#cause it's evil and hates me

[youdrewstarsxaroundmyscars]

i can't be left alone with my thoughts things aren't looking too good in there

#saw a video of a cute ass mlm couple #it made me sad #and my brain has started running #cause it's evil and hates me #like I WANT THAT #WHEN IS IT MY TURN #ugh #why did i have to turn out like this #of all things

[gatitoguao]

how people to choose to play a game is not indicative of their morals and beliefs

how people to choose to play a game is not indicative of their morals and beliefs.

how people to choose to play a game is not indicative of their morals and beliefs.

how people to choose to play a game is not indicative of their morals and beliefs.

"but even the writers/va's are telling you xyz is bad!!!"

okay lol but its still a game and i paid for it and if i want to hc that so and so is not actually an asshole™ then i will bc thats just the way hcs and fandoms work

i also find it funny how some people are like "if you like this, its okay, but also let me tell you why you shouldn't like it" and give people a 12 point times new roman double spaced essay with an apa format references page like babe i didn't ask

#bg3 #ascended astarion #astarion #raphael #gortash #mostly astarion cause ppl are okay with other evil characters but god forbid astarion is ascended #ive done both spawn and ascension and i like them both #and yet #you dont see me trying convince people why a certain choice is bad or good #a lot of this hate is one-sided and its kinda - como se dice - immature and stupid

[m-art77]

Do you guys ever think about how if redeemed!Durge pulls out of Gortash’s alliance after returning with Orin’s Netherstone that Gortash literally cannot rationalize their betrayal (and them now trying to kill him) by blaming their urge? Like how much of a complete mindfuck that would be for him. The Dark Urge just told him they’re 100% cured and now they’re trying to kill him? You know, the person who’s always been by their side, their partner in crime, their equal, and their (potential) lover; and now they’re trying to murder him. And prior to the amnesia, Gortash could always rationalize that if The Dark Urge tried to kill him one day that he could hand wave it as “they just couldn’t help themselves anymore” because of Bhaal’s hold on them. It doesn’t mean they wanted to.

But now, Bhaal is gone and The Dark Urge is moving in to kill him. There’s no way to rationalize it as anything else. The only person who ever cared about him is going to kill him, and he’ll die knowing everything they once had is completely gone. The Dark Urge doesn’t remember him. Their love for him died the moment Orin split their skull. The urge isn’t the reason they’re doing this. He’ll die knowing that they hate him.

#me to Gort: damn bro get ready for the whiplash cause it’s coming in at full force in 3 ..2…1…😵‍💫😵‍💫 #the anti-anxiety robe was really working overtime those last few moments #sad Gort noises (as I burn him alive) #my dark urge was like yeah fuck this dude I got Shart now lol #but secretly he was kind of sad like damn I really roasted this baddie 🥲 I can’t even revive him I feel bad🥲 #also daddy bane needs to stop torturing my man here #eternal punishment is 👎👎 #I hate that trope lol idc what the person did #it gives me the ick bad #esp cause like…Gort sucks fr but he deserves rest at some point like everyone else good or evil #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #bg3 durge #larian studios #the dark urge #gortash bg3 #gortash x durge #durgetash #enver gortash #lord gortash #also yeah Karlach loved him too so not the only person that cared about him #but I would argue that Gortash would say only Dark Urge knew the real him or whatever #even though I think that’s bullshit and Karlach saw a man capable of good and compassion but unfortunately he sucks #and can’t do a nice thing to save his life lmao

[mayasaura]

I see a lot of meta talking about how the John Verses are John telling the story of the leadup to the apocalypse with the most sympathetic biased self-justifying gloss to make it sound like nothing was his fault, and I guess that's why so many readings go for a hardline worst-faith interpretation of them, but.... I don't really see it.

When he tells about how he murdered everyone who had a gun, he could have played up the self-defense angle. He could have claimed he was scared, and he did it to protect everyone. He could have emphasized that he was killing cops, instead of emphasizing the civilians. He could have stuck with the story he told at the time, that he freaked out and made a mistake and hadn't meant to kill them all. He doesn't. He admits to mass murder, and he admits to having done it because he was angry. And he admits to still not regretting it one bit.

The story John tells just doesn't paint him in the best possible light. He does include all of the justifications he used at the time, he does explain why on earth any of this ever seemed like a good idea to anyone, and he does want to be understood, but he doesn't really try to sell it as having been right.

