#but i am going to unpack some of it

[thordy]

#I'm having feelings again. like some kind of season twelver #so much to unpack #non macden thoughts: I am so glad they're using devito again.... he's literally an A-list actor yet for the last few seasons #frank has done nothing but a few one-liners... it's good to see peepaw shine again ❤️ #eating and spitting and swearing and beating birds to death.... et cetera #tbh everyone has kinda been out to pasture #I mean no of course standing in different locations and delivering washed up political opinions in your normal speaking voice is acting #go back to bed honey #anyway! wow. macdennis #feels like a good trade-off for the awful uncle jack content this season #I hope dennis explodes him for his mental health day #iasip

[martymcflown]

Sorry okay one last thing before I pass out. But I can't believe that the finale of Galavant, a musical comedy show with a fun cast of characters and a buttload of plot threads which was cancelled by season 2, was somehow more cohesive than this. Like more cohesive and narratively satisfying, I would argue. I'm really befuddled by this one guys.

#ofmd season 2 #ofmd s2 #ofmd spoilers #I'm not even unpacking the izzy stuff right now because honestly I'm more taken aback by the writing #like the pacing was so bad #and the extended cast basically got shafted which has been pointed out already #and i don't understand why you'd introduce all these various torches if you're going to extinguish all of them #like no consequences for anything i guess #what even was the point for some of this stuff #I've never had a season finale make me feel like I've just eaten some bad seafood #but here i am

[tollsoftheclockwerkbelle]

can we get a movie about tigeress alone and unpack all of that please

#kung fu panda #tigeress #ive been watching the movies again and like #is anybody else bothered about the fact that whenever there are emotional moments with Tigeress there is like. SO MUCH to unpack there #and they just go yup. and don't go back to touch that ever again #um wait! go back! i think we should explore that a little maybe? #like when Tigeress talks about punching the ironwood trees for training and feeling nothing now. but she says it in a way that.... idk. #and Po is like 'WOW THAT IS HARDCORE' and she's just 'Oh. Yeah... I guess so?' like.. babe. Do you need therapy? (the answer is yes btw) #Like. can we please talk about the fact that Po and Tigeress lived the SAME story but Po gets his happy endings and closures and payoffs #and Tigeress has to just... keep existing #until she gets written out of the narrative ig :/ #I love Po so much #<3 #but let's get some more love for Tigeress here too oh my god I am begging you please

[pepprs]

genuinely so angry and scared im shaking. how many other times this week this month this year have i been exposed without knowing it. do people even tell each other anymore. it’s just so grim. it’s so fucking grim

#purrs #delete later #covid19 #i am fighting for my fucking life every day to stay safe and to keep the people around me some of whom are disabled / chronically ill / #immunocompromised / medically vulnerable safe. i am fucking fighting for my life. it’s already hard that i am usually one of two people in #any given room still wearing a mask let alone an n95 mask. hard and bad enough that we get looks for wearing masks and people think im crazy #for my life still being on hold and for my family still basically never going anywhere. ITS FUCKING WORSE that we are still very much in the #throes of all of it and we are in constant physical and quite frankly EXISTENTIAL danger not only of getting sick / becoming (more) #disabled / literally fucking dying but also returning to the absolute hell of lockdown which while important was psychologically damaging in #ways that are difficult to even articulate. like not only have we as a society decided to not give a shit about unpacking all of that and #healing from the trauma and assuming everyone went through the same thing when we very much did not and to just send everybody back to #school and work because 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑capitalism🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 but we have ALSO decided to pretend like the freakish unceasing danger just doesn’t exist #anymore and to get rid of every tool we had available to keep us safe or at minimum make people have to pay exorbitant amounts of money to #access them because 🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑capitalism🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑 !!!!!!! im TIRED. im so fucking tired of it. i am so fucking exhausted and angry and scared. and i #HAVE the luxury and privilege of being able to afford n95 masks and covid tests and to be able to work a job that i can do remotely if i #need to and to not be disabled or immunocompromised. what makes me fucking furious is we decided to throw all the people who don’t have #that access or privilege under the fucking bus and forget about them lol. but what do you expect from a country rotten to its core the way #it is lol. im fucking despondent. why are we living in an incinerator. #* the lockdown(s) werent just important they were necessary. and arguably we should have another one even though if we do i genuinely fear #for my mental health both during and afterwards and quite frankly before. im tired. i am grateful for the life i live which has resulted in #part from the different things that have happened because of the pandemic but i also so desperately wish this never happened and every day I #think about what life would be like if it hadn’t happened. the grief of it all is unspeakably big.

