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yourthirdparent · 3 months

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OH MY GOD okay so a beloved follower of mine sent me an ask about my tristan mclean headcanons like in december but i accidentally deleted !!!!!!! the fuckcing ask !!!!!!!!!!!!!! so i'm making it a post. hope you don't mind. also sorry for the wait

most of my thoughts are things i can not share on this blog (this is the Normal blog for Normal things and not the fucked up torture i subject this man to on a regular basis. tbf i hardly post about it on the Bad Posts blog either but like still. can share it on ao3 though check out sleep by imjustheretoreadonefic (don't do that it's not good)) but you can ask about that (if you want, which you probably won't because it is not most people's thing lmao) on my sideblog, yourfourthparent!! BUTBUTBUT i do have some thoughts and headcanons and such that are at the very least decently presentable!!!!

starting off first: i think he's bi! i think he figured out he was bi when he was pretty young (probably somewhere in his teenage years, probably like 15 max) and when he was in his 20s he was very involved in the queer community (his 20s being. in the 80s. sorry.) and was like a big activist. that is until the curse.

the curse being him hitting his big break. stars in some film that wasn't supposed to really blow up but it like Fucking Smashed and suddenly he was like all those guys who do one role and then are suddenly in Everything. cuz he sure is in literally everything. once he starts blowing up ofc he's got folks to help manage his image and at some point they're like haha [lip bite] you gotta stop with that gay shit or straight audiences won't find you marketable. you're already native and folks can hardly handle that let alone you being an active queer activist. you gotta cut that shit out so you can be the next batman or whatever. and tristan's like Well at least i'll make money to support myself and my dying father!

newsflash his father dies of cancer before he gets a chance. tristan's doing his best to avoid thinking about his father's death so he moves out of oklahoma blah blah yk how it goes.

he has piper when he's 33 ! everything's set and he's settled and then piper comes along and like. he's alright. he can handle this. he can be a good father (he's white knuckling the bathroom sink while he says this)

yeah he's terrified of being a shitty father. he does his best to keep her away from the press and keep her Okay for the most part but in order to do that he doesn't get to see her much etc etc. you know. you've read hoo. bleh

when piper starts dating jason he's like Oh cool ! i am about to break down ! cuz like. hey man. he is so not prepared for the reality of The Passage of Time. wdym his daughter is 16. fym tristan's almost fifty. that's so fucked up how is this allowed.

anyways he and jason are like Besties (*shoving my Bad posts to the side*) like they're such good friends they hang out so often even after jason and piper break up they're just Hiding it then. like they have weekly chess meetings and they talk about books and their lives and jason concerns tristan So Much oh my god tristan is so scared for this poor boy What are those tattoos young man Who are these "wolves" that raised you What is this "legion" Are you in a gang Little private school boy are you in a gang. What do you mean your first language is latin.

ngl my obsession with tristan came from my obsession with jason. i made a post like ages ago about how silly it'd be if tristan was jason's gay awakening and i just kept. thinking about them hanging out. and it spiralled and now i'm insane about him sorry. jason will always be my number one but Oohhhhh tristan consumes me.

anyways live tristan reaction when he finds out jason's mom is beryl grace in the middle of showing jason and piper a million old movies (beryl is in one and jason sees her and immediately freezes and tristan's just talking through the movie (hes silly sorry he talks through the whole thing. piper actually likes it because she has a hard time following movies so tristan explaining everything is good but jason is vaguely annoyed by it. he loves tristan to death don't get him wrong it's just that he can't concentrate on the kovie with tristan spitting fun facts a million words a second) when he looks over to see if theyre still watching and he just sees piper fretting over jason who's looking at the screen with a thousand gard stare.

let's go misc things that i want to mention somewhere but don't really fit uhhhh

i have this idea where tristan used to be a drag queen. i don't have any of the details down not a single one but i think about him talking to piper and her friends about the old days when he was a queen. mentions something offhandedly about how he wants to wear more feminine clothing and someone's like "oh are you like. yk. a gamer" and he's like "oh nonono i'm not trans trust me i explored my gender plenty, wore makeup, padded my bra, did drag for a few years, changed my name—" and they're like "you did DRAG ???" and he's like "OH yeah LOLZ i was terrible lol. my team keeps trying to bury it from public view for a reason. those looks were NOT serving !!!!" (he doesn't talk like that but i'm being silly rn)

