#dont even knkw why lol

[wc-confessions]

the only evidence-- yes, these kinds of claims need evidence-- of marinin being racist i can find is in one tumblr post that has a screenshot of marinin being upset about getting a lot of aggressive comments for working on the cleopatra MAP. she did a map part- a 5 second animation- and got called a piece of shit by dozens of people, but i guess she's not allowed to be stressed? not to mention she is a person of color. but i doubt you knew that, because that would require you to take a second look at the situation rather than regurgitating rumors. it's just so sickening how badly people in this community seem to want to turn on each other. but i guess it's all worth it if you're making all the people of color feel very safe... by endorsing the harassment of a poc for making an animation you don't like. you're definitely making me feel very safe as a disabled person. i love knowing that characters like me should be relegated to inspo p*rn. love seeing people attack a creator for arbitrary reasons and then say "hehe see! i care so much about disabled people!". i love seeing that my opinion only matters when i'm agreeing with you and otherwise i'm just an idiot stan. i dont even follow marinin's content. it's just so stressful knowing what she's going through and how rabid the warrior cats fandom is. its scary, honestly. making art online seems like my only realistic way of making money and the thought that one tumblr post with shaky evidence could get me harassed for literal years is scary.

ok first off i need you to fucking stop making assumptions abt me bc i know of marinin just forgot all the bullshit they did. i dont knkw u and u sure as hell dont know me so the fact that in both ur shit asks youre comming up with false ideals just to show ur support to someone who has done bad over and over again is telling. secondly stop babying them just bc theyre brazilian its so wekrd u have to keep mentioing tht they are not exempt from being a shithead just bc theyre a poc lol theyre a fucking human which is evident in their actions. and you do not speak for every fucking disabled person bc i assure you disabled ppl were the ones that brought the issue w the tawny pelt map to light. and as a disabled black person fuck you literally the map was in bad taste and she responded in a terrible way its not tht hard to accept.

and if u really did some reasearch youd be aware that she was taking from native cultures, handled the issue tawnypelt map Badly, and she was literally deleting comments explaining how her actions were ableist and only responding to/liking the comments of ppl siding w her but yeah im biased and mean for acknoweding any of this. shes also literally friends w shit ppl and While searching im literally seeing her subject several minors to harassment solely for. adressing her ableist map in a chat and on their accs.and this was fucking not that long ago why arent you pissing yourself over the ppl discussing tht

and idk if you dont think a guilt trippy belittling responses to being held accountable isnt a red flag hm

the fact that you have to utilize this person being brazilian and upset about the process of facing accountability in Both asks as a way to make Me somehow brush off everything else is fucked up. no its not cool they were harassed but if u equate ppl bothered by her actions as harassment or hating poc then. that sounds more like a u issue.

literally. stop making this about a shitty animation stop minimizing the harm shes influencing. this is more than a fucking map ppl dont like this is abt someone who is obviously not fit for a huge following and you are proving that point gn

#whadda hell #also sooo many ppl talk abt 5his person #but you wanna argue with a confessions blog #shes a grown ass adult literally stop spesking for her #thts literwlly how she gets away w shit #bc u freaks have to pull shit from ur ass #for some popular wc creator #who doesnt even give a shit abt u #not a confession #text #anonymous #also ur literally defending a hh fan shut up

[spatio-rift]

6,7,13,16 for the ask game U CAN ANSWER PRIVATELY I JUST WANNA KNKW

THANK YOU LAB i think i can answer these publicly

6 (which ship fans are the most annoying?): i mean considering ive had the first image saved on my phone for years and i made the second one based on it months ago i feel like i couldnt possibly answer anything else

