#but tagging it anyway. just in case. sigh

[piratecaptainscaptainpirates]

Given all the really excellent and interesting talk about this recently, I wanted to write up a quick list of ways we see Izzy being consistently abusive to Ed in season 1, just so I have a handy post to link to the next time someone asks me "wait, how is Izzy abusive?"

(Again, I genuinely like Izzy. I think he's a great character, but dismissing how he behaves in s1 defangs him as a character, cheapens his s2 arc, and decontextualizes a lot of Ed's behavior.)

Izzy is shown as being emotionally abusive to Ed throughout season 1, because he:

Controls the information Ed has access to. In s1e3, we see Izzy tell Ed his own version of events, twisting them to suit his purposes. He does this so easily and cleanly it's clear he's probably been lying to Ed to manipulate his perception of events for a long time.

Isolates Ed from others. We do not see Ed talk to any crew members before s1e4, and even then, Izzy cuts the conversation short. He also prevents anyone from seeing Ed in s1e10 until Ed makes him ask for Lucius. In s2 Ed tells us that he knew very little about Fang despite having worked with him for 20 years - Izzy seems to make a habit of making Ed unapproachable.

On that note, Izzy insults and demeans Ed to other crew members, creating his own narrative around Ed's actions. He says he "massages" the crew when they're worried about Ed's judgment, but what he actually does is tell them Ed's "half-insane." He is creating a situation where Ed is reliant on Izzy for information and the crew feel like they need Izzy to interpret what he presents as the irrational demands of an insane man, even though we as the audience know Ed's behavior is never as erratic or irrational as Izzy makes it out to be.

Insults and demeans Ed to his face. Izzy is not shy about calling Ed insane and unpleasant to his face, and Ed doesn't seem surprised to hear it. I don't think it's a coincidence that Ed admits while he's in the gravy basket in s2 that he's scared he's insane - that's one of Izzy's favorite insults to apply to him and he's clearly internalized it.

Ignores Ed's feelings and wants when he's not acting the way Izzy believes is appropriate. We see Ed constantly reaching out to Izzy in s1e4 to share his thoughts and excitement, and Izzy shuts him down every time. Izzy's created a situation where Ed can only really talk to Izzy, and Ed is clearly desperate for human connection.

Pushes Ed to harm someone Ed loves, even when Izzy knows that Ed "adores" Stede and Stede makes him genuinely happy. Izzy is very insistant about getting Ed to kill Stede, even once it's obvious Ed has already deeply bonded with Stede.

Literally "buys" Ed in return for selling Stede out. This is just gross and unacceptable, not to mention wildly racist. Frankly I think Ed showed remarkable restraint for only punching him once.

Tries to get Stede killed in front of Ed, multiple times.

Obviously, threatens and mocks Ed when Ed isn't behaving "appropriately." When Ed is starting to feel better in s1e10, and is reaching out to the crew and connecting with them, and is painting his nails and singing and generally behaving in a much more feminine and emotionally available way than Izzy would prefer, Izzy threatens him to force him back into the hyper-masculine Blackbeard persona he knows Ed hates and Ed has said he wants to move past.

Goads Ed into violent behavior and is delighted when Ed is visibly upset. When Ed chokes Izzy, Izzy is laughing and grinning and generally having a very nice time while Ed's standing there with tears in his eyes and visibly terrified. He's very happy to have gotten the reaction he was trying to provoke and doesn't care about Ed's feelings.

So, take it all together, and we can see that Izzy has created an atmosphere where he has put himself in control of Ed and has further manipulated the crew so they look to Izzy as a filter for Ed's behavior so Izzy can completely control the narrative. When he thinks he's losing control of Ed, that's when Izzy tries to get Stede killed, without regard for Ed's emotions. Izzy consistently insults Ed, ignores his desires and feelings, and prioritizes his control over Ed's feelings.

Have I missed anything?

