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single-malt-scotch · 1 year

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me and my controversial topics will stay under the cut lol.

i know i blabbed lightly of this probably but obviously one of the things that put me off from mcyt for a few years was when the "rpf is bad" opinion started circling the internet more frequently, in tumblr's 2014-2016 toxic callout culture era. i think that era shifted YT fandoms as a whole and turned loads of ppl to presenting creators with their "characters" specifically (like i recall this early on w markiplier and jacksepticeye) and clarifying it often. but i find this all very amusing when 80% of the ppl dont actually play characters at all, and ppl are either just writing "rpf" or theyre just turned a creator into their own OCs. i think its sometimes just a way to not associate with the idea of rpf even if its like, right there.

like, the problem i think is that the majority of fans, namely the young teens that are the main audience, are very consumed by purity culture and being free of problematic interests in such a black and white way. i get it, i understand why you dont want to be associated with rpf. when i think of weird and uncomfortable rpf i think of.... fan fiction of the Beatles, or something. a band or a movie actor is someone we can easily define as "not a character" but... when it comes to mcyt, its a little more grey, because i know some of them goof around in games and do bits and exaggerate themselves.

and yet i still think its counter productive to get caught up in these woes, and to deny what exactly it means for something to be rpf, or have rpf elements. ironically i think the indulgence people have with making them characters worsens the parasocial/obsessive/skewed lens people have on creators these days. how? well its bc of how ppl get super attached to characters... comfort characters, kinning, etc. i love characters just an intensely, but when you apply this to a youtuber who like, doesnt actually play a character? even tho you wanna act like they do? .....there can definitely be issues in that and its def what makes me not get into the fandom as it is. you elevate them with your view of them as a character by being able to indulge in them way further bc they are kind of "yours" now. but also theyre not really.

but specifically back to the rpf vs not rpf topic- basically what i really intend to say is that like. there is harm in becoming too concerned over what youre writing bc you can fall into that mindset of being far too aware in a way thats just gonna make you feel terrible all the time (i experienced this myself when i was like 15 on tumblr and wanted to avoid any potential of touching something "problematic"). this post isnt to declare you are writing rpf, or you arent, or whatever the"rules" are about when it is or isnt, but just that theres always time to just accept shit as it is when the blurry lines arent actually doing any harm in this case. and that even trying to force yourself into the seemingly right direction doesnt exactly solve all the other problems either.

cuz i did all the things ppl would wanna call me out for and i dont care at this point. i wrote fan fiction where the guys where more characters than themselves, in a fantasy world for the server. but i also wrote fan fiction that was irl and based during minecon! and it was smut. and all i can say to that now is...ok. im not even gonna sit around and vehemently condemn it either? even if i never plan to do it again. cuz i dont see the need to punish my past self, nor do i see the reason to continue questioning the nuances of where the line between hard rpf and hard fiction lies with this bc its a never ending conversation. its just not worth my time to worry anymore. i know how to not be weird about it, i know my boundaries between creator and fan, i dont even get near the extent that some people do... i feel like im aware enough to feel like im not causing harm/can make logical choices when issues arise. i was a niave teenager before, and wrote such things with little thought, and had a much less healthy mindset about it! but the way the internet laid on the pressure of these strict definitions was the moment i felt shame, and as if i couldnt ever redeem myself from actions i understand far better now. its really not worth the stress and heartache to get so caught up in it.

#oops long post #you can rb to respond i just wanted this under a cut

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valdederon · 8 months

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FLAMES JOURNEY CHAPTER #18 the new masters stuborn aprentice and new discoveries

a week after nova had been released from the medical wing she continues training with valdederon the inpatient riolu wanting nothing but to go after the fire type who attacked her tribe. agressivly trying to blow through her training to no avail.

nova--when can we actualy go out to do some field work.

valdederon-- when you land a successful hit on me.

she growls and folds her arms kicking a broken in half training dumby.

nova--- your traing is to hard i want to do somthing about that dam … ughh.

she charges at him bone rush in hand and is triped up as valdederon moves his staff out at an angle catching her foot as he walks to the side making her tumble into the wall with a loud thud and smack her and she holds her nose after getting up and tears giving him puppy dog begging eyes.

valdederon-- drop the begging act it will never work on me. im no stranger to the princess eyes… as for that fire type how thf fuk do you expect to find him let alone defeat him when you cant even land a single furr on me. im an outworlder witch makes me far mroe powerful then the avereage fire type i can use many abilties not from this world.

