#but yeah this year I finally graduated

[olympiansally]

So this year I finally had my trans graduation of Family Holiday Greetings going from careful hugs to violent hand clasping and back slapping by the family uncles - this is it it’s my boy baptism lmao

#the first uncle grabbed my hand and pulled into those horrible chest bump back slap man hugs and to me it was like he started chanting uh #one of us ONE OF US!! #never felt more like a dude lmao #they don’t see you like a man tm until your back in stinging from how hard they’re slapping you #but yeah this year I finally graduated #arrived for christmas and was immediatelly slapped around as onenof the guys #a true bro to the uncles lmao #I know it’s very silly but it’s also very welcoming and nice to see they’re no longer afraid to give me the violent man greeting LMAO #anyway ahh the holidays :)

[sallytwo]

the wesley academy timeline is so inconsistent and makes no sense AT ALL and i know this is star trek where everything is inconsistent all the time (ESPECIALLY for dear wessie) but it makes me so mad. personally.

#it’s kind of implied that he goes in as a sophomore and is a sophomore in the game/first duty #sidenote i thought it was confirmed he was the only sophomore on nova squad. with nick being like yeah we chose you #even though you were young. and like nick is a senior i always assumed jean was too and that jaxa and josh were juniors #but he has to repeat the year at the end of that. meaning he’d be there for 3 more yesrs #AND that’s late season 5 every season is about a year and in journeys end (late season 7) he’s about to gradute #SO IT DOESNT ADD UPP I KNOW IT DOESNT MATTER. BUT IT MATTERS. to ME!!! #and also final mission he would enter as a sophomore (the academic year had already started) but then he’s STILL one a year later in s5 #AND IT DOESNT LINE UP AT ALL IF HE STARTS AS A FRESHMAN. because. it’s implied that his time on the enterprise means he’d skip a year #but he’s still obviously in his first year in the game and . NONE IF IT MAKES SENSEEE #if he started as a sophomore and his junior year was first duty that’s contradictory to him being the youngest on the team #IT DOESNT WORKKKK #because if jaxa was a senior. repressed senior year. she would graduate in season 6 AND IN LOWER DECKS SHES NEWLY GRADUATED ON HER FIRST PO #*post. WHATEVERRR IT DOESNT LINE UP. also you cannot tell me she’s a senior you can’t convince me #the fortitude it takes me to type all this up using freshmen sophomore junior and not 4/C 3/C 2/C. IM. STOPPINF MYSELF

[shinmiyovvi]

**Taps microphone and clears throat**

Guess who's gonna graduate junior high this Friday?

#shin's announcement #Yes I'm graduating Junior high this June 9 #No art for now I believe #and art trades would take a bit long to make due to practices and such #I have to get my toga and year book tomorrow yippe #Girl's gonna get a lot of awards for this one huehuehue #Not to brag honestly #But yeah I'm grateful for this kind of moment of my life #A lot has happened throughout my last years as a JHS student #It has ups and downs but I finally made it #Now time to suffer this August as I embark on an adventure as a SHS student yay!!!

[kruxton]

having a Night. havent been alone w my thoughts in a while and im not liking it

#usualy i'd make up some stupid story to fall asleep but its not working now #some news was broken to me just now and i dont know how to feel about it #i mean i do #ok incoming vent #hate the idea hate it so so much but its so selfish of me to think that way #and the issues all lie within ME and i just. i cant change now #not w all the work i put into adapting to this place i cant just. pack it all up and leave to go somewhere else #my future was set here man. all i had left was to finish a year and a half more of secondary school n get thru my IGCSEs and i'l be set #yeah i didnt have a specific plan but i had come to terms w a solid general one that i actually really liked #and now its all Ruined #'dw you'll be going to a good school over there too! much better than where ur at now' i dont want to #i cant i just cant #i cant leave my life here now not when im so close to finally getting my freedom #i was supposed to graduate top of my class here i was supposed to excel in my extra curriculars i was supposed to be KNOWN #god does that sound horrible of me but i cant change the way i feel and how ive always felt #i was set man. i couldve gotten that scholarship and gone overseas #i NEED that scholarship or my family wont be able to afford to put my siblings into good schools #but now my progress is gone! #yeah idfk how the school system shit works but i highly doubt some prestigious ass school is gonna care abt shit i did in my current one #yeah i could be wrong but what if man #what then. what the fuck am i supposed to do #and im scared i wont be able to make friends there #fuck im prbly overthinking this n being such a fucking pussy but #i cant. be alone #not again i cant do that shit again #i have my friends here!!!! and theyre alright i like to be around them so why cant i just stay #im just so tired #i just want to sleep #but all i can think about is this #vent

