#especially with some of the ppl i have to deal with

[hollowslantern]

I'm glad that people have made posts analyzing shuro because those posts are actually what made me change my mind on him. I think it's easy especially for me and other autistic ppl to see that scene and go oh ok fuck this guy and his whole deal but that is um. not the point. he isn't a 2d ableism cardboard cutout he's just a guy who had a personality & cultural clash with some other guy and that hurts but it happens and it doesn't make anyone evil. lay down and think about that.

[qweenexplosionmurder]

sometimes the little voice in my head tells me "you're acting like bakugo on season 1" and then i immediately chill the fuck down

#sometimes that behavior is more than understandable tbh tho...... #especially with some of the ppl i have to deal with #but im also not gonna be a little bitch about like s1 bakugo katsuki #fuck that little bitch #i love him tho #me 🐸

[scamoosh]

this is gonna sound whiny but nonbinary ppl can immediately tell when u just see them as their agab jsyk👍 its just frustrating 2 b surrounded by other queer ppl and even in those communities without fail if i make any comment abt period cramps or having worked in childcare or shit like that theres an Immediate shift to like oh okay ur actually a Girl got it . like . there was anothr nonbinary person i used 2 kno who had zero problem using the right pronouns for me until they heard how high my voice was on a call once ☠️

#this isnt targeted its just a vent #idk its just annoying. like i can get away w painting my nails but i feel like thats bc #its trendy in niche communities now for cis boys to do it #and i hate feeling like my masculinity is constantly being stacked next to like . the pillars of cis man and cis woman #like . idk im probably not articulating this v well #like . especially as somebody who thinks of themselves as transmasc but doesnt want top surgery its annoying bc that alone #means i lose legitimacy 2 some of the queer ppl i try 2 talk 2 abt gender stuff with #and beyond that #the stupidass responses ive gotten to telling ppl i dont ever rlly plan on coming out to my family #like girl.... i cannot be the first person uve met who doesnt have a safe or comfortable environment to be transgender jn???? #and beyond that i dont think its that big a deal that i dont ever come out like . officially #the ppl i care abt know and they see me the way i want so thats enough for me #but in like . largely lgbt online spaces thats where it gets frustrating #like we r supposed 2 b beyond defining gender solely on stereotypes and tit size #tw transphobia #like not rlly but jic it makes anybody uncomfy #thank u that is all #SORRY FOR BEIN CRANKY FIRST THING IN THE MORNING 😵😵 love and light etc #its not like a huge deal either its just smth that gets frustrating specifically in spaces full of ppl that u have some expectations #of understanding from #sorry if this is like complete nonsense LOL

[snekdood]

if ppl telling you "jewish ppl in israel were already kicked out of other countries and have no where else to go" makes you feel compelled to call whoever said that a "zionist", I really just dont think you give af about jewish ppl's lives quite frankly.

if your "free palestine" means "getting rid" of all jewish civilians in israel I think you're probably just a heartless asshole.

#two state solution ftw #or at least something along those lines #yelling at average jewish ppl who ARENT in israel is antisemitic #anti semitism- no matter how 'big of a deal' you think it is naturally makes jewish ppl feel unsafe by default #where do they go when theres nowhere else thats safe? you guessed it- probably to israel. #which is WHAT netanyahu wants. he wants scared controllable civilians to think hes the only one who can protect them #so you being anti semitic and not checking yourself on it or being 'whatever its nbd' about it is making everything so much worse #STOP BEING SO FUCKING APATHETIC FUCK ILL BEAT YOU UP TO MAKE YOU FEEL SOMETHING IF I HAVE TO #i dont feel like i can in good conscious reblog your 'free palestine' posts bc idk wtf the op thinks about jewish ppl being in #israel. and at this point i dont have faith in leftists to not notice the antisemitism in some of these ppl and call it out #its not something we can 'push aside and deal with and apologize for later' its ACTIVELY MAKING THE SITUATION WORSE AND NEEDS #TO BE ADDRESSED RIGHT THE FUCK NOW #maybe jewish ppl wouldnt be calling it 'self defense' if yall didnt keep being antisemitic and making them feel like they have to cling #to israel to stay tf alive. fuck. #OBVIOUSLY the response to what hamas did is disproportionate and affecting more people than israel says it intends to target #but thats the govt. and actual regular people are worried about their families. its disproportionate and probably being used as an excuse #to genocide palestinians but this wouldnt be happening if hamas didnt basically GIVE the israeli govt the excuse to do it. #free palestine. from hamas and from the israeli govt. and dont have genocidal intent toward jewish ppl. #thats all i want. #hamas' escalation did nothing but hurt everyone and make things worse especially for palestinians.