nova growls and in a fit of anger throws a powerful aura sphere i golden shining ball of fury that rips a hole in the wall as it explodes splinters of wood and stone exploding evrywere valdederon pouncing onto nova and slaming her to the ground as a sizable chunk of stone flies past them nova yelping and shaking heavily scared of the sudden and loud blast.

nova --..w…w..what was that.

valdederon gets up and lifts the shaking and near crying riolu cearly still not acustom to loud noises as thunderstorms havent hit the airea yet monsoon season only 6 months away.

valdederon---- you ok hun.. are you not good with loud noises

she doesnt respond untill valdederon flicks her nose bringing her out of her fightned trance and she pounces into his chest fluff sobbing taill firmly between her legs boddy shaking heavily and valdederon rembering his sister always cried during a storm and instinctualy sits down rubbing her back. for 2 hours nova cries untill she is out of breath and whimpering and blushing.

valdederon--- take awhile to settle nova.. i know how it can be not beeing used to loud noises i wont tell anyone about this ok im here for you

he continues to rub her back calming down from her scare when she finaly calms to sniffles and gets up out of his fur her blue face red with blush.

nova---i..im ..s..sorry ..i..

valdederon flicks her nose and puts his paw on hier muzzle softly

valdederon---- you dont have anything to apologize about.. lets go get some lunch.

she nods quietly and hides behind valdederons fluff as they walk to the mess hall while valdederon goes through his mind trying to rember were he knows that type of aura then he rembers angering raykore and yelps recoling when she slamed a smaller one in his chest the size of a pea knocking the wind out of him..

valdederon--ill definatly need to callout for help on this one.. that aura is out of my element.. radiance type aura is rare.. oh were here .. you sill with me nova.

nova--- yea.. im..s.sorry for the mess

valdederon--- dont worry about it.. tomorrow ill call for help on some one who can train your aura abilities far better then i could.. youl get to meat my old master… youl like here.. she kind of teases me alot but she can also be quite….um… youl see.

nova--- you had a master once..

valdederon nods picking her up and setting her in a lifted chair in the mess hall and gets a couple plates of some chease cake and gives her a slightly larger chease cake then him self

nova---what is this.

valdederon--- its chease cake and its verry tastey after what you went though just now you deserve a treat.

shea tastes some with her claw and begins to dig in messily enjoying the chease cake and swiftly forgetting about the scare from earlier making valdederon smile .

valdederon-- chease cake realy does heal the soul doesn it ha ha ha..

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starbe4m · 3 years

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A screenshot of Tubbo and Ranboo: exist

Artist: WELP time to redraw :)

#sorry i thought this was funny #dont worry this is a self callout #vian rumbles #ranboo #tubbo

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sloppy-disc · 2 years

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"How did you get so good at drawing hoodies?"

A: Homestuck

B: Eddsworld

C: Osomatsu-san

D: all of the above you predictable dumbass

#murphy mumbles #this is a self callout dont worry #hoodies are my comfort apparel to draw on all characters #even on my persona #'tell me youre transgender/nb without telling me youre transgender/nb'#h o o d i e

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glowing-and-confused · 3 years

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Math majors will be talking about finding the missing side of a right triangle instead of partying..... Why don't you worry about getting HIGH on POTenuse

#self callout #if you know me irl and see this joke twice dont worry about it #glowing posts

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eulangelo · 3 years

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callout for @genderfluidlucifer

google docs

tw for transmisogyny + TERFs + emotional manipulation

Transmisogyny

Lucifer is a huge transmisogynist who will complain 24/7 about how TERFs hurt the ace community, but the moment @randomclustermissile , a trans girl (who is not an exclusionist at all) tries to point out transmisogyny in inclusionist circles (in the most vague and general way possible, without pointing fingers nor calling anyone names) Lucifer will immediatly jump to block her and so they did with me (another inclusionist) and i have to suppose to everyone else who agreed with that post, even arriving to vagueing about us in private group chats to suggest that we were “sympathizing with exclusionists”. all because we dared point out transmisogyny in inclusionist circles. lucifer is TME but apparently they think they’re the authority on TERFs and their talking points but actual trans women are not, according to them, since this is the stuff that they would go and spew to other people. (screenshots from @enbyoctoling)

here’s more examples of Lucifer (again, a transmasc person) going deep in detail about how according to them, TERFs/SWERFs hate aro/ace people and are an active threat to us

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[Image ID: Three screenshots of a post by Genderfluidlucifer. The first screenshot is of a paragraph that reads, "Hey. So I can actually answer this. Anon your commentary about how you thought terfs would approve of sex repulsed aces is sort of it. Except...not. Basically terfs hate ace people for not wanting sex in the approved by terfs way. Terfs are actually extremely interested in [forcing] amatonormativity onto everyone. Because for as sex negative as terfs are...they don't want to actually acknowledge or change the fact that amatonormativity is at the root cause of rape culture and misogyny."