#ofmd #our flag means death #izzy critical #i don't really think this is izzy critical at all because i'm just talking about the character's canon actions in the text of the show #but tagging it anyway. just in case. sigh

[doodleodds]

royalty & fairy tale au’s are meant to be mixed and u can’t change my mind

Late shuake week 2022 day 3 - Royalty AU

#shuakeweek2022 #akechi goro #kurusu akira #I JUST REALLY LOVE SLEEPING BEAUTY OK #or well. i love the idea of 'sleeping curses.' idk why! they've always fascinated me #i used to be obsessed with aurora and snow white for that reason #and so here i am! as always! projecting this interest of mine onto my favorite characters :) #also for reference because i just realized how weird it reads: goro's gonna be in the tallest tower when he's cursed #that's why akira's got a reason to climb it. so. yeah #also in case you were wondering why i said 'see you tomorrow with more art' and then proceeded not to post for.....four days: #1) work decided that i'm going to be doing more hours so i now have very little free time; #2) i decided to actually try my hand at coloring again like an IDIOT and now here we are. sigh. coloring is hard #i was trying to hard not to just overdose on comic dots again lol & it resulted in this nonsense. me and my one very textured stone wall #ANYWAY lmao even though i missed like. every single day of akeshu week so far i'm still gonna be doing the prompts #just at my own pace! so. hopefully expect more art. soon. ish. hopefully not with another uhhh 2 month gap like last year lol #also quick fun fact since you made it this far in my tags! that second page originally wasn't supposed to be there! #i drew sleeping goro just cause i could and i was just gonna stick him under a read more but then i got attached lmao #and now he's in the main post! :D yayyyyyy goro #ANYWAY that was super long. thanks for reading & i hope u have a lovely day!!!!

[dreamsy990]

the freakshow (affectionate)

broken up version below the cut

#i was gonna color this then decided not to #anyways kinda fucked up how theyre orginization 13 and yet theres 14 members #anyways uh #shoutout to demyx for being my favorite major minor character #and larxene for kicking sora across a room #i dont like most of the ones that are like #major characters at the end of kh2? #like of them i think. saïx is cool i guess? #i think sora like. begging to see kairi and him being like 'well in that case. no' #that was funny #but the rest just werent really interesting to me #sigh larxene has more personality in her antennae things than xaldin has in his whole fucking body #anyways time to see if i can tag all these fuckers without googling them #xemnas #xigbar #xaldin #vexen #lexeaus #zexion #saïx #axel #demyx #luxord #marluxia #larxene #roxas #xion #doodles #kingdom hearts #organization xiii

[connorjesup]

It was in the blink of an eye. It was so sudden, it was inevitable. I couldn’t do anything.

EIEN NO KINO (2022) | EP 01

#eien no kino #eternal yesterday #eiennokinoedit #jdramaedit #lgbtedit #komiya rio #inoue sora #my gif #show: eternal yesterday #allenk #death for ts #flashing gifs for ts #idk just in case for the truck sorry for picking /this/ moment to gif sqmlkdhfqsdlkhf #not me being in every jdramas' businesses sqdfljshqdfkjqsdf im sorry #you're lucky i didn't start that 8loom cutie band show or that detective reibai show or the scamming scammers show yet #i started the van gogh one and i almost giffed one scene cause it was funny #anyway this is potato quality my gosh dramahd do not have my back for this one or kk sigh #anyway this gifset is a lie there is NO color in that show i am sorry to lie to you like this but yeah just a heads up #anyway you know how it is everything from the tag is in my queue so you'll get stuff about it in 2 months so just start it now hehehe

[official-lauchzwiebel]

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#finally wrote the doctor and asked for an appointment! yippie! #because genuinely. this is getting way too annoying #and i am so so kaputt #i hate the shame about bodies and bodily functions that's ingrained in our brains because bro!!! it's your body and its functions! #it's normal and nothing to be ashamed of!! #that being said it took me nearly a week to work up the courage lol #and i also thought that it might go away #in any case the first step is done #sigh #f talks #just realized the grammar is nor grammaring in my first tag #anyway that's how you recognise a german

[aeide-thea]

the thing abt this website (and really, every other website and also people irl) is that you'll be introduced to a new person who seems interesting (read: has some stuff to say that you agree with), and you'll think, ooh, maybe i should follow them! and then you'll check out their blog and realize, oh, fuck, right, they're the same person who was advocating 'systematic and targeted online harassment' of people who spread a message they dislike, as though that were either an acceptable way to behave or, for that matter, an effective way to convince anyone of anything—like, hello, if you harass your enemies they will shut their ears to you and become further entrenched in their current positions! also decent people will see what you're doing and distrust you even if your cause would otherwise earn their sympathy!

