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rpreaperperson · 6 months

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MOM

Reader is a combat medic, a BIG sweeth tooth and a mother to 141 boys (dont forget can cook too) a waifu material

In case with Simon ‘Ghost’ Riley

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Warning!!: jelly and OOC Ghost, and jelly Soap

You grunt from your chair stretching your arm up, exhausted with the examination paper that one of the nurses gave you

“guess I need a little snack time..” after tidying up the paper you walk into the door and think of what will you make for your snack time

As you open the door there in the doorway stands a tall man with his skull balaclava on his head, you jump a little placing your hand on your chest

“Oh my God..!!” you gasp

‘Seriously this man going to be death of me’ you thought while calming down your heartbeat

“Doc” he casually greets looking down at you

“Simon! what’s wrong? you need something?” you notice his eyes narrowing

“.....I heard Johnny got some sweets”

“Uhh..yeah..well like the usual Johnny, right? I mean is not unsual for him to got a sweets from me” you tried to explain the strict Lieutenant, remembering the first time you gave him sweets after Gaz, Soap, and Price

You could say that he is...

“you know the drill Doc”

“must you always do that Simon?” you could almost feel him smirk under that balaclava planning something devious

“..hmp of course he’s the one who brags about it” Ghost crossing his arm on his chest

...Quite delight especially when that time you cook for them

“Fine...” you sigh shaking your head, both of you heading to the kitchen

“Chocolate cake? or cheese cake?”

“Chocolate one”

“Okay..guess I have make it for – “

“NO I WANT IT ALL TO MYSELF” his gruff voice boomed as he glared at you

“okay..okay hun! Geez..what happen that make you like this Simon?” you ask while preparing the utensils and the ingredients

“Jhonny fault for swaying the sweets you gave ‘im in front of my face...tauntingly” he leans on the counter watching you preparing the cake, you glance at him and sigh tiredly

“of course..Jhonny you’re the source of it all”

“dont forget you’re the one who spoil ‘im”grunt Ghost

“well..being the oldest one and having 5 ‘lil brothers will doing it to you” Ghost just huffs, he already knows about your family condition a part of him feels envy...but then he is in love with your motherly side enough for him wanting to married you

“Im waiting Doc...” you just hummed at him fully concentrating on the task, Ghost just stared at you fondly

He knows that you didn’t want any help when you making something for the rest of the team, and says that they only making it worse so he makes the tea instead

“mhh..good as always Doc”

“ehehe thanks Simon~”

Then in the hallway Soap who had just done from his training smelled a delicious scent, rushing into the kitchen his body hunching nose sniffed around the room like a dog searching for the source of the scent

“DOC! Y-you make something?” he cried out at you who now cleaning up the utensils, if he has a dog's tail you bet it’ll wag excitedly right now

“Uhh..yeah..” you pointed at Ghost who was busy munching the medium size chocolate cake with his balaclava pulled up to the bridge of his nose, both Ghost and Soap stared at each other

The lieutenant squinting his eyes at Soap, while the Scottish man stared at the half-eaten cake

“Ohhh~ LT, you’re – “ Soap swaying way to the cake tried to persuade Ghost to share, and...

HAUMPH

“Mmmhh...ish gooddd..”

Your eyes widen in disbelief so does Soap with jaw open wide his bulk arm reaches the cake.. trying to reach the cake, crushing his hope and dream into dust

“sorry Soap not gonna happen...” wiping the chocolate from his mouth, taking his cup of tea

“Appreciate the cake Doc, its delicious as always” he approaching you

“always?!” Soap shriek snap his head at you

“u-uh yeah y-you’re wel – “suddenly he kisses your cheek while staring at Soap tauntingly then pulled down his balaclava and walking away from the scene, with a blushing face you touch the cheeks he kisses

‘Oh dear...he’s REALLY gonna be death of me..’

Soap stand there fuming not just eating the whole cake in front him, he just kiss YOUR cheeks?!

‘oh..its on now...LT’ you sigh glance at Soap

‘maybe I’ll gave him mine instead’

#call of duty #call of duty x reader #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish #simon ghost riley x reader #john soap mctavish x reader #mom #medic reader #task force 141 x reader

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magpiemoon6 · 6 months

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Love me in the dark

(chapter 2)

DBF Simon Riley x OC

Summary - Maevis and Simons prank war questions what they are to each other because strangers doesn't feel correct.

Theme - angst, smut, fluff

Warnings - trauma dumping, smoking, arguments, self hate, age gap ( 12 years), smut- voyeurism, self pleasure, pet names.

He’s still in my head, circling my thoughts every single second I breathe, those eyes haunt me in my sleep so full of pain. Dragging myself to deal with the day scheduled of course as if dear old Dad could cope without complete control, probably have a heart attack. Padding into the kitchen only for my breath to hitch. Mother of fuck. Simon’s standing, boiling the kettle in grey sweats. Just grey sweats. Sweet Jesus I’m salivating, my eyes are glued to his tattoos on his back the ink details that litter his back, song with areas of white skin. Between his shoulder blades is an interactive drawing of an angel with tattered wings that spread the blades of his shoulders. I’m physically choking on air while I stare, I can't stop.

And then it clicks, in a childish fit last night- at 2 in the fucking morning when his face was making me weak in the knees and electrocuting my skin- I decided to act like a spoiled child. Stomping into the kitchen, my glare zoning into the kitchen where he stood making tea only a few hours ago, I quickly ripped the sugar container from its place, dumping the contents in a spare bowl. My fingers search for the salt. His words about me being a daddies girl as if he knows our relationship, the fact ‘daddy’ left with no answers because it was easier than admitting his career destroyed our relationship and the phone doesnt go both ways when your fucking ten.

I rip off the salt lid and pour it into the original sugar jar and then pour the sugar into the salt container. Cleaning the mess in a haze of glee and popping it all back I practically hopped into my room.

Shit do i tell him? Yes, that's the mature thing someone my age, with a big girl job, would do.

“Princess if you stare at my back any harder it's gonna leave a mark,” he teases, turning around as he stirs his tea smugly. The smirk on his face angers me to unrivalled levels, but also forces me to pull together from the nickname. Of course he fucking notices this but can’t seem to notice a car moving. Fuck it, he can drink the salty tea.

Simons pouring unknowingly salt into his tea as I turn back to my room and yell out.

“Enjoy your tea Simon!” I sprint the second I’m out of his view, locking my door instantly.

It doesn’t take long for me to hear my name being bellowed by Simon

“Maevis get your ass out here now!” He practically threatens standing in front of my door.

“Sorry Simy can't pop in the shower, need anything?” inquiring as innocently as I can. I'm dying inside knowing the hissy fit this man is about to pull.

I begin to undress for the shower when I hear him.

“Maevis.” I see Simon as I peek out of the shower. “Simon.”I'm waiting to see what he will do.

“Now Maevis.” “No thank you I’d rather not,” I quip and slam the shower for him to hear and carry on.

Fuck him.

Simon’s pov-

She is nothing like her father, she's reckless and childish, changing the sugar for salt? Is she 10 years old for the love of fuck.

