sex but AT LEAST KISSING" is really really expected, really early on.
I know some asexual people like kissing, especially many gray-asexual people.
But I wish more asexuals acknowledged that being asexual often can translate into not only sex-aversion, but relatedly kissing-aversion. Kissing without attraction should be understood to be "no fun".
My dad and my brother can't understand how any aces, people who don't feel sexual attraction, could possibly enjoy making out. To both of those straight men in my life kissing is pretty inherently sexual.
But then again, there's this one other touch thing that I think is linked to sexuality for a lot of folks, but it wasn't for me. At an ace meetup once, we were in a restaurant in a kinda cramped part of the floor, and I think we were all getting ready to leave and standing up. One of my (asexual, of course) friends in the group wanted to get by me to head to the restrooms and without really thinking he very gently touched the small of my back as he walked by. And it just felt so intimate, like that kiss on my cheek did years prior. And I just knew it was not a sexual feeling. I don't have sexual feelings. I'm sure of that now. I just really am a non-sexual person in every possible sense. I'm not actually like your average ace. But it was something positive, kinda like butterflies, kinda like "you're in my personal space and it's not a bad thing for once and wow, I don't actually mind this at all", and it's not like I really was craving more of it. It's just like. I was surprised that I could have that kind of reaction to that kind of touch. I was surprised I would notice to such a degree and I would feel that way.
I think maybe I can viscerally understand "electricity" at skin-to-skin contact with the right person, and I think if it's brief and a fleeting touch rather than holding on/cuddling, that's when that kind of "spark" of "oo, physical intimacy" could happen for me. I don't see it as necessarily romantic in part because I feel like it could happen for me with family members or friends who I'm really just fine being "just" friends with and all sorts of folks. (I don't see it as sexual for hopefully obvious-by-now reasons.)
I felt really validated when in this Shameless US fanfiction story which I recorded into a podfic
back in December contained these sentences:
It seemed like Mickey couldn’t keep his hands off Ian most of the time. Most of the time, it wasn’t even sexual. Mickey was always knocking shoulders with Ian when they passed in the hallway or hooking an ankle around Ian’s while they sat at the kitchen table or wrapping a gentle hand around Ian’s wrist when they were alone.
I like the idea that this kind of touch isn't sexual even for allosexual people, at least some of the time.
Almost exactly one decade ago (ah I'm getting so old lol), on a very traumatic and memorable day of my life, my mom wanted to hug me one minute, and a stressful and rushed minute or two later she was yelling instructions at her boyfriend to prevent me from escaping the house, which included her shouting that he should call 911 on me. (He didn't.) That minute prior she successfully hugged my brother, who didn't hug her back, but I could not just stand there and let her hug me.
I testified in front of a jury a year later that I refused to let her hug me, and when prompted by my dad's defense attorney clarified it was because she was abusive.
My touch aversion in most cases without a lot of trust first is likely very tied to all the physical abuse my mom inflicted on me over the years, things that didn't usually leave marks (although, yes, I had a couple scratches that drew blood on my hand or forearm, like the one that caused a middle school science teacher to ask if a cat scratched me as he handed me the bandaid I requested). But things were quite violent in many ways. My mom was a master at abusive power dynamics and using her physical presence to terrorize. She trapped me in corners by holding onto the walls around me so that she wasn't touching me at all, she pulled my hair so hard it knocked the glasses off my head repeatedly, she spit on me, she dumped a bowl of cereal on me, she ripped a beloved bracelet off my wrist, she threw the cordless landline so hard the battery compartment came apart COUNTLESS times after "speaking to" (screaming at) my dad and getting angry, and she'd yell to me to pick up the batteries and put the phone back together. Etc, etc. But like I said, it's been a decade. And I am in many ways past a lot of the complicated stuff I had to grow up with. I have had enough practice with social rituals of hugging that I first leaned in to hug Robert's dad when I saw him about 2.5 weeks ago, only the second time I'd ever met him, the first being over a year prior. I am more comfortable with myself than ever, in some ways.
