#bc then i will be able to give blood

[actual-sleeping-beauty]

One thing about me is I answer any call that comes into my phone while I'm holding it. But today it was the Red Cross, begging for my blood. So now I have an appointment scheduled for the 28th. Anyone wanna place bets on what my pulse will be?

#i'm manifesting 100 bpm exactly #bc then i will be able to give blood #but the more realistic guess is like. 107. #personal #also in case you are not up to date on this rose lore: #i feel it is my civic duty to give blood so i do it #but i am also petrified of needles so my pulse is always super high #and if your pulse is above 100 bpm you can't donate

[maomango-doodle]

Inspired by @aidakhar 's dad!Knives AU (brainrot-inducing)

After venturing out, Azrael gets caught by ill-intentioned individuals

#trigun #trigun stampede #millions knives #oc #dad!knives au #cw blood #cw decapitated head #comic #shinxo art #hi.. i finally went on the website to be able to upload more than 10 pics... #humbly offering this comic as proof of its power to capture and stimulate the imagination 🤲 endless praise to aidakhar🫡 #only needed 2 days to thumbnail the pages bc i fREAKING LOVE THIS AU and got hit by the INSPIRATION BEAM #it has been giving me lots of ✨️thoughts✨️ about Knives's approach to raising a child #also knives going berserk for his boy🤌 #my hc is that he wouldn't want his kid to see/experience the hostility of the world (towards plants) #bc then maybe the kid would get to grow up in a gentler environment than he had #he'd still have this deep-seated hatred and violence towards humans but want to hide it from azrael and only show him his softer side #bc he doesn't want the stars in azrael's eyes to fade if he realizes the same things he did

[ispyspookymansion]

my gender is whatever allows me to donate blood at this iron level

#help help they were so funny about it i felt very supported but if i said i identified as male i wouldnt be able to give blood bc my iron is #too low for a guy 😭😭 #but they were all very nice about my gender and still called me he despite my having to be like well. Medically. i should probably be #judged as afab. #kora.txt #i think the nurse thought i was amab maybe? and so was concerned about my low blood iron for a man. but im not sure what prompted this. #kinda gender swag tho

[nicollekidman]

this is. actually an insane photo to me [delusional]

#this is on cazador's roof #which means that he looks like this bc she's giving him a very insane m**** d** pep talk #sorry i havent been able to get them in these shots for months im going cooooookooooo #bg3 #lyrastarion #oh also she's covered in blood and he's not bc she told the guard's she was going to kill cazador and killed them both before anyone else #did anything <3

[whentherewerebicycles]

wow I love my little weights class!! everyone is so friendly and nice and they all joke around with each other the whole time. I still feel some worry about exercising hard in pregnancy (like is he ok in there???) but all the research/guidance seems to indicate it’s totally fine and only positive. I def would’ve been too nervous to go hard in the first trimester but now it does feel like he’s a little more firmly planted yknow.

#I think I’ve decided to just not worry about my weight #I’m up AGAIN today (+12 lbs in 14 weeks) but like literally what else could I do #I’m working out a bunch and eating healthy meals #I could probably cut out the flavored greek yogurt cups since they have added sugar #and I have been periodically giving myself little treats like a fancy coffeeshop drink or a cookie once a week #but like also I don’t want to live a life where I deny myself periodic little treats so #🤷‍♀️ #I keep telling myself it’s all my extra blood sloshing around in there lol #12 lbs of extra blood #weight mention #pregnancy tag #also I kinda bummed myself out thinking oh I’ll never be able #to do a workout class again once he’s here bc nobody #to take the baby #but then I was like wait daycare is open 6am to 6pm #so I could either drop off early and go in before work #or pick up a bit later and go on my way home from work #so that’ll be fine! the real challenge will be $$ lol

[fragiledate]

cringetober day 13: creepypasta !!! my old evil sona :)

#sono #her gorgeuous genetic blue tips and red streak. i love you sono. im gonna draw myself hugging lyselft #my daughter. #i remember posting her on one of those forum drawing apps #and someone commented america #like something to do with america #bc of her colors #and i was like. damn. #admittedly #i was never a big creepy pasta kid #bit she still had a jeff the killer shirt. bc shes iconic like that #i get kinda emotional drawing here #and this is the cringe part 🫶 #like im so happy to br able to still draw and give little me these gifts #I'd be freaking out if i showed this to my 9yo self like look bro its sono. the evil one. #bc; inspired(copied) by Mathieu sommet ; she had multiple versions of herself #so there was normal version and smart scientist version and etc etc #but objectively killer sono is the coolest. just sayin. #blood #bath soup #cringetober #cringetober day thirteen

[dutybcrne]

