#but spending more is scary ! ! ! !

[frecklystars]

I know stsc isn’t one of your main f/os anymore, but I was binging TFP while putting together a cosplay and every time he popped up, I just thought “yeah this is what he does when keri isn’t around.” sorry if that’s weird T-T but your s/i feels like a part of the show to me now

Aww... thank you for saying that. That's not weird, that's sweet 😭😭 wow I'm gonna cry

I miss my starlight so bad. I'm really touched you still think I'm a part of that world. I feel like a part of my heart is still "in" the TFP universe and stuck there, even though it hurts so bad. but it was my greatest comfort I've ever had, and I have had sooo many amazing experiences and opportunities because of TF, it's going to take me a really long time to fully let go of it. but I don't know what's better for my mental health: never touching it ever again (which I've tried since July 2023, it has NOT worked, in fact it has just made me more miserable) or I can try reclaiming it slowly over time (difficult asf I am literally physically ill every time I look at it or think of it). I feel like I can't win here lol. I'll uhhh.... I'll figure something out.

Learning how to make literally hundreds of these characters Not A Trigger Anymore is gonna be super fucking hard, but it's kind messages like this one that make me miss it the most. I don't want my view of TF to stay the same, I want to make it Better, I don't know how though. But nice asks like yours always make me want to do that. i'm a mess rn... "this is what he does when Keri's not around" I always used to think that too!!! haha I always used to think "aww my s/i is off in another dimension and he's committing crimes 🥰🥰" agh... I remember the Red Energon centered episodes were my favorite because I always thought of him making me that necklace from a shard of it. I still have it packed away in a box, I still have starflower seeds I never planted. I used to watch those episodes religiously and heave this big loving SIGH because the idea of him gifting me that and me saying "aw, that's so nice, ty" and he's like "...yes I'm being... nice" and he hisses it like it's a swear word... used to make me feel so good. that's when we'd become Official™. I had it all planned out... Rock Bottom was when we'd finally become friends, Operation BB episodes is when we'd start meeting in the starflower meadow... sometime around Armada we'd have this mutual pining thing going on...

;-; tell my Starlight and my Honeybee that I miss them more than anything and I will come home someday. please. and thank you so much for sending me this ❤

AGH you know what, I can put this under a readmore so I won't accidentally trigger myself with it if I see it tomorrow and I'm in a bad headspace or something. I miss him!!! look at him. ahh. he is everything to me even though its like there's this huge invisible force field around TF that makes me feel like I cannot touch it. he is so-- god. look at him. he's so beautiful. there is nobody I'm gonna love like i've loved him.

i even remember when i made this gif, i was just. ahh. so full of butterflies. that feels so long ago. i miss him!! and!!! i am gonna get him back one day. i just don't know how. 😭 but god damn it ONE day!!!! we were engaged, damn it!!!

anyway. i'm so sorry to ramble holy shit. but thank you so much for thinking of me when rewatching TFP ;-; that means so much to me... makes me feel like I really am still meant to Be There, even if i'm so far away from it now. i was conditioned into believing my ship with him was just some foolish, stupid joke, like I've just been kidding myself for years and there's no way any of the robots wouldn't harm me or do horrible things to me, let alone love me. but this message suckerpunched me in the heart guts like a "hey wait a minute" kind of feeling. ok ok I'll shut up now. i love you anon.

also, your cosplay is gonna be absolutely amazing, i hope you have fun putting it together!!

#anonymous #asks #keepsake #how did you manage to send this when i was in the middle of drawing for my reclaiming robots tag #i was drawing HW and shaking and then i see this in my inbox and im like OGHOGH #its a sign 🥺 maybe. #and i think the TF movie coming out literally ON my birthday this year is a sign too #a good sign!!! [beating back my pessimism with a broom] #i have zero clue how to reclaim these F/Os but mark my fuckin words I WILL DO IT #because refusing to interact with TF has just made me more miserable bc it's EVERYWHERE #i cannot escape it. i literally feel like ryan gosling's papyrus skit 😭 #where steven cannot escape papyrus no matter where he goes and he spends decades being HAUNTED by it #that's me with scary alien robots apparently #and if i have to be fucking haunted seeing Optimus on airheads at the gas station #then by god i need to be okay with seeing Optimus on airheads at the gas station. #and then one day maybe years from now i'll feel Excited seeing my husband Optimus on airheads at the fucking gas station

