#dei rambles

[deirunn]

There's no way this place didn't belong to Shadow Milk Cookie before corruption

#Everything just screams HIM #dei rambles #crk #shadow milk cookie #cookie run kingdom

[deathrattleofablasphemousorator]

Picking toki pona back up again! I’ve been really bad at staying on top of my practice as of late due to a depressive episode but now I have literally nothing else to do. So.

#dei dreams #dei rambles #toki pona

[accidentarisen]

"you break it you buy it"

i'm missing a lot more money than i should be

#ignore my i #dei rambles

[stressfulsloth]

"This--" she points to herself. "Has taken her place. It will devour you, Harry. I will eat your mind."

#disco elysium #long post #dora and dolores and the horror of being subsumed by the apricot-scented embodiment of colonialism and moralism and middleclass whiteness #'i will eat your mind' ;-; #harry du bois #dolores dei #dora ingerlund #dora losing any and all identity- totally devoured.... #their entire relationship overshadowed by this apricot ghost :(( #the banal inhumanity of moralism and the way it consumes her- metaphorically and literally #and dolores... inhuman something grown sick of observing... #anyway this is another collection of assorted quotes. i have no brain functioning to form actual thoughts. thumbs up. #disco ramblings #disco rambling

[linktoo]

I got an ask wondering about who is my favourite character in Disco Elysium, which I stand by my answer of being not really one in particular. But, Dora is one character I've been thinking about a lot and I think I want to expand on that.

The story is told through Harry's eyes, and regardless of his in-depth analysis of and narration of his attributes, it's unreliable. Undeniably so. This is part of the story, I really do feel for Harry's inability to move on. I feel for his aching loneliness, and his need to be needed. The crushing feeling of missing someone so achingly bad, only for them to learn that they have actually forgotten a lot about you and moved on is a feeling of deep rejection, devastatingly demoralizing and painful.  "I betrayed her, overwrote her, and happier for it" is a visceral line of feeling the alienation of someone you've lost to time, someone you used to know but has moved on without you. 

But I really can't help but feel so much for Dora's position in all of this. As a woman in a male dominated society your emotions are seen as both weak yet mature, you are constantly objectified down into pieces of meat, and seen as vapid and shallow when you put yourself first. When you choose to finally stand up for yourself, that is long after you've known better, long after you’ve been embittered by your initial innocence and first experience.

“You were my first. My first kiss, my first time to have sex.”

The game continues to emphasize how Harry loved her, how Harry missed her, and yet I get deeply uncomfortable with how her presence is described with her physique rather than her actual self as a person. 

“A dolorian figure, cut in black, moves below. It's still her. Her legs, her breasts, her hips…”

[...]

“‘No, Harry.’ She shakes her head. ‘It's just regular skin. I'm not as beautiful as you always thought I was.”

It’s reductive. It’s dehumanizing. It’s not about her, it’s what she represents. The most perfect goddess of a woman, put on a pedestal and quite literally turned into a deity. Not to be loved romantically, but to be worshipped as a religious figure. Worshipped for the violence and destruction she creates to degrade him and feed into his self loathing, and thus Dora becomes Dolores Dei.

There is a selfish hope and longing that comes with any sort of kindness or pity she give him. She knows that and her words are cautious, she has been through it before, and no longer feels any sort of way about it. She is vulnerable, she did used to care, she is sympathetic to his pain, but she firmly does not anymore and will not allow her empathy be used against her.

YOU - "But… that's not a very good way for things to be." DOLORES DEI - "It's not, but…" She looks at her feet. Little golden sandals cover her toes. YOU - "But what? Tell me there's something good…" DOLORES DEI - "I don't know why I said but. There is no but." YOU - "That's it?" DOLORES DEI - "That's it, yes," she looks up from her toes. "We've talked about it a million times. You will get over it, just like I did. People do. Things will get good for you again…"

I understand that detachment so deeply.

There is a pain to know men you trusted and cared and loved only to be seen as a reductive version of yourself. The one who is “nice”, the one who is “ethereally beautiful” and that’s… about it. You’re not good for each other. It didn’t work out. But by finally deciding it is best to remove yourself from that relationship, you are considered the slut that left him. You are considered the gold digger, the shallow bitch, the uncaring freak of a woman. We didn't really get to know about her and I don't think she was good to him either.

And I just can’t help thinking about that. I’m glad she’s happier now.

#dolores dei #harry du bois #disco elysium #dora ingerlund #linktoo rambles #we live in a society... idk what 2 say...

