#fucking tired of people ruining shit for me

[davekat-sucks]

imisshomestuck popping off with the jake meta, damn

i agree completely, but also this paragraph

"Unhappy endings are better because of that. Fuck that. That's not why people read stories. People read them to see the ideal, to feel the potential of a character and then later see their faith and hope be rewarded. Reading a fictional story shouldn't be like gambling where you hope the writer ends up closing a characters story well and having them turn into the best version of themselves. Why do so many writers have the idea that reality always ends up being shitty and disappointing! Stories should too! It's like that stupid Mad at Disney song. We should all be bitter and nihilistic. The 1990s nihilism trend did a number to these mother fuckers. They think that trying is pointless and flaws are weights around our ankles that make it impossible to win the race of lie."

yes holy shit im so fucking TIRED of nihilism in stories, yet it seems its all i can find in everything nowadays (example: GOT, that was ass and im tired of pretending otherwise, all the good interesting main characters dying triggered my homestuck ptsd). and i fucking hate how this garbage webcomic has ruined my perception of character interaction for me forever because nothing comes even close! and all i get in fanworks is davekat uwu shit or discourse! im so fucking pissed! i hate hussie, hiveswap, the epilogues and hsbc and this idiotic fucking nu fandom!

someone send some book/shows/manga recs plz

in exchange i can give some too, if you like homestucks minimalist art style give alex toths works a try, his artbooks in particular are great. invader zim, irkens is where hussie stole the trolls and alternia from. also emily the strange, the maxx (1993), sam & max. for manga, lupin iii is fun.

There is only such much nihilism I can take before it becomes annoying that we get it, everything fucking sucks. Worse if said media tells me that I'm an idiot for even caring for watching/reading the series in the first place. At this point, it makes one question then who the hell you are writing for at this point if you slap the audience in the face and purposely make yourself feel like shit. As for series: Smiling Friends, Mashle: Muscles and Magic, Crayon Shin-chan, Gintama, Sgt. Frog/Keroro Gunsou,

[threadsun]

Hey real quick request:

Can yall try to be normal about sex work and nonmonogamy/people who aren't virgins?

The number of asks I get that censor sex work related terms, use outdated and offensive terms, and act like it's something secret and to be ashamed of is unacceptable. Sex work is work. We don't keep random VHS copies of our own pornos in our houses. We aren't "spoiled" or "ruined" because we have sex with colleagues for the camera, and it's not something that should inspire jealousy in any reasonable person. I will never make the boys anything but fully supportive of sex work, and I will not change my Joseph's backstory as a full service survival sex worker just because it "ruins him for you". Grow the fuck up and be normal about the fact that even if you personally are a virgin, not everyone is and that doesn't make them incapable/unworthy of love or devotion or commitment. Casual sex is not abnormal or something you need to psychoanalyse a character about. Just. Please be normal about sex and sex work, all you're doing is making yourself look like an asshole.

#sunshine #I'm tired of waking up every other day to weird and offensive asks about reader or the boys doing sex work #I'm tired of people trying to psychoanalyse Jean for occasionally having casual sex before he met his sweetheart #I'm tired of people acting like virginity is an important thing or a measure of worth #I'm tired of people acting like a character ever having had sex with anyone else ever somehow ruins them #I'm tired of monogomy being seen as a requirement for full devotion and true love (and yanderes) #just get your shit together and stop projecting your weird virginity and purity bullshit onto me #you just look like an inexperienced dumbass who needs to learn to be normal about sex real quick before you hurt yourself or others #I don't care if you're a virgin that is No Fucking Excuse to be weird about other people's healthy sex lives

[radmista]

Sowing seeds of discontent and disharmony by hanging up on my parents birthday phone call the second my mom asked if I gained weight. Hope that sits badly on their minds while they think about how that's the first call I've engaged with them in 2 months and it was for the dogs birthday. Dad scrambling to text me for my mom that she didn't mean it. Like fuck I told her I've been having a rough month and day. She couldn't keep it to herself that badly. Fucks sake

