#but god i should rly get back into it

[fox-mulder-gets-pegged]

Fuck I should go unearth my bagpipe chanter and practice 😔

#suddenly overcome with longing #i never got consistent enough to even consider buying a proper bag and not just using a practice chanter #but god i should rly get back into it

[luck-of-the-drawings]

"And soda; runs off into the street..." "...and soda... is totally okay!"

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #cw blood #something something cracking open a boy w the cold ones #IF THERE ARE ANY MISTAKES I MISSED I SWWWEAR TO JEBEDIAH. IF I STARE AT THIS ANYMORE IM GONNA DIE IT NEEDS TO BE DONE #ALSO RRRAAAHAHHHGHGH CAN I JUST TAKEA SECOND TO SCREEAAMM ABT HOW MUCH I LOVE SODA AND EMIZEL.. LIKE THERYE SO CUTE.... #THEY ARE HOMIES THAT KISS EACHOTHR GOODNIGHT. THEY CARE SO MUCH FOR EACHOTHER. SODA LOVES SODA AND SODA LOVES YOU #do u guys remember how willing he was to share blood w his vampire bestie. like cmon. remember when emizel memorized sodas Soda Schedule. #LIKE CMON.... they just have eachothers backs so much. ouhhh my god... ANYWAY SO THE ART HUH. I FEEL LIKE I SCRAMBLED W IT FOR A WHILE #DRAWIN IS HARD..... i think i did well in the end tho.. i like the lil heart beat effects. and i hope i made soda look Suffieciently Scared #i ALSO had fun w the teeth. i however did not have fun w the walls. if i had more drugs i mightve done every brick in more detail #but i didnt WANNA!!!! this will suffice.I HOPE IT FLOWS WELL&THAT ITS CLEAR... IVE STARED AT IT SO LONG IT IS NOW VISUAL SOUP. HELP!!! #i want my comics to have more Pauses and Space and Thought and Momence. i feel like normally they go so fast. but THIS time #i think i did good.... huuoouhhhh.... comics are HARD art is HARD but i am HARDER. or something. OH YEAH I HAVE MORE ART THINGS #soda was RLY HARD FOR ME TO DRAW FOR A MINUTE..but i like where his design is now. i wanted his hair to be curly swirly.like soda fizz #i THINK thats all my thoughts for now. if u have thoughts u should spill them in the tags i looooove reading tttaaggsss #have a goodnight i gotta go to work soon. maybe. unless the casinos power goes out AGAIN. OR SEOMTHING... UUGHHH MY SCHEDULE IS IN SHAMBLES #I THOUGHT I WAS WORKIN 3 DAYS INA ROW SO I RENTED A WHOLE DAMN HOTEL BC THE JOB PLACE IS FAR AWAY.. I HAD TO CANCEL THE WHOLE RESERVATOn #annd im MMMMAD ABOUT IT!!! like ill get over it ofc BUT IM PEEVED!!!! IM INCONVIENIENCED AND GENTLY AGGRIVATED. BUT OVERALL FINE. #hope yalls weekend goes well. sleep well. if u get the chance to.

[lobotomyladylives]

literally wanna dieeeee I realized belatedly that not only was down bad written for me due to being an alien abduction metaphor song but it perfectly describes my situation w/my ex who dumped me 3 days into our second vacation in his country