i dont even dislike sns itself but the way the fans act about hinata in particular makes me so genuinely angry.LOL like theyre so pissed naruto didnt marry sasuke that they invent a whole new narrative where hinata was always fully in control of the hyuuga clan and saw & treated neji like a slave and would happily brand one of her children with the caged bird seal. nevermind the fact that she was practically disowned and her own father told her teacher that she could die for all he cared, that she worked with neji to change the hyuuga clan all throughout the timeskip despite him almost killing her shortly before, and that they have canonically succeeded in making the branch family equals to the main one and that they do not use the seal anymore. like can you shut up about hinata if you dont even know that the only way to break the seal is by dying so shes not simply refusing to undo it and that they dont brand people who dont have the byakugan because the whole point of it is to protect the secrets of the byakugan so its not like boruto or himawari would ever be at risk of getting the seal since boruto doesnt have the byakugan. which btw doesnt make sense w the established hyuuga lore and neither does himawari awakening it since theyre supposed to be born with it and its the sharingan that people have to awaken but whatever. this is unrelated to sns fans im just annoyed that kishimoto forgot. ALSOOOO sns fans making post after post about how hinata forced this marriage on naruto, and that he is sooo unhappy in it that he GOTTA cheat on her with sasuke. WHY DO YOU ALL WANT HIM TO BE A CHEATER SO BAD go outside and mind your own business!!!!! ohhhh it annoys me !!!!!! sorry.

honestly the second one is more that theres a specific clique of fdkd fans that ive passionately hated since 2018 but like... if theyre the only fdkd fans i see then i can say i hate fdkd fans. but unlike sns i also happen to fucking hate the ship. LOL

7 (what character did you begin to hate not because of canon but because how how the fandom acts about them?): i think this one is a little hard to answer because im too stubborn to ever really let fandom make me hate a character for real? but people have definitely made me care WAYYY less about sasuke. sorry this is about naruto again and definitely related to the people from the question above but also as a taka fan i just kind of hate that most people talking about taka are sasuke fans and they tend to do it in a way where like. they dont like team7 so taka are their replacement and they dont acknowledge at all everything shitty sasuke did to them or even the circumstances of their getting together. like theyre not a team because sasuke likes them as opposed to team 7 they were just the most useful to him for his revenge against itachi... like it all just feels a little like sasuke fans only think of taka as sasukes accessories and dont really care abt them as characters really which has def lowered sasukes likeability ratings for me. LOLLLL but honestly when i read naruto i dont dislike him at all i quite enjoy everything abt him but when i log into tumblr and see a post hoo mama 💢💢💢

also i similarly quite enjoy reading kusuo in the saipsi manga but the way people talk about him on here makes me roll my eyes so hard sometimes. i like to be a hater w my friend privately sometimes cuz its funny LOL but its whatever idrc about him anyway

13 (worst blorboification): oh my god i dont think i can answer this one because i literally dont think i know what blorboification specifically means. i vaguely get it but i dont think i can confidently say anything unless someone gives me a clear definition 😭😭 sorry

16 (you can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc)): MAKING SAIPSI ANGST I DONT GET ITTTTTTT WHY ARE YOU READING A GAG MANGA TO GET SAD AND DEPRESSED I DONT GET ITTTTTTTTT

girlboss karin SHES A FAILGIRL evil imayoshi HES LITERALLY JUST A GOOFY LITTLE GUY AND GAY taka settling down in a village (especially konoha??) WHY??????? THEYRE WANTED CRIMINALS AND NONE OF THEM EVEN ARE FROM KONOHA THE 2ND VILLAGE WITH THE MOST REASONS TO WANT THEM DEAD poor little meow meow hanamiya ARE WE READING THE SAME MANGA sakura karin shipping ITS UNINTERESTING AND ENTIRELY BASED ON SASUKE EVEN WHEN YOU KICK HIM OUT OF THE LOVE TRIANGLE stripper aus ON SOME LEVEL I GET WHY (THE PORN I GUESS) BUT IM ALWAYS BAFFLED THAT THEYRE EVERYWHERE im out of breath

[li4r]

