#cant think when that happens yknow

[owen-not-carvour]

why does mischa Not get the karnak’s theme motif in his own style over his bumper?? (ik jane doesn’t get it either but. she’s jane. it makes sense for her)

like is there an actual reason for it or do i just get to read to deep into it and form my own Over-analytical reasoning behind it :)

that being said—

methinks it’s to create Yet Another division between mischa and the rest of them. uraniumites (???sure???) v. Ukrainian yknow..

#hmmmm #i fuckin love the music and motifs in this show it’s so interesting #food for thoughts #i’ll consider it more later when my stomach doesn’t hurt lol #cant think when that happens yknow #anyway— #mischa bachinski #ride the cyclone

[obihoe]

god, the ichibi truly is the most terrible bijuu of them all huh. like he's not even that strong, among the bijuus at least he is the weakest but he seems to be so much more terrible to live with than the others. and gaara ... he is not even That strong either? at least not at first, he breaks down all the time. and his jutsu repertoire is not all that various either, his main strength is his defence but after lee breaks it, all the other opponents he faces afterwards manage to break it as well. gaara i think is the epitome of a failed bijuu-host relationship .. his bijuu might be willing to help him by sharing his power with him but that power is too much for him and moreover, the ichibi doesnt help him exactly either, he moreso just uses him as his marionette to sate his own bloodlust .. as opposed to the other, non-jinchuuriki ninjas, gaara has an INSANE level of power and chakra but he cant channel it properly and its too much to handle for him. the image of his sand shield around his body cracking is fitting i think cuz his power quite literally breaks him apart

#posts #gaara #just remembered this draft .. was watching his fight against naruto (or team 7) recently and god .. #its just so insane i think the way gaara is CONSTANTLY in pain and his powers seem to overwhelm him #like he partly transforms into the ichibi or he gets an arm like the ichibi has #half his face transforms into him. and sometimes he's screaming while it happens #but yknow what also just occured to me? might be a bit of a reach #but when i re-read the 'his power is tearing him apart' .. it reminded me a bit abt mdr .. bc mdr #he also in the end ends up torn apart by his own power. and his power ALSO belongs to a different consciousness #or being or whatever (kaguya) and she has an agency with him. she has a goal that she pursues and she uses mdr for it .. #mdr is in control of the power. he's not breaking down or transforming into something when he doesnt want to #except at the end!! in the end mdr ALSO transforms into someone else without wanting to and he cant stop it from happening #and the power is also too much ... ive talked abt this before but for me the kaguya transformation/manifestation is heavily laden #with symbolism. as in mdr's quite literally ripped apart by the power he has. kaguya pulls in more chakra as she is manifesting #and the amount of it becomes so great that it rips her host (mdr) apart .. the same way that gaara's sandshield cracks #even tho the cracks in the shield do not mean that the ichibi breaks him #but it looks a bit like it does. and when he becomes half ichibi half him. the ichibi is taking control over him #.. in a way. like gaara does want to use him but its more so the other way round. temari is scared the whole time #that he'll lose his control #anyways i feel like im rambling a bit. maybe this isnt rlly going anywhere after all SGDGDS but its interesting to #compare the first blorbo w the current one. maybe the message or commonality or whatever is #that both of these 'bijuu'- host relationships fail. the ichibi doesnt want to be trapped in a human. and kaguya (or all the bijuus) #do not want to be servants to mdr either. in gaara's case its involuntary for both parties. gaara doesnt want to be a jinchuuriki #and the bijuu doesnt want to be trapped in him either. the one who suffers from this here is mainly gaara #bc shukaku dominates their relationship. in mdr's case it is mdr who dominates the bijuu #and its mdr's hubris (his thinking that he will be able to control all of them. can just use them however he wants) #that turns out to be his demise. in both cases i guess its humanity's hubris to think they can take over and use supernatural powers #that do not belong to them and use them for their own purposes. and it both ends with the bijuus who that power belongs to #forcibly taking it back from their hands and destroying their hosts in the process ... something like that #hmm. im just rambling and forcing interpretations into this at this point i think. but yeah