[kayime]

#19 days #tianshan #he tian #mo guan shan #just for fun #dis can be sad too #like dey really from two different world #we should make dat list #10 days to 'qixi' #dont mind my rambling

[omorinintendoswitchedition]

Hold on important question for de tumblr do you think there are people who celebrate Dolores Dei's death day the same way we celebrate things like Ides of March and Margaret Thatcher's death

#sunny rambles #disco elysium #dolores dei

[littleblueberryartist]

Something something thoughts about my hc that Venti was overworked before he was carefree. Him wanting to do good by mond & the friends he lost, struggling to help rebuild it while also dealing with grief and suddenly being thrust into godhood and a new form all at once

Unlike most of the gods we know about Venti didn't start off as a deity and had to just. Cope?? He was just a little wind sprite man he was just a lil guy that lost two of his friends ;-; Not to mention the red haired warrior walking out on them after he just ascended

I also hc that he had to learn to deal with human emotions too so everything felt so much worse and more overwhelming because he wasn't used to it. So fueled by guilt and grief he tries so incredibly hard to carry on his friends' legacy and create a mond they'd be proud of. He was so tired and not at all processing his emotions properly.

Gunnhildr supporting him and having to remind him to take breaks

A parallel to the far future when a certain green bard reminds the acting grandmaster to rest,,,

I'm so soft for Venti's relationship with the Gunnhildr clan actually

#genshin impact #venti #headcanon #old mondstadt #carmen dei #nameless bard #amos #gunnhildr #sir ragnvindr #red haired warrior #old mond gang #I have #so many feelings about early godhood venti #he was just a lil guy man!!!! #he was just a lil wind wisp that wanted to help his friend see birds!!!!! #aqua's ramblings

[crow-collective15]

Help I accidentally started a insult war with the angel of death -Charlie

OH IM SO DOWN DOWN FOR THIS, IVE GOT SO MUCH TO THROW AT THIS GUY HELL YEAH -rosey

#osdd #endos dni #anti endo #traumagenic system #did #osddid #the daughter of the devil and a satanist start a insult war with the angel of Dey #what could go wrong #I HAVE SO MUCH TO THROW AT THIS GUY -rosey #rosey #Charlie #Azael #rosey rambles #charlie talks

[deuynndoodles]

[id: a digital rough sketch of the artist drawing on an overly large tablet, looking confused and frustrated. they think, "what." an arrow pointing to the tablet says "new tablet". end id]

lord help i got the new tablet but its a Learning Curve

#doodles #rambles #dey sona

[humanitys-strongest-bamf]

cw: ableism, mentions of substance use disorders, professions being shitty about mental health and me being problematic about it under the cut

tldr; social work can be sanctimonious and self-righteous and still perpetuates ableism and oppression and i decided to be a problem about it and called it out :)

ok so i was at a webinar earlier today that was talking about getting licensed as a clinical social worker in the state that i'm in. 1) it was useless and i learned nothing so i'm already pissed about that, but 2)

they had a slide about potential reasons that your application might not be considered and there were two that specifically stood out to me. they listed "a history of substance use disorders" and "having a mental health diagnosis". i would also like to note that this presentation was from the licensing board, so this isn't a case of misinterpretation of information

now, i wasn't really paying attention for the most part because i realized by this point that i wasn't learning anything but then i saw this slide and i guess it ripped me out of my stupor because then i deadass typed into chat that it was discrimination and a clear violation of our code of ethics and questioned their rationale

and they got SO defensive and dodged my question, immediately saying that it's only a *potential reason* and that it's for "safety concerns"

i was tired as fuck because it's one of my fatigued days so i didn't respond but i really REALLY wanted to ask them to explicitly define what "safety concerns" means and watch them dig themselves into a hole that forces them to admit that they're being ableist shits because what the actual fuck

whats worse is that we're ALWAYS talking about advancing social justice (it is LITERALLY stated in our code of ethics) and then turning around and pulling bullshit like this.

anyways, my comment disrupted their presentation and forced everyone to realize the weight of their statement and the board kinda proved to everyone the epitome of how our field still perpetuates oppression despite claiming to fight in dismantling it

#cw: ableism #i wouldn't be so mad if we weren't always preaching about DEI #because we're literally saying “look at us we're advancing social justice uwu” #and then turning around and being like “lol you thought” #i'd still be mad #just a *tad* less #kat rambles #vent post

[deirunn]

That's a fucking blueberry

#Bro's name was Blueberry Milk Cookie or smth #I'm just so happy that I made that discovery cuz i was really confused on what that thing was #dei rambles #crk #shadow milk cookie

[deathrattleofablasphemousorator]

INTRO POST —

Toki! Welcome to my trans and evil maze. I primarily go by Yrsa , but you can also call me Dei

They/them and it/its pronouns, please alternate. Don’t use gendered terms on me [dude, bro, girl, etc. even if your intent is to use them in a gender neutral way.] I’m a transneutral femme but don’t really use that as a label, queer as a gender but not necessarily genderqueer, and a polyamorous aromantic allosexual. My pronouns page is here.

