#and why are your blinds open?

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

i'm allowed to humanize sculpture i'm allowed to sexualize sculpture i'm allowed to acknowledge that being created just to be viewed is inherently exhibitionistic and that one as a viewer forfeits their uninvolvement by stepping into the role of a voyeur when they look upon what is there to be looked upon

#i am not giving this up my brain is stuck on it #“go do your schoolwork” blah blah what about exploring the inherent eroticism that all statue holds when viewed? #what about that? #what about sensuality in art? what about the eroticism? #what about the voyeurism that ran rampant as a subject of controversy after the first italian printed pornogrophy panels came out #in the sixteenth century? #what about the fact that pornography wasn't as easy to get your hands on as it is today? #what about the fact that going to a church and jerking it to christ is something that absolutely happened numerous times #and undoubtedly was something sculptors knew of when sexualizing him? #what about that?? #let me open your eyes #you're blinded. i must free you from your narrow view of the world #work and school and day-to-day life means nothing #the themes the metaphors the allegories the philosophies the art the eroticism #why isn't that what matters? why must i spend my time writing a paper that in the end will only serve as a way to express my thoughts? #why shouldn't i gather everyone up and speak to them #my lovely followers. we must see truth #what the fuck am i going on about #this project is messing with my mind (revealing truths oft-hidden in favor of the banal)

[piease-iove-me]

people be trashing on yoongi just cause he's rich and condemns capitalism and like?? i'm sorry?? wtf is wrong with you

#agust d #LIKE WHY YOU EVEN TALKING WHEN YOU KNOW SHIT #sure he's rich (now) but man worked his ass off for it and being rich doesn't mean he's suddenly blind to things he's always criticized??? #like??? tf is wrong why you opening your mouth

[pawphin]

long ramble in tags tldr: kindness rules

#was it genocide that got them to the human world or was it her kindness and promise at the expense of her past #who was ultimately the reason the goldy pond kids were able to survive and escape #who got stabbed by a demon and was in a coma for four weeks trying to protect her newfound family #ultimately shifting his perspective on humans and hunting in general and becoming a driving force in their efforts for freedom #who became best friends with the literal ''evil blooded girl'' and was able to come up with a sound solution to demons needing human meat #in order to maintain their forms #do you think norman would be happier knowing he had to be the sacrificial lamb killing children with his bare hands and fully executing it #do you think ray would be happier if emma had simply let him die instead of giving him a firm dose of reality and helping him to #live a life full of love and support and kindness #of course she isnt perfect and i most definitely would change a lot of things if i could but this is just one of the many comments i see #when youre blinded by hatred you cant think objectively #i understand that norman went through freakish amounts of hell but to put it in my perspective: if i were a demon #i highly doubt that i would fully understand how intelligent humans truly are #you know those videos of people boiling crabs alive and saying ''it doesnt hurt them'' #there would probably be a lot of rhetoric around that nature and all i would know is eat human fingertip = go play tag #so why would my parents deserve to die? what difference is there between cattle like pigs and cows in our world to humans in theirs? #anyways. im sorry for liking stories where kindness prevails and opens doors to opportunities previously thought imaginable #i hate constantly seeing this stuff when looking up tpn and it irks me it really does

[snekdood]