[dizzybizz]

in my head im doing seven different things at once

in reality im doing none of them

#in my head im drawing n playing 5 diff viddy games n watching 2 diff animes n reading 4 diff things n catching up on drawf vods n #ok more than 7 then... #YOU GET EHAT IM SAYING RIGHT. LIKE THERE ARE ALL THESE FUN THINGS I WANT TO DO. THAT I COULDDD D DO BUT WHEN I GO TO DO THEM ITS NOT ENJOYA #BLE. #AND THEY CANT KEEP MY ATTENTION AND AUGHHHHGG i hate >:( when this happens bruh #this also goes for non fun thinvs ofc #its just so frustrating when its something you would normally get so much enjoyment out of and you cant?? yknow #sometimes i think i should get more than 2 hobbies #dizzyoriginals #is ghis just depression..

[wittyworm]

if you dont believe in spirituality and clairvoyance and all that just skippp

so i know it sounds crazy, but i already told my therapist, so idc anymore but does anyone know ANYTHING about mediums. or anyone to contact to help me figure this out. ive been going through a lot the past year but the one i couldnt talk about that was bothering me the most was that i seem to have some sort of clairvoyant.. ability?? that i have no control over. its just as if the universe wills that i know random things that will occur and they happen.

even my family is noticing that it isnt just me making shit up

#like predicting death and random events #viaualizing something in my head and it becomin real after very SPESIFIC things #its not random as very similar things happen to my maternal great grandmother and my paternal grandmother #its becoming a lot more frequent and i want to know if there is SOME way to control it #i grew up around ghosts and spirits so idk maybe its something to do with that #but idk. my first ever experience with clairvoyance was when i was 8 years old or so. it was the strongest one i ever had #i had a very clear dream of how the entire day would play out #and then it did #and it never happened again until the last year and its so scary man!! i had to quit my job because i was being plagued with visions of #my own death if i stayed #i took it as a sign and it hasnt stopped happening since #but ive been SO scared to talk about it. with ANYONE outside of my family hut yknow #this is my personal blog so #i dont really care if ppl think im crazy anymore cause theres just some things in this world that cant be explained #and im terrified experiencing this alone

[transfemzedaph]

sometimes i think abt beef & anderz and then beef & iskall and wonder if like. he thinks of them as similar. i wonder if iskall reminds him of him.

#original post tag #the tags on this are better tban the actual post tbh #in my brain its like beef/iskall is a weird like. yeah they kinda do have a thing but also beef is sorta projecting his feelings #for his old friend who is so similar. and like. yknow. #beef tries not to compare them. tries to think abt the time all 3 of them spent together and think abt how different they are. #but ultimately he cant stop thinking abt anderz when he looks at iskall. #beef doesnt know wbere anderz is. they lots communication a long tima ago. and none of their old friends know anything about whag might have #happened to him. beef kinda. knows hes never cpming back. wishes he could have closure. wishes he could. finally tell him how he feels #wishes he could hang out with him just one last time #but he never will #and iskall is nice and wonderful but sometimes its just too painful. too much of a reminder

[homophyte]

