#at least its in the notes this time lmao

[im-captain-basch]

Sometimes I wonder if there were ever more signs of me being neurodivergent that should have clued me in to not quite being "typical" sooner than how hyperfixated I've always been on DKC (and believe me, what you guys see here is me tame), but THEN I remember that time I won a contest held by an RP blog with a near perfect score and also gave so much additional information on each question that literally had not been asked for and I think that maybe that was the biggest second clue I could have looked out for.

#alex speaks #the only episode id seen by that point was silence in the library #so LITERALLY how i managed to swing that i have no fucking clue #thank you tardis wiki for keeping me occupied for weeks before then o7 #deadass didnt even realize there WAS a difference until i got on this website and started relating to people's nd experiences #literally i would see a post and be like ''haha i do that' like that one vine #then someone mentioned a way they were as a kid that was eerily similar to me and i was like... wait a minute. #alex overshares #at least its in the notes this time lmao

[hwanswerland]

happy birthday jazzy @woosansang ♡♡♡

#fio.gifs #tuserjazzy #atzsource #san #wooyoung #yeosang #im very sorry i really wanted to include the knees in some way but i couldnt find any video that would have fit the rest of the vibe #the amount of shit i found on discord lmao but most of that i couldnt really put here so #also i hope you rb this at least twice bc i put that san first so the next time i see him in my notes its at least my own set #i hope you have a great day after all the stressful things happening <33 #*like they're probably still happening but idk what words to use here rn but you get me #i hope you find some time between all that to at least yell at me for this and roasting and personally attacking you yet another time lmao #thank you for being my friend <3 have the best time today with your friends <3 #(sorry im still sick my brain is fried i cant think so this half assed whatever has to do sorry)

[laesas]

The hands holding yours are not clean either.

VegasPete + Hands || KinnPorsche (2022)

#Disclaimer: I have very complicated feelings about this show and this couple after everything that's happened over the past month #I actually started these in late december for a friends birthday but the colouring ended up so complicated I didnt get it done #and while I'm still untangling how I feel about the fandom and fan culture and the whole situation (tldr: bad sad parasocially betrayed lol #I was so proud of these for my 3rd ever gifset the absolutely insane amount of time I spent on the colouring and masking against shaky shot #like I genuinely had to keyframe adjust about 8 different overlapping layers frame-by-frame for at least 1 of these lol #and perhaps selfishly: I need to post bc I can't bring myself to work on new sets while this was staring back at me every time i opened PS #And I'm proud of it and it meant a lot and even though the shape of the fandom and friendships have changed its still worth something to me #anyway. enough rambling. on to the actual tags lol #VegasPete #kinnporche the series #vegas theerapanyakul #pete saengtham #asiandramasource #asianlgbtqdramas #lgbtedit #vegas kp #pete kp #idk idk idk I feel like this is my one last little love letter to these silly little characters that meant a lot to me #and to the friends that inspired it too #on a lighter note: the caption is an adapted taemin lyric and the colours were inspired by the criminal MV lmao #so like lol its not that deep :') #aaaand post. #bee.gif #kpts

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

due to things lining up Horribly, no stream this weekend! and maybe not the next, either!

#i got too much shit happening this weekend </3 #and then i might not have the next off... i still havent gotten my schedule! #i got a sticky note for two days and thats It so far! #oh man im sorry about the lack of Update posts too #im. so tired. #i have No spoons like... at all.... #i want to curl up in bed and sleep for a decade but! cant! #i have a 9 hour shift to do again! and again! and again! and again. and again. and again. and again. and agai- #absolutely unprompted #yk i thought having Limited free time would give me motivation to do things i want to #nahhhh its just making me Sad lmao #my brain before: we have all the time in the world so we can do it later #my brain now: we have no time at all so why bother #man. i dont want to get into a groove and then have to either cut it off or be prematurely Exhausted at work. #by the end of the day i already feel dead... cant feel dead at the start or i wont make it... #wow look at me complaining. its been Two Days. #gonna bring a sketchbook so that i can at least doodle during my breaks + lunch #brush up on my traditional skills....