(By the way, I linked to a Shameless fandom fic & podfic above, and in season 1 of that TV show, Debbie and Lip avoid hugging their toxic mother in a way that couldn't be closer to my own reaction to my mother wanting to hug me. This series has plenty of things for a person like me to latch onto... despite not really being ace-friendly...)
I don't actually feel like my touch aversion is necessarily tied to my asexuality at all, in fact, the more I think about it, and I also don't know if I'm even touch-averse anymore. I think I only feel comfortable saying I'm sex-averse and kissing-averse.
My queerplatonic partner recently broke up with me, but a few days before he did, we got to see each other for the first time since November. He'd been on a 6 month Civillian contractor deployment to Afghanistan. We got "back together" as qpp's in December, and around the end of January I started craving hugging him again, a feeling I'd only had around May last year while we were together the first time, kinda wanting brief contact with him. These feelings I shared with him this time, in January, and he said he wanted to hug me too and when we finally saw each other in May, we embraced for a brief second, and my face was in his shirt, on his chest... and it was something I wished could've lasted a few seconds longer. It felt comfortable and warm and just... nice.
I like the idea of one day having a new queerplatonic partner and getting to try touch a little more than just what I did with my last queerplatonic partner, which at our most intimate was sharing a blanket while watching a movie, being in a car together for hours, giving each other gifts, and allowing him to foot my bill when we were alone together a high percentage of the time (in part because I was unemployed and he had plenty of money in comparison... this was actually one of the most "Romantic" feeling things he did around me/for me/to me and it generally made me somewhat uncomfortable).
My fear though is that I will end up being more touch averse than I know at this current moment and really, no touch is what I want, and what if my future partner wants a lot more touching than I can comfortably provide in our relationship?? I'm really quite content without touch. If the person I end up with never wants to be hugged, never wants to touch at all, that would be fine. I was entirely ready to spend the rest of my life with Robert* and he and I didn't exactly have a relationship with any meaningful degree of touch.
I imagine a few potential futures for myself. I imagine giving up on trying to find a co-parenting partner if I have to and figuring out a way to make fostering work while single, and I imagine still making an effort to keep up a level of non-physical intimacy with friends and family as much as possible. With as many friends and family members as possible!! I imagine I won't be happy if I don't try to be a parent, but I can totally be happy without touch. And I'll be really happy I never had to compromise and you know, kiss anyone ever again. :P
Or I imagine finding a person who I do partner with, possibly a poly arrangement even, so many possibilities as yet unseen. Someone I certainly don't kiss (or have sex with). Someone who understands that my relationship with romantic orientation and romantic feelings and romantic coded actions can be complicated. Someone who I have a high degree of emotional intimacy with but who I may not touch at all, or who I may touch more than I ever imagined I would. I really just don't know.
Then again, I think I'd really really like building a family with someone who hugs me to comfort me when I'm emotionally overwhelmed. I don't think I need it, at all. But I think it would be nice. Because I haven't had the chance to have that with anyone other than aunts and uncles at my grandmother's funeral this past December (this was the trauma of their sister, my mom, being there and being herself that inspired the amazing hug stuff that made me feel engulfed in love), or back 8 years ago almost to the day when on the worst day of my life I had to be responsible for figuring out how to bail my dad out of jail, after my mom accused him of assault with his car (so assault with a deadly weapon), and he hugged me at the end of all of it. And it was kind of the most amazing feeling, like you need to have the worst day of your life before you can have the most powerfully comforting hug of your life, okay?? :P
And it'd be nice to be with a partner where I might do the same for them, if that was their style, if they were not a touch-averse person in these kinds of moments. I've never had a partner be that degree of emotionally vulnerable with me, and when my partners have been somewhat emotionally vulnerable I've never known what to do or say. But I want to get to a point where I might be able to be a comfort. Maybe physically! I know my instinct when my cousin's father died 3.5 years ago and he was 100% hysterically upset in the immediate aftermath was for me to just keep touching or trying to hug him as much as I could, it was complicated and my dad was doing this too on his other side. We were trying to get him to calm down at the same time too, I guess. Also after his eulogy for his dad, I was so proud of him. (He's 7 years younger than me btw, so that's part of the context of our relationship.) I told him I was proud of him and I hugged him, and I just... I needed the hug to convey my sympathy and love and pride through this physical touch, and I never had touched him this much before, but I already had a lot of the emotional intimacy framework, and he is not a person who's averse to touch, so this ended up being my "love language" in this kind of moment?