it is interesting to me that ive seen lately (n yknow this is subjective and likely not any real social force just what ive seen) many queer people simultaneously talking about taking back and embodying unpalatable and ‘unmarketable’ queerness (the recent return to the terms faggot and transsexual come to mind) which i think is pretty evidently shaped by the conservative moment were in of demonizing queer ppl and especially gnc and trans people as predators--it reads as a return to queer isolationism in the face of external hostility, imo--while at the same time ive seen a lot of rallying around the “original” 6 stripe rainbow flag as opposed to any of the purportedly ‘factional’ flags of different queer identities, with the assumption being different identity flags divide us while the rainbow flag encompasses everyone and its kinda fascinating to me bc the rainbow flag is probably the single most marketable and palatable and uncontroversial symbols of queerness which has been seamlessly uptaken by those who wish to sell it back to us as gets pointed out every pride month with all the cringey pride merch.... i dunno you could maybe take that as a point of hypocrisy and claim the queer community is itself in a conservative moment rn where its returning to a sense of history and historical continuity (perhaps even out of that sense of external threat) or even that the queer community has for some time been in a conservative moment given the like, decade of identity discourse and lashing out at any people deemed to not have a sufficiently established history or however we should categorize the bihets/ace discourse/transtrender-tucute discourse/pan discourse/bi lesbians discourse (because lets be frank its essentially all the same discourse just keeping up its momentum by leapfroging from one target to the next) which i think is, like, SOMEWHAT true but not entirely? its more interesting to me, in any case, as an expression of a conflict the queer community is facing given that current state of affairs RE antitransness and that very recent history. like, the simultaneous need to retreat to a safe sense of community which is welcoming to the very things the outer world is demonizing ie mutable gender, complex or contradictory experiences of gender, gender expression which is hostile to the cis binary, but also the ways in which it has to grapple with those discourses which have largely defined the community infighting for again the past decade. its queer people begging the question ‘how can we make the queer community welcoming to the girlfags and genderfucks and tboys who are being threatened when we have spent so much time making the queer community a hostile place for anyone with a non-conventional or not easily (or even just palatably) sortable sense of queer identity’. and the answer it seems to be grappling with at the moment is like, welcoming all that diversity of experience but being absolutely averse to naming it. yes we love all the fuckery with gender and sexuality never be marketable but like, ew, why are you calling yourself [insert microlabel here]. you can be genderweird but you cant call yourself genderweird. you can only exist as queer in the broadest possible way (the all-inclusive gay pride flag!) but if you try to name the specifics or use those identity labels weve been fighting over for years youre doing it wrong (the progress pride flag is now ugly and cringey and ‘too much’). i think theres something also to the way (at least on this site) transmisogynistic discourses have really taken hold as legitimate (though yknow i wont downplay how much a problem transmisogyny has like. always been in queer spaces no matter what) in the name of protecting n defending trans people. like its just regurgitated transmisogyny but its being mobilized supposedly in the service of helping trans people. idk its definitely getting a little late for me to string this together fully coherently but theres a throughline there, in the ways certain ideas are being consolidated and reified as ‘yes were more progressive now!’ when i think theres definitely something to question there in terms of like...are we? are we actually? are we doing better by the people were trying to help or are we setting strict standards and forcing ppl to adhere to them again?

#myposts #this is long and honestly probably Nothing #i dont even really have a way of proving its the same group of people saying both things except fro anecdotally seeing it #and even thats not proof either is a real social force with like power. i could be entirely wrong on every count here #but i do think theres something to the idea that like #as ive seen said #yknow 'ace discourse never ended you all just accepted ace people didnt deserve support and then moved on w those views internalized' #i think thats more broadly true for like. all those discourses i mentioned. and for the transmisogyny i alluded to #but honestly i dont even want to name the specific phenomenon im talking abt there bc those people. scare me. #but yknow ill say it ive felt way more pressure lately to not call myself pan than i did at the height of pan discourse #before it became cringe to care about it and instead of actively shitting on pan ppl we moved on to passively doing it #ive largely started just. calling myself bi to avoid the arguement. which i predicted i would have to do years ago #and now look at me doing it! not really a fluke that its happening now. i think #which isnt to say were moving 'backwards' per se but that these ideas are not now and never have been really challenged #so weve just internalized their logics--reactionary logics--and its having an interesting effect now that we need a progressive community #for our safety. #now we cant say anything about it because to bring it up is jeopardizing everything weve built and the people were keeping safe! #cause we dont count as people deserving of safety were disruptors who only belong when we dont make noise. idk. or thats how i feel #again i dont really know if this is true at all im more just...thinking through it i think #basically like what im seeing--i think--comes from simultaneously that need to be unmarketable in the face of hostility #coming into conflict with a decade of momentum to make queers solely marketable. and i think thats producing some interesting--but sucky #--discourses in the current moment #last disclaimer that i might and am likely totally wrong! okay lauren out. post send *nervous sweating*

[pulchrasilva]

Having people you care about who are suicidal while you're not suicidal is truly a special torture I think I want to go back to wanting to kill myself im gonna throw up