#was already not in a great place mentally but i entertained the call and was actually feeling okay talking to them giving them an update #she just hits me with that. and I'm not normally sensitive about my weight even when my mom harped on me for gaining some a few years back #i genuinely normally don't care bc I'm happy with myself. but i know ive lost weight because I've been on icu and we don't have time to eat #im so fucking mad and im even more mad I'm crying about it #bc what the fuck #i was actually feeling like momentarily safe talking to them and being vulnerable about working on my next life stages #and she just ruined the call. i wanted to talk to my mom and dad more. i do miss talking to them about some things. #i was happy to get to see my family all together even if it was for the dogs birthday. and people were smiling and shit #and ik theyre gonna say i ruined it by being sensitive but jfc #it was literally the 2nd thing my mom said to me on the call after we sang happy birthday #why couldn't she just shut up. why couldn't she have said anything else. why did i let it bother me so much i hung up #I'm just fucking tired and sad and now feeling even lonlier than ever #i just wanted a nice moment with my family god fucking damn is that too hard to ask for #and im even more angry and sad now that i cant call them back bc my mom will get on me about smth else we were previously talking about #that phone call was supposed to be a neutral zone just for the birthday song. and i was going to ride it out but fucking hell #why didnt i just put up with it so i could have talked to my family #and no calling them back isnt an option. they haven't apologized and it would be an un neutral call #which gives them space to harass me about work and shit

[unknownarmageddon]

people who throw rocks at birds for fun fucking SUCK btw

#I’m too tired to write out much on why but. I could go on about this dude #A couple months ago I was eating lunch somewhere and I saw a kid going around throwing rocks at the ducks in the lake down the hill #pissed me off so fucking bad. And they looked way too old to be doing shit like that out of naivety #genuinely considered going down there and throwing hands like I was about to ruin this kid’s entire career #but we had to leave #still #they hit one of them too #god #people who do that shit suck #Armageddon rambles woh

[hecksupremechips]

Girl like. The reason he said "this is how it should be" and faced death with a smile....is cuz he wanted to die. For 2 years he sat there thinking he was worthless and deserved to die. If he hadn’t be shot, his death would’ve been suicide, he was fully planning to die in a gutter somewhere undetected. When saying "this is how it should be" hes literally saying "don’t cry because I’m dying, my death is a good thing actually because I fucking suck and you are better off without me". I don’t think that’s badass even slightly, it’s actually really sad and really shitty. Shinjiro is so convinced that he deserves to die and hates the idea of anyone giving a shit about him because he literally can’t wrap his mind around the idea that he will be missed when he’s gone, that his death is a bad thing actually. And his last words were meant to be comforting because he fully did not intend for anyone to be there when he died, he intended to die alone, so he says them as a reminder that he’s not worth crying over

Personally, if it were me, if I was holding my dying best friend in my arms who was deeply depressed and suicidal and he said "this is how it should be" uh. I wouldn’t admire him for it??? Like am I losing my mind when I say the way this game handles Shinji is bad or is anyone else seeing this too 😰