everyone who says they hate rap is required to listen to this song first

#fave #music #mood #its not all about pussy money weed #listen closely to the lyrics in rap music #rather than dismissing all rap just say you think that particular rapper sucks yaknow #but also you gotta appreciate pmw rap a bit too- that was one of the points in contrapoints' opulence video that everyone glazed over #bc god forbid she not know the internet wants buck angel to shit and die #(which btw is a really good video if you can get past your blinding rage for buck angel and listen to the rest of the 40 min video) #it why even though the majority of wiz khalifas rap is pretty uhm. shallow. to say the least- #in amber ice he has a line that goes like 'we aint even supposed to be living near this people' as in WHITE people. #its about flaunting that which you are denied by a society that oppresses you #ARE YOU GETTING IT? DO YOU GET IT YET???????????? #im literally frothing over here tryna make ppl understand #which is why btw its weird when white ppl make songs like that about 'having more money than u' about themselves or make a whole song like #that. like becky you're not revolutionary at all. you're a rich white girl. oooooo so different and unique. #rap music about money is usually like 'fuck you i can do that shit too' not JUST about the flaunt bb girl #*glares at ariana grande* #ariana- YOU'RE the exact type of person rappers are pitting themselves against. flaunting your money isnt cool or different or anything #you're not revolutionary in your music at all. you're just a rich white person being open about how above everyone you think you are #thats the difference between white rappers like ariana and black rappers- white rappers rap about their money to flaunt how above everyone #they are. black rappers flaunt their money to show how above rich white people they can be #you're not proving you can do it too you're being a privileged asshole lmao #the difference between rich white rappers and old money is that rich white rappers are actually being open about how they think they're #superior than everyone #like ok becky we get you embrace being a white supremacist colonizer and no one can tell you to stop 🙄😒

[paris-geller-was-straightwashed]

I’m sorry but this fandom has the most piss-poor reading comprehension I’ve ever seen.

I’m not sure if “reading” comprehension can still be applied to a visual medium, but whatever - regardless, the fact that fans can’t even read the fucking narrative and instead deconstruct or misconstrue characters and then rebuild them completely different then how they’re actually suppose to be in the story, is wild.

henry creel is meant to be a fucking villain. like. I need you all to understand this. there was no mistaking this when he was introduced to the show. yes, his background and reasonings for turning murderous and then fully becoming vecna are complex and interesting within the story and how they relate to the lab and whatnot, but we’re suppose to grasp from the beginning that henry always had it in him to turn into a villain. it didn’t simply start with the abuse under brenner (abuse, btw, as we’ve learned from the billy fiasco, is not a get-out-of-jail-free-card when it comes to his actions) - it starts when he’s a fucking 10yr old kid and he tied up a bunny rabbit and started torturing it. no, I’m not saying a lonely and disturbed child was straight up evil, but purely from who he was, he found his own purpose and enjoyment in harmful things.

he always had that. and we’re suppose to grasp that from the narrative.

ppl out here saying he was actually trying to help el???? that he, quote, did nothing wrong????? this isn’t interpreting the text how you see it. this is fucking taking the whole text and tossing it out the window.

the duffers were clear the second henry was introduced. we can read this not just from his actions, but by the setup too - the soundtrack, the way el is nervous and unsure of him, the way jamie plays him with that continuous haunting air; we’re told, from the start, to be cautious and unsure of him. this slowly changes we he starts interacting with el; encouraging her to utilize her emotions for her powers, whispering ‘good luck’ to her during the lesson, and then finally when we see him try to help her escape, we’re thinking maybe he’s a helpful good guy after all! the tone of the episode is leading us towards that, it’s set-up to have us believe that - so, we can have that show-stopping moment of a rug being pulled out under us when el walks out, seeing the dead bodies of her ‘siblings’ and henry covered in blood. that scene change is a massive fucking curve - it’s suppose to flip you over on your back, harshly tugging away the previous thought that maybe henry would be a good guy. we can see clearly now, he is not a good guy.

this alone, should be enough context. but his actions are more proof. him trying to get close to el wasn’t to ‘help’ her or protect her from brenner - it was a manipulation tactic, bc he saw her as a prime tool of use either for her strong psychic powers or bc he saw that same lonely/’feeling different/’ factor he felt in her too making her an easy target, and planted the seed by appearing to ‘help’ her so she’d accompany him in his take-over. killing the other children was not an act of mercy - it was bc he saw them as ‘weak’ and wanted to be rid of them before moving up with el, he didn’t gave any damn about them clearly by the way he either ignored them or encouraged el to fight back against them. this isn’t empathy - it’s manipulation. like..you all know there’s a reason why there are so many similarities between henry and el/will right? it’s to show us, in almost a black-n-white way, a good guy and a bad guy. they have similarities, but it’s their inner core, who they truly are, that gives way to them making the right or wrong choices. their morals - like the way henry, again, ties up a rabbit and tortures it, and then the way el cries at harming the cat and refuses. how will is both sensitive and haunted like henry, but instead, also kind and warm - giving his dumptruck to the little girl in the sandbox, ‘all friends welcome’ written on castle byers, whereas henry went into isolation as a youth bc he was both angry and afraid of the world. henry himself maybe didn’t start out evil, but what we’re suppose to understand is that he always had it in him to become so and did.

