#and now look at me go! six years

[nikatyler]

Yes I’m getting emotional because I just realized that in a few days my Rose triplets are turning six 🥺

#nika rambles #i've had characters for longer but triplets are special #because there were no harsh changes in their character development #they're not entirely different from how they started #it all feels kinda natural #whereas some of my older story characters...there have been huge changes to them haha #and don't get me on the countless winx oc redesigns... #*don't get me started lol i forgot a whole word #my winx oc era made me believe i couldn't keep ocs for long #and now look at me go! six years #and then four years and a half with ross #these guys are never going away that's a fact

[averlym]

fairest of the fair

#hi! im alive and back and etc. #six the musical #six the musical fanart #katherine howard #thinking of that post going 'i think eventually you become the person you needed most' and like maybe that's the thing with my art #this started out as a redraw and <improvement meme> i think i've finally reached the stage where i'm making the things that my younger self #aspired to create. like i can do this now! i've reached That level of technical skill! tiny me would be so proud. it's very gratifying #redraw from august this year actually. i've made a surprising amount of improvement HAHA maybe it was the adamandi stuff getting me #back into digital rendering. i think that obsession has quietly slipped away but yknow. one never truly leaves a fandom. just less intensit #also speaking of old fandoms! we're back with the six stuff haha. as of writing i'm in the midst of blog revamp- figuring out how to chill #multifandom status doesn't mean ditch all the old stuff ! but i do feel much freer and less stressed. i think hiatus has been good for me #notes on this piece particularly: redraw about cutting hair and thinking of the lyric above. also lowkey &j ref + pinterest poem excerpts #of female suffering. and maybe a dash of amanda heng let's walk inspo. this work is really just full of contradictions.. #1. the mirror and cutting hair as an act of self liberation 2. the & is part of the lyric but also a nod to &j (in another iteration it was #pink but the white looked better) and like. &j is really all !!! girl power!!! etc. and i was like hmmmm. also matching pink shiny aes #3. the frame as a cage; the mirror as a self reflection idea (ie. saville's propped insp) but also as a sign of vanity. 4. sparkly costume #and pretty pose- read one too many poems about women feeling like they have to be pretty even in their suffering. something i wanted to #explore. and also in 5. the show itself... all you wanna do is. despite all the dancing and pink and sparkly the content of the song is #darker. and even though it's a story of her suffering it's still presented as a shiny fun pop song and ajshdhfhfh ok... 6. the lyrics fall #outside the frame. sort of a caught inbetween. sort of a trapped in the narrative and yet #within the frame it's all. vaguely handwavy breaking free vibes. like i said contradictions? #7. cutting off the long ponytail vs the pull my hair lyric at the end. yeah #8. the blocked off & looks a bit like scissors. positioned to cut right at the neck #anyways yeah irl remains hectic! but if i get around to more doodles they'll appear here :)

[just-a-hooman64]

Moots I am so sorry for the fortnite posting but I am actually losing my mind right now

are??? What are they to each other??? This and one singular comment about how Stray (guy on left) randomly mentions that Drift (guy on right) loves to eat the shield fish things is all the evidence I have but????

Am I one of two people thinking about this?? Is this the underlying reason I got absolutely obsessed with drift when I was 12 and he first released??? Was my gaydar going off for the fucking ISEKAI FORTNITE CHARACTER from REAL LIFE CAIFORNIA???

Does anyone else understand what I am going through right now or am I on a lone boat here???

