#but thats why i love this blog lol

[hollownest-whore]

I'm pretty sure I've already made a post about cannibalism in hallownest but it still fascinates me the difference between a person bug and a food bug. You could say sentience but a good amount of bugs that are simply scurrying around have thoughts (dreamnail) and once tumblrblazed by the Radiance every bug tends to have narrow and simple thoughts, something else I froth over

The Deepnest bugs (are implied to) eat people, or do they eat bugs, is it out of disrespect of their humanity, or the culture. There could be a natural foodchainare aspect but maybe PK influence disrupted the structure. Are nosks people? I'd love to know what's up with nosks

Bugs were capable of thought before PK (tribes and communities existed before him or WL took power and the Radiance mothtribe seems very advanced) so it could have been a way of life where "cannibalism" had no definition. Imagine the furious debates PK got up too about citizenship and laws, god I love that silly colonizer worm

#these thoughts make no sense #but thats why i love this blog lol #this all came up because i was writing abt culture stuff for everybody in the group #n idk if Hornet would have cannibalism part of her culture #because is cannibal a realized concept to the people of deepnest #midwife is portrayed as crazy and the menacing aura of deepnest adds to the ''this is wrong btw'' implication of their practices #but theres also the question if that was an issue before or after pk #colonizer is used as a joke here btw i don't actually see the bug character as evil #i also think he may have fundamentally eradicated all preexisting ways of life out of ignorance and arrogance of his own order #equivalent of ''your not doing it right let me help'' on godlike levels

[tubbytarchia]

I read a self proclaimed hater express how much they hated head-wings, feathers around the face, animal tails and bird feet, and that motivated me to draw all of those things

Woe bird feet upon ye, get fucked

#grian #grian fanart #for every anon that expresses wanting to snap Grian's bird legs I draw another Grian with bird legs #draw whatever the hell you want guys. If someone is hating on it then shove it up their bum #also look idk why I didnt have the traffic confessions blog blocked earlier lol thats on me. It keeps finding its way back on my feed!! #But not anymore whahoo peace and love on planet earth #hermitblr #tubby art

[pixlokita]

I feel like ? I gotta remind people it’s ok to unfollow a blog when it upsets you in any way >> like if I ever do that sure, you can let me know if it was anything I did personally I’d appreciate it but if you just don’t enjoy something it’s ok to unfollow ;w; can’t stress enough how important it is to put your mental health first 👌

#pix habla #fnaf #✨💖 even if you don’t like frogs and I post about frogs does that make sense #i see some yall not liking some of the stuff I draw and just kinda wonder ? why you still follow lol #i won’t take it personally #even if it’s a mutual heck I’ve even told my friends to unfollow if they ever need a break from my blog =w=👌 #because It’s nothing personal >> #i used to ok so funny story xD I used to follow a friend in middle school on social media #and we were good friends but had nothing in common in what we posted about =w= #like she loved Beatles fanfics (don’t ask do not ask idk I didn’t read past the titles) #and i loved sonic :v #and like #thats aigh ? you don’t gotta ? follow a blog that doesn’t bring joy no matter if you’re close or not #i would honestly hate it if I’m making anyone upset or unhappy #so yeyeyeye I’ve said this before in other fandoms but like >>)✨✨💖 put 👏 your mental health 👏👏👏 FIRST ALWAYS👏 #Stay safe y’all ✨👌 have fun be free #we’re all just… sitting here… online 😔 ain’t nothing to it

[hussyknee]

I'm really not a villain enjoyer. I love anti-heroes and anti-villains. But I can't see fictional evil separate from real evil. As in not that enjoying dark fiction means you condone it, but that all fiction holds up some kind of mirror to the world as it is. Killing innocent people doesn't make you an iconic lesbian girlboss it just makes you part of the mundane and stultifying black rot of the universe.

"But characters struggling with honour and goodness and the egoism of being good are so boring." Cool well some of us actually struggle with that stuff on the daily because being a good person is complicated and harder than being an edgelord.

Sure you can use fiction to explore the darkness of human nature and learn empathy, but the world doesn't actually suffer from a deficit of empathy for powerful and privileged people who do heinous stuff. You could literally kill a thousand babies in broad daylight and they'll find a way to blame your childhood trauma for it as long as you're white, cisgender, abled and attractive, and you'll be their poor little meow meow by the end of the week. Don't act like you're advocating for Quasimodo when you're just making Elon Musk hot, smart and gay.