[worstsequence]

officially a student again with schoolwork to do 😑

#graduating high school finally didnt u say that last year and the year before that yeah and i was full of shit etc etc #🐯.archive

[cypric-rat-hyperfixation]

hi i wanted to leave message for you because your pinned post wording scared me for a long time thinking im not allowed here because use mogai + and ace and things. sounded like not allowed? many / and _ make reading hard for some disabled people sorry

Oh hell sorry

No yeah the people who get blocked are people who are against microlabels and aro/ace inclusion.

We here are in favor of microlabels and aspec people and gender nonconformity (including pronouns) and whatnot. Meaning you're fine

#I've got to clean that thing up sometime #I'm just. very busy and low spoons #not sure when I last updated anybody on this but ? #well in the late summer I'd decided to take the year off from school to focus on therapy. so I did #that was until November when I found out my fucking school is closing. like no longer holding classes after this December #well shit woulda been really sexy t know that before i took a medical leave I would've just toughed it #out #because I was set to graduate this May but I fucking digress #so I came back for this semester and will have to take the summer semester and I'll be done #but so I'm back in school now much sooner than I wanted to be and yeah. I'm not successful in the academic setting #I was successful actually in my fast food job setting (before they closed the store and told us NIGHT OF. FINAL NIGHT NEVER OPENING AGAIN 😍) #and yeah it's stressful. started last week and the syllabi are just. so daunting I'm not ready for this I wasn't ready for this #I wanna be back in that shitass kurger 🅱️ing kitchen with my autism babie friend I made while working there that's it ): #anyways time for the real tags #dammit i keep forgetting to make and use an ask tag #not rats but worth sharing

[pinktinselmonstrosity]

Oh no, how come you don’t have enough credits?

I do technically have enough credits, but the UCU (university and colleged union) is in a pay dispute with the universities at the moment and as a result they're doing a marking and assessments boycott. that means even though i've handed in all my work it can't get marked until the dispute is resolved and i therefore can't get a degree.

people who have 60 final year credits (for example if they finished a module before the boycott started) are getting granted interim degrees but my modules don't work out like that (i did one 60 credit module, one 20 credit module, and my dissertation, which is worth 40 credits) so i don't even have enough credits for that. i'll get a transcript with all the marks that are available (my credits from first and second year, and possibly the 20 credit module from this year bc i don't think that professor is striking) but apart from that i won't get a classified degree until after the boycott is called off

#i'm not blaming the union ofc (solidarity forever) it's the fucking university's fault #my professors were sure that an agreement would be reached before our graduation #but i guess they underestimated how badly the uni wanted to fuck them over #there's literally nothing i can do which is the worst fucking feeling #i need my degree and final transcript before i can be fully accepted onto my master's course so. yeah i may be fucked #gonna call that uni this afternoon and ask about the process if i don't get my degree 🥴 #but yeah. shit sucks #i guess basically every final year student in the uk is in this situation but still #🧃

[fictional-worlds-are-exquisite]

i have my uni graduation tomorrow eeeee i have the hat with the tassel!!! there’s nothing else i require from life now

#lindsey don't play with the tassel challenge #leave it alone challenge #hhhhhhh #i graduated uni last year but graduation was postponed multiple times due to covid #and it just felt like...idk #ok i did that #now i move out of the uni flat and figure out a job i guess #but having that ceremony finally is making me weirdly excited #like i'm realising for the first time yeah! i got a degree! #it's so weird #i'm gonna sleep now #because i have to be up at ass o'clock tomorrow

[vouseofwolves]

my last exam in 8 hours:D

#stresssed #also not technically last bc i still have matura exams left in may #buttt last final #thoughts on homeschooling: #never got a tutor in those past 3 years exhausted myself to the point where i need to take a gap year #bcs the thought of studying makes me so sick i want to cry #but also taught so much responsibility and i mastered my own way of learning #huge amounts of material #and ik itll help me in the future if i decide to study further #and i actually remember the shit i studied so #and i believe that if i had access to mental help and got diagnosed and prescribed meds that would help me with #concentration and anxiety and all #it would be a so much better experience #but ill be seeking help when i graduate later this spring:) #gonna start adult life with actually taking care of myself for all those years that my parents didn't #so yeah #life will be ok whatever happens

[youremyonlyhope]

Pippin is my favorite musical of all time.