#but yknow thats what i get for dating a fucking man last year when i absolutely knew better. i was in a low place & the idea of being #whisked away from europe was an escape for me . we got along really well but the second i showed any emotional weakness he couldnt handle i #oh but he sent a bunch of messages begging me to come back when i was on the plane fleeing to my sisters london flat! lol!!! #i didnt tell you guys about any of this on my old blog when it was happening bc i just knew itd invite a flood of #''why were you even dating a man'' messages. yeah im aware. it was stupid & yet another result of my inability to purge myself of the #desire to be in a relationship my homophobic father wouldnt hate me for. and i didnt think any woman would want me . im over it now #fuck my abusive father fuck men in general im so over the internalized homophobia. ive always preferred women why should i have to #supress that to make my fuckface hypocrite father happy. i only rly care bc i love my half brother & want to be in his life which means #i have to appease dad. but at what goddamn cost #why did i say from europe in that earlier tag. i meant TO europe...im from the us #anyways. what a shit show situation that was. i have never felt so betrayed by anyone except for my dad himself #oh i didnt even mention the worst part yet. when i texted from london asking if our friendship was over too (god. so cringe) he then went #into this spiel about how actually what he said earlier when he was asking me to come back #(that it had been a stupid impulse & biggest mistake of his life) was a lie & it had been a long time coming #IF IT WAS A LONG TIME COMING WHY THE FUCK DID YOU LET ME FLY ACROSS THR ATLANTIC FUCKING OCEAN 3 DAYS AGO FOR YOU #and said hed tell me the reasons but ''didnt want to hurt me'' #i have so much hatred in my heart for this man to this day when i really think about the mind games he was playing. unreal. #and he KNEW i already had massive trust issues

[detransraichu]

man i'm such a great lover too is the thing :( not to toot my own tits

#lay text #like tenderness and passion and being cherished THAT'S ALL I WANT TO GIVE A WOMAN #like sex is never just sex for me #idk. i need the right girl thrown my way #idk if i can keep doing sex flings and giving my all and receiving crumbs like. sometimes a butch wants to be cherished too #like maybe i want to be seduced too #i'm always the one complimenting seducing touching saying sweet and dirty things and just Making Things Happen #i'm always the one giving sweet gestures out of nowhere and just trying to make girls feel so special. i try so hard #but i get so little #maybe i should just lower my expectations #i'm still so sad the new girl i liked didn't like me back :( i feel really embarrassed. i reached and held her hand TWICE too!! so cringe!! #and i'm watching my ex live this wonderful perfect romance with a new potential bf and ngl i'm rly jealous i want smtg like that too :( #not with them GOD FORBID THAT WAS HELL #but just with a special girl #i hope i'll find her this year bc i'm getting tired #i've only truly felt desired and cherished by my xmas fling and it ended so bad. i want that feeling again. but better

[skitskatdacat63]

Watching the Brawn docu has me wanting to reach through the screen to choke out Christian and Montezemolo

#like i feel like obv theyre probably being dramatic for the sake of the docu #but at the same point it rly feels like they still hold a grudge #and im not one of those people who decrys the rb19 as being illegal or whatever #but my god for someone's car who gets accused of being illegal a lot christian youre sure talking a load of shit #like ik hes talking abt his standpoint from back then but atp in his career after all hes been thru #should he not be admiring them????? #as i said in my other tags: #wah wah angry bcs another team found a loophole in the loophole sport??? #i love tho brundle is like talking abt how he loves how teams exploit and bypass the rulebook #like to be the rulebook is like...you read it in depth so you can see what you can get away with #and obv the other teams will be annoyed but at the same time i feel like id be lowkey congratulatory like wow nice loophole!! #and also the rb5 was pretty good imo and just needed time and got bludgeoned by the brawn #meanwhile the ferrari of this ssn is basically like the ferrari of well this season #like ferrari and mclaren in 2009 basically had thw same situation as this yr #start out shit and then developed enough along the season to get podiums and wins #like rbr somewhat has a point bcs imo theyd def be the top team if not for brawn's double diffuser #so i get that yknow. but ferrari was just straight up trash and cant put up w the fact that they made a shit car #also 2009 KERS is SOOOOOOO much more broken and unfair than the DD imo!!! #like ex. Fisi totally should have won Spa but Kimi got him literally just bcs of KERS #but god yeah anyways these fucking politics ny god....the one thing max moseley did right was to accept the Brawn hahaha #why am i getting pissed at 14 year old drama LMFAO #fuck i am so happy for Brawn i think it would truly be the most unfair thing in the entire sport if they had screwed them over #i reallt just think the other teams were eternally salty because they voted to get Brawn into the sport #and then get pissy when Brawn is actually fucking fantastic #like they just expected them to be trash and then got pissed when they werent backmarkers its so dumb #ANYWAYS THEYRE NOW TALKING ABOUT CHINA 2009 MY FUCKING BELOVED SEBMARKSON!!!!!!!! #^ but speaking of that. so funny that christian was a total whiny bitch at the FIA meeting btwn Malaysia and China #talking abt how unfsir the decision was and then WENT ON TO WIN THE VERY NEXT RACE LIKE BRUH STFFUUUUUU #catie.rambling.txt