#this is one of the reasons why #although i would kill antis in real life if i could #i also don't trust anyone who identifies as 'pro-ship' #it's just an excuse to shut down legitimate ethical questions and engaging in honest self-reflective media consumption and critique #art doesn't exist in a vacuum #it's a flat impossibility for it not to inform nor be informed by real world politics and attitudes #because that's what it means to be created by human hands #we can't even make machine learning thats not just human bias fed into an algorithm #if the way we interact with art truly didn't influence anything then there would be no value in it #just because antis have weaponized those points in the most bad faith ways possible #doesn't mean you can ignore them in good faith #anyway fandom stans villains because society loves to defend and protect abusers #it's not because you get the chance to be free and empathetic and indulge in your darkness and what not #it's just people's normal levels of attachment to shitty people with an added layer of justification for it #this blog is for boring do-gooder enjoyers only #lol #knee of huss #fandom wank #media critique #pop culture #fandom discourse

[lobotomyladylives]

literally wanna dieeeee I realized belatedly that not only was down bad written for me due to being an alien abduction metaphor song but it perfectly describes my situation w/my ex who dumped me 3 days into our second vacation in his country

#but yknow thats what i get for dating a fucking man last year when i absolutely knew better. i was in a low place & the idea of being #whisked away from europe was an escape for me . we got along really well but the second i showed any emotional weakness he couldnt handle i #oh but he sent a bunch of messages begging me to come back when i was on the plane fleeing to my sisters london flat! lol!!! #i didnt tell you guys about any of this on my old blog when it was happening bc i just knew itd invite a flood of #''why were you even dating a man'' messages. yeah im aware. it was stupid & yet another result of my inability to purge myself of the #desire to be in a relationship my homophobic father wouldnt hate me for. and i didnt think any woman would want me . im over it now #fuck my abusive father fuck men in general im so over the internalized homophobia. ive always preferred women why should i have to #supress that to make my fuckface hypocrite father happy. i only rly care bc i love my half brother & want to be in his life which means #i have to appease dad. but at what goddamn cost #why did i say from europe in that earlier tag. i meant TO europe...im from the us #anyways. what a shit show situation that was. i have never felt so betrayed by anyone except for my dad himself #oh i didnt even mention the worst part yet. when i texted from london asking if our friendship was over too (god. so cringe) he then went #into this spiel about how actually what he said earlier when he was asking me to come back #(that it had been a stupid impulse & biggest mistake of his life) was a lie & it had been a long time coming #IF IT WAS A LONG TIME COMING WHY THE FUCK DID YOU LET ME FLY ACROSS THR ATLANTIC FUCKING OCEAN 3 DAYS AGO FOR YOU #and said hed tell me the reasons but ''didnt want to hurt me'' #i have so much hatred in my heart for this man to this day when i really think about the mind games he was playing. unreal. #and he KNEW i already had massive trust issues

[icewindandboringhorror]

examining a seemingly normal image only to slowly realize the clear signs of AI generated art.... i know what you are... you cannot hide your true nature from me... go back where you came from... out of my sight with haste, wretched and vile husk

