#but DAMN i wish i could just draw

[roachemoji]

#bo posting #talky #ive been writing so much the last few days and as great as it iss #i miss drawing so much #i enjoy being creative and im so happy i get to do this for someone i love dearly #but DAMN i wish i could just draw #and im also stressed out because i decided i wanna keep this project private... #like im gonna delete links n posts n stuff to it i dont wanna post about it anymore #this is a gift to someone i love and i wanna keep it between us #and i aughahdkashd #i feel SHITTY like im keeping a secret #but this is special and important #Im scared that im making people jealous because i havent been very present since the whole fiasco with my medication #and the fact that my sleep schedule is far more consistent because im trying to time it be awake when my friends in later timezones #are actually online? #Which makes it harder to stay up late #like i get ready for bed at 11pm lmao #im trying so hard to spend time with everyone equally #or plan a head so i try to have movie nights or eat dinner or talk with friends before other plans if i can spare the energy #because i DONT want them to feel left out or like im prioritizing other people #but i still worry that they might feel that way and im too scared to talk about it #because theres a mountain of other fucking issues #and ive dug myself into a hole of things i havent beenable to talk about #because ive been drugged out of my mind and am only just now in this very moment realizing how present i am mentally #AHHHHHHHAJHKFSHJASKDHKJ #maintaining friendships is so fucking hard for me and i hate it so much #it shouldnt be this hard but it is!!!!!!!!!!! #i shouldnt struggle with balancing my time between people but it feels like such a task and i feel so shitty saying that #i love my friends but i feel like a bad friend

[cubedmango]

post-ending kiki design thingy

#kieran #rival kieran #ogerpon #pokemon #pokemon scarlet and violet #pokemon sv #the indigo disk #pokemon sv spoilers #my art #literally just blended his two hairstyles together . does it look good??? i have no clue. take it anyway #ogerpon my beloved i am so sorry for butchering u like this ..... damn i wish i was a pokemon fan who could actually draw The Pokemon

[lunarharp]

:')

#witch hat tag #orufrey #i will go back to the angst zone at some point so..... things the way they still are in canon this won't feel right for long #having portrayed the 'we've kissed but haven't worked out the trauma and pain so what we have is still too fraught' era in writing #i just want to draw past that for a bit...there's more..we're more than just this... let's go to the gentle kiss zone #it doesn't feel right not drawing EVERY aspect of Betrayal Processing but damn i'm not going to comic about EVERYTHING it's not possible #so just let me do what comes to mind.. <- still at cai court arguing on behalf of cai (me) to me (cai) #i wish i could do more fic illustrating & be satisfied with it. i want to portray the moment where oru is staring darkly into the fireplace #and basically qifrey sorta wants to die so this shame can be over. well anyway

[ganondoodle]

a wild assortement of comic wip screenshots and a random doodle that i posted to twitter but not here

(this doodle here is of Raal (aka demise before he became a deity) but whatever happens here isnt anything 'canon', i just randomly doodled him to try a loosen up my painting style bc when i work on the comic i tend to concentrate too much of rendering it perfectly and i dont like that)

#ganondoodles #doodles #art #i am so very tired #too tired for tags #btw i do love and read every ask i get but damn i just dont have the energy to reply to most #and i feel so guilty #i wish i could make a warning show up when someone wants to send me an ask #that just says -yo i love and cherish and reread all asks but unfortunately have zero energy to reply but chances are it made me cry- #given the asks isnt mean spirited or straight up bots #which my impsoter brain sometimes still tries to make me think #like either woo look at all those people LYING to your face #but i have grown alot since those days and now its mostly just #so look what a nice and lovely absolutely beautiful ask this person send you and you disrespectful fool are not answering it shame upon you #thats most likely why i have been getting less and less and man i feel so bad #like when its asks about drawing advice i either dont know what to say bc i dont have any idea what im doing eihter #or bc i plan a giant response with a big ass illustrated tutorial even tho i know i neither got the time or energy for it #but still cant answer then bc wait you wanted to make a tutorial you cant answer it just like that #and when its a super nice compliment about my art i just #dont know how to express my gratitude and silently reread it time and time again never answering it bc then it would be gone from the inbox #;__; #alright falling asleep brain better not have written sth i will regret reading tomorrow #i think this is the longest tags i put on a completely unrelated post of mine #if you have read all these tags send me an ask only containing the name of your fav fruit and i will make you a little pixel sprite of it

[trust-sancus]

The last update by @somerandomdudelmao really hit home for me. And since I've been having an art block lately....here's a coloring of the scene that really broke me.