[master-k0hga]

| Drops this and leaves

FUCK YOU-

//cough

An Age of Calamity AU where everything is the same but also not-

Sooga overthrows Kohga's title as leader and becomes a corrupted PoS then kills the King and is now trying to fight Zelda for Hyrule's throne

Kohga is now his timid slutty lil assistant who just wants his "old Soogy back"

.....

And may have been the reason why Sooga ended up like this...

Hint hint it's a soul binding, corrupted mask he accidentally made for him

.......

.......

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Also may need their counterparts from the official AoC timeline to correct their bs and to re-teach them the lesson of their love for each other

Anyways

. Art © Me . DON’T RE-POST .

#MASTER-K0HGA #Ary / Kohga Chronicles #Ary / Kohga OCs and Works #Kohga #Sooga #Cough cough Master Sooga who wants to be referred to as King Sooga soon as he gets that throne #Yiga Husbands #.... #But also not rly #Anyways #Zelda cut her hair short as it's some time after AoC ''TotK'' but she's practically a badass entity with #God like powers because she trained to reach a level of ascension to prove she can protect her family and friends #While also doing the nice deeds she did in TotK... Sooga trynna be the second coming of the Demon king #But in a different light is not helping her cause of rebuilding Hyrule whatsoever... He should stop.. #Kohga's fault he accidentally imbued dark magic in a spare mask he thought would bless Sooga and protect him #So he wouldn't almost die again like last time with the blights... But uuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhh...... Uh oh #Urbosa's tired. Revali is scoffing like a bitch. Daruk is still recovering from the trauma's of the marbled rock roast #And Mipha is just sick of malice. Gloom and this other third thing that kinda looks like Majora 2.0 #Champion descendants don't come back cuz now they need to focus on their own timeline now. And fear going back in time for the third time #Might fuck up something. Yiga clan. Although willingly follow what Sooga orders and does. They are still not entirely sure if they #Like this Sooga or not. But are happy when the Kohga and Sooga we know kinda just get randomly and unintentionally dragged here by Terrako #..... Who is also here cuz they need to get back to their own time somehow!... Oh and Link is just being his swordsman self but with #Even more trauma than before especially with Demon King. Light Dragon. Zonai shit and other stuff he now has ptsd from #He does NOT want to hear the word Zonai ever again... Or depths or Demon King or chasm... Or cheese either... #.... I have nothing else to post that is ready #Shut op

[frecklystars]

Holy shit. Thank you guys for all of the asks. I got exactly 50!

I meant to respond to them when I got home from work last night, but I didn’t have enough energy by the time I was done reading these. I’m still incredibly exhausted today, it’s like all of the energy is completely sapped out of me since I was in the emergency room the other day.

The heavy ache in my chest definitely lessened while I was focused on reading what you guys wrote last night. The reminders that my TF F/Os still love me is something I really need to hear, something I probably have to tell myself multiple times... I spent so long being conditioned to believe otherwise.  

A few of you also reminded me that Starscream had gone through heavy abuse, and he wouldn’t support someone who treated me the way Megatron treats him. It helped me feel better... I think that’s what got through to me the most. I’ve seen so many commissions/fics my ex-friend showed me where she was being manipulative, and that she would be loved for it. Seeing all of that visual representation of her being so tenderly loved by these characters while she was hurting me at the same time, for so many months, it really did some damage and made me internalize the belief that all transformers characters would want to hurt me the same way and love her for it. Especially when the characters she commissioned and talked about the most often were forming into PTSD triggers. For almost a year now, I have just assumed that all of those characters she wrote and commissioned, including Starscream, would encourage her to hurt me and that they would love to see me getting hurt. I don’t choose to feel this way, it’s just... trauma. 

