#can't believe its that time of year again

[the-massive-simp]

I've been thinking about fem/gn reader losing their virginity to kaeya, venti and kaveh... But maybe they accidentally get hurt and have to stop? I wanna know how they'd act when something like that happens (:

a/n: I love this kind of prompt <3 here you go anon! I'm slowly trying to fight writer's block so its only headcanons and not drabbles but I tried my best. sadly there's no venti because i dont really feel comfortable writing suggestive or nsfw things with him (i know i got your request before changing my rules so you did nothing wrong. sorry for the inconvenience). and remember everyone: a yes can turn into a no at any moment, and that's completely fine. consent is key. also I think that my love for kaveh shows in this one because his part is twice kaeya's one

warnings: it's not graphic smut but sex is mentioned so don't read if you're uncomfortable with that. no mentions of protections (make sure use them irl)

♡Kaeya♡

I imagine Kaeya being a super sex positive person, like for him sex is not a big deal as long as there's respect for the other person

so he was probably ready to have sex with you since you started dating 💀

but of course he didn't push you, he waited for you to be ready to have your first time with him

one time you have dinner at his place and an heated make up sessions evolves in discarding eachother clothes

he asks for your consent like 100 times while you two move to the bedroom

he knows how important foreplay is, so he makes sure to prepare you for the main act

then he slowly pushes himself in, an heavy breath leaving his lips as he hides his face in your neck, his arms supporting him so he doesn’t put all of his weight on you

you immediately feel uncomfortable

the stretch feels too much and its almost painful

at first you think it's normal but it doesn't go away even after he begins to gently trust in you

if anything, it gets worse, but he fails to notice tour discomfort

tears start to spill from your eyes as you put your hands on kaeya chest and tell him to stop

he immediately freezes, concern and guilt flooding his face

"Can I pull out?"

you nod and he backs away from your body, opting to sit back to give you some space

"Did it hurt? Did I do something wrong? Should I go get anything?"

he listens to you as you try to explain him how you felt

he goes getting a warm cloth to gently clean you up before embracing you in his arms

he feels really bad for not having noticed your discomfort sooner

you tell him that's its fine, you thought you were ready but maybe you were too nervous

you two keep talking about it for a while until you fall asleep

after that for a while he's a bit reluctant to try again because he doesn't want to hurt you

but when you tell him that you really want to take this step with him, he finally agrees

expect 3 hours of foreplay

♡Kaveh♡

now now

sweet kaveh loves to spoil you, taking you out to have dinner and go shopping

however his wallet does not enjoy it as much as he does

so you often have dates where you just go for a walk together or have a picnic

it's during one of those dates that he casually mentions the subject of sex

now, he doesn’t want to force you but he loves you so much and the idea of you two doing that together looks amazing to him

the conversation its not meant to push you, but rather to offer you an occasion to talk about it together and see if you feel the same about him

when you tell him you're ready (be it that same date or after years) he gets so excited

he can't believe you're going to share the magic moment of your first time with him of all people

he probably asks you if you two can go at your place since he doesn't want alhaitham around

once you two get down to business, he's the sweetest guy ever

he kisses every single inch of your body, basically worshipping you

makes sure to keep eye contact with you most of the time so he can notice if anything is wrong

after the foreplay, he lets you get on top of him, straddling his lap while his back is propped up by some pillows

he wants you to be the one in charge so you can choose the pace of events

the moment you lower yourself on him, he knows something is wrong

yes, he does feel a lot of pleasure from finally being inside of you, but he doesn't miss the face you make

when after a few seconds he sees tears pooling in your eyes he has the confirmation of his suspects

he immediately grabs your hips and pulls you up, making you sit on his thighs before comfortly rubbing your arms and shoulders

"What's wrong baby?"

he's so gentle with you, holding you close while you sniffle in his neck, hands resting on his chest

he strokes your hair and reassures you that you don't have to do anything if you're not ready, that he'd wait a thousand years for you, that he loves you as much as before, that sex is not the important thing in your relationship

he waits for you to calm down before asking you what exactly you think went wrong

if you tell him you want to try again he's completely fine with it, but he becomes even more attentive and gentle, making sure that this time you'll be able to enjoy it

#genshin x reader #genshin impact x reader smut #genshin impact x reader #genshin x reader fluff #genshin smut #genshin fluff #kaeya smut #kaeya x reader #kaeya fluff #kaveh smut #kaveh x reader #kaveh x reader smut #kaveh x reader fluff #kaveh fluff #kaeya x reader smut #kaeya x reader fluff