#I was just looking for a reference to draw drift casue I didnt feel like opening the game I didn't expect to be hit withthe queer beam today #i am going to explode if this gets me back into fortnite lore after literally six years #what the fuck #my world is being rocked right now #fortnite #fortnite battle royale #fortnite drift #Fortnite Stray #what even is the name for them #Driftstray #? #im sorry moots

[heu-ris-tic]

i hate to say it but im a gym bro now im in my anime character training arc

#ive been weight training for a little over two years now since i met the loml and we go five days a week my dudes #running every day for a whole month now?!?! and feeling my stamina get better and better #eating more than i ever have and feeling Good about it most days #i will not rest until i have a visible six pack and look like i could kick ass !!!! #saying this on tumblr bc it’s too cringe to share anywhere else #is it me? am i the malinois?….my god

[thegreenleavesofspring]

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#You'd think of all times I'd be having stress dreams right now‚ but I'm not actually #In fact usually my dreams are horrible things of dreadful desperate danger and darkness and blood. Losing my children‚ losing other people #who trust me to help and save them. #But they've all been things like “woman is criticizing my soap bottles” (🤨) and “there's a tornado - but it doesn't hit us actually” and #“you missed a phone call btw” #But it's not that I'm not stressed. I am. I am tied up in all sorts of knots over this pending divorce hearing. And the pending CPS case. #<- That's going to court btw. Dallas has had a full year to do the mandatory six weeks counseling and has opted not to finish it‚ so they'r #taking him to court over it to codify that he is not allowed to have anything to do with us. #Fine by me‚ him being legally prevented from having anything to do with us has always been my hope. It'll be a hassle for me having to #*also* appear in court‚ but overall a small price to pay. And it also removes my last theological objections to the divorce; #the unbelieving has chosen to depart indeed. #So! *Good* news. But also not not-stressful. #(My back is *killing* me and it gets worse the closer February 6th looms.) #On the other hand I REFUSE to worry. Because there is No. Way. that God would bring us this far just to abandon us now. #And His fingerprints are *all over* the last two years. #(I am still not precisely 'looking forward' to the court appearances.) #Anyway. Fun stuff‚ fun stuff. #Nattering into the void

[july-19th-club]

me age seven being sat down in front of the school’s district child psych lady and being given strange, simple spatial puzzles to solve and then long, complicated worksheets and hammering my way through them at the speed of light while having zero comprehension what their purpose was or why i was here: this is urgent! i have to get a good grade in Weird Puzzles, Or Else, something that is both normal to want and possible to achieve,

#kjalkjsdalkjasdl mrs button was a nice lady but not one adult in my childhood ever seemed to notice what to me now seems like #a pretty obvious case of the autisms #then again maybe they just didn't look as hard unless it was *really* obvious back then . it was like. what. 2000? a couple years later #everybody was talking about autism but not when i was six or seven then it was usually just when it was Very Visible #a couple years later my cousin who's more visibly on the spectrum than me got her diagnosis so young that she's pretty much always had it #which is...well i think it's just made her life difficult in a different way. people underestimate her or don't treat her like she's her age #but then she's always had the opportunity to get accommodations and people are sometimes more forgiving when she can't do something #whereas i got labeled 'kid that should be ahead of the game' from a pretty young age and then when i struggled adults either ignored it #or it was just a huge hassle to them and even i could see it exasperated them to have to work around me #but because mrs button (nice lady but what were you thinking) hadn't told them to treat me like a kid with a developmental disorder #they didn't do that in good OR bad ways . so i never got any accommodations with school stuff i struggled with which was a fair bit #i wasn't supposed to need extra testing time in a quiet room or tutoring with math or help organizing my abysmally scattered things #the only time i DID get that was in sixth grade when i was sort-of friends with this kid jonathan who was Very On The Spectrum #he wasn't really a talker unless it was about whatever he was reading which suited me fine so we just kind of existed in each other's space #and his TSS was this very smart and nice lady who had clearly clocked that Something Was Going On With Me and even though it wasn't like #her JOB she made a little bit of time for me. mostly with emotional stuff (i think i was under the impression she was a therapist?) #but if i had some problem with being unable to keep friends or being frozen out by the kids i wanted to be liked by (happened often) #she'd be able to just like. be there she'd make the time . wish i could remember her name

[moregraceful]

put 712 of the worst words ever put in a google doc tonight BUT! it is 712 more words in the google doc than i had yesterday. this fic will be more than 2k, so help me god