this! is! not! a! complex! subject! it is, in fact, NOT THAT DEEP.

frankly, I am so fucking tired of seeing this - this repeated wobbifycation of the fandom’s favourite White Boys(tm) where instead of understanding them for who the creators show us they are, completely blindside that to turn them into whatever fandom wants. we saw the same fucking thing happen earlier with billy. billy was written and always meant to be a one-off antagonist. he was suppose to show up in s2 to be a foil to max and the others and literally that was it - even the duffers said so, saying they had no plan to otherwise do anything with billy. but fangirls jumped onto him and built up fever for him so hard, completely deconstructing how the duffers planned him as just a two-dimensional racist asshole and instead saying he was some justified victim who was actually a good brother to max - and boom, now the fandom is filled with this shit, of ppl openly loving a character who tried to openly harm (or possibly kill) a child of colour, and he gets a full storyline in s3. while henry has more depth then billy, overall, this is the same pattern. the show gives us a cruel figure in the form of some young white guy, meant to be seen exactly for what he is, and fandom refuses to see it, tossing away any cruel actions by saying they weren’t meant to be bad in the first place, going so far as to completely rewrite the text of the storyline. 

you know who was suppose to be read as complex? kali.

no, I will not shut up about this - bc it is both so humours and totally disappointing in the way fandom gives free licences to white villains, but completely refuses to give that to actual complex characters and instead read them as one thing only. through the entirety of kali’s episode, we get the overall picture of her as someone both caring and cruel. kali clearly loves el, the way she treats her and smiles at her and opens herself to her showcases this - though kali will never fault el from making her own choices, it’s clear she wants her in her life. she also, cares for her friends; she’s able to relate her story of abuse to their own disenfranchisement, and then taking that, seeks out those who’ve hurt her and others so they’re repercussions, and so they can’t hurt again. there’s empathy and nobility in there - but, kali is also cruel. she’s unable to see how killing ray would affect his children, and how forcing el to confront brenner hurts her. she makes wrong choices, but we’re suppose to see, that kali isn’t trying to be inherently, 100% malicious in them. she’s got a higher purpose, a more complex meaning, behind it all. when you look at her and line it all up with how she acts, treats others, and generally just goes about her business, we come to understand that she’s neither good nor bad, but, somewhere in the middle.

and what happened? she was introduced and quite literally thrown to the mob who beat her to a pulp. fandom outright refused to look at the nuances - to them, kali did one(1) bad action, and so therefore was tossed aside, no longer to be looked at. the same fucking fandom that will bend over backwards for the villains of this story, when given an actual morally grey character shaped by hardship and abuse, wouldn’t even give her the time of the day.

honestly, if it weren’t so disheartening I would find it funny. instead, it’s just sad. it’s deeply frustrating and upsetting how fandom will find every excuse in the book to validate and understand villainous characters of a certain type (aka Attractive White Boy), but won’t give the time of day to actual interesting characters who’re much more deserving of this deep analysis I’ve seen for both henry and billy.

tl;dr: henry is a fucking villain. billy is a fucking villain. they were never meant to be anything more, and if you want a complex character, you can find that in kali or frankly, a handful of other characters in this show. and once more, this fandom has a racism & misogyny problem that aids in the complete inability to properly comprehend a storyline, and it’s no fucking wonder I really hate it around here sometimes.