#vent post #it's just. knowing theres no quick fix or surefire solution because there never was for /you/ #it feels a little hopeless yknow? like what can i do really? how can i singlehandedly restore your faith in the world? #how can i stop your body from causing you constant pain? #i literally cant. and im not good at handling the fact that i cant do much #doesnt help that last time a friend tried to kill themself i sorta didnt see or didnt take note of the warning signs #now someone is letting me see all the warning signs it's setting off the 'THIS IS WAY WORSE THAN LAST TIME ALARMS' and idk if thats true #but its really putting me on edge about it #for forever i was used to knowing people who want to kill themselves but dont ever take action to do it #which is miserable and terrible but it's not particularly scary #PLUS doesnt help that by coincidence i was remembering other horrible miserable things that happened after my friend tried to kill themself #and my brain loves to imagine what mjght happen if they /do/ try to kill themself. what I'll do when i find out. whay ill do if they succeed #i dont really want to think about it but we're thinking about it i guess #hey isnt it kinda funny that my parents /still/ dont know my friend tried to kill themself that night #and i got yelled at for being antisocial while i was sobbing and sick with grief and unable to get out of bed #oh im gonna throw up. anyway #dont mind me im mostly ok #feeling a little sick but i can manage

[aropride]

what to talk about in therapy today ... 🤔

#text #neg #i know i should talk about The Trauma but like #i dont know . its just #euck . i dont want anyone to know What Happened except for people who Absolutely Have To #which is like. title 9 guy + the investigator.and thats it #but i also like . dont want to talk about how i Feel bc its the same shit over and over what if talking abt it doesnt help #and i know how itll go ill talk abt it and we'll talk abt coping mechanisms and then the conversation is over and i think this therapy isnt #right for me. which sucks. and i dont want to deal with that right now or ever #And like can i even get better without talking about it. can i even get better at all #like how do i when i have so much older shit to work thru too. its all tied together i cant just heal one part of it i dont think really #and its also like. nothing has really Happened with The Situation this week its just been me getting really scared and really sad #over and over. so i dont have an update or anything for him i just have. yknow. I Feel Sad And Scared And It Wont Stop #and we can talk about coping mechanisms but it wont help bc ill use them in the moment but that just gets me thru the moment #it doesnt get me thru Everything. it doesnt fix the problem #and its also like What does.what does fix the problem #or do i just live like this forever

[be-good-to-bugs]

OH SHIT. my dad fuckin died today uh. rest in pieces dickhead 😘 time to CELEBRATE 🎉

#the bin #would it be messed up to buy a cake to celebrate him dying? #i used to joke about celebrating once he kicked it. he was a truly truly evil person. absolutely horrible. #yknow. usually when i receive shocking news like this im upset and like. wow i hope im dreaming. like when a pet dies or something like tha #because my grasp on reality is thin and i can barely tell when im dreaming or awame6half the time. but this time im scared i might be #dreaming and ill wake up and hes still alive. #i am stressed about the whole where im gonna live thing again tho #my mom cant pay that rent by herself so uh. that makes things difficult. #if i was there and i had a job then we could afford the rent together but as it is now. idk. #i doubt she will end up staying in that house longer than the lease. my aunt my help pay for the next months rent byt after that idk. #so that part really sucks but. idk what will happen. #its a shame i cant just go.there now and get a job and help with that. but i still have a lease here and rent to pay #well. i think things will work out #i mean. he barely brought in any money simce december so. maybe we can work something out until im there and working and can help #pay the rent. i think itll be ok. everything will work out.

[sereniv]

just venting

i mean whats the end goal for any of them

the politicians, the rich

to start a world war? to cause an uprising? an economic collapse? an unlivable planet? chaos?

bc thats whats going to happen

everything is being stretched so fucking thin that they will have nothing left for themsleves, they will have destroyed everything and then what??

wait until the last possible minute to either die from natural causes, vices, or kill yourself??

like what is the end goal? world domination? (im talking about the rich and politicians in general)

bc if its power that only goes so far. same with money.

even if you enslaved the whole world it wouldnt last. it cant it just is literally impossible

this kind of shit is finite, being a terrible person has a limit

they want to feel so powerful but is there an end?

but i guess they literally are just riding the wave until they die.

i just cant wrap my head around it

and its so fucking hard to give up. i want to give up so bad and just stop caring and just focus on whatever i want and get in that shitty richy politician mindset

because i dont believe in accountability after death, but i cant.

even with the anger and wanting these people dead and this strong beyond words feeling of hate for them i still cant fathom and understand the hate they have for everyone who isnt them or like them

if they all dropped dead im celebrating

but if i had a choice between them changing all of a sudden and them dropping dead id choose change

how does someone become like them how does that hate and anger grow so much that it practically oozes out their pores

i cant help but not give up and i cant help but have hope

their ways are not sustainable and everything is already breaking and i hope it breaks soon like full on. whatever that means