#the past six months have been so weird after posting over 200k last year (including the longest fic i've written since bandom) #i think i would have been fine continuing to post 1-3k one shots all year if i had not just had to request extended time off of school #but between that + having no idea if i have a regular schedule at the library + my nonprofit boss sending a harrowing welcome back #i'm like by god jason robertson we are going to take a couple of leisurely 7-10k+ strolls to get you a boyfriend or two this summer #well all that + being horrendously writers blocked on the other two longer projects lmfao oh my god #10k deep in one and every time i open the google doc a portal to hell opens up in my living room #0k into the other bc every time i open my outline another different portal to hell opens up in my shower #i get no rest. i get no peace. every morning i wake up and 5 more demons are- oh my god #bro my fucken train of thought just got completely derailed by spotify. i know i'm the last person in the world to know this but #3oh!3 and big freedia remixed rebecca black's friday?? and it's completely unlistenable?? girls what did you do #3oh!3 kill me bc no time traveler ever took their faces in hand and kissed them gently on the forehead and looked into their eyes #said ''please focus on coloradosunrise it will literally course-correct the trajectory of your career from frat house gimmick to #rowdy but respectable indie edm artists. you can remain true to your warped tour dirtbag origins but you HAVE to develop THAT sound'' #like the chainsmokers are a joke but i feel like THAT + ANGRY EMO GIRLS + THEIR TOTAL DISREGARD FOR MARKETABILITY... could have been THEM #when the piano drops?? hello?? i had so many mental breakdowns in college listening to that song they could have defined a generation #like who else is gonna get noah cyrus and ashe and gayle and olivia rodrigo's vision. only warped tour dirtbags. #me @ myself [so lovingly]: what are you talking about. how old are you #me @ myself: talk to me abt earth 2 in which 3oh!3 remixed i got so high that i saw jesus....and it whipped ass #also. i had to google how old i was. THREE TIMES last week. #the minute i turned 32 apparently i was like i'm in my mid-30s now the rest of this decade is NOT my business until i turn 38 #this post was supposed to be an uplifting reminder to myself to keep pushing forward and trying hard and to not let the rot consume me #but i think i just drove off a cliff like fully my god #i need listen to big freedia more she rules #fresno oilers.txt #another banner day in the tags with kasper moregraceful

[flintbian]

Someone talk me out of putting "my other car is a fucking warship" sticker on my wheelchair

#ive wanted to put this on my wheelchair for YEARS and now ive finally succumbed and bought the sticker #it got here in the mail today but im not sure if i should do it #don't worry fucking is bleeped out and the sticker is small so you'd have to get real close to see it #but im imagining ppl behind me on the bus maybed being bothered by it idk #although if someone got the reference id make an instant friend and it's funny anyways as my 'car' is a wheelchair lol #ive never decorated any of my mobility aids and i wouldn't beyond this sticker but i think it'd maybe be hilarious #to see that on there #but i also hate when ppl look at me or any attention and im physically disabled ppl stare enough but alsp #whenever i go to something like a ren faire in costume i can always say the stares are at my costume instead of abled stares reasons #so who knows maybe it'd have the 'theyre looking at my horns' kinda effect #ive had my chair for around six years now she needs some decorations #anyways yall got any recs of where i should put my other ten stickers? my art bin is nearly packed 😁 #p #the fucking warship speech obviously lives in my head rent free #as does the entire show but Anyways

[averlym]

hi, i see you are on hiatus, but thought at some point you might like to hear that january 28th is henry’s deathday ~ holiday anon

another one bites the dust (haha because you hoover dust)