#BEGONE!!! *wizard beam blast leaving a black smoking crater in the middle of the tumblr dashboard* #I think another downside to everyone doing everything on phone apps on shitty tiny screens nowadays is the inability to really see details #of an image and thus its easier to share BLATANTLY fake things like.. even 'good' ai art has pretty obvious tells at this point #but especially MOST of it is not even 'good' and will have details that are clearly off or lines that dont make sense/uneven (like the imag #of a house interior and in the corner there's a cabinet and it has handles as if it has doors that open but there #are no actual doors visible. or both handles are slightly different shapes. So much stuff that looks 'normal' at first glance #but then you can clearly tell it's just added details with no intention or thought behind it. a pattern that starts and then just abruptly #doesn't go anywhere. etc. etc. ) #the same thing with how YEARS ago when I followed more fashion type blogs on tumblr and 'colored hair' was a cool ''''New Thing''' instead #of being the norm now basically. and people would share photos of like ombre hair designs and stuff that were CLEARLY photoshop like #you could LITERally see the coloring outside of the lines. blurs of color that extend past the hair line to the rest of the image #or etc. But people would just share them regardless and comment like 'omg i wish I could do this to my hair!' or 'hair goallzzzz!! i #wonder what salon they went to !!' which would make me want to scream and correct them everytime ( i did not lol) #hhhhhhggh... literally view the image on anything close to a full sized screen and You Will SEe #I don't know why it's such a pet peeve of mine. I think just as always I'm obsessed with the reality and truth of things. most of the thing #that annoy me most about people are situations in which people are misinterpreting/misunderstanding how something works or having a misconc #eption about somehting thats easily provable as false or etc. etc. Even if it's harmless for some random woman on facebook to believe that #this AI generated image of a cat shaped coffee machine is actually a real product she could buy somewhere ... I still urgently #wish I could be like 'IT IS ALL AN ILLUSION. YOU SEE???? ITS NOT REALL!!!!! AAAAA' hjhjnj #Like those AI shoes that went around for a while with 1000000s of comments like 'omg LOVE these where can i get them!?' and it's like YOU #CANT!!! YOU CANT GET THEM!!! THEY DONT EXIST!!! THE EYELETS DONT EVEN LINE UP THE SHOES DONT EVEN #MATCH THE PATTERNS ARE GIBBERISH!! HOW CAN YOU NOT SEE THEY ARE NOT REAL!??!!' *sobbing in the rain like in some drama movie* #Sorry I'm a pedantic hater who loves truth and accuracy of interpretation and collecting information lol #I think moreso the lacking of context? Like for example I find the enneagram interesting but I nearly ALWAYS preface any talking about it #with ''and I know this is not scientifically accurate it's just an interesting system humans invented to classify ourselve and our traits #and I find it sociologically fascinating the same way I find religion fascinating'. If someone presented personality typing information wit #out that sort of context or was purporting that enneagram types are like 100% solid scientific truth and people should be classified by the #unquestionaingly in daily life or something then.. yeah fuck that. If these images had like disclaimers BIG in the image description somewh #re like 'this is not a real thing it's just an AI generated image I made up' then fine. I still largely disagree with the ethics behind AI #art but at least it's informed. It's the fact that people just post images w/o context or beleive a falsehood about it.. then its aAAAAAA

[puppyeared]

how cool are you with like. spam reblogs bc i keep staring at ur art really hard and then doing a total 180 and end up not reblogging anything which is REALLY lame but it's bc i know myself and wanted to avoid spamming as much as possible bc id end up reblogging 95% of ur posts BAUDHJSF

MEGA 10000000% ENCOURAGED ACTUALLY if you like it a lot then go for it!! i dont find it annoying at all and im surethat goes for a lot of artists. i think i can safely say we're just glad u like it enough to go "HEY LOOK WGAT THIS PERSON MADE". also id take it over a row of likes any day

if you are worried about spamming notifications you could always try queueing or saving it as a draft!! so you can decide when you want it reblogged or let the site decide for u <3

#ALSO SHUCKS.. TY FOR STARING AT MY ART WE ARE HOLDING HANDS ANON.. PEACE AND LOVE ON THE PLANET EARTH #i know i talk mad shit abt ppl not choosing to reblog art but like. I KNOW UR NOT DOING IT TO BE MALICIOUS but id like it to be shared /nbh #CUZ I LIKE ATTENTION WHY ELSE WOULD I POST SHADOWPEACH SONIC ADVENTURE 2 #and something ive learned being on here for a while is to think of your blog as like. your house #imagine showing your friend all the cool stuff youve collected over the years yknow. or someone walks in your house like man thats #balling where can i get something like that. IDK!!! i like to check my mutuals blogs every once in a while #literally nobody is going to look at your blog and say 'damn bitch you live like this'. UNLESS your bg color and text color are hard to rea #*read. but otherwise u do it for YOU #im gonna be honest i dont really use queue because im impulsive and i want to put it on my blog NAOW. but its there if u wanna use it lol #asks #good question!!!!!! #yapping

[chickenkooks]