#because all thats happening right now is trying to hold together a cracked dam #just pull the fucking walls down #anyway i really hope enough people dont vote for biden #i obviously dont want trump #but there needs to be SOME consequences to his actions #there needs to be SOMETHING #i saw a little girl dead still holding a piece of bread in her hand #i saw half a baby #the terrorizing in ukraine the terrorizing in sudan the congo palestine #its too much it hasnt felt this much before #like everyday every hour is like #is bisan still alive? is motaz? is wael? #and i dont want to be one of those people that like #yknow. talks about how the Opression of others affects them #bc i never know how it sounds when i vent like does it seem like im making it about me or is it just venting #its just everytime I eat everytime i run water from the tap everytime i turn on the heat or watch a funny video i cant stop thinking of wha #is happening. and i mean i always have that problem in cold and hot weather with houseless people. #but it feels wrong to witness and it feels wrong to not think or remember #im not going to change anything as an individual. and im doing what i can but it just feels like #idk. #it just feels bad being able to vent and then just #go and scroll #like change the topic reblog a soybean rat #ugh

[samarecharm]

Scheming…

#chattin #taking time to draw and write out a relationship/dynamics chart for the thieves and assorted friends #bc theres. alot. and it would be nice to write it out. it would help establish my thoughts about them #its not poly/thieves but its. kind of adjacent to it. but its less shippy and more focused on how they interact- #-and behave with one another. like theyre kinda bonded together over everything. lines get a little blurred but its what works for them #and i think lumping them all together as poly/thieves is a shortcut for breaking down their character #like obv akira has diff relationships for everyone; but how do THOSE people react to others ?? #like pego/ryu is real and true but also ann is absolutely there. u cannot separate them. #theyre the shujin delinquents to me LOL. they are too tightly bound together to let any external relationship split them at this point #akiras not w goro; its akira AND ryuji w goro. like akira and goro would just not work; but ryuji make its work well yknow? #goro doesnt get third wheeled w ann and vice versa bc ann and goro are good friends; they just hang :) #its like. if u could SEE the fucking string of connections making a mess of my white board in my minds eye…😭 #so im trying to write it down into something that works for me #i dunno. i think its fun :) i did this for ffxv too #only that was way easier bc its just the four of them. but like. how do their internal relationships affect the overall polycule ? #anyway. inspired by that love post; that theres diff kinds of love. and kiss ryuji week LOL #bc i wanted to write a small thing with different thieves for each prompt #and im like how would their relationships differ from one another ? #ryuji and akira but also ryuji with makoto. ryuji w haru. ryuji w yusuke. its like. #u cant use the same thing from most pego/ryu fics bc they DIDNT meet the same way #waugh. #rambling #just know that im insane. i have all these wips and nothing FINISHED. waaa. #this is what that post meant about being obsessed over bad media LMAO. this is just what happens #u stay up thinking about fake polycules from a game that came out seven years ago #i think…. #WHAT. 2016??? #EIGHT years ??? #funny bc i was thinking about how ffxv was eight yesrs old and i am still a mess over it #well. could u imagine if i played p5 when it LAUNCHED instead of in 2020???

[bunnyb34r]

I know I should just block (and not OPEN) tags and posts ab '24 but my brain is stupid and likes to be informed even if it makes me worse