#and like. it's not a group or message i endorse either! that's not the point! #anyway tbd bc this IS vagueblogging it's just like. very frustrating #i very much want to like and respect people! wish they'd let me! #(a problem with the internet is that you run into dealbreakers much faster than you can build real bonds with people) #(and so you don't forge the kinds of relationships where you can say‚ hey‚ love you but that thing you said was pernicious actually!) #(so you just quietly unfollow‚ or don't follow in the first place‚ and no one learns anything from anyone else #that isn't already dreamt of in their existing philosophy) #(love my internet pals to bits but it really is like. in many cases we're not proper talk-things-out friends) #(and where we are‚ that's really developed in spite of the prevailing internet culture‚ i feel like‚ not because of it) #(like everyone talks this big dramatic game about Mutuals but so many of those [non-]relationships are really‚ like‚ mutually parasocial) #(they like your posts and you like theirs but nary a word is ever exchanged) #(so you don't get any practice at finding middle ground and figuring out what areas of disagreement you can push back at) #(you just either always-already-agree or silently part ways) #(anyway. these tags took a turn lmao) #(i'm just very conscious that this aspect of internet culture is not serving me) #(but like. what do you do about it?) #(still follow the person you think said something totally wrongheaded bc irl you wouldn't have been aware they'd said it?) #(maybe that IS where you start but like. then you end up with a dash that stresses you the fuck out‚ probably! so that's not the end of it. #(anyway.) #(sigh.)

[obstinaterixatrix]

see like 90% of the time I fall off a series when there’s an extended flashback but mdzs is like half flashback and gripped me by the throat the entire time and I think it’s because the flashbacks were context for the relationship (and contradicting wwx’s biases) (lol), like there was context for politics and worldbuilding but it was done mostly with the relationship as a focal point… meanwhile with uncanny charm there was a flashback with the brother and his little brother and the underworld guy which is all tangentially related to the main character but that was like. 7+ weeks without the mc + li like if I’m reading a romance I’m reading it for the romance. and I need to get back into legend of the fox bead which had like, I dunno, 6 weeks of li backstory but it’s not context I particularly care about because it’s primarily relationship context with the li + someone from the past, which does give an idea for why the li is who she is and also why she’s a spirit, but if I’m honest, I don’t particularly care. I think mdzs did it best because it’s very frustrating for the reader but still pulls you in, it’s a good balance of tension + momentum and it’s all relevant. a while ago a pal told me ‘yeah a lot of people hated the novel’s structure’ & I was like ‘????? tasteless. enjoy the hostile puzzle feeder of mxtx’s narrative.’

#orlbs #mdzslb #uclb #did I even have a tag for fox bead #misclb #anyway as a reader I like to do work but only if the rewards are relevant to my interests #I love hostile media as long as it’s being hostile For A Purpose #I say hostile here but in this case it’s more like. just intentionally taunting the reader lol #sigh… I never did actually finish listening to the audio drama #BC I DIDNT WANT IT TO END 😭😭😭 TRULY THE BEST ADAPTION

[everyones-least-favorite-bard]

idr if i posted this but i was dicking around on krita a while back and this fucker came out

#i was once again thinking about orv while making this #but its not orv enough to really tag for that #sighing. #just being clear i was thinking about secretive plotter #and like. he is forever watching #forever relegated to the sidelines of his own life #his only interference permissible through convoluted rules and red tape #anyways red and blue r forever my favorite color combo #art #eyestrain #tw eyestrain #just in case #bard draws