(you just knoooooow jason was jaw on the floor immediately looking up TRISTAN MCLEAN DRAG TRISTAN MCLEAN DRAG QUEEN PERSONA NAME TRISTAN MCLEAN DRAG QUEEN TRISTAN MCLEAN— the SECONDDDD he got a chance. like staring so hard at old ass pictures of tristan doing drag and realising like Oh maybe i am bi. piper dumped him because she found his search history /j)

i think when his father died he cut his hair but then when it started growing long again it reminded him too much of the past that he Didn’t Want To Think About so he just. kept it short. and it's been short ever since. BUTBUTBUT when piper decides she wants to reconnect with her culture (which she's been mostly separate from because of tristan's own avoidance of it due to memories of his childhood and his father and blahblahblah) it sort of motivates him to do it too. like if piper's gonna do it after tristan entirely cut her from their culture then like. he can too. and it was a big part of his life when he was younger so like. he knows shit. i'm not good at this btw sorry i just have ideas UGSFHADGSF but anyways when piper starts reconnecting he decides to do it too and his first step with like Getting Comfortable again is growing his hair out. it's a smaller step yk he just doesn't cut his hair it's nothing active. (ofc when it starts getting properly long he has a few moments. he has to really confront his grief over his father's death and just the fear of that alone is enough to make him want to cut it again. piper stops him before he does but he has a few moments where he questions if it's worth it)

ik i just said earlier that he's not trans but like sometimes. with characters. i have headcanons that complety contradict each other. that is to say Transfem tristan mclean headcanon. she changes her name to t. just T. t wynn mclean. she goes by t cuz it's something she's already used to (jason called her that all the time before she came out).

these are all the ones i have off the top of my head agh pleaseplease feel free to ask more about any of these !!! (or critique them lmao half of them are. things i suck at explaining because they exist only for hyperspecific scenarios wherein nothing happens but tristan talking to jason or piper LMAO) you can also send in your own headcanons about him or jason or piper because EYE WANT TO READ MORE ABOUT THEM RAAAAGHHH seriously there's so little stuff that features him especially and if you have literally anything at all i would lovelovelove to read it all !!!!!!! sorry for deleting the ask btw i really didn't mean to LMAO sorry to my honourary mutual (i'd tag you but i'm afraid of misremembering who it was LMAO sorry mate 💔💔)

#allfatherly guidance #answered prayers #tristan mclean #tysm to the person who sent the ask btw !!! i love talking lol #sorry it took so long to get this post out lol #btw. take a shot every time i say an expression of laughter #pjo #hoo

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j0rg33n · 7 months

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Tear you apart part1(?) (Tf2 Sniper x GN!reader)

A/N PLEASE READ -> hiii this is my first ever fic, I wrote it when I was bored while traveling by train, so don't expect anything spectacular also English is not my native language so sorry for possible mistakes (you can point them out if you want I will gladly correct them!!) I'm still not sure about posting it so if you like it, let me know and I'll post the next part cuz despite everything I surprisingly enjoyed working on it??? I also posted it on ao3

[words count: 820]

Your relationship with Mundy was starting to disturb your every day life. All you could think about was him. His scent, his voice, especially when he called your name, even standing in the same room as him started being disheartening.You keep having that unsatisfied feeling growing inside of you and you couldn't do anything with it. You couldn't really make a move since you knew that it will not bring the desired effect. He is a man with hard values; "professionals have standards" this sentence kept running through your head every time you wanted to change things between you and him,but you were sure he wouldn't want relationship between one of his colleagues. So you just keept admiring him form behind. That was the safest way, but it always left you unsatisfied. You wanted more.

As you remain to live in cloud-cuckoo-landyou haven't noticed that your team started to go their separate ways until you heard familiar voice

"you okay ma'am?" it was Engi, you didn't turn around to face him, leaving him only with a plain response "Yeah just lost myself in thoughts" he didn't push more, leaving you as you are. You really liked him for respecting your personal space. As you were planning on leaving the rec room you heard familiar groan, that send instant chills through your body.

