#d0nt rebl0g plz

[xxn00bpwn3rxx]

HEY00 ★

th1z iz a perz0nal bl0g (zide bl0g, i cant foll0w bac.. if ur foll0w3d by teh uz3r "heyitsdamiien" it m1gh7 b me!!) zo i c4n rebl0g artz n ztuff i like, m4ybe p0zt mah art az w3ll! w1ll be m0ztly regret3vat0r ztuff, w1th teh occazi0nal oth3r f4nd0mz! x3

i g0 by Kazper (Kasper) m4inly, but u c4n alz0 call me Infected!! i g0 by a l0t of ne0z but my m4in prnz r he/nya/pix (+)

yez i am a f1ct1ve, fr0m teh amb3reign zyz! HAIII 1f u kn0 me fr0m 0ur tw1tter lulz o/ . . . m0re 1nf0 ab0ut meh f0und h3r3!!

azkz r alw4yz op3n! i juzt azk u d0nt be we1rd or pry ab0ut 0ur p3rzonal l1fe tyyy <3 (i alzo do d00dl3 r3queztz!!!) alz0 d0nt t4ke anyth1ng i zay az can0n plz >_< im n0t a d3v 0r anyth1ng!! juzt a z1lly guy

any fandom artz i m4ke iz f2u W1TH CR3D1T!!!1!!! idm, juzt d0nt cl4im th3m az ur 0wn, plz

BAZ1C DNI (pr0zh1p/p3d0z/etc - i alz0 azk th4t nzfw pplz go aw4y! [Content Deleted] U WE1RDOZ)

eazier 2 read intro ^^

thiz iz a perzonal blog (zide blog, i cant follow bac.. if ur followed by the uzer "heyitsdamiien" it might b me!!) zo i can reblog art n ztuff i like, maybe pozt my art az well! will be moztly regretevator ztuff, with the occazional other fandomz!

i go by Kazper (Kasper) mainly, but u can alzo call me Infected!! i go by a lot of neoz but my main prnz r he/nya/pix +

yez i am a fictive, from the ambereign zyz! HAIII if u know me from our twitter lulz

azkz r alwayz open! i juzt azk u dont be weird or pry about our perzonal life tyyy (i alzo do doodle requeztz!!) alzo dont take anything i zay az canon plz ... im not a dev or anything!! juzt a zilly guy

any fandom art i make iz f2u WITH CREDIT!!!!!!! idm, juzt dont claim them az ur own, plz

BAZIC DNI (prozhip/pedoz/etc - i alzo azk that nzfw pplz go away! FUCK U WEIRDOZ)

[roughentumble]

PLZ D0NT REBL0G THIS

grinding my teeth and groaning and clawing at the air and digging up the earth why does my mom watch the fucking tiktok ads what the fuck whyyyyyyy.

[swindlefingrs]

It feels weird turning 37 and being pumped about birthday money from my parents but I guess that’s what freelancing life and being an ancient millennial is all about.

So... who has two thumbs and is buying a ticket to see the McElboys here in April, Return of the Obra Dinn, and What Happened to Edith Finch?  

👍 🤓 👍

#i can't wait for 40 #its gon b gud #d0nt rebl0g plz #eye contact cw #physical me and spiritual me

[daisypath]

Yknow sometimes its just like.... God i hate britain. I hate canada. Its not even a personal guilt of living in a bullshit settler state. Everything about this is terrible. If my family was still in britain/finland/iceland (well we would be dead in iceland.. But not the point) there would still be terrible oppression going on in the world. I dont just feel bad about MY impact on it. I want this fixed outside of my guilt about it.