[notnarvvhal]

#; ooc #not a direct reference to leaks dw. this is old news #but still gonna tag just in case #genshin leaks cw #JBJXUHZKZJZHSNJXIFJZJS WHY IS MY BO Y LIKE THIS #anyways im old news childe has daddy issues and projects them on older men apparently #sighs walks away from the podium lays on the floor sleeps

[mayonaka-sunshine]

tomorrow is at least my last full day of school... waugh

#vent in tags #just in case bc i do mention bad stuff lmao #im so tired all the goddamn time... #i need to do stuff for my international uni but my dad made me feel like shit about it so now i'm putting it off for another few days :( #like yeah i know my sat scores fucking suck and im too dumb for college no need to rub it in lmao #yes i know i am going to go into debt to go to this school for the sole purpose of getting the FUCK away from you #if the debt gets too bad i'll just kill myself about it. whatever. #sigh. whatever. whatever whatever whatever. i'll do the stupid thing on friday and then i'll hope they accept me anyway #my dad is an exhausting person to be the child of...

[potahun]

Tagged by @sauvechouris and this was super fun! Thanks a lot! ^^ <3

Some of these were rly hard to choose and there were so many close calls but I tried to pick one each time hnnnggg except smut or fluff. Im sorry, i like smut WITH fluff and other things ;w; (angst or crack was out for my throat too. i tend to make everything into crack but i love to cry as well)

slow burn or love at first sight // fake dating or secret dating // enemies to lovers or best friends to lovers // oh no there’s only one bed or long-distance correspondence // hurt-comfort or amnesia // fantasy au or modern au // mutual pining or domestic bliss // smut or fluff // canon-compliant or fix-it // reincarnation or character death // one-shot or multi-chapter // kid fic or road trip fic // arranged marriage or accidental marriage // high school romance or middle aged romance // time travel or isolated together // neighbors or roommates // sci-fi au or magic au // body swap or gender bend // angst or crack // apocalyptic or mundane // hanahaki disease or soulmate au // police au or office au

the last one is a definite loud resounding OFFICE AU I LOVE OFFICE AUS GOD I NOW WANT AN OFFICE AU FOR THE BLORBOS.

My addition: plot or PWP ? =w= hehe

Tagging: @sazandorable , @presumenothing (i know you write so dare to presume you read fics too) and @lavenderyulu . i am curious, but no pressure, of course, only if you guys would like to ^^

#tagged #i am now thinking about office aus with daiala <3 and the tsme gang in general #alan the new hire or even intern at devon?? #alternatively - the thought just flashed by - merger au with alan and daigo as lawyers on the either side ? but thatd be hard to make them #interact extensively #unless it’s… merger au combined with neighbor au and coffeeshop regular au #in which on top of knowing that they re both lawyers and that they work for either of merging sides #they end up meeting a lot at 3-4am in front of their apartment doors #and they also run into each other frequently at the merger control authority #aksjshdhjdjdjd #like even for different cases #they just keep running into each other #and its all about the effort and the companionship from a distance and the habitual presence #but also the annoyance and the rubbing each other the wrong way but collaborating anyway #and then bonding when things blow up #happy sigh #im not writing that its too tough #but gosh (happy sigh) #thanks for the tag chouris <3

[mairiieux]

one time in seventh grade i left my phone on the bus in the morning so at the end of the day i was expecting it to be there for me to pick up but it turned out that the driver dropped it off in the front office (which makes sense but i was twelve) and if it were any other day i would have just said fuck it and left it there but it was a friday before a holiday break and i did not want to leave my phone at school the whole time so i got off the bus went to the office got my phone yada yada yada when i got back our bus was the only one left in the parking lot (the bus driver was so nice for waiting omg) and when i got on i was yelled at by all the other kids and i almost started crying because i was so embarrassed but also so grateful that i wouldn’t have to come to school for a week after that. there’s no moral to this story your post just reminded me of it and i thought i’d tell you

hello this was a very good story 🤟🤟 WHAT A COOL BUS DRIVER and sorry all the other kids yelled at you holy fuck i think i would just Disintegrate into pieces tbh…… THANK YOU FOR TELLING ME