Hi, it's May 2023 now time rly does fly fast huh? I still re-read TRA bec it's my comfort fic. Anyway i hope you're doing well and still having amazing sex lol! I miss hearing bout ur seggs stories and just ur life updates. I hope one day if by chance u can still open this acc, and you'll see our positive messages ahhh! tysm for writing tra really. Every year i still send you an ask it's pathetic jshdhd but i miss you sm my fave writer but I hope u're well, happy and healthy! 💜 it's been what 4 or 5 years but i still won't give up hope that u'll update us someday even if it's just a life update huhueee im just so thankful u wrote tra. And i truly miss you xx take care always!

oh boy so hi i don't even know how many years its been at this point but this message just really warmed my heart and i thought you were owed at least a response!!! thank you so so so much for this kind message. you guys have been getting after me ever since i left and trust me i see every message but i just didn't know what to say? i don't even know how many of you remember me or will even see this. im sorry for that. god i can't believe its been that long. i don't know if ill ever update tra. i really intended to finish and hoped having beta readers would help but.... i think i had left the fandom at that point so it was hard to put myself back in that same space. i really want to say how i intended for it to end but there is a part of me that hopes to finish it. i just don't know when that'll be, if I even decide to. but i've been getting back into writing lately but I post on ao3 now!!! if u guys are at all interested I could answer messages privately? anyway I hope ur doing well too whoever u are and i appreciate u from the bottom of my heart!!!!!! thank you so much for your patience

#i don't exactly want my ao3 public i guess #maybe it doesn't really matter lol #but just know that i re-read tra from time to time #sometimes i cringe #sometimes i finish the fourth chapter and im like #where's the rest of it??? lmao #so i totally understand the frustration #i would Love to finish the story but i just no longer feel inspired by it i guess #this was back when smut was really just exploring for me #i had no idea how to write kissing scenes so i was like #why not just skip straight to sex bc that makes sense #like i said i still write but its much more slow burn #i am Pretty Sure i wrote the first chapter of tra when i was still a virgin #maybe thats a lie since it was so long ago lol #i really could ramble forever since i have missed u all #this blog was sooo much fun #i really do miss it and im getting that serotonin from ao3 lol #if ur at all curious #i still write fan fiction but its much less y/n and more characters #IM WRITING A BREATH OF THE WILD STORY ATM #AND IT HAS CONSUMED MY EVERY THOUGHT #LINK AND ZELDA ARE KILLING ME!!!!!! #I LOVE THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!! #so if thats ur thing pls message me and u can check it out!!!! #i only have two chapters up atm but fuck i feel like its going to be at least forty chapters #when i say slow burn i mean Slow Burn #but once they do the do it is going to be STEAMY #omg anyway ty again #bye #t:ans

[suddenrundown]

sometimes i am being negative on my own blog about redemption as is my right and NOT tagging it. for a reason.

#post deleted! #no offense! but i dont want or need essays about how its good actually lol #sometimes im just complaining to myself and if i wanted a discussion i maybe would have tagged it #and let a bunch of people see it #like. i was there gandalf #i watched both seasons and thought it sucked. ive considered all the angles #and still think it sucks #and everyone is entitled to their own opinions and if you like it thats fine #but i dont think its necessary to give me reasons why you think its good actually #its not gonna change how i feel. you know? #anyway. cant a girl be a bit of a hater in the privacy of her own blog lol #it comes from a place of love it really really does

[criticaaaaaaaal]

#see my blog was never intended to be . like . seen by people? thats why its so gross #i tag Nothing. i only tag what i want to tag. i still have the mindset of what i used to be *checks watch* 9 months ago? i think? #i had under 100 followers most if not all being friends and mutuals #and then i made the mistake of posting art. sigh #this still carries over to the fact id Like to move blogs because this ones gotten. way too big #lesson learned for anyone on tumglblr: if you post anything like art or fanfic MAKE IT A SIDE BLOG!!!!!!!!!!!!! #do NOT do what i did. not the main blog. mistake #i used to make sideblogs everytime i got a new main interest but when i got into toh i stopped. idk why. but im stuck here now #if i DO move blogs i'll post about it. it'll prob be a quieter move but yeah it'll happen #im just procrastinating cus all my junk is already HERE #so like. why move. yknow? #i do genuinely love & appreciate the support. people have been very kind to me #i appreciate it a lot #i also just know from experience i am not someone that should have any sort of following on anything. i take it horribly #like. i used to be an active twitter artist for a year and that was HORRIBLE. ppl didnt just want art they wanted my opinions and my biases #i couldnt breath without 5 people asking me things #horrible life to live lol i like tumblr more #i started on tumblr and i moved back. im glad #anywhoo enough rambling i guess. if i move ill let people know! if i dont. well youll know cus im still here #ugh if i move i have to reblock my tags n people blaaaaugh #okey ill talk to you people later

