So my hair was getting pretty long but it has no texture, right. It was just flat floppy and stupid. Like this
Enjoy tiny Bruce Springsteen peeking out from my tits.
So I went to have it cut and I said I really need layers and the back to be shortened a little, but not too much off and I hate blunt cuts. And she
Yeah ok glad I paid $50 for the opposite of what I wanted.
I'm gonna go back to cutting my own damn hair.
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wait what’s more acceptable christmas gifsets as early in December as possible or more so nearing christmas itself
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I made a wooden crate today! Designed it myself and everything. I’m way too tired to write alt text tonight but I’ll post a photo tomorrow
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I think... in many ways, I really just want to feel loved, but I'm scared of accepting it, and scared of feelings I feel like I "can't control" so I end up taking an overly analytical approach and overjustifying things like natural curiosity to myself by calling things "just scientific fascination" and "morbid curiosity" (because in my mind, things I feel I am not "allowed to" experience, be curious about, or consider, seem like they're taboo, hence 'morbid'). I can't really fault others for thinking that's messed up. I've definitely ruined chances at receiving any sort of care and/or love in the past by not only pushing people away in delusional self-sabotage states, but also by treating people like equations or research projects. I sort of hate admitting to myself that I DON'T know or understand everything, and that doing so is impossible no matter how much I like knowing things, especially since my inability to just trust and take what people tell me at face value is in juxtaposition with that desire for knowledge and thorough understanding. It is actually me and my own doubt of people that drives me into over-questioning everything I DO know.
I also am terrible at paying attention to others. I know this. I forget that other people are, well, people, and that they won't know how much I care about them unless I express it and KEEP expressing it. Not just verbally but with things like asking people how they are doing- assuming they'll just tell me if they want me to know is something I do, but I know very well how easy it is to feel like a burden and close your troubles away from others in fear of being "too much" to deal with. I've reflected on this, and my unhealthy manner of expressing fondness and trust for others being that I'm far too quick to traumadump and talk about myself, in the past, but I've not been making nearly enough progress on it.
I think, I seek and crave for too much clarity without offering any myself, that has driven people away from me in the past, and it's purely my own flaws causing it.
Maybe with another year or two of reflecting, I will be able to handle something like a qppr without it falling apart because of my aloofness and inability to pay enough attention to others. Perhaps in half a decade, I could consider a romantic relationship, if I've made any progress with all that + trauma work, by then.
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i have my grips with the anime but there’s really some scenes it completely nailed (like Itaru’s gamer reveal), and when i reach those specific scene in the VN i really can’t stop thinking about just how good the anime was for those scenes in particular.
Case in point right now: the moment they’re trying to give out flyers for RomeJuli in the street and no one is stopping, so Masumi ends up, unprompted, to act out one of the scene as to bring attention to it.
i’ve rewatched the anime so many times it actually surprised me how abrupt the transition from Flyers to “Masumi is acting” is, it’s nice but, man.
The fact the anime really shows when it clicks for Masumi that it would work, then having him, in silence, give his flyers away so he can then focus on acting, and seeing Izumi and Sakuya look at him, perplexed, before he starts acting and they catch on on what he’s doing, makes it flow so much better
A3 is a VN that really utilize the VN format extremely well, so it’s not especially a tackle on the VN itself, and there’s really a few things i think the anime did considerably worse, but this scene? kind of justify the anime’s existence for a bit because just remembering it gives me chill.
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I'm reading Wheel of Time and just got to An Event in Knife of Dreams, putting it under the cut in case anyone else is reading them as a fresh face to the WoT universe too cause I don't want to spoil it
I KNEW IT, I KNEW IT, I KNEW MOIRAINE WASN'T DEAD, and right as I had just reached the point of 'What if she is and I'm just reading too much into this and I'm just going to be disappointed in the end when there's no pay-off to the foreshadowing I created in my head' but NO, I WAS RIGHT AND SHE'S ALIVE AND WE'RE GONNA HAVE A RESCUE ARC, LET'S GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
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