But unfortunately, I seem to fixate on it during times of my life when my brain is especially existential, anxious, depressed, etc.

The last few days, I've been thinking about Pippin a lot, reading analyses of it, listening to the music. Just generally enjoying my comfort musical.

Then I remembered that earlier this week, my therapist heard me describing how I feel unfulfilled while unemployed and doing a lot of stuff for other people or to make other people happy and not doing anything for myself, all while having a completely messed up sleep schedule. And she said "Hmm... honestly... that sounds a little like depression."

And I was like "No. No. Because I am doing things. It's not like when I've been depressed in the past." but now that I'm back to fixating on Pippin, I think she was somewhat onto something since that's usually a bad sign. Yay!

#pippin #it's kind of sad that my comfort musical is pippin. but like. it's comforting for a reason. i need the comfort. #i'm currently being overworked by the theater i volunteer with because i was brought on to sew some pieces #and a couple turned into 6 pieces and then adding trims to other things and repairing a bunch of costumes #and completely deconstructing 2 different dresses to make them into new things #and then further alterations and tailoring and yeah this is not what i had signed up for #and how i need to learn to say no because i now have no time to do what i want to do with my free time #plus the jobs i've applied to have not gotten back to me and blah blah blah i'm doing nothing with my life at the moment #and past pippin obsessions have been senior year of high school when i had no clue what to do with my life #into freshman year of college when i was happier but still feeling strange about having no direction #then junior/senior year of college when i once again had no clue what i was doing with my life but about to graduate. #then one year post-college when i was considering leaving my job in the next year-ish to pursue theater #THEN during the really dark era of the quarantine in April just before May hit aka the lowest i've been in over a decade #literally crying every single day i was so stressed and anxious and depressed #and now. after a year of switching jobs. finally thinking i know what i want to do. and now having to actually do it. #while unemployed because my literal dream job that was supposed to last at least 4 months to a year only lasted 2 months

[corvigae]

WE! LOVE! GETTING! GOOD! NEWS!!

#my new job qualifies for my intership requirement for my degree WAHOO!! #which means i'll most likely be able to FINALLY GRADUATE BY THE END OF THIS YEAR #HELL YEAH HELL YEAH HELL YEAH #speaking of which i start said new job tomorrow so WISH ME LUCK!!! #and yes this is the job that being a nerd and havings sims spreadsheets helped me get #personal grumblings

[art-heap]

whathifi and soundguys are all Liars to some degree, Sony WF-C500 is in fact muddy as shit and yet here are so many people saying “it’s so clear” it really isn’t

#this guy in the shop DID say to me it's the low end one but online they're all saying it's good audio for the price #IT IS NOT? #it'll do now for the next year since my jaybird freedom2 have died after a few years of use but #yeah this is NOT good quality audio #i will keep my eye on the final ze3000. maybe try it out next year. maybe by then they'll have an eq app or something #i only use wireless for exercise too so im not keen on returning my used sony's now #do not believe their lies... and all these reviewers... what are they graduating from??? airpods??? you think this sounds good? you think th

[trahoalai]

starting to think it was a bad idea to take classes a grade ahead of me

#need to go back in time and stop little jasmine from making this cursed schedule #tbf my logic was like “lets get all my credits and then I can have an easy senior year >:)” #I had no idea the state would change it so no one needs those credits to graduate anymore #and yeah next year will be very lax for me it'll also be very lonely. the ppl who have been my classmates for 3 years are seniors now #yknow how difficult it is to do final group projects when everyone else has senioritis???? and they know they dont need this credit?? #still Im gonna miss them.......esp when I go into my senior year not knowing anybody thats actually in my grade #my ass is not!!!!!!! going to prom lmao am I missing out be honest

[miiversian]

randomly feel like going scorched earth with vchuuber fanart now. lol ! (disclaimer this is a 4 am post, mostly stemming off me realizing im losing my old passion & interest in the funny vee chuubers)

its mostly just cause i was more interested in their personas' lore than the actual streams/streamer in the first place... so seeing everyone get excited and hype over big events and me not being able to share that hype anymore (mostly due to my oshi retiring & the big group dynamic changing) has been crazy alienating

tldr never interact with a big fanbase worst mistake of my life. the discourse is fucking crazy lmao