[skitskatdacat63]

And here is the bull himself >:)

+ lore notes

I was like, ah I should make the shadow something interesting, and then I'm like GIVE HIM BULL HORNS???? OKAY SURE !!!!! I'm glad such thoughts can strike at 7 in the morning....thanks brain. But hehehe I'm glad bcs now this matches up super well with the Nando one!

New ship dynamic: who's the bull and who's the matador :)

I think, in this AU, Fernando is generally pretty fond of Seb when he first meets him. Like "ah yes my very own protégé, very nice, I shall mold him in my image." But then Seb starts veering off that course. Bullfighting is all about being dramatic, but Seb maybe has a bit too much(🤏) flair for the dramatic. This escalation starts while he's still Fernando's assistant but he keeps it generally at bay. But god when he becomes a matador himself, he's just off the rails insane.

Bullfighting, to me, is a sport about reckless endangerment of one's self in the pursuit of drama and performance(its literally described as a tragedy in three acts.) But Fernando thinks Seb endangers himself *too* much, not because he cares or anything, but he's making a mockery of the sport!! Especially when Seb starts doing that bull hand symbol(seen above), Fernando just keeps become more enraged with him, not anything to do with the fact that Seb is threatening his records and threatening his own wellbeing, nah of course not.

Seb's gesture is making a mockery of the sport, he's disrespecting the culture, the very nature of it, blah blah blah. Jenson once asks Fernando, after noticing him seething while watching Seb do his gesture, "Which bull are you really trying to defeat?" One could also describe Fernando and Seb's relationship as a "tragedy with three acts."

Anyways Fernando gets very tied up with this rivalry. Even after suffering a severe injury(I have yet to decide, but y'know mchonda electrocution core), he quickly returns to the sport, loath to let Seb get any more headway. And then Seb gets injured, poor little sweet Seb, and neither of them can handle it. Though I already covered this in my prev lore post 🤭 and I think I put it pretty viscerally there so!! I digress.

They're both matadors, but the bull itself is not the only bull Fernando wants to conquer. Conquer as in death? Hm.

#i love matador au all my homies love matador au #<- its a lot of fun for me to draw and easy to have ref for :) so its like my little comfort drawings #even tho i want to sob every time i write any of the lore down bcs it is so </3 #ah i just like how visceral it is ig #f1 is a dangerous sport but bullfighting is just. such another level of maniacs 😭 #ive talked abt this a lot w cofi lmao its just super interesting to me. just the whole mentality and display and culture of it #also just: trajes de luces go brrrrrrr #ah one day ill draw both of them in green suits 🤭🤭 #i had a chibi art of this au i was working on bcs i didnt have mental energy for a full thing #or at least i THOUGHT so #ive had the refs for this since 2 wks and im like YOU WILL FINISH THIS bcs i rly liked the pose 😭 #so then i just drew for like 5 hours straight. yknow as one does #and wrote this post at uh. 8 am. normal time for one to be drawing and writing. as one does. #WELL ANYWAYS PLEASE ENJOY MATADOR SEB #this au grips me the throat 😭 i rly enjoy it 😭 #i have a lot of thoughts ab the au lore itself but also drawing these is very no thoughts head empty <3 #also god side note. pink stockinks. i hated the idea of them at first. but now im like hehe hot pink time 🥰🥰 #its crazy how it doesnt clash that much??? i thought it would ruin the outfit but ah they suit everything p well #f1 #formula 1 #sebastian vettel #catie.art. #matador au

[grimalkinmessor]

Lawlight/Terraito AU where L and Light aren't quiiiite together yet but they're close to it, and Ryuk is Light's toxic ass ex-boyfriend in crime who rolls up just in time to make L insanely jealous and make Light seriously contemplate commiting murder again thank you