Thinking abt Taru fresh out of the Abyss, out with his siblings and spotting a rabbit or small animal. Instincts & habit kicking in ( those seldom lasted long in the Abyss, get it while he can, bring it to share with Master- ), him immediately setting to hunt and kill the creature then proudly bringing it back to his family, all smiles and blood-spattered, and being utterly thrown by the fact that he was not met with mildly disinterested praise, but sheer horror instead-

#hc; tartaglia #blood mention tw #animal death mention tw #//Happens only ONCE #//Bc ONCE was enough to really make him realize he can't HAVE what he had in the Abyss anymore #//In some ways; it's a good thing; he supposes. He now won't have to worry about what & when he'll eat next #//Won't have to worry abt being stalked and ambushed by creatures that would give most anyone nightmares (he sure as hell has them) #//But now; he's just been so Altered from how he used to be #//He's restless; body honed to attack and defend from the monstrous threats he's dealt with all that time #//He's got a battlelust no one could ever hope to match; bc those harrowing experiences truly got to the point of THRILLING him #//He MISSES the way his Master looked after him; being treated so softly is just TOO much now #//Prolly had moments where he just had a total disconnect from his family; just couldn't really bond with them again until after he enliste #//Though I like to think maybe he was able to with his younger sibs; bc they were too young to Get the rammifications of what happened #//Lil Teucer always smiling so bright like the sun; when the others look at him with hopelessness or despair; always asking for stories #//Anthon; always trying to get in his arms; whenever he starts dissociating or makes a face bc the elder family members upset him some way #//Tonia; helping fix him up when he comes home after a brawl; her scolding the only he really listens to; him pledging to be her knight #//Him damn near resigning himself that they might be the only ones who love him after everything (he doesn't realize that's not true) #until he gets enlisted & becomes a Harbinger. His more 'behaved' self in their eyes being palatble enough for things to slowly return to #'normal'; even if they can all tell (save maybe the youngest ones) that something is still Off about him. But it's FINE; all FINE; now #//'Better than before'; they would say #//Which is why he would place SUCH value and favor on a partner that GETS that part of him. Who would ENABLE him rather than restrict #//He wouldn't ask for them too; but he will NOT let them go; EVER; once he realizes

[theythemmer]

for years my friends have tried to get me back into minecraft and idk how to explain to them that after tosoth the game will never be the same . it’s been A DECADE and this fic still rules over my brain

#and don’t even TALK about snow angels around me i’ll cry blood and vomit tears #that fic gave me SO many trust issues i hve TO THIS DAY #and i KNOW ive ranted about this before but IT GENUINELY TRAUMATISED ME #but i was at one of the lowest points of my life and decided fuck it. i’m gonna read a long fic. i’m usually a max 25k person but i was like #nah let’s get invested in this one. good ol erisol human au. what could go wrong #oh dear reader it turns out that there was something that could go wrong #because at tht time i was an avid ff net user and there are no warnings there #especially not for major character death. #so i’m so invested in this fic #got a few chapters left. and then i start a chapter i swear ive read before in a one shot #and i’m over the MOON bc i know how this ends. they get engaged! so i’m SO fkn happy #and then. all alone in the snow of their front yard. eridans heart gives out. and he’s gone. #as a very traumatised teen who was dependant on happy endings to make me feel like life was worth living #i have never felt heartbreak and betrayal like that. only other thing that ever made me feel that much was my really messy breakup w da loml #i didnt sleep for a week. i was constantly sobbing and breaking down at school #reading about sollux going through their minecraft world and i just #yeah. #haven’t been able to make pancakes since too. used to be the thing i was best at #since then pancakes minecraft and snow angels are forever tainted #absolutely INCREDIBLE fic but i do Not do MCD or sad endings #and i was like being horrifically abused going thru hormonal conversion therapy to ‘fix’ my nonexistent sex drive #whilst dealing with r/pe accusations simultaneously . as a fkn 16 year old baby trans gay ace #so i was going thru it and when i tell you my ENTIRE mental state was depending on the dopamine i got from fan fictions w endings that #gave me hope my story wasn’t gonna end there. for them to struggle for so long to find true happiness within eachother #to them being torn apart by the cruel hand of death #bro i was inconsolable for so long . i still am and im almost 26 LMFAO #know it seems so silly to be so worked up over this but i can’t articulate how much my undiagnosed autistic bpd cptsd ridden self depended #on these fics to emotionally regulate #OBV THIS IS NOTHING AGAINST THE AUTHOR OR THE FIC I WAS JUST YOUNG AND TRAUMATISED AND COPING UNHEALTHILY #but i will never be able to play minecraft happily ever again

[hiddenbeks]

hrmm. i wish u could do actually bad/evil/stupid decisions with bad consequences in dai. yknow. like an actual rpg