"You too? what's happening to y'all?is something in the air?" engi half joking asked. Sniper came to the table you two were sitting at. "Nah i just have bad snipin day, need to practice more" eyes focused on his rifle you decided to stay and pretend you're going through your stuff, so you could listen to their conversation.

"Guess that holiday got you off tracks boy, well sorry but can't help you with that, not my cup of tee" as always engi was using that warm western tone, it was nice, it always brings a smile onto your face "but I'm sure you gonna get better soon, you're the best sniper I've ever met.... and I've only met one" Engi laughed off and gave him a solid hit on his back. This made you laugh a little.

"Old bastard" Sniper let out a little chuckle. That's when your eyes met and it hit you. Your stomach started to feel tight. You tried to not show it, but you wanted to tear your skin apart. You wanted him and this was bad. You wanted to keep him close to you, but you couldn't. You started losing sense of your surroundings. Were they talking? Was there complete silence? You didn't know, you were completely lost in his eyes. They are so pretty, you feel like they could tell you much more than you know about him, but there was some kind of wall made of glass keeping you away from him. it hurts you once again. After probably few seconds of you staring at him you manage to get a hold of yourself, going back to reality where it seems he broke the eye contact long time ago and went on their conversation. You began to listen again.

"So the shooting range is still inactive?" "yea sorry cowboy you gonna have to figure something out"

"piss"

"just shoot some thing I don't know bottles?"

"mate do oi look like 6yer old t'ya?"

"I'm just trying to help you out" he stopped for a moment "why don't our princesses asisste you and throw them so you can shot moving objects since she doesn't have anything better to do?" he then turned to you grinning and you were once again taken back to the real life

"Huh?? what?" you looked at Texan visibly confused

"What miss?still daydreaming? I just found you a job that will keep you busy, no need to thank me ma'am" he stood proudly with a big grin

"Throwing bottles up the sky in a friday evening woow yeah that's just what I needed thank you my saviour" you responded sarcastically bowing a bit to him,you manage to get a light laugh form him. Meanwhile sniper looked a little lost, not knowing what he should say or do, so you took the initiative.

"Well... if you really need me I can help you" u wasn't sure if this was good idea and you quickly lost all your conifidence, so in order to escape his gaze you began looking for another point to state, so you directed your next words towards the engineer "As the engi said I don't have anything better to do" you tried to give him sassy look. "yea 'kay Shelia how could I turn back offer like this?" god his smile is so precious and you love when he refers to you as "Shelia" its just a Australian slang and he probably uses it to every women he meets but the fact that he never uses it to call Miss Pauling (surely due to the fact that she's his superior) makes you feel special everytime.

"M'gonna meet you infornt of the base in one hour, is that oaky?" "yea sure see you later " you quickly gave him a smile before he turned and went somewhere.

congratulations if you noticed the reference to a song !! Any tips, advices anything are always welcome:]

#tf2 #team fortress 2 #team fortress two #tf2 sniper #sniper x reader #tf2 sniper x reader #sniper tf2 #Mick Mundy

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starr-finn · 1 year

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Could you write some dating hcs with Sokol?

General dating HCs with Sokol

Absolutely! Hope you enjoy this one! also don't worry everyone! I'll bring back anon asks soon! completely forgot I turned it off, love y'all!

Authors note: So this is just general dating/romance HCs because I love Sokol more than anything. I used male terms of endearment, but reader is GN, very VERY light spice, mainly just mentions of biting, marking, and Sokol liking chokers, cuz I think he does

Sokol enjoys flirting with you, he will take any chance he can to try and get you flustered

dude does that thing where his voice goes all gravelly and he just whispers something in his native language (Because Russian sounds hot asf)

He calls you stuff like милый (honey), дорогой (sweetheart), ангел (Angel), and зайчик (Bunny)

He likes holding your hands a lot, he just always likes having his hands on you at all times

he likes kissing you on your hands, palms, wrists, and forearms

he likes having you lay on him, on his lap, chest, stomach, so on, he thinks it cute

If you kiss him literally anywhere, bro will go entirely quiet until he can figure out how to get back at you