The buzz of voices in the garden as people socialise, moving in fluttery movements unsure of who to chat about their waiting for the crappy wine to be soaked up and the fuzz of being drunk fogs their fears of being judged. I remain in a corner, feeling the rose thorn prick me ever so gently. I observe the guests hop from one group to the next, wondering how I ended up here. I'm here because my ex-captain when I was a recruit helped me out, and now I'm here as his best man around people I don't know asking questions i dont want and having to see her.

The air smells like the nearby vineyard filling my head with the sweetness, the bitterness from the salt is still on my tongue even with the whiskey. my eyes scan the groups of people and the moment my eyes land on her finally my mind is consumed by her once again. She is the most beautiful person I've ever seen. The green dress hugs her curves with a side slit showing the thigh tattoo that curls its way on her flesh, inked flowers. pretty. My eyes rise to dress, my god. My eyes nearly fall out when she turns around to talk to someone. In her hair her body again. I'm stuck and for the first time in my life I'm flustered, until she smiles slightly and sticks her tounge out at me. All those thoughts of her die and leave me remembering how childish she is.

Still watching her, she turns her body back to the stranger laughing and it warms a part of me I don’t want to think about, her chatter distracts me from her now pointing her finger at me and moving away pushing the stranger in my direction. For fuck sakes Maevis, wanna play? Let's play princess.

Maevis pov:

God he’s gorgeous, the white linen shirt he has on is open at the top and cuffed at his elbows showing off those tattoos but catching him staring at me is making me force my legs together from the warmth that is developing. ive pushed a very enthusiastic old lady towards him hoping to push his temper if it meant he’ll come find me and tell me off.

Walking away, weaving through the herds of people and reaching an outer corner to hide where the sun warms my skin and calms my mind. Until I hear my father, I love him but when I see him it's like a slap in the face. I want to scream at him and cry and ask the questions the child in me wants answers to but I can't so I turn and smile.

“Darling, why are you here? Come, I have people for you to meet!” pulling me by my elbow to follow him to the gaggle of older men who make me feel sick with their stares. I'm used to it, it doesn't take a genius to work out why but god it still makes me feel ill. They start to speak to me asking all the questions that all have the same underlying meaning, which is that i've filled out in all the right places to be stared at like a prized doll in the shop window. Goosebumps begin to form along my arms as I try to control my tongue for my dad and not be snarky.

A warm hand slips around my waist and I jump whipping around to see Simon dead staring at the old men with a look that could kill a man.

“I’m sorry gents but I need to steal Maevis away, and I think your wives are wondering where you are.”

I sink into his touch on my hip, it's warm and soothing. His thumb makes circles, the creeping feeling between my legs starts again and I want to hide my blush but I'm frozen. He begins to pull me with him, staring at them and glancing at my father with what only could suggest annoyance and disappointment in the man. Whisking me away even when we are out their view, his hand still on my hip. His body bends his head to reach mine and moves his mouth to my ear whispering.

“Are you alright, love?” The kindness strikes me, so soothing yet shocking how the gruffness rasp of his voice holds the words and makes me melt.

“I’m fine, thank you Si “ I whisper back, catching his eyes as I turn. We are too close, so close I can see every etch in his skin and those pretty lips that I want to cover my skin with.

“Good. Now good luck,” he begins to smile as he twists my body back and pushes me back into the hoard of people.

Confusion only lasts a second when it clicks, I see about 5 ladies dressed like colourful birds smiling at me and calling me to go chat with me. Oh fuck, this is karma from before. Simon's warmth disappears from behind me and I feel my dark hair fall into my face. Positioning my hand to go tighten my ribbon I find it missing. It’s gone? I spin around checking the floor in despair. Did it fall out? But it's gone and I'm consumed by too much old lady perfume and loud chatter.

“Maevis ? Gosh dear haven't you changed! Do you remember me dear, I'm your aunt?” one of them speaks holding me, she smells too strongly of perfume i cant breath, pulling me aware from finding the ribbon.

“Ah yes of course, how are you?” I respond too slowly because I have zero clue who this lady is, i smile and hope it's believable and no one points it out.

The rest stare at me like a group of hawks and I don't know how to hold myself, these strangers who I'm related to and would persecute me if I mess up.

“I'm fine sweety just at the point in my life where I move and pray I haven't pulled a muscle, it's such a shame we haven't seen you in such a long time, why is that ?” she inquires and the air in my lungs catches because the sentence in my head unravels the second she ends her sentence.

“Oh um school and work became a priority and it was easier to stay with my mam” every word is a lie but no one is asking for the truth, they want to ask because i disappeared and i don't blame them, my heart hurted every day i couldn't see them but eventually i got used to it and time moves on enough that my brain couldn't remember their faces just the nostalgia.

“Ah such a shame but I understand darling it's okay just know that we’re here if you need us,” squeezing my arm just as much as my heart because I want to swallow up in my sadness, i feel like a traitor when I stand around this warmth.

Simons pov:

If those fuckers look at her again I’m going to kill them, how could her father not see it? My grip on the ribbon in my hand tightens. No reasons come to my mind of why I took it from her hair other than a way to carry on our little war.

Shoving it in my pocket panic sets in that my rage will break it also if I stare at it for too long my mind gets clouded by her and tightness in my trousers fills me with guilt. Her dad is quite literally the man I respect the most, he taught me everything I know. At the same time I see her I swear it's like she's the sun. It’s intoxicating to just be near her, the danger signs in my head go berserk like a reminder that I'm a war criminal. I've killed more people than I could count. I've got people killed, good people. I don't deserve that kind of happiness. Not in this lifetime.

“Private riley!” my head whips around on instinct the station so far below me yet still my reaction is the same as the 17 year old kid who just joined the military.

“Yes sir.”

“Ah shit its lieutenant now isn't it, come have a beer with me” her father calls me over to come sit with me and hands me a beer. fuck of all people to talk to me right now.

the cold bottle held in my hand feels like a fucking lifeline when he starts talking, blabbing drunkenly about how grateful his kid is back in his life, drilling into me that its his kid, she is nothing to me and gushing over her achievements at 25 fucking hell she is too young for me to want her like this im 37 christ i feel guilty.

“It's a shame i couldn't see her with all her graduations but ah work came first, that's probably why i would never want her to end up with someone like you simon,” grabbing my shoulder kindly but my heart drops and I can't breathe. The words stick in my head painted in red, reminding me that I would only hurt her.

“Um yeah mate wouldn't want her with a bastard like me” I replied the words taste like bleach on my tongue.

“Exactly you get it kid, the shit we go through god it ruined my first marrage I was never home, not to fucking mention the PTSD from all that shit wouldnt want Maevis to be dragged down by all that shit people like us go through,” he carries on, every word is stabbing me and holds me accountable for even thinking of her as more than my ex captains kid.

“Yeah definitely, will you excuse me sir? I need to check in on my task force," I mutter as I stand, I need to leave before he says any more shit.

“Yes go on son, thank you for listening”

“Of course sir,” I mutter, quickly striding away from the conversation to the empty space from people by a pool.

