#bread hates school

[bread-of-death]

Paying for his duck crimes

#OKAY CONTEXT #so last year I was dating a French horn player #and as part of his Christmas gift I got him a stuffed duck(puppet) #this was around the time that our school’s musical was starting #and we play as a part of the pit #in pit- we have ‘pit pets’ #pretty much just an excuse to have a shit ton of stuffed animals down there #and so he used the duck as his pit pet #the torture and abuse to the duck started last year when the trumpets woukd shove their mutes in the duck #and now it has continued #the French horn was absent today because they don’t have their parts yet(the musical book did not include any F horns- so they got to stay- #-home) #and so while he was gone- the trumpets kidnapped and tortured the duck #bread hates school #bread does band #bread does musical

[a-bready-music-blog]

We got to pick between two songs for our final in guitar and this is the one I chose

It’s hell<3

This was the 10th take, my computer(with my music on it) shut off twice in the middle of me recording, and I had one other good take but you couldn’t hear shit cuz I forgot I had my noise machine on lol

This is my first like,, thirty minutes of me learning this and it’s like 26 bpm under tempo and I still don’t have all the notes n stuff, so like,, it definitely won’t sound good if that’s what you’re expecting

I also stop a lot cuz like,, mistakes

If you heard all the times I wasn’t with the metronome, no you didn’t<3

#guitar #bread hates school #I am also Very Bad at guitar #this is my technically my third year #but I didn’t play like #at all last year #and playing two notes at once like this #in a way that isn’t a chord(which I really really suck at) is new to me #I’d apologize for the messy looking room #but I’m not gonna lol

[figofswords]

anybody remember the stephanie brown essay I was working on under a research grant fully last summer? yeah it’s not done yet it super needs to be done and I’ve been avoiding working on it for weeks. someone tell me to just do it already

#the problem is. actually there are several problems #1) I’ve been out of the Batman/dc comics phase for almost a year so I don’t care that much about the topic #2) I am fifteen pages in and have not touched it in months so I’ve completely lost my train of thought #3) I can’t just reread it because I hate first five pages or so and I know I need to change it but I was trying to finish before editing #so now my only solution is I need to open up a new doc and completely restructure the whole thing by splicing together the existing writing #so that I can figure out where the hell im going with this and make sure things fit together better #unfortunately that sounds fucking exhausting #but I told my mentor I would have an update for him by the end of the week and. well. it’s the end of the week #I have to present it in April. I have to write and submit an abstract in March #the school gave me $1500 for this stupid essay and if I don’t have anything to show for myself. #well. I don’t know they can’t take the money BACK but it’s not a good look #and also I would feel bad #I did the research!!! i interviewed comic writers even!!! I just haven’t finished WRITING IT DOWN #and I KNOOOOWW once I get started it’ll be fine once I’m going I’m going #but STARTING is hard because I feel like I have to finish it in one go which makes it so huge and daunting #I’m like. slamming my head into a wall. just write a couple sentences Jess something is better than nothing #just start it you don’t have to finish just START just MAKE the new DOC #I know!!!!! that is what my therapist would say!!!! Jess you’re trying to oneshot it bc of your dumb adhd brain!!!! #stop looking at it like that and making it scarier!!! #but even tho I know that logically I’m still like oh I should put away the dishes o should make bread #I should work on my six different art pieces I should do laundry i should play with the puppy I should go for a walk I sh

[holocene-sims]

asking a bunch for grant bc im NOSY : 🌾 [RICE SHEAF] How picky is your OC with food? What will and won't they eat? 🍔 [BURGER] What would your OC put on their burger? 🥕 [CARROT] How tough is your OC against certain situations? How weak are they against others?🧅 [ONION] What is surefire to make your OC cry? Who knows of this information?

omg hi nectar 🤭 thanks for sending me some questions!!