#i feel so fucking sad #dont even knkw why lol #like i cant even pinpoint where it all went wrong becahse nothing has ever felt right #im such a shit person #a complete loser #N ive been reduced to vent tagging into the void because i have no support system irl #people irl always seem to fet mad at me for being sad #like ill be sad and theyll be like instantly angry Theyre all like Guess its my fault then! #onviously its not you its the 20 years of abuse and despair and neglect thats finally reaching a breaking point LOL #idek what to do #Ill probably be fine tomorrow its just like Right now i feel so broken #everything just fucking sucks And then sometimes ill be upset like i am right now and ill like unlock another hidden traumatic memory #idek who i am All my memories are gone theres like years of gaps where i just have no idea what happened where i was #and now im just here #Wasting away #Lol #Byen! #mine

[whatwouldmickeydo]

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#ok but that one post of mine from Sunday that has over 1000 notes on it #not me literally freaking out on Sunday watching the numbers go up and wondering WHY the hell it’s so popular lmao #to the point I was telling my partner every hour when it got 100 more and he was like what’s so good about it #I DONT EVEN KNKW ITS A RANDOM POST I WROTE AT 2 am! #why are so many people reading it it’s not even that good?? #ok rant is over I just needed to get that out lol

[mrfoox]

Wish I was different. Wish many things were different but most of all wish I was different

#miranda talking shit #negative #Imagine feeling fulfillment more than three times per year #You might think im over exaggerate here but like... No #spend 1-3 hours cleaning up the apartment and in the end i feel no achievement or sense of accomplishment #Im just sweaty and frustrated #I really do not know why im still trying like ... The most powerful and most intense thing one can basically feel as a human #Is an orgasw and like its supposed to give off feel good emotions or whatever but ive spent like three years almost twice per week keeping #This up and trying to make it an habit and like. ... I can recall one which was close to being that 'woah/amazing' feeling that everyone #Describe .... The rest is just .... Like ... Im getting over the edge but theres no wow... Its just ... 'i guess this feels good' for onesec #And then its just over like... Oh wow glad i spent over an hour on this and im all sweaty now haha... #I know its not the destination but the journey but when the journey is just time consuming and overly complicated its like... #Haha... What now? #Meanwhile like every mental health person ive talked to being convinced ill 'be fine' and 'be out of here without help soon' like.... Uh... #Lol nothing is fulfilling and thats something important to have in life to even want to live it #And i know im a broken reCord about this like i knkw no one wants to hear it its annoging and ive said it so many times #Get over it already stop being so dramatic but like... What i wouldn't give to feel happiness or even some sort of RELIF in life? #People see me and cant understand why im so tired or sad or whatever because im not doing anything ... #Like... I dont feel refreshed. Last time i felt refreshed was in like 2011. Theres no way for me to feel good #Or rested or something . No reset button. I cant work out and relive some streess or finish something and feel good im just ... I got nothin #My stress doesnt go away. I can put it on pause but its not gone. It doesnt feel like ive 'cleared' my mind or anything #I can just ignore it for top an hour and then its right back like it never left #Cant even be happy about my sleep because I never feel its 'good' sleep . Nightmares almost every night and i wake up exhausted #At least its an healthier coping mechanism than selfharm (: speaking of #I am so close to picking it up again and its scary but also such a comforting idea. Nothing else that can get my mind so blank and away from #All the shit in my head. Havent done it in what... 5-6 years ? And i dont think i ever had an releapse once i stopped #Because the last time i did it i did it too deeply and almost got found out #But now? Who can catch me? Who can try to care? I meam i guess my home help but they have an non disclosure agreement #Cant say if it works for selfrm but i mean... As long as its not suicide threats or such im sure they cant do much #self harm

[20yearstostart]

Noah centinneo really thinks he can keep doing these romcoms and saying these adorable lines and make his way into my heart?

Bet, bitch.