[dudecunt]

little boy spasming on his mom's cock, cunt sopping wet and well-trained from years of being gaslit and raped shown the full extent of her love. his mom is harder than ever, wearing a vibrating cock ring so it buzzes against his plump clit with every balls deep thrust. she readjusts so she can fuck his cervix, cock ring steady on his angry little button. the expression on his face, completely void of any higher-level processing, eyes rolled back, drool streaking his chin and neck from the blowjob he gave her earlier -- she can't believe her own child looks like that. she's never gonna be able to not think about it when she's alone and stroking her clit.

she's glad she decided to set up the camera tonight. usually she uses her phone to film herself plowing his cunt, but with the tripod set up she can get her hands all over her boy while recording all of his cute, squirmy orgasms. he's been cumming so hard tonight too -- working that heart plug into his ass was a great idea alongside the ring. the kid doesn't know what to do with himself.

she's just grateful that she has the willpower to not immediately flood his womb with her load while feeling his drenched pussy grip her clit. still, she's struggling a bit the longer they make love -- each time he starts shaking and thanking her for another orgasm, she has to seat herself balls deep and stay completely still. the combination of the vibrations, his cunt having something thick and throbbing to suckle on, and his asshole clenching around the bejeweled plug is clearly distracting him enough from the break in his mother's pace, though. just to cover all her bases, she's leaned down so she can kiss him whenever she stops, and she switches to more of a slow grind once she calms down. he's definitely cumming more than he can think about it.

he's starting to choke on air, eyes totally white now, convulsing violently as his cervix struggles and slurps at her tip, and that's her cue to pull out to give him a break. she groans at the nasty, creamy noise of her cock sliding out, chuckling at how he squeals and squirts hard on her exiting length. they're still connected, his plump, young cunt fucked open obscenely. she really doesn't know how he's managed to take all of her over the months -- she's much bigger than most women. the kid's a natural-born whore.

"...mom," he manages, whole body shaking. she swallows down a strangled, short moan at the sight of cream drooling from his clenching hole, gripping her cock for a moment just to stroke its whole length right in front of his broken-in pussy. "yeah, kiddo?" she grunts, feeling her balls tighten up.

"why're you...why'm i getting fucked like this?" he whines, and she pauses, letting out a short, overwhelmed huff as she freezes, trying not to shoot ropes over his visibly throbbing clit at the words alone. holy fuck.

"'m sorry, baby," she says, feeling a little guilty, which is an emotion she admittedly doesn't feel all that often when she's dicking her boy down. but looking at his teary eyes, his puffy, teased nipples, how his lower half still trembles like she's still actively demolishing his boycunt...a tiny bit of sympathy creeps into her brain despite the delicious heat sinking further into her body. "mom's almost done. you think you can cum a few more times for me?"

she's already slipping back inside, not waiting for an answer. she sighs as she feels that incredible slide and her tip already squishing against his cervix. when he tries to open his lidded eyes, she can see how he's struggling to keep them uncrossed. "icann'tt," he attempts, but she's already forcing him right open, grinding her sensitive head into that tight pucker.

"doesn't matter," she mutters, angling her hips so he has nowhere to escape from the vibrator again, feeling up the soft peaks of his little tits. "take your breeding."

he frantically holds onto her forearms as she thumbs at his nipples, legs askew and kept apart by her body in between them as she digs deep inside him, and she rumbles in approval. poor fuckin' kid. the noises coming out of him are more akin to small, scared prey. it's incredibly erotic paired with the filthy noises coming from his traumatized conditioned happy pussy. she's so glad she decided to start raping spoiling her kid like this -- this is the best stress relief she's discovered in years. he clearly likes it too -- his underwear is almost always ruined when she does his laundry. he clearly can't get his mom's clit out of his head, even at school. even then, his grades are better, more consistent, and he's made far more friends this year than he usually does. her baby's been glowing. seems like he just needed some momcock to break him out of his shell.

he's already cumming when she bottoms out, a broken, pretty moan stuttering out of her as she feels her balls pulse hard against the cold metal of his plug. she grins, a breathy laugh spilling out of her when he wraps his legs tighter around her with every spurt of her fertile seed. a panicked, fucked-out mommyyy slips from his tightened vocal cords and a grunt escapes her, cock twitching with how hard he's clenching around her. maybe she...shouldn't enjoy this as much as she does, but that just makes it even hotter.

as she works her load into him, she watches him buck up against her with a tight grip still on her arms. the way he's looking at her is so maddeningly innocent, more than a touch of fear there, contrasted with his drooling, dominated pussy. he's practically daring her to keep fucking him full of cum. her cock jerks inside of him at the thought.

fuck. with the rate his breasts are growing...she's really gonna have to start wearing a condom soon.