[ivypond11]

can we sign a petition form for sparrow to adopt all of the teens especially scary and link. taylor can hang out because nick is also there

#i know scary still has veronica but #i think it would be near if her and normal could spend all of their time together yknow #link is angry with grant so he just hangs out at the swallows oak garcia house all the time too #and taylor doesn't want to feel left out so he joins #sparrow never thought of hismelf as a good dad and suddenly now he has three more kids looking for his comfort and advice #dndads #dndads s2 #dungeons and daddies #scary marlowe #normal oak swallows garcia #lincoln li wilson #taylor swift dndads #sparrow oak garcia

[automatonknight]

wow the caves in minecraft are fucking awesome now are you kidding me

#i mean there were awesome before but like. now there's structure and shit #i'm more of a miner than a crafter so this is delightful to see #i also happen to have a kick ass cave right under where i want to build my base #<want to because i haven't done anything yet lol. ooh i;m just going to find some iron. you're going to spend the next hour wandering aroun #<also it played the cave sound and WHAT THE FUCK...that's so scary help #lalalala i love my tranquil and peaceful experience oh my god what was that i'm going to die #aaaand before anyone assumes i'm also very brave i play on peaceful 👍 hashtag i'm so scared of everything

[mildmayfoxe]

while i was out shopping i also ended up stumbling into an opening party where the nicest woman in the world had several of her close personal friends in her new store celebrating and drinking wine & i was immediately also offered wine while i shopped to which i of course said yes (sparkling rose, who could say no) despite already having two bags in my hands and having a mask on so then i had to juggle my bags into my backpack and took my mask off for a sec to take a sip of the wine before i put it back on and meanwhile more of this woman’s personal friends are showing up and cheering and excited to see each other & im just there trying to skulk around looking for something reasonably priced to purchase because of course everything is $50 ethically sourced linen napkins and artisan perfumes and little fancy espresso cup sets and stuff (you know the place) so i can buy something to make up for this surely expensive wine i’m clutching. and the owner keeps coming over to check on me & im like “sorry i feel like i’m crashing your party haha” and she keeps trying to tell me about where all the stuff in her store comes from & also the person who made this perfume is here right now that’s her and do you have any questions about anything and meanwhile i’ve picked up a box of taper candles because my sister mentioned wanting some and the owner says “can i start a pile for you at the register :)” and i go “actually i think i’m done haha” and then i let her sign me up for her mailing list because i feel guilty about the wine. for some reason i give her my full first name. she compliments my email for some reason. and at the end she says “it was so nice to meet you, please come back again :)” and i’m like “haha i will! thank you!” and then i go outside and i take my mask off and i drink the wine. and it’s great

#chatpost #very nice stuff in there just so expensive #that’s the kind of person that is like really truly suited for customer service. SO attentive and kind #it stresses me out lmfao. i’m sorry i’m too poor to not buy more stuff!! thank you for the wine!!! #i did actually think about buying some napkins for my sister bc they were actually $40 for two which isn’t TOO scary #but then i was like ‘i should get at least four napkins’ and the prospect of spending $80 when i already have other stuff for her seemed #crazy. but maybe next time

[solmints-messyocdiary]

Do I dare say... face claim for Vincenzo?

Honestly... Gin, thank you for introducing me to this actor, because he looks exactly how I picture Vincenzo to look like... it's kinda scary.

@tahlalilian

#oc: godfather vinny #oc: vincenzo marcianus caruso #the actor is called timothy omundson! #it's uncanny... it's scary ahaja #godfather is vinny is a bit more tan because of how much time he would spend outside in this sun #i literally drew vinny before even knowing who this man was

[dirt-str1der]

Yaoi has poisoned all of your fucking brains !!