#sarah did not deserve him #i dont knkw why but hes so good lol #like not even my normal type #jb is my one true love tho #I LOVE IM JAEBUM #but noah #boiii #i hope my daughter finds a guy like him #or son #my kid finds a guy like him #omfg i meant sierra or htf you spell her name lol

[f1nalboys]

TCM 2022 THOUGHTS AND OPINIONS ETC UNDER THE CUT <3333 the post before this is my live watch if u wanna see it hehehe anyways <3

PROS:

-sally <33333333 god i didn’t realize how much i missed her

-BUBBA!!!! loved that they kept him being fat, loved the relationship w his mom and the reasoning they give for him killing again. i also rlly loved the play on the pretty lady mask heheheheh

-i rlly liked most of the call backs to the og one <3

-lila and richter were great characters if not a little flat but maybe i just love ellie as an actress

-most of the kills were BADASS

-i loved the entire party bus scene idc the ‘do anything and ur cancelled bro’ line is so fucking funny LMFAO

-the cinematography was super cool and i loved the colors and framing etc etc

CONS:

-oh boy. ok so unfortunately i dislikes most of the characters. they were all flat and 1 dimensional and i fucking HATED melody.

-the cgi gore and blood was so distracting we need to bring back practical effects yall ….. like god damn the party bus scene could have been so much better if there were any practical effects

-i feel like they didn’t rlly use the set up well? like they could have delved i to gentrification, school shooting, racism, etc more but they rlly didn’t? they just kind of went ‘hey. look.’ and then dropped it

-and when they did bring the school shooting back up it was ,,,,, just weirdly placed? idk how to explain it

-they rlly didn’t give us anything to care abt the characters. like we know nothing abt ANY of them except lila and bubba which is rlly only bc we have the og movie to go off of. so why should we care abt them when they’re dying if they’re not likeable or have any redeeming qualities lol

-the timeline is a little weird just bc virginia calls bubba one of her kids from the orphanage but when tcm1 took place bubba was an adult? idk maybe i’m just stupid and don’t understand it lol

-hated the whole ‘confederate flag’ plot line they had going on like . hated they painted dante as the bad guy for being uncomfortable w it. it was stupid.

-honestly it all boils down to the characters and how unlikeable they are. in the og one, we literally had insight into the characters (even just a little) which MADE them likeable! there was none here! the plot was a little predictable but i’m not faulting the movie for that it’s pretty common atp but like,,,, the characters. god. I STILL DONT EVEN KNKW THE BLONDE GIRLS NAME!!! LIKE WHATS DANTES GFS NAME? couldn’t tell you! i only learned lila’s name 45 mins into the movie!

OVERALL:

ok so overall i liked it (i know theres more cons but ignore it hehe)! it wasn’t a groundbreaking phenomenal movie by any means but it was fun and honestly that’s all i need from a movie lol

i’d prob give it a high 3 if i had to rate it tbh

#tcm 2022 spoilers #texas chainsaw massacre 2022 #the texas chainsaw massacre franchise #tcm #tcm franchise #tcm 2022

[achillescourse]

trying to narrow down the motivating behind inclusionism is really hard but it usually comes down to

- lgbt person who feels they dont 'fit the mould' and fears that if others are excluded, so will they for not being stereotypically lgbt

- lgbt person in denial abt being l g b or t and so will jump chasms to justify why a n y o n e is allowed bc they knkw they are one of us but dont want to admit to being,,,, '''one of those gross lgbts,,,,,'

-cishet ace / aro / polyam people who feel left out and want the community that has formed around the lgbt community, even if they actively oppress us and should do the work to make their own community

- people (lgbt or often well meaning allies) who dont really know a lot about The Discourse but have been pressured into being inclusive of everyone (paradox of tolerance anyone lol) by threats of losing funding / social support / ect

#discourse #ace discourse #ace disk horse #ach.text #pls add if u think of others

[obsessioninc]

Dab and Evan with 18!!!

Thanks so much for the request! It's been so long since I watched DnP play the sims that I'd forgotten how much I loved these boys, but I went back and rewatched some for research purposes and they are so beautiful and I miss them ;-;

Anyway, sorry that I didn't really get to much of the shippy content in this bad boy. With how long it's been since I watched the series I was just trying to come up with a plot. I definitely have ideas on how I could continue it as a longer story that covers their whole camping trip, confession, first kiss... everything, but I dont know that I have the motivation lol. But yeah! Here ya go!