#its like okay listen i understand the basic math of any persona game they say things and everything they say is actually #very bad when you think about it for more than 3 seconds #like what theyre intending to do with the death of this character is be like oh no your sad friend dies tragically thats so saddddd #but that doesnt mean you cant live a wonderful life full of meaning you cant let grief consume you life is beautiful awagga #and i guess shinji is a specific character whos used cuz i guess its more tragic that he never realized he was worthy of life and shit #and i guess its also like ‘dont be like this guy who let grief consume him and then died you gotta Be Different’ #which i dont. love. that last part cuz if you think about shinji and what led him down this road #its like. of course hes depressed! he accidentally killed a woman with a child when he was 16! #he himself is an orphan and he just made some other kid an orphan as well and it happened cuz his persona went out of control #which very much can translate to ‘this must mean im dangerous and can hurt everyone if im not kept under control’ #so of course he isolated himself and believed he was evil and became suicidal like who wouldnt feel that way #like am i supposed to be mad he left sees and took drugs cuz uh while i dont think isolation or Evil Drug is good for his mental health #i dont think him continuing to fight in sees is something he can just easily do again given how he killed someone like he shouldnt have to #be a part of this thing anymore like how would he even safely get castor to not do that??? he cant kill more people on accident! #so yeah like using shinji as an example of bad coping mechanisms is already just. a big fucking oof to me like it just feels like the game #is saying he shouldve gotten over it and simply not be suicidal and stayed on the team. idk if thats the intent but uh it wouldnt faze me #cuz persona games are notoriously awful at writing characters who are traumatized and abused #but what makes everything even worse is how the game kinda like. acts like shinjis death is a stepping stone #like we’re supposed to use it as a wake up call and understand the stakes but keep going on anyways #and akihiko and Ken get. ‘great character development’ according to the game telling you they have now developed #but damn all akihiko is is just repressed he cries for 3 seconds and then is like I SHOULD MAN UP and then neglects a depressed child #shinjis dying words are words to live by now even though they piss me the fuck off like girl am i crazy HES FUCKING #HES TELLING ME NOT TO CRY OVER HIM BECAUSE HE SHOULD BE DEAD ACTUALLY AND THIS IS A GOOD THING ACTUALLY #like if the game wants us to still find meaning in life despite losing someone it just really hurts that shinji has to die for that to work #apparently. cuz the character i see myself in is shinji. not some perfect prettyboy who does everything perfectly and has 4 gfs #his death seems like a punishment for bad behavior. the bad behavior being of course depression and drug use. and im simply supposed to be #better than that if i want to live. and we dont get to form a connection with him cuz thats gayyyyy #and his death is like a NOBLE HEROIC SACRIFICE idk its just such bullshit to me i hate it so bad #how is killing a suicidal guy and then treating it as admirable that he said ‘this is how it should be’ supposed to make me feel #makes me feel sick personally and it ruins the entire game’s theme to me because its fucking shallow and the story is bad and im tired

[xcziel]

i am SO IRRITATED with @support @staff right now

like this detaching a post from its link to each individual reblog in a chain is a NIGHTMARE

-> new hyperfixation, and i'm trying to backread some of the associated blogs that have been around a while, yeah?

and i'm on mobile, which is relevant because hey fuck app users is i guess the motto?

so used to, if you wanted to read a few months/years back on a blog you could: find a tag of theirs, click on a post that was around the time you were interested in, be ported to the blog's dash AS OF THAT TIME IN THE PAST, and just scroll along

but now, because tumblr, for whatever moronic reason, has isolated posts so that

clicking takes you to an individual pane for *only* that post, not where it is on the blog timeline

AND NOW you CANNOT reach a previous reblog from clicking on the username in the reblog (only the og post)

the ONLY way to get back to older posts is to SCROLL MANUALLY FOR LITERAL HOURS

if i want to see posts from 2017, finding an old post and clicking on it does NOTHING to help me - it has been snipped out of its native environment and shown to me, but the other posts available as links at the bottom pane are just whatever tumblr algorithm thinks are 'relevant', not access to the rest of the blog timeline

this is true EVEN ON MY OWN BLOG and

I HATE IT

either make the Archive function work on mobile or GIVE BACK THE FUNCTIONALITY THAT WE HAVE ALWAYS HAD

#tumblr #GODDAMMIT my hand is tired #i KNOW that on desktop you can hotkey around THAT IS WHY I AM COMPLAINING #the are always desktop workarounds for everything it's only mobile users that get treated like trash #give me back a way to click back to 'prev tags' or whatever and GIVE ME BACK A WAY TO 'GO BACK IN TIME' ON A BLOG #that is the entire FUNCTION of a blog or did you blackout everything you know about wordpress somehow? #the point of a blog as opposed to pure 'social media' say twitter is that it fuctions as a RECORD #posts are supposed to remain accessible not vanish never to be accessed after a few days except by direct link #and direct links don't even work anymore!!! bc now you're requiring people to sign in to see posts and comments #plus a native shared link now takes people to the crappy default 'mobile' view of a post not the ACTUAL BLOG POST #that someone made on their ACTUAL BLOG that has their custom theme and header sidelinks bio etc #nowdays if in my notifications someone says something to me referencing my own tags on a post #and i click on that - i CAN NOT navigate back to my own post to see what my tags even were if i don't remember my exact wording #i have to exit notifications go back to my blog and just ... scroll until i reach that old post just to have a reference #like what the fuck tumblr? #i will say it again: STOP FUCKING WITH THE SITE NAVIGATION we NEED that shit this is not tiktok we find posts on OUR OWN #there's a difference between making something accesdible for new people and flat out ruining original infrastructure

[elytrafemme]

you know i oscillate between appreciating and resenting this fact about me (which is VERY maretypical tbh) b/c of how complicated it makes things but in this moment i must step back from my emotions and say. holy SHIT i am so glad i do not possess a drop of impulsivity in me holy fucking shit oh my God.