He really likes biting at your neck and shoulders, for marking reasons, he feels like he's marking his territory

he's an asshole in terms of teasing, dude smirks every time you get all flustered

he knows how to use his accent AND voice to his advantage

BROOOOO WAIT! DUDE 100% WILL HOLD YOU DOWN BECAUSE HE FEELS HE'S STRONGER THAN YOU!!

anyway enough spice I'm losing it if y'all want actual spice fics for payday lmk

He likes going on morning runs, he may drag you out of bed on Sundays for a 5 am run

if you don't wake up he'll just shrug and give you a kiss on the forehead before leaving

and he'll always take a good long shower before he gets back in bed and cuddles with you

dude will teach you Russian a few months after you get together

if your a heister like he is, bro is super SUPER overprotective over you

if not, Sokol will keep you so far away from his job you don't even really know what the payday gang is

dude fucking spoils you, if you're both out together and you look at something and even remotely seem interested, bro will buy it for you

This guy is 100% the kinda guy that will buy you jewelry, like rings and necklace

i know i said no more spicy stuff but like, dude has a thing for chokers, especially tugging on them when your wearing them, THERE I SAID IT

ok now I'm done-

dude doesn't really play video games or watch sports, but hey if you play either he will watch you and listen to you ramble about anything you're interested in

he finds you adorable if you're shorter than him, if you're his height or taller bro falls even more than before, but he adores you either way

he loves kissing you all the time, dude just loves the way you react every time he kisses you anywhere

bro just fucking adores you tbh

Sokol got some headcanons now! we love him

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#payday 2 #payday 2 x reader #Payday 2 Sokol #Payday sokol

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octavineles · 3 years

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Hi! If that's okay could i request MC teaching Epel swear words and insults in their native lenguage? I think it would be pretty fun to watch him insult people he doesn't like in [insert lenguage] (which in my case is italian but you don't have to add this!!).

Bonus if MC often compliments him and calls him pet names in their first lenguage!!

↻ teaching epel your native language headcanons

a/n — hi :] thank you for the cute request!! sorry i was MIA for a few days, i just had a busy (and rough, but this isnt about me lolol) weekend. im doing fine now, though. apologies for getting this loud late and because its on the short side!! i just wanted to get something out asap cuz i havent posted for days already and i dont want to keep yall waiting <//3

warnings — none, gn!reader

epel is probably the one who comes up with the idea at first. he thinks it’s super cool that you speak multiple languages! he approaches you earnestly, and who are you to decline his wishes?

you start off with the basics, teaching him greetings or simple phrases but once epel expresses his interest in extending his vocabulary to something more.. colorful, you immediately agree. there’s nothing funnier than seeing epel insult vil in a language his dorm head can’t understand whenever annoyed

soon enough, whenever anyone underestimates epel due to his feminine figure, he cusses them out like no tomorrow. it’s even funnier, because they don’t understand a single word that flies out of his mouth!

he looks forward to lessons with you everyday, and you’re touched that he’s so passionate about learning your native language

the both of you will converse daily in your mother tongue in order to improve his vocab and you find that he has a slight accent. it warms your heart and you can’t stop yourself from calling him endearing terms

you constantly butter him up during lessons in order to motivate him, words such as handsome, manly and intelligent never failing to make his heart skip a beat. he enjoys you fawning over him, moreso whenever you’re speaking in a language that only you and him understand. he finds it intimate

in the end, picking up another language is something epel doesn’t regret, because not only does he get to insult anyone he dislikes without having to face the consequences, but he also gets to have you dote over him and call him sweet words too

#twisted wonderland x reader #twst x reader #twst headcanons #epel felmier x reader #twst imagines #epel felmier imagines #twst fluff #twisted wonderland fluff

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favoniuscodex · 3 years

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lol yeah, new anon, this one is my third ask I've sent but i scrolled through your account for awhile and your writing is lovely, and the interactions tend to have immaculate vibes, so i figured I'd stick around lol-

but also- i just came up with the flower thing- and as with most things my head comes up with- it has spiraled- and i drove myself into brainrot as well- but also, feel free to delete this ask if you want cuz i can imagine having to respond to as many asks as you have could get easily overwhelming.