#Yakuza HATEblog #i dont want to hear about the new yakuza trailer where kiryu proposed to soemone he wouldnnever do that thats so scary #also they refered to sayama as the cop lady like please show some respect to her she didnt be annoying for you to forget her #ive become homophobic now because i hated seeing a particular post so much like that will never happen you are crazy #like no this isnt how kzmj can win they have never even once considered a future together because kiryus foreplanning ended when he lost #his brother and majima has spent half her life waiting for saejima to come back like they have more important things to worry about #and kiryu is not able to share his kids with anybody he cant simultaneously raise haruka with someone he has to either be a single dad or an #absent dad no in between and sometimes haruka is left parentless in the middle of that mess but its not kiryus problem hes driving cars amd #beating people up .... well he does care sorry for insinuating he doesnt ... he thinks about his kids every day #but i guarantee you he does not think about majima every day i swear it to you he does not care about her that much !!! i have to forever #stress this doesnt mean that he hates majima but it simply means that shes not his priority AND SHE WILL NEVER BE !!! kiryu will never #risk it all just for a suckle on that majiwilly like he doesnt like her that much ... if kiryu didnt even give majima so much as a phonecall #when he was ignoring her the entirety of y3 AFTER tossing her back to the wolves just so he can play house at okinawa.. hes not going to #suddenly realise that he wants to spend the rest of his life with majima hes going to be pondering how miserable he is while beating the #fuck out of people because sorry i didnt actually pay attention to the gaiden stuff is kiryu a hitman now or some sort of mercenary either #way its so hot that hes paralleled by y0 majima because hes so depressed and wants to kill himself and forced to wear a nice suit and do #things he doesnt want to while being kept on a tight leash like hohooho ... have sex with me ...!!! #im going to kill him myself to put him out of his misery if i have to ... just let kiryu run off to america and join the cia im kidding but #wait i just thought of him actually running off and sayama pulling some strings in the force to keep people from looking for him because #shes like a bigshot cop now ... i think she should be able to cradle him gently and keep him like a show cat #a shivering wet penis in the rain and she takes him in and gives him a loving home ... i feel a little embarrassed talking about hetships #but the concept of kiryu just being in her house and living with her is making me laugh like wow ... hes straight now.... like obviously hes #still not going to be like lets get married 🥰 but sayama would want to... i believe that she could forge their documents so kiryu isnt an #illegal immigrant anymore and she gives him an american name so john yakuza can become real ... its like a fake dating au but they really #arent dating theyre just having sex and acting out scenes from a kdrama but eventually kiryu will have to go back because hes so sad #without his kids and he needs to see them one last time to pass away peacefully. sorry i just remembered how much older kiryu was than #sayama like thats a bit funny ... like i still think kiryu should be into older guys or girls but like we cant always have that happen #like how majimas options for getting fucked by creepy old guys are getting lesser year by year because those old geezers keep dying and hes #old now too ... like theyre so old thats fucked. i know ive been saying how kzmj can never win but i do think majima should breastfeed kiryu

[pipiezexal]

I think it's really important that soon after the reveal that Toshiro hated Laios the entire time they were adventuring together and just never said so, Kabru makes clear, in a way that Laois understands, that he intends to meet Laios again. He's crafting his words very carefully (in the English "I'm glad that we met. I got so much out of talking to you.") but by god he means them and he's not just being polite.

Laios has just learned someone he thought was a dear friend couldn't stand him, which is painful to watch and has resonated with lots of neurodivergent viewers, but that realization is followed with proof that there are and will be people that care about Laios as he is: here's another character, one who's great with people, making the effort to know Laios and establishing that he wants to continue knowing Laios.

#dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi spoilers #i've tried to remain anime only for this analysis #but i do think it hits a lot harder if you've read the manga #idk i just see a lot of people talking about how much the shuro scene hurts #and it really. really does #it's scary to imagine yourself in Laios position #and sad to know that you have been #but i feel like it's just. important that that scene is not in a vacuum #there might be people who don't communicate with you #or don't communicate in a way that you understand #but there will also be people that love you in spite of and more importantly for how you are #and there will always be people that see you as you are and want to spend more time with you #anyway if your first kabru thought is 'but he wanted to kill laios' did he. #or was that the part of his brain trying to navigate a social encounter when his conversation partner went wildly off script #kabru is trying to minmax conversation and laios is not cooperating and that's short circuiting kabru's brain #anyway i also have toshiro thoughts and that's that he's not being cruel or a bad person #and it's honestly a testament to both laios and toshiro's character that they have this conversation #and then still work together afterwards in some capacity--arguably better so now that they've been able to have this conversation

