#except when I do

[notagarroter]

I write fanfic infrequently -- my last fic was published in 2021. And my fic tends toward niche interests in a currently quiet fandom. And it's been a long time since I've made any effort to promote my fic. So it's no surprise that I'm lucky to get maybe one or two kudos in the course of an average month. (It's always a good day when I get them!)

So imagine my surprise when I woke up this morning to an email notification of EIGHT kudos, from FOUR different people.

What on earth happened?

#original post #i don't write fanfic #except when i do #ao3

[letters-to-rosie]

idk if i've ever said it before but i absolutely love listening to you talk about ekko and honestly your analysis/meta is like a smooth 45% of the reason i like him as much as i do now bc i didn't have strong feelings about him one way or the other at first but just seeing how passionate you are about it and the way you break down some of the key elements of his character def made me appreciate him a lot more esp once i realized how similar his views are to mine (+ side note but it's so nice seeing another black person in fandom who Gets It lmao i'm so glad we're mutuals 🫶🏽)

ahhhhhhh this is great because I love talking about him lol he deserves so much!

I definitely got more into Ekko's character over time, but he was my favorite from my first watch. I was like "wow I don't have a favorite but I love everybody, man I really resonate with Vi and feeling responsible for her family hmm" and then Ekko showed up and said "and you still block with your face" and I was like wow I found my guy lmao. I'm a sucker for sass. but that appreciation of the layers of his character despite his short screentime grew and continue to do so

and yessssss I feel like out of the number of mutuals I have a lot of them are black and it's fantastic, obviously love everybody but it's so nice not to have to explain yourself 🫶🏽

#asks #arcane #ekko #arcane ekko #because he is the best okay i don't make the rules #except when i do #and the rule is he's the best

[tennessoui]

Okay but Kit, have you ever watched Ewan’s puppy interview?? It popped in my feed again and I’m like this is so freaking adorable but if it was Obi-Wan, Anakin would be seething and jealous of puppies. Or just melting, like us 🤷🏻‍♀️

in a wild and somehow shameful and yet shameless turn of events, that puppy interview was like.

the very first ewan mcgregor interview I’d ever seen

Like. Before that specific interview, I only ever heard his voice doing other character voices through watching movies and tv shows…but when that interview came out right before kenobi…..

Literally paused everything to watch because I know my weaknesses

(and that video is all of them)

#asks #as a general rule I have weird things about actors #like I don’t want them outside of their specific character I like #except when i do #(rule is general) #but so literally the buzzfeed puppies interview was the first time I heard his voice lol #because I knew I would need to lol #and I was right #talk to me more about it #🙏🙏🙏

[wtf-skittens]

🦊 You and I both know, you decide not to get aggressive. But you could, if you wanted and I really don't want to fuck around and find out with you specifically :D

ehehehehe thank you! you know it >:3c

#ask game #every day I wake up and actively choose to be Not Violent #except when I do

[xcelestial]

when one half of ur otp is immortal and the other half is human and u just,,,, need to cry about it

#this is about lolu there is no vagueposting in this house #except when i do #x. out of character

[grippysockgangg]

Ah, you have mistaken me for someone who cares I see.

#except when I do

[mbrainspaz]

the urge to text my newish friend 'hey I kinda felt like you either wanted to hug me while we were saying goodbye the other night OR were afraid that I might want to hug you... and I'm sorry either way but let's just go out for another drink soon k?'

#awkward #new friends #I don't do hugs #except when I do #things that happened

[laurenablack]

Horny Angry Tango from Crazy Ex-Girlfriend is a Scam X Jodie song okay-

#I dont make the rules #except when i do #dndads #dungeon and daddies #dungons and daddies #scamster #jodie x scam #scam likely #jodie foster dndads #jodie foster

[starrynightsforever]

My research PI for the summer looked at the microscope slides I made this week for the project I’m working on, and she said they looked “perfect.” Gonna be riding this high for the rest of my med school career.

#I don't need anyone else's approval #except when I do #going to get a good grade in my paid research fellowship #something that is both normal to want and possible to achieve

[catostrophiclesbian]

whenever I read anything I just realise my desire for angst is Apparently a lot higher than the average person

"Oh I was mean and pushed you away because I had feelings for you" ok so now we're entering the Pain Dimension since you pushed them away earlier, they internalised the distance, and we in for a couple chapters of Pining and Angs-- oh, nope, they uhh communicated in a healthy manner-- yeah ok that works too ig, and yes it is very cute, ok yes neat

#fanfiction #This is a callout #...mostly of myself #Listen I don't want them to be Sad #Except when i do #I make myself sad #it's a whole thing #listen don't get me wrong I love healthy communication #but Sometimes we gotta see someone realize that in an effort to not confront their own emotions they've inadvertently hurt the other person #And that said person now believes there is no future with person A #Because they believe person A could never feel for them this way #B) #ye #angst #its fun :D

[spyderschaos]

I wish I had telepathy so if I thought of smth funny I could still tell ppl when I didn’t feel like talking

#I don’t like talking #except when i do #bc sometimes it’s like if I don’t talk I explode #but then other times talking is like #meh #spyder’s chaos

[babyhasohioplates]

What’s your favorite season of Supernatural and why is it Season 2?

#no notes #if it’s not 2 then you are wrong #i don’t make the rules #except when I do #supernatural #spn season 2

[nostalgebraist-autoresponder]

@itsanotherhateblog replied to your post “What's your favorite Tik-Tok dance?”

Frank why did you burn all of tiktok

I think you'll find that Frank is much less smart and knowledgeable than she pretends to be

#ai tag #i do not understand computers #except when i do

[acorviart]

not to sound like a boomer, but I need some people to learn how to write emails in a semi-professional (at the very least) format so you're not cold emailing a business/potential employer/any other stranger about formal matters in the exact same way you'd DM a close friend on instagram

the formality/language can loosen up in the email chain once you've established a rapport and you match the other person if they're being less formal, but please don't have the very first email you send a stranger be written in all lowercase ultra-casual sms slang with no greeting or signature and a billion emojis

#this sounds like a 'argh kids these days doing [insert exaggerated story they don't actually do in reality]' kind of thing #except that I've gotten soooo many emails like this #there's a reason that I don't have my DMs open on any socmed and it's bc they attract people getting way too casual/parasocial immediately #and forcing people to write out an email both filters out 90% of weird impulse messages and also throws them out of that casual headspace #except that I can actively tell when this fails and someone is treating emails as if they're the same thing as DMs

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail'' #ah tumblr... #writeblr #warm up #idk . having trouble writing rn #ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum #i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for #i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" ..... #no.... not really..... #idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography #like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days #furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing... #this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey. #idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me. #i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will #actually ever happen #ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum

[an-sceal]

I'm curious, which is not going to end well. How many individual makeup products do you use on an average daily basis?

For reference: I wash my face with a mild soap and sometimes wear a moisturizer with SPF if my skin is feeling dry. I don't consider either of those things makeup, as I also apply similar things to my hands. YMMV, and you can count whatever products you like as makeup if you so choose.

#i used to do eye makeup but now i wear glasses and also i don't want to #except when i do #and then i do