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suzukiblu · 3 years

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Fic Writer Meme

Tagged by my dear @dancinbutterfly, and like, obviously I will take any excuse to talk about writing.

1) how many works do you have on ao3?

168, although a few of those are podfics that the podficcer credited me as a co-author on. Actually less than I would’ve expected, tbh.

2) what is your total ao3 word count?

1,431,989. Honestly also kinda less than I would’ve expected at this point. I will blame all those old fics I never brought over from LJ and ff.net for this expectation.

3) how many fandoms have you written for, and what are they?

I literally cannot tell you, the ancient ways have been lost to me. I can give you my Ao3 fandoms, though!

Marvel Cinematic Universe

Avatar: The Last Airbender

Overwatch

The Witcher (Netflix)

Young Justice (Cartoon)

Animorphs

Star Wars

Good Omens

Venom

Fantastic Four

Leverage

League of Legends

Daredevil

Supernatural

Care Bears

World of Warcraft

Spider-Man

X-Men

Slender Man Mythos

Additionally, long ago: Naruto, Gundam Wing, Digimon, Ranma ½, Bleach, Inu-Yasha, and many scattered other fandoms of my youth. So, so many others. So I’ve written for 25+ fandoms, at least.

4) what are your top 5 fics by Kudos.

a mark, a mission, a brand, a scar (13004)

I once started out to walk around the world but ended up in Brooklyn (8450)

it’s a long way forward (so trust in me) (6965)

oh don’t you dare look back, just keep your eyes on me (6818)

if the bad times are coming let ‘em come (5362)

5) do you respond to comments?

Not really these days, though I hoard and treasure them like a freaking DRAGON. I used to respond to all of them but sometimes I’m just not around and then it becomes awkwardly late to reply and also they kinda . . . pile up a bit. I do try to answer all the comments with questions in them, at least, as long as the questions aren’t literally spoilers or anything like that.

6) what’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

I don’t usually write super-angsty endings, I think? I don’t FEEL like I usually write super-angsty endings, anyway, at least not these days. I think I did it more often when I was more into, like, drabbles and shortfic. Now I just spend way too long on stuff to give it a downer ending.

The most recent angsty ending I can think of is wanna hold him, maybe I’ll just sing about it, though eventually I did write a sequel to that to soften the blow a bit. And also torment people a bit. Both, technically. Technically both.

7) What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

blondes really do have more fun, definitely. It’s very . . . giddy, I guess? What with the gender euphoria and all. There’s angst and heavy emotions in the actual plot but the highs of the happy parts/ending are probably the highest/happiest ones I’ve written, and Supergirl gets everything she wants without having to compromise or give up anything else.

8) do you write crossovers? If so what is the craziest one you’ve ever written?

I write fusion fic more than crossovers, really, but I have written a LOT of fusion fic. Some of it has been weirder than others, tbh, but probably the Avatar: The Last Airbender/Animorphs fusion that I have been lovingly slaving over deserves to be this answer if only for how much extremely sincere effort I have put into it over the years.

9) have you ever received hate on a fic?

Mild hate, but occasionally. I don’t really tend to remember negative comments, tbh, though it does sometimes make me not want to reread the comment section I know they’re in. But a lot of the hate I’ve gotten in the end just seemed like socially-awkward people being unnecessarily blunt instead of just hitting the back button, so I try not to take it personally. Can’t please everyone. Don’t WANT to please everyone, frankly.

10) Do you write smut? What kind?

Yes, and the kind is “a lot”. Sometimes I don’t really feel like it but definitely I have done a lot of it. I try for Feelings and also to be safe, sane, and consensual as much as I can.

11) have you ever had a fic stolen?

I . . . am not sure? Though probably, after being at this for all this time. Someone once told me that someone picked up a fic I’d (at the time) abandoned and just started writing/posting more of it without asking or telling me about it, but I never actually found said fic and I don’t know if that technically counts as “stealing” anyway.