#one year anniversary of this in my ask box <3 have a silly little niche comic that would only make sense if you’ve seen this one behind the #scenes video interview thing i don't remember #i was going to find it to link it but alas it was super old (before covid! before cast change!) and i gave up #it was like is henry involved in this show? and yeah he eats the confetti at the end that's it or smth like that #in the uk. there is this specific brand of vacuum cleaner// hoover? (why do they call it a hoover i had to go back and bri'ish-ify the #dialogue in this. goodness). and its name is henry. amongst other things. go google it ig #notes!! okay so like. was going to draw all six queens but ran out of stamina. i have spent the day doing idk what and my eyes kinda hurt #so you get the trio of? #catherine parr #jane seymour #anne boleyn #fun fact! i was scrolling through the inbox today and coincidentally saw this and today's date. insane. and so i kinda rushed this out. #also. not sure if you've seen this @holidayanon but after the &lt;now retracted&gt; goodbye post i got to know who was behind this all along #and like. thank you amber you're very cool! haven't talked in ages! can;t believe you fooled me for so long. sneaky skills? ily <333 #back to notes on this yes. #there's a few references in here to my super old stuff (3 in total i guess??) #1) couch. one of my oldest drawings of the queens is all six of them on a couch and ngl i love the vibes i keep meaning to redraw it and #then not doing so. but every time i think of their headcanoned shared living space i like to stick in a couch hehe #2) plant!!! a long long time ago incorrect-sixquotes did smth about a plant and anne. its name was bess. if you look at like. sept 2019 #it's there in the archive. i think it might have been a fake plant but yknow what? i will allow bess to Grow. as a treat. and 3) there's an #incorrect quote out there i drew once from misha (wify!!) asking about cathy parr and 'make me a sandwich' meme/vine/thingy #with her and henry the hoover. so yeah! also i like in this one she's the queen declaring his death bc like how she was the one who outlived #him. itches my brain. i like to think that in this comic jane is humming one of the songs from six- specifically HoS or six!! <3 #i am not sure what noise a vacuum cleaner makes when it dies. i'm also unsure who other than my family vacuums a couch but then again i was #unaware we owned a vacuum cleaner until a month ago! so there's that #six the musical #six the musical fanart #caption is a silly little pun courtesy of me channelling my inner seymour. i think the last comic i did was for aragon's bday and despite th #e passage of time. i am still unable to properly pace things. oh well

[herawell]

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#negativity cw #mother mention cw #if there’s one good thing about last eeekend’s meltdown #now I know that even after almost a year of therapy which supposedly ‘saved’ her marriage to my dad #my mom still feels no compunctions about last year’s Dec 20 and 21 screamfests #where she told me she would be gifting my dad a divorce for Xmas and it would be my fault #for trying to [redacted] herself in front of me while I whisper screamed for her not to #for blaming me every year since age 13 for their marriage being in the rocks #after a year of therapy and imploring me to seek therapy myself #she still doesn’t regret any of it #I vowed to myself after last year’s Christmas meltdown that I would never get them any kind of anniversary gift again #not after a decade of being blamed as a child for their issues #and now I feel no remorse about that decision #no flowers no chocolates no cards no special surprises #I’m the eldest child and earning close to six figures and not a penny of it will go to celebrating their Union #and i don’t care how bad it makes me look #she can get a one-line ‘congrats’ in the family WhatsApp group chat and that’s it #you don’t get to scream at me every 18 months ever since I was 14 #that I am the one strain on your otherwise faultless marriage #that it’s my fault my siblings will grow up in a broken home #that it’s my fault we’ll have to sell the family home of 30 years to pay for the divorce #and never apologize at all even years down the line when I’m an adult and you’ve had your ‘character development’ #and expect me to celebrate your Union #it’s very very petty and idk if she’ll notice bc I’ve never really made anniversary gifts for them before #but that’s my revenge

[parvuls]

okay wait I'm writing an actual post so I can start handling all these emotions

#in the tags #because I am extremely aware of the privilege involved in buying extra content and even getting it shipped so fast #if seeing madison/kickstarter talk bothers you feel free to ignore this post! it'll likely be my last one on the subject. #but the thing is: three and something years ago I was deeply depressed and confined to my house because of covid #I hadn't been active in any fandoms in 3-4 years at that point and I started to think I'd never feel this passionate again #and then I read omgcp in a fit of insomnia one night #and then waited with baited breath for the last episode to go up so I could write a completley canon compliant madison fic #I spent six months obsessively writing it. #it was my first long fic in 5-6 years and working on it honestly - genuinely - dragged me out of that bad place. #when I posted it I knew one day it'd be jossed by canon madison but I was so okay with it. I couldn't WAIT #and tbh I thought it'd happen much sooner than it did #but now we're finally here and it weirdly feels like a big moment for me #like a: look where we were and where we're at now kind of moment. like a: end of an era kind of moment. #by no means the end of my omgcp era #but I think a part of me just felt unfinished as long as this moment was still unfulfilled #anyway. if you were here when I was completely new to this fandom and just started talking about that 2015 summer nonstop #just know you were a major part of my mental health journey during covid and that I appreciate it so fucking much #rip madison fixation 👋 you've served me well #text