#wow #4gepl4y #t4t ns/fw #t4t nsft #trans ns/fw #trans nsft #breeding k1nk #!nc3st #momcon #corruption k1nk #r4pepl4y #if i edited this after posting no i did not

[vitiateoriginator]

Birthday keroppi time B)

#screams #my birthday is next Friday holy shit I'm gonna be 25 #can't believe its that time of year again #and not me blanking about what I want to get and do for my birthday #wtf could I ask for that I can't get or go do myself #anything I would want is out of the question because of expense (like a new pc. I still haven't gotten one) #I guess I could ask for pokemon legends arceus. I've been meaning to buy it but haven't been able to justify spending $60 #on a game I might take my seeet ass time playing thru cause I hate using my switch lite (the screen is so fucking small its annoying) #but its an idea at least #as for what I want to do? man idk #we'll probably go to olive garden like most years which Im cool with #although nowadays my datemate and I go there often for dates (we were just there yesterday for instance) #but I love olive garden so I won't say no to going #maybe to that historical township thats a half hour drive away? #datemate and I were supposed to go today as part of my vacation #but he talked me out of it (like he does with most big trip plans I make 😒) #the reason he did so it because its hot as balls today and sunny with a hogh uv index #we'd be outside for most of the trip and her reckons being in the heat will make him miserable and a killjoy #because he's heat sensitive. I am too so I can't really argue with him on that #so maybe it'll be cooler on the 15th so we can go #if not I don't really mind waiting til October because that township is better in the fall #but anyways those are the ideas I have rn #I'll probably ask for a pokemon plushie as a gift #I'd kill to get a new stufful plushie but those are rare and expensive thanks to scalpers #I'd be down to get another Vaporeon like my datemate bought me last year. or another of my favorites #Im not gonna be too picky this year even tho its a big birthday (my brain is fully developed) #because a lot of my birthdays turn out to be shit. last year was really nice tho #but I don't want to get my hopes up for anything and then be depressed that day like what often happens #so I will just be grateful to get some good tasting cake. that's literally the bare minimum of what I want without question #sam's rants about life

[perexcri]

happy one year to her and one of my better opening lines for a fic <3

now, because i'm curious:

#to hell and back again #i genuinely can't believe it's a year but i guess that's how time works huh :') #anyway umm gonna leave some retrospective thoughts in the tags: #1. i hold this fic near to my heart but also have a very complicated relationship with it now- #mostly bc i feel like my writing has improved so much and it's hard for me to reread parts of this lol #2. i honestly feel like it's a product of its time? like i think if i was publishing it now people wouldn't like it nearly as much #(especially with the opening line wHICH HAS A POINT AND COMES FULL CIRCLE AT THE END OK JUST TRUST ME) #3. on a sadder note this also means it's been a year since we had to put my family's eldest dog down #i remember i was gonna post this first chapter later when i had finished another fic up #but then our dog just like. straight up started dying on my mom's bedroom floor #and my mom was too distressed/upset to take her to the vet so i had to put her in my car and take her on my own #and then had to go to work right after that #so yeah i was upset and was like 'well dammit im gonna post this then bc it's silly and makes me laugh and i am sad' #so yeah!! some thoughts and behind the scenes info for anyone who's bothered to read this many tags #idk these things just feel like Tags thoughts not Post thoughts #anyway thanks for all the love this one has gotten!! i'm glad people are still enjoying it though *will voice* it's been a year mike #byler

[trimmedarmor]

doing the equivalent of gripping something intensely hard then forcing myself to let it go every time i see something about the stupid fandom drama i got pulled into earlier this year