[musical-chick-13]

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#the PROBLEM is. some properties I like I cannot even talk about my Criticisms™ because if I do it attracts people whose side I am NOT on #like in the case of a certain british procedural show adopting old mystery novels that went on hiatus a lot. I did not like season 4. #but that is not because The Ship didn't go canon and it CERTAINLY wasn't because I never thought any of the show was good in #the first place. and I don't like The Main Ship of the c-chibs era but it's because the way it was written was VERY much not for me. #it's not because I think the whole era is trash (that ship was really the ONLY part of it I didn't like I loved everything else) #I DO have beef with some of the choices in season 8 of The Gritty Deconstruction Fantasy Show but they sure weren't ANY of the issues #that anyone else had!!! and I don't think it retroactively ruined the whole show actually!!!!! #like it's just so frustrating. especially since sometimes I DO want to break down what I consider to be unfortunate writing choices. #and I DO want to complain sometimes! but so much of the discussion around various properties is taken up by me just. #trying to explain that I'm allowed to like it in the first place and defending why I don't think it's Unconditionally Bad #so I can't ever like. for example. discuss the deaths in 8x03 and my issues with THOSE as character endpoints #or why they killed mary and had her husband act terribly to her for no reason just before she died #or how shitty it was in the last era for me to see ANOTHER character be mentally ill but in the most unobtrusive palatable way possible #(and then also make that really weird comment about a previous love interest??? who WAS unpalatable in many ways--though not like. #canonically mentally ill. even if I and many other people are drawn to that interpretation.) #perHAPS I want to talk about my confusion over the story's handling of j/d for reasons that are not 'I hate these characters' or #'that's pRoBLeMaTiC and you shouldn't ship it because that's pRoBLeMaTiC' #maybe I WILL just make a 4-hour video essay unpacking all my Thoughts™ on that show. because people don't have to watch it! #they could just hit the back button!

[katierosefun]

writing the same original characters for six or seven years now is so fascinating and exciting because i know them better now because we’ve grown up together and also it’s exciting to draw new relationships and flesh out new relationships and understand just how they’re all connected and i am actively standing in front of my doc like this

#caroline talks #me at all hours btw #when i move into my new place #i’m gonna buy a cork board and a white board #one for school #and the other specifically for writing #so i can stand in front of it like the insane person I truly am #i can't express how much i love my original characters #in that i realized that one of my original characters just has a weird energy for everyone #and i've also been unpacking some stuff in the original characters #and i'm just like 'oh wow! the reason why i didn't know u as well when i was 16 was because 16 year old me would NOT have been able #to deal with ALL OF THESE ISSUES!!!' #ie. every single one of my original characters has some. really questionable coping mechanisms #me tired: can you guys just behave yourselves #my original characters: :))) we're all so sad and so angry right now! we are going to actively make ourselves worse #me: of course you are.

[tiffanylamps]

I want to create. With this heart, this mind, this sensitive soul, I was made to be a creative; engineered before broken down for parts. And yet, I am without. Without words, movement, image, or sound. No painter's brush, no click-clack of a typewriter, no red light of a darkroom. I am bursting with want, but these fingers are frozen; this mind shrouded in a mist so bleak, I find myself unable to see the path ahead.

15/11/23: i'm in my feels. the irony of this post isn't lost on me, i'm just indulging myself.

#chatty lamps #tmi tag #i want to make things #i want it to be fun #i want to unpack some of the shit i have inside me under all of this emotional matting* #i want to make something meaningful. i want it to be recieved well. i want others to give a shit. i want to give a shit. #i want to feel proud. ugh that's so dramatic. ignore that #i put on a playlist thinking it would be background music to read to and yet here i am writing this silly post #no more emotional music! i'm being too honest. ew i'm gonna go and be embarrassed in my little corner #love y'all #*matting as in hair matting. i've been watching a lot of animal grooming vids and i guess i'm making a connection between the #relief the animal feels when they have thick matting removed to the feeling of catharsis when creating or something idk #i'm not always this emo. promise.

[macadam]

This blog peaked in April of 2022

#really really wish I knew if there was even context for this or not #also Why didn’t I post this. the sentiment is so absolutely fucking insane #there is too much to unpack here #I think it’s important to state that whatever this post stemmed from.. I no longer have it #man I miss being so so so insane #I’ll get back into it again some day #it comes in waves. right now I am in my normal arc and life is incredibly boring #macs drafts #yup making a tag for it now… #so sad that instead of discord fun it’s now me going through my drafts #mac’s lonely arc. truly

[permanentreverie]

I HAVE NEVER BEEN A HAPPIER GIRL. EVER.