#nightmare.personal #haha. bites my lip and looks around alluringly. I would ruin my life so fucking fast actually. #and that's why it's kind of shitty because i don't have uh. that many outlets? for how i feel? #which doesn't? exactly end well? sometimes i don't know how i survive this #but also i am very glad that i am not impulsive and further i am REALLY glad i have chronic exhaustion #because the way that i mentally feel right now is only being held back by the fact that i'm reigning myself back #and am too tired to even like. get up to brush my teeth #also this makes life easier on everyone who knows me because they know i won't try risky shit #i just remain Moderately Concerning to people which is how i'd like to fucking stay thanks #not to my family though. everyone in the world be worried about me but i don't want my family to even perceive me #... my mother and sister can. but they know my happy moments first and foremost #my father and brother will learn about everything a step too late and that's how i like it #it's the younger brother instinct in me what can i say!! i've got to fucking prove myself somehow!!! #God i do not feel good right now huh.

[ozymoron]

literally why am i a perfectionist i actually really dont give a shit

#⚠️ #personal #''this drawing sucks everyones going to notice the eye isnt in the exact right spot'' both you and i know we dont fucking care #vent #rant #genuinely cant put into words how much this shit frustrates me #like everytime i draw i just have this stupid little critic in the back of my mind thats like ''this looks like shit you should just quit'' #and it drives me crazy #like genuinely shut up #i think all those years on art youtube has just ruined my motivation #like all those art roast videos all those ''DONT DO THIS YOU ARE KILLING YOUR ART'' videos #i think i should just go frolic in a field i think that would fix me #like some of the guys making these kinds of videos are professional artists which just makes it worse for me #cause like i wanna be a professional someday and like having that fear in my mind that they might all look at my art and tear it to shreds #for not being perfect or something just feels so demotivating #like ik its irrational like 100% they would not do that but idk im tired of how harsh art spaces online are #maybe its just the spaces ive been in but from the ones ive been in theyre just so harsh and for what #i genuinely dont get the motivation behind it #what is saying ''dont do this its killing your art'' or ''roasting'' other peoples art doing for anyone #who is that helping #god i have to be up at 9 and its nearly 3 am but like god i need to rant about this just to get it out of my system #ik the whole ''DO NOT DO THIS'' thing probably gets you a lot more views than being like ''how to draw facial expressions'' or whatever #but like still who is that helping #idk maybe its all my years of being told not to do things without a reason why that makes me feel this way but it bothers me #i just worry for younger artists who are growing up on art youtube or are on art tiktok #idk if any of this made sense i cant be bothered reading back through it but i just have a lot of built up frustration towards the more i #guess ''mainstream'' (idk if thats the right word) parts of the art community #honestly idk why im so worried about professional artists who title their videos like ''DONT FUCKING DO THIS OR YOU WILL DIE'' #judging my art #i hit the tag limit yippee. if i have more that i think to say ill just add them in a reblog

[diegoshargrieves]

listening to my parents talk about me is so fucking funny. "she's dealt with us for so long that at this point she's done. she's mentally checked out from having to give a shit about anyone. can you believe how corruptible she is just because she's almost an adult and she thinks that we're not her problem anymore?"

like man you are literally so close. so fucking close.