🌾 [RICE SHEAF] how picky is your OC with food? what will and won't they eat?

grant is, like, negative picky. the only thing he doesn't really like is any kind of tea but he'll drink it if you give it to him and every once in a while, for a very special flavor, he'll approve of it. maybeeeee not like it but at least tolerate it more than usual.

so yeah!! he'll eat anything, he does not care. he enjoys cooking and baking, it's all very relaxing for him, and he likes trying new things.

however, probably large in part because he never got to eat anything fun as a child unless he was far, far away from his mother (who only ever served "rabbit food"), he does gravitate to classic american comfort cuisine as his favorite foods! stuff like macaroni and cheese, pizza, etc. he might be the #1 mac and cheese stan worldwide tbh

🍔 [BURGER] what would your OC put on their burger?

the absolute dream combo for him would probably be like standard burger patty and bread with sauerkraut and swiss cheese, maybe a fried egg for funsies, too

can you tell he's from the midwest

🥕 [CARROT] how tough is your OC against certain situations? how weak are they against others?

i truly believe grant is much, much tougher than people would at first give him credit for (or even than he would give himself credit for...)

he's been through a lot in his lifetime and he can be very critical of himself for having developed mental illness, a chronic physical illness, and for struggling with addiction in the past because he feels like it's all his fault and he wasn't strong enough to make it out "normally" (there is no normal, i just think he would use that terminology against himself). but the reality is that survival AT ALL is a huge deal and is worth celebrating, and he's very resilient to have gotten to the place he's at in life now. was it fair that he had to be resilient? no, not even remotely, but in a way, he had no choice.

so that said, i think as he's gotten a better handle on healing throughout his 20s and now 30s (yay!! we just had his birthday last update in the story!!), he's become much more unshakable. social situations are his weakest area - for example, it took him a long time to stand up to his ex and tell her to get out of his life, and it is going to take even longer for him to work out the situation with his father and confront him one way or another.

NOW what is he really good at?! handling emergencies! if you're in a car accident, he's the guy you want to be in the car with you at the time because he won't break a sweat dealing with it. he's very mechanically-minded and good with logic and problem solving, so any emergency is not even slightly going to bother him because he does know he's good at those things. he trusts himself completely as long as he can use those skills. plus, he has many years of experience in compartmentalization lol.

we could also think about his previous job (that he's attempting to get back now) here. aviation is very safe for the most part, but you have to be chill about any kind of crazy ass events happening as a pilot because the stakes are ridiculously high. grant has an advantage in the chill factor, though, because on any day of the week, he'd 100% choose flying an airplane that's on fire or literally falling apart over being in the same building, not even the same room, as his mother. in his mind, he's dealt with much worse.

🧅 [ONION] what is surefire to make your OC cry? who knows of this information?

remember the not as good with social stuff thing?

yeahhhh, it's raising your voice at him. you don't even have to yell, you can just barelyyyyyy raise it and his eyes will at least get watery. he can handle honesty, he can handle bluntness, but not anything with a tone or yelling 😥

and i think everyone knows because his emotions always show on his face. in this case, he'll get that kind of twitchy look and his face will look like it's just been completely drained of life

#asks #hlcn: oc info #hlcn: story extras #hlcn: grant #i know nothing about burgers thank you r/cooking and bon appetit for your help #you know what my dream burger would be? bun and ketchup no protein #no literally i used to take sandwich bread and ketchup to school when i was a kid *everyone immediately unfollows me* #i just love ketchup and hate when my food touches you know so i made my own cursed sandwich with only two things touching #btw one of the best days of my life was ordering imported ketchup chips from canada during the pandemic #i haven't bought them since because they were expensive as hell to ship to me but </3 i miss you ketchup chips #holocene-sims? more like holocene-adds-unnecessary-stories-in-tags

[echo-s-land]

That moment where you remember a random place from your childhood you'll probably never go back to