But a few of you wrote about how... canonically, Starscream was so fucking pissed when he was abused, especially in RiD2015!! He was so broken up and angry just like I am!! His entire 3 episodes focused on him repeating how unfairly he was treated, how much he wanted to hurt Megatron for all the times he was put through emotional/physical pain, how years had passed since he escaped being tied to his abuser and yet he was so, so angry and still worried that he wasn’t strong enough bc that is what he was conditioned to believe for millions of years. I want to think that same bot would look at me and see himself in me, and hold my hand through this and tell me it’s gonna be okay and it’s gonna get better and he’d never want to treat me the way my abuser treated me. How could he bear it if his little starflower looked at him the way that he looks at Megatron? I don’t want to think he would support my abuser’s actions, no matter how many fics or commissions she has stating otherwise. When I escaped a toxic situation with someone else 3 years ago, I turned to Starscream for this exact same reason, I looked to him for support. He helped me get through it. Now, I need him again after facing treatment that was absolutely horrific, except I’ve been conditioned to believe he would hurt me too; I just feel so sad when I look at him and I wish I could feel loved by him again. It’s been really, really, really hard. Hearing other people tell me that he loves me and would never want to hurt me really helps, I need to be reminded of that, because I absolutely can’t believe it when I try to tell myself.

I’m sorry I’m not able to respond to your asks at the moment, I’m extremely exhausted from. everything. Today has been difficult as well so I will be offline for the rest of the night. I don’t know if I’ll be online tomorrow. 

I’m not 100% sure when the commissions will open up, I was really hoping it would happen this week but I didn’t expect to have that panic attack Tuesday, it really drained me. I am hoping that I’ll have comms open by next week, it all depends on how I’m feeling. I might spend more time offline to limit seeing any potential triggers bc I’ve been very fragile since I went to the emergency room, things that normally wouldn’t make me spiral before are probably things that I will have more trouble handling right now, at least until I can calm down again. Normally it takes me about 3 to 5 days to calm down from a severe panic attack like that. But I gotta spend another $400 on new glasses tomorrow morning so... I really do need to open comms soon :’) They will absolutely be open within the next 2 weeks, I just don’t know exactly when. Anyway, thank you guys again for the nice messages, I really needed them and you helped me feel less alone last night ❤

#woof #and all of the asks were nice!!! thank you!!! #im sorry i gotta turn anon back off :( #i didnt get any bad messages or anything but im just cautious #dw i wont keep anons off forever. some of u were asking me to keep it on #i just dont want to read something negative or see any reminders of my abuser #bc then when im at my concert i will be more prone to having flashbacks instead of enjoying charlie puth bangin out the tunes #but ill turn them back on uhhh when im feeling a little better i guess #i just got some ppl trying to talk to me abt my abuser last week like 'ooh shes posting abt u!' #'shes spreading rumors about u. thought u should know' well i DONT want to know! thank u! #anyone who brings her up telling me what she's 'posting about me' is automatically blocked at this point #if she wants to spread rumors that is her problem. and i dont wanna know about it #bc shes dead to me and im keeping it that way ❤ #anyway. to all the ppl who wrote 50 nice messages!!! thank u! i needed them #i will reread them the next couple of days while im feeling rly sad and missing my starlight #god i cant wait to get the hyperfixation back. i cant wait to feel safe w/ them again. #one fucking day

[surreal-duck]

hi!! i just wanted to say that ive liked midoyuzu since i was like 14 and its been a few years since then (obviously) but seeing your midoyuzu art now is so!!! its so fulfilling to my past self who had like NO art to go off of, i guess? anyway! your art is super good and i love it so much <3

im glad omg? extremely late to the party but by god i am bringing snacks in here or die trying o7 was pretty baffled the first time finding out more abt their dynamic and looking them up on here to find maybe like two more recent posts and the rest from no sooner than 2017 or so askjdghsjkgdhjks but really THANK YOU!!!!!!!! happy to be of service to your inner 14yo somewhat ;v;

yknow what though the really funny thing is that i wasnt even that into them initially. just remembered that cute interaction at the end of xmas live and thought "huh these two r kinda sweet actually" and that curiosity is always a slippery slope into genuine investment and by god is tripping into it a favorite pastime of mine