#no it's not that ive dealt with everyone for my whole life and now im selfish and dont want to give a shit about anyone anymore #its that ive dealt with everyone my entire life ive been an emotional support pillar ive been rotting in this toxic dysfunctional household #ive been a third parent ive stepped in for my dad when he spontaneously decides to be a deadbeat ive supported my mom without fail #whenever shes needed it for years. ive dealt with everyones fits of mania & psychosis & breakdowns & chronic pain & depressive episodes #ive had my mental illness trivialized and belitted and downplayed. im exhausted and traumatized and so fucking burned out #of course it looks like ive given up on everyone from the outside because im struggling !! im struggling mentally and emotionally #and its spilling out in all the wrong ways and they just see it as me letting my anger ruin my character and everyone else around me #they dont care if theres something wrong with me even though im throwing out signs and cries for help literally wherever i can #they just care that theyre affected by it and inconvenienced by my deteriorating mental condition #they think this mentally ill freak is just what i am at this point and they cant stop emotionally blackmailing me #by reminiscing about how i used to be so kind and optimistic. i wish they would just fucking see me for once #ive played the role of the good emotional support eldest daughter my entire life. why didnt they think it would blow up at some point #and when i have tried opening up in moments of severe emotional vulnerability they just throw it back in my face later on #while simultaneously telling me i just need to change my outlook on life because im still young and cant define myself by childish problems #mom you are depressed and anxious you should recognize it better than anyone. you should be able to see it for what it is #instead of telling me to go spend a week volunteering at a cancer hospital so i can go see what real problems exist for people in the world #and what other people are going through and maybe ill come out with a new appreciation for life #mom just bc people are dying of cancer doesnt mean i can't be depressed just bc other people have it worse doesnt mean i cant have it bad #im so fucking tired! #3 am vent post yippee i am going to regret oversharing on the internet so badly when i wake up tmrw

[promenadewithme]

WTF someone literally just stole my coffee!!! I went to the coffee shop during my (ten minute) break and bought myself a cup. I was filling my water bottle, so I put my coffee on top of the filter and when I went to grap it, the cup simply wasn't there anymore. It wasn't there, it wasn't in the trash can and all the people who were around me at the time, weren't there anymore.

So my afternoon was just fucking ruined.

You want to know the worst part? No one here needs to steal a 2 dollar coffee. I study at a private medical school, everyone can afford a cup of coffee. I truly do not understand why people keep stealing things in my uni.

#i hate people more and more each day #im so fucking tired #society is fucked #this is the second time someone from this college has stolen things from me #so sick of this shit #day ruined

[finalhaunts]

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#vent #i hate that I can’t get over this shit #yes I know most people don’t have lasting relationships when they’re young #yes i know there are other people #but like time and time and time and time and time again I’ve had people leave and i’m #sick of being in this cycle #where I’m happy and then it all falls apart #usually because i ruined it by being too much #just the fact that it seems like I’m so inherently unloveable on top of everything else in my awful life #i’m just tired. I just want Something #‘’you can’t win them all’’ well i wish I could win just once #i think there’s something genuinely deeply wrong with me. #like maybe I’m just a failed attempt at a human being #i think at this point i’m not even human. #i think i’m just. a thing. #vermin. or lower than vermin #again and again I go ‘’i’ll get better this time’’ and then I end up falling into the same patterns and spirals #and I feel like such a disappointment to my friends and I’m terrified if i Don’t get better it’s just going to push everyone away #and i’ll be left alone again becsuse its just a constant fucking cycle of people leaving !!!!! #i know peoples patience run thin. i know hearing me vent all the time is draining. i’m fully well aware of just how shitty it csn be #having someone around who’s always just so miserable #and i’m scared i’m on a time limit and I have no clue when it runs out or how much time i have left #this was about one thing but it ended up spiralingninto other shit sory #its so fuckingnhard to get better especially when i’m still with my excuses of parents #i’m scared

[oglegoggle]

Ugh. Woke up at like 4am. Couldn’t go back to sleep. I miss so dearly being able to roll over and hold somebody and easily fall back asleep again. I genuinely resent how much easier it is for me to sleep beside another. I deeply resent my own hunger for touch and affection. I resent needing support that I know I won’t get because I shouldn’t need it. I resent not being strong enough to just comfortably exist in isolation. I resent not being able to make the peace with solitude that I’m supposed to.