[marc--chilton]

still losing my mind at the way houses relationship with john would have fucked up the way he sees being an omega. just,,, teen house, young and confused, experiencing these absoloutely brutal heats. not understanding why they are so bad and hard when theyre supposed to be a time where an omega feels good. already feeling broken and wrong, and then having to face john's anger and disappointment over him being an omega

like i can only imagine how it would affect him in heat, a time where he would be less able to think coherently. and constantly remembering how traumatic and horrible his heats as a teen were, the memory making him feel bad and in turn making him feel physically worse. just like,,, a constant feedback loop of remembering and feeling bad -> feeling physically worse in turn -> reminding himself even more of his childhood and feeling worse

i feel like after having to deal with his first few heats without a strong family net to acclimate to the changes, once house is outta there and doing his own thing he tries to never deal with his heats alone. he marks his cycle religiously, makes deals with alphas in med school to help him through them, or even finds street suppressants if he's especially desperate.

man. you just know john has put him outside for some of his heats, too. nothing to nest with, no scent blocking patches, just left him in the yard like a sacrificial lamb. it goes without saying how dangerous that is.

hell, once he's employed i wouldn't be surprised if he stole something from the hospital to bring home in case a heat comes up that he can't deal with, something that'll knock him out for the worst of it.

#asks #certified-moth #house md #writing a fic that is basically just heat whump for a lot of it as i type this #house's heats are bad always it's just how it is for him #but once he has the infarction it's even worse #his leg becomes another focal point for pain to localize to and the scar is so severe that when he's in heat #it runs scary hot. like where the muscle is missing sits just a molten core of pure agony #fainting spells and delirium become new side effects as a result #it is a pathetic miserable sight and he WANTS to be alone so no one can see him like that #but dealing with them alone is torture so he just doesn't win. it fucks with his issues of self #something else to resent about his body #he and wilson develop a fairly solid unofficial........ thing early on in their friendship #it would have taken wilson more convincing had he not witnessed the effects himself and got his caretaker heart twanging #even when he's married. which doesn't necessarily mean he's cheating but uh. it doesn't help in his case #all of it compounds into a very big mess that does not help the success rates of his marriages #goes to show how much more time wilson spends with house than his wives when he's more synced with house than them #now THAT is an offense. THAT'S what can get feelings hurt #it makes him feel bad but he tries to reassure himself by comparing their heats to house's. they don't understand how bad it is #<- probably the cause of several arguments #wilson trying to get bonnie or julie to understand why he Needs to do this and bristling when they Just Don't Get It #“house didn't break up our marriage but he sure didn't help” etc #mgv

[sharkomen]

i've run out of poetic words to describe what happened to me, it just is something that was

#stupid woman spending most of her time today talking about the big bad scary people on the streets #and then she starts talking about someone who faced it at home so casually #victims are worth more than just being a statement in your personal safety discussion #it is not your stupid job to tell us what happened to those people. if they want to speak then please let them use their own words #and stop painting us as fucking helpless. just bc I'm hurt doesn't mean I'm such helpless wounded animal

[tragedy-peanut-gallery]

I keep getting recommended posts hating on Sansa and idk why cause I never interact with those posts like- I don’t hate the fictional thirteen year old y’all LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!

#i barely talk about the main series here!!! #and I’m definitely not spending my time debating which middle schooler is more evil?? please keep me away from these debates- #they’re scary 🥲

[kidrat]

stormlight could be so fucking cool if sanderson leant into the body horror/transformation/loss of humanity aspects of radiancy. Like there was that great post a while back about how terrifying it must be to feel your body heal itself from being completely crushed, and plenty of people have commented on how unsettling it is that these powers change parts of your physical appearance (eyes) without you willing it. But consider also the fear of breaking your vows, of feeling watched by a force that's assigned a moral code to you and is holding a strange life hostage to keep you behaving. consider the potential of having had a nahel bond so long that the absence of your spren feels disturbing, that you're more like one creature. That you realise one day you cannot relate to those without one. Consider lightweavers who find it near physically impossible to lie, such is their obsessive commitment to the truth, windrunners who spend days hovering in the clouds, keeping watch, eyes glazed over. Imagine Radiants glowing and it chilling you right to the bone, even though you know these people (people?) are your protectors. Imagine trying to hold back your next oath (because it brings back too many painful memories, because you're not sure you believe it, because this is all spiralling and you don't want it, because the more Radiant you become the more you are recognised as something Other) and having to fight for weeks to not let the words out, feeling them be spoken anyway, saying them all in one breath, babbling them incoherently, your head tipping back as you speak them like a prayer- I know it's not the story that's being told, but I cannot help but think about it.