#nothing bad ppl just... bringing up its existence...AGAIN...... #every time i see it i wanna go on a rant for a billion years but the worst place to do that would be on tumblr #I rly don't wanna see anyone talking abt it unless it's to criticize the ppl who started the false accusations or to apologize to us #for the harassment #Buster: You Really Think Someone Would Do That? Just Go On the Internet and Tell Lies? #anyway I cant believe ive had the misfortune of interacting w some1 who has to b vindictive toward others to quell their own insecurity #to accuse us of racism because he wasn't allowed to be in a personal friends discord group... #and then saying that we didn't wanna let him in bc he wasn't a 'popular' account? 1. he has way more followers than some ppl in the server #hence why he was able to get so many ppl to attack us #2. he can't keep his own story straight. First we're racist then we're ableist then we gatekeep popularity? #Dude... we don't like you because you're vindictive and take minor slights way too personally...hence...everything that fucking happened #anyway idk who reported him but i thank them for it and i hope that was worth their account getting suspended for getting paid to harass us #to anyone outside of all this reading this mess... please question the validity of ppls accounts if they don't offer concrete proof #and the only proof is based on assuming that certain actions COULD POSSIBLY line up to the accusations #this includes if multiple people have the same accusation without proof because that's EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED #except it was dumber because several of their accusations literally contradicted themselves #wowww people apologized and informed their audience about possible microagressions once they were informed. they MUST be racist! #and if you don't want to dig into it that deep..then by all means mind your own damn business before you join in on someone else's witchhun

[miladysatsuki]

job interview in 4 hours.......

#I've gotten every job I've ever wanted but I also can't tell if I REALLY want this job or just like... #feel like a complete fucking loser being unemployed #4 years strong baby #jk I've had jobs in that time but getting fired in 2019 did something fucked to my brain and then my dad died and I've never been capable o #working 60h weeks ever again its hard to believe I used to literally only care about work and have no hobbies #I really miss my 2022 job........ I definitely could have been normal there and I was for a good 6 months #well 4 days a week normal thats like as close as I'll ever get I'm pretty sure #but alas #as a romantic I had no choice but to leave that job and move across the country to a place where I essentially can be a janitor or remote #anyways this job is similar to my 2022 job but fully remote and also less queer #but like emails and organizing and shit I'm good at so #wish me luck #zeev no

[nymph1e]

Wow Luke "my attachments to my friends and family saved the entire fucking galaxy" Skywalker and Ahsoka "I was treated so poorly by the jedi order that I realised it was deeply flawed and could not continue my association with them" Tano really decided to stick with the obviously warped ideology of the past jedi, eh?

And then Luke gave a fucking toddler an "abide by my rules or get out" ultimatum and stuck with it.

What pisses me off is that this is clearly all done to align with the goddamn stupid fucking sequels. I HAD been hoping they'd at least ignore them a little. But no, all the character assassination bullshit has not only followed through, buy caught up to Ahsoka now as well as Luke.

#the book of boba fett #luke skywalker #THEY ARE DOING MY BOY SO DIRTY #this is such bad storytelling #its so lazy #they wanted grogu back with din for season 3 because he is a money machine #and instead of creating a nuanced story around it #they just hamfisted ooc BULL #i am so mad rn #if you defend lukes characterisation in the sequels i would say go watch the ot again #because i used to defend it then i rewatched the ot for the first time in years and remembered that #oh yeah #luke really did just put the whole galaxy on the line because he believed that genocidal child murdering darth vader could be good again #all because he was lukes father and was good once #my boy saw a literal monster and went #no he can still be good i know it #but you expect me to believe my boy would have doubts over his own nephew for a FRACTION of a second? #i can understand luke cutting himself off from the force and deciding the jedi should end after his pupils die #I CAN'T accept everything that leads to that happening #because it is all so ENORMOUSLY out of character its laughable #i blame the force awakens #that movie was terrible set up #anyway im angry

[batemanofficial]