#im just thinking abt celyn and the fact that shes licherally the least qualified of my dragon age heroes for the position of inquisitor #which is hilarious but also interesting and i wish i could explore that in the game. yknow #ch: celyn #like shes a blood mage n part of the mage rebellion she hates the chantry she would blow one up à la anders if she could #she was raised in a tower with no contact with the outside world n didnt get out until the age of 19 when andrale conscripted her #she is full of pent up anger she has no skill in diplomacy no idea how to lead n represent some holy army or manage foreign relations #and the only reason anyone listens to her is bc she has the anchor n bc shes kinda terrifying. #obviously the game cant accommodate every possible backstory n personality the player cooks up in their head for their inky #and i Guess not being able to roleplay properly is purely my fault for making a character with a homebrewn backstory in the first place lol #but like...... it would have been so interesting if they'd shown the inquisitor struggling with their position #and given them opportunities to make mistakes that are objectively bad #bc like none of the origins is qualified for that shit lmao. except maybe non-mage trevelyan #so in fact its also bw's fault for giving such vague backstories for the origins #like they could've given us a character who is qualified and whose competence is believable. like shepard or whatev #or. they could've kept the vague backstories n let players come up with the rest and given more room for roleplaying #and presented opportunities for the inky to struggle leading a fantasy catholic army #when they've never been in a leadership position before and/or are not fantasy catholic themselves #god i just!!!!! the lack of Thought put into dai's writing still frustrates me in the year of our lord 2023!!!!!! #they dont even let you shank an npc for looking at you wrong like in dao!!!!! #at least you can have vivienne kill that one noble guy for insulting inky's honor. celyn totally does that btw

[snekdood]

If you do shit like this i think its really hard for you to say you're not being a shitty person when you do

#videos #ppl who pretend to give af about mental jealth and being progressive n shit really do a 180 when its someone they dont like #then they like to pull all the abusive and manipulative shit they know on them bc they found an acceptable target #literally not a single person whos literally just an influencer or whatever deserves this shit #why dont yall ever use this shit on politcians or billionaires or whatever? it seems like you'd be able to do a lot if you did #or is it easier to go after someone else who is just about as powerless as you but is more Cringe or not being woke enough for thou #its why i think yall are far more out for blood and being bullies and feeling power through that than the progressive shit you pretend #to care about to make it all seem justified when you act like an asshole in that way. #im so exchausted w ppl like this. genuinely so fucking unlikeable and toxic and probably the same ones saying therapy is useless 🙄 #no wonder yall feel that way. bet you rush past mirrors too

[lunar-fey]

oh yeah ive finally made an honest to god anime fan out of my dad. turns out hes like me and can slam back 12 episodes in a day 😌 whereas skerples can usually only watch like 3 or 4. anyway he started trigun 98 today and like he only had time to watch 1 ep before leaving but yay :)

edit. realized i've probably never talked about this but this is a big deal for me bc i've been trying to get him into anime for over a decade since he first saw me watching trigun 98 in the living room with my bf at the time and would get entranced and watch chunks of the episodes standing in the doorway but always maintain he just "didn't like anime" bc he didn't "like the artstyle" and go on about how the only good anime he's ever seen was afro samurai and after a lot of pressure i've finally convinced him to watch a few recently (i made him watch the twewy anime with my for my birthday last year, + got him to watch dr. stone bc he really likes engineering and stuff so i thought he'd like it), and he's watched bits and pieces of a few others recently, bc he's been getting sick at night and when me n skerples are watching stuff he'll sit and kinda watch with us. recently he decided on his own to watch demon slayer and LOVED it, and as he was finishing s1 he was like "well. i think i'm an anime fan now. i really want to find more good ones. i'm thinking about trigun next" <3

#he has a bunch of shows other people have reccomended to him naruto dbz one ounch etc #and weve talked about them and like whether he would actually like them (answer is no to all of those ones LOL) #but i am waiting fearfully for the day i have to figure out how to explain to him that like. sn k or something is bad #bc he still really wanted to buy the h*p game bc he was like 'well but shell only get a few pennies so who cares' like sighs. #anyway tho having a lot of fun trying to decide what to show him 🤔 #skerples really thinks he should watch fmab and im less sure bc i legit think it might trigger his ptsd..... #he used to not be able to watch anything where a kid dies or with a lot of blood due to it like any slasher or horror stuff was right out #and while anime violence is generally fine for him (actually he really likes it) i do wonder if the context might uh #hit a little closer to home. #anyway more importantly trying to decide if i could get him into mushishi or perhaps death parade. #i think mom would like mushishi but she refuses to give anime a try even when we watch stuff w dad in the living room #she just buries her face in her phone 🙄

[asummersday]

when you want to work on your fic and post smth but you're so busy with essays that the best you can do is just slowly chip away at your wip

#the only time ive been able to give my fic has been all of today and all of yesterday #i am being held hostage by exam season #hnnh #help me #i cant indulge in my destress activity bc im too busy #this should be a crime #my last exam is may 26th and i am crawling covered in blood toward that date #summer post #my writing #original

[theygender]

I'm on antibiotics and prescription pain meds and steroids while recovering from surgery and I've been too lazy so far to look up which of my 7 daily meds are safe to take with all of those things so I've been out here just completely rawdogging life these past few days and let me tell you. It's not fun!