#lawlight #terraito #rylight #human ryuk #death note #ryuk would be an AWFUL ex i need you to understand #hes not gonna stalk you or anything but every time he rolls back in town he expects you to be available to entertain him #and if youre not he will make an Opening in your schedule #most likely with explosives or extortion #L is almost equally awful and infinitely more possessive but light is also insanely (literally) attracted to him so its fine #L trying to find ryuks birth certificate or digital footprint and coming up blank bc ryuk is a mfin crime lord #....Light has very specific taste in men okay they need to be at least sixty-three percent unhinged #ryuk tries to body L and finds out that this motherfucker has the most intensive security system on the face of the earth like wtf #light is in the corner loading a crossbow: his current target is unclear #(its probably ryuk lmao) #l lawliet #ryuk #yagami light #light also used to be a crime lord btw in case that was unclear #then he broke up with ryuk and sayu helped him leave all that shit behind #UNTIL RYUK'S DUMBASS SHOWS UP AT HIS DOOR A FEW YEARS LATER LIKE A FUCKIN STRAY CAT

[jinstronaut]

doing this cc wrapped has made me realize just how many of my sets are between 100 - 200 notes. like that's my average notes per set (re: jin a day specifically)

and that's wild all things considered lmao

#i never ever ever complain about notes bc usually i dont care but like #ive been doing this series for over a year #and cc's complain all the time when their sets arent getting enough notes but its still over 1000 at LEAST #and mine are...... all consistently under 500 and i say nothing #makes you think !!! truly a thankless job !!! #esp considering ive been doing the member set a day the longest since jin left first #and i rly just dont ......... get anything for it lmao #not that i Need anything bc its a way for me to cope while hes gone and its done a rly good job at keeping me happy + occupied #but like lets just get for real for one second..... this is fucked up lmao #how is it i can do this for over a year and get literally Nothing #and im also Not allowed to complain about it ever #can we all just recognize that can we just collectively agree this is fucked up please #OVER A YEAR. a set a day for OVER A YEAR. #for the sets to get 100 notes. MAYBE #like????????????????? #idk !!!! i didnt Invent the concept of course but like lets just !!! #be for real !!!!!!!!!! that my series tho its been the longest is also the smallest in terms of notes !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! a lil wild !!!!!!!! #anyways ill delete this i sound bitter but like im just #you try making hundreds of THOUSANDS of gifs #even when ur working 60+ hrs a week still finding time to make gifsets #for them to get literally Dirt #its demoralizing beyond compare #.txt

[potential-fate]

Might actually get my computer back on Tuesday. Hopefully.

#its been an ordeal 🙄 and by ordeal i mean i wanted to kill a man for being useless. but w/e. its fine #anyways #theyre replacing my hard drive with an SSD so hopefuly it both works and is even improved. #im like 90% sure the gard drive is the problem so hopefully thats all they need to do :) #second time is the charm #like by that i mean the first place literally did nothing and when i called a third time #they said theyd need another week and a half #and when i asked what theyd done they had literally no notes on what theyd done. #I'm like 99% sure they just fucking left it on a a shelf and forgot about it #so i got irritated and just picked it up and took it to geek squad instead. #who told me “yeah should be able to fix it in three days.” #nonsims #sorta at least. #i mean it is my simming comp and why i CANT sim now so #its like sims adjacent lmao

[spicyliumang]

I’ve been trying to get Enya’s y8 lore down for the last 3 days but all I’ve managed is to stare at this blank draft KSKDKSKS😭

#like its not that I don’t know what to type in fact its the opposite😭 #its just getting started has been tough…😭 and also the 10000 other ideas at the same time #also working on commississons too so it’s been blank for a while LMAO #and I have to do Leo’s ref…😭 but I always end up getting a new Enyao idea or see a pretty ref I wanna do #plus a bunch of other WIPS #AAAAA I’m just ansty… and need to refill meds again… I’ve had awful focus sjdkdkd #monster has helped at least :’) but only for maybe a day and we’re back at square one #AND MY ALLERGIES… MY BIGGEST BEEF RN #even now I’m sneezing and it gets so bad I can barely get any thing done #I just end up fatigued and congested bc of it…💀 #on that note does anyone else who take SSRIS and ADHD meds get a reaction when you go without for a bit…?😭 #I mean besides the brainzaps for me its like I end up getting an allergy flare up #maybe once I square the next payment away I should talk to my perscriber about that😭 #okay I was going to brainstorm more but ended up talking to the Zhaobot instead…help

[todayisafridaynight]

YEAH........... YEAH..... LIKEWISE, NO NOTES AT ALL, THAT'S EXACTLY IT... Main antagonist deaths are often treated as "comeuppance," but that would be the ultimate comeuppance for Aoki. As it stands, the only people who actually suffer for it are Ichiban and Jo, and Ichi didn't even do anything wrong. Also please I'm positive there's more to wring out of Aoki and Jo for an essay 😭😭at the very least, I always love to hear your perspective!