#that terrifying hold light thing renarin did was [chefs kiss] #also obvs when kaladin almost lost syl because HIS morals didnt match the ideal #its scary! we cld spend more time w moments like that methinks #stormlight meta #stormlight archive #mine

[cak31ssuperi04]

Do you have any general hcs of the 1bit/1beat cast? Anythings fine

Kind of rough but

-I've played around with the idea with Eruno being from an orphanage/foster home(the "because you've got a proper family" bit) but I go back and forth on this one.

-Nio and Sakuma are friends! He does shifts at Bitwave they hang out there. The poor boy needs someone to fend off the fangirls.

-Eruno and Akitaka accompany Haruya on deliveries sometimes. Pals.

-When Aira's mimetic muscles get installed she doesn't really quite get how to use them immediately. Her expressions start out real stiff(which she expresses dissatisfaction with, and gets help from the others) to real exaggerated and overplayed(think unbridled rage or pained anguish at things that just kind of annoy her).

-Also she has Kiri make her taller so she can grow alongside her friends!

-Also Also by 1beat she has at LEAST one sibling who's just, a really muscled out doll in frilly clothes.

-Meru listens to death metal. She'd hoped it'd help her stay up better but now she just kind of likes it.

-Outside of tending to the shrine, Hakuhi has embroidery as a hobby.

-Izuchi took piano lessons when he was younger(parents made him do it to try and play up the prodigy genius image). He quit.

-That potion thing he made in 1beat was ripped from Kirai's anime but in part he'd made it after Eruno came to him Demanding a way to make her dog live longer.

-He went to Blue sun college(less because he thought he needed to and more for the benefits a degree there would give him) and got into an apprenticeship with Kiri. He keeps the lab when Kiri moves to Coco Alley(easier to skirt by the law). Familiar with the Blue Sun Trio to some extent.

-He has a sweet tooth but doesn't really admit it because he deems it unhealthy.

-While he did have a hand in the creation of the master program, he doesn't stay on the team after it's finished. Does continue to get occasional updates about it from Hiyu and Nanase though.

-His room is all clean and organized on the surface(maybe a few seashell displays, a poster covering a hole in the wall) but he keeps all the goofy weird shit stored away in drawers and under his bed.*

-I've played around with the idea of there being a 3rd Nasuga sibling who's just too young to be relevant in the game(<-no canon basis i just thought it'd be fun) but I'm not sure if I'd keep that.

-Enri has a pet hamster! He's like the band's son.

-The gang Kirara used to be a part of was like a sparkly gyaru girl gang. She never really enjoyed fighting but took a lot of lessons growing up so she was really good at it. The gang is still going strong though and at least a few of her Gyaru Friends are members(and there's at least one member who's just a plain normal ass girl that hangs around them but that's getting into oc territory).

-Rocca ends up growing up to be like Really Fucking Tall. Momori models clothes on her and remarks that she could be a model if she didn't trip over herself so much(not that she'd want to be one anyways).

-Mary has 3 siblings, they've done a way better job at staying out of the public eye(and have grown somewhat distant from her as a result).

-On account of being friends with a lot of the townspeople and having a lot of relatives, Hitohito is just one of those guys with a lot of connections. In a "guy who knows a guy" way.

-Chino is Coco Alley's mom jkasdsa.

--She brings Sora(was familiar with his family and doesn't want him to get too lonely) cookies and flowers sometimes and while he's dismissive about it he does secretly appreciate it.

-Tobari is the heiress to a big tea emporium who dipped because she got bored and/or got into a disagreement with someone over there, but continues playing up her Elegant Fancy Lady image despite living paycheck to paycheck(which I mean, good for her I guess.)

-Although Sagara knows Asuto through Hitohito, they actually interact fairly regularly in anime forums.