God im just pissed off right now and im rambling. The apocalypse already happened here. It was called colonialism

My existence is relient on the deaths of so many.. And i dont know how to live with that. Be grateful? Do my best to support the indigenois people who remain? Id ont know. I dont know but ill try

#aaaa #d0nt rebl0g plz #excuse the minor crytyping #dont feel like correcting it right now

[tunglrsillyman]

good morning to these people and these people only

#neb talks #d0nt rebl0g plz n thank u

[qcrip]

okay I’m like actually really not planning on killing myself right now or anything but i just read like a few bullet points of a post and said “mood” before realizing it was warning signs for suicide and that’s my autobiography 

#im laughing i worried myself #plz// d0nt rebl0g

[bpdbbygrl]

i have a therapist appointment with this girl ive been waiting since November to call me back & im so excited but also very anxious because my last 2 therapists didnt work out & i ended up walking out & having to waste $20 on a Very Bad Therapist :-/

#plz like if u read #d0nt rebl0g #therapy #therapist #tas

[m0n0maniacal]

"I'm too real to be a sex worker, y'know? /laughs" "Like, I'm too much of an actual person to do that, it doesn't work for me" I REALLY don't fucking care if sex work works for you, if it doesn't, don't fucking do it. But don't come to me like "Wah wah I'm 'too real' to be a sex worker" and suggest that those that DO sex work aren't "actual people" - whEN YOU KNOW WHAT I DO FOR WORK. ARE YOU ASKING FOR ME TO FLIP THE FUCK OUT ON YOU? Obviously.

#shitty temp roomie #sw #d0nt rebl0g plz #text

[st0nerp0ny-blog]

I want to sit around and be creative nOT DO DISHES WHAT THE HELL WHY DID I GET STUCK WITH THE LAMEST CHORE POSSIBLE TODAY

#sorry n shit #d0nt rebl0g plz

[swindlefingrs]

My personal, untagged post re: descriptors of villainous fat people in CR with the addendum from someone that Pumat Sol exists is still being reblogged, and besides feeling disappointed that folks feel better reblogging someone correcting me rather than taking a moment to reflect on my personal critique, or adding an addendum to it that having fat adventurers is not realistic, is how disappointing it is to continue to hear mostly negative portrayals of fat characters in this universe

because I’ve heard the word “rotund” two more times now and one was a crabby barkeep and the other was, again, a villain the gang is now fighting

and in that I think there’s a testament to how insidiously woven fatphobia is into our everyday thought processes that we don’t notice it until we look for it

#d0nt rebl0g plz #these are just my thoughts #on my blog #i'm not tagging them to share them with the fandom #*critical role #fatphobia cw

[swindlefingrs]

A Selfish Post

I used to run this Oakland food blog with a couple of friends and it got kinda popular. We were asked by a few restaurants to come check them out for the two years we actively curated it. The blog’s still up and going, it’s mostly just an Instagram feed - we had a unique tag that we used to feed content to the blog, but other people picked it up and now its not just our distinct experience with Oakland’s food but the entire town’s.

The friends I built it with - we kinda fell out of touch. I moved to a nearby city to live the broke-ass life of a freelancer, some changed jobs, some got married, so we don’t get together to eat and explore like we used to. But while we were actively working on it I always had this stupid dream about Anthony Bourdain visiting Oakland again, specifically, and hitting us up because of our blog. No Reservations had a distinct influence on us deciding to start the blog, after all.

I may be biased but Oakland food is special - just like Oakland itself. It’s complicated, it’s good, it’s messy, it’s political, it has a deep history, built with working-class hands - Black people’s hands, AAPI people’s hands, Latinx people’s hands, queer people’s hands. I thought he’d want to dive even deeper into the Town’s food culture because of that.

We would point him to people he needs to talk to like chef Tanya Holland, James Syhabout, Anula Edirisinche; meals he needs to try like the handmade noodles at Shandong, the lunch buffet at the Gold Club, bahn mi at Cam Huong Cafe, the brisket at Everett & Jones, the tacos at Taqueria Sinaloa, maybe even pester him to visit Souley Vegan and try the chicken fried tofu if we felt brave enough.