#if i had to say tho honestly these two were both the last ones of their units i managed to get attached to properly #yuzuru has definitely become my fav of fine though but my actual rst fav is kanata LOL #also finding out yuzuru likes to draw in general is everything to me you go you funky master artist #cute critter line took me out back w a metal chair why r they so. auhhg #actually my good friend who got me in here Knows i was actually on track to becoming an ibyz liker but then. anvil fell comically on my hea #before i knew it theyve taken over almost every corner of my brain get them out!!!!! get them out!!!!!!!! #and i was already a ryuseitai fan and enjoyed fine casually but oh. oh god im a yuzurup too now arent i goddammit #SORRY THIS BECAME A RAMBLE UM. THANK YOU VERY MUCH! #asks #anonymous #sometimes i forget that their actual interactions probably amount to no more than 6 or 7 times in canon and the rest is just in my head #that and i just think its rather nice for both of their characters to get along!! romantic or platonic #really sweet to see midori so pumped up and passionate about the things he loves and yuzuru getting thrown off his rhythm of the always #perfect butler who resigns himself into the background most of the time. theyre just having fun!!! silly guys #and yuzuru rly does enjoy art and nonsensical doodles even if people generally find it horrifying midori loves them wholeheartedly its. yea #okay im still rambling. ill shut up now i havent slept properly in a bed in nearly 48 hours i should go do that

[lastparty]

marianne, he said. i'm not a religious person but i do sometimes think god made you for me.

#well the THING IS i see that the push and pull on again off again will they wont they situationing of this book is not for everyone #but i am taken in by it yes... i dont rly think will they wont they is right though because it wasnt about whether they will get together #it's that people can really change each other. connell saying he changed bc of how he treated marianne in school #and both are changed even if they dont fall back tgt! connection is what every rooney novel is about but normal people is the most focalise #and yeah im not a religious person but i do sometimes think god made you for me + its not like this with other people + #you should go she says i'll always be here you know that

[volfoss]

finished the two short stories i needed to translate and summarize so :) thats exciting :) and then after that... i gotta write up my thoughts on everything and then make the most absurd tws known to man on my post :3 AND THEN. tomorrow :3 i get to start the devil of the earth (which. info link here). it is gonna be awesome minus being untranslated but i stay silly ok

#twist rambles #im not joking. its really scary for me #tzkposting #and THEN i get to read the devil of the earth next and goddd im so excited. that one SHOULD have a fan translation i do not care. like... i #has very high hopes to meeee :3 im gonna toss a link to a summary here if anyone wants to read it :) it seems really good tho idk #AND after that :3 i get to read his adaptation of cri/me and puni/shment. one of my fave books in middle school so :3 im stoked. and its #translated thank god. i have a little bit before i hit the really bad and dire stretch of um... i think 30 untransalted volumes back to bac #i will not make it out alive from this stretch i fear. but its ok :3 it has some stuff im rly looking forward to tho. so i will survive ok.

[spiritofjustice]

think i might have said something to this degree before but it's a shame Beau dies before he ever gets to meet/interact with Mimi. i think they could have kind of an endearing friendship, barring Beau being. yknow. her husband's affair partner KRKFN but ignoring that, she'd probably find him to be very funny and sweet, at least in small doses. i think they'd click to the point Vincent would feel weird about it lol.

i once thought abt an AU where Beau is alive long enough to go to New York n meet Mimi and i think that'd be fun horror all on its own, though. meeting someone that she initially really likes, then getting weird vibes about his relationship to her husband, and then the slow dawning realization of "something is deeply wrong with this man and i'm scared' while Vincent seems to be completely blind to the idea that anything is wrong and there's very little she can do. tis a fun concept. too bad i can't use it