[spamsandsuch]

In my mind i dont think swatch necessarily hates spamton but spamton does think they hate him

#spamton #spamtonposting #swatch #swatchposting #in a sense i feel like spamton just thinks everybody hates them due to its circumstances and is extremely distrustful/disdainful to others #as a result #and especially hates ppl like swatch and the adds for believing them to be fake friends #(i include swatch in this cuz of the sweepstakes q&a) #but would swatch hold the same amount of contempt for spamton? To me not really #I think its more so that swatch is just uncomfortable around spamton due to its actions #And due to swatches personality is often annoyed by spamtons actions as well #Thought that doesnt necessarily equate to swatch hating him (or in my fanon at least… though even from a canon standpoint #i feel like swatch is more so annoyed and uncomfortable with spamton rather than actively despises them) #i think in afttp they would get more on friendly terms and become acquaintances after talking through their issues together #(but who knows i might make them friends eventually too? who knows..) #my headcanons #also sorry for not posting as much lately i got a new job recently and just been dealing w/ some personal stuff #to the point where i forget i can just posts my ruminating dr thoughts (which i used to do more often and i feel a lil bad for not doing so #as much now) #anyway thats all i dont have much else to say lol

[bylertruther]

smth abt eddie telling dustin to look after the little sheep -> s5 is going to return to s1 form -> dustin tells mike in s1 that his obliviousness blows his mind -> the whole painting & confession & obvious general fiasco that is willelmike -> dustin's going to have to put on his bob the builder / "the world is full of obvious things which nobody by any chance ever observes" sherlock holmes hat and get involved

#byler #do i think he's going to go “Dude You Are GAYYYYYYYYY”? no. but i do think he'd go “🤨 why are u guys being weird.” in some way which is #what tips over the first domino in the series of events #maybe . wishful thinking? mayhaps . but im Free #i also wouldnt be opposed to steve saying smth to jonathan which makes him go 🤨😳😦🫢 #but i think ppl very much downplay dustin's role in the group and the support he offers his friends and how observant and “nosy” he is #and things are going to be much different now if they continue like how we left off ... so u don't think dustin would notice? #and u don't think tht he'd say something? esp when he had to deal with mike being an el stan + his obliviousness to others and their #jealousy over him? especially with him now being the character tht everyone wishes would shut up lmao? or with how #close he was to mike before he went to cali and how he had to take his place in his absence? #there's a million ways it could to obvi and i really don't have an expectation any which way but . #with tht latest least fave poll........ it jus made me think abt how a lot of people jus . really forget he exists #which is so crazy bc he stays in everyones business LMAO #but anyway . #she be rambling #and on mobile top so u already know im not rereading this if its incoherent its incoherent 🤷‍♀️ #omg the typos... >_> you guys know wht i Mean . #mine #s5 predictions

[tricksterlatte]