The second screenshot is a zoomed in section of the post that reads, "So yeah no I have NO idea where exclus allies are getting this idea from that terfs would even remotely care about the sexual rights of ace people. Terfs generally hate any sexualities in the LGBTQ+ acronym that aren't LGB because they can't force a gender binary onto those sexualities. At least, not as easily. That's why it's actually a massive sign of someone who doesn't call themselves a terf being a crypto terf if they use the term LGB in a positive manner. Along with the term SGA, as it is deliberately exclusive of nonbinary and not inherently SGA centric queer-aligned sexualities. /END ID]

link to the full post, these are just excerpts but the whole thing is just a very long rant about how TERFs hate ace people and so on (i think it’s worth noticing that although the actual post is kinda long, trans women are never once brought op in a conversation about TERFs issues and the only time transmisogyny is mentioned is not relevant to the conversation)

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[Image ID: A screenshot of a reblog by genderfluidlucifer. The original poster is nothorses. It reads, "Because apparently I have to say it: Testosterone is not a 'violent' hormone. It doesn't make you 'more aggressive' or a worse person, it doesn't make you 'dangerous,' or 'toxic.' Transmascs do not need to be 'warned of the dangers of T.' We do not need to spend our transitions terrified that we're going to become a danger to those around us - that HRT is going to turn us into a monster.

Everyone experiences mood swings during hormonal shifts (pregnancy, menstruation, menopause, estrogen HRT, etc.) and while you might have grumpy moments or feel anger/frustration that you need to learn to handle differently, that doesn't make you a bad person.

Testosterone can change the way you access/process emotions somewhat, but if you're already thoughtful about how you handle your feelings and treat others, you're going to be fine. It's normal to lash out on occasion, by accident, then apologize and work to do better. It doesn't make you a bad person. Everyone on HRT is prone to this, and everyone experiencing hormonal changes is prone to this.

Getting HRT should be positive and affirming; you should not have to spend your entire transition terrified of becoming a monster."

The post then has a reblog by captainlordauditor that reads, "The big danger of T is that needle ouchy." /END ID]

here’s them reblogging from known transmisogynist user @nothorses (once again, the irony that a post about how testosterone is seen as the "aggressive hormone" does not mention transfem at all which are literally the main victims of this rethoric in the first place)

3. link (1), link (2)

[Image ID: Two screenshots of posts by genderfluidlucifer. The first screenshot reads, "Queer exclus: We're not repackaging terf rhetoric! Saying that is transmisogynistic! Also queer exclus: Remove the plus from LGBT!" and has tags that say, "I will pay these people to grow some god damn self awareness. Imagine being this dense. Queer discourse." The post has 15 notes.

The second screenshot reads, "Honestly it is so stupid and frustrating to see ace exclus continue to deny that the ace discourse was started by terfs. Proof was given countless times. And a big name terf like galesofnovember even admitted to starting it. Those of you who demand proof but ignore all of this never wanted proof to begin with." and is tagged with, "ace discourse. The post has 38 notes. /END ID]

heres another two post of theirs conflating TERFs with ace exclusionism

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[Image ID: A screenshot of a reblogged post by furbearingbrick. The original poster is boxlizard, Lucifer's old account. The original post reads, "By the way for people still in denial about it, here's galesofnovember, a terf, admitting that she intended to start the ace exclus movement. She's taking credit for it. Normally if the victims of this behavior weren't ace/aro or other queer identities y'all be ready to rightfully lynch her. But since it's us, y'all just still wanna stamp your feet and go, 'Nuh uh!' instead of acknowledging facts." The part that says, "admitting that she intended to start the ace exclus movement" is a link to a galesofnovember post.

There is then a reblogged addition from furbearing brick that reads, "archived versions of the receipts" and has two links to the webarchive. The tags read, "Bringing this back since it's apparently still relevant. Terfism mention. Aphobia mention. Queerphobia mention. Blocklist." and has 1,455 notes. /END ID]

this is their post that ive already talked about but basically they found a 52 notes post made by a TERF in 2012 and this one person said "i dont know why i dont get to be the princess of the anti-ace-brigade" and apparently they are convinced that this means TERFs started the ace exclusionism movement and that this is one of their goals. which is insane when TERFs in real life only care about making life miserable for transfem people first and foremost.