I really don't see the verse chapters as being John's justification. They're his confession. That's why they feel so good to condemn.

#the locked tomb #emperor john gaius #ntn spoilers #nona the ninth #he isn't even really looking for absolution #whenever Harrow/Alecto says she still loves him he HATES it #the last time he says there can be no forgiveness Harrow asks him for whom #and he doesn't answer #he knows exactly what he is #amd whether there can be forgiveness or not does remain to be seen #just feeling like shit about it does jackshit #he hasn't done a goddamn thing in his life to try to make up for or to even stop ACTIVELY CAUSING harm #amd that's where the real challenge lies #but it's exhausting to me to see him engaged with as a Symbol Of Evil rather than as a human being #he was a person and he got very very very angry for aot of very good reasons and some not so good ones #this is the big boy all grown up version of the scene where Gideon strangled Harrow to the brink of death #the part where I hurt you #and how do you come back from that? #john has decided that you can't #you can't come back you can only double down #and it just doesnt feel right to agree with him on that

[bruciemilf]

So Injustice Bats would adopt Battinson. How would Injustice Superman react to him?

We don't talk about that mf here sjjss

#i absolutely hate the mf #i feel like the only thing that could sell me on the 'everyone snaps. even superman' storyline is if bruce divorced him #cause hey i could handle the world punishing the hell out of me. i could not handle robert pattinson leaving me #also he shouldn't be evil and heartless he should be wailing and screaming and trying to do villainous things to get bruces attention #and immediately feel terrible abt it. even tho all he did was put a cat in a tree #however #do i wanna see our clark and injustice clark fight???? yes. absolutely #text #battinson #superbat #for the story tags!!!

[sunshineram]

muahahaha and all that jazz

#THOUGHT ID FORGOTTEN ABOUT HIM??? #NOPE #IT LIVES IN MY BRAIN #king boo #lm king boo #but yeah hiii :)c #its me againn <33 #sheep scribbles #wild how every time i draw them it changes #my recent old man fixation has caused me to give him laugh lines :) #also i looked at pictures of him in dm and hes got em 👍 #evil ghosty guy #!!! #now i just have to finish sunshines new shirt pattern then i can draw them! #(i hate drawing patterns.... so might take a bit)

[maegalkarven]

I love this image of Gortash from the Emperor's story.

Look at him.

Look at his smug ass. He came to ruin both the Empreror and Stelmane's lives and is so proud of that.

#bg3 spoilers #baldurs gate 3 #enver gortash #lord enver gortash #no literally he looks like a smug cat #evil brat boyfriend material #really everyone keeps telling levi how awful gortash is and levi is just #levi: a smart sneaky man I like that ;))' #levi: Trader. Innovator. Inventor. Scientist. Tyrant. What else do you need in a man? #karlach: a conscience??? #levi: don't be ridiculous a man with conscience would mind my killing sprees. I need a man who will look at me #levi: all monstrosious and covered in blood and guts #levi: and would ask himself: how can I profit from that? #levi: basically I need someone who could make my violence tendencies serve our cause. earn some money conquer some lands #karlach: I hate what I see your point #levi: but you DO see my point!

[scoliosisgoblin]

Which version of Rick is your fav?

it's so hard for me to choose tbh. HOWEVER, I'd say Evil Rick

then I'd say it's C-137 and Memory Rick

I love how pathetic™ Evil Rick really is tbh. love that he's being controlled by his Morty. can you guess who my favorite Morty is?

#the only reason why Evil is above C-137 and Memory is because #Memory's design is something I don't really like in the style of the show #his fanart makes him look so much cooler but in the show he just looks.. unfinished? #idk it's weird to me. I love him outside of that though #and with C-137. I'M SICK OF HIM LMAO I AM SO SORRY #there are too many fucking episodes dedicated to this man. pushing everyone else aside just to have him yap about his dead wife #I love him so much but there's only so many times we can bring Diane up and not really develop her as a character but rather to boost Rick #and the show is Rick and MORTY yet all I see is Rick 😭😭 don't get me wrong I love this man #I just feel like we know more about Rick than the rest of the family #WHICH IS FINE IF THAT WAS WHAT THEY WERE GOING FOR #and if they wanted to go in that direction so be it! it's fine! #I just feel like he needs less screen time or at least balance episodes among the family #cause even the most recent Morty episode is about Rick. it was so frustrating watching it cause it's literally MORTY'S fear hole experience #yet we're watching Morty's head canons about his grandparents #I also hate the narrative they took with Diane. only ever having Rick talk of her or others bring her up #it just doesn't make her a character but rather an extension off of Rick. that's how I'm feeling rn with the family #they're all just there to prop up Rick or something. super annoying #but that's about it. I'm not gonna continue my rant #unless you want me to? #idk if I even made sense but that's all good #rick and morty #rick and morty fandom #rick #memory rick #evil rick #C-137 #Rick Sanchez