#psy's no punctuation posts #SOBR tag #mimi augustus #beau rudolph #horror and frustration feel like a natural pairing. Mother! was pretty bad but the frustration tied to horror was SO good #and i think that's underrated. the feeling of someone being right but no one is listening or changing their mind no matter what is so scary #anyways back to general Beau and Meems stuff #long term i think she would eventually get pissed off at him for being so irresponsible #though she might also be more firm about trying to get him to clean his act up than Vincent is. and i wonder if that'd work #bcs ofc it's Mimi's job to mother this grown ass man in hopes of him getting his shit together. lmao #she doesn't need that drama KRJKF #BUT LIKE i rly do think they'd have a cute friendship if it doesn't get too deep. Beau would adore her too #also idk WHY i feel like Vincent would get weird about it. it's not like he doesn't like the idea of Beau and Meems getting along. #i think he wants them to get along and everyone to be happy but it triggers some odd jealousy in him #which i actually do kinda like Beau/Mimi as a concept. a casual relationship. so maybe Vincent SHOULD worry but KRJFH #she should worry more than anyone. dear god woman get out of there MKSDND #even if he isn't possessed it's just a really bad idea to get involved with him romantically lol #i ship Mimi with happiness and finding a man who can actually properly reciprocate her endless affection

[aq2003]

ive seen people all day say day of the doctor is a much better anniversary celebration special than the giggle. and its like i personally have my qualms with the giggle but god day of the doctor... first of all casting john hurt as the war doctor instead of it just being 8 or 9. yeah man why the fuck not just throw in a new doctor and completely fuck up the numbering system. why the fuck not. and then committing crimes against the lore like completely retconning the genocide and having all of 9 and 10s deeply tragic arcs be for nothing bc oh actually they didnt do all that morally complicated stuff they just thought they did. ok. bc god forbid he had to make a hard complicated devstating decision. and also committing crimes against 10th doctor by just making him a horny cocky little slut playboy and like is he a cocky slut Yes but Not In That Way. he would Not make that compensating jokes he may be flirty but as soon as anyone actually wants to fuck him he looks like a deer in headlights 99% of the time.

biggest crime of all of course is completely wasting smiths and tennants fun brotherly chemistry potential. there should be laws against wasting potential like that.

anyway this is to say day of the doctor was not Leagues better than the giggle. for the most part watching it, it felt like a weird circlejerk. people are blinded by nostalgia seeing their two favorite twink doctors in the same episode interact. they dont know how much better they deserved. the giggle is WAY better

now i have not watched day of the doctor yet bc i am very very slowly making my way though eleven's run (i'm watching it together w someone else) however this ask did wonders in making me want to kill steven m*ffat with a baseball bat

#i get the impression day of the doctor is like spider-man no way home. Which is a movie i dislike lmao #dr who #as a new fan i don't rly mind war doctor existing bc like. he exists. but i can also see how heartbreakingly sadder the timewar would be #if it was eight or nine rather than like a secret hidden war doctor #making it so the doctor didn't blow up gallifrey is . Hm. lmao. ok #someone go back in time and show m*ffat history by nikav on ao3 i think it would change his mind heart emoj #Im not even going to touch on that point abt ten. only that i wish that if a writer does not understand his asexual swag they should stay #at least 60 ft away from him at all times god bless #11 era

[shatteredfears-arch]

anyways normalize lucas surviving his death at the hands of chris bc wtf his dad survived like 20 times why tf not but also lucas being insanely pissed off bc ethan became the head of the strain and lucas wanted that shit

#out. #also we didnt see lucas calcify sO #i kinda wanna rewatch e/nd of z/oe for the lols tho bc wtf even was joe #joe is what chris should be at this point #rip them bitches up w yo bear hands #b e a r h a n d s #actually i shouldnt say that lrobably but i dont know the bi equivilant to bear #the gays that get it get it #the folks thatbdont i cant help you #i can.. but i dont want to #anYWAYS rly chris should be able to rip things apart bare handed now #disappoint chris disappoint #god i still cant get over how chris looks in 7 that is an iMPOSTER #ik he looks fifferent in every single game BUT IMPOSTER #u might have been my first chris but u aRE KOT CHRIS #alao clealy calcifying didnt actively mean SHIT cause jack came back aGAIN #ig its only permanant for margurite #/whistles innocently #can people tell how much sarcasm and joking energy js laced hwre or do i have to do more