#stranger things #stranger things thoughts #henry creel #vecna stranger things #el hopper #eleven stranger things #kali #kali prasad #I wouldn't normally sound this mean but I have quite literally had it up to here #look I'm all for ppl discussing henry's character and how it developed as he was taken by brenner etc #that's fine he's got an interesting background in terms of the story #but your fucking kidding yourselves if you think anything he does isn't driven by a villain mindset #at this point you'd have to be blind to not see it #and I think a lot of you are willingly blind #at least the billy stans are #man I'm probably opening myself up to a lot hatemail but whatever I've had it with this place #I still like the show and enjoy the friends I have which is why I've stayed but oh lord it's a test of patience

[meatriarch]

im still on my fuckshit but when i think of cc maria ( by extension also nosy maria but specifically noting the isolation aspect of cc );

can you imagine one day skimming the paper. its been a few weeks since all the commotion knowing your friends' had attempted to come find you but then were chased off. never actually heard or saw any of them, but you know they were around.

but you've been moved from the cells to a mattress upstairs. you're given more freedom, more wiggle room, you're allowed to do things - little hobby-type activities - you're given better foods, you're looked after by the older woman at the other house. the man who took you, who terrifies you still to some degree, slowly doesn't feel like such a stranger anymore, you're right to still be cautious around him but as the days, the weeks, pass by, there's simply a different air about him, and in the shack. lighter, in a sense.

you find yourself growing used to the new daily - the new routine. of waking to the sound of him getting ready for the day, of being left alone in there for hours sometimes, others trailing after him like a duckling, around the older womans' property, helping with an array of tasks. and you worry about upsetting her at first, unsure if doing so will earn a knife to the throat. you listen, you do as you're told, you find some kind of way to co-exist - all the while still, in the back of your mind, there's still a ray of hope,

that maybe, maybe, since the rest of them got away - that they're merely licking their wounds, that they'll get word out and even with all the silence since they had been on the property, there's that shred of hope that maybe? someone will waltz in, guns blazing so to speak, and you'll get out of this hell finally.

that is, until that day - that you're skimming through the paper, and you recognize yourself in a little column - and you realize you're staring at your own fucking obituary.

and in that moment everything seems solidified.

you're never getting away.

there's no point in it.

there's no one out there who are still trying to find you, get you back, bring you home, back to your mothers' arms, back to being an older sister, back to the circle of friends you loved so dearly.

you're dead.

not just to the world, but to those you loved - those who claimed to have loved you, too.

what else do you have at that point? where else do you go, even if you still tried to leave? who wouldn't look at you sideways for the blood that's already stained your hands? for the flesh caught between teeth?

who else is there, except the one murmuring encouragement and praise in your ear?

the only constant you've had in all these weeks? whose words rang true - clearly - that no one cared? that they abandoned you? left you there, didn't even care to make sure you were alive or not? only thought of themselves and got the fuck outta there without confirming if you were even still alive.

#[ ♡ ] ── * maria f. / 𝘭𝘰𝘳𝘦. #[ 𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘦. ] ── * queue. #[ 𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘦. ] ── * cold case. #[ 𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘦. ] ── * no one saved you. #for cc maria its just. theres literally no one else. the only constant has been johnny. hes the one who was there with her when the #broadcasts sounded off her searches being called off. the only one who ensured she ate - was clothed - was looked after when she fell ill. #who she could talk to. who in spite of all her escape attempts & all her attempts at trying to kill him kept her around - taught her how to #do things properly - protected her from others that'd be brought down below shack. honestly. her isolation in cc - only having any sort of #connection being with johnny for *months* before he trusted her enough to let her join him for longer periods - like its. complicated. #SO fucking complicated. youre seen as dead to literally everyone else in existence - *except for him*. he who sees you. who hears you. #who talks to you. looks after you. its hard not to find yourself becoming attached/devoted. to the only person who knows you still exist #like i mentioned for nosy its. theres lee there too now so its. a little different. it doesnt hit right away - the almost blind devotion. #but it still happens - over time - with the both of them. the last two people who for a time at least know you were even still living. #and its by the time ch2 rolls in for either cc/nosy its just. its so confusing to her. why they all bother returning then? #for cc its just. you all buried me in an empty box twenty years ago...you all moved on then. you accepted that. so why are you here now. #why are you re-opening wounds that shouldve been long buried - with that empty casket. why suddenly care now? #in nosy she suppresses it w. her bitterness but cc i feel it comes out more like... grief & hurt. all over again. because if you came back #20 yrs after the fact? then why DIDNT you return back then? why *now* and not then? at any point in the last two decades?