[craycraybluejay]

Transphobes get off my blog, transandrophobes especially. In fact go hate queers with the evangelical white moms who have coincidentally the same talking points as you about trans men.

#the venn diagram between terfs and baeddels is a circle but no one wants to talk about that #because that would mean no longer using trans men as a silent punching bag the same way yall do with aro/ace people #except its worse because aro/ace people arent necessarilt dysphoric and you go out of your way to misgender/degender trans people #istg transfem baeddels hate me and people like me MORE than cis right wing extremists #which is crazy to me #how are you managing to outhate people whose entire identity is hate #leave trans men alone and stop re-enacting transphobic sexism genuinely what is your problem #insular microcommunities of hate often turn into cults (see: antis) #and you can say we're evil for being trans in the wrong direction but we are literally just living our lives and you are isolating yourself #in a community that encourages transphobia #and no doubt yall treat the Wrong Kind of trans woman or transfem like shit too #literally transphobe central on tumblr #transandrophobia #'im going to bully trans men because theyre the easiest group to bully and get away with it' #how are you different from literally every other person who promotes hate #i just know y'all bullied the 'slow' kid in school and went 'well im autistic or something and not Like That so its fine' #'he deserves it' #but he didn't. and you said he has it easier cause teachers pay special attention to him but he DOESN'T

[bericas]

kira & scott & theo || i'll be a killer and a thriller (and the cause of our death)

#twedit #twvid #scireo #kira x scott x theo #taps mic. hello. is this thing on. do u guys see the vision #part of getting scott alone was theo becoming stiles but it was also becoming kira #but the doctors make kira out of control the same way theyve made theo out of control #theo thinks he's the monster just bc hes got teeth but who gave them to him? #he had a more direct hand in the scott of it all. obviously. but ultimately his plan had him become kira. but kira also became him #both mice with their tails trapped under a cats paw. the doctors like to play w their food #theyre diff and they hate each other theyre the same and they hate each other. theres smth wrong w u that is also wrong w me. etc send twee #ANYAWY 4 my tags #kira yukimura #scott mccall #theo raeken #vid #also kira is obviously not theo in. like. terms of evilness. obviously. but in the victimization that causes violence #kiras fox out of control. theo kills scott. kira puts theo in the ground. #again NOT to actually frame her as As Bad As Him theres just some commonality there arc wise

[fromtheseventhhell]

The day people stop comparing Aegon/Rhaenys/Visenya to Jon/Arya/Sansa is the day I'll know peace. People hate Daenerys (and house Targaryen by extension) but then always want to steal from her story to uplift their faves. It's past the point of being pathetic 🙄

#daenerys targaryen #pro daenerys targaryen #house targaryen #anti sansa stans #jonsas too #cause they're the main ones who do this #I hate how Arya and Jon are brought into this nonsense when the majority of the people saying this don't give a fuck about them #the obsession with hating Targaryens and then stealing from them is crazy #I get it they have more/cooler history but that doesn't mean your fave from a completely different house has anything to do with them #the targs are evil nasty colonizers...but also look at these parallels they have with my fave lol #this also applies to that specific brand of reddit Jon stan who acts like Jon is the /good/ targaryen and Dany is just a placeholder #I saw this most when the show was airing but I'm seeing a resurgence now #Just another case of people thinking something is evil when it's associated with Dany but good if it's with anybody else #saw someone say that the /direwolf has three heads/ give me a break #the same for people who do this with Stannis and Renly too!!!!!