#as someone that's lost a sibling this scene was so real #my heart hurts #but damn this series is so good #i wish i could be leo rn #cass apocalyptic series #sancusdraws #even though i technically didn't draw it?? it's just lineart and coloring overtop of the original #but i don't have a tag for that specifically soooo... #also i changed the “are you?” to “aren't you” because it feels more accurate for english language hope you don't mind cass

[nowandthane]

i love your additions to my justice post, especially hand holding. i need it to be a running gag where warden reacts to certain situations with holding their hand out and going "hand!" and justice obliges because that is what they do now. everyone else is either amused or in awe and justice just lets the kids be. holding hands and killing things, why not?

about this post

the daa crew just accepts it eventually and they start hand holding with justice too (imagine nathaniel in a fight going 'im out of arrows!' and justice just goes 'here' and holds his hand kjsfdhgjkdf this image is too cute i love it)

and then in da2 the same thing happens with like varric running out of bolts or smth and anders. they're both confused about it until anders remembers and is like 'oh thats just justice saying hello'

#i wish i could draw this the image is just. too cute #i need hand holding justice in my life #dragon age #daa #da2 #justice #hof #nathaniel howe #anders #asks #azurechicken #sorry i replied so late linking to the post was just kinda hell on mobile #mobile is hell in general #so is desktop rn cause i got the new layout #ok damn im done complaining

[pineappical]

I always thought is very tricky to draw that wrinkle that goes from the nose and around the mouth and still male it look good, but gosh you nail it in every art, super expressive and pretty. Looking at all your drawings 🔍🕵‍♀️ to properly appreciate and study it. But wow really in love with your art style is so expressive and pleasing to look at, and the colors are so pretty 👌👌👌👌

i LOVEEE drawing wrinkles!!! it makes faces soso so expressive and i try to add wrinkles to every character i draw whenever i can. and the fact i also love drawing characters smiling (they make me happy, so i want to be able to share my joy to other people by drawing them smiling too!) which of course makes that wrinkle around the nose and mouth more prominent :-)

im not a person that can draw well from memory, i use references excessively even if it doesnt turn out the same way from the reference im copying from in the end 😊

i drew these out real quick but i have no clue how to explain any of these so i just thought about sharing it with you anyways!

call it "cheating" or whatever, but most of the time i even trace over the reference just to have a base i can copy the expression im trying to draw from. i do art for fun and if it makes my process that much easier then. well!

anyhoo, ignore the fact these are all mr lassos... i just love him a whole bunch 💛

#im not saying 'tracing is good!' as a whole. never trace from other people's work and pass it off as your own obviously. i just think you - #can learn a whole bunch of tricks and how to draw specific things if you just Trace Over References #'ohh but youll never Get Good by just tracing though! :/' who cares. i love drawing men being silly and thats enough for me. #Getting Good be damned! #apologies if this doesnt make any damn sense LMAO !! i just got home a couple hours ago and its now 3am zzzz #pn.ask #theres also the matter of me being obsessed with handlebar facial hairs and how it 'removes' the upper lip when im drawing so i use the - #bottom part of the mustache as the line for the mouth itself #ITS THIS WHOLE PROCESS.... IDK!!!! wish i could explain it any better but i am. so bad at writing down my thoughts. why cant i just beam - #them directly into your mind smh #THANK YOU FOR THIS ASK THOUGHHHH i waited till i got home before answering it because i have some stuff i wanted to say

[lactodebillus-bulgaricus]

@athenov that's the comic I was talking about :D

drawn in less than a hour. and yes yogurt boi has a spoon with yogurt between his teeth.

#hetalia #aph greece #hws greece #aph bulgaria #hws bulgaria #I can draw better but I don't wanna :D #damn I wish that server existed I'd create a discord account just so I could participate in it and talk about yogurt

[sluckythewizard]

#sharing here too bc UUGGHHHH so i started writin fanficc again.. #i dont have time or energy to draw!! so once again i must resort to da written word #i might post it here if it gets far enough. just a lil fic abt gabe havin a Nightmare #IT COULDVE BEEN EMIZEL YA EVER THINK ABT THAT #IT COULDVE BEEN EMIZEL WHO CAUGHT THE EYE OF HIS SUPERIORS #IT COULDVE BEEN EMIZEL WHO GOT SIRED FIRST #AAUUUU!!! AHGHAGGAUUUU!!! THEY WERE BOTH GANG LEADERS #JUST DOING THEIR DAMN BEST. LEADING THEIR CREW THE BEST THEY COULD #WHY WAS GABE CHOSEN? WHY WAS HE SO SPECIAL COMPARED TO EMIZEL #AAAUUUUGHHokay i gotta go back to wirk now #wish me lugck

[lylethewaterguy]

a lieutenant for a lieutenant

#roy harper #dick grayson #arsenal #nightwing #dickroy #lyle the art guy #and the dickroy fixation continues #also I really need to start flipping my damn canvases #I wish I could just work with two monitors #with one of them flipped #so I can see both sides as I’m drawing #anyways at least it kinda fits the style

[crunchchute]

so called fnaf collection havers when a real collector comes at them (/j im just broke. this is a work in progress)

actually all of my moneys went to the shelf hole next to it. so

my two braincells fighting for dominance. everytime one comes up the other lies dormant (aka i entered both the fnaf and dw fandom in 2014 and they have been switching first places every few months, then sonic came to mix it up. i have a small sonic space too but too lazy to take a pic, its just sonic and shadow merch p much)

and sorry for the mess there, everytime i take a book out and then stuff it back in everything around it falls so i just throw everything in the back and whatever. springtrap keeps falling from time to time, i will just find his leg on the floor and glitchtrap in his pose doesnt even stand up without being propped up, i will try to get him a stand or something so he can be more at the front