#shoutout to u7trakill for finally ending a nearly 2 year toxic parasocial relationship lmao! #tbf my experience over the past 1.75 years has been #80 percent good/neutral and like 20% negative #tldr being a vtuber fan has put me in presence of the craziest mood swings for the longest periods of time #mostly gonna blame it on the fans and less the streamer themselves #bc guess what!! twt is a hellhole!! #n it doesnt help that a big chunk of fans are *those* types of anime fans #ie fucking freaks #and i hated that i had to share a space with them #YES curate your own experience. whatever. #doesnt change the fact that i still had to occasionally bear witness to the WORST kinds of ppl #liking pure straight up fiction is way less messy than liking streamers lol #sorry if that came off really harsh #its just. im fed up lmao #the highs of interacting with the fanbase when we had our highs was amazing #but GOD the lowest lows sucked so so so bad and there was/is infighting #anyway im rambling #doesnt help that ppl keep bringing up a very sour moment the fans had that id honestly wish wed forget about!! but they!! keep bringing it u #and to be fair!!! it was BAD #but i wish theyd stop implying the Event in every 'fan etiquette' post #i hold SO MUCH regret over that event even if i didnt go as far as some other fans did #and honestly! i cant believe it even happened! thats how bad it was #and it very obvs affected him HARD #but i really REALLY wish we would just. treat it as a yeah this happened thing now #bc hes Graduated. under mysterious circumstances #and theres nothing we can do now! #hate to be a past is in the past person but what can you fucking do!!! #delete later #deepest sigh #vent post

[neverendingford]

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#tag talk #making progress in therapy because I finally got annoyed enough to go on a twenty minute monologuing about how #I'm tired of getting projected onto and put in these cute little “here's how to manage your anxiety” boxes #yeah body scanning is cool I learned that seven years ago when I was having panic attacks and now I don't have them anymore #actually when I'm anxious focusing on all my five senses makes me even more overstimulated so I close my eyes and don't focus on what I hear #yes I already know how anxiety works and at this point I'm past the emotional fear response and it's now just an overloaded cpu problem #hey hey hey fucking listen to me yeah the circle of control is cute but when people are stupid enough I actually Can control them #I tried to tell her politely that I've already graduated from psych 101 basic bitch mental illness school for freaks. #but she didn't really get it so I stewed for half an hour while she talked about bullshit and then I kinda went off about it #like. hey I'm not incapable of holding relationships long term because I'm afraid of them it's because I'm a freak who doesn't belong. #I'm not afraid of other people. if anything people are afraid of Me. and yes that does make me afraid of social rejection as a whole #but can we please move past kindergarten levels of self understanding and move on to something useful? #yeah yeah yeah you all keep on being like “hmm let's address your depression” I'm so fucking tired of getting told coping methods #how many more snide comments about suicide hotlines do I need to make before you get the hint that I don't just need a hug. #anyway I'm gonna make a list of things I want to talk about and problems I want to address and email it to her and hopefully that helps

[devotedlystrangewizard]

sometimes i barely even think about being trans anymore because its just such a normal part of my life now where everyone uses my name & all but now that im graduating im soon getting a piece of paper that has my deadname on it as proof that i graduated and. i dont know. kinda ruins the entire graduation part

#not only am i being deadnamed #the fact that i havent used this name in like. 3+ years. #makes it feel like im not the one graduating? #this graduation isnt mine its for the person i was 4 years ago and they no longer exist #and everyone keeps telling me how excited i should be because yeah i finally made it after 7 years of constant struggle #but it doesnt feel like a victory. #personal #ramblings #we discussed it with my coach and she said we had to have my legal name on it because. i dont know. fuck trans people i guess #and im just so tired #i had to get through high school through some of the worst times of my life #being 14 and deeply suicidal. transphobic best friend at 16. just the depression and anxiety disorders dragging me down the entire time #but something that should feel like the greatest accomplishment of my life so far just. feels bad #much like how my old best friend turned out to be transphobic #when i thought id found like. an actual friend. and then i had to drop him #and this isnt because im trans its because society's view of trans people sucks ass #we deserve better