i need weed. i need a medical card so bad or im gonna go out of my fuckign GOURD

#speak friend and enter #let me preface this by saying that im doing everything in my power to not let mental illness wipe its greasy hands on me #however. im insane in the membrane and i can feel myself slipping back into lunatic mode #i have to go for an mri next week and i genuinely don't know if i can do it. i am so fucking terrified you have no idea #i'll spare y'all the grisly details but i was chronically ill as a kid (and not just like sick a lot it was touch and go there for a bit) #and as a result of certain procedures i had to undergo to abate the aforementioned chronic illness #i developed ptsd that manifests as an irrational but obscenely debilitating fear of hospitals #like i can't go in a hospital without having a psychotic episode. like clinically i just can't do it #but as part of my yearly post-whatever care i have to get imaging done and this year that entails an mri and. im just scared #i spent a significant portion of my time immediately post ptsd symptom presentation believing that my doctors were trying to kill me #like for sport. like i thought there was some larger deep state esque plan in place to enact further medical barbarism upon me for giggles #and obviously you and i both know that's a delusion with no basis in reality but that doesn't mean i can stop myself from believing it. #it's like a word-of-god thing. i know logically that it's not true but there's a voice in my head screaming 'they want to flay you alive' #and i am currently between therapists and also unmedicated bc my last therapist was too focused on inner child work #to give me the prozac and weed card i really need #like that's great that you think healing my inner child will solve this but my inner child is covered in her own viscera. can we pivot mayb #but anyway for the moment im just wallowing in my own fear and im doubly scared bc im finding myself falling into rabbit holes again #like empirically the worst thing that's gonna happen as a result of this mri is that they're gonna say i have to have another surgery #and the technology has advanced to a point where its way less invasive than what ive had previously #but the constant dull roar of my thoughts about the whole deal is just. increasingly delusional nonsense #and not to be overly morbid or anything but i decided a long time ago that if i ever had to be admitted to the hospital again i would rathe #well you know. and i don't wanna die. honestly i don't. but the idea of wading through that particular brand of hell again is torture #and im not gonna kill myself. im not. ive been working on that impulse for a long time and i don't want to undo all of that work #but im scared and i dont wanna spend the rest of my life in n out of the hospital or as a substance-abusing recluse. is that so much to ask #i want to fix this. i do. i don't wanna live in a hole anymore as fantastic mr fox would say. but the horrors persist #and i often find myself increasingly unable to cope. hence why i need the weed #anyway i'll be fine. eventually. i hope. but in the meantime i do want to say i appreciate you all. i mean it #i tend to regard myself (fairly or otherwise) as difficult to get along with in real life so despite the fact that i don't talk w y'all muc #i do appreciate y'all being there and making me feel like more of a person than i feel like i am lately <3

[wetslug]

.

#having a tough time being non judgemental rn about my roommate #10 years ago she had a child who is being raised by the dads family #she has absolutely no contact w the child and doesnt want to #and now shes like 'lol i think i may n pregnant again' ok its not lol to me i can't believe you dont take this seriously #how are you so flippant about this #all i can think about is this 10 year old who knows his mom never wanted him #situation is undoubtably complex and the child may be living a gr8 life idk but. it hurts to think about

[chantlight]

I still refuse to accept Cassandra having the same views on the Chantry at the end as at the start, that it is salvageable and necessary to salvage. to the point I don't think she'd become Divine even if she was elected. they put her faith through the woodchipper, overturned the very foundations of her life, proved everything she'd ever known was a lie, made her doubt whether her own faith that had defined her all these years was real or the construct of a spirit — then they didn't follow through.

#OOC / HOLLY. #it is so spicy !! she is so good as a character !! #her tagline is The Believer #she is immediately identifiable by her faith to the point that the way Solas and Cole speak of her #is similar to if she was a spirit of faith an embodiment of it #she is the youngest Seeker ever to pass her Vigil and with less training than any in history #which can only be accomplished by having faith so strong it calls a spirit of Faith to break Tranquility #she has been the Right Hand to two Divines and all but the face of the Chantry for twenty years #she disagreed at times but she never doubted #she is THE BELIEVER #and her faith takes the most vicious beating during DA:I — which thematically is all about the world being turned on its head #again she reaches a point where she doubts whether her own faith she has felt was ever real #the one certainty the one constancy the foundation on which she built her life her defining trait #and she's not even sure she ever felt it #she is HAUNTED by Corypheus saying the throne of the gods was empty and what that implies about the Maker's existence #she doesn't know what's real and what's true anymore #they gave us this DELICIOUS storyline and they did not follow through #I just needed them to stick the landing and they didn't stick the landing all they had to do was stick the landing #no way in hell does her stance on the Chantry remain unchanged by the end and no way in hell does she become Divine #I don't think she knows what to do by the end. she can't be convicted anymore everything's a lie

[vitiateoriginator]

If jury duty really is a "random lottery" like they say how come I've gotten summoned every single year I've been eligible (including today)?