#marquilla #im not even joking when i say this next election makes me wanna kms so bad. im fucking terrified and i feel like we already know what's #gonna happen. not bc people arent voting or organizing i mean bc of how far the right has gotten and how angry they are that a #dem won so theyre gonna show up in droves and it's like god i wish we could idk have some safegaurds in place??? like oh idk you #incite an insurrection you Can't run for president?? but also that wouldnt fully stop shit bc florida has its own neo nazi running and #theres more behind him in the wings. but like idk man i just get so fucking suicidal thinking ab the future #and my drs. are like well then dont look at the news??? 'i sure dont' mkay thats great (not) but um i CAN'T not watch bc i need to #be informed i need to know. and they're like well then stop worrying ab it til election day?? LIKE THAT HELPS #so i just dont bring it up. and i just spiral and have breakdowns in the shower and think ab making a will and shit yknow normal stuff #bc this is fine! just dont engage! stop worrying it's like a year away! it MIGHT get better! idk Join in your community then?? #like yes yes thats a start but with what fucking energy when im bedbound most of the time im not working and that doesnt stop these fascist #s like me helping the community garden would be good for the community and probably my mental health in general BUT that doesnt deal with #the actual fear that makes me wanna Kermit #like it really fucking feels like all i can do is pray and hope god somehow intervenes (rapture anyone?) and that things do go well and #that the outright outspoken nzis don't win but like I really just wanna die man #i know the outcome more than likely will not directly affect my life bc im white. cis passing. and can go back in the closet regretfully #but like that doesnt reassure me any bc i have friends and loved ones and generally just give a shit ab other people and how this WILL #affect them directly and that terrifies me. it really feels like we cant ever have a moment to just exist yknow?? #idk man i just wanna die bc im so scared haha how fun (: how normal (: this is fine. everything is fine.

[coloursofaparadox]

im still not over the sleep thing one sec i gotta rant about this shit

#i think the problem now is that historically my sleep habits have been Really Messed Up by what can loosely be called insomnia my whole life #its always kinda just been a given that if im in bed and i cant sleep there is absolutely nothing that can be done to help #and thats not for lack of trying i have tried every meditation and suggested solution possible. it does not happen. #if i cant fall asleep and try to force myself w/o distractions i will be awake staring at the ceiling for hours. usually till the morning #thats not an exaggeration it happened often before i gave up on it. so i figured out coping methods! #namely 1) making sure my body is taken care of as well as possible to make sure its not caused by pain or hunger or anxiety #and 2) not trying to force it and accepting itll happen when it happens. and then reading a book or watching a show on a dim screen #until i physically cant keep my eyes open and then i can fall asleep. if i try any earlier than that no dice. my brain wakes itself up again #these worked for years! but now thanks to adhd meds that actually make my brain quiet. uh. these same coping methods are. not working #im physically tired and start my usual routine and wait to pass out while reading but i just. dont. ever. #like. the physically tired feeling has never made a difference in my body cooperating with sleep. but now apparently it will???? #and ive been ignoring it??? bc im used to it not working? i tried just. closing my eyes and trying to lay still yesterday and it WORKED #after like. 10 minutes or so. it was fucking crazy. i thought media and pop culture was lying about people doing that. #anyways. apparently i can fall asleep like a human and not some kind of weird chronically exhausted cryptid now. #(because of new adhd meds to be clear) but i havent been because i didnt even think to TRY it. since. yknow. cryptid status. #shits weird.

[carrieway]

i just think ghosting someone should be illegal

#esp if the person has bpd . no this isnt about me (it is) #it's just bad boss #ive slowly gotten better at trying not to think about the person but alas . they're appearing in my nightmares . #not much i can do about that besides feeling awful n just trying not to sleep after #idk ! idk i tried . i tried to not be like a previous friend i had who was rlly gross n manipulative to me #whilst Also being much older (i was seventeen n they were twenty four or twenty six i dont remember) #idk. ethan says i wasnt bad but its still gripping onto my brain yknow #also it just sucks being ghosted sucks this is the second time it's happened from someone i trusted #[united states of whatever voice] whatever #(it's more like . Wuhtevr .) #nothing i can do but cope with random f/n/af videos #im watching a person i like try to be sister l/o/cation blindfolded :] they're doing well even with how hard it is #i cant even beat night four Seeing things (well barely seeing things bc its so dark i genuinely cant see) #so it's rlly neat . also i know how to skip the night now bc of a joke he made >:D #also to anyone reading this i am not trying to come across as like Woe Is Me Feel Bad For Me bc like ew #NDNDNDN my tone is very just flat n matter of fact rather than trying to garner sympathy #but also i dont necessarily think it's bad to want sympathy however i dislike it when people go about it in such a way #where it's like . being down on themselves to such an amount that you Know they're playing it up . does that make sense #idk . im saying nothing <3 n im very tired n doing bad so im not making much sense my apologies #does a ditty before kickflipping my way back to f/n/af video world #blabs