[cottageivy]

trying to decide if i should go ahead and read the sun and the star now despite not having read the last two trials of apollo books or to just go ahead

#mia rambles #the only stuff ive seen about it is from 2 pjo blogs i follow and listen. love them great posts but also #they do tend to always skew negatively and i love them for it but i also am taking with a grain of salt #bc some of the shit that bothers them i dont really care about lol #again love their blogs thats why i follow but #anyways from what ive seen and i ahvent seen any actual spoilers #but i have seen the fact tah apparently rick disregards the plot of the toa books #which idk if im mad at bc i havent finished them lmao #also something doesnt follow a canon detail but its rick riordan that man does that so many times #also tumblr people despise solangelo and that is their right #im more neutral on them but like i like the potential of them #they just werent developed enough and thats what they use as an excuse but in like a mean way skadaj #anyways all this to say. idk if reading the last two toa books are important #i did read the Big One (burning maze ifykyk) so i wouldnt be spoiled there #i know piper gets a nameless girlfriend in the end that we dont even properly meet at the end of the series #which so true sapphic piper is so real but also thats not proper rep babe #the two lesbians that house leo (and calypso? i cant remember) are better rep #give piper her own book pls #...maybe write it with an indigenous person tho bc uh. we dont want a hoo repeat #IM RAMBLING ABOUT PERCY JACKSON ON MY SIMS BLOG IM SORRY #I JUST HAVE THOUGHTS #i placed a hold on the order on the book at my library and im 23rd in lines #so maybe ill get the last two toa books and read them in the meantime idk

[mbat]

before i pass out for the night. since my brain is back on dan and phil as if its 2016 or something i need to put this out into the world. this isnt some sort of important life changing post, just a personal funny thing

so when i was 13 and fixating on dan and phil, i read a lot of fanfics. like, i guarantee that even after all these years that, if i had the statistics, that fandom was the one i read the most fanfics for and constantly. i couldnt tell you what nearly any of them were about, and i have a feeling that many of them are probably lost to time by now. i also dont know if i need to mention that yeah, a lot of them were shipping, and yes ive long grown out of that. (the dnp fandom is actually what made me grow out of that)

anyway all this to say that over the last 6 years after i stopped fixating on dan and phil, one fanfic stuck with me and i just. i think about it every once in a while. its been over half a decade. it wasnt a groundbreaking fic, i dont remember any quotes or specifics, just the premise as of at least the first few chapters. idk why it stuck with me

it was literally a fic about. if the world had gotten to a point where almost every child was born as like, a science baby instead of a natural baby, and phil was a science baby, but dan was a natural baby. and there was somehow this like, thing where the science babies would bully the natural babies for some reason idek, and this was a highschool setting and i think dan was a new kid in school. and what gets me about the fic is that dan was some small shy scared kid and phil was some mean jerk bully. and how wild that is compared to how they are in real life

this isnt me trying to find the fic or the person who wrote it or any of that, this is literally just. i remember this fic at least once every few months and i needed to get it out of my brain somewhere

#there are few fics that i remember several years after i read them the first time. this is one of them #depressingly. some of the fics that are on that list are most definitely gone by now #there was one in the vt fandom i still think about 6 years later that i loved. but the person who wrote it hated it :[ #the others that are on that list off the top of my head are the hlvrai mermaid fic and the hlvrai alien weed fic #my brain latches onto the most random fics to remember forever lol #my post #dan and phil #<- tagging for blog purposes. not because i want people to see this #if you see this post. good for you i guess ajfjshd #bur seriously if you know the fic/author of what im talking about. i mean itd be neat to find it again. but dont bother them yknow #its also wild how thats like. such a dystopian novel premise. not in a bad way just a neutral way #i love the premises that people come up with for fanfiction. like. ANYTHING can be a fanfic premise and i find that so magical #i had a fanfic premise that was originally meant to be a dnp fanfic that ive long since changed to be an original thing lol #and its... a weird premise lol. at least i think so #anyway since this is the bottom of the tags and no ones going to read this. i gotta say i have so many thoughts on dnp fanfic culture #and my personal relationship with it which i think. my personal relationship with it was heavily influenced by me being like. #transmasc + mlm but not knowing either yet and how wild that is to look back on #its why i love that one meme pic thats like. 'straight girls who fetishize mlm look like this in 5 years' and it shows a pic of jessie #jessie from breaking bad sorry the tag length ran out #but anyway im not gonna make full posts about that. just wanted to mention it somewhere lol