I can breathe now that he isn't here, but the words are still dragging me into some pit. Gripping tightly the glass I drain all the alcohol the burn soothes me for a secon.The reflective lights of the pool let me reminisce about a calmer point in my life. And for a bit my solitude is comforting, I cannot hurt anyone if there is no one to hurt. Until I hear familiar footsteps moving towards me I instantly check, her ribbon is out of view and it's not, shit.

She needs to leave.

Maevis’ pov:

Whatever my dad told Simon must have been bad from the way he so crutley left. Exiting the ladies I had searched for my ribbon where I was standing earlier, my hair is in my face and it's pissing me off, tickling my skin and making me sneeze when it brushes my nose. Walking directly into a view where I could see my dad and simon talk or more my dad yapping, and Simon gripping his glass. Just from the look he’s giving to my unbeknownst dad I think the glass was going to burst and his jaw locked, his eyes had diminished any light I had seen in them.

Staring at the two of them, I catch a glint of green in Simons front pocket, my fucking ribbon. that little shit. An deniable urge to beat him with my shoe till comes over me. Storming towards them in the most calm way a crazy lady could until my arm is caught by someone, urging me to come meet family members agin for the 50th fucking time. The old lady said how great it is that I’m finally around everyone, again. I look over my shoulder to check his glaring daggers, only to see Simon walking away from my father who is plastered in his chair.

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“Simon Riley give it back,:” rushing towards him, after searching the grounds to find him tucked away by an empty pool, standing alone just staring with an empty glare at nothing.

“I'm not in the mood.” he responds curtly, it's so cold, there is nothing in his voice not even wit. and all the warmth he has begun to make me feel starts to ebb away. What did my father say to him?

“Si? Are you being grumpy because of the little pranks today? “ laughing awkwardly because the coldness of him is making me panic. Did I go too far? my heart is my throat, the idea he may be so angry he won't speak to me again makes me panic and I don't know why but i step closer. His blonde hair in the sun glows saintly halo, I wish it didn't distract me.

“Why are you here? I don't even know you. We are strangers, you and I. Go talk with your family before you get seen with me,” again with the coldness that holds in my heart.

“Si….?” I question, confusion floods me. I step forward.

“Stop. You don’t know me and I don't want to know you. You’re- you’re like some lost puppy leave me the fuck alone,” and like that those words are a spark to my anger and all the sadness and confusion is wrapped around my annoyance.

“You can say that shit but hand over my ribbon. I want it back,” my hands reach out. I step closer again, close enough I can smell his cologne and the hint of whiskey.

His hand quickly wraps around my wrist and twists me so I'm on the edge of the pool and away from his pocket. I’m too close to the edge, but the thumping in my ear as my blood rushes to my ears is because he is so close.

“No,” he stares at me, he's so cold my heart feels like it has frostbite.

I see his eyes quickly dart to my lips, as I breathe in shallowly from my mouth. His eyes darken, it’s like I can read his mind but can he read mine. Images of me naked and him on top of me flash through my mind. Without thinking I go to kiss him I see his face turn into panic as I use all my weight to twist us back around. I try to shove him in. I’ll make him see what happens when he fucks with my feelings and steal my accessory to a kickass outfit fuck no you dont. only as his body moves to the water his hand is still on my wrist and forces me to topple into the water after him.

My head is spinning too much from the alcohol given to me all day to process the change from land to water. stress sets into my muscles and i try to swim up.

A strong grip of rough hands does the job for me, pulling me through the water forcing my head up to the surface, gasping. I turn to Simon, his grip still on me.

“What the fuck Maevis.”

Turning to him I swim closer, my arm reaches for his shoulder to use, or so he thinks my mind reels still pissed at his change in mood and refusal to give me my stuff back. Trailing my arm down his torso now on show from the water making it see through, his abdomen twitches from the sudden touch. My eyes remain on his lips and watch as his chest rises and falls rapidly as my hand trails closer to his crotch. Leaning into his ear I hear his breathing stop completely as my hand lightly grazes his cock already growing hard. Turning so my lips are close to his ear I wait a second, my hand cupping him gently.

“Strangers huh Si?” I whisper, quickly moving my hand from him into the pocket where my ribbon is and grabbing it. Turning away, I swim to the exit. Leaving him barely breathing and dead staring at my back as I leave the pool and walk towards our room.

Soaking wet I move through the villa to our room leaving a trail of water that I'm praying no old family member slips and cracks a hip on.

I head straight for the shower, absence of Simon and the breeze causes me to shiver. All the fury is melting into something that warms my stomach and stirs something inside me. I need it out of my system, then I can go back to hating him.

Maevis’ pov:

I don’t wait to enter my part of the room to strip down. I’m unbearably cold and my nipples hurt from the friction of the wet dress. I hurry to the shower letting the water run till it’s scolding hot, hopefully hot enough to flush my feelings and thoughts. I scrub and scrub trying my hardest to forget him, forget how he grew harder as I straddled his hips. It felt amazing to feel his arms securely around me, that and the look on his face as he saw the opaque dress.

“Fucker.” I detest how much I need this relife. I lean my head back, closing my eyes as I imagine him kissing me, from my mouth to my tits. I slowly creep my hand down between my legs sighing in relief. I imagine him clearly on his knees slowly parting my legs and looking up at me through his eyelashes. Feeling his hands grip and travel up my thighs, and as he reaches my cunt he slowly circles my clit, teasingly. I begin to breathe heavier, the water blocking my nose causes me to open my mouth slightly and a moan escapes me. Dear god, I hope he isn’t back. I can feel my orgasm build up ever so slowly. I picture him, slipping his fingers between my pussy whispering, “keep your legs open for me princess. Like the good girl you are.” I push in my fingers, quickening the pace, the friction killing me.

Simon’s pov:

In the bathroom I hear the shower running. That brat took her ribbon from me and thinks she can hide from me in the bathroom, pretending to shower? Right, not going to fool me. I storm over to the bathroom door cracking the door ajar pausing when I hear her moan. I shouldn’t. I really fucking shouldn’t, any gentleman wouldn’t peak but I’m anything but. I look in curiously and the sight before nearly makes me groan in desperation. There she is water running over her beautiful body, plastering her long hair to body. I follow the stream of water running from her head, down to her perfect tits, all the way to-

Fuck me.

I feel the blood rush straight to my cock. Hardening instantly, at her fucking herself, moaning. her breathy gasps say something. “Simon.” Holy shit. I can’t think straight. I'm focused solely on how her hands work her to an orgasim. I envisage how magnificent she’d look as I look up at making her come with my mouth.

“Yes, god fu-” she hitches shuddering under the steaming water. She pumps in and out a few more times and slumps down.

It takes all the will power in me and years of training not to go in there and make her scream my name, not just say it. To not pick her up and rail her over the bathroom counter, gripping her hair so that she can see me pounding into her and see how her eyes tear in painful pleasure.

I’m not helping my situation, I shake my head rubbing my eyes snapping me back. I head straight back out onto the balcony, I need a cig or twenty.

I knew she was going to be trouble.