"he'd made a social circle for himself where people predominantly liked him for the power and influence" <- incredibly Mine-core of Aoki btw (I also feel the rest applies a little in terms of Mine probably being very quick to write off people who Do care about him as not caring about him, as with Katase, but it's nowhere near the extent of the Arakawas)

Wait actually it's kind of funny... for both Mine and Aoki, I was so sure their endings would go a certain way. Mine and Kiryu'd fight Richardson off together and Ichi'd, I don't know, shield Aoki or hug him so Kume couldn't get to him in the first place, or after that INSANE direct parallel to Arakawa running to the hospital with Masato, he'd miraculously pull through like he did on New Year's. Tormented with visions of the better timeline... With Aoki in particular, it makes me want to tear my hair out because the moment of him choosing to put the gun in the locker was REVOLUTIONARY for the series, looking at the characters he was most heavily based on.

Anyway. Bottom line. These bitches need to hug it out. It was so evil Arakawa didn't hug Ichi at Omi HQ or on the waterfront like bro stop being """manly""" for five seconds you're ruining my life you're ruining your own lives

There'd genuinely be nothing more painful yet more satisfying for an antagonist than being confronted with the consequences of their actions and having to navigate life after having making those decisions, ESPECIALLY when it comes to mending the bonds that- for anyone else- would have shattered long ago. With Aoki being motivated by the want to be loved and appreciated for himself, it would've been nice to see him finally acknowledge that he did have that love and start to better himself as a result (however much he'd be able to while in prison anyway lmao).

The Mine and Aoki comparisons are so real though, I remember joking to myself about it days after beating the game but it just fuels my mental illness every time I think about it ☠️ I LEGALLY AM NOT ALLOWED TO GO OFF ABOUT THE Y7 ENDING I'VE DONE IT TOO MUCH it makes me so mad every time I think about it 😭 ESPECIALLY THE PARALLELS WITH ARAKAWA AND THE LOCKERS UGGGHHH IT COULD HAVE BEEN SUCH AN EPIC CONCLUSION WITH THAT... Arakawa running from the lockers at the start of Aoki's life compared to Ichiban running from the lockers and getting Aoki to the hospital so Aoki can restart life I'm Going To Kill Someone (myself) (in Minecraft)

#snap chats #theres a note here about aoki's self hatred and ergo his inability to believe people could love him without 'worth' #and some kind of. I Dont Know occurs that comes with aoki accepting that love and ergo At Least Tolerating himself #and again becoming better as a person as a result. not WHOLLY you cant undo Everything Wrong With Him with one therapy session #but itd at least be a start and thats far more than anything else rgg has given since like. ryuji in dead souls #but w/e i- as per usual- have the vocabulary of a walrus so we're just gonna have to imagine i said something profound #AND THE LACK OF HUGGING IN THIS FRANCHISE IM GOING TO STAB ALL OF YOU. IN MINECRAFT. #with the power of delusions and this like seven-year-old wacom tablet i can fix that...... #it'll never be enough it'll never fill the void in my soul but it'll be something i guess #BUT UGH NO SORRY IM JUST MAD NOW #nothing in my life has ever genuinely triggered anger in me than the y7 ending its just soooooooOOOOO #IT WAS SOOO CLOSE TO BEING PERFECT I CANT #im going to give myself a blood clot thinking about it anymore i feel my heart stopping Do Not Call An Ambulance I Cannot Afford It #so to stop myself from going in any more debt than i already am..... the possibility of any essays from me are very small #my ability to use words is near non existent. i feel like a right ninny sometimes #in any case im not sure what else i could expand on that isn't restating what you've said #cant ever be upset with bein on the same wavelength tho it gives my inarticulate ass a helluva easier time trying to explain LMAO #plus im petrified of trying to interpret anything from the english dub or english subs #and looking into language use is Very Much important when dissecting abusive relationships #i guess there's always just talking about general actions committed and not inspecting the exact words used #idk.. at the very least ill rotate the concept in my head and then fend off the urge to eat my teeth #i'm gonna throw up.... im still thinking of it........ gonna make an unrelated-but-arguably-related post in like three seconds #dont look at it its cringe