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Dab knew he had always been something of a wild card. From the first day of kindergarten when a little girl pointed out his wild curls, from the first day he met Evan Pancakes and his energy scared the poor boy into hiding behind his mother's leg, hell, from the first day he was born into the Howlter family. Nobody had to tell him he was different for him to know. That didnt stop them from telling him anyway.

He never really minded, though. He had never been without friends, and that was what mattered, right? He was true to himself and had people who cared about him. What was so wrong about being different, anyway?

You know, as long as he don't decide to take an impulsive camping trip to the middle of an uncharted jungle wilderness with his lifelong best friend/crush over a long weekend.

Which was exactly what Dab had in mind that evening.

The idea struck him the way genius does: at 4 am over a PB&J. In a matter of seconds the text was sent, and the plan was conveyed. Evan, of course, was asleep and unable to bask in the brilliance of Dab's bleary-eyed, sleep-deprived lunacy. After a few moments and the rest of his sandwich, Dab returned to his bed and fell asleep, immediately forgetting that he had just offered to take Evan on an "amazing adventure in Selvadorada."

A light buzzing woke Dab up early the next morning. His phone screen lit up with a notification - a text. Typical Evan, up at the crack of dawn.

"This is without a doubt the stupidest plan you've ever had. Of course I'm in!"

"Plan?" Dab sleepily croaked to himself. "Wha-"

His eyes drifted slowly upward to the previous messages. Or, actually message. Filling up the rest of the screen was a massive wall of typo-ridden text that Dab had no recollection of thinking, let alone typing. But it had definitely been sent from his phone at precisely 4:23 a.m. that morning. And it was all about how the two of them could "soend some wuality time together, I can shiw off my rockin musclss and we can fight kff giant bugs together. Ya knkw I read an article about how they have mosquitos thst get up to 6 inches long. Id figt em off for you... Id fight off a 10 pound mosquito..."

Looking back at it, even Dab himself knew it was crazy. And yet, Evan had agreed. That was something he loved about Evan. No matter how timid and introspective he was, he always took Dab's schemes seriously. There was never any "Haha that's insane, you'll never go through with it." It was always either "I don't think that's a good idea and here's why" or "How can I help?"

Dab sat there in bed a while longer, rereading the messages and attempting to process what they meant. When everything finally clicked into place, he ran to his parents' room and nearly broke down the door trying to wake them up. The original text had said that he would book a campsite as soon as he heard back.

It took a little more than an impulsively slapped-together plan to convince Dil and Tabitha to let their oldest son go traipsing about the jungle without an adult, but after a little prodding and pleading and no small amount of puppy dog eyes, they broke down. Evan was a responsible young man, after all. And they were Howlters, impulsivity and getting into trouble ran in their blood. Why not let the kid have a little adventure?

The site was booked in less than a minute, and Dab shot off another text.

"Meet me outside in fifteen with your stuff. We've got a bus to catch."

#she answers #she writes #dab and evan #devan #dan and phil play the sims #dan and phil #dab howlter #evan pancakes #fanfiction

[royalelusts]

Sudden flashbacks to when 3 different people in 3 different times have taken a picture or pictures (maybe even a video) of me without my consent and them thinking i dont notice them-

1st timei was in public transport and he was sitting in a seat in front of me and this dude was like in his late 30s to 50s even had a ring on his finger, i was internally having a panic attack and so close to crying

Everything what he was doing was sus and you knkw that feeling you get when you feel when someones lookibg at you? Plus i thibk he even took a video of me,,,he was tryibg to be all slick but i saw how his thumb moves and how he positions his phone outside when he had a bag and pocket (you dont just publically display your phone like that in public transport here) he was also a town over from where i live,,,so yeah-