#I FINALLY FUCKING ORGANIZED MY BOOKSHELVES #I HAVE STRUGGLED TO COMPLETE THIS FOR 4 DAYS #FEELING SO BEHIND WITH MY OTHER SETTLING IN #DO YOU KNOW HOW PARTICULAR I AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #genuinely oh my goodness i am SO glad to have it done #and i actually am deciding to get rid of some books aksjsjdb #yes so that i can fit the books i do want on my shelves #but also just. realized some books i really have 0 interest in reading #and work is going well. it really really is. #i’m starting to understand it and i really like my boss #she decided to order pizza for lunch and so we all got something and when i asked her how much i owed her she said don’t worry about it :’) #and the one girl who is near my age she waved and smiled at me when i left 🥹 #so excited to continue unpacking tomorrow!!! hopefully i can put up some posters #lindsay posts

[muffinrag]

shout-out to everyone who followed my mildly melodramatic journey to the ER. I wish there had been something cool wrong with me, like "You twisted your tendon all the way around your rotator cuff" or "You torn the muscle in your ass in half." Unfortunately I have normal problems for a 27yo who's under too much stress and with some care & attention & a little bit of money I will be just fine and ultimately live a largely pain-free life

#attempting to take my emotions seriously is a nightmare #1. im embarrassed that i spent 4 hours in the er over some constipation and a UTI #2. im kind of disappointed that it wasnt more serious #(got a lot of unpacking to do on that one) #3. im relieved that it's an easy fix and that theres nothing seriously wrong with me #4. im feeling all manner of ways about quitting my job (but i am quite certain that i want to) #anyway im gonna go lie in bed. thanks for tuning in to Muffin's Trainwreck of a Life #love you #soliloquy #text

[possiblytracker]

valentines day became a lot more fun and less agonising to me as an ace-aro person after it finally clicked over the past few years that whatever the fuck happens today is what i make of it, and that can and does include loving and appreciating the shit out of the friends ive decided i'd like to spend my life with in a way that i can define on my own terms not limited to the generic concept of romance. which i absolutely revel in doing, personally

#first and last post im gonna make about it BUT #kinda wild as a kid who got picked on on vday and got Insanely bitter abt the whole holiday for most of my teenage years #and coped by being 'totally fine with' the idea of living and dying alone bc who could Possibly want to get that close on my terms #that im here now and actually vibing with it #and like. if you hate vday personally i am giving you a pat on the back in solidarity. me too still for the most part #i am not going to be annoying about it for your sakes i respect you so much. best of luck avoiding Designated Love Day #but i am personally reclaiming this shit as a semi-recently discovered Bitch Who Yearns. #what a nice day to consider love in all its incredible forms! how great to remember i love and am loved in return #despite the years and years of thinking it just wasnt something that even loosely applied to me #funny how that works out sometimes. that im still learning things about myself #(some of this is slightly exaggerated ofc i have and have had friends who mean a Lot to me throughout! when i say 'alone' i dont mean Alone #(but it is still only recently ive started to unpack the 'i dont Need to bond that closely with people im Fine to live on my own' kinda #shit that i internalised for a stupid long time as a teenager #maybe i Do want to spend my life with other people in my own queerplatonic way and not only are there people who want that with me #but also make me want it with Them. and thats more than i could ever have imagined as a teenager) #ok tags ramble over im done getting sentimental khgCSDJ

[xoxoemynn]

just got home from my work trip which was overall lovely but exhausting and now I want to clone myself and make my clone be productive while I go bury myself in quicksand for a bit

#personal #you get me? #like I'm wiped but I feel like being wrapped in a billion weighted blankets could fix me #I tried to unpack but tripped and fell into my bed and took a nap and now I just don't what or who I am #would like to finish unpacking would like to do some tidying would like to write #would like to go wahhh wahhhh wahhhhh and whine into my pillow #I should be able to do all these things

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

reading literally anything to do with john and his balls-out violent racism (and ableism!) toward both adam and mogadorians in general from roughly RoS onward like

#lorien legacies #LL john smith #adamus sutekh #LL mogadorians #racism cw #ableism cw #LL tag #LL crit tag #fuck off john #went back to look through some scenes that had previously been in the #'let's put that suitcase aside for now because there is So Much to unpack in this series already and jesus christ lmao' #literally had to immediately get up and walk away for a bit because it was that fucking infuriating #flames! on the side of my face! #!!!!!!!!!! #i am going to eat some cabbage soup and cool off a bit because lmao

[musical-chick-13]