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

I CAN SEE THIS

#ask #SORRY LMAO GIVEN THE CIRCUMSTANCES I THOUGHT IT'D BE KINDA FUNNY TO INCLUDE THIS #i need to STOP spending so much time on shitposts when i HAVE SHIT TO DOOO AKJSHG 😭 #i was like 'oh this'll be quick' ITS BEEN 40 MIN which is technically still quick in terms of shit but AUGH #at least this blog didnt get affected; which is good since i use it for more of the important stuff anyways my main's just a mess #but BRUHHHH this fuckign SUCKS man. i cant send asks i cant finish convos i was having on main my notes dont show up #AUGHHHHH. release me tumblr pleas... please... #again at least this blog works normally but still its. kjknjalksdmglm. ugh

[tenshindon]

Plz post ur essay about why you think DBZA was a damaging thing plzzzzzzz

for a minute i just thought you were asking me to ramble bout why DBZA was cringe but no i just remembered i told you guys i had a official essay on why DBZA was cringe

i'll give you a diet version of it though it's under the cut

DBZ's audience already was disconnected from the franchise in that DBZ was so late to become popular in the west, never mind the original run of DB. with no proper background of the characters, DBZA was free to run with characterizations and interpretations and no one would think it was any less accurate or ill fitting (not to mention no one's going to knock on people for making a parody- i doubt the DBZA team even expected DBZA to become as popular as it did). the late 2000's also offered a grittier internet experience, so even if someone did have a complaint they'd definitely be laughed at to hell and back

i don't think DBZA would be able to get as far as it did if it was just jokes though; while some of DBZA's jokes still land imo, i've seen numerous people praise its interpretations of plot points and characters (not saying i agree of course but it's been an opinion i've seen a lot over the years) and that's what's let its popularity sustain. i think people genuinely take DBZA as The Best Way in ingest DBZ both in a timely manner and narrative/character wise- which is just doing yourself a disservice if you're skipping out on the original material

when DBZ finally did start to actually gain traction and people had more access to the series or were more willing to watch it, DBZA already had made its mark on fans. hell- i think this much is evident when a character like nappa is able to be in a game like fighterz and have such a prominent role, but a character like raditz who had just as much of an equal role in DBZ as nappa is hardly mentioned in the franchise anymore

and i mean. do i have to mention goku's characterization throughout the years.

i'm not saying DBZA was The Absolute Downfall of domino of DBZ's changes, but it's hard to deny it feels as though there was an influence of sort

#snap chats #these feel more like cliff notes than actual coherent thoughts but i think we know what i mean #like im not saying anything new #at the very least i dont think DBZA has TOTALLY warped EVERY character #when it comes to yamcha and tien they've remained relatively the same- tho they're hardly in the shit anyway #it's just really changed for goku and ve6eta but i actually don't think ve6eta was due to DBZA #in DBZA ve6eta is more sarcastic and snide and while ve6eta definitely Is That he's still generally the same as always #if anything he's mellowed a bit due to toyotaro's favoritism towards him lbr #'goku's my favorite' shut the fuck up no he isnt LMAO #but yeah thats. thats that #im busy i dont have time to sit down and write a comprehensive essay on DBZA and its history #but these are just generally thoughts i get whenever people mention DBZA

[mitchmarner]

i’d honestly rather people shamelessly steal my gifs than do the half-assed “all credit goes to the owners 💓” bullshit. it just shows that you’re aware it’s shitty to steal other peoples work but still can’t be bothered with the 2 seconds it takes to type out their url.