#💌 #from: bunny 🐇 #unfortunately i am still earphone-case-less….. #it’s only a matter of time until my earphones run out of charge akdbaksbwksb #it’s ok i think they were actually kind of broken anyway bc they kept like. Pausing videos and songs randomly #like i be watching yt or spotify and it just like. pauses and unpauses randomly it’s soo fucking annoying #usually i solved it by putting it in the case and then taking it out again but by golly guess who cant do that anymore #plus i KNEW it was the earphones problem bc whenever i connected it to my phone instead it did the same thing #sigh i guess i just have to deal with it until i get new earphones #which will be a while considering my parents lol. guess i’ll just get those shitty 10 dollar wired earphones until then #holy shit that’s a lot of tags sorry. I NEED TO SLEEP

[snom-pixelates]

oh. c!wilbur final lore stream tomorrow. *sighs in relief*

#thank GOD. #this ending arc of his has been a train wreck. not excited #its just a boring arc imo #i dont wanna get into it #because i don't really care. but man. #does this count as crit? ehh. i'll tag anyways! #just in case #cc!wilbur crit #c!badboyhalo and c!foolish i love you plz come back from the war #where are my silly goofy little guys they're so much fun #there's so much angst that's been happening lately. i just kinda need some loony toons shenanigans #or a prank war #or sam bucket #sigh #snom's rambles

[piningprecussionist]

(ooc)

I want you all to know that if I had the energy for it. There are so many posts stored in my drafts I long to queue... but neglected to preemptively tag, despite knowing I am Like This....

Anyway, there is a slight chance the queue might run out tomorrow unless I can get more responses in there-- I am,, tired,,

#(<- accidentally took a 3 hour nap instead of continuing to work on art and edits for answers today) #((well. yesterday. semantics.)) #there are like. 3 or 4 posts I REALLY want to queue SO SO BADLY from when i was going through older blogs before. but. the source links... #they're all broken... or in the case of one gif- the poster noted that they had no idea who made the gif #and i like to give credit where credit is due. yknow? #((one of them is this little scott and kim interaction and I am like Gripping My Head in Anguish with how I so long to queue it....)) #((i need more scott and kim content. not even talking ship stuff you guys please just give me them bickering i will love you forever)) #(i mean i do have little things w them i can draw myself. but then I have to do it... so i like it less... /hj) #((i need money in a transferable format. so I can. commission more of them hanging out. this is the solution realistically...)) #((*sighs*)) #anyway. idk this is probably a false alarm again.. I think the last 3 times I've been like ''oh the queue is gonna run out!'' I've managed + #+to find more posts to cram in there. so watch me eat my fucking words i guess shdjdhdbfnddn #i guess if i wanted I could queue more of my screenshots from SPTO E1.... hm... #(we'll see what happens. although i suppose now is your chance to sound off if you want me to do that) #ooc #txt #actually. additional note. some people have before- but if you ever see a post and you're like ''oh! i haven't seen this here yet'' you are+ #+super welcome to send me the post and I'll queue it up. i try to see as much as i can but. we can probably assume which tags i camp out in+ #+more. #(also. sometimes stuff just. doesn't show up in the tags/for me. bc this is a hellsite. 😔) #((love this site though. please never die- tumblr-- maybe just. actually get better for once.... *grimacing at Recent/Ongoing Events*))

[hauntingblue]