The Online Fandom 7 Deadly Sins

sloth: complaining about how no one writes the tropes or pairings you like and bashing what's already out there, while refusing to create anything you desire yourself

greed: zine and other finance-related scandals with zero remorse for those negatively affected

gluttony: spending rent money on merch, experiencing buyer's remorse, then repeating the same process next month

wrath: anon hate over literally everything under the sun, even harassing official writers and threatening them if they don't make your ship canon

pride: devaluing other's characterizations and ships to praise yours as better, whether through a canon perspective or a moral perspective, when neither matter in the long run when it comes to your own enjoyment

envy: trash talking others' fandom creations or saying you won't bother creating anything because it'll never be as good as them

lust: fighting over who tops or bottoms because of your personal preferences when one, both, or neither could happen, especially when most of these characters never even kiss canonically nor have most people fighting done any of these things irl themselves

#parker says things #i'm not exempt I've definitely done a few of the things listed #especially pride and envy god those really go hand in hand and it's sad #but seriously...guys does any of this matter in the long run #just have fun #if someone is having fun in a way that clashes with your own type of enjoyment just hit da bricks! #that guy's got horns! well not gonna ruin my day! #live like Yusuke guys #i've been afk because I'm dealing with some intense depression but fandom has actively hurt more than helped me #and I know plenty of ppl myself included think discussion of meta is enjoyable but I think things reach a point where it's only stewing #the inherent focus on adhering to a singular strict perspective is toxic to ourselves in the long run #have fun! be self indulgent #almost everything posted is gonna be ooc to some people even if it's 100 percent accurate to others #and just in general idk I think we should focus on fandom as a sense of fun instead of a marketing ploy #most of us are not here to make fanart or writing a career #I'm not really a community person and I've learned that the hard way over a decade and more #but i just hope people will find what sparks joy and enjoy themselves again #I don't think I'll be active in fandoms much anymore as I focus more on my personal life and recover from some things #but I wish everyone much love and hope for the best for people #even if we've had some bad interactions I do not wish ill upon anyone #i got off topic but these tags are just me saying I'll stick to lurking publicly and replying to my DMs and writing in private #will still post some things to my AO3!! maybe #anyways tag yourself I'm a recovering glutton/envy

[ahaura]

not to jinx it but :-) it's july so that means this is the longest i've had a blog since i first remade (8ish months) <3

#ahvañe #this may seem like an insignificant detail but if you know my lore then you KNOW 8 months is CRAZY!!! #i have been described as 'remakes like she's on the most wanted list' on multiple occasions n #that has to do with neurotic tendencies that come out when im in a bad way and the only way i can cope and exercise #a modicum of control in my life is on the digital end of things. hence remaking blogs #im not sure if its bec the therapy is finally kicking in or if its bec im getting older or What #my neurotic tendencies may have been curbed by getting nerfed out of the blue HOWEVER #my blog tends to reflect how im doing IRL and this year has definitely been brutal in different ways #some better some worse than last year but these things happen. n idk. it feels nice to be comfortable w it. #it's v v easy to not see progress w urself especially when ur dealing with shit in real time and shit piles on #but things HAVE changed and i think im getting better at. like. life? idk. but anyway #ive lost contact w some ppl over the years but ive also met some wonderful people too #n im jusr grateful to be in a better place than i used to be. especially compared to [counts on fingers] 7 years ago. #NYway if ur reading this! i love u. im glad i exist<3

[gu6chan]

Reading through 2017 ship discourse rn and it's funny as hell bc someone will be like "stop fetishising my trauma" and nine out of ten times it's like girl they're not fetishising YOUR trauma, they're fetishising their own 😭

#gu6chan's musings #i said something earlier about how some ppl with triggers will go into public fandom spaces and expect everyone to accommodate them #this is largely the same thing i feel; especially in assuming they're the only one who was ever hurt in any way possible because girl..... #not taking into consideration the fact the person you're talking to may have ALSO dealt with (insert trauma here) and is dealing with it in #their own way why are you talking to them like what makes you upset is their business or hell; even their FAULT #'fetishising my trauma' is probably one of the worst phrases conceived in the already ridiculous proship/anti debate since why are you #saying that like they're out to get your personally lmao