#smut #ao3 writer #simon riley #simon riley x oc #dbf simon riley #call of duty #cod mw2 #cod mwii #simon ghost riley #forbidden love #romance #daddy issues #romantic tension

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syrips · 8 months

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hello im gonna pin this post

hello my name is Syrips, im a super duper simp and simp/self-insert enabler for others who love strahd or any cos/ravenloft/fictional characters

im 28, but i sometimes say im thirty as a vague response because its easier and faster to say (or safer to say to strangers)

i think i am autistic but i am currently only self-diagnosed; i plan to tell my doctors once i compile a binder of reasons why i think im autistic based on noted events in my childhood, behavior, and my reflected perspective on things in pages of charts and text which is a totally neurotypical thing to do

im genderfluid and i am fine with any and all pronouns (different people may use different/changing/fluid pronouns on me, i am completely fine with this)

im polyamorous and pansexual/panromantic, i gush over games that have polyamory/pan options!!

i have huge CoS/Ravenloft spoilers so please, PLEASe do not enter unless you are fine with being spoiled with all kinds of content. i also wont explain what is or isnt 'canon' because, well, some things may be canon for one person, while potential/not-canon for another, so i really cannot confirm or deny it myself.. ask your DM for confirmation! (and for my players who are here, hehe, goodluck figuring it out!)

i do music, art, crafting, and streaming sometimes, here is my linktree: https://linktr.ee/syrips

please 'ask'/message/send me any and all of your curse of strahd and/or ravenloft works of art! this can include these and more!:

playlists

moodboards

art/portfolio/link to your art or artblog

pages of your OC/PC/dnd lore (both player and DM welcome)

campaign/session notes and storytime

canon and potential-/home-/head-canon dumps

narrations/imagines/ao3/google docs/fanfic/fic writings

cool crafts!!

i crave it more than strahd craves blood, please and thank you!

you can also send me stuff and let me know if you want me to gush/simp over it, provide advice, or simply acknowledge it (publicly or privately)! let me know in advance cuz i dont want to make you uncomfortable with what you share

i have no limits on triggering fictional content, just make sure to tw it properly if it is sensitive content for others

my Ask thingy is always open, i may ramble alot if i get passionate enough though so be warned! hehe

ok goodbye ill edit or change this whenever idk

Edit Entry 1 - 11th Moon, 2023

for context, keita/raze (he/him) is my irl partner. he's been a simp for alucard (castlevania) longer than i've begun simping for strahd. i only discovered this years into the relationship when we watched castlevania (where i expected to be a bigger simp for castlevania), and instead HE made high pitch simping noises as alucard appeared on the screen and i was like -sus eyes- wait a GOSH DARN MINUTE-. also, keita has a thing for necks. i shrugged it off when he first told me, but years later i started simping for strahd and now i look back at that moment like 'hm. odd.-'. anyways, i mostly started dating him because he sounds like a kermit the frog southern guy who goes 'howdy howdy' and he says 'i should be golden' unironically and i think thats pretty funny

i tag stuff as #making a keita tag so when keita presses this he can see all the stuff that he likes so that i can organize stuff and incase he ever decides to poke around my blog and use this tag search within my blog

Edit Entry 2 and 3 - 12th Moon, 2023

syrips OC/PC list (loosely alphabetical)

Other People's Adored OC/PC list (loosely alphabetical)

#syrips pc #will edit as needed

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miss--river · 1 year

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at first i wasnt going to watch the new trigun because i just didnt feel the need or the want to watch it. personally i dont like how vash looks like a kid (at least to me.) im not a fan of the animation style. im also really disappointed that milly isnt in the show.

after i got done rewatching the OG anime and the movie after... idk how many years its been since i last watch it tbh. i just started googling random things i had questions about in the trigun universe that really doesnt matter. one of the search results was a reddit link to r/trigun and the title of the post is "TRIGUN STAMPEDE is TERRIBLE"

the reddit user goes on to explain why they think the show is terrible but... everything they listed as reasons for the show being terrible were things that actually happened in the OG anime. and i cant talk about this post without mentioning that this person was unironically calling OG vash 'alpha' and the new vash 'beta' and 'imposter'. their reasons were he's a cry baby, there's no way he had no bullets in his gun, he's a try hard, he's too much a spazz, ect. they said all of this AFTER stating they went back and rewatched the first episode of the original anime but its like, did they REALLY watch the first epsiode? because vash is all of those things right from the start. he screams, he freaks out, he cries, he has no bullets in his gun, he's just a complete and total dork.

honestly i could just feel the anger from this person seeping through the post as they stated that no one should watch the show and if you want to get into trigun, the reboot is not the place to start. they talk about the show as if the original was this perfect gem and to be honest, while yeah, the original show kicked ass and we all loved vash for who he is, the show wasnt perfect at all. there are even things said in the original that just wouldnt fly today, things that vash himself has said and done that would get him possibly cancelled.

after reading that post i decided that maybe i will give the reboot a watch, try it for myself. i had only seen gifs of it so far at the time of reading the post and to me the show honestly didnt seem that bad. i may not like the animation style but its perfect for such an animated person like vash. milly may not be in the show but i shouldnt let that spoil the experience. vash may look more like a child compared to how he looked in the original anime but that doesnt mean the design is bad.

so i gave the reboot a watch (8 episodes are out at the time of writing this, only 6 of them dubbed so i havent seen 7 or 8. i dont have hulu or anything so im watching on an anime website.) and im not really good at giving in depth reviews but for what the show is, i really like it. it's a different spin on things and if thats what people are upset about then thats on them. i still prefer the original anime and the things i dont like the reboot are still things i dont like but the show is still great on its own. if you're against the reboot but still want give it a try, watch it with an open mind. it's still the same vash that we know and love, he just looks different.

#Trigun #Trigun Stampede #Vash the Stampede #Trigun Stampede Spoilers #i know none of my followers will care about this so im sorry for this long rant post #if anyone wants me to put this under a read more you can just send me an ask or DM

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nbroyalty · 10 months

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So since the Good-Omens-Season-2-Leak-Fandom-War has started to calm a little in the past week or so, I'd like to calmly share my thoughts on the matter:

(ALSO OBVIOUS SPOILER WARNING, I WILL BE GOING OVER BREIFLY ABOUT THE LEAK, SO IF YOU HAVENT SEEN IT, DONT CONTINUE READING THIS POST AND EITHER:

A. GET OFF OF ALL GOOD OMENS MEDIA FOR A GOOD BIT IN CASE IT IS STILL OUT THERE (ESPECIALLY TIKTOK AND TWITTER)

B. GO HUNT DOWN THE LEAK YOURSELF SINCE ITLL BE BETTER TO SEE IT THAN TO HEAR ABOUT IT

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.)

I send my condolences to the living author, everybody working on the show, and anyone who didn't want to see the spoiler and are quite upset about it. I sympathize with you and understand that it fucking sucks to be spoiled (thanks amazon prime...)

On the other hand, I myself went out of my way to find the leak since I have no self control (if you're looking for it, search up the leak on YouTube and scroll through a few vids) and it has only further pushed my excitement for season two. I cannot wait to see the scene because all we have gotten to see was a small, blurry quip of the scene (or at least me from what I had found) and it is only pushing my love for the show, Aziraphale, and Crowley even more (thanks amazon prime!)