[meatriarch]

specifically looking at the hewitts since granted i know more on the remakes than the others but,

the hewitts only got vague, limited police action looking into them in '03 after erin chops thomas' arm off and gets away. and even though theres' coverage of it and everything, that literally ONLY happens after 4-5 straight years of the hewitts doing what they do, from 69-73 in terms of solely the remake timeline.

that's still a shitton of time to be ACTIVELY killing people to y'know. not fucking die yourselves. then combine that with the sawyers - their additional family members, their own trails of ruthlessness added into the mix, and this entire combined family unit likely has kill counts all around in the hundreds if not even way past that.

but even with the police involvement in the remakes?

its all SO SLOPPY, its hardly conducted with any real CARE about their own well-beings. like??? ya'll went into that house while THOMAS was STILL THERE... didnt even SECURE THE HOUSE.....

and even with the found footage? no arrests, presumably. the remaining hewitts are still at large, thomas is still at large. like... all ya'll did was corral them to their fucking confusing ass tunnel system and made luda (if we count the comics) far more involved and ruthless in the actual killings than she was in the movies lol

and yes technically speaking with charlie's death that could sever the stronghold they've got on the police and sheriffs' around them - but at the same time - how bad would it look of them to SUDDENLY flip a switch and try to unpack the years worth of missing persons, cold cases, murders, kidnappings, break-ins, assaults, etc etc that they swept under the rug? that's WAY too much man power, esp for back then. no one is gonna do that shit.

so. i truly dont think they have much to worry about even in the event of charlie dying - because the fear and influence they've instilled stands for law enforcement to continue to do fuck all - to save and cover their own asses.

#[ ♡ ] ── * the hewitt family. / 𝘭𝘰𝘳𝘦. #its incredibly tragic because like. its so OBVIOUS something GOD AWFUL happened to this group of kids? theyre literally needing some rough #medical attention yknow. its so fucking clear they went through something BAD. and yet? crickets. theyre shrugged off. dismissed. #given the cold shoulder. told their friend(s) simply ran away. told they mustve been high or on something and cant recall clearly. #even between maria going missing to pre-basement brawl its like. NO ONES taking them seriously. everyone in towns they search in dismiss #them. no ones seen or heard anything. LEO's are just. useless and rude and telling them not to interfere. telling to go home. telling them #to let them handle things when it becomes VERY obvious they just dont give a shit - that theyre avoiding certain locations #like yes i moved maria's timeline of being missing up but like - even while the searches were still considered active? there was barely any #movement or care or concern or manpower that the depts were gathering or investigating. like. how does someone vanish into thin air? #like they tried to imply maria must've - at some point? they were so out of their league so roadblocked so dismissed every step of the way. #maria with the attempt of a search and youre nearly found!!!....and then youre told your friends all left...and they never came remotely #close to where youre kept to find you. lee with sacrificing himself hoping it gives the rest of them a chance to get away - that someone #lives in order to rain down hell on the family in the sense of justice and yet. not a word is said over broadcasts about him - at least #nothing substantial. no search. no missing persons report. nothing. and then danny? my dan the man? the guy with little family ties? #my guy with a strained relationship with his father? whose only friends are again in the situation of 'no one believes us'? #you think theres even a PEEP about him whatsoever? in any capacity? my guy would be lost to the ether - literally. NO ONE but the #friends would ever give a shit if he went missing.

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in preschool i stopped playing with other kids because the adults kept saying shit and i thought it just wasnt worth it. and im realizing i mightve kept those beliefs until now.

#no amount of socializing is worth some 3 decades overgrown fuck child being a bitch to me about. sorry. #also really wild seeing all this blame the kids its ok that teachers arent doing their job shit. #i will not say my controversial views on teachers + the education system here. but god. ugh. i hate. grown ups. so much. i think they shoul #all. i think lost should happen in real life. #but also man. other people. who needs them. theyre just like us. #^my mom thinks my only friend should be the rab #fuck punjabi really does not translate into latin letters. but i cant read or write punjabi oTL. yknow #god. god should be my only friend. she genuinely thinks this. like when she thought i was fr possessed cuz i didnt want to go to the gudwar #(i was actually. surprise surprise. pretty tired and self isolating (no friends. havent made any since) and her. well. what she did didnt #help. at all.) #i understand that religious people can be. nice. apparently. according to religious people. however in my experience they want me dead.