[cryptcatz]

tbh sometimes i consider being a youtuber who makes primarily disability related content but then i remember how disabled youtubers/etc. get treated and am like actually nevermind <3

#i have a list of topics i’d cover and stuff but bleh. i don’t wanna deal with ppl analyzing me trying to prove im a faker or smthn #cuz clearly EVERY disabled person on social media is a faker (sarcasm) #as a specific subreddit seems to think anyways… #personal #like sure service dog could bring ppl in cuz Cute Dog and then they get educated and made aware of stuff but is it worth the harassment #the harassment that every disabled person deals with to some degree but especially content creators? #idk just some thoughts #disability #actuallydisabled #chronic illness #spoonie #actuallychronicallyill #chronically I’ll

[skrunksthatwunk]

hey real quick bc i haven't seen anyone really talk about it; fuck Hoarders. what a disgusting fucking show. like i know a lotta content boils down to "let's gawk at mentally ill or poor or whatever ppl" but this one specifically really peels my paint. it's sickening. let's spend an hour walking around someone's house and going "wow!! look how fucked this is!!! i can't believe you live like this (despite having done like 13 seasons of this)!!!! you really need to get your act together, buster!" and then interviewing the family to get sound bites demonstrating how much of an Unreasonable Burden the subject is and (without actually helping any of the mental health issues that may lead someone to hoard) roll their eyes at them when they are upset at someone taking and trashing/destroying their precious belongings (or are made to do it themselves). and then half the time in the where are they now segment it's like "yeah they relapsed lol idk ¯\_(ツ)_/¯" like??? no shit dumbass.

i don't care how strange their homes or habits are. these people are deserving of compassion and real, honest help. they don't need people to marvel at how Kooky Wacky Bonkers™ they are, and they don't need people to hurt them just because they don't understand what they see in their possessions or are embarrassed by knowing them or whatever.

we don't need another voyeuristic savior-complex charade where the condition for The Most Half-Assed Help You've Ever Seen is being publicly humiliated and having to destroy things that mean a lot to you. what the fuck.

#a lotta these situations involve actual danger for the subject or their dependents so like getting rid of stuff is sometimes necessary #but just taking the rug out from under them without additional support isnt gonna help anyone longterm #and mocking them on national television certainly isnt either #like if someone's keeping dead cats in their freezer i feel like there are more constructive ways of dealing with that than 'lol' or #'youre a disgusting freak and we're gonna display that to everyone and also not help you fuck you etc' #like. god. #im not arguing the subjects are all saints or whatever either btw but they deserve to be treated like human beings #like?? forcing someone to destroy or throw out most of their posessions and mocking them for being emotional about it is cruel #it's no less cruel just because you dont get why theyre attached to those things #maybe it's even ESPECIALLY cruel because of the nature of hoarding #it's so dehumanizing #and idc if some of the subjects have been helped by being on hoarders. ppl could just help w/o mocking them and they could do a better job #if the show helps ppl it's on accident. the purpose is to watch and revel in it. in how stubborn and deluded people can be. in how much #better we are than them. in how just the hosts' disregard for their feelings is. etc. fucking repulsive #it's a dr phil situation imo #anyway my parents used to watch it a few years back and it's always bothered me that their chill sunday entertainment was. this shit. #and the subjects' faces when they see the cleared out house is almost always so.. strained. #i think it's a part of a broader problem with this kinda content and its fetishization of the reality check #to them the feelings of the deluded person don't matter because they annoy or inconvenience their peers #hence the 'i can't believe you care about this garbage' mentality of the show. even if that care comes from illness those feelings are real #so to force them through step 8 of a recovery process before steps 1-7 and then insult them for not recovering is just. god. #i hate it i hate it so much

[welcometogrouchland]

I am gripping you by the shoulders and begging you to listen when I tell you teens want to be outside so bad. We want to be outside so fucking bad you have no idea