[spaciebabie]

As a certified Springtrap simp, which backstory for William do you prefer: one where he was a good dad driven mad maybe by jealousy or the loss of his youngest child, or one where he was always an abusive narcisist that cared for nobody but himself?

i feel like the, "im evil so i must also abuse my creations and/or children" has been really overdone. like idk im just tired of seeing it personally. and the whole "haha!!! im craaaazy!!" thing we get in the comics also rubs me the wrong way b/c. thats not. how he's portrayed in the games at all. esp hearing him in sister location he feels like he would be a calm sort of madness. he seems like a rational guy. he doesnt talk like that. he doesnt act like that. it seems really contradictory

i feel like him being a good dad (or at the least caring deeply for his children) gives him more urgency and like,,,,makes sense w/what we're given. it aligns the most w/the theories we have asta why he started killing etc. i also just enjoy the tragedy of it. he started out as a good guy w/good intentions and then was twisted inta something unrecognizable b/c he was so focused on tryin ta reach his goal. personally my hc is that he was jelly of henry and then the death of crying child tipped him over the edge and started his whole killing thing. imo its better than, "hee hoo i was evil FOREVER!! im PURE evil and have always been EVIL!!!" like. okay. wheres the subsistence?? give him depth dammit

why would he build a robot for his daughter if he didnt love her. why would he tell crying child he would put him back together if he didnt love him (not really cemented as something he said, but i mean who else would say it?? certainly not michael he was a boy. i think as a fandom we assume its heavily implied). it makes the afton kid's deaths so much more impactful. the prospect of this man losing pieces of his life bit by bit and being driven insane by it is enthralling

i love a good chaotic descent. i love thinking abt him being consumed w/a need ta revive his own son becoming obsessed w/life and death as a result. oh the irony of loving your own kid so much you would take others children away from them, knowing how losing your own felt. and the twisting of emotions as he sees his son michael someone who he would've died for, try ta stop him. b/c hes not understanding, they need ta b together again. thats all hes tryin ta do. get his family back tagether. and all these fucking obstacles are in the way of his only goal. and the manifestation of hatred of his own son b/c of this. b/c hes getting in his way. like, talk abt juicy. i want that man ruined. it just adds a layer of psychological torture that i just adore. william fucking ruined everything. he ruined his own happy family, he ruined his own life, and if he actually mourns that? chefs kiss.

my thought is, why even have him have a family in the first place if they're just there ta demonstrate he's evil? seeing the afton family purely as a plot device, we already know afton killed kids. one can assume a person who kills kids is a bad person (maybe? see this is where the juiciness comes in w/him caring for his children. is it really bad from his perspective if hes trying ta save his kid? or is it noble?) so we dont need ta b demonstrated ta that hes a bad person again. if hes just pure evil from the get go it doesnt make sense ta me ta have the afton kids be prominent in the story (besides michael, but even then he could probably be replaced by one of the victims family members) when you could illustrate the same point by focusing on the kids hes killed and their families. why do the afton kids matter if he treats all children the same. why are we focusing so much on the afton family and what appear ta b major story beats in their story, especially since the children he has killed do not get as fleshed out as the aftons do. i feel like if his family wasnt important ta him we wouldnt hear abt it at all. you could achieve the same message by making him single and childless.

do u kno how many stories there are of "Righteous Child Of A Horrible Guy Who Hates Everything, Even Their Own Family, Goes Out Ta Stop Their Parent And Save The Day" there are? its b/c its too easy!!! its too easy for u ta assume that a character is the worst and has been the worst forever!!! its too easy ta assume that an evil character would abuse their family!!! its too easy ta assume an evil character wouldn't have traits besides jealousy, hatred and narcissism!!!!

#spacie splains #idk i think of things really objectively #i dont like clutter in my stories i like things ta have a point #and i like them ta serve a purpose and be unique. not just demonstrate the same facts over and over again #unless thats like a theme and intentional but yk #like i said i dont like the 'im evil and treat my family like shit' trope #overdone ta hell and back #so its a personal thing #thank you for asking me abt this! i love talking abt him as u can see :) #give me morally grey characters give me characters who descend inta the worst version of themselves for ways they could have prevented #give me characters who know they're spiraling give me characters who know its wrong but cant stop #give me characters who do horrible things for a cause that is sentimental and noble ta them #give me characters who you can understand why they did that even if it was awful #WOW I TALKED A LOT #.....8 years of brainrot‚ even if i wasnt conscious of it #I DONT LIKE THE EASY ROAD!!! I DONT WANT TA BLINDLY HATE HIM I WANT 2 THINK!!! #i like these rants i do so ill tag him #as a treat ta myself #william afton #fnaf #you: ask me a simple 'hey which one do u prefer?' me: here is my whole dissertation on the subject that is william afton