#this is goggles #bleh today is a bit of a I resent even existing kind of day #the biggest thing that had me trapped in my last relationship is how accessible affection was #it sucked so much I spent months enduring my shit getting broken and my health ruined and and my sanity shredded #but fuck that’s been my entire life #the benefit he brought was a warm body to hold nightly which is something I’ve never had before #and just…. I keep telling myself that I’ll have it again but I genuinely don’t know #I miss him but I know that it wasn’t because he was actually a good partner it’s because my life is defined by isolation and abuse #I’m so tired my dudes #I’m itching to leave again #I’ve only been here for two months but I’m already kinda sick of it #idk fuckin 11 months to go until I can leave again I guess #I don’t think that leaving is going to help really it’s just going to make it that I’m in a different lonely and isolated place #the autism is so deeply isolating and the abuse really did not help me learn how to Person any better #exact opposite really #I just want to be held #more than anything else in this world I want to be held #it’s surreal to me that folks around me read me as super chipper and always in good spirits even on hard days #like it’s an act! it’s a facade! it’s fake! it’s the performance I’ve learned makes people like me enough to not totally avoid me! #I want to blow my goddamn brains out! #I just want to be held and I don’t understand why it’s so distant #I don’t understand why I feel trapped in a snow globe where I can watch the world going on around me but never participate in it #I’m a novelty plaything at best cutesy and chipper but nothing of notable substance #I just want to be held I just want to be held I just want to be held I just want to be held I just want to be held I just want to be held #fuck I want to eat some acid and zonk out for a couple days and bawl my eyes out and then do a ton of weird art #I miss so dearly being held #I miss loving cats #I miss the version of me that could’ve existed with gentle parenting #I don’t understand why it’s so difficult in our world #please I just want to be held for like an hour and to feel safe

[thisisadonaldduckblognow]

(click to enlarge. there wasn’t room on the meme for me to make the disclaimer that yes obviously a big portion of stede’s obliviousness is straight up born from being a wealthy white dude with no real-world experience and i’d never discount that.

i just think it makes sense that he sucks at actually communicating and that he’s used to not thinking about other perspectives, and i think it makes sense that through meeting ed, who likes and wants to get to know him off the bat, he does improve his social game on the ship enough to be accepted and protected by his crew in the end

and also that any take on stede that states he sees himself as important is wild to me when it couldn’t clearly be farther off from what canon shows us about him.)

#ofmd #our flag means death #stede bonnet #he didn't think i was supposed to be a lighthouse to my family they must surely be lost without me #he thought i was supposed to be that and i couldnt and i am a failure who couldnt even talk to them about it i ruin everything #does he make decisions that negatively impact the people around him without communicating first? god yeah #but its more likely to come from a place of low self worth #men who think they are important and valuable dont agree that they defile everything they touch and stand still to allow their own murder #anyway idk i keep thinking about this lately #stede's a whole fucking disaster of a human and it makes sense to me that he sucks at this stuff #even set aside from his obvious class privilege #he does not FIT in that society he learned it was easier on him to stop TRYING to improve in that a long time ago #he's fucked over by inexperience and toxic masculinity telling him all the things that he Should Be #he was never going to be a cool involved husband to mary he was never going to risk reaching back when she reached out #(and i mean at that point reaching back out would have meant staying and i think by then he was kinda at his limit) #im not saying he's right in how he goes about stuff like fully the opposite he makes some shit choices #i'm just saying i'm tired of the lack of nuance #he knows textbook manners textbook etiquette and doesn't know what healthy relationships look like or feel like

[raeofgayshine]

You know when they say history repeats itself I really didn’t want to see it be shit like this

#ravenpuff rambles #ned fulmer #<< for blacklist #try guys #I’m so fucking tired of white guys on the internet ruining my ability to rewatch old comfort content by being fucking awful people #whatever. I don’t give a fuck he might have cheated that’s his business #but it fucks with me that there was a power imbalance involved which is yucky #and it really fucks with me that it happened at this time of the year #and reminds me too much of a fucking… #anyways I guess I’m getting back into AH hardcore to find new comfort content in their new stuff #since there’s no way I’ll be able to watch Ned’s shit without thinking about fucking Haywood #ryan haywood #<< that one is also for blacklist #genuinely hope the best for Ariel and the kids and the rest of the guys #I’m sure I’ll try to watch their new stuff but idk it might take some time to do