I've also come across many tiktoks talking about their excitement, but going out of their way to talk about wanting to see a kiss scene between them forever, causing a small spark in the community that only pushed the wildfire from the leak.

Let me be clear: They do NOT need a kiss scene to express their love, being ace, supernatural beings. I'm not saying they shouldn't have one and that I'm upset about it, if anything the opposite is true, but I hate that a good portion of the fandom feels like it is required. I would be just excited about them holding hands, or hugging, or even having one of their heads on the other's shoulder.

We don't NEED a kiss scene, but we WANT a kiss scene, if that makes any sense.

Again, I send comfort and apologies to the authors (dead or alive since Gaiman apparently said before it had always meant to be a romantic piece of media) for this being leaked and having no control over the wildfire, but I hope this doesn't sour or dampen anyone's mood when season 2 comes out.

#good omens season 2 #good omens #gos2 #gos2 leak #gos2 spoilers #neil gaiman #terry pratchett

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hdra77 · 10 days

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(pfp anon back again im just gonna call myself rory)

More fun questions since ur my favorite tumblr acc :3

What made you initially start shipping ragequit, if anything in particular? Did it just kind of happen?

A lot of people don't finish Rain World when they try it due to it being too hard/not beginner friendly - what was your experience like? Did something in particular motivate you to finish? Did you spoil yourself for the lore ahead of time?

Are your designs more slug, more cat, a balance, or would you say there's no "line" and they are just Slugcat?

(In any AUs) Why does Hunter have the Rot? Lots of different depictions for why they have it - e.g it being an accident or smth, it being deliberate, Sig not feeling bad/feeling guilty forever, etc.

If a slugcat ate a slug would it be cannibalism

Feel free to skip any questions you don't want to answer I'm just enjoying myself tbh :P

YAY QUESTIONS!! 1) funny enough i started shipping ragequit when i was very new to the fandom (it just for some reason clicked even if i dont have wide knowledge about their characters yet) so yeah!you could say it just kind of happen! i find it silly at first actually but then i thought about it and went 'oh actually this is pretty neat this could actually work' 2) my first experience when playing rainworld was me experiencing PAIN AND MISERY as expected to new players like me. but i kept going because i wanted to know the lore and explore because damn the whole world building and game design alone took my breath away its just so pretty literally every single screenshot i took are wallpaper worthy. also i wanted to beat the game !! beating a difficult game is such a big achievement for me. also i accidentally spoiled myself in the process like a few times already but they're not major spoilers thankfully 💀 3) hmm.. well my artstyle when it comes to drawing slugcats is so inconsistent LMAO i started with the 'more cat-like' having some of them with more fluffy,curly or short fur then my style would eventually settle with a balanced style (and also cat and slug). it is very simple yes but i seem to be more content with leaving it simple as possible 4) (critical system failure/disarray AU) - NSH sent hunter to search and investigate five pebbles after he had mysteriously disappeared for several long cycles, long enough to grow suspicion throughout the group. Hunter does not have the rot when he was sent for the mission though however. something had gone wrong when he entered Five Pebbles. and you can pretty much guess just what happened to hunter next 5) hmm nah, slugcat and slugs are both different organisms

#asks

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blindedguilt · 12 days

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Omg there's gonna be a Leonard visual novel? Ahhh please link this id love to support it!

Also you have an alt account with Leonard art 👀👀👀👀

//No idea if that bit at the end is a solid "i know what you are" or a "this you?" bit but just in case, i do!! i will refrain from posting it here (For privacy, though when you find it you should be able to clock it like "THIS IS THE BITCH" immediately anyways lol) if you would like it i can give it to you through DMs (unfortunately tumblr doesnt allow private answering to anon asks :( if i could i would...) but please dont feel pressured at all to come out!!! i enjoy chatting with you, anon *pats*

//But to answer your question, yes!! Technically it's already out though its currently only available in Japanese. I will say I have spoken with the writer though, and I'm very happy to say they've expressed interest in helping me make an English patch :3<! Once I'm done with playing the game for myself (I'm about halfway at the moment, I think? ;0) I'll hopefully start work. I've been playing with a friend and already have a few scenes (roughly, more or less) translated.

//Anyways, I'll put the links to both the trial and full version at the end of the post so they're easier to find vs. just sandwiching between my rambles about the VN!! because BOY is it good, this was made for leonard fans BY leonard fans and its SHOWS AAAAAAAAAA

//More under the cut~ (I'll be rambling about this for a w h i l e)

So the game is called Onaplus, and lemme just post my TL of its official Booth description for you before i try summing it up myself:

Play Time: About 5 hours Routes: 2 Endings: 4~5 Stills: None This is a visual novel game where you can - or can not - enjoy a "Psuedo-Romance" with various versions of Leonard from before he formed his pact, DOD1, DOD2, and LoV. The game is mostly linear; only a few choices on your path outside of the 4~5 different endings. You are the protagonist, a woman who travels through four different "Times" with Seere at your side. You can enjoy the story as it's nature changes between two vastly different routes; choose to spend a sweet and heartfelt time with Leonard, or take part in a good measure of slapstick comedy instead. Includes a number headcanoned details, otakuisms, and out-of-character gags. A game for those who believe no man is beyond forgiveness...

That's pretty much it!! I dunno how much I'll spoil by saying it, but it was NOT KIDDING when it said the main two routes (The more serious N-Route, standing for "Not Shotacon Route" and the gag S-Route, standing for "Shotacon Jerking Off in the Backwoods Route") were different.

I'll keep what I know limited, but I've completely finished the S-Route (much to my dismay, IT WAS SO GOOODDDD I DIDNT WANT IT TO END) and have JUST started the N-Route, so I'm looking forward to what's in store!! I dunno what the "5" stands for though in five endings, unless the N-Route has one I'm unaware of... 👀 but a quick breakdown

Where the N-Route is a very genuine, heartfelt ""Love letter"" to Leonard from his fans being like "We care about you!!! youre such a lovable guy!!!! please take care of yourself!!!!" and essentially plays as an "I can fix him" game, the gag "S-Route" ramps Leonard's "Shotaconness" up to an ABSURD degree to the point one or two scenes were complete "had me completely red in the face, unable to look at the screen"-level wreckage. one scene in particular around the DOD2 mark also made my heart DROP but im not saying what happened or what it is :)))) S-Route Ending A was also extremely difficult to TL because i had to search a few things up and do........ research............ to find suitable english-audience alternatives. it had me GAGGED ngl, but i would never do it again........... i'm turning red just thinking about it now dsjfhkshvwkslahsdfhj (the endings are so good though, and there was ANOTHER thing in Ending A that had me "!!!!!!! yippee!!!!!!" but that's another story.)

I've only finished the endings of the S-Route right now, but some of them were surprisingly (And welcomingly so!) heartfelt for what was 96% a gag route :0!

AND THEN THE PROTAGONISTSSSSSS okay so i was NOT expecting a little "heehee, we made leonard psuedo-dating sim" VN TO HAVE PROTAGONISTS THAT ARE LITERALLY LIKE A HYPERFIXATION FOR ME RIGHT NOW????? trust me when i say these are NOT typical "blank-slate-self-insert" protags their characterisation is so strong and entertaining i was HEARTBROKEN finishing the s-route because it meant saying goodbye to its protagonist more than anything, i literally have made ship fanart of them together i ADORE them so much and i need them in my life...... lately ive thinking about hdcing names for them i love them....