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

NAH NO ABSOLUTELY NOT TELL MEEE TEEEELLLLL MEEEEEEE WHY I WAS PEACEFULLY SCROLLING TIKTOK AND I SEE ONE COMMENT SECTION FLOOODEEDDD WITH SHIT LIKE "astoria greengrass hate club lol" "astoria haters ⬇️⬇️⬇️" "I can't stand astoria" WHAAATTT WHAT THE FUUCCKK WHAT ARE YOU EVEN ACTUALLY FUCKING TALKING ABOUY WHTA THE VBGAGSJSLW I CANNOT EVEN COMPREHEND WHAT THE FUCK YOU ARE ON ABOUT IM GONNA FUCKINGFHFHFJFUFKM WHAT DO YOU EVEN MEEAAANN SHUT THE FYCK UPP OH MY GOD WHAT WHAT DID SHE EVER DO?????

anywayz number one astoria greengrass defender love her so much I will skin your whole body with my teeth if you try and fuck with her that is MY GIRL <3<3<3

#WHAT ARE THEY EVEN HATING???? THE THREE LINES ABOUT HER WE GET TALKING ABOUT HOW LOVELY SHE IS???? TF??? #AT LEAST SOME HAD THE DECENCY TO ADMIT THEY HATE HER JUST BECAUSE SHES WRITTEN SO HORRIBLY IN FANFICS #YEAH CAUSE ALL THE DRACO SUCK UPS NEED TO GET HIS ACTUAL WONDERFUL WIFE OUT THE WAY TO SELF INSERT THEMSELVES AS AN UNRECOGNISIBLE HERMIONE #OR MAKE HIM SOME WEIRD LITTLE DEFENCELESS TWINK THATS BEING FORCED INTO AN ARRANGE MARRIAGE W/ A MEAN EVIL WOMAN SO HARRY CAN COME SAVE HIM #OHHHH YOU GUYS ARE MAKING ME HATE FANFICTION IM SO ANGRY #THIS IS ACTUALLY WHY DISCERNING FANON FROM CANON IS SO IMPORTANT BECAUSE WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK MAN #SHUT UP OH MY GOD #im so mad #ASTORIA GET BEHIND ME 🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺🤺 #JUST SO YOU KNOW DRACO WOULD HATE ALL OF YOU FOR SAYING THIS SHIT 🗣🗣🗣 #this is not directed at any dramione or drarry fans who actually give astoria some sense of justice i dont hate all of you <3 #JUST PEOPLE WHO ARE MEAN TO MY GIRL #astoria greengrass #astoria malfoy #drastoria #hpcc #i cannot comprehend that this angel of a woman HAS HATERS?????? #fucking crazy out here bro #harry potter fans are something else oml #i hate tiktok gonna delete my entire account now ive had enough #/j

[septembersghost]

my queue was supposed to run out tonight (11/19) - i'm nothing if not someone who clings to dates and anniversaries, and exactly a month ago, i realized i had enough posts stowed in it to last until today. of all the days. kismet. you know when it's time to go. but i ended up adding some posts from my (still copious) drafts, and no matter how i finagled it, it was impossible to make them all fit by the time today ended. so it gets a little bit of extra time. maybe, in honor of this blog's existence, that's fitting.

you all know this, i've said it, typically in gratitude, many times already. this blog was never meant to last. i came back in november 2020 expecting a couple of months, maybe to be here until the new year. i told very few people, anticipating the goodbye, not wanting to cause anyone undue anguish when i had to vanish again. something i didn't expect was the sheer (admittedly devasting) emotion that would tie itself to those two weeks when i started interacting again, nor that it would have any outreach or impact, but somehow it did. then time kept spinning on, extending itself, gossamer threads unfurling each day. my following kept growing, far beyond what i could have anticipated, greater than i'd ever established on any of my previous blogs. moving around is unfortunately a pattern at this point, every time for reasons that felt quietly catastrophic. not being able to pay bills for a while. angel's death and the ensuing difficult circumstances. so here, i kept anxiously imagining why i'd eventually have to leave, how to plan for it. poverty issues. the homelessness we were facing through the entirety of a couple of years until last august (and my dad having to be the saving grace). worsening health issues. i never knew, i couldn't predict it, i just worried about it. often tried to brace for it. maybe i got too comfortable this year, because this was when i started to think it wouldn't happen, that i really could stay. little did i know. and the reasons...are not reasons i ever fathomed, why would i have? how could i have? i wish it weren't so. (i wish a lot of things.)