#the pharmacy #the doctor office #the playground right beside my house #the horses. there were horses. we gave them bread to eat sometimes #daisies everywhere in spring. i cant recall if it was sheeps or cows in the back #the playground in my kindergarten school #the playground in my elementary school #the library from my elementary schools #my grandparents' house who got sold #my great grandmother's house that shell never go back to and us neither #the south. the fireworks. it has all changed too much since my childhood. #that awkward moment where you feel nostalgia for a time you remember longing to die #or experiencing some near death experience #love the sea but i hate not touching the bottom of bodies of water for a reason

[ariiii33]

I rlly rlly want to impress my teachers but i have no motavation so i just sit in my room rotting in my bed thinking about what their reactions would be instead of actually studying

#then i start to think of failing all my exams and cry #i rlly need to study #school life #i hate it here #i hate school #PLSSS GIVE ME ONE MORCLE OF PRAISE #i cannot spell anything how has my A* streak in English not ended #i just want to be good at something #low key dont know what i’m doing in life i think i might just work the same minimum wage job in the same town until i kms #any sugar daddies hmu #give me money #and little treats #why cant i just be in a studio ghibli film #kikis delivery service #i want to be that woman in the bakery #I YEARN FOR THE BAKERY #bread #baked goods #life #i cannot #maybe i should end it all #the tags are more text than my actual post at this point #i yearn for smiley faces and nice notes on my work #by teachers lmao im not out there wanting random ppl to GRAFFITI my book #exams #exam stress #i have no hope

[mummer]

jopson and crozier. whats goin on there

#And absolutely no one is suprised by my interest jn this particular thing. but also: #fitzjames with his dress. whats goin on there #aarrgghhh i wish work did snow days like school i want to binge it neowwwww not 1 ep at a time 😡😡😡😡😡 #i tjought i would hate fitzjames but he’s really risen to the occasion not as poorly as i thought. thats fitzy :) #bread and circuses and good PR and doing a carnival in the snow ok miss prettyface #But yeah im all in on jopson. he didnt even have lines until just now… just his huge dark sad eyes and his random tragic backstory #if jopson dies im killing myself. I mean i know they all die……. but…….

[kenzie-ann27]

meanwhile my experience with being asexual is just like. constant self hatred and apologizing about it

#it's just. idk it's ace week and no one is talking about it #and i go in the tags and it's just. ace culture is basically all memes #and it's fine but like. i enjoy having serious conversations about it #i never get to talk about it because it's such a non thing #ace culture is like it's filling the hole that comes from not having a sexuality with jokes about bread and cake and dragons for some reason #but like. i want to talk about how sad and lonely it is a lot of the time. but it's a thing where it feels so self imposed #like of course no one wants to be romantic with me in any sense when i am so awkward from past trauma #combined with the fact that i will never be able to give them what they actually are aiming for #like. high school was fucking miserable. #i mean i'm already crying so why not make it worse here #it's just. i feel like i am missing out on so much and i hate that i am made to feel like this #and no one fucking takes me seriously when i try to talk about it #it's a big part of who i am and it's always a shadow because it just doesn't matter #i just... i want people to see the beauty not in filling that void with other memey shit and just. acknowledge the void #internally and externally and in every way possible being asexual is so crushingly lonely and no one ever talks about it #we're not in ba sing se we can talk about it please #and now i will apologize #and i will lay down because i have a headache and i need to calm down

[binch-i-might-be]

my grandparents had this bread cutting apparatus in a drawer in their kitchen and they were so right about that. like that thing was a fixed installation and it lived in the drawer and you could fold it up and it was basically like. a saw. and it would cut your bread and it would go back in the drawer. why don't I have something like that. where's the justice in this world

#i suddenly remembered the Drawer Saw Bread Cutter and now that i'm an adult i'm even more impressed by that thing #hello that's brilliant. i hate cutting bread!!! #also a kid from my elementary school had something similar and he cut part of his thumb off with it lol #wonder how he's doing #rayrambles

[fleshdyke]

i love when you talk to older ppl and they start talking about how weird and silly they are and it’s all just signs of autism

#like. a couple weeks ago i was eating w my great uncle and i mentioned how i eat everything one at a time #like i eat rice and then vegetables and then meat and then bread or whatever like i cant just not finish one before going to fhe other #and he was like ‘no way me too!!! i also hate when my food is touching’ #and earlier he had mentioned being outcast and weird in school and stuff and i was like. oh. i guess it runs in the family then #rambles #autism

[bread-of-death]

Well now both of these are incorrect, huh Mr. professor?