N-MC is so SWEEEEEEEETTT she's a lot more "Expectable" for a "Romantic" visual novel (At least for now... who knows, she might be hiding a dark secret of some kind though im like... more than half sure she's innocent? RIGHT????) and is just a little sweetheart whose dedicated her life to helping others as her parents always wished!!!! she has a ✨tragic anime backstory✨ and for leonard fans is THE embodiment of looking at this sad sack of shit and being like "Oh my god, he's so miserable, i just want him to be happy :((( i can fix him......." her relationship with seere is so SWEETTTT too it makes me melt, she's the one he NEEDS and im just aakshskhsdkvhsdkfh...... though honestly even if its 9/10 unintentional listening to the way she talks about seere sometimes has me like "hmmMMMMMM..... perhaps youre more of a shotacon than s-mc........" ("ara ara, seere-kun~" has become my new tagline for her, i admit..... you seem a bit too taken with him buddy...)

BUT THEN S-MC, I ADORE HERRRRRRRR me and a bud have been playing it together and their design for her has become like the unofficial one i literally use/WILL use no other for my own doodles and that is a FACT. how do i explain her... the game calls her "Caim-like", basically, but that's not enough. you see, S-MC is an over-exploited, sleep-deprived, brash, violent, porn-addicted shotacon (+possible femcel) otaku who's main goal in life is to find a decent person to get married to and whose only reason for living is to keep indulging in her PG (and not PG) fiction. she's more than eager to beat the shit out of anyone at the first opportunity (which she does) and wax poetic about her favourite games (which she does) and UNLIKE """N-MC oneesan""" and their (Unintentional) far-too-friendly comments towards seere S-MC spends makes it her GOAL to ensure nothing happens to the kid despite her annoyance with him, who is far too innocent for his own good dsfkvjhsfdkhvsdfj

The VN is written by the very talented Pixiv fanfic writer Kyon, whose works I would VERY much recommend checking out if you can read Japanese and are a fan of Leonard (They are my GO-TO for Leonard content, just talking with them was such an honour i was like "uUUWAUAaaaAUUGHhhHHhgaaghgH" they do his characterisation so good and they understand the tragedy and facets of what makes him compelling so well and im just UGHHHHHHH THEYRE SO GOOD ANON YOU ARE IN GOOD HANDS WITH THEM WRITING THIS, CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH!!!!!)

Interestingly enough, they did write a whole fucking novel on Leonard's past and life leading up Ending D and do reference part of that in this VN!! Albeit not heavily, though reading the preview on Pixiv I saw it was like "AYYYYYE" so I would recommend it if you can read it ;0 i hope to buy the full thing soon....

Also, I was actually skeptical of this going into it but Kyon is SO good with their writing they did write a Faerie x Leonard Modern AU smut fic I'm now also hoping to get the full version of well... do you know how good something has to be for me not ONLY to spend money on it, but to go from SKEPTICAL "this isn't my thing and i dunno why i'm even reading it" to "I need to read the rest of this NOW GET HIS ASS" i truly marvel at their talent and im so happy at the chance to work with them im.............

The illustrations were done by the also VERY popular Suiden, who you might recognise if you spend any time on Leonard's Pixiv tag in general!!! I admit, I kind of expected more as far as the quality of their contributions to the VN were concerned, but honestly, the character sprites are so charming in their own little VN way (Leonard's DOD2 sprite i ADORE) and i was so excited to see both recognisable artists i adore in there, I don't really have any major complaints so far outside the fact i sincerely wish there was a 1.3 leonard....... ONAPLUS 2 LETS MAKE IT HAPPEN‼️💥👏👏

Oh, and I also learned a LOT about LoV and its system through this game (and how much injustice they did leonard in the sequel, jesus fuck...) which was apparently all thanks to Haruoka's help advising everyone on the LoV bits (Though whether that stands for just gameplay or actual lore, i have no idea.... yet)!! You may also recognise some of the nice Leonard art they have on their Pixiv if you've dug through the tag as deep as I have lmao

it could happen

... Anyways, that SHOULD be enough rambling from me!! If you have anymore questions, do lemme know because this VN is my LIFE right now all I can ever think about is playing it and I'm literally going to be so sad when it's time to put it up......

If you think you'd like to check it out for yourself, please do check out the trial version!! You can get it free on Kyon's Booth and I think you SHOULD be able to just G-Translate your way through the N-Route with minimal confusion just based off of how clear I remember it, and the S-Route should be roughly understandable as well but uses a LOT more slang and "catechisms" with its spelling than N-Route, so you might have a couple more difficulties translating it if you use a machine.

The full version is a psychical disc copy that sells for 500 JPY (3.24 USD/3.05 EUR, i believe) and you CAN buy it through a proxy site like Buyee like I did!! Ofc that will include packing and shipping costs, so you might actually expect it to come up to around 20 USD as it did for me :,) perhaps the real pain though comes in how long you have to wait for it to actually arrive (just under a month for me)

But if you're a Leonard fan? Speaking as the self-proclaimed head of the church of ona, it is so worth it. ive never been so utterly enamoured and in love with a game, its kinda starting to concern me...

Either way!! It will still be a while till an English patch comes out since I've been very busy with work and unable to play it :(

I recommend you try it for yourself!!!

And please do refrain from posting screenshots of the game if you decide to play it (at request of the creators), you can quote it but if it's on a public platform like Tumblr or Twitter or anywhere outside of DMs, please no screenshots!!

Here's a link to the trial version (Free)

And if you like that enough...

Here's the full version!! (500 JPY)

...If you can, please give this your full support!! I very much don't think you'll be disappointed, especially as a Leonard fan~

As far as the English patch goes, I dunno how much I should share out of respect for the creators at the time other than

i plan to start working on it

But I am DETERMINED to finish this translation, i dunno how it might even be spread (Whether it will just stay a small-scale thing spread through the wings of tumblr dms or also posted on the authors booth) but either way!!!

This will be my first time working on a videogame, and if I'm allowed to say this in confidence, I'm 100% certain this will be my best translation yet. :3 perhaps better than even magnitude negative, im REALLY liking the way this is looking right now, even by the rough drafts.... i really only give my all for leonard i've realised, but that's not an issue for me <3

Anyways, anon, if you ever play it please do send some thoughts about it if you're willing (To either blog~)!!! and any questions, please ask!!! i'm so excited to see more people talking about this, thank you anon!!!!