[aiura-stan]

have I said that this is love is such a kuusuke and kusuo song on this blog before. I feel like I definitely have and just forgot about it

anyways I’ll say it again bc I’m thinking of it again: it’s so them

You're no good, you're no good You could kill me and you should I'm an idiot for thinking This was anything but blood

I got my knife, got my gun Let's see how fast you can run You might think that you can hurt me But the damage has been done

Forget everything you used to know I think you better tell your friends to go Stick around 'cause I'm about to show you The beginning is the end

#contrary to title its not a love song #lol #its about an abusive relationship ostensibly #from pov of the abuser #ive been looking thru my art WIPs and found one thats got lyrics from this song as the background #insert that picture of the guy with the sharp teeth biting down on his arm #i should finish my art. i say to myself. and then I don't #Ramblings #the only thing that rly doesnt fit is the ending #bc i think the song's supposed to be about a couple #w/ marriage gone sour etc #GOD okay I gotta get back to my work

[skitskatdacat63]

During the 2020 shut-in era, I basically only listened to Coldplay and god the amnt of emotional nostalgia I get from listening to their music is so

#the first 3 albums only btw 🥰🥰 #theres some songs i rly like from their other albums #but nothing has the gut punch of their first 3 for me #and i listened to them a lot while developing my main oc ship #so listening to these im like SOB SOB ECLIPOIR SOB SOB SOB #i even drew art of them w the lyrics.... #but now these songs are my go-to ship coded songs #so ofc listening to them now my brain is subconsciously trying to apply them to vettonso.... #tho something i think is very funny is how this music is pretty basic right? not a bad thing!!! but like very well known normal music #but of course when i listen to it im making these over dramatic animatics in my head to them #and once i looked at the lyrics explanation for a song cause i was curious #and the reasoning was something super boring related to chris martin's marriage and it ruined the song for a bit LMFAO #i cant be thinking abt them in that context okay 😭😭 theyre the songs thsy form the tapestry for basically every ship i have #blah blah blah typical catie moment of 'i dont listen to these songs in the NORMAL way' calm down... #anyways getting emo as always over this music sob sob sob #I just love that music can instantly transport you back to a specific time in your life or a specific thing #i think I also was into rainbow six when i listened to this music mainly 😭😭 so now ofc theyre popping into my head #also my god: Spies would be such a good Bond song and i refuse to believe they didnt write it w that in mind ;;;;; #maybe i should put more thought into what songs of theirs i could apply to vettonso... #i really need to make a playlist for them sometime :D #catie.rambling.txt

[upsidedowngrass]

that being said i WISH there were fics abt liam healing from one :( there are NONE and that is deeply sad . id write it myself (and i technically have done bits and pieces!) but i dont know if id ever upload it cus i dont know if i could do the concept justice!!

#the closest is like #post canon fics where he is happy :) #qnd thats ALSO good!!! #but they arent rly the same idea :( #that and yhe other closest fics are like. a good bit after he gets home #and similarly. these r also a cool ide! #but ALSO not the same thing #howd he get home? whered he go when he does? #does he contact any family? does he contact owen? does he find bryce again? #is his leg still broken? if it is. does that impact where he goes? #after he gets whereever hes going does he try to immediately go back to life as normal or does it take time? #if he contacts the other contestants when does he do this? how do they respond? #etc etc etc #i LOVE extremely specific details and indepth stories that examine a character #both what they do how they do it and WHY they do it #anyway. #god i should rly get like. a talking tag #just. i wanna see him realistically heal :( #bc THATS the hard part and i get WHY ppl dont usually write it bc its hard to convey super complex emotions!! #but also when i see a character and theyre miraculously Better Now (whether it be fully or not) my brain goes ok but how did they get here #and regardless of realism my brain treats it as not as realistic bc idk the steos the character took yknow!!! #and i wanna look at liam and see him recover and it genuinely feel real cus then im like ok phew. hes doing better now :) #ik i say this a lot but. i genuienly dont know if any of this makes sense </3 #AND ALSO THIS ISNT ME SAYING I DISLIKE ANY OF THE TYPES OF FICS I MENTIONED #i very much like them i also just rly!!! wanna read something that doesnt seem to exist yet yknow #caps in tags/ #ask to tag