[meatriarchived]

i did not sleep yay for me im still on my fuckshit but when i think of cc maria ( by extension also nosy maria but specifically noting the isolation aspect of cc );

can you imagine one day skimming the paper. its been a few weeks since all the commotion knowing your friends' had attempted to come find you but then were chased off. never actually heard or saw any of them, but you know they were around.

but you've been moved from the cells to a mattress upstairs. you're given more freedom, more wiggle room, you're allowed to do things - little hobby-type activities - you're given better foods, you're looked after by the older woman at the other house. the man who took you, who terrifies you still to some degree, slowly doesn't feel like such a stranger anymore, you're right to still be cautious around him but as the days, the weeks, pass by, there's simply a different air about him, and in the shack. lighter, in a sense.

you find yourself growing used to the new daily - the new routine. of waking to the sound of him getting ready for the day, of being left alone in there for hours sometimes, others trailing after him like a duckling, around the older womans' property, helping with an array of tasks. and you worry about upsetting her at first, unsure if doing so will earn a knife to the throat. you listen, you do as you're told, you find some kind of way to co-exist - all the while still, in the back of your mind, there's still a ray of hope,

that maybe, maybe, since the rest of them got away - that they're merely licking their wounds, that they'll get word out and even with all the silence since they had been on the property, there's that shred of hope that maybe? someone will waltz in, guns blazing so to speak, and you'll get out of this hell finally.

that is, until that day - that you're skimming through the paper, and you recognize yourself in a little column - and you realize you're staring at your own fucking obituary.

and in that moment everything seems solidified.

you're never getting away.

there's no point in it.

there's no one out there who are still trying to find you, get you back, bring you home, back to your mothers' arms, back to being an older sister, back to the circle of friends you loved so dearly.

you're dead.

not just to the world, but to those you loved - those who claimed to have loved you, too.

what else do you have at that point? where else do you go, even if you still tried to leave? who wouldn't look at you sideways for the blood that's already stained your hands? for the flesh caught between teeth?

who else is there, except the one murmuring encouragement and praise in your ear?

the only constant you've had in all these weeks? whose words rang true - clearly - that no one cared? that they abandoned you? left you there, didn't even care to make sure you were alive or not? only thought of themselves and got the fuck outta there without confirming if you were even still alive.

#for cc maria its just. theres literally no one else. the only constant has been johnny. hes the one who was there with her when the #broadcasts sounded off her searches being called off. the only one who ensured she ate - was clothed - was looked after when she fell ill. #who she could talk to. who in spite of all her escape attempts & all her attempts at trying to kill him kept her around - taught her how to #do things properly - protected her from others that'd be brought down below shack. honestly. her isolation in cc - only having any sort of #connection being with johnny for *months* before he trusted her enough to let her join him for longer periods - like its. complicated. #*so* fucking complicated. youre seen as dead to literally everyone else in existence - *except for him*. he who sees you. who hears you. #you speaks with you. looks after you. its hard not to find yourself becoming attached/devoted. to the only person who knows you still exist #like i mentioned for nosy its. theres lee there too now so its. a little different. it doesnt hit right away - the almost blind devotion. #but it still happens - over time - with the both of them. the last two people who for a time at least know you were even still living. #and its by the time ch2 rolls in for either cc/nosy its just. its so confusing to her. why they all bother returning then? #for cc its just. you all buried me in an empty box twenty years ago...you all moved on then. you accepted that. so why are you here now. #why are you re-opening wounds that shouldve been long buried - with that empty casket. why suddenly care now? #in nosy she suppresses it with her bitterness but cc i feel it comes out more like... grief & hurt. all over again. because if you came bac #20 yrs after the fact? then why DIDNT you return back then? why *now* and not then? #[ mf ] ── * 𝐇𝐂 / 𝐋𝐎𝐑𝐄. { maria. } #[ mf ] ── * 𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐄. { cold case. } #[ mf ] ── * 𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐄. { no one saved you. } #[ mf ] ── * 𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐄. { we saved us. }

[appri-dot]

AUUUGHHGHH

#heat hives oujghjfjyfgjgfjdj #oh whats that temp 2 high? your face is exploding you now #WHY WHY WHY!!? WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS #if i open my window my blinds clank and clatter from the wind there is no winning

[gregmarriage]

the thing with both me and my brother being into always sunny, is there are parts where i straight up can’t talk about it with him. i can’t talk about mac being in love with dennis (even though it’s canon), i can’t talk about dtamhd being a allegory for dennis possibly (rcg, i’m in your walls) accepting his sexuality, because he doesn’t get it!! he’s my irl go to person for media shit and i can’t even talk to him!!