I found so many of the submissions this month to be thought-provoking and relateable. I wrote a ridiculously long essay here that should've been broken up into multiple blog posts and that repeats a lot of information already conveyed in previous posts on this blog, dating back to 2014. But. I'm really happy to get it all out here.
Despite my sadness (and anger, and confusion, etc) over my recent breakup, which... I will talk about more in a future blog post... the combination of last month's "Parenthood" carnival and this month's carnival has left me feeling more hopeful than I might've expected at the potential to find a partner who is truly compatible with me in all the ways, in terms of also being kissing & sex averse, of not necessarily needing a heavy cuddling life, in terms of wanting adoptive parenthood, etc!
And if nothing else, I also feel more inspired than ever to try to write some kind of fiction - okay almost definitely just fanfiction for the near future, but maybe I'll branch into original fiction if I get brave?? - that captures kissing-aversion (and sometimes complicated relationships to touch) in the characters! I really crave representation so badly that I think I need to forge a few of these kinds of things myself and I'm kind of excited to do so. I feel like I'm at a new chapter of my life, especially because of my breakup perhaps, but also just this being the year I finally am employed and... writing fiction is going to be a part of this. I know a lot of real aces out there need this. Is it weird that I'm smiling already at the potential, and the truth that the aces in my writing will hate kissing?
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Caron Simply Soft Tweeds
  I had originally purchased this yarn a few years back. It grabbed my attention, as it was so unique and of course I bought a few skeins with no real plan on what to use it with, sooo its been sitting around.
This was our first winter in about 4 years that It actually got down right cold and snowed a few times. I was on the hunt for cold weather yarn in my stash when I stumbled upon my skeins of Tweed. Is it bulky … No, not really but I had a new stitch I wanted to learn and thought that the Tweed would actually work well.
My thoughts were correct. This yarn is so versatile!! You can use a bulky type stitch to make a “thick”, warm garment… or use a normal stitch for your average day and a open mesh type stitch for those warmer days. This yarn is super soft, has a nice flow to it, doesn’t get super weighted down. Before I get too carried away lets get the technical stats done first…
As you can see by the picture above…
This is a Medium Weight (4), Made with 97% Acrylic & 3% Viscose
(Viscose is a semi-synthetic type of rayon fabric made from wood pulp.)
5oz /141g …  240yards / 219m
Recommended Hook 5mm , Knitting Needle 5mm
This is a Machine Washable and Dryable. As I usually state, I would wash with delicate laundry soap, cold water and lay flat. If you need to dry in dryer .. Low setting. With any article of “clothing” you want it to preserve it as well as possible.
Tweeds comes in 2 colors.  Grey Heather, Taupe and Off White. It can be found ..
Online at.. Yarnspirations
Online & Store.. Joann’s , Micheals and Walmart
When I got into my project with the yarn I realized I was going to need more. I was alittle concerned as most of the places I looked were completely out or only had one color. I was however able to find what I needed at Joanns, but this brings to mind… Are they going to be discontinuing this yarn. The date on one of the skeins I already had was 11/2017 eeekkkk
I have searched all over the internet and could not find anything stating Tweed was going to be discontinued, however I have checked and it still seems places are low in stock or out of stock. I really hoping its do to our shelter in place during Covid-19.
The reason I’m a little distraught is I really like this yarn. The look of it was what grabbed my attention so much and the softness got me hooked.
Left picture shows you a close up of the “tweed” effect in this yarn. Its soft little tufts of yarn here and there throughout the skein. Some are small and tight into the yarn strand, others are bigger and loosey goosey. It gives character to this yarn.
The right picture is a break down of the yarn. There is a main ( little thicker) strand that is alittle fuzzy and it is surrounded by a few thinner and smoother strands. The yarn is then basically twisted up together.