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[Image ID: A screenshot of a reblog by genderfluidlucifer. The original poster is yu-gay-fudo. It reads, “Just in case you happen to be unaware, some of the “radfem lite” they post to warm you up to their rhetoric, just off the top of my head:

- Ace/aro exclusionism

- Bi exclusionism or claims that bi people are “less queer” bc of “straight passive privilege”

- Saying you have to be dysphoric to identify as transInvalidating nonbinary people

- Calling queer a slur regardless of context, saying people can’t identify as queer, and saying that it can’t be reclaimed

- “Mogai hell”, “kweer”, or otherwise mocking less common labels and claiming they are “just cishets who want to feel special”

- Excluding sex workers from feminist discussions or claiming that sex work is inherently evil

- Basically anyone who thinks they can determine what other people identify as”. The tags read, "queerphobia tw. twerfs tw. no id." and has 70,727 notes. It was reblogged on March 22nd, 2021 /END ID]

another example of conflating radfems to things that, while wrong, have little to nothing to do with them because being a radfem, again, is something very specific that has all to do with transfem oppression.

Emotional manipulation

Lucifer has done nothing but block, break boundaries, spread lies and vague about people, some of which were even mutuals with them knowing they would see the posts. when confronted about it Lucifer's only answer was "just say you hate me and block me" but they actually ended up blocking everyone first, making it impossible for anyone to set some boundaries with them or even just to calmly confront them about anything.

[proof: Io(popncourse) and Lucifer had a disagreement in a shared discord server, which prompted Lucifer to vague Io in a vent post. Io confronted them, as being vagued is one of buns triggers, to which Lucifer initially agreed to delete the vent post, but then proceeded to victimize themself and immediatly blocked Io. later on, Jude(malewifedeckard) was confronted by Lucifer, then after Jude told them “I’m worried that you’ll vague me just like you did with Io” they proceeded to block Jude and vagued about him too. when Io made a post (which was not a callout, it was just bun setting buns boundaries) explaining what Lucifer did, Lucifer immediatly jumped to victimize themself, acting like they were being called out and straight-up lying, even going so far as to say that no one tried to hear them out, which is a blatant lie if you consider the aforementioned Io and Jude’s attempts at doing so, with Lucifer immediatly blocking and cutting ties with the both of them. ]

(screenshots taken by @popncourse and @malewifedeckard)

as seen in the proof above Lucifer’s behaviour is not ok because they don’t accept any kind of confrontation and immediatly jump to blocking, and after blocking, they'd immediatly go and vague about the people who confronted them pacificly, spreading more lies and painting themself as the victim and even arriving to say “no one hears me out at all” which is simply not something you can say when you block people who are trying to hear you out in the first place.

this is by no means an invitation to go and harass them, send them hate or anything like that. i absolutely don’t want anything even remotely hateful or negative to be sent their way after this post.

this post was only made because:

1. as an ace person who fully supports the inclusion of aspec identities in the lgbt+ community i don’t want to support an enviroment that costantly downplays transmisogynistic oppression in order to be taken seriously. there are hundreds of ways to make aspec activism without acting like we(as in TME aspecs)are the victims of a system that seeks for the annihilation of transfemenine people in real life everyday. i especially don’t want to support TME individuals who act transfem-friendly but then block any transfem who tries to speak on transmisogyny without a second thought.

2. Lucifer’s behaviour has hurt two friends of mine and i don’t want to associate with someone who actively breaks people’s boundaries without taking accountability when messing up.

3. i cannot associate with someone who spreads lies about me accusing me of sympathizing with exclusionists all while having me blocked so that i can’t see it nor defend me. they complain about people not hearing them out but they’re the very first person who does not try to hear people out, and instead jumps to spread baseless rumors. this is not someone i can nor want to associate with.

(image descriptions provided by @malewifedeckard)

#genderfluidlucifer #transmisogyny tw #terfs tw #ask to tag #txt #long post #ok to rb

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haikyuuublog · 3 years

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hey dont worry about posting things your wellbeing comes first!

heres a little question which (volley) position do you think is the coolest and why?