#I haven't gotten a summons in 3 years because I served on a jury back in 2021 #but every year besides that since I registered to vote I've been summoned #literally damn near every year since I was 18 #I just got a summons today! #its insane #I better not get picked again I can't afford to be off work for longer than a couple days #also this time I have to travel by lyft to another part of the county #I haven't looked up how far away it is but I believe its far from my area #it's literally gonna cost me more to get there than Im gonna get paid to be on a jury #its suuuucks #sam's rants about life

[raedear]

do you ever read something and it's so simple but so wildly evocative that you just know it'll live in your mind rent free forever? Just a simple description but one which is so utterly perfect that you know everything you'll ever need to know.

"... And ultimately all but the cigarette fingers and thumb of his left hand."

cigarette fingers, how lovely, how terrible

#anyway I'm reading this great book rn #loving life #can't believe my brain managed to switch its pilot light on again for the first time in years

[bellwitchfaggot]

I never lost the fucking plot. I never ever did. Gn forreal ig I gotta go check on one of my niblings to make sure he actually went to sleep cuz he hates taking his psych meds on account of how they're crazy fucking sedatives but he can't sleep without waking night terrors on account of everything my fucking family and church did to him for daring to be a toddler who wanted to paint his fucking nails

#how bout a summer wedding instead #gd i cant wait to see all my coworkers again im so fucking tired of being in this evil fucking haunted ass house #i do not believe this man has a psychology degree at all !! #if im choosing .. next ones a cringe ass mcr fanfiction i think its time we revisit our roots . the second half of twenty ninescene that #was supposed to fucking happen commences this time with significantly less incestuous corrective rape on my bday #look what happens when you treat your kids like dogs and you treat your dogs like shit. sometimes they grow up to be crazy fucking #transgender faggots anyway! i never fucking forgot i told anyone who would give me the fucking time of day over and over throughout my life #no matter how many times it meant i died no matter how many times it meant i went crazy no matter how many times i was punished for it #24 is gonna be a great fucking year for me and everyone else can do whatever the fuck they want forever #the dog is going back inside soon. trans bimbo cousin greg won you fucking idiots. i love you all very much and i hope to see you soon #sry for refernencing rpf on main esp considering information i have abt myself and my friends now but that one cringe ass mcr fic king and #country or whatever. its kinda like that #christ i can't wait to be soft again . im gonna teach you how to be literally soooo fucking normal #i will have sex with you in a catholic confessional ONLY if you wear the priest collar. #they were right btw trauma bonding us all was the best way to keep us finding each other no matter what so ig in that regard maybe its like #literally fine or whatever #AND SALEM IS MEETING MIKU SOON AMEN !! #ok gn im gonna like. idk maybe see if theres any fucking alcohol in this house for one last harra before i force myself to sober up again

[cry-ba-bys]

YOU'RE AN ANGEL I'M A DOG OR YOU'RE A DOG AND I'M YOUR MAN YOU BELIVE ME LIKE A GOD I DESTROY YOU LIKE I AM

#Rant ahead I'm already sorry but yk. I'm actually not. #My mental health has been so bad in the last months and right now it feels like I will just never leave the stage of being a mentally ill #Loser. I know I've made so much progress over the years but right now everything hurts again and I feel more alone than ever. Maybe that's #Also why I made this blog but I'm not ready for that thought yet. I built such an amazing social circle with genuinely the most amazing #people ever around me and now I feel like I've destroyed everything again by just not answering them and completely isolating myself for #Fucking months and I can't tell if it's because my friends actually hate me now (which tbf I understand #I love them nonetheless.) #Or if it's just my bad mental state that's making me belive that #That and everything else that just seems to be going wrong is just so so much for me right now. I don't know how long I can do this anymore #But I also don't know any way out of this #I always end up like this and it's so annoying. How am I supposed to ever be a functional adult when talking to people is too much for me? #How am I ever supposed to believe someone can love me when I'm just the way I am #God I hate myself so much. #A few days a week I see one of my friends on the bus when we have to go to work and we chat until it's my stop. Its never more than 5 #Minutes and it's always about school or work and because of that I feel more alone than ever. How am I ever supposed to built meaningful #Friendships If I know after next winter our conversations will just revolve around meaningless shit again. We used to joke about #Building a utopia through political action and we used to sit in a kitchen until 3 am and talk and talk and talk but it all felt so #Meaningful cause we were together and that made everything better. And now I talk to one of them if so happen to catch the bus at the same #Time and we talk about school. It fucking sucks #And it's all my fault