[flowered-mp3]

#hi guys... i know that i havent been the most active lately... mostly because work is hectic right now and all my free time is spent with #family friends and my bf #to be honest i don't know if i'll return to writing... I've slowly been losing motivation but it really is a shame #i've loved my time here and i don't know where my journey will go next #but i will keep my blog up for now and reblog stuff occasionally. #honestly it seems that since full time work and bf got combined I've had less and less time! its just a part of life #and i'm incredibly grateful for those who gave me advice durinf my online dating era... it all led up to my life right now and i couldn’t #be happier. sure our relationship isn't perfect and he isn’t but i truly feel that he's perfect for me. i'm the happiest that i've even been #and i'm thankful for u all that commented on my shitposts and talked me through it all. it got me through and even my bf thanks u all for #getting me through it as well :) #idk why i feel so sappy right now but i'm just feeling grateful. #and happy hehe. my bf met one of my oldest friends from my hometown and he just. idk. after we drove back he told me that he realized that #he's v protective of me when he's walking dt with me lol (it's filled with very strange people that yell) and i could tell lowkey because #his hand would squeeze mine and he would pull me toward him or beside or infront when we talked past sus people #and idk he was looking at me a certain way and i was like stop looking at me (he was gonna make me blush lol) but he just said 'why am i not #allowed to look at my future wife' ! #and u guys i wanted to SCREAM like... wow my bf lowkey has rizz tf lol #idk i'm happy 😊 thats the life update see u guys sometimes :) #e.txt

[guideaus]

someone in the skip and loafer tag was live blogging their experience reading the manga, and noticed all the moments showing mika and Nao-chan's relationship, and they seemed very concerned the series is teasing some sort of romantic or sexual relationship between them (if you don't know anything abt the series, the characters are a 16 y/o girl who is friends with the protag and the protag's adult aunt), to which my thought was "Uh, what the fuck are you reading, NO, lol???" but it did remind me of how I recently read Insomniacs After School, and I started it very suspicious of the series when it's been nothing but wholesome so far.

It also reminded me of something that happens online when a piece of media gets popular, but someone does call out an aspect of it. for example, when spy x family's anime came out, there was a post going around criticizing the series, mentioning its light tone regarding fascism, the fact that there's a sis con character, and the author writing a child in a sexually provocative way to try and be a homewrecker to the main protag's family, and what bugged me back then was that there were people sharing the post abt it like "I know nothing about it, but I knew it was weird, I could tell." and I was like ??? Not that they have to read the work itself to see that it's bad, but if they knew nothing about it, all they could know was that the series just has a child as the 2nd protag w the father as the main character... that's not inherently strange or concerning (the bad thing is probably more the author's inability to create well-written female characters). my point is, are these all bad faith judgments from fandoms based on how "problematic" elements aren't a rare occurrence in anime/manga, or...

I just think about how when I read stl, there was literally nothing that made me even think it was suspicious, its just an elder sister-type relationship? So it also reminds me of when people online see familial relationships in media and interpret them as romantic/sexual... so that might be a media literacy thing? i dont really understand where the concern is coming from

#personal #also no offense to them but i blocked them lol. liveblogging is different in the tag than on ur blog FHDSFJDS #maybe thats how ppl felt abt me a year or whatever ago abt trigun in the search. but also its ur fault if ur going in the search #anyways i personally am glad to be proven wrong lmao. insomniacs after school NOT weird!! (so far 😭) #like sp/yxfam/ily. ik us*gi dr*p exists but im not sure i'd voice my concern until i see something? #and ive compared stl to ikoku nikki. that also has a similar relationship. and tbh i read and im like god i wish hs me had that #not to be deep and idk anything abt their life but that also sounds like a very... nuclear family take fhdsfjsd?? why is talking to ur #friend's aunt weird exactly... idk if i can mention her being trans too but im like what is she doing except being nice lol?? #ALSO no one interpret this in an anti/proship/whatever way for the love of god. no fandom weirdos pls

[blasterdiablo]

「 @silveringmistress 」 | continued from 「 X 」

Relief came in the form of a gentle embrace; from both his leading performer and the darkness she ushered in for him.