Thank u so much for ur words!!! And about positions hmmm…honestly all the positions are really cool! I think the setter is most essential in controlling the flow of the game and takes a ton of skill and precision; wing spikers make the winning hits and are the main powerhouses; middle blockers are essential to defense, etc. But I honestly think the coolest position is the libero position. The libero always has their teammates’ backs and always goes 100% to ensure their teammates get the ball. They are reliable and rise to the occasion. They might not make the winning hits, but they are, as the show put it, the guardians of the team. If I had to play a position, I’d choose ace cause I like the glory (self callout lmao), but I think the libero is the coolest position. :)

#asks

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autumnsnuggling · 3 years

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I was tagged by the wonderful @curlyy-hair-dont-care @drarrymybeloved and @graymatters!

Name: April

Fandoms: Let's see... drarry, drarry, and, um, drarry! I occccassssionallly dip my toe into Merthur (BBC) and Everlark for reading though!

Most popular multi-chapter fic: This is either my still unfinished 'Series' (really should have posted it as a multi-chaptered fic, I was new to AO3, be kind to my toddler self) The Final Straw, OR it's The Boy Who Lived (To Not Be a Boy), my first transfest piece (and probably the best bit of longer writing I've done)

Actual worst part of writing: Um... For me I think the initial draft? Just because I get really judgy about myself, and then struggle to get the words out, and then go down a hate spiral? And I want to edit it really quickly, but sometimes my head is definitely not in the right place, so it just fuels the gremlin voices telling me I'm crap lol. But, I also really, really hate having ideas and no time/energy/motivation? I could write 3 novels (at least) were it not for work zapping me or the Wrackspurts filling my brain with USELESS fog lol

Best part of writing: Being PROUD of what you've done! Reading it back and giggling to your own jokes :D and knowing, yeah, you aced that :D

Do you outline: Um... This literally changes with every fic lol. Sometimes yes? Because I need to put all my ideas down otherwise they stress me out floating around in my head because I'm worried I'll forget some of them, or because I suddenly realise I have no idea how to get from a to b. But others? Hell no, I just start lol

Fic ideas you probably won't get to but wouldn't it be nice: ... Uh... I honestly don't think I've given up on any of mine yet so... I don't know lol

Callouts @ me: Stop judging yourself! And if your head isn't in it, Take a fucking break!

Best writing traits: Um... That I keep doing it and I can mostly appreciate that my old cringey stuff was me being a baby writer, it's all part of the process?

Spicy opinions: I'm stealing Nim's here because I agree and I haven't got the brainpower to think of more right now; Writing dark stuff or “bad stuff” is in no way a reflection on the author as a person, and making value judgements about strangers on the internet based on the fictional content they create for free is ludicrous.

Tagging: @rockmarina, @gnarf, @ununquadius, and @orange-peony, plus anyone else that wants to do this. No pressure as always!

#tag game #non hp #writing struggles #thanks for the tag :D

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gaysontodd · 3 years

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WAS: megatronismegagone

IS: gaysontodd

okay pinned post bc my about is getting Unwieldy

ignore

yo im leo. i dont use pronouns so dont call me by any. yeah they is included. thanks. i go by arson or agata too

genderspecial

genuine piece of shit

sick fuck

if youre having trouble talking to me without using pronouns: dont. okay but in all seriousness, it aint hard. heres an example: “this user is so right and sexy.” or “leo megatronmegagone is arson’s favorite ginger” or “that person with the good opinions”. if you really dont get it, just substitute my name for pronouns. bam youre degendering me correctly. my carrd says masc pronouns are fine if and only if your native language requires pronouns or that words be gendered. so dont call me he just because you dont feel like not using pronouns

my callouts: link

my “dni” featured on a dni blog: link

the gif is a joke and its funny

weird vibes only

radically inclusive and radically queer! radical is a good word and im mad shitheads are using it

i have a gender, dont worry about it.

aro and bi gay<3

i ramble constantly and sometimes people get fighty. i try not to start fights on this blog

uh anti death threats and suicide bait. literally i shouldnt have to say this.

dni if u have a dni

anyway i think people should get to do what they want as long as it doesnt hurt anybody else. that includes consang, self harm, and all medical procedures. it also includes consensual cannibalism, necro, and all those nasty kinks you hate.

im not proship or antiship, im a decent person who doesnt think like a conservative christian grandpa. (fiction doesnt equal reality. dont pretend what someone reads or writes or draws is the sum total of their morality)

i dont think you can say “oh im a better person than you because you like darkfic/noncon/incest” and be right when you send death threats and suicide bait to me or anyone else like. cmon.