#twitter is built on the back of tumblr gifmakers and they just assume the gifmakers arent on both sites and won’t see #this isnt even about my gifs lol #but i’m so irritated by it #there’s also no excuse for ‘i saved it in my camera roll so idk the original owner!’ #okay so take measures to prevent that situation #on iphones (and i’m sure others) you can add captions to things in your camera roll. write down the url if you might repost them. #like the post so you can come back to it #put links in the notes app if you have to #take the 5 seconds to at least search for the original gifmaker because its probably not that hard to find #and certainly will take less time than it took the gifmaker to make the gif in the first place #there’s just really no excuse #and people will say to just watermark gifs #but people shouldn’t have to ruin a gifs aesthetic to get credit lmao #i have made 100 posts on this before and i’ll make another 100 on it in the future #it really just gets me riled up #*

[widevibratobitch]

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#tw ed #saw a picture of myself from when i was *checks notes* at my fucking worst with my ED but that meant i was also Thinner. #i really should Go Back huh. maybe if i did i wouldnt feel. Like This. #it'd prolly mean id start losing my hair again which. not a big fan. BUT. #if i was really dedicated i could also lose my period which. huge fan. that was one of the best things that ever happened to me tbh #i could have it all back. maybe i could even get farther than the last time. all it would take is uhh feeling utterly fucking miserable #having no energy for the most basic stuff let alone singing and thinking about nothing and i mean NOTHING but calories 24/7. #but hey. maybe i could like. lose 5 kg for my troubles and then gain back twice as much when i decide again that i just Cant Live Like This #totally worth it huh #anyway. i miss hating my body A Little Less and people being Nicer to me and everyone telling me how good of a job im doing #and encouraging me to keep going. and i miss the sense of Accomplishment and the Pride and the Not Feeling Disgusting #or at least Making Up For It by just. not eating lol #cause like its not like im actually much better mentally am i lmao clearly im not. only now im both miserable AND fat. #obviously ill never be s/kinny let alone as s/kinny as my friends. ill still look like a glitch in the system and a mistake next to them. #but if i have to be miserable anyway i could at least be. less f/at about it right. maybe then ill be worth something <3 #...and other delusions you keep cultivating because there's something deeply and inherently wrong with you #my new bestseller coming soon to your nearest bookshop dont miss it its only $free.99!

[radlegowaffle]

i think a lot about when someone told me the kanji for rain looks like youre looking out a window at rain (雨）

#rad.txt #its 4:40am ive been up since 1am cause someones coming by at noon to replace our oven #and i dont trust myself to get up at a decent time #this post has nothing to do with anything #i watch resin crafting stuff on youtube as something to be on my other monitor while i draw #and someone has earrings of 雨 and it looks like rain drops #and every time i see the thumbnail it just tickles me #it makes me stupid happy that it just works out. its so cute #i havent picked up my japanese notes in like. a year? two years? three years? #i forgot like. everything. can barely read hirigana. cant read katakana #duolingo didnt spend as much time on katakana as they should have imo #but with the added 'see your favorite anime characters say phrases!' idk if i want to go back lmao #i really want to learn but i can not take a class. that is way too much stress for me #at least learning online i can move at my own pace #anyway im very tired and hungry

[minglana]

nothing like studying for an exam and realizing that if i hadnt been so stupid id definitely be able to pass

#wow its almost like well written notes from class actually help me understand shit..... #its a shame bc the make-up exam for this class is the day after another make-up exam #which im now considering going to both and skipping thursday's exam #so basically just keep on studying this exam but also do my other exams. bc now that ive seen that i can actually understand it #im starting to see the light. BUT the main problem is what i just said. that the exam is in a day and a half and ive barely started to stud #so PLEASE opinions!!!!! i think i would do well to not go on thursday and go to the recuperación at the end of june #that leaves me over a month to study for this one and 3 more exams (which im expecting to not require as much effort as this one) #all opinions are welcome btw i need input but i cant let anyone irl know bc this is the 4th+ time i take this exam #and letting ppl irl know that im this useless is. stupid of me to say the least i think #z xarre #ta esborrar #also you can tell i just had a realization mid writing the tags lmao