[hopeinthebox]

i was tagged by the effervescent @cordiallyfuturedwight and i bow to her selections once again. magnificent stuff. somewhat delayed but tagging some favs @aprylynn @thvinyl @banghwa @yooboobies @pauls-mccharmly @kimchokejin @kithtaehyung 💜

#here's the debrief (if only for myself): #unknown/nth. i saw hozier live this weekend and it was a biblical experience. i achieved apotheosis during this song and at least six others #and have been Changed because of it. for better or worse- it's too early to say #02 folk malone got to me. what can i say #i loved northern attitude last year and i must've missed the stick season train but good lord did it total me this time round #feathered indians.. look. every so often i fall victim to the bluegrass and this is one of those times. lord forgive me. #maggie rogers' tim mcgraw is masterful #and annie lennox has never once missed eurythmics or otherwise #the lilo and stitch soundtrack is something that can be so personal #kamehameha schools children's chorus for artist of the year except they're all probably pushing thirty now #springsteen i will always keep coming back to. nebraska is an album and a half #dolly needs no explanation #olivia dean hasn't been around too long but oh my god she's got IT. whatever it is #dial drunk my stay toxic anthem. it's a good one. see also: the rest of the album #as for the artists - can i go a month without abba in there challenge FAILED AGAIN #also honorable mention ryan beatty. i've only just discovered calico and it's a masterpiece front to back #that's all folks. if you read all of this i'm sending you a big kiss <33 get help #tag #receiptify

[amyriadfthings]

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#i´m so tired #work was mad this week #three particular events driving me bonkers atm #and 10.5 months of general madness to go before colleague´s back from his sabbatical #i need sleep and six years by the sea #but also #days where i get to buy jimmy eat world tickets are the best and that just happened #i love that they just stop by every two years #those gigs are the most joyful things #<3 #i´m so tired i could cry or happy or no tired #and now i get to have months of looking forward to that particular experience again <3 #i was thinking they were due a visit #yaaay

[rindomness]

i think the thing that makes me most powerful as an artist is the fact that i have kept copies in some form or another of almost everything i have made since i started and thus whenever the imposter syndrome is hitting i can look at the literal piles of sketchbooks and notebooks and binders i keep the physical copies of my work in and go oh yeah. ive been working at this for like ten years. and then it just goes away.

anyway i absolutely recommend this as a strategy no matter how cringey it might seem keeping visual evidence of skill progression is an incredible tool against imposter syndrome. voice in your head can't tell you you're faking your skills if you can pull out a literal record of your skill growth against it

#even digital stuff like. #keep a file on a physical drive with your shit on it. back it up every once in a while. #google docs is fine but nothing quite beats digging through your files on your laptop and finding something you wrote five years ago #that's maybe not as technically sound as what you can do *now* but still isn't like bad. #legitimately i found a notebook while cleaning last month that was just like. #half of a novel. handwritten in this little composition notebook. #was it *good?* eh! but im also looking at that after yeah like five or six YEARS of practice #and that even beats finding stuff i wrote. like. Actually Legitimately Ten Years Ago #always makes me sad to see younger artists than me declaring theyre gonna delete their stuff cause its embarrassing or cringey #like. ok so what i spent a full two years drawing bad undertale comics with every panel on a new piece of paper. #im going to keep them until i have no choice but to get rid of them which will likely be when *i* die and not a moment before #reminder i need to back up my stuff . wheres my hard drive for that.