#if i could get like ANY of my school work done that would be great thank you #i really should look up which of my meds i can take bc in addition to not being able to focus without my adhd meds #both of my depression meds can give me issues if i go off of them for too long #and my blood pressure meds are probably kind of important. might help with the pots symptoms from laying down more and eating less #hhhhhh #its just so much work trying to look up interactions for a total of 10 different medications #rambling

[boycritter]

genuinely fucking sobbing at the shit my moms had to go through within the medical system

#like 3 years ago she had a really bad reaction to the covid vaccine #it went away after a few days but then she got her booster and it came back and never left #and for three years shes gone to so many doctors who have literally zero answers for her #and the vaccine gave her all the symptoms of rheumatoid arthritis in 2 days #which isnt how ra works at all #and every time she thought she had the answer it was wrong #and now shes just given up #shes had so many mris and cat scans and blood tests and physical exams and been to so many fucking specialists #and she just gave up #shes accepted that she will never have the answer and is focusing on treating the symptoms and living her life with her new normal #and i want that so badly for myself #to just be able to give up and live with my chronic pain and migraines #but i also need an answer #bc i hate unknowns #i just #i fucking hate the medical system and i hate the shit my moms had to go through #and the amount of our savings shes had to use to try and fail to find an answer #shes doing okayish physically i think #but she messed up her body a lot when she was a teen (ballet) and never treated that and her immune system is shit #and now all of this and its just #i feel so bad for her and i hope i dont have to deal with any of htis in the future but #who knows #tw medical #grahhhh i fucking hate . being sad

[orcelito]

I rly do hate real life events that are enough to make Me cry haha

#speculation nation #negative/ #animal illness ment/ #for a better post about The Situation. it's serious enough he needs hospitalized. #plus blood transfusions. and it's Expensive. #my sister's covering my ass rn & is the only reason im able to start his treatment at all #but it's still fucking Expensive to the level where i just cant leave it up to her alone to pay #so essentially she's lending me money. bc im going to pay her back for at least Some of this. i cant just not. #ive cried 4 times already tho and that sure is a fuckin feat for me. wolfwood my cat is after Ur record lmfao #i wasnt going to take tally with me for this day trip but i cant stand to be separated from her rn #she'd be fine alone for a day but id still hate for her to have to be. and also. i need her nearby. #i dont know if im going to the concert tomorrow. i guess it will depend on how treatment is going. #this is for one of my favorite artists but if treatment is going badly im just gonna fucking hate every second of it #so. yeah. i dont know. #and this is reacting so fucking badly with my memories of sammy's death. #i nearly fucking gave them the name 'sammy' when i went up to ask about cassy's condition while we were waiting #and im just terrified that i'll have to say goodbye to yet another cat. even more terrified that he'll die during treatment #and the last time i saw him i wouldnt have been able to say goodbye properly. i should have hugged him for so much longer #and. Fuck lmao ok heres 5 times sorry wolfwood but my cat's giving U a run for ur money #sorry for posting about this so much im just. this fucking sucks in general. #at least i'll have tally with me. she's not a cuddler but she'll let me hug her at least some. #animal death ment/ #i fucking hate crying lmao. ugh.

[marsbotz]

#hi complaining in the tags again lol #my pain is getting worse and worse and worse #i cant like bring. myself to do ANYTGING at this point except sit in bed gaming #but even that like. hurts #typing this my fingers r hurting #its so hard when like. standing Hurts and sitting Hurts and lying in bed doing nothing Hurts #its mostly my legs just bc i just spent three days working 9 hour shifts at MACCYS #so i was walking around for forver and standing #but yeah my hands and noticeably my wrists. #my wrists feel very very weak. and weird #aside from the pain or maybe bc of it i just feel all around awful #im exhaustedddd like so lethargic and my appetite is so bad #it feels like im fucking dying so so slowly. not beinh silly it does #like i can feel my body just giving up almost #talked to the drs yestserday they siad it could be At Least a few more weeks til i get my blood results back #cus its a rarer thing to test for… lol #sooo im just waiting waiting wiatng to get answrrs rlly #and then ill probs get referred to rhuematology #im kinda worried cus i have a work placemtn in a couple weeks and i might like. not be able to stand barely #ill have to just explain if thats the case #and i wont get a day off for like 5 weeks ☹️ #oh well. thats how it goes i guess ! #trying to stay happy smd normal but my mental health is kinda tanking like its just making me miserbale #but i was ok today :] so its looking up #farts