I’m the co-host of a system, this is my personal blog. You might recognize our main blog over at @dropitdoeeyes (that’s also what i’ll be following from.) I’m the symptom holder for a lot of shit I may or may not get into

Send me asks! I love talking to people. I’ll probably draw you a little something too, as a treat

I don’t have a DNI since I find them really useless, I’ll block you if you’re a troll, if you reblog untagged unreality, or if you reblog shit like "ooh reblog this or you're a horrible evil person" . Terfs explode.

Some interests of mine —

Linguistics are my current special interest, and I’m learning toki pona [I don’t know it very well and can barely hold a conversation, but it’s been going smoothly!]

Also really into math, theatre tech, video essays on obscure topics, and TTRPGS [It’s been way too long since I’ve been a gm and I need to fix that.] Some viddy games I’m really into are Disco Elysium, Hollow Knight, Portal, and Subnautica. Big fan of weird gross horror games too [e.g. How Fish is Made] please do let me know if you have any recommendations.

I’m kind of a furry? I’m not active in the community and I don’t really consider myself one even though I am by definition. I enjoy anthro animals very much and may post some of my art if I’m in the mood.

I listen to a lot of music, but if you were to ask I’d say I mostly listen to goth, deathrock, glitchy music, breakcore, and folk. Big fan of Christ vs. Warhol, Femtanyl, Rosegarden Funeral Party, The Reverent Marigold, Nox Novacula, Vision Video, Tears for the Dying, Patricia Taxxon, and Black Dresses.

Tag guide —

[Under the cut since this is getting long]

Most recent edit : 4/27/24

#dei dreams — text posts by yours truly

#dei rambles — long or otherwise rambly posts that don’t mean much of anything

#dei doodles — art by yours truly! probably won’t post much of it but it’s worth having

#reblog — posts not by yours truly. will not tag this one reliably my condolences

#undescribed — posts containing images/videos without a description

#video games — posts about video games, either me rambling about my own playthroughs or reblogging something else related

#language — linguistics posts

#queerness — posts about queerness

#people — people being human

#angels — angels

#tech — pretty computers :3

I’ll be adding more tags as I go along, but for now, this is about it. I probably won’t reliably tag many triggers, I’ll try my best, but do be wary about that. Flashing lights and eyestrain will always be tagged

#dei dreams #dei rambles #pinned post #intro post

[welcometoteyvat]

leaks rumoring a cyno sq 2.... 👁️👁️ temple of silence lore when

#genshin leaks #LORE WHEN !!!! CHILD CYNO GOD REMAINS HERMANUBIS LORE WHEN!!!! #this would mean he's the 2nd non god char to get a 2nd sq <3 icon joining yoi in the club #sucks to be u (carmen dei act 2 wanters acting Extremely Annoying when yoi was having her moment. keep waiting and complaining why dont you #also if this means he's rerunning this means his weapon's rerunning. so if he's rerunning with arle (idfk just a wild guess) #i wouldn't mind a 44 crit rate polearm. but also i have 2 pjws already. PLEASE weapon banner be kind to me #ramblings!

[abyssalpriest]

"God the inner argument... Do I get a shivlingam I'll use with liquid offerings that I know will degrade or not? Because I'm so tempted to fall into the blissful worship of destruction through destruction like the erosion of the shore by the Great Ocean.... Let the sign crumble away as He wills it to... That's gonna get me hated - but then again I'm already an 'unmarried' 'woman' that's gonna be rubbing my filthy little (big) hands all over it because the boundaries of class and gender are crumbled pillars of a ruined temple here and he calls me to listen to him and him alone" well I picked the right god didn't I

#Thinking about those Shaivites who dance in the Unholy as a means of enlightenment lmfao #Also I mean. Chicken and egg. What came first in my life. Shiva or this philosophy of divine destruction and holy transcendence of #boundary through purposeful use of said boundaries. Awareness of self and enlightenment through doing what others will not #because all is Of God #OH SHIT MY NAME SPOTTED. NICE DEI REFERENCE #But yeah ignoring the choosing the right god being nothing more than a joke. Lmfao #ramblings // #Maheshvara //

[kayime]

jianxi to tianshan: seems familiar..

#19 days #old xian #jianxi #tianshan #jian yi #zhan zheng xi #he tian #mo guan shan #dey sting eachother #dont mind my rambling