His eyes slip shut, plunging him further into the dark as his hands trace lines up Asaka's back. Ren knew her form fairly well by this point, having explored it many times in this very room. It was the one constant he'd nary grow bored of; this ritual of theirs to escape the noise, to escape the light. Learning to navigate the pitch black together, using one another as a guide. She truly was the pale blue moon in Ren's abyssally dark nights. She occupied his eyes, his hands, his mind. And granted him peace where there was usually only chaos.

Ren simply hums in response to her offer, moving to rest his chin atop her head and noticing fairly quickly the scent of the exotic perfumes he'd gifted her with from his recent outing. Interested, he lowers himself to her shoulder before closing in on her neck to take in the scent better from where he'd often see her apply it behind her ears. Hundreds of perfumes over several years and he still hasn't found one that best suited her... He leaves a sigh against her skin in unexplained disappointment.

Eventually, as he normally ends up doing, he then rests the weight of his head fully on her shoulder. Depending on her to keep him upright at that moment, as if all the strength it took to keep him active and present to supervise the circus' efforts had all but left his body the moment she closed the door.

❝ ...I want more than that. ❞ He says in a small, yet lowered voice. His hands move from their place at the back of her head where he had been carefully twisting the strands of her hair between his fingers to pull her closer to him, each hand reaching her opposite shoulder. ❝ This isn't enough anymore ❞

They had still been near the door when he decided this was a good place as any to rest. He, who usually burdens Asaka with his weight to carry in moments like this suddenly changes roles against script. If he had the strength at that moment, perhaps he would have carried her to her bed before resting alongside her until he was without bombardment from visions and unpleasant memories. All so that he wouldn't have to let go of her for a single moment.

But he did not.

He was utterly spent from his recent bout of Psyqualia atop his duties to the circus despite Asaka and Tetsu taking on a majority of responsibilities since Rekka joined their numbers. Rekka had come to them with knowledge that had piqued Ren's interest and it had been occupying a lot of his time. But he was still the Pale Moon Circus' Director, and Tetsu wasn't about to let him forget that. It was a pain honestly, it made him want to hide away in this room all the more.

His hold on her lowers to support her center of gravity, hoisting her up against him as he takes a step back to slide his back down against their bolted door. That left him sat on the floor, propped up against the door, holding Asaka there against his chest. And by how his body had relaxed between them both, it was clear he had no intentions on moving from that spot. Not until he had gotten a few winks of sleep there, at the very least.

❝ This is our last night here. Tomorrow... we move into the Theater. ❞

The Theater, as Ren dubbed it, was the Pale Moon Circus' new base of operations. Funded completely by the Sawatari family; it was a grand spectacle compared to the tent city the circus had previously operated from. It was practically a mobile fortress by comparison, able to bring about their shows across the lands and bring amazement to the masses and extend their efforts from border to border.

Of course, the Theater was a perfect place as any for the Director and his Ringmistress. He had made sure of it, ensuring the largest room on the highest floor was catered to him and the star of his show perfectly. Asaka had been far too busy leading the troupe in his stead to take part in the Theater's construction, so it was to be a complete surprise on her part. Ren opened his eyes, for just a moment, and in the darkness a glimmer passed over his sights.

An image of them; within the loge of the theater watching over their show. Strange... Normally Asaka was on the stage in his visions. A bright flash from the lower floor reaches their box, catching his eye, halting his breath. Golden flames blaze brilliantly for the first time in years, but before Ren can confirm the sight the vision ends abruptly, causing him to groan softly against Asaka's shoulder as the power recoiled on him. It was something for him to delve into tomorrow with the pink one's supervision, for now... he was too tired to do anything about it.