#bread hates school

[a-bready-music-blog]

We were looking at non chord tones in music theory and the very first one was a suspension chord so my band director goes

*writes out ‘sus’* “this is the among us chord”

#may or may not had to do with the fact that I wrote ‘sus(AMONGUS)’ on an assignment #and then drew a little among us character at the bottom #my teacher is hilarious I love him #bread hates school

[aliengirl]

Heard of someone complaining about the lactose intolerant trait, saying things like "oh your whole personality is that you cant have milk??"

As a lactose intolerant myself, i say yes

#the kitchen women in my school looking at me #and me feeling bad #when i dont pick the coffee milk or yogurt #also yes i love cheese #PAO DE QUEIJO #aka Brazilian cheese bread #i love that guy #hot chocolate?? #cheesee??? #condensed milk?? #ice cream and milk shake?? #yes i love all of that #but its a toxic relationship #because i spend the rest of the day complaining about how my belly hurts #my mom has it too #but hers are worse than mine #which makes me worry because if my intolerance is kinda bad already #when i get older it will get worse ;-; #hate that #nonsims

[boyfeminism]

having psoriasis sucks i hate my hands

#they hurt really badly today ): #i asked my manager if itd be okay to keep smthn in the bread room for me to put on my hands before i put gloves on #but i doubt thatll be okay #they just hurt ): #theyre not even that bad yet either so im kinda dreading how the rest of the year is gonna go #this is also like. the worst ive felt abt them emotionally since middle school #jackie n i talked abt us both having bad skin bc they have eczema so like. 🤝 gfs with evil hand skin #but still like. i hate that its my hands i wish it was like my arms or my legs or something instead of my hands ): #my dad has it on his scalp tho which is vastly worse #so. small mercies i guess. #idk i just. i get to see my gf in 2 weeks and my hands are just getting worse and worse n i dont want them to have to feel how bad they are #its unpleasant at the least and really really grosa at the worst so. #its not at the fucking. pustules stage yet tho so. fingers crossed it doesnt happen until After i visit them or i'll die #which it just occurred to me this is smthn we'll experience every year together until i die when we live together but like #we have such a small amount of time to spend together before then like cosmically so i just. dont want my hands to be bad ): #like its already spreading to my finger pads on my right hand :// #its yucky and painful #speaking

[eidetic187]

No thoughts head empty

#;; welcome to the bread bank ( out of character ) #I'm frustrated #why does my brain fight me so fucking much #i miss when i had the energy and the COOPERATION to just pump stuff out #I'm. a little frustrated haha #i just????? i hate having adhd. i hate not being able to do what i like to do sometimes #i want to be able to say 'this is the hobby I'm doing today' and be able to sit down and DO IT like i could in high school #ugh.

[whoa-where-did-the-pancakes-go]

:(((

#i have to go on another mandatory school camping trip except this is gonna be worse than the fall one #cuz now im aware of my gender and also that people find me desirable and i hate myself and want to die 90% of the time #also i walked into a room on friday and one of my friends said shush really quickly and then everybody stopped talking #and laughed about something but it was weird and i guess they have reason to talk behind my back cuz im horrible #and bad and mean and i cant ever put in enough work no matter how hard I FUCKING TRY #im sorry my bread isnt fucking sweet enough for you im a teenager and its my first try what do you expect??? WHAT DO YOU EXPECT FROM ME????? #hi hi im okay. btw #ughggg. kms yes or no #[insert cool original post tag] #tw vent