Because this is a twisted together type yarn, those that plan to do small, tighter stitches may get alittle upset at this yarn. It does tend to split easily as you work with it. It does not however do it when your doing looser/ big stitches. *Note.. I’m notorious for tight stitches, Its just the way I’ve always crocheted. Could be my tension or the way I hold yarn & hook… no clue, it’s just me lol *
With that being said, I did not have any other cons to this yarn. Well I take that back… maybe a few more colors lol
Pro’s..
Neutral color with speckles of brown, white and what I’m going to call rust making this yarn fun, stylish and unique.
Soft… did I mention its soft? lol Its snuggly, feel good on your skin kinda soft. This twist type yarn also allows for a little give. Its not much of a stretch but there is a tad.
Durable… With stood several froggings and did not split, fray or get tangled up. It handled going threw my washer and about 20 mins of medium heat dryer time. It did not “warp” the stitches, loose any color, etc. Basically came out looking the way it did going in.
I laid my project flat to finish drying. It did take over night but I believe it was also due to the type of stitch I used.
All in all.. This yarn has earned a spot in my permanent stash section. I will be restocking it, hopefully, when I find them available. I will also update this post If I do find out this yarn will no longer be made.
Thank you for stopping by and I hope you Have a Wonderful Day
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            Review Caron Simply Soft Tweeds Yarn Caron Simply Soft Tweeds I had originally purchased this yarn a few years back. It grabbed my attention, as it was so unique and of course I bought a few skeins with no real plan on what to use it with, sooo its been sitting around.
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junker-town · 7 years
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THIS WEEK IN SCHADENFREUDE, Alabama’s Iron Bowl loss reveals that the Playoff itself is just a conspiracy to stop the Tide
Your weekly sojourn through the most upset in college football internet runs through Tuscaloosa.
(It should be noted that the weekend’s actual most upset fans were at Tennessee, but this post is about games only.)
Alabama got dominated in the Iron Bowl, falling from No. 1 in the rankings, losing the SEC West to Auburn, and putting its College Football Playoff fate in jeopardy. It was the Tide’s first loss of the season and 20th in more than a decade of Nick Saban.
Let’s tour Bama Fan Internet and see how it responded.
The most ironclad conspiracy theories
Is the very existence of the Playoff part of a plot to ruin Alabama’s title hopes?
This thread at the Tide’s 247Sports message board answers the hard questions.
We need to Remember why the playoff was created.
It was created to stop Alabama. (Sec post 2011) The rest of the teams wanted Alabama to have to win two big games to win the championship. They also didn't want hot teams at the end of the season to miss a chance to neutralize Alabama with the awesome play late. It has worked two of the first three years of the playoff. It will not work this year if they let Alabama in. We will win both games. Mark it down.
It may well go even deeper than that. College football’s powers have been trying to stem the Tide ever since the Associated Press awarded them the national title before they lost the 1964 season’s Orange Bowl to Texas.
Is something deeper at play preventing Damien Harris from getting more carries?
One poster’s freshman daughter is friends with the Tide’s starting running back’s girlfriend, allegedly. And it seems like we’re headed for a break in the case.
im getting to the bottom of it hopefully
My daughter is a freshman at bama, she's become good friends with Damien Harris's gf, she sees him a couple of times a week at the sorority house and talks to him while he's there. Shes gonna ask him why he's been getting so few carries lately. Maybe he'll give an honest answer cause it makes no sense why he wasn't fed the ball against auburn and several other times throughout the year... stay tuned
Stay tuned.
Is Ohio State going to lose the Big Ten championship game on purpose to guarantee Wisconsin a Playoff spot in the name of conference solidarity, potentially changing Bama’s outlook for the No. 4 seed?
How important is it to the Big 10
To get a team into the playoffs? Would Ohio St. throw the game against Wisconsin to guarantee that spot in the playoffs? A lot of people still believe that Wisconsin laid down and allowed Ohio St. to steam roll them to get Ohio St. in. I know it sounds like quite the conspiracy, but...
I mean, who’s to say they’re not.