There’d be a tough conversation during us showing him around. He’d ask us about working in tech (all of the people involved with the blog did) in the Bay Area, the role we played in gentrifying Oakland, and I wouldn’t have a good answer. Even being born here, I play a role in it. We’d talk about the money pouring in from tech, from China, and the hipsters coming in searching for “authenticity”. We’d talk the Black and Latinx people being shoved out to Emeryville, Richmond, and the central valley. It would be an important conversation. We’d tell him to talk to Frances Moore.

I never thought this would actually happen, but the idea that I would need to answer these questions made me more aware of the space I was taking up, made me aware of the chain of labor, who had access to the food I was eating, who made the food I was eating - from farm to table - it made me take more responsibility for what I participate in, and for that I’m thankful. I was inspired by his ability to be grateful for what was shared with him, his ability to listen, his desire to be aware, to see people, to honor food cultures that weren’t his, his way of letting other people have space, and the basic act of sharing. It’s such a low bar when I write it down, but there it is.

Although his friends and family feel it keenly, I will also miss his presence in the world. 

Depression can kill. The stigma around it and suicide itself is isolating. Asking for help can be hard if not impossible because you don’t know what’s wrong or what help you actually need. Your brain sabotages you at every turn, tells you things that aren’t true but feel true. You backslide. You struggle to exist. It’s fucked and no one wants to talk about it until someone with enough commercial value is killed by it. It’s disappointing and frustrating.

I’m sad. I’m ok, but I’m sad and I’ll miss Tony Bourdain.

#a selfish and self indulgent post #just needed to get it out #*anthony bourdain #depression mention cw #suicide mention cw #tbd #d0nt rebl0g plz

[swindlefingrs]

2018 Goals

Tagged by @vir-ghilani to post my goals for 2018. I usually set vague goals for myself so I can reach them however I need to. I’ve fallen out of practice since I was just trying to survive 2016 and 2017, I feel like I’m in a better place for 2018.

Concrete Goals

Find a therapist and begin therapy

Join a bi+ social group in my area

Complete two triathlons

Read ten books

Build a portfolio with a case study

Stretch Goals

Complete a third triathlon

Help/mentor a fellow fat triathlete

Read two more books

Add two more case studies to my portfolio

Interview with three studios/products

Resolutions

Keep working my depression program

Say “no” more often

Save some of the fucks I give for my own self

Set and stick to emotional boundaries with cis men

Drink more water

Tagging: @cyborgsurprise @venatohru @magewardensurana @thevulturesquadron @notactuallyaduck @thievinghippo @mininuked and anyone else who wants to. Please tag me in it so I can see it!

#nye #new year goals #2018 goals #thanks for the tag! #it was a wild time #sitting down and thinking about this #d0nt rebl0g plz #new years resolutions

[swindlefingrs]

And then the McElroy brothers made me cry on Ep 48 of The Adventure Zone. I listen to you fucks to laugh. How very dare.

#taz #tbd #d0nt rebl0g plz

[swindlefingrs]

FO4 Fandom: “There’s not much character development in this game.” Cait: “Now that we’re friends, I trust you enough to tell you I’m addicted to psycho as a form of self medication. It’s actually killing me. Can you help me find a safe place to detox?” FO4 Fandom: “Anyway, here’s some art of Cait surrounded by needles of psycho and alcohol bottles. Here’s fic of her being high or drunk or blacking out. Here’s some companion reactions about her being on chems. Here’s an aesthetic board with whiskey bottles and pills.”

#d0nt rebl0g plz #tbd #fandom wank #addiction cw #alcoholism cw #drug use cw #*cait #fo4 #salt #yes there's not tons of character development #in the game #Cait's dialogue post-detox about still wanting to do drugs #or Danse not changing his dialogue post-reveal about synths #is proof of that #but why erase the character development we do have? #C'mon dudes

[swindlefingrs]

A simple, easy way of figuring out who to block on this hellsite is finding everyone who uses a British Italian guy as a faceclaim knowing full well the character is Chilean.

#tbd #d0nt rebl0g plz #fandom wank