-Hitohito, Izuchi, and Sagara were on friendly terms when they were kids but grew distant for reasons. Hitohito and Sagara had gotten back in touch and still hang out. Heat reached out to Izuchi but was promptly brushed off, still looks out for him. Izuchi and Sagara have a weird frenemy/rival thing going on.

-Sagara has no siblings she just kind of lives alone with her mom who may or may not hate her.(although it's less "hate" so much as disappointment)

-Sagara's chicken avatar is modeled after one of her childhood pets.

-Sagara definitely Naruto runs.

-She holds DnD(\Dnd adjacent. Just some ttrpg I'm not an expert) sessions at every couple of weeks. I'm not saying Izuchi willingly participates(those commoners are hopeless without his guidance), just that she didn't exactly have very many other people to invite(Hitohito and sometimes Meu and eventually Nanashi).

-She has a knack for trying to help townspeople as part of some sort of Magical Girl Code but isn't as good at it as she thinks she is.

-She has a compartment in her arm warmers that's full of bird feed, she's made an alliance with the pigeons.

-While she does cool it with the Organization stuff, she never drops the chuuni behavior. Eventually opens a small cake shop with some edgy chuuni-esque title(debated on whether it should be in the same place Little Berry was, like after little berry closes its doors).

-Nomiya and Hiyu butt heads a lot but they both get along fine with Azusa. Somebody needs to be nice to her god damn it.

-The Kujohs have a pet dog but it's actually Azusa's. Following with the rest of the family, it's a big intimidating dog that's actually just really chill. Enri has tried to look past it but he's always very leery about visiting them.

-Nomiya's riding an adrenaline high throughout most of the game but his more calm demeanor in his events is just him going in the opposite extreme as a result of coming down from it. He's usually fairly loud and confrontational, just not THAT loud and confrontational.

-He keeps in closest touch with Tobari after the hackers are disbanded. Somewhat on account of her being able to hold her own in Break Passage the best out of the other three. She views him as a weird little brother.

-The hackers hold gatherings in memory(or what little of that memory they even retained. It's mostly secondhand from Nanashi) of Mikado where they commit minor crimes. The gathering was Kotora's idea the crime was Nomiya's.

-Sagara has a journal that she calls the Abyss Tome that's just full of fanfiction and anime drawings of herself and her friends(/enemies). Has a bunch of spell names listed down in it.

-Saaya and Meu are friends! Saaya comes to her for divinations about her love life a lot and just ends up venting. Meu's happy to listen though and tries to comfort her the best she can.

-Speaking of therapy though, Saaya does get therapy sometime post-canon and distances herself from Nanase(while a lot of Nanashi's friendships that start off on the wrong foot have room for growth, the memory thing makes things kind of... weird with her). She's in a much better state by 1beat.

-Saaya writes a lot of poetry.

-Yoh and Sagara are related. Somehow(I did consider nephew at one point but that didn't really pan out).

-So are Hiyu and Arumu. They've got that green hair and funky eyebrows.

-Akuta and Kaori date briefly(well, she's a fan of his work, and he is rich, and while he can't speak multiple languages he is well-spoken, what could go wrong?) which just ends in them breaking up over a disagreement over a book's ending. That was more the final straw though, actually getting to know him put into perspective just how far from her expectations he actually is and she's not super pleased about it. They do stay friends but something something important lesson about your idols being people.

-I feel like I've said somewhere that Kotora leaves the cafe to Rocca when he retires but I need to clarify that Kotora keeps being the cafe guy well into old age and that Rocca would be a whole adult by then.

-Kaori was the youngest of her siblings and only one to stay with her mother, she sees her dad as a good for nothing deadbeat(it wasn't an amicable divorce) and the ordeal heavily influenced how she views romantic relationships as a whole. Grew up somewhat distant from Kotora and their sister but reconnected in adulthood.

-Her "ideal guy" is just the best traits of her favorite book leads cobbled together like some kind of frankenguy. (And she might be internalizing something... who knows)

-The world did enter a more 'cyberpunk dystopia'-esque futuristic state a long time ago and the return to more traditional old timey ways is sort of in response to that, but Yasune is the only one who'd actually lived through it. Although then again the 2nd oldest character in the game is only 36 so...

The post is starting to not process so I'm going to cut it off here.