but the possibilities for this are so wonderful- (tho most of the ideas ive had are around Kaeya cuz while Diluc is soft af, Kaeya would probably be a lot more casual with it... also i realized Venti would probably know it too because y'kno- he was there)

. Kaeya just having the most insulting, passive aggressive flowers for whenever people try to hit on him at the tavern. Like someone thinking they actually have a chance with him a Kaeya just does that one coy look(he has many but- y'know) and hands the person a fucking butterfly weed and Diluc is just staring in second had embarrassment because the person doesn't even realize what it means and its just- sad to watch

. also imagine you're not yet dating Diluc so you make the mistake of going to Kaeya to ask for advise because 'hey, he knows flower stuff too' and then it'll have more meaning and stuff- but Kaeya just totally messes with it and in the end you're left with this arrangement that means just- the dumbest fucking shit . and you go to give it to Diluc and he just stares at it for a solid minute processing because 1) this is his crush 2) he's still processing the meaning 3) this has Kaeya written all over it and 4) he realizes how much thought you would have to have put into it to go this far- and he just doesn't know whether to explain to you what happened or just accept it and spare you any embarrassment or regret in the present

. OKAY BUT- my angst-loving ass can't-

. you know the "Mi muhe ye' means i love you in the language of the hilichurls" thing- there's no way it ended at that. And Venti probably can't talk outright about Khaenri'ah bc of Celestia stuff but just trying his best to apologize through his by now rusty knowledge of flowers only to receive further more (honestly probably justified) passive aggressive arrangements.

. also- can we take a moment to appreciate just how beautifully meaningful the arrangements by Crepus's grave would be.... not only because of the meanings of the flowers they placed for him, but also because there's no way these two would disturb Crepus's grave with brotherly quarrels and as a result it's one of the few, if not the only places, where they're able to communicate with each other without hostility- tho neither ever brings it up in person.

like please- there's literally so much stuff that could go down with these three possessing this knowledge and its wonderful

- Dad joke Diluc Anon

omg don’t apologize — brainrot asks are actually really easy 4 me to respond to! i don’t get a lot of them tbh and they’re my fave to interact w/ !!! also all of this is *chef’s kiss* mwah !!! amazing !!! ur brain is immaculate, nonnie ! i’m glad u wanna stick around, the blog is always open to new recurring anons haha.

additional response utc !

kaeya exchanging flowers for drinks at the tavern, but the flowers he gives out are all insults to the people annoying enough to want to try to buy his love with alcohol!

kaeya also giving you bad flower advice when you’re making a bouquet for diluc because 1. he sees it as an opportunity to mess with diluc and 2. jealousy perhaps?

if diluc gets the botched bouquet, he’d probably just plaster on his typical poker face and be like “this is great, thanks.” but then lecture kaeya about it later because you’re his crush and diluc doesn’t want kaeya messing that up by scaring you off by meddling

venti definitely knows the meaning of flowers. after all, he is the archon of a nation that pretty much has a spring holiday centered on flowers. his favorites are cecilias, but iirc he has ever native mondstadt flower somewhere on his outfit? or at least details reminiscent of them. however, if you expand past the realm of mondstadt’s flowers, he’s kind of at a loss.

kaeya doesn’t care for any of venti’s dumb apology flowers and just sends back the meanest flowers ever. even includes a little notecard with a >:( face drawn on it.

every year, diluc decides to smother his father’s grave in the most beautiful flower arrangements on the anniversary of his death. sure, he always ensures that a beautiful bouquet is there, but on the anniversary date, diluc ensures that there are even more flowers. he overlooks any flowers kaeya might have added as well, trying to ignore the subtle regret it instills within him. diluc tries his best to forget that he and kaeya were brothers, but the flowers make it hard. the flowers are a reminder that that day, they both lost their dad :(

#//mail #anon.dad joke diluc #mail.kaeya #mail.diluc

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nicecarito · 4 years

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Something I wanted to say since I started being in this fandom....

The most people who ever tried to -cancel- me and talked behind my back without face me directly, the 90% have been Americans... And I say it, cuz it's like super wtf how latin americans, europeans or Asiatics fans treat me so nicely and these fellas are like if they wear a Monk attire from the Inquisition.