EPISODE 900

#ran out of tags at one and a half episodes...... anyways we coninue with: #episode 898 #the dog is right to just run from that shit lmao ajdhaks #btw the bead necklace on the straw doll of hawkins reminds me i still havent figured out why ace wears them.... like i get its spriritual #but past that point..... if someone reads this please do not tell me this is my media analysis homework for one piece #i need to figure this out myseld lmao #also i keep thinking about stand proud and like how to this moment no op opening has surpassed it for me.... #maybe the we share the world one in the aspects of boppability but not bangerism for example... and the water 7 one is on par w the epicness #idk i will keep pondering #hawkins just going up and down with his sword ajdhskdj #i forgot about the gorillas akdhaksk #schachi!!!! and bepo and penguin!!!! #AND LAW!!!!!!!! #do we think zoro is just turned around sighing bc otama being sick so young reminds him of kuina...... #i feel like he is in catastrophe mode.... we need to go quick cause she is going to die so i will fight and now that she is going to be #cured she is also going to die anyways so he can't even look #zoro saying kiku is big and luffy saying big mom was eveb bigger.... exactly... many such cases of women #otama just you wait till they get you to sanji girl.... also i want her on board.... it's only fair #what are we learning from one piece today: 1) children go hungry 2) famishes are man made #relevant today #this variation on zoro's theme..... banger #when i saw those tights i though okiku revealed herself as maroimo island foreigner and was about to fight lmao #just werid associations my brain makes lmao #episode 900 #<- CHRIST #talking tag #watching one piece

[chalk-homunculus]

There's a few good irl friends we have that we unfortunately don't live very close to, but every time we do see them I can tell a part of our brain feels relieved in the sort of "home with my people" type of way. It's just that, on some level I also realize that's just us. We've always felt a bit like an outsider, even in groups where we're technically "allowed in" if that makes any sense. It's like... I can see the complicated, colourful strings that connect all those people to eachother, histories, inside jokes, and all- but for us, at best, we'll have one or two of those strings, connected to maybe one or two people, while theirs are fully woven, like fabric. We may be developing a few spider-silk like threads with some of them if we're lucky, but we're still obviously just a frayed edge, something to either burn off or patch over. And we're all too aware of this, and it makes us overthink. Interacting with people, even when we WANT to, is exhausting and stressful, because we think over every single thing we said, every single reaction we picked up from people around us, every single topic- and even the slightest perceived negative reaction (oh gods, did the way we worded this upset person 1? Oh no, did the way I explained that annoy person 4? What if the way I talked about this other thing was unclear, does person 2 think badly of us now because they think we were describing our own opinions?) Becomes a ghost in our head that keeps haunting us until we either know for sure it's been sorted out (which often annoys people, that we want to go over the same damn things a million times out of insecurity) or it cracks us and makes us entirely sabotage and burn that bridge ourselves, before anyone else can (because we've fooled ourselves into thinking that if it's us that burns the bridge, it won't hurt as much and it's better for them that way). It's the way we've become so flighty and quick to flee and run from people, that's in contradiction with the constant desire to make meaningful connections and have close friends. It's just another thing we're working on in therapy, but it feels like this one is one of the biggest struggles and I feel bad about it, not for our sake, but for those few actually strong bond friendships we have, where those friends have to put up with us being terrified of their larger friend group because no matter what we feel like a disconnected outsider

#this is kind of a vague because there's a chance relevant persons might see it but at the same time I know they don't really mind my venting #they know they can message me about it and I'm willing to talk about it if they want to hear about how we feel #but also that this is just me venting out my thoughts into the void specifically to avoid making #them feel burdened by it which could be the case if I vented to them directly. besides emotional energy and all that #and honestly that's just one of the many things I'm grateful for like I can just talk when I have thougts on my blog without being terrified #that one of them might see this and be angry that I'm being 'vague' and 'shady' or whatever #these tags are absolutely me vagueing past 'friends' who have made me feel like I'm walking on eggshells all the time #like I can't even talk about what is on my mind on my blogs/etc because you're following me on those? unfollow me then coward #@ one specific person who once lectured me so much about vagueing others where 'they might see it' which made me terrified to post #about any personal thoughts anywhere for like a year straight #also they always told me to just block friends I might vaguely mention in vents which is so funny because even if I did that #they'd most likely be checking up on me anyway #anyway enough about that it's really pointless stuff that isn't really worth my thoughts #what this post is about is just me sort of reflecting on the way our system has become with our social anxiety having spiked again recently #after the years of pandemic isolation #sighs. #chalk thoughts