i thought sometimes about the words i would leave you with, none of which are suitable now. i almost wrote nothing, yet found that feeling wrong, couldn't leave without something about parting.

thus it turns out i'm leaving before it's strictly necessary, before it's the fear of personal catastrophe coming to fruition, not knowing what i'll do or where i'll metaphorically go, as that is the downside of chronic illness and isolation narrowing this to my sole outlet. (lyrics keep running through my mind, there are always lyrics stuck in my head. no matter where i go, there'll be memories that tug at my sleeve, but there will also be more to question, yet more to believe...teach me to be more adaptive...help me say goodbye). my body is in such a fragile state right now (my mind not far behind) that maybe what i need to do is rest. just rest for a while.

this blog was never meant to grow the way it did, to take asks and have conversations like i did, that was a somewhat new (sometimes scary! often fun) experience for me. it's one that will never be replicated. to my loyal and lovely anons, i'm so sorry that i had to cut you off unexpectedly and couldn't reinstate communication - i know that you weren't able to reach out to me as soon as i did that, and that certainly wasn't your fault, it was a response to the tenor of this website. i apologize for the hundreds of messages i never had the chance to answer. i'm appreciative of the things you shared with me and all the times we got to talk.

i sincerely hope some of you learn to be kinder and wiser and less reactionary and more willing to learn and to listen rather than to attack those who have never wronged you and who do not deserve that. i'm being too nice, but i hope you learn that misusing your supposed social justice to do harm and foment hatred and stew in ignorant cruelty makes any principles you purport to have utterly void. my hope for that is low at the moment, but it's still got to be there. waiting to be found.

to those of you who have never been anything but kind, you are true treasures, the lights in the darkness, the loving and compassionate embodiment of human spirit. some of you have (quite literally) helped keep my mom and me alive, and i can never repay that or do enough in this life to quantify it. some of you have been here for me every single day, to listen and laugh and cry and understand. i don't think i would've bothered to fight through these past three years had i not had your presences in my life. i wouldn't have had as much of a reason. there are times when i still haven't felt like i had a reason, i struggle through so many varied griefs, but then i continued to wake up, and would come on here and find something joyful or beautiful or affirming that someone had sent or posted, and it gave me an anchor. there are passions and interests i shared or discovered here that were so uplifting and enlightening, and i will carry them in my heart always. being here to find those was such a blessing. being here with you to indulge in them was such a blessing. thank you. i pray your continued paths have more of that ahead. look at all the things you've done for me. there are certain things that once you have no time can wear away.

you know that line from the wizard of oz?: hearts will never be practical until they are made unbreakable. maybe that isn't true, maybe our hearts being broken is proof of something. there are people who hurt me on such a profound level who i know weren't affected by it at all, but i refuse to define my sensitivity as a negative. my softness (too soft for all of it, indeed) does not quite provide me with a weapon, but it doesn't crumple. hearts can be broken repeatedly and still beat, which i've thought about a lot lately. shattered souls just make a new mosaic. it's a different picture than it was before, but the color and light persists. and in the remains of that, a handful of people have shown me depths of caring and resilience that i wouldn't have gotten to hold onto otherwise, which is an extraordinary thing. the precious rarities have to mean something more, don't they? i would think so. i believe it. or i'm trying. i keep trying with all my might.

maybe i stayed too long at the fair. maybe this is a consequence of overplaying my hand, gambling a little too much with time to where it had to teach me something. maybe i needed the reminder that sometimes we have to fight to retain our spirits, and other times we have to retreat. maybe i needed a reminder that all that extra time was a miracle. i don't take it for granted.