(not all Americans of course, I have very good friends and wonderful followers who are from America , such sweeties, so I will not generalist as everyone, let's just focus on the meanies, unfortunately , the meanies that I had to deal with are from there )

(I actually know which artists were the ones who dared to say bad stuff about me without even daring to face and know me as a person... I will only give you this ...🙃 Have a wonderful day!)

The worst thing they ever said is that I draw CP Like, when in my fucking life. I have two kids at home! I have raised them, I was a mother figure to them, I am a kids teacher too and I love my kids so much so YOU making such rumor hurts me a lot ... Not all the world is America, so we don't see some stuff like u do.

How they can assume that shit of someone when I had to give my life to two boys. Really these guys taking to serious the freaking fiction it's a pain in the ass... Then... That I pro-incest. NO, MOTHERFUCKERS, u really have a big imagination! Please give me some cuz Sometimes I have a lack of imagination and I can't draw anything!!

That I draw Mug and Cup well I do have a story about it... Forgive cuz my NATIVE LANGUAGE IT'S SPANISH

When the very first trailer of Cuphead came out (the black and white one) and WHEN MY ENGLISH WASN'T STILL GOOD and nobody knows they were siblings at least not me I said, oh two cute cups, I will ship them :$

Like, it's not like I could find more information, I couldn't read it anyway and the spanish information about the game was alway "Two BEST FRIENDS TRYING TO GET THEIR SOULS BACK" so well,Sorry for that I guess??

Then time passed and then the game came out and well tadaaaah they are siblings

And I waS Like "SHIT! WHY ALL THE SUDDEN?! well, I don't think it's a big deal, I still have my headcanons where they aren't siblings at all and I always drew them As adults (THEY ARE KIDULTS BY THE WAY),well not big deal after all .....THEY ARE TWO CUISINE UTENSILS AND NOT HUMANS AND NOT REAL PEOPLE SO..."

But UUUUF NOOOH how dare uuu ,Carito, you are the worst person of the world , let's try to cancel u so you will learn to not draw two utensils kissing cuz they come from the same ceramic oven :)))

If you are gonna give me the excuse that fiction alterate reality or something of that style.... Well, in that case I will try to cancel EVERYONE WHO DRAW ASSASSINATION, MAFIOUS STUFF, CHILD VIOLENCE, DRUGS, AND ALL THE BAD STUFF OF THE MOTHER FUCKER WORLD, and cuz I unfortunately been witness of all of it ... I saw two murders in my life that was about drug dealing, narcos and I sadly saw child abuse to the point of super strong violence.... in my family there’s stories of violations between familiars, so sad.

-But one thing isn't that bad than the other >:U- (a real excuse that I got)

.... ARE YOU SERIOUS?! don't try to put a parameter to height if something is less bad or viceversa, THAT is stupid and hypocrite. Things are bad and POINT. BUT

I'm not going to cancel someone who decide to get into that MATURE THEMES to tell a story!

Because if you are mature enough to make a big difference between reality and fiction then you will enjoy the story, you will understand the concept of the story, why the artist decided to choose these themes for their story, etc...

That's why Something called MATURE ADVERTISEMENT exist.... It's a part of text were the artist tell you that they will talk about themes that might trigger you so...

If you choose to watch it, well it's your decision BUT DON'T TRY TO COMPLAIN IF THE ARTIST WARNED YOU AT VERY FIRST. People Sometimes doesn't read if there's not a damn colorful image there! People just pay attention to certain stuff if looks cute.

I think that trying to eliminate these kind of themes to make everything more -pink and healthy- it is unhealthy.... These themes exist in the end, storytelling exist for a reason.

If you have a boundary, it's super fine. I do have my boundaries too and I do avoid things that doesn't make me feel happy at all but that doesn't give me the power of destroy a person cuz -their content doesn't make me happy-. You aren't a hero... You are just a bully.

and if you are gonna -try- then at least come to say it in my face!! Always behind the stage cuz they always been to coward to come to me and talk! COWARDS!. YOU ARE COWARDS!