#i get different opinions and shit but he straight up is blind to these things #mac being gay was a surprise to him #even tho yeah okay rcg could never have made him canon gay in the first place #i won’t fault him for that too much #but if rcg do go along with non straight dennis and go down the macdennis route he’s gonna think it’s coming out of nowhere #and like?????? #open your eyes???? #didn’t bat a eyelid at the dennis/johnny stuff he just said he didn’t really like that part #and he didn’t understand the implications of the sinned system and why he was even being johnny in the first place #his face when mac said he was in love with johnny #just so much he’s fully got his eyes closed while watching that made me fucking scream when i watched #truly amazing #anyways dtamhd my beloved <3 #he at least agrees with me that’s the best ep #dennis is his fave anyway tho #2nd to frank which okay #mine switches between mac and charlie depending on my mood #i do love den tho #and i’m in lesbians with dee #frank is…frank #he’s good for the gross out weird shit #and i love him and charlie’s strange dynamic imao #idk i love them all tbh #they all suck but they suck together <3 #found family but everyone fucking hates each other fr #gwen rambles #gwenposting

[zincbot]

pro-bending is such a fun sport

#lok #thinking abt different strategies #because each element works differently each member on a team will have a slightly different position in terms of knocking out #the opposing team #for example. fire isn't as solid or physical as earth and water. but it's bright and has the most energy to iy #a good probending firebender knows exactly how to strike to blind and distract the other team leaving them open to knockouts #mako specifically is able to use a powerful firebending to force opponents into drawing up their defenses in a sloppy way. #leading the resulting elemental collision into knocking them out #the waterbender is great at distrubing the balance of the opposing team and disorienting. water is also a great combining force with #both fire and earth to create steam and dust and things like that reducing opposing team visibility #and earth is the obvious choice for a classic knockout. earthbenders are hard-hitting and best at slamming opponents back #even at their sturdiest #probending style earthbending is so interesting to me in particular because all bending is focused on the disks and the sport requires you #to be light on your feet and able to move dodge and recover from glancing hits #which is very counter to the way earthbending is tradiationally taught #it's why you see bolin doing flips and leaps and throwing a lot of fast small chunks of earth around. it's because he's a probender.

[makutas-chronicle]

How my Tarnished started her journey: I'm here to kick ass and take names, and I don't care what your name is.

How it's going: I may have just realized that I was a shock trooper for a tyrannical theocratic regime where the only thing separating Holy Battle and Blasphemous Atrocity is who the perpetrator was. So yeah... processing that...

#Elden Ring #My work notes #I might actually write a fic about this #Bold move on Miyazaki's part making it a mandatory part of any PC's backstory that they participated in a genocide #That sounds terrible but it actually opens up an interesting space to play in narratively #How much did your Tarnish realize the greater consequences of their actions during the war against the Fire Giants? #If they were blind to it why? #Trust in their Lord? #Belief in Marika's Golden Order? #If they weren't why did they do along with it? #The same reasons? #Or perhaps there's a cruelty to them?