kids dont follow

i am a transformers blog. even if i blog about everything except transformers. sorry bro idk

#leo.txt #about #hall of famer #<- my tag for posts i like a lot and want to find easily #leo.png #leo.fic #leo.q #leo.vid #ask #sandbox!au

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littlebabycrybtch · 3 years

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footage of me tryna cope with seeing the words ‘tiktok teens faking disorders’ plastered on yet another youtube thumbnail, knowing that it is also kinda epic cringe fail of us to try and mass undiagnose strangers over social media as if not having a medical degree, a patient background, or exchanging a single word with somebody is enough for diagnostics just bc you have some 20 second vids of them, when a REAL doctor would instantly lose their license for doing that bc its horribly irresponsible and ignorant, but i cant call this behavior ableist bc everybody nowadays genuinely believes having a disorder gives them some magical radar abt it and makes them an expert on everyone ELSES experience with that disorder and not just their Own perspective, and at least 35% of the exact same ppl perpetuating this for supposedly anti-ableism reasons will 100% call my autistic ass the r word for it bc this is the performative and clearly self important tiktok brand of activism and not real activism and i just have to wait for them to realize the hard way that ‘nd community’ will always be a more beneficial focus than on trimming down smaller ‘[specific diagnosis] communities’, bc nts/ableds are the real universal problem for us and are gonna oppress us either way and the accusers are the ones making the problem worse but theyll only get it after they are eventually accused of faking by nts SOLELY bc of how THEY normalized this blind accusation behavior towards anybody who doesnt fit their restrictive predetermined ‘current medical science is set in stone’ mold they’re on, BC ALL OF THIS SHIT WAS VERY MUCH ALREADY DISCUSSED BY MY GENERATION AS ND TEENS, SO MANY YEARS AGO, AND WE SAW THE EFFECTS AND ALMOST UNANIMOUSLY AGREED THE RAMPANT ‘FAKER’ CALLOUT CULTURE IS RIDICULOUS AND HARMFUL AND WE MOVED TF ON, UNAWARE PPL WOULD EVER REVIVE IT, AND NOW IM GONNA HAVE TO WORRY ABT DEALING WITH ‘THATS NOT REAL UR FAKING’ AGAIN EVERY TIME I BEHAVE EVEN SLIGHTLY ~MORE AUTISTIC~ THAN USUAL TO THESE DUMBASS TWITTER-PHD RANDOS WHO DONT REALIZE BY RESTRICTING CERTAIN DISORDERS TO STEREOTYPES OR NATURALLY PERCIEVED BEHAVIOR AS THE ‘NECESSARY CRITERIA’ THEYRE LEGIT JUST MAKING ABLEISM 2 ELECTRIC BOOGALOO,

#tw ableism/ //#please . for the love of god like. use some deeper thought here #idk why ppl dont get how complex neurodivergency actually is and keep tryna segment it further and further but #we share experiences. we have things in common. sometimes we dont know the word for it. this Can be utterly fucking fine and benign #stop making it so restrictive lmfao you dont have to make it the specific diagnosis party it rly SHOULD be more like a 'nd' community #but that almost doesnt even exist anymore bc its ALL just specific diagnosis vibing now. dude. Dude.

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avirams · 3 years

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Could I have a kin assessment? I kin(in no particular order) Angie, Ryoma, Yasuhiro, Hiyoko, Mahiru, and (even though I don't like her) Tenko.

I may kin Akane, Sayaka, Kirigiri, Usami, and Monotaro

yep ofc, this is a pretty long list so hope i get you accurate^^

at first, you seem to generally be really chill and laidback. im not sure if youre introverted, extroverted, or somewhere in between, but either way youre pretty good at keeping your cool. sparkly.

however, you can get kinda overexcited it seems. youre generally not a very outwardly emotional person, but when youre scared, angry, annoyed etc etc everyone knows it. you seem to be a bit jumpy, and it seems youre the type to hope for the best but worry frantically about the worst.

youre probably either an only child or the eldest, and if you arent, you still recieve the responsibility and stress of one. youre probably under a lot of pressure too, and most likely forced into some kind of path you dont actually want. youre the type to be seen as mature by adults, but childish by everyone else.

no offense or anything, but people seem to assume youre,,, not on the logical side. with your exaggerated reactions to everything, emotional responses, and your seemingly lack of common sense, people dont expect too much from you.

but heres the thing; that isnt true at all. youre actually extremely cunning, and you take the fact that everyone underestimates you incredibly to your advantage. you seem to be a pretty good actor and youre skilled at guilt tripping, manipulating, and generally just getting people to believe what you want them to, all while keeping your facade up.