#peep the little sticker at the bottom left by pepa-is-drawing #my prized posession #wish the merch didnt cost like 2-3 times as much here as in the us or whatever #when i see someone post pics of the plushies being sold and theyre like 9-12usd and then i look at the stores here #correction - the one store here that stocks them sometimes and theyre around 20€.. 18-25 eur last time i was shopping #the stuff i REALLY want is the hot topic merch #80€ shipping then a note sorry we dont ship to where you live even though we offer shipping calculation there #the springtrap clothes will never be mine 😔 #also i got glitchtrap only this year because i ordered him on release #it was a preorder here. they kept pushing it a couple months later every time and when it was almost a year or so i just cancelled it #that was years ago at this point damn. anyway i got tired of waiting and thought i could get him later. he was sold out everywhere for ages #everytime i looked. but then thankfully they stocked him and cheesetrap in one store for also not too cheap #*disintegrates*

[the-moon-pal]

girl help i want to make an oc for fun but i hate designing things

#damien talks #shakes fist i wish i didn't have to draw it... i wish i could just have the creature already in paper n finished with a design i like to dr #w RAAAAAAAAAA #i have found that recently i been having some difficulty designing new characters.. gotten too attached to my current ocs.. #damn.. #HJDDFHJFDH

[vargaslovinghours]

Incoming, Outgoing

#💟 #Digital art #Art #Nny #Scriabin #I never know if Edgar counts in situations like these lol #Edgar #*drags in another crossover kicking and screaming* #And yet more DSMP lol I am incorrigible #As soon as I saw that animatic and Will's glasses going from reflection to his eyes showing I was like ''ScrIABIN'' lol #I wasn't really thinking through the implication but I guess this would be a split where after the world resets #Nny and Scriabin make it back to their respective bodies but Edgar doesn't - Replacement Complete very suddenly #Although honestly I was thinking Edgar would still be there just buried a lot deeper than normal - something closer to Convalescence #Well it's always an imperfect fit when borrowing lines haha ♪ #It's funny 'cause I've kicked around a couple different AUs to do with Edgar and Scriabin's separation but this is neither of them lol #On the art side it was shockingly fun to do Nny's word bubbles ahh ♫ Normally I find them a little tedious but that was really enjoyable #Also not me scrolling DAFonts for like 45 minutes looking for a decent spooky font since the best I had previously was GoodDog lol #I'm a fan of the splatters hehe #I also forgot how fun those hair-antennae actually are to draw??? Damn what a good time #I wish I could draw his face better to justify doodling those more often lol #Also thanks to the stream for inspiring the rat shirt haha ♪ Have fun trying to decipher the rest

[non-un-topo]

Probably going to take a break from tumblr for a while, at least until my energy and inspiration come back.

#i might not reply to any messages or replies. i've been feeling very antisocial and quiet. #no matter what i do i can't draw or write. my brain feels flat. this fandom is all but dead. i just need some time. #i feel like if i can't draw or write then i don't have a purpose here. so that's a good sign to just take a break. #wish i could channel this grey energy and write another axis. if anything for just myself to read. #i fucking hate november. hope everyone is hanging in there. sláinte. #consider this a friendly reminder to reblog art and comment on fics damn it. or your hardworking creators lose their light like tinkerbell.

[saiainopresai-v3]

nah wtf 1000?????? thats SCARY. how.

tysm guys <3 (gushing will proceed in the tags)

#1000 likes #tumblr milestone #thank you #saiai.txt #i thought itd be like. fucking idk 100 i have terrible number perception #wah. im glad ppl like what im posting #esp since often im like. damn. i wish i could engage with the dr fandom more often cus i miss the glory days from a couple yrs ago #and i come up with ideas and wonder if its like “okay” or “safe” to post since yk. cmon. its dr. and esp since i draw pregame so things get #-grayer and whatnot lol #anyway if youre still reading this happy womens day <3 or legit just have a good day in general if u dont identify ys that way!!

[solcarow]

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#mayb for yhk week i should draw that painting au that’s been stewing in my mind for a while ….. #zulmiro if you see this dont look there’s some major spoilers in here -> #not much story to it tho i just really like the idea of kdj being into painting restoration #it fits really well with his love for abandoned stories .. #yjh could be some forgotten myth whose history’s been lost to time that hsy used as her muse …. #kdj finds all these battered paintings and recognized there was a story being told so he starts trying to piece together thousands of #artworks wishing to see what the original artist saw .. #i’m making no sense but do yuou see my vision ……………. #unfortunately this means hsy had to have lived in like . ye olden times for this but COME ONN #love that transcends time ?? understanding that comes too late ???? it’s just so very hankim ………. #the image of kdj being surrounded by a bunch of torn up paintings of yjh has been haunting me for ages o(~< #but damn i dont think i have the time to make it #if anyone wants to steal this idea from me PLEASEE steal this idea from me but only if you show me whatever you make with it 💥💥💥💥 #solar-talks #also !! the repetition that goes into restoring paintings .. got some orv thoughts on that for sure …….