#ramblings of a lunatic #WE DON'T LIKE STAYING INDOORS ON SCREENS ALL DAY EVERYDAY ITS NOT FUN IT DOESN'T FEEL GOOD #yes there are exceptions and yes we like to do it more than previous generations but by god if it doesn't take a toll on your mental health #AND WE KNOW THIS BTW. WE'RE COMPLETELY FUCKING AWARE OF THIS FACY #*fact #but it's like. there's such a lack of options sometimes #like for example- i live in a pretty small town. walkable but not without some effort #there's no shopping centre (mall for americans) and maybe 3 parks (one of which is up a hill on the far side of town) #there are community centers but they're underfunded and don't cater to teens- especially not as casual hangout spaces #so like. unless you corall all your friends into one persons house (me and my friends generally go out in a group of 8-10 ppl- #-so while going to one persons house is doable it's not the most convenient and again this a small town. lots of the houses are small too) #or are willing to hangout at a park (a place where there's generally going to be young children and their parents- #-which isn't a deal-breaker by any means but can make kids feel like intrusions or even be perceived as sketchy) #(this is generally what me and my friends have to come to terms with everytime we hangout since we usually do it in the park) #then like. where the hell do you go?? yknow?????? #also plenty of my friends live in rural areas where it's a 20 or 30 minute drive into town and only one of us has his license #all this to say #I'd really love to see some statistics on what the hangout habits of kids from different living areas is like #because i have a feeling that kids who grow up in big relatively walkable cities with public transit and nice hangout spots #are getting out of the house a lot more often than a bunch of lower and middle class teens scattered across rural country spaces- #-and a town with little to no space for them to just exist without doing some kind of activity to justify their presence #this isn't even touching on helicopter parenting that prevents kids from being independent #anyway yeah i wish i was not on my phone so much i enjoy life better when I'm not on it but. god does not love me so <3

[tacit-semantics]

This is mostly nonsense and I've mentioned it before, but I was thinking about dirk's mechanical splinters as an act of (ironically) outsourced self-regulation brought about by a) a complete mistrust of himself and b) a desire to compartmentalize and understand, in line with his aspect. As in, it's outright mentioned within the context of his interactions with Hal that dirk does not consider himself above his own manipulation, and as such has fostered a split within himself wherein he feels he has to view and process his actions outside of the context he is performing them in so as to be sure that they're not, well. Completely fucked. And see, observation like this would (in theory) be much easier if he could physically separate himself from his actions and as such understand them through the lens of the bystander; to act without assuming the consequences, like a simulation. Of course, this doesn't work in practice for a number of reasons, especially because at its core it's an attempt to do everything all by himself again. It's like baby's first attempt at playing at judge, jury, and executioner, all at once.

#this is nonsense but it makes sense in my head i promise i swear #having a lot of trouble putting this one into words especially since there are so many potential interpretations of this particular #phenomenon within canon and the way that my brain works makes me want to deal in every possibility all at once its a whole thing. That said #I hope this is understandable even if just as 'wow those are definitely some thoughts that a person is capable of having in the dirk tag' #dirk strider #homestuck #meta #tacit rambles #the irony here is that i use dirk meta to do something similar with myself like this is like two steps away from being a vent post #eh. we carry on regardless. #also as a longtime and very enthusiastic peruser (is that a word) of the dirk tag I can say with relative confidence that ppl don’t tend to #talk about him like this unless they’re venting at least a little so I guess that was pretty obvious anyways #ah shit just realized that in the same vein i should probably throw this under #ocd dirk