[theskywaslookingback]

My dad: *texts my mom the day after Father’s Day to see if I was mad at him because I didn’t call him*

Also my dad: *sends me a text on Easter and then radio silence for months* *does not call to ask if I have plans for my birthday* *does not text to check in on me* *does not invite me over to his house for anything ever* *allows my stepmom to use his money to prioritize her kids over me* *literally doesn’t ever act like he wants anything to do with me actually* *cancels or changes plans at the last minute because he decides he wants to drink instead* *offers to help my mom pay my car payments and then never does* *gets us gym memberships and then cancels them without warning because he didn’t have the money and just doesn’t tell me* *cannot hold a thirty second conversation without mentioning ‘the Chinese threat’ or ‘Covid was invented by democrats to replace Trump in office’*

My dad: Why doesn’t my child call me? I am the specialist most important person in the whole wide world. What could she have to be mad about?

#angy #sweepy but angy #he told my mom the other day that he wished I’d gotten a real job instead of playing around like I am currently #like with zero awareness that I tried desperately for six months to find a job and literally no one would hire me #and now I can just kind of do my own thing BECAUSE my mom takes care of me and helps me financially #and that we have an understanding that I will absolutely look for a job if she ever asks me to #like we have talked about this multiple times #my silly little business is allowed because my mom makes enough money to take care of us both and invest in the business #if she were to say ‘i need you to find a job to pay for your car payment’ I’d start looking again that very second #we’re both adults like #im literally turning 30 in a few days #and he’s still running his mouth like im 16 and stupid #ignoring the fact that I’ve been sick a majority of my adult life and that it’s gotten significantly worse the last couple of years #to the point that something as common as my period will have me writing on the floor in pain for days and sick to my stomach for weeks #this man has a wife that has NEVER worked a day in her LIFE and he wants to tell ME to get a job?? #anyway she told me about it when she got home and i had to stop myself from reflexively going to set his house on fire #that man better send me fucking money for my birthday it’s all he’s good for

[bmpmp3]

after six years of the game being out and after three and a half years of me actually playing the game i have finally beat botw. did u know finishing video games is. fun,,

#hey its not as bad as norn9 where im only a third in after six years. and rhythm thief took me a genuine decade #im very good at taking my time #MY IMPRESSIONS its a good game :) i think i had a little over 100 hours by the end. one thing about the final boss fight though - #it made me kinda miss like true classic zelda scripted boss fights LOL but lots of fun! #some of the dlc stuff i couldnt do like the champions ballad and the sword thing RIP had to look up the cutscenes later~ #theyre tough! but also my playstyle has always been a bit of. just run and go for it #planning and stealth is not my strong suit. by the end i was running directly up to guardians and just killing them before they killed me #i can eat kebabs faster than they can shoot lasers. i am unstoppable #the soundtrack was nice! subdued obvs since its open world #but the standout tracks are really standout. of course i love rito village night ver being dragon roost island #and the hyrule castle theme turning into zeldas lullaby in the internal parts hit me #and of course the main theme is iconic. i like the version with the hard break in the middle the most i love that cut so much #i know people edited it out and in the live version its not as harsh because its live #but i LOVE IT i love it so much. mix of synthetic breaks with a fantastical and traditional sounding theme. awesome #that whole 3 and a half years before i got a copy of the game (i wanted to beat skyward sword first) i didnt look up like anything #didnt pay attention to anything people were saying. heard something about it being open world. heard some speedruns were like an hour #and i heard the theme. and i listened to that theme on repeat for all those years. so so good #now i will probably do that for totk- not knowing anything about it for three years until i finally play it LOL thats how it is so far #people have told me about it. but truthfully i wasnt really listening. sowwy. i was focused on botw orz #but i wanna play something different now. take a break. also wait until i can find someone selling totk used for under 70 cad KJDLJFKDSJDKS #i am NOT paying nearly a hundo for a videoed game nintendo you cant make me #maybe now i should finish all the other games in my backlog. or i could start 5 new ones. hmmmmmmmm