2nd one, me and my mom where shopping in my countries version of wallmart, i had severe menstrual cramps, lady in the bookstore counter no matter how i talk to her she ignores me even if were literally a few centemiters away from eachother, and my hair was all messy because i just didnt care and was too pissed too care that day,

Going through one aisle, there was this guy that looked a couple years older than me do a double take and i was just so confused and annoyed lol, i was looking through plastic boxes to put my drawings and art materials in and he was just following me with his cart of groceries, i was kneeling down trying to get a box to see how big it was and he was standing in front of me and started to take pictures like i just didnt stare at his phone while he was doing so...

I think he message his friends because a few minutes later one of his friends came runnibg to him and basically jumped on him like they won something, they were literally giggling and shit in front of my face while i was staring them in the eyes, i sighed and just continued with shopping.

When me and my mom where looking through those things to keep your seasonings?? He was at the end of the aisle just loòking at me like 🧍‍♂️

3rd time i was midst of a panick attack while i wait for my mom to fimish ordering in mcdonalds...i was standing outside the mcdonalds with a huge huge bag of groceries, i was sganding next to 3 rows of table and chairs but i never sat because i was too nervous to move a muscle, everybody was looking at me and whispering to eachother probably because why sont i just sit when its just right next to me...

I was looking at my mom as she orders take out and this guy about my age is standing beside her and he did a double take to look at me and shamelessly continue to stare into my soul (i though he thought i was looking at him because he was standibg right next to my mom but he continued that even if i wasnt lookibg) a few minutes later he sat right next to where i was standing, just a centimeter away from me alfkagskala and took out his phone, i side glanced and he was typing, next thing i knew he turns to me stares at me a little while then takes a picture of me stares a little while again and tyoes again, my mom and i left after a a few agonizing minutes that felt like eternity-

I’m sorry you had to go through that bubs. Ugh I would’ve been so uncomfortable. It’s the fact they did it with no shame either.

#royal.responses #royal.moots #im going to be your personal bodyguard

[ddlg-matchmaking]

Looking for a princess (updated)

Name: G Age: 18 Location: Texas Role: Daddy, Master/Dom, Brother

Preferred titles: Sir, Daddy, Master, Brother, bro, big bro, G

About me: not the first time I’ve had a littke but its been a while since I’ve had one (2 years if I recall correctly) and now I have “little fever” and would like to take care of a little. I’m caring, funny, playful, friendly, willing to compromise so we can reaxh a middle ground, the type of person that tries to make the best of a situation, I would also like to state that we are not an exclusive thing you can still date and talk to people in now way am I denying you that but if you would like to be a closed relationship then we can discuss that after getting to knkw eachother a bit better. Also if I’m big communication as well as if I’m coming off as overbearing or any thing tell me and I’ll adjust.

Regular interest: Video games, anime/Manga, movies, comics, art, music, computers

Daddy interest/little activities: naps(clothes on/off), coloring with princess, cooking, watching princess play dress up, movies, cuddling, dates

Hobbies: listening to music, video games, sleeping, cooking, makimg videos with friends (trying to get a group YouTube channel off the ground), getting to know people

Favorites Shows/movies: tooo many​, I’m a 90s baby so I have quite a few lol but right now I’ve been watching American gods but i need to catch up on my hero academia, Steven universe, iZombie, agents of shield, Quantico, empire, samurai jack, oh and I’m currently binge watching Person of Interest like I said soo many Preferred partner age: 42 and below (I had a thing for my biology teacher (don’t ask lol) besides you dont have to be little to be a little)

What you are lookimg for I’m a partner: fun, open-minded, naughty (open most kinks even water works), obdient, loyal, trusting, I’m a ass man, for her to like it just a bit rough, can be a bit bratty

I like it when my little does: call me daddy, sits on my lap, hugs, cuddles , laugh, smile, kisses, is obdient, hugs, tries her best, tried new things

Things that I dislike: excessive cursing, not telling me when you have to go to the little girls room, lying,