this is helpful to your causes, because you know what you want. you have your priorities set straight and probably wont stop at anything to get achieve your goals. even if people try to dissuade you, you seem to be exTRemely stubborn. like. really really really stubborn.

you also seem to be somewhat biased in your opinions. your stubborness comes into play here too, and unfortunately you may or may not be the type to judge based on first impressions and appearances.

this however, definitely has something to do with your deep rooted trust issues. not many people know your true cunning self, and youd like to keep it that way. underneath of your cool, sunny facade i think youre like,, severely lonely and somewhat depressed. this is a trauma list im sorry nonnie

sooo yeah!! all i can say is, even if your traumatic experiences arent as obvious, youre still valid. not everyone is out to get you, not everyone wants something from you in return for their kindness. you recieve kindness because youre a person just like everyone else and you deserve it, not because everyone is using you. its okay to be emotional, and its okay to be affected by other peoples opinions, as long as you remember that ultimately, it doesnt matter as long as you feel good with yourself 😁👍

dfkn,mvb m sorry for the callout, heres hoping its an accurate one!!

#pitter patter - kin assessment!#danganronpa kin #angie yonaga #ryoma hoshi #yasuhiro hagakure #hiyoko saionji #mahiru koizumi #tenko chabashira #akane owari #sayaka maizono #kyoko kirigiri #usami #monotaro #[HFNDGJKF SORRY FOR THE LENGTH OF THIS!!!]

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merrybandofmurderers · 3 years

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fic writer meme

tagged by @thegingerjedi thank you!! let’s go !

Name

Fandoms

Most popular multichapter

Actual worst part of writing

How you choose your titles

Do you outline

Ideas I probably won’t get around to, but wouldn’t it be nice?

Callouts @ Me

Best writing traits

Spicy Tangential Opinion

name: scottie, tho i dont mind being called queerical if a name is too familiar for you, on other social media i’m some verson of ImaginaryBomb

fandoms: this is in no way comprehensive but dragon age, atla, supernatural, the witcher, the old guard, various anime and books. fandoms that i’ve written for include dragon age, no. 6, stars wars, the kiesha’ra series. writing fanfic is not the primary way i engage with fandom, so my fics are not actually very representative of the fandoms i’m most involved in

most popular oneshot: not entirely sure how we’re measuring popularity but for independent oneshots it’s Lost Love (Is Sweeter When It’s Finally Found), and for oneshots as part of a series it’s Through The Ashes In The Sky

most popular multichapter: by far and away The Time Has Come To Be Alive (Time Will Not Unwind) but it has been going since 2018 so

actual worst part of writing: fight scenes. but also describing settings (i can never tell what is too much or too little). uhh when it comes to original stuff, i really struggle sometimes coming up with plots

how you choose your titles: okay maybe this should be listed under “worst part of writing” lmao. anyway, i either start a story knowing exactly what i want to title it or it’s the very last thing i determine. altho with fanfic you can at least use song lyrics. for my dragon age stuff, i use lines from in-game songs and codexes

do you outline: yes, altho typically i start writing a story and then formulate an outline when i figure out where it’s going. that said, an outline is more like a base structure, i don’t worry too much about following it exactly

Ideas I probably won’t get around to, but wouldn’t it be nice?: most ideas like this are for my original fic lmao and most of them are stories from back when i first started writing that ideally i’d like to revamp. maybe someday lol. for fanfic, i’m a bit more confident about eventually writing all my ideas but there are probably some that will never see the light of day (like that twilight re-write i think about every now and then)

callouts @ me: if you want to finish things, you must actually sit down and write

best writing traits: creating characters. it is literally my absolute favorite part of writing, truly i cannot express how much i love making characters, and it’s one of the things i’m most complimented on. also, while there are little things that give away that a story is mine, i think i’m pretty good at devising different styles for different stories; it’s about the ambience you know?

spicy tangential option: the absolute most valuable skill you can cultivate as a writer is self-confidence. yes even if you’re a beginner, yes even if you know there are many things you have to improve on. confidence does not mean you disregard criticism but that you are not destroyed by it; confidence means that you are not discouraged by others’ work but inspired by it. i have been writing for nearly 20 years and confidence is the most vital skill i’ve learned that has kept me writing and enjoying it

tagging @mrs-theirin, @kirkwallgremlin, and anyone else who writes, i can never remember

#not da #i mean there's some da but

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mx-casket · 4 years

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Oop yall I'm feeding you a heaping helping of trauma sandwich! Since my mom has of yet to find my tumblr I can speak freely about this bullshit!