[todayisafridaynight]

So there's my grammar teacher who used to be known as the intimidating one but like.. He's always been open to me and my friend about like what he watches and interests and has literally asked to see my writing

Do you know how awkward it is to explain the last thing I wrote was haha flower cough;"#+(@+%

(he liked the concept and deadass said "send it to me that's a command" and now I'm omw to write something entirely new because ain't no way I'm sending MineDai)

LMAO I WAS GONNA SAY YOU'D HAVE TO HOLD A GUN TO MY HEAD TO SEND SLASH FICTION TO MY TEACHER

#snap chats #i could never be that open with a teacher bro id rather get shot #will be epic to see what you end up cooking up for him tho. in pursuit of Not sending slash fiction lmaoooo #i wish i was able to be close with my teachers- closest i got was my art teacher during I Think my 1st or 2nd year of high school #he was SUCH a cool teacher and he'd always work on commissions during class #he was color blind so he had this really cool system on figuring out what the appropriate colors were for a client's piece #i remember one time we were meant to sketch those like. japanese scroll pieces Yk What I Mean #and while he did have preexisting examples for students who didnt know what to do (or didnt care LMAO) #he was just 'you always know what you're doing so you can freehand it' so that was epic :) #i drew a dragon.... cause im predictable...... but he really liked it so :) #man high school sucked but i also remember my english/comics teacher.. she was a really big fan of mine #she was especially passionate about my doing comics and doing art related things.. i get sad thinking about it sometimes #part of why ive always wanted to make a doujin was for her so i could send it to her and be like #'hey teach i still really like art look :)'. like when i say she was SUPER passionate about me It Was Super Passion #honestly she was my first big fan if im tbh- id never gotten support like that and i wish i valued her enthusiasm more #i was just mad depressed and angry in high school i just wanted to be left alone all the time.. but oh well no point in crying about it now #it'd be better if i could start thinking of a teacher-friendly doujin to make and give her... lmao..... #BUT YEAH NOT TO HIJACK YOUR ASK TO RAMBLE i hope you think of something to give your teach LMAOOO #just change the names full a Fifty Shades it's fine. terrible example but we know what i mean is the worst part

[ironmanstan]

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#sometimes i wonder if i should just go by maryam professionally #i feel like this would extremely lower my chances of getting outed on accident lmao. #all my branding is centered on my renegaedz username anyway like if i switched over itd alter pretty much nothing. #my dad simultaneously being so neglectful but such a fucking busybody and all my transphobic irls literal only reason id need to do this. #in theory i would not have to have literal separate art identities to keep up the facade but then i would have to play a balancing game #but then this means letting everyone i know irl into my little zone lmaooo i hate everyone . #i hate so many of my irls lol you all make me so fucking mad and make me hate being trans so fucking much sometimes. #why do i have to compromise on who i am just so i can fucking exist #'what if i compromise on how i present myself so i dont need to worry about being open about my art ventures' #all this so i can be open to people who i went through hell for over a decade to #connect to who rejected me already just because im autistic . everyday im violent. #people who would want me to fucking die and spit on my existence forever if they knew i didnt hate gay people #let alone that im fucking trans haha ? hahaha yeah so true i should suck up forever and vie for the attention of people #who hate me already and keep me around to be nice #i hate everyone so fucking much sometimes honestly. you all act like youre on some moral warfront fighting against westerners pushing queer #as if historically queerness was pushed out of muslim communities and south asia because of FUCKING COLONIZATION #i fkjhckjhk يا الله the people on this earth are in their stupidity arc #i hate u all i hate u all . acting like we must fight to protect our communities but then turn a blind eye to how u hurt ur communities. #there aint no fucking queer epidemic and even if it WAS haram you know what is worse? fucking LYING. go worry about THAT #vent #sorry i am so insane rn i have suddenly gotten so mad for no reason lmao

[holydramon]

the thing about one reviewer with survive I saw is that even once someone pointed out that the game was stated to be 70% visual novel and only 30% tactics they still defended their dislike of it saying that they don’t think a visual novel like survive is ‘what the franchise needed’. anyway I am seething.