#||reply||:anonymous #{/its so late.... i would ramble more in the tags but im too tired...}#{/onaplus is the most worthwhile purchase ive made in recent memory though; s-mc was right... this is why i stay living.....}#{/i also ate fried shrimp today}

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fictionfixations · 2 months

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oop

i didnt know that was a thing, but i guess that makes sense lol (i need to be like rank 31)

anyway. i kind of spoiled to myself the whole i think twist of this one. for 1. way before i started i went to the wiki and looked at the overblot section, which meant looking at who overblotted cause i like looked at their designs (honestly i only remember riddles now, my memory sucks. and i didnt have a face to name them to besides like floyd and riddle, although floyd doesnt overblot)

and. during i think last book? no second book, the one with savanaclaw, they were like 'ah, cause your ability's--' and then that character interrupted

and i was curious what that ability was so i searched on the wiki

so im just completely spoiled so now it kind of sucks, i feel like one of those fans yelling at a character on a tv not to do something lmfao (im just like 'nOO DONT HATE ON THEM it wasnt them :(((')

(anyway i feel like the twistunes are a genius. because of the way the eyes are done in their smol forms, it means you can't actually tell if they're.. uhh.. charmed or not. since they have the same color as the ones people get when. uh. charmed. the only reason you can actually tell is cause its such a huge personality change in comparison to who they act otherwise that makes it obvious)

i might need to stop for awhile though grinding cause my characters are weak. i can pass the battles but barely cause i just use the support cards with the most power D:

(last battle was like 31 something compared to my close 32 aghh)

not a fan of like the easy tickets? i already forgot the name. but i did kind of use them in the last book's fight against like floyd and jade because i was stuck there for so long (well for at least a day but im impatient) and i wanted to finally get to the story lmfao

#thoughts #twst spoilers #twst wonderland #twst #twisted wonderland

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machianery · 8 months

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assorted soto thoughts go here!

i took a good couple days to go through the story because work and also i wanted to pace myself and i think it really worked out because i spent a LOT of time theorizing about where the plot would take us. i was convinced that peitha would empower us to kill the king or whoever and then double cross us by taking over our body to become new king.

dagda is trans. im 100% on this. the demon in her head when you fight her deadnames her. she is deeply upset by being told to compromise her appearance and true self for the sake of appearing to the world. shes trans.

when we first met her though my theory was she would START to warm up to us but when we were revealed to be hiding a demon in our head she would snap and rightfully try to take us out for putting literally the entire astral ward in danger like that.

and i really liked having a character in the cast who very much did not immediately like us. im almost sad that she DID warm up to us. we need someone to challenge things a bit.

i looove the new title. honestly commander always felt a bit like it only fit because we'd kept it for so long. like it was endearing to still be called that when we only commanded people for a relatively short about of consecutive time. but we have been wayfinding for the whole world for much longer. it fits because it would have fit for years.

i got spoiled to peitha's name when i stood somewhere in the first map and she started talking about her opinions regarding i think the architecture? and her name was in the text box. and then later i got spoiled to her appearance when i went to enter an instance and she appeared in a transluscent form to exposit again. im assuming these are part of a lore collection we'll find later oops.

i definitely understand where people are coming from when they say the wizards are cult-like and they hope zojja doesnt ascend. but i dont think thats what anet is really going for. it seems more like a metaphor for gaining power. you want to help the powerless people so you gain power but now theres a disconnect between you and them. idk though we'll have to see.

did you know the dwarf whose head is being warshipped by skritt is in the dwarven area of map 1. you can talk to him and be like Dont I Know You From Somewhere.

im so fucking glad that the new daily system lets you buy glam charges. im constantly searching for more of those.

some of the new bosses (like one of the two bosses you fight with lyhr in the debate hall) have ffxiv-style stack markers. the reason people are dying is because they arent standing in them. STAND IN THE STACK MARKERS.

the rifts seem pretty flexable tbh. you can farm them in a big train or you can pepper them in when theres no events you wanna do on your current map.

just before the final fight against cerus he goes on about the building youre in and how it was for a god to autonomy and how the king killed him. the bad guy KILLED his subjects' AUTONOMY. like. how more on the nose can you get lol i love it.

#gw2 #soto spoilers

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archiveseyes · 1 year

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Its so fucking cool

I keep spoiling things for myself on accident whenever i look up characters though jedbiedbsi

I searched up the old guy from Freefall and im like . Wtf is The Vast ??

Mag 22 was interesting but also wtf did Martin put on Jon(i think that’s how you spell it-?)’s desk in mag 21..

Currently working my way through Mag 23, it’s boring as fuck-

-Struggling Anon

that is how it usually goes also dont do that.. i can share non spoilery info if you want to check the character continuity lol

martin put a bunch of worms on jons desk. like. the hive worms

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kireisimp · 11 months

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Im desperate i want to finish monster to search for lunge stuff because that man makes me feel GRRR GRRRAW BARK BARK BARK but at the same time i dont want to spoil myself and i want to take my time and see it at my own pace and enjoy every chapter because this series is really really good

#monster #inspector lunge take my hand in marriage

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zwei-rhunen · 4 months

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I'm pretty surprised how well I've "avoided" spoilers past heavensward tbh lmao, given how much I read on all the ffxiv subreddits + tumblr xD

(probably 5.0/6.0++ spoilers down below)

Don't correct me if I'm wrong lmao

The "avoid" are also bc I didnt really avoid them, likeeee yeah id duck out of a thread if they blatently put spoiler tags around it but, like.... I had already gone out of my way to watch most of the major cutscenes/storybeats for shadowbringers when it first came out, BUT that was 3-4 years ago. I did that primarily bc 1) I wasn't sure if I would stick around, and 2) frankly, I KNEW that if i did end up staying with the game, the chances were pretty high that I'd forget about most of it by the time I got to there, anyway. Also 3) I'm kinda blasé about spoilers, like yeah I'd prefer not to hear about it but sometimes I spoil myself bc i just gotta know if it gets good, and if it DOES get good then i'll still want to experience the journey myself, ykwim?

But anyway. I WAS RIGHT LMAO I DONT REMEMBER FUCK ALL 🤣🤣🤣

Like this is what I remember for shadowbringers:

Aalsj TELEPORTATION aksrhhfkfl TOWER alsjdhfjfl BELOVED CAT BOY akshdhdjfkglgj GETTING OLD amsskfjl GHOST ARDBERT ajadfl SINEATERS alssjdhfjfl MEGA SIN EATERS and also ALOT OF GRIEF and SOME INNOCENT GETTING GOT AND ITS VERY TRAGIC BECAUSE WE WERE TOO LATE aksjdjdkdlf HI ARDBERT! GLAD YOU ONLY SHOW UP WHEN WE'RE ALONE OR ELSE PEOPLE WOULD THINK WE'RE CRAZY alajdhdjdl GRUMPY ASCIAN??? I think they show up here?????? And also CUTE MIQOTE COUPLE and also A KICKASS-LOOKING WHITE LION that i wouldn't mind having as a mount 🥺🥺👉👈

....And then some things happen somewhere in the middle...... and then

FREEDOM

and SAVING THE WORLD

and ???? Maybe puking?????

Honestly I'm not sure what part of any of that is shadowbringers and what's endwalker.

I could go and figure it out with a 2 minute google search,

But I think it's funnier this way.

I know endwalker has elephants. And bunny. And body snatching. And a Cafe At The End Of The Universe, or something like that (that's what I got from reading the achievement tags over people's heads lmao) and ascian lore ofc

#zwei writes

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rieamy · 8 months

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Dear diary, i found someone. He treats me so well, like a princess/ queen in fact. Spoils me, jokes insanely with me. It’s been a month since i know him. What’s more insane is i took my time to fall in love. It’s not at 100% in love yet but it’s increasing daily and tbh it’s more than i could ask for. Contented. Happy. I went lowkey this time, not even posting anything on my close friend list on ig much about this person.