❝ But for tonight... Tonight I wish to remain like this. ❞

Despite his weakened demeanor when he was alone with her, his arms locked around her with the intent on keeping her there while his eyes accept the darkness once more. Unspoken words delivered through gestures like this was something Ren often did, but the language was often lost in translation. An embrace as if to say; don't leave me... Leaning against her as if to say; I need you... Light grazes of his lips against her skin, the running of his fingers through her hair, decorating her in gifts and even attending her shows when either Tetsu and Rekka had other things in mind for him to be doing. Words didn't come to Ren easily, if only he could show Asaka what he saw it'd be much easier to show her how much her asylum had meant to him.

Here, he didn't have to be perfect. Here he didn't have to reach expectations or assume any sort of responsibility. Here he didn't have to be hurt by the past. It was just him and Asaka. If he could he'd accept her offer to stay like this forever if he could. But... that wasn't an option. He still had things to do, and until he achieved them he truly couldn't rest. If it was for tonight though, just for one night...

❝ ...If only I had the power to snuff out the light of the sun. Then... ❞

Then tomorrow would never have to come. But alas, the Director's childish reasoning is lost to his descent into the land of dreams. It was difficult to fight against the darkness closing in on him with the comfort and warmth of Asaka in his arms, after all. And despite being more or less asleep at this point, his hold on her is reinforced as though he was trying to prevent himself from letting her go. Never again did he wish to wake up to her disappearance... He's lost both her and Kai before, he's not sure what he'd do if he lost them both at the same time. But Asaka was here now, she wouldn't leave him alone again... and soon enough things would be back to the way they used to be. Right? -

#.//i've been contemplating for a while how to continue threads from legacy to beta and i figured moving them completely vs #.//activity being bounced to the wrong blogs and dealing with the extra long uncuttable reply would be cleaner lolol #FURTHER INTO THE ABYSS「ic」 #silveringmistress #QUEEN OF THE PALE MOON CIRCUS「silveringmistress | Asaka Narumi」 #VERSE.// THEATER OF THE BRANDED #.//ALSO ITS FINALLY TIME TO UPGRADE THE CIRCUS TO HOWLS MOVING CASTLE LMAO TO FINALLY MATCH THE YGO CARD I NAMED THE VERSE AFTER LOL #.//a moving theater that doubles as a mobile fortress will make for an amazing setting later :] #.//(can't wait for kai to burn it down again lmaooooooooo) #.//also i just love how ren's basiaclly moved into her room for years now and they still call it her room and not their room LMAOO #.//LIKE HE DEF HAD HIS OWN OFFICE/ROOM BUT HE NEVER USES IT LOL #.//it's ren's escape bc its asaka's. Asaka is his safe space;;;;;;;; not that he says it aloud which is very Ren of him lololol #.//AND THATS WHY IT'S KINDA SAD THEY'RE UPGRADING AND HE WANTS THE NIGHT TO LAST FOREVER #.//this isn't new but it's been done and i'mkinda using it as a way to get used to tumblr again whoops. buT U FINALLY GGET TO READ THIS ONE #.//IF I HAVEN'T SHARED IT WITH U YET ALREADY THAT IS LMAO #.//also no pressure to reply to this one lolol

[femboty2k]

well someone clearly likes how I think about robopussy (with average girlrizz) you have any rants loaded?

-clears throat- I personally feel that robofucking goes hand in hand as the natural evolution of being attracted to things like armour and workwear. My main points being as follows: Workwear: Thick fabrics/leather, buckles, buttons, you can feel the body through it Next step: Armour Armour: Metal, leather, soft skin underneath, contrast in texture and temperature makes it more erotic (sensory deprivation too if you're into that cause metal or what have you stops you from feeling someone's body/touch completely Next step: Robots Robots: Cold metal against soft warm skin, softer bits in between metal chunks/plates, weighty bodies, warm electronics, hard metal underneath soft fabrics

anyway you're 100% right on your take and I'll reblog it another 30 times if I feel the need. I both wish I was a bulky robot with exhaust fans and a screen for a face and would let a chunky android raw me until I couldn't see straight. Thank you for listening to me, I write android smut in my free time. Cheers. Always be postin' robots.

#this was rambly so sorry for that #loved to see the absolute deluge of reblogs from you before this lol #I like your blog a bunch! #you seem p cool maybe we should talk or smth idk im shy #hit me up if you like #you also reblogged my like #mutual aid post a few times which I cannot tell you how grateful I am #things are #not good right now #thats why its more important now more than ever to always be postin robots #show me ROBOT THIGHS