12) have you ever had a fic translated?

A few times, yup, it’s pretty gratifying! I also like to run them back through Google Translate and see what they say, haha.

13) have you ever co-written a fic before?

yoooo @dancinbutterfly, @rainnecassidy! Also done it with a few other people long, LONG ago, but that was back in the LJ era. Don’t think I’ve technically collabed with anyone else lately, although sometimes people will give me ideas for stuff I’m writing or offer suggestions when I’m stuck on a thing, which is very helpful.

14) what’s your favourite ship?

Like . . . per fandom? ‘Cuz we could be here a while. Most recently it’s Jaskier/Geralt, for a while it was Aziraphale/Crowley, DEFINITELY for a while it was Steve/Bucky . . .

You know, I guess technically my all-time favorite ship is actually Naruto/Sasuke, because I made a LOT of friends in Naruto fandom and it actually hugely influenced the end of my teenage years and beginning of my adult life and so, SO much of my writing. So like, if nothing else it wins on influentialness.

15) what’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

Let ‘Em Come. @rainnecassidy and I wrote that AU a long-ass time ago now and I never did my half of the sequel fic because I got too distracted with another longfic I was working on at the time and then took a real long fandom break. I always felt kind of bad about it because people seemed to bother her for said sequel more than they bothered ME for it, since her fic was the last posted part. Unfortunately I just don’t have the spoons or the MCU-focus for the research and effort it’d take anymore. Also, like . . . it’d probably be pretty long, so unless I was REAL obsessive about it it’d take a good long while.

Basically I think its time has just passed at this point, alas.

16) what are your writing strengths?

Sex, action, snark, and weird fusion fics. Also making people love things they usually hate, that’s one I get told a lot.

17) what are your writing weaknesses?

Fitting physical descriptions of . . . literally ANYTHING into the story. Just, anything. Physical descriptions are hard.

18) what are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in fic?

I try not to do it, personally, because I know soooooo very little about other languages. Sometimes I’ll sprinkle in a little bit of it, but usually I feel like it’s better to avoid it, personally.

19) what was the first fandom you wrote for?

I literally could not even tell you. The first fandom I REMEMBER writing proper “fic” for was . . . Ranma ½, I think. I thiiiiink. But that was a long-ass time ago and I never even posted it anywhere because those were the days when I despised typing things up beyond all measure, hah. And before that I remember writing Animorphs . . . comics? Storyboards? Something like that. Kind of a cross between the two.

20) what’s your favourite fic you’ve ever written?

I do not know! There’s really just too many, tbh. Some top options are you found me when no one else was looking, best friends means you get what you deserve, clay kids, Avamorphs, handmaiden!Anakin, oh don’t you dare look back, just keep your eyes on me, and . . . and I could go on for a dang MINUTE, honestly, haha, I’m just gonna stop myself here before I get too carried away.

I tag whoever happens to be reading this that wants to be tagged; have fun with it!

#meme #a/b/o #some not sfw links in here #fair warning #long post

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sheis-theslayer · 6 years

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Luke Skywalker in TLJ

I find it super interesting that a lot of people don’t like Luke’s characterization in TLJ. I don’t even disagree that it’s different -- it clearly is -- but I’ve seen a lot of reactions take specific umbridge with that. This isn’t the Luke Skywalker we all know and love! This is wrong!

I’ve mused on why that might be, and why I personally don’t mind his change at all. Everyone is entitled to their responses and not liking *this* path for Luke is totally valid. But I just don’t get how it’s out of character or inherently “wrong.”

Mostly because...what character is this Luke Skywalker? He's 40ish years older than the last time we saw him! He grew! He changed! He got scared! Which is something everyone does, and we’ve all seen it. My mom is an entirely different human at age 61 than she was at age 24; even just 8 years later, most of my friends from HS are different people. I’m not mad at them for that.