I waited 2 years for Adil to come around. I even wished him last year, April 20. Not even a reply. Not even a thank you. From there i knew it would be a fat hope for him to wish me back. Well, it would be dumb for me to wish him again in 2023. I didn’t wish, obviously. I knew i needed to move on, dated here and there but i was just searching for the love & connection i had w him.

It’s insane bc before im dating the current guy rn, i did went out w this other person. I always thought i was ready for a rs, but when i went on a date w this person, i realise rs is so overwhelming, suffocating and instantly i felt the need to run away. In my mind i told myself, maybe I’m still not ready yet. I should just make friends, go on casual dates etc. About a month plus later, then i went on Muzz and tada, it lead me to my current date hehe.

I kenal him around mid july. Tbh i wanted to cut ties after the first meet up. I felt like he’s way too nice for my liking, too gentlemen & also i dont dig guys w facial hair. Hard to kiss if you know what i mean. Plus ive always preferred dating guys w a bike instead of a car (idk maybe i grew up w a dad that rides sports bike). But i realise he’s nice and i should give him a chance la kan. Mhmm next thing i know I’m going out w him every few days. Well, I don’t want to talk much since it’s still in the early stages. Let me just add on with the fact that I’m a cancer ♋️ and he is an aries ♈️. I really dk how we stand each other. In zodiac, we’re not meant to last 😂. Dk maybe cause im a water sign but i have a lot of air element. Maybe thats why it’s going ok? Well, we will see where this goes.

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kenthenugget · 1 year

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My Classroom Neighbor (Idk what to title this)

So the other day I was watching a video by a youtuber named Optimus, whom I watch from time to time. In the video, he was covering a story about this, frankly, spoiled college girl who bragged about missing deadlines for assignments and projects on twitter. And whom melted down when, to no ones surprise but her's, got booted from the class by her professor. While the story itself was another example of reaping what you sow, it did remind me a person who's story I'd like to share with you guys today. While this person didn't brag about missing assignments or freak out when the was dropped, I did have a front row seat to someone basically failing a class because he did little to nothing of the assignments. But I'm getting ahead of myself.

The student in question was in my graphic design course during the Fall 2021 Semester. I first saw him the week after classes had started, not showing up until now due to something that was happening in his personal life. After that he chose his spot and said spot just so happened to be right next to where I sat, which is how I got the "front row seat" so to speak. I guess I cant be referring to him as "the student" for this whole thing so I'll just be calling him Steven, a name which might make more sense later on.

On the surface, there was nothing particularly outstanding about Steven but what I did notice and would quickly take notice of was the fact that he didnt seem to pay attention at all to the lecture. While the person sitting to my left would have photoshop or illustrator open following along with the lecture, to my left would be Steven either on google maps, smacking his thighs or looking shit up on google images. The one thing he looked up the most were seagulls (get it? Steven as in Steven Seagal...Seagulls?). Although, there was this one time where he searched up Donald Trump and when I noticed him doing it, he literally moved his monitor so I couldn't see it. Not going to lie, it made me chuckle.

He also didn't seem to do any of classworks/homework too? How do I know this? Well during the moments in class where there wouldn't be a lecture going on, we would have 'Critique Sessions", where would show off our work in front of the class, completed or not. At no point during the semester did I see Steven's work presented on the board. That and he seemed to be occupied with google maps and birds to realize the professor was giving us a homework assignments. In hindsight, he was quite a weird one. He would come, drop of his stuff, disappear out of the classroom for about 10 minutes, come back in, do his usual stuff then leave.

At this point, you're probably wondering if Steven had some sort of learning disability, like adhd or autism. And looking back, I feeling he probably had either or both. Now before you start flaming me, I'd like to point out that I have autism and adhd as well, so don't think this is coming from someone who likes to hate on neurdivergent people like the trolls on kiwi farms or 4chan. I am well aware that stuff like adhd and a.d.d can severally effect someone's ability to focus, however, I dont think its a be all end all excuse. Because adhd cant effect someone's motivation or drive to get work done. I struggle with focusing on shit but I also dont want to miss a deadline, weather it be webcomics or school. So that drive to get things done on time and not half ass anything overrides any distractions that might come my way. For school, I've always had high grades and its sort wired an instinct into my brain to do well in classes. And I was particularly motivated during this semester. My first year of college was awful, mostly due to mental health struggles I had been dealing with throughout 2020 and the first half of 2021. Because of this, I didnt perform as well as I would have if I was in a better mental state. It was because of that realization that, following a summer of improvement, I made it a personal goal to do better in college to make up for my poor performance.

So in a weird way, I personally saw Steven as a twisted reflection to how I was in 2020/2021; unfocused and lagging behind the rest of the class. But instead of it being only visible to him in the privacy of his own bedroom during zoom classes, I had a front row seat to his antics. Although I cant be sure if was suffering with the same mental issues that I had at the time. As for the autism, he did seem to have an obsession with Seagulls, like I said, and the metric system. Not really sure how this ties in with all of this.

Anyways, this brings us to the end of the semester. Steven had no only done none of the homework assignments and but one of the in class assignments, he hadn't done the take home midterm either. I was wondering if he make a turn around for the final project, which would be due on the 18th a Monday, with the latest hand ins going until Wednesday the 20th. We were given two weeks to work on it, and then came Monday, the actual last in class session. And I was not surprised to find that he hadn't done it. I guess that's a bit misleading. He did start it but he wasn't even close to finishing it. I wasn't paying too much attention to his computer since my eyes were directly set on the presentations, but what I did see was a blank document with a type face on it. That's it! I was kinda shocked but not surprised since he didn't even do the take home midterm which the professor did give him shit for. After we presented all our projects (except for Steven), and after the professor gave us some departing words, we were dismissed for the day. It was at this point Steven turned to me and said quote for quote, "Wait is it over?"

"Yeah", I replied, "Everyone dropped theirs' (aka final projects) into the dropbox" (our way of handing in assingments)

At this, he muttered "oh shit" under his breath and I tried my best to contain my laughter as I packed my things and left, while overhearing him and the professor talk about something. Most likely trying to explain why he did 0.1% of the work for the class. I found this moment so funny that I wrote it in my journal shortly after and forever immortalized this moment. Needless to say, I don't think Steven passed the class, and I doubt he would have been able to make it up by Wednesday as well. If he couldn't focus to use the 2 weeks working on his final, then there was no way he could do all of that and more within a couple of days.

And that was the last I saw of Steven. I saw him walking down the sidewalk to the nearest bus stop while waiting for my dad to pick me up that same day but after that, I never saw him in any of the classes I signed up for after that. I know its not a guarantee that you'll see the same people in each class you sign up for because of how big college is, but I wonder if he became too unfocused to sign up for any new classes too. I'm not quite sure what the moral of this story is, if there is one anyway. I guess don't waste you're parents money because college is expensive XD

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