The most obvious suggestions to get better
Phase 1: Fire first-year offensive coordinator Brian Daboll, a five-time Super Bowl champion with the Patriots who leads the nation’s No. 12 scoring offense.
Brian Dabol needs to be fired .
This offense has gotten worse under him.
Phase 2:
Mac from Florida needs a job, bring him back!
Saban’s old offensive coordinator from Florida needs a job, bring him back....
The real problem is Alabama’s recruiting, which might drop off from No. 1 in the country this year to somewhere lower in the top 10.
With our recruiting lagging,
things don't look so well right now. I do believe that they need to re-evaluate this whole deal.
rtr
(The actual reason for Bama’s slower 2018 class is scholarship limits, fwiw.)
Actually, maybe the problem’s the QB, who was one play from a national championship as a true freshman the year prior before being outdueled by the NFL’s best rookie quarterback.
Bama will NEVER win a national championship with Jalen Hurts
Saban should have given Tua a shot in the 4th quarter to spark the offense. Another lost season for Bama. Disappointing.
Here’s a totally unrelated photograph I found:
Photo by Kevin C. Cox/Getty Images
The most comprehensive piece of advice
@AlabamaFTBL you have one game to win in any season and this was a massive loss. Guess @CoachDaboll needs replaced. @JalenHurts needs to sit. We need a QB, not a runningback. @NickSabanUofA may be out of magic. Seems we might need to make some changes.
— I R Foof (@I_R_Foof) November 26, 2017
The most passionate tweets sent to Bama’s offensive coordinator during the game, in case he’d been checking Twitter.
@CoachDaboll you’re gonna get fired
— josh c (@josh_c1995) November 25, 2017
@CoachDaboll Fuck You!
— Garret Cook (@gibbousquan98) November 25, 2017
@CoachDaboll why?why why why do you have a running back as big Scarborough and you run him sideways?!? Shit! How many damn years of watching this same shit do bama fans have to endure?
— Nicholas Daniel (@nicdaniel4UA) November 25, 2017
@CoachDaboll you suck
— josh c (@josh_c1995) November 25, 2017
@CoachDaboll DIAL IT UP
— Pats(7-2) (@KFCGodfather) November 25, 2017
Later, an addendum:
@CoachDaboll PLEASE DIAL IT UP
— Pats(7-2) (@KFCGodfather) November 25, 2017
DIAL IT UP.
Damn @CoachDaboll what about some damn slants
— Ken Morris (@bikecop24) November 25, 2017
Get. Your. Head. Out. Of. Your. Ass. @CoachDaboll
— Colby Murray (@Colbylm) November 25, 2017
Calls for Bama to just run the damn ball:
Endless.
The Tide’s last national championship offensive coordinator weighed in by just happening to cite his own team’s rushing stats.
Hmmm. Who isn't on here??? Come to #thefaU http://pic.twitter.com/SmVcNF9bRN
— Lane Kiffin (@Lane_Kiffin) November 26, 2017
If u want to win rivalry games. Run the BALL!!! Come to #thefaU #5forheisman https://t.co/MMpPr3S9ip
— Lane Kiffin (@Lane_Kiffin) November 27, 2017
Is there now a surely ironic Twitter account dedicated to sharing all calls for Saban to be fired?
There is:
Breaking news Nick Saban arrested by Alabama State Police for first degree murder of the Tide football program. http://pic.twitter.com/MBxFBztPAJ
— Fire Nick Saban (@FireSaban) November 26, 2017
And other postgame analysis
A bit earlier, from the game thread at SB Nation’s Roll Bama Roll, some comments:
Welp thats game
Fuck this team. Coach im counting on you to give this sack of shit of a coaching staff all hell tonight tomorrow fuck it give it to them until next year. This is fucking embarrasing and if anyine doesnt feel that way and is wearing crimson and white on that bench send them packing. I dont care if its a five star freshman or a coach. Send a gad dam message.
And this nice exchange between friends:
One of the cool things about any time Bama loses a game is that legions of Tide fans record YouTube instant reaction videos. And, hoo boy, have we some treats.
This guy claims he punched out his wall.