#idk I just… I feel like a lot of these people upset with survive are like. not digimon fans and just came in expecting pokemon or something. #though I do know some digimon fans were disappointed once the stuff about the low amount of digimon in the game and it being mostly visual #novel was revealed…. #i suppose part of why I am ok with it is just for me as much as I love digimon from the standpoint of it being a monster collector I always #*also #love it due to how open the series is to experimentation and also the emphasis on stories…. #so for me visual novel digimon game? hell yeah that’s exactly my cup of tea #anyway. it is fine if visual novels are not your cup of tea. but I think you should respect that that is what the game is and that’s the #kind of game they wanted to make even if you personally don’t like the genre. #(btw I have not really read or watched many reviews since I want to go in mostly blind! so just as a note please don’t spoil stuff about #survive to me shhdjdhdjd) #dramon thoughts

[kumomist]

been in a dcu/white collar kick lately so im rewatching wc and. i remember why i dropped this but also im seeing a lot more of the gay now

#txt #watching white collar #peter/neal/el hello?????? #it was there at the beginning and then it kinda backslided #also kinda misogynist and racist/xenophobic?? #i did not realize diana was canon gay. feeling secondhand embarassment for baby me why were you so dumb #white collar is the tragedy of neal having the concept of black/white morality constantly shoved in his face #peter is kinda preachy but he cares about neal #kate was manipulative and i hate they dont let neal acknowledgibg it for himself #the back and forth on the black/white morality is sooo annoying #neal wants to get revenge ok yeah hedging in your own codes for revenge can fuck you up #neal going behind peter’s back to protect treasure he didnt even steal??? no #like we got that little scene of mozzie and neal fighting but ughdhdj not enough betrayal #we couldve gotten a lot more fucked up feelings from that #neal feeling betrayed by peter’s actually valid accusation #peter feeling betrayed and doubling down on actually innocent neal #mozzie who is the cause and should respect neal’s decision if he wants to stay #lowkey think neal should be 500x more angry at moz for burning his original art #the treasure cam was so stupid why are you leaving definitive proof that you have the treasure in your room why #the weirdest part is recognizing actors. that is nate fords dad why is he here. why is he el’s dad. why is he a psychiatrist #note tho in case im wrong but i pretty sure im kindof face blind. i only started recognizing people from my classes this quarter #<person who takes a restrictive major that has a strict course schedule of courses that are only open to that major

[splashtailstar]

I can recite the entire fire scene from memory

And by that, I mean I literally recite it out loud as I drive to school

#sq: ashfur‚ get out of the way. let them get out. as: brambleclaw isn't here to look after them now. lb: what have you done with my father? #as: why would i waste my time with brambleclaw? sq: your quarrel with brambleclaw has to stop. too many moons have passed. you have to — #accept i’m brambleclaw’s mate‚ not yours. you can’t keep trying to punish brambleclaw for something that was always meant to be. as: i have #no quarrel with brambleclaw. lb: that’s not how it looks to me. as: i couldn’t care less about brambleclaw. it’s not his fault he feel for #a faithless she-cat. i know you think i’ve never forgiven brambleclaw for stealing you from me‚ but you’re wrong and so is every other cat #who thinks so. my quarrel is with you‚ squirrelflight! it always has been. sq: all of this happened moons ago. ashfur‚ i had no idea you — #were still upset. as: 'upset?' i’m not 'upset'. you have no idea how much pain i’m in. it’s like being cut open every day‚ bleeding onto — #the stones. i can’t understand how any of you failed to see the blood… … stay there! i can’t believe you didn’t know how much pain you — #caused me. you are the blind one‚ not jayfeather. who do you think sent firestar the message to go down to the lake‚ where the fox trap was #i wanted him to die–to take your father away so you’d know the real meaning of pain. hl: he tried to kill 'firestar?' he’s mad! lb: i’m — #going to fight him. hl: no‚ you can’t! he’ll just push you into the fire! as: brambleclaw saved firestar then. but he’s not here now. he’s #not‚ but your kids are. sq: enough ashfur. these young cats have done nothing to harm you. do what you like with me‚ but let them out of — #the fire. as: you don’t understand. you tore my heart out when you choose brambleclaw over me. anything i did to you would never hurt as — #much. but your kits–if you watch them die‚ you’ll know the pain i felt. sq: kill them then. you won’t hurry me that way. if you really want #to hurt me‚ you’ll have to find a better way than that. they are not my kits. #*hurt #(also with the “my quarrel is with 'you'‚ squirrelfight”‚ i meant to italicize the word 'you') #the power of special interests #*chose #harbor's posts