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#idk it's just really frustrating to think that people will ALWAYS make allowances for people they're romantically in love with but #not make those same allowances for someone else they otherwise care about. #that people will risk things for their partners that they wouldn't for their friends #that it's EXPECTED for you to prioritize your spouse/significant other/etc. at all times but prioritizing your friend(s) is rarely even #considered. and when you're like me and you LITERALLY CANNOT DO THIS SHIT BY YOURSELF... #like I know I go on and on about marrying some theoretical woman all the time (and my ongoing...whatever this is. with Musician Guy) #but genuinely I'm not even sure that I want that I think I just want someone who will fucking visit me in the hospital if I get into a car #crash or fix me soup when I'm sick. #like...yeah. in that one story I wrote I think I distilled it down: we all just want someone to hold us when we're sad #and it SUCKS that the only avenue we seem to be allowed to pursue that is through a romantic relationship #right now I have my dad but if something happens to him...I genuinely do not know what I'm going to do. I'll have nowhere to go #if something terrible happens. I'll have no one to help me be a person. and I just. like I really am going to just have to power through #the next 60 years on this fucking planet alone and by god I'll fucking do it but I wish I didn't have to!!!! #and I think this was why the loss of Her™ friendship (which was necessary. for both of us) was so acutely painful. because even after #she got married she WAS willing to prioritize me when things got bad enough. she DID genuinely care about me in a way I don't think #anyone ever has. and I just really don't think I'll ever find that ever again. and I can't go back and I don't WANT to be with her anymore #but it was this time of the year when she told me she was getting married way back when and my brain has kept that like the World's Worst #Anniversary and all of those terrible ugly feelings are coming back in full force and I HATE that I'm still unpacking this I. HATE. that #this not-even-relationship is STILL doing this to me #WHAT THE FUCK!!! IS UP WITH THAT!!!!!! #*sigh* okay for REAL I am logging off right now because I've already said Too Many Embarrassing Personal Things about myself today #and I do not want to put myself in a position to say anymore! #In the Vents #GOD this is so stupid IT'S NOT LIKE SOMEBODY DIED WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS

[the-heaminator]

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#I'm sorry I'm just going to gush about how good my friends are to me like. I dont deserve this I'm a fucking walking disaster yet they stay #By me even when I get violent and scared for petty much no reason #I can talk to my friends about far more than I can talk to my parents and they can make me laugh as I'm describing some rather disheartenin #Things that I've gone through. And I haven't really been through all that much comparatively. But I've still Gone Through It quite a few #Times and they fucking help me unpack things and deal with things they dont mind when I get scared and violent or anxious and overly clingy #And half the time they're better at understanding why I'm the way that I am at that moment then I am #they manage to understand my broken explanations and gestures. They dont mind when I ask for hugs and prolong them just because I can #I am many things. Deserving isnt one of them. Yet they stay and help me. I'm a burden sometimes. Really oftentimes. Yet they stay #I'm sorry I'm just feeling emotional as all fuck I'm sorry🥺 #I would be so worse off without them. They'd probably be better off without me. Yet they say their lives wouldn't be the same without me #And just aaaaaa I love them so much #The heam speaks #Using tumblr as a diary I see

[khalesci]

today the mood is personally beefing with george because of certain things he wrote into the first book and how there were moments where he genuinely attempted to justify everything drogo was doing to dany with throwaway shit along the lines of "well she liked it sometimes"

#♛ ooc. ⊱ ❝ 𝘖𝘩 𝘯𝘰 𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘔𝘢𝘳𝘪. ❞ #abuse tw #I don't even know where to begin unpacking that and honestly I don't think I want to #bc truly some of his decisions regarding dany in the books are SO vile #like yes sometimes he did hit the mark and show the reality of her having to convince herself that her situation was okay #and that really this was more akin to something like 'stockholm syndrome' than anything #but he ruins whatever point he was trying to make with certain scenes that blatantly f*tishize her and her relationship with drogo #which on a broader point is part of why I have a MASSIVE issue with the ages he chooses for his characters #bc it's really fucking gross to highlight a character's young age for shock value #then turn around and immediately forget about that to write them like an adult and f*tishize them in a way that gives NOTHING to that point #that's why I *always* prefer the show's timeline and ages better because you can still have that narrative and make it impactful #without being extremely fucking gross about a character and then being like 'lol they're 15 :)' #I need to stop myself or these tags will be a mile long but damn I am feeling this so strongly again today #like trust me I could go into detail about both of these things and why they don't sit well with me #but I will protect the dash's eyes esp for those who haven't read the atrocities in the books sdfjfsdjlkllkj