Marauders’ House ! Jegulus au
TW: anxiety/depression mentions (briefly), family trauma, not-too-important (nor loved) death character(s), substance “abuse” (non explicit, briefly).
“As It Was” is the lead single from the third album called Marauders’ House, where it seems like Black sings in a somewhat sorrowful voice about his bittersweet feelings of loneliness and the past, masking it with synths and an upbeat sound reminiscent of music from the ‘80s. After the announce was out, Black tweeted:
“It just feels like the thing I wanted to say, the moment I needed, the freedom I always deserved. I’m back back Black ;)”
see here the lyrics.
15:36 p.m.
To Reggie <3:
“ There’s this song I wrote. It’s not out yet, will be soon. Hope it can reach you before it gets released.
Talk to me
Please? ”
*Voice Memo.New_Single_As_It_Was*
The first time Sirius talked to a therapist was when his dad died. He felt so conflicted, mainly because he didn’t felt anything at all. He dealt with his “lost” so calmly and the grieving was nothing but easy for him.
Regulus, on the other hand, was a mess. Such as, he took a whole year off acting and followed his brother’s band around the world.
It helped him heal, the touring and having his big brother.
But when their mom died, everything shifted, Sirius felt a part of him died with her.
Maybe it was the trauma, the new feeling or the panic that his mother would haunt him in his dreams again. So Sirius decided it was for his own best to lock himself up in his big apartment with only Remus around and write the most raw lyrics he had ever written.
With a high upbeat repeating in his head, he wrote down his troubles and fears, how all the memories came back when he slept even though they were not the same. How nothing was as it was.
Answer the phone
"Sirius, you're no good alone
Why are you sittin' at home on the floor?
What kind of pills are you on?"
Ringin' the bell
And nobody's comin' to help
Your brother lives by himself
He just wants to know that you're well, oh
And oh Regulus, his little brother tried so hard to be there for him. Texting him constantly, trying to show up at his and Remus’ apartment, reaching out to the rest of the boys only to check up on him.
But Regulus was grieving too.
So after a few days, he stopped trying.
And after a month, Sirius became whole again.
His brother was still missing, and he couldn’t find enough strength to look at him and apologise. Instead, he wrote his brother an apology letter in the shape of a song.
Later that same day, Sirius invited the boys over for a movie night, to watch Sirius’ comfort movies, eating fast food and drinking cheap beer.
They were singing to Mamma Mia! when the apartment bell rang, startling the four of them. Peter paused the movie for a second but none of them moved, and the bell rang again.
“You go, James” said Sirius, snatching the TV remote from Peter’s hands, earning himself a hair pull from Peter and a glaring from Remus.
But, only because James was such a good friend (and the closest to the door), he stood up and walked over to open up right after the bell rang for a third time, finding Regulus’ teary eyes and his phone held up.
“Reg?” asked Sirius standing up from his couch, movie paused once again.
C’mon Sirius, we want to say goodnight to you!
The intro of As It Was was the only response Regulus had, right after brushing past James and standing right infront of his brother.
“Is that Dora?” the younger Black asked.
“It is” Sirius answered.
“Are you done avoiding me?”
“I’m sorry, Reg”
Regulus stared for a little longer at his brother’s eyes. “I needed you, Sirius.”
“I needed space”
Regulus looked hurt, but nodded after a while. He held his brother’s face with both hands and smiled with sadness in his eyes. “ I know. I still missed you”
That was enough for Sirius to crack and pull his little brother into a hug, sobbing in his shoulder.
“Wanker” whispered Regulus holding his brother up, crying too.
In this world, it's just us
You know it's not the same as it was
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