#*The example I had listed on my hc file was 'life sized Danny Devito cardboard cutout' but I don't know if I want to keep that #The piano hc was more the remnant of a sweet beach band au I had because I was thinking about rainbow rocks again #Sweet beach is interestingly enough my go-to for aus. I've never even told you guys about the fantasy au #(they're just adventurers though it's nothing extravagant. It doesn't even cover all the characters) #Mary's parents were in the picture when she became an idol but her siblings were raised by their grandparents. #Tobari stays at hotels and spends most of her paycheck on fancy tea. #she's kind of ridiculous levels of Jack-Of-All-Trades but it helps that she's a fast learner #Chino wasn't incredibly close with Sora's parents(friends maybe) but that won't stop her from looking out for the boy. New son #Haruya was probably pals with his brother. Regardless of how he may have felt about Sora himself(scary) #Kirai probably made an offhanded comment about outgrowing everyone someday so he's really pissed when he ends up #shorter than both Haruya and Rocca #You probably were wanting more 1beat hcs but as much as I love the 1beat cast I've only replayed recently #so none of my thoughts about the cast are quite fully formed yet #Might make a follow up eventually though because the hc file is Long #Omitted most of the ones I've already talked about but since those are scattered about my tags and the server I probably #should've included some of those too. Feel free to ask for elaboration on anything #Some of them get kind of lengthy too and I left most of those out but I did leave a few in and just heavily handwaved the details #Some of the shorter ones were shortened too because the post just wouldn't process ashsaldhjka #pieceofcake.txt #cakeheadcanons

[dancing-with-stars]

guys. guys !!!!

#vanu is rambling #ok idk this is gonna b a happy post but i think there are lots of people who love me in this world. or at least enjoy my presence. #like i always always always ALWAYS doubt if my friends or family like me and in my head they all secretly hate me #but like for these past couple months things have been different. #i don’t feel so left out (like i usually do in groups) or alone. #like my friends genuinely want me there like they always ask me to go places with them. and i almost always say no because im so busy or #i just cant but they still ask me everytime. yesterday the whole group was calling and playing a game and i got a bunch of texts like hey #where are you u shud join the call it’s rly fun ! but i just couldn’t bring myself to talk to anyone at that moment. #today they were rly happy when i joined the call and idk it made me feel like. oh. maybe my friends do like me #and also i have two moods: i’m either super talkative or i go into my little shell and don’t say anything/add to a convo. and like during #those moments they’ll be like hey u ok? or they’ll just listen to me talk about ceramics and how fun it is or how much i hate eating pears #and like. we laugh so much together. like i have so much fun with all of them i love every single one of them omg #and scary thing is we might not even be friends after we start college. but yk what? that’s okay i don’t wanna think about that. #because like who cares? i’m not gonna let my fears ab the future ruin my friendships. i’ll always love them anyways. and we’ll always call. #i’m glad i met them. they’re all such beautiful and funny and amazing strong willed-people. they are my friends. #it’s just so crazy to me that they willingly want to spend time w me and are sad when i can’t. and they’re so understanding at the same time #they don’t get mad about it. and like they have mad eng last year in high school so much more enjoyable. #someone told me that this is ur last year do things so when you look back you don’t regret anything- so you can be proud of what you did #and my friends helped me with that. and like i still feel lonely the majority of the class because despite this there’s like a permanent #stain of sadness right there at the bottom of my heart. but they make the hard days more manageable. #like i’ve been on call with these people until ungodly hours at night just laughing and i go to sleep feeling a bit lighter. #they introduced me to the tech side of theater which i never thought i’d get into but here i am. they teach me silly facts and words in asl. #they taught me dances- knowing full well i SUCK at it- because we all had fun with it. theyve taught me it’s OKAY to be vulnerable in #friendships and that sometimes being open/yourself is quite literally the best thing you can do for your own soul and others. they’re cool #people really. really cool people

[angeltism]

terrified of it being valentine's day actually

#➳ the fool speaks #i won't confess . seriously . i am not gonna do it . #1 it'd be nice to get confessed TO since i tend to be the one doing it #2 i am getting more sure day by day that my feelings aren't requited so . i don't wanna embarrass myself #but uh . that means . either i get confessed to bythe person i like . or i don't . and that's . something i hold no control over #n i don't like that #scary #uncertainty #um . who knows maybe i'll get other confessions that'd be silly n fun . who knows ! #but also i don't wanna just assume i'll get one and then spend the whole day waiting for one n then #idfk . go to bed feeling empty bc i've gotten nothing #whatever there's still another few days i'm worrying too early in advance