whether we've spoken directly, be that consistently or in scattered flurries, whether we've interacted in very personal ways or simply in liked hearts on the dash, i hope there was goodness and light in it. i hope there's a memory i leave here that's sweet. (as long as i'm borrowing phrases, i hope you'll think of me fondly sometimes.) i hope there was something warm and enriching here. i hope you know what you've been and meant to me. i said so many times that this blog was my cozy haunted house - the ghosts will linger here forever, and i know they'll never mind if you want to step in and visit.

with all my heart, i love so many of you so dearly. i am so lucky to have your friendships. please move gently through life. please hold onto the things that illuminate it for you, and provide that where you can. please do your best to repair even the smallest of tears in the world. you are not obligated to complete the work, but neither are you free to abandon it.

there must be lights burning brighter somewhere.

something yet remains. i remain. and i do my best to be brave.

#bubble wrap around my heart #jess.mess #namarie #gam zu l'tovah #edit: december 2. this was as it turns out too nice #because today this website decided to desecrate something central and sacred #i wish i could verbalize to you despicable people the profound soul deep hurt you're causing #and the constant fear and trauma you're instilling by making every space so blatantly hateful and hostile and unsafe #but you don't get to take a PRAYER away from its people. you don't get that power ever. that light will NEVER be diminished #i have no respect for any of you doing this. you're evil #i have infinite respect for myself now though. i know who i am. and i'm done #you don't deserve me and you never deserved my friendship or my trust or my heart #proverbs 4:23 #goodbye.

[mossghosst]

i don’t draw her much but i could fr talk about misako FOREVER. her mischaracterization in the fandom infuriates me and she is incredibly over hated. she is so much more interesting when you recognize the tragedy of what she did like!!!! no one is allowed to hate her until you listen to and hyper analyze never love an anchor by the crane wives 100 times

#if you don’t like her cause of abandoning lloyd ok that makes sense #even if in canon lloyd is over it and forgives her #but the people who act like she hates llpyd and llpyd hates her make me so mad. #misako ninjago i will free you from the chains of this fandom #god forbid women do anything #ppl want evil women but can’t even handle MISAKO NINJAGO?/?:?:! #who is objectively not evil #ok. i’m fine guys it’s okay #ninjago #lego ninjago #misako garmadon

[hassianlovebot]

like on one hand i understand why people don't like subira at first, but i'm also getting tired of seeing people shit on her without actually getting to know her. and i know how that sounds, but she's literally fine. like yes death to cops but the in game order lady isn't the evil witch come to kill zeki and reth that everyone thinks she is. and they would know that,, if they did her quests,, or at least spoiled themselves and looked at the wiki,,,

it's getting embarrassing honestly

#spoilers #like Please just look at the wiki aldghlj #like trust me i understand the initial hate cause i didnt trust or like her at first either #but then i looked at the wiki to see what was going to happen #and realized it wasnt that bad #and then i did the quests and realized she's literally fine #like the order absolutely still sucks imo but she's fine #seeing hate when she first came out was chill and expected #seeing hate now after people have had every chance to get to know her and the quests is just embarrassing #if you dont want to see spoilers then dont keep reading these tags #but she Literally says that she doesnt hate zeki and that he's just being controlled and manipulated by the cartel #which he is!! that's literally what he tells us!! #she literally says that at most he would just have to pay a fine like my guys #and she doesn't know about reth at all #and by her lvl4 quest she doesnt trust the order as much and starts to doubt them #LIKE #she's not even evil! she genuinely believed in the order's mission but she changes her mind once she's presented with them being assholes #and again she's not even trying to hurt zeki or get him in trouble!! he's gonna pay a fine at most!! that's all!!! #and from what we have seen from her i genuinely don't believe that she would be against reth #she would absolutely feel bad and it could even end up being her wake up call to how the order's mission isnt good #and people would know that if they took the time to read her wiki or do her quests #but instead they make bad jokes about 'how dare people like the hot older lady who ends up being really nice and caring grrrrr' #like ajhdgljdag #begging you guys to just read the fucking wiki dude #its not really spoilers if you have no intent to actually do her quests #it gives the same vibes as when people say that reth is super boring and just the dumb cook because they havent gotten to know him #like this whole game is about lore and secrets and characters not being what they seem #im not saying people Have to like her but i am saying you look silly when you hate on her without doing her quests #yeah the devs actually just told me you can only hate her or make jokes about hating her After you complete all her quests #sorry guys :/