Deal breakers: I can work with you most of the time just don’t catfish cause I’ll block you and delete you (can’t trust you​ with a simple pic how can i trust u with my heart), and don’t lie because it’s easier to tell me now than later because I don’t get mad might get disappointed but I haven’t gotten mad in a long time besides that’s why we have punishments 😈

How to contact me: Tumblr: justsomedude14, Kik: lildrummerboyG3

[howtogettheshyguy]

Cece here, we had a convo about what we were wearing for prom etc, and my friend told me to ask him if he got a date, in case I get sad on the night when I see him with a girl. So I did, and he said he actually did ask someone, and I asked if I could knkw who, and he said the name. Idk how to respond.

Cece here, do I said "actuals? Can I know who?" He said "yeah (girls name) (spelt wrong lol) and I said "did she say yes to you? He said "yeah" and ive left him on seen. I wasnt sure if it was a good or bad thing to play it off, so I didn't say much so make it feel like I was sad about, cause it would give it away. Should I move onto another topic, hint him about talking to me at prom, bc before he said we could hangout if, but didn't mention what would happen if he did get a date.

Cece here again lol, so he actually messaged me with a question mark, and I sent one back, and he asked why I left him on seen, I said idk how to respond, and said "well done?" and said hahah okay thanks, I then said "am I suppose to be angry?" (my sg friend said I ruined it with that, I kinda did tbh don't u think?) then I said dont worry fam, and he was just a bit, idk defensive? or passive aggressive? idk thru text but he was saying how I was excited and all an hour ago, and now im not. part1

part 2 I said I was tired, but lowkey excited, which was tru, except I was kinda sad. He said "go to sleep then" but idk if that was as an imperative or a caring gesture. I'm kinda sure he thinks I like him, my sg friend said that he cares about my reaction, as he asked me why I left him on seen, or was he just bragging about getting a date and wanting my response? He was quite strong about why I wasn't excited like an hour ago - because he told me who he's gonna take, then I diverted the convo

part3 onto how I stayed up really late doing my homework due today (why im tired) and how the teacher didn't check it, and extended the deadline (smallll as rant to him) he sent like 4 messages consecutively responding about how it was unlucky and suck, and ended it with its alg, im going to bed now goodnight. Oh man idk what to do, I'm pretty sure he knows I like him, but I think I shouldn't hang onto this topic right?

Aww, I’m sorry this is happening...  There were no signs. He always acted nice and open towards you. I guess he was being friendly. Maybe he is intimidated by you and less by the other girl, so he was able to ask her. But this could very well be that he likes you only as a friend. You should try to downplay the whole “should I be mad” thing and not even mention it anymore. Try to be friendly, do your thing, let him go to the prom with that girl. If he is shy and awkward, chances are nothing will come of it and he may be single immediately after. So don’t worry too much about losing him forever. Instead concentrate on remaining on his good side. Be nice, cool and friendly. Observe where is life is heading and be ready to move back in if you get an opportunity. Of course it could also not go that way so also take care of yourself. Even look for other guys. Do your thing, be happy, don’t put all your efforts only on him. It’s going to be difficult but the best thing would be to be cool...  :-(

#htgtsg cece

[honeygirlies]

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#feeling like shit feeling like absolute. shit!!!!!!!!!!!! #haha what if i die......... kidding....... unless? #im never gonna make it i honestly dont know why im still alive im not useful or interesting snd i havent accomplished anything #everything i say has 0 meaning why do i talk #wish i felt like i had a fuckkkng purpose or like i mattered in the slightest #every day is neverending every day i dont knkw why jm alive #its getting so dark i dont want tk do this anymore i just dont #just let me peacefully not wake up ever again #my anxiety wont let me breathe any inconvenience snd i panic #fucking. worthless stupid i hate myself so much #i thought this shit would pass but here j am a whole ass adult still having the worst fucking depression and not wanting to be alive! lol #no one even knows how bad it is #everyone eventually forgets about me im gonna rip my hair out what is Wrong with ME #what rhe fuck is wrong with me why am i so unhappy!!!!!!!! #i wish i was never born life is so painful #rant