To me, a "characterization" comes down to core motivation, and Luke's didn't change. He still wants what is best for the galaxy -- he still wants to hope. The problem with this Luke is that hope *failed him* and, even worse, he failed it. He can't reconcile that right now

I think one of Luke’s best moments is when he monologues for, like, five minutes about the struggles of being a legend, and how being a legend didn't help Ben Solo. Being a farm boy who suddenly discovered he has insane powers and is the one hope of the entire galaxy is...a lot to deal with. Being put on a pedestal like that, ultimately believing that yourself, is a lot to deal with. Especially when failure is an inevitable human experience.

This is gonna be dumb, but I identified a lot with this exchange from an ~overachieving student~ perspective. high school was great because being successful was relatively easy. I didn't have to work that hard (in retrospect) to achieve top level grades.

I went to college. Hard classes, new experiences, difficult teachers, hella mental health issues suddenly becoming crytal clear, and so on all got in the way. Just being smart wasn't enough anymore, but I didn't have the long-term skills to handle it like I should've. I got jaded AF about academics and success, nearly fled school in a depressive breakdown, and overall lost 100% of my self-confidence. I didn’t want to fail myself and my family, so maybe I should just...get on a train and never come back. Can’t fail school when you don’t even try, right? Loophole!

To that end: Luke Skywalker saved ONE dude in his babyhood, and it was literally a man who had to do NOTHING to maintain his redemption -- Anakin never has to prove he's changed, he gets to die the second he turns back to the light. That's not sustainable! That's not a real battle with darkness! But it’s impressive and lasting when it’s the one thing you’ve really done. So, imagine saving the worst human in the galaxy. It's pretty easy to think nothing past that will be a challenge.

Then you can't rescue a kid on a slippery slope. Scary. As. Fuck. If even you, THE LEGENDARY LUKE SKYWALKER, can't save Benjamin Solo (BENJAMIN. SOLO!), your nephew and student, then...maybe no one can. Or maybe you're not who you thought you were. And maybe you let the doubt creep in, a darkness you’re not used to fighting, a new kind that doesn’t feel like the Sith but suffocates your Light all the same. You fail him in a moment of choking weakness, and then it all goes to hell.

And maybe, now, the things you've hinged your whole sense of right and wrong on are broken. Maybe the only thing to do is let it die (on an island, with some fish nuns). Maybe that's the only way your friends and family will be safe. That’s what Luke has always wanted. In times of darkness, these things sound like the right thing to do.

That’s still Luke Skywalker. He just hid himself so dang well that no one could come knock any sense into him, especially when he cut himself off from the Force in fear.

I think the film is quite stern about the dangers of falling into a simplistic view of...anything. The Force, the Rebellion, the First Order (tho I think the "war profiteering" bit was weakly executed), leadership, glory, power...it's all more complicated than it looks on the surface. I mean, the Jedi are an ancient order of magical monks who protect the universe through study and training, right

Yeah, says Yoda. They sure are. But they're people, too. And people need a lot more to be great -- and stay strong enough to be great -- than just the force and an old book. They need failure, they need trials, they need victories. They need more than just starry eyes and hope and who they were when it all happened to go right.

It makes me sad to see thinkpieces reduce it into "omg, Luke was a man full of eternal hope and now he’s just a would-be murderer grump!" That completely limits the changes and experiences he SHOULD have had in the 40 years since we last saw him, and undermines the arc that he ultimately gets to have.

Luke Skywalker is the shining beacon, he is LITERALLY 'The New Hope'. Now we had to watch him deal with that not being enough to always win the day, or to always beat back the darkness. And ultimately? He put on his best all-black Gucci, astral projected his ass across the universe, and did his level best to bring home the light.

That's Luke Skywalker, my friends. That's my dude.

#luke skywalker #star wars #tlj #the last jedi #sw spoilers #sw #my space dad #anyway #this was originally a reply on FB so it is in no way addressed to anything I saw here #but I've been Thinking A Lot About Luke #i love him very much #he is my patron saint #unnecessary discourse

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