Note I really dont want this to be a callout post these are just things that have happened recently that get under my skin. Shes very sweet to other people but it seems like to younger people she can be especially rude especially if she has an established connection to them i.e. friends of mine, me, younger working people(she wouldn't have a connection to them but she does show a pattern of being harder on younger staff) Shes gone through a divorce and I'm willing to give her the benefit of the doubt on a lot but at some point this stops being "oh! You did something out of ignorance more then likely! You didnt mean to be rude or overrate! I'm sure you'll do better next time!" To "this is what I expect from you. I expect you to be this rude off of wild assumptions and fleeting feelings." I love my Mom. But there are days I truly dont think she really genuinely thinks of me as a human with feelings. I think she views me as her. As some kind of second chance for her. As a mini me.

We're gonna go through these in no particular order. I'd prefer not forcing you to read three hundred thousand words of my mommy issues so I'll try to be striaght to the point.

Recently she made a pretty fucked up remark to me. Since I've been a wee child I have had blonde hair and my mom really favored dumb blonde jokes when I was tiny. Sometimes directed towards me. She ment fun and games I'm sure but ended up causing some bad feelings as you can imagine. Well recently she made a blonde joke in front of me again and well I really didnt take it well. I asked her not to do it again. She apologized said she wouldnt. Then out of nowhere says "dont worry honey you're actually a beautiful red head!" (She has red hair. For context she had blonde hair as a kid and it turned red over time. My hair has yet to change to red thankfully. Tho she has suggested I dye it red more then once). I told her this made me super uncomfortable. I felt like she was trying to erase a part of me. I got no apology for that.

Recently went to a cave for my birthday. They're pretty prevalent around here and I love rocks so me, my brother, my best friend and my mom all went to this cave. We're using Google Maps on my moms phone and we missed a turn. I didnt mind until mom started getting more and more angry as time went on. At one point saying "I'm already over this trip" really fucking rudely. It made me feel awful. I tried to make sure the whole trip she was okay. I tried my best. But I still feel like I failed. And I really just feel like a piece of shit for not picking something closer and something that we all knew. I'm scared to take anymore trips with her that are over an hour long. She freaked out as soon as one thing went wrong and fuck man. That hurt. Felt like she didnt want to enjoy that trip. But then said she enjoyed it so much. Kinda ruined the whole experience for me :/

This one other people might agree with her on but I feel its important for me to put this in here. Personally I dont enjoy wearing bras. They're itchy, they never fit well, they cut into me ect. Ect. So I stopped wearing bras after quarantine started felt much better. Not only about my self image but felt a lot freer and not to mention more comfortable. And she recently has shown a distaste for my decision. She asked me "why dont you wear bras anymore" and I explained they were uncomfortable. She told me that when I started going to college again I'll have to start wearing them again. Now mom has never gone to college and this statement just came outta the blue. I've never heard anyone on my college campus say there was a rule against not wearing bras but alright mom. And her reasoning for this line of thought? "Well when I was in school a girl wasnt wearing a bra and had a white tank top on and she got sent home". Now gamers, I am 21 years of age. Going to college. And no where in the year and a half of me going to college has anyone giving a mcfuck about a tittie being out under a shirt. My response? Let me ask you something, am I in highschool? "No" am I wearing a white shirt rn? "No" theres the flaw in your logic. And what was her reaction to her daughter who would know much more about what the rules of a college campus considering shes gone to college??? "We'll see" in a very matter of fact tone. Like???????????????? You'll see what?????? Me not wearing a bra in front of my professors and no one caring because we're adults and we understand bras arent necessary for me to be see in public?????

Thank you dear reader for getting to the end of my bitch feast! I'm probably gonna worry about her finding my tumblr now. But even if see reads this I think I'm okay with that. It's not that I'm surprised by this anymore. I'm not surprised when these things happen but like can you not plz????? I just wanna live my life with some good vibes. And that's hard to do when all you give me are bad ones. I wanna include you in my life! I love you! But I have to spend mass amounts of my time avoiding you because being around you makes me feel awful. If feels like with every bit of negativity you're sinking me a little further down.

Maybe I just shouldn't take it so personally. I dont really know anymore.

#deep talk #mommy issues #i need therapy #am i crazy or is this actually much worse the i think it is?#i cant tell

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