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“The Eagles come in and ruin my perfect season,” our man says. “Now I was all happy and everything because Bama was winning. Now Bama is not winning. They got an L, a loss. And now, now it’s gonna change things. Are they gonna make the national champions? Are they gonna get into the SECs? I just don’t know.”
Expect an invoice for the damages to arrive in Tuscaloosa soon.
“When I gotta pay to get the new wall done, I’m gonna send the bill to Alabama.”
Here’s another Bama fan eating “one of the hardest damn crows I’ve ever had to eat”
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The points made here are pretty regular and reasonable, but stop by for the excellent glasses:
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In the end, Alabama was the real winner here, because the Tide experienced no joy whatsoever.
From the 247 board, in response to Auburn fans having fun after winning the SEC West:
The last time Alabama fans rushed the field? Probably the early 1990's at Legion field (Might have been the 1990 win over the booger-eaters), and it was NOT a mass event, but only about 20-30 drunk students, many of whom felt the sting of Birmingham's finest who were on the field waiting for them. Lots and lots of upset Mommies and Daddies after their drunk darlings got bllly-clubbed and/or arrested!! LOL!!!
It probably HAS happened at some point in Alabama history, but I cannot recall an "en masse" rushing of the field by Alabama fans at any time in my life.
There's a reason the SEC (and EVERY OTHER MAJOR CONFERENCE) bans it - and not just because its Classless and "Bush League" - but because its Very DANGEROUS, both for the trashy fans running out on the field, as well as for the players and staff of the losing team. People are invariably injured in these "mob scenes" - often seriously, but you don't hear about it because the schools ALWAYS keep it on the "down low"
Now, a quick whip around some other fan bases whose teams lost.
Michigan
Lost to Ohio State for the sixth time in a row.
A basic summary of how that went:
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— mgoblog (@mgoblog) November 26, 2017
Notre Dame
Lost 38-20 at Stanford, the result of a swift, epic collapse.
Would Bob Stoops come out of retirement, less than a year after leaving a good job at Oklahoma, to take over the Irish? The evidence that he would is mounting, folks.
I sort of wondered because he bought 2 expensive houses next door to each other in Chicago recently.
Why would you buy houses there? I sort of wondered if he took this year off to watch his boys play HS football as seniors. I wondered if maybe he was waiting in the wings to take the ND job, and maybe already had contact with ND for when Kelly was let go.. I have mixed emotions. He wins a lot. He loses the really big game most of the time (NC). He had tons of criminal type players at ou, I am not sure if it could work out or not. He is Catholic. I also wonder if he is ok healthwise. It is interesting to think about.
Food for thought, indeed.
Mississippi State
Lost the Egg Bowl to Ole Miss, then had its former AD who now works for Florida hire away maybe the best coach in program history.
Scott Stricklin The Traitor
Scott Stricklin is now the biggest traitor to our university of all time.
Some folks are our enemies and big pieces of shit like Ole Miss folks. These people actively try to hurt us and they hate us. However, all of these folks we knew hated us and we never expected them to like us.
However, to have one of your own intentionally hurt your program this bad for his own personal gain, you are far worse than any of the others.
From your enemy you can protect yourself. You can fight them, you know who they are and you can build your defenses.A traitor is someone you have trusted like a brother, and you know he is a traitor only after being betrayed.... The enemy is in the open, the traitor is moving in the dark.
Stricklin should never be allowed to step foot on campus as a friend again. Hugh Freeze is now more respected by me than Stricklin is. Hippocrates suck but there is no one worse than a traitor.
It’s not clear what this person thought Stricklin’s job would be once he left Mississippi State. But I’m sure the ancient Greek physician Hippocrates would disapprove.
South Carolina
Lost 34-10 to Clemson. This post is about Clemson, I’m pretty sure:
Tater Tots have The Answer!
Recruit with attorneys! Turnupseed from ALA? Daba Dabe do knew what he was doing I think is the answer. Bringing the e-factor's dad (whom was in jail in Florence to a Jail in Greenville) just as he is visiting taterville and BOOM he is a tater with a Caddy and a bag full of money. By the way, Turnipseed came from Ala about 4 years ago
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