THEY SAID LIES ABOUT ME, AND some of them destroyed some friendships that I had or make people try to avoid me to -take care of their reputation cuz if I talk to Carito that will make -friends- think the worst of me-

Well, if your friends push you to not talk to someone cuz very silly stuff, what kind of friends you have :/ are we at elementary school or something?

But to be honest they weren't really my friends cuz they doesn't really cared about my feelings enough so whatever. But yeah..... Angery but they never were able to cancel me for real.....

cuz not for being sassy or shit, But I think I showed who really I am and I believe people likes me. I don't need to pretend shit or stop drawing or change my stories at all. I do what I want and cuz obviously I'm not hurting no one, then people get closer to me.

I like them too and I will continue drawing cuz that's my fucking career, motherfuckers. I draw to pay my debts so, don't tease.

I hope them to show that interest of cancel stuff in real life for people who really need it! The world is outside the screen, and we are REALLY full of bad people outside so... I think you should turn off your computer for once... pinchis morros mensos

And if you ever felt trigerred cuz I ever say hola to you just cuz someone told you a -rumor- about me .. well, you are really manipulable. You should give yourself the opportunity to speak to someone and know them first instead of -take care of your reputation- that's bullshit , it's hypocrite and maybe it was the best cuz I don't need people to give me false smiles and turns around to say shit.

If I EVER did something unforgivable well... Let me see it ._. I can't say sorry if I don't know what the hell are you talking about

I had this inside my heart that really hurted me for so long , sorry for the vent and I'm truly thankful that you follow me cuz you like my art and me as a person.

I'm truly grateful of all my friends too! Thank you for being there for me

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wlw-lovestruck-fiction · 3 years

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So I've been questioning my gender identity for almost 2 years now and one of the main reasons I think it's taking me so long to even get close to figuring it out is pronouns. I really want to experiment with them and try out different stuff, but the thing is that while I've had different pronouns in my bio for a LONG time now, no one has used them. And I don't mean like people are using the wrong pronouns on purpose, it's the fact that in basically all my online interactions there has never been a need to refer to me in the third person. So that sucks. It also doesn't help that even tho I have people in my life that would 100% understand and support me if I were to change my pronouns(and I know cuz we literally talked about it) I am too chickenshit to actually ask them to. And another problem is that there is basically no way of using gender neutral terms/pronouns in my native language and I'm even more scared of asking my friends to use he/him than I am of they/them, not only because I present femme and don't really have any intentions of changing that but also bc I am not sure how I'll like he/him and I feel like if I ask them to change the way they think and speak of me and I end up not liking it, it'll be a huge waste of everyone's time and energy. And like I know that people are allowed to mess up and get things wrong and transmasc people are 10000% valid no matter how they present but like. In my brain none of that applies to me. Which absolutely blows.

And while pronouns don't equal gender, I thinm trying out different ones would really help me figure shit out bc when I try to analyze my feelings about my gender and body it's always like: do I hate my body bc I have internalised fatphobia or am I not cis? Do I feel icky about vajayjays and peepees bc I'm ace or am I nb? Do I hate my tatas and want to bind bc they're huge and cause me pain or is it dysphoria? I have no idea and it's driving me nuts.

Anyway sorry for the long rant I just really needed to vent.

First of all, dear.. don't be so hard on yourself! Gender is fluid and not always easy to figure out 🤗 I can tell you that ever since I've had people using 'she/they' pronouns for me, it has definitely helped me in that process! So I can see how you would feel it would help. But it isn't a sure fire way to know either. I find myself having more 'they' days than 'she' days since then, and while I'm not sure exactly what that means yet, I'm just rolling with it 😊 It is rather unfortunate that you live in an area where you don't have gender neutral pronouns available to you, tho 😒 But still.. even just bringing people into your inner struggle with it, can help sometimes 🤗 And it may take you a bit to be able to do that, and that's okay! Also - there's no right way to be any spectrum of gender, so just be you. Figure out what makes you feel more comfortable in your skin, and go with it! And for anyone who doesn't agree or fails to respect your decisions, all you can do is try your best to educate them and hope that they learn how to accept you for who you are. Until then, dear Anon, I wish you the best with this. And we are here for you anytime you need to talk it out 🤗♥️ - Mod Runa

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