[kennnysparks]

KENNY ANGEL THEORY: 🤓🤓🤓 1.I got a theory about angels i feel like angels are either rising or fallen, rising towards heaven towards GOD or da opposite fallen, lol fallen in love, fallen in love with shit that aint GOD, then wonce they really fall in love with sumthin that ai t GOD, they fourget about GOD, stop tryna get closer or sumtimes turn against god tjen try to turn others against GOD, 💛💛💛 2.Loving GOD is probably like being in a long distance relationship, win we in a long distance relationship in order to stay faithful sumtimes it requires self denial, a petson might not be able to engage in all the pleadures like they want to in order to stay loyal, 💛💛💛 3.Sumtimes win we deny ourselves and stay loyal to da other person who is so so so far away we ken start to resent them kuz of all da fun we missing while tryna stay loyal to them, 😲😲😲 4.If u on earth surrounded by temptation itd probably be hard to stay loyal to a relatio ship with a person way in heaven, 🤔🤔🤔 5.I wonder if GOD a d angels have an open relationship ir sumthin, but does that even work? I wonder if an angel cgeated on GOD if GOD would just leave it, or would GOD not get jealous and let da angel love others things as well as it 😏😏😏 6., i wonder if GOD is like me, im da type that could watch a lady fuck another person rite in front if me and not feel any jealousy, the way i dont get jealous in those situations is if i knkw da other person will always put me before others, like a ranking system, itd only bother me to see sumbody im with put sumbody else above me, thatd be unloyal, sum humonz think we do t love em if we dont jealous or be afraid of loosing em. 😑😑😑 7.Im da type that let my lady fuck another guy rite in my back seat of da car if them fukken da dude would benefit me, ive done it before actually,😜, i wouldnt sit in da car and watch id walk out and leave kuz id want em to have sum privacy and intimacy, it makes me happy to make ppl happy, if my lady ken make other ppl happy and still demo strate loyalty and devotion to me, why not let her? Seems kool to me. Sumtimes its hard to not wanna Look kooL. 😎😎😎 (at California)

[free-your-mind-bro]

Update

Okay so a little life update. At this point I am 18 years old and my life has changed over time.

Work> I got a new job, i was really tired of the old one, it drived me so crazy everyday to work there. I was kinda scared for change but i just went for it and applied to this new job. And they hired me and i have worked for 6 months. Its okay, like not really anything special. But the piont is that i am happy that i wanted to change, not just for the environment change, but mostly because i wanted to challenge my self. I knkw that i would be scared to meet new people and get used to everything. That is also why i did this.

School> i passed my second year, the year went by so fast, wich is good by the way. But now i am going to the third year wich means exams, and having to figure out what i want to study next. That means my last stage is coming. And all those years i have been trying to figure out what i want to study in this last stage for me. I still don’t know..but what i do know is that i am not going to give any fuck about what people have to say about my choice. Nobody is going to influence my choice. Lets say that its a great start. Anyway i dont know what bachelor study i want to choose.

Body positivity> i dont really think that it has improved in a positive way. But my mindset about it has kinda changed.

Family> well my brother is still annoying and aince my sister is hitting puberty she is fucking annoying either. Some things just get worse lol

Friends> okay so this is going to be a long ass story i think. I don’t care about those friends anymore. In some of themi have put so much energy and love in, and now they dont even care about me? I am done loving people who dont give the same back. If they want to be friends with me okay, then we’ll be friends. But not likethe old days. There is like 1 friend that hasn’t really changed thank god. But the rest, sadly did. My point is I cared so much about some of them but when iwas in pain, they weren’t there for me, they didn’t even notice. But when they are in pain, it’s different. I am done with caring to much when people dont give you the same care back

Ok im tired so to be continued i guess? 9/08/17