[craycraybluejay]

i should get more method by smoking more weed + remembering the million times i got too fucked up and thought i was going to die or just very but not too fucked up and how it felt in the moment. the confusion, weird fixations, wack visuals, nausea, dissassociation, shame, real and vivid fear of death.

i can tell y'all i have had someone make active attempts on my life but there is no death as frightening as the idea of dying in a puddle of puke and other bodily fluids feeling so disoriented and so much physical pain and discomfort that you'd pay a million dollars to crawl directly out of your body. there's easier OD concepts to stomach like one depressants but the concept of dying on a psychedelic or an upper or even a stimulating dissociative is terrifying. or dying from contaminants which injure you a lot more than whatever you were meaning to take ever could.

i want to write angel having a seizure the way i did. i want to write him compulsively adding different substances because just the one isn't enough. i want to torture this lil guy as he tries and fails to save himself :3

#as i always say please test your drugs im begging you #delete later #getting too personal up in here #but fr the world of serious substance use is a crazy place to even visit let alone live in #the entirety of reality just does not work the same way #its beautiful and scary and you dont want to become a permanent resident there #but its a lot like toxic relationships and maladaptivelt returning to them over and over #i want to parallel angel's drug abuse with his relationship to valentino #because even if you OD or have some kind of serious problem from it or get spiked with something awful #chances are you will always have that curiosity and urge to try again. try more. different new novel fun #bc even when it feels like hell its a unique hell. and more importantly its not your life anymore #no worries about being abused or homeless or very sick if the drugs bring a whole new hell #sometimes when you almost die you just get grateful it wasnt the real world that almost killed you #sometimes when youve looked in the void you laugh at how ridiculous your pain and grief and life is #its all stupid! none of it matters! we are all going to die and your exit card from the real world is in a box of mints #idk. sometimes a drug is an enhancer of reality and sometimes a different reality altogether. a lot of the experience depends on why you #take it. if you get high socially youre going to lean into related effects more heavily. if you do it to escape or explore thats what youll #get. ive never had the level of Problem Angel does but I Get It. i get why #im too broke to sustain a Problem of that nature lmao. like ok if i spend all my money i can lose my mind for a week #then ill be withdrawing and hungover from 20 diff things and penniless. no ty #however i will rarely say no to sharesies ill suck ya dick for my DOC 👍 #JOKING. ish

[jackgoodfellow]

This is an excerpt from page 5 of 6 of this comic! (<- That's the tumblr link - the AO3 version has full image descriptions due to tumblr alt-text character limits.)

Please look at my beautiful darling Samo eating a delicious cake!~

#I need people to understand how much detail I put into this piece. #horror #body horror #my art #i escaped my genre #junji ito #ito junji #horror artist #junji ito maniac #terror #horror comedy #my goal was to draw the most upsetting picture of someone eating a cake ever made. I feel like I succeeded. #sure there may be other pics of people eating cake that include OTHER upsetting elements but the horror here is purely in the cake-eating #which I'm very proud of because I feel like eating a cake is one of the least scary things a person can do. hence why i chose it. #I have known for a long time that the art pieces I spend the most hours on will often get the least attention. #but this page deserves more than three notes damn it! #John carpenter #rob bottin #the thing 1982 #the thing #practical special effects #the cake face is inspired by the corpse they find at the beginning of The Thing #food cw #do you understand how hard it is to make something that detailed and horrific and then put actual line art onto it???? I DO. #and yet I still want to lick it #which i guess makes sense. samo IS my self-insert character after all. they are more feminine than me and i realized recently that #this is just what it looks like when I express my femininity apparently. XD that or doing drag. #if this pic viscerally upset you please tell me as that was the goal. tho ofc I don't want to cause anyone fear to the point of pain. #but also it would be nice to know that this is actually upsetting to look at. I've been looking at it for too long. #I am like pretty sure it's really good though and I want validation from the internet dang it!