[mx-misty-eyed]

i am so confused

#don’t rb #so like. there’s definitely something wrong with my brain #or multiple things most likely #and i’m trying to figure out what specifically it is #but it’s hard bc i’m kinda hesitant to self diagnose #all for informed self diagnosis ofc but im just doubting myself/have an internalized/irrational fear that i’m faking everything #especially since my therapist keeps diminishing stuff that i tell her #and i asked her to do a screening for ocd and she never did and idk if she forgot or she just didn’t believe me/think it was a big enough #deal where it’s worth getting tested or whatever #and also with the self diagnosis a lot of the stuff that i’m wondering whether or not i have has overlapping symptoms with other stuff #so idk how to differentiate/figure out what it actually is #like i’m fairly sure i have ocd depression and adhd #and prob anxiety too #(apparently it’s not normal to have a set of words that you repeat over and over in your head to calm yourself down) #but also it’s possible some of the stuff i’m experiencing is a sign of bpd and/or bipolar (more likely bpd i think but it could be bipolar) #and also i’m thinking it might be possible i have osdd? either 1a or 1b i’m not really sure #like i feel like i have kinda different personalities for school and home and stuff like that #but idk if that’s just a normal thing where you act differently around different people #<- like obv that’s a thing a lot of ppl experience i think but idk if the extent to which i’m experiencing it would make it osdd #but also idk? it’s possible i have osdd-1b #idk how likely any of this is but #like idk how to describe it #but i think the description sounds mildly accurate at least #like i def don’t have amnesia #and idk #like it’s possible that it’s different system members but #i also don’t know if that’s a thing that’s up for debate? #like if it was then i feel like it would be more apparent #that there’s different system members and stuff #rest of the tags got fucked up check replies

[termitesisagrandslam]

my dad is weirdly critical of customer service ppl. not to their faces, he's always polite to them, but if someone is like, aloof or not super attentive or not 100% "professional" in some way, afterwards he'll complain about it and i want to strangle him. it's especially annoying since HE has worked in customer service his entire life, that's been all his jobs, so it's ridiculous he holds everyone to such a high standard.

#my sister and i have a theory #most of his jobs he's been an expert in some capacity #so he's interacting w customers but bc he has specific talents said customers are coming to the store for #they tend to treat him with more respect than customers will treat a regular customer service person at like a supermarket or a restaurant #also he's a cishet white guy #not that they never have to deal with shitty customers (i know he has) but like #but he's mentioned his female coworker getting more shit than him at the store they work at despite them having the same expertise #also tbh i feel like he is more critical of women than men or at least i have more memories of him being like 'she wasnt very friendly' #idk i was done with it even before i worked customer service now im like im not gonna listen to u badmouth this person #when my mom was there and says they were fine just not especially helpful or engaged #really really sick of how judgmental he is #my sister and him are both like that but my sister has more awareness and has gotten way better #and she's worked enough waitressing and bartending jobs that i doubt she's ever that critical of customer service ppl #at least i havent heard that from her #he's just such a crank sometimes. more and more these days #ok rant over

[monsterbisexual]

smth abt how my chronic pain is p much predictable so its easier to live w it every day but then its way scarier n harder to handle when its a new pain or smth sudden/random etc

btw my tumblr app is fucking w me as usual n i cant make my posts unrebloggable so ill just say here like dont thx

#heads up this is abt me falling while walking my dog n it making me cry lets not get too deep here #but idk i mean when its pain that is always there in some capacity so im used to it n even when its worse i can #kinda know when/why n deal w that too like after i work especially n even the next morning a bit too its extra worse #but when i dont expect it or its a random sudden w/e thing its harder to maybe prepare for? #or like. idk #sometimes i wonder if unless its rly bad ppl know abt it otherwise cuz i like to think i have a handle on like #how to act/seem which gets harder the worse it is n then when theres other factors like work stress or smth #its a bit harder to seem fine cuz it takes like effort #or maybe its rly not this deep at all n i just have a rly low pain tolerance actually #but can hide it n feel it quietly? hmmm #cuz ive like teared up n stuff gettin some of the piercings ive had n obvs i knew it was coming n id had it done before #so idk w/e #ow #p