#god im getting flashbacks

[luck-of-the-drawings]

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saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #GONNA START FORMATTING MY COMICS BETTER. W THE PROPER 'PREV' 'NEXT' LINKS #REALLY DIDNT EXPECT TO CONTINUE THIS SERIES BUT AAAUUUHH MY BRRAAAIN MY BRAIN IS SO IDEASSS. I HAVE 3 OTHER PAGES SKETCHED OUT #NO PROMISES ILL FINISH EM ANY TIME SOON OR EVER. MY WHIMS ARE THEIR OWN BEAST AND I ONLY DRAW ON MY WHIMS #THAT BEING SAID IF U COMMISSIONED ME ILL GEEETT TO YOUUU IM SORRYYYY. ART IS AN EMOTIONAL RELEASE FOR ME N BABY I HAVE EMOTIONS. #ESPECIALLY ABOUT GILLION TIDESTRIDER CHAMPION OF THE UNDERSEA HERO OF THE DEEP.for the desc here i put smth that i typed up in the tags of #another thing i made. i gotta make a proper Baby Gillion tag or smth. eventually.. eventually...I LOVE DRAWIN THIS LIL BABY GUY.. #i also LOVE depicting the teachers as just being so fuckin mean. ofc theres variation in that. just like in all things.like the teacher her #idk if itll be mentioned but the octo lady is named Ms Octburn.an octopus pun based off the name of an actual councilor i had #when i was in elementary school i got bullied alot but teachers never did anything. i hated adults and didnt trust them. #but this councilor o mine was so genuinely sweet. i remember spending alot of time w her. she doesnt work there anymore. #but that one school adult that actually earns ur trust and is there for you when they can be.its SO important for a child i think #i hope she knows how much she helped me.youll see in the next page that ms octburn isnt perfect either.but she tries. they all try.somehow. #ALL these comics are gonna be inspired by somesorta experience o mine in the school system. school is so fucked up u ever thing abt that #AND GILLIOOOOONNN IN THE MOST FUCKED UP LITTLE SCHOOL OF ALL. MAINTAINED BY A CULT. CENTERED AROUND HIM. OUR CHOSEN ONE #I IMAGINE ALOT BANKS ON HIS SUCCESS. THIS IS THE WORLD. THE WHOLE WORLD. THE PROPHECY IS GOING TO COME TRUE N UR TELLIN ME #THAT ITS THIS LITTLE IDIOT THATS GONNA BE SAVING US? WHAT IF HE FAILS. IF HE CANT GET THIS RIGHT THEN HE WILL FAIL AND WE WILL DIE #WE NEED TO TRAIN HIM. WE NEED HIM TO LEARN. AND TO SUCCEED. OR ELSE WE'RE DEAD. WE'RE ALL FUCKING DEAD. I IMAGINE THAT MUST BE STRESSFUL #in other news i hope ppl actually giggle when they read these. they ARE intended to be comical. dark humor or whatever. like its also sad #this is intended to be a sad comic series. but a funny one too. does that make sense? god i hope so.saw some1 say they had flashbacks- #-reading this. like YES!! THE INTENDED EFFECT!! YOU GET ME!! i love seeing ppl get upset on this lil baby boys behalf. i LOVE seeing ppl- #-wail n weep n cry in the comments. i LOOOVE seeing ppl RELATE to baby gillion. and i love letting u all know that this wont be a happycomi #gillion gets his happiness arc in the actual show. this series is one of unfortunate events. teehehehe. do u guys remember that show #i keep listening to the lil songs from A Series of Unfortunate Events for inspiration. GOOD STUFF!! #anyway uuhh uhh thats all i got in my brain. for now. feed me ur comments give me ur input i NNEEEEEDD THHEEEMMMM

[thinkingabout-girls]

thousand yard stare this man has Trauma. and anxiety. someone get him some weed

#dm.liveblog #i’m back on my bullshit #dungeon meshi spoilers #i’m losing my mind over this page. the stress and panic and the immediate flashbacks to the half foots #who were kidnapped and experimented on……. #and the instant NO. im not letting that happen to me i’m not letting anything happen to my friends #he needs a plan and by god is he going to have a plan because he isn’t going to lose them. kills myself #“and i swear we’ll get home” fuck my whole entire life

[nite-puff]

The danganronpa writers really created a character who was the complete antithesis to hope’s peak and some major characters in later games only to pretty much play him for laughs and then kill him off early.

silly little man. representing the very thing the evil organization stood against and actively tried to prove wrong. and yet was still invited to be a part of their school. only to die. silly taka.

#excuse the amount of tags #i was looking at some sdr2 stuff #kamakura was described as ‘a genius among geniuses’ and nagito heavily criticized people who relied on effort #and wasn’t hope’s peak literally created to observe those #with natural talents??? #I don’t think the writers knew they were gonna go in a god-given talent vs practice and effort thing in later installments #becuase if taka was a more prominent character in those installments. he literally THE GUY representing the hard work and effort argument #*he’s #AND THE FACT THAT HE WAS STILL CONSIDERED AN ULTIMATE DESPITE THAT #imagine a Taka who was introduced later down the line #I’m getting flashbacks to my ‘Taka was only invited to hope’s peak because of his grandfather’ theory #danganronpa #kiyotaka ishimaru #im once again trying to convince myself that taka could’ve played a bigger role in the grand scheme of the danganronpa franchise #ramblepuff

[saph-yells-into-the-void]

yall i desperately need the new anime from hiroko utsumi to be good bc explain to me why am i losing my shit to a less than two minute trailer of a show that hasnt even release yet 😭😭

#AND LIKE 60% OF IT WAS ABT THE MC AND HIS CHILDHOOD FRIEND IM LIKE BRO?? #WDYM IT CUTS TO A FLASHBACK OF THEM TOGETHER WHEN THE MC THINKS OF WHAT WISH HE WANTS WDYMMM #THE MC SAYING HE WANTS TO GET LAID RIGHT AFTER A SHOT OF THE CHILDHOOD FRIEND BLUSHING??? HWATS EVEN GOING ON ANYMORE #hiroko utsumi rlly said idgaf imm tell my gay love story and yall gonna have to deal with it😭 #(for context shes the creator of sk8 the infinity) #ok well in fairness half my excitement of this anime is from the comparisons im drawing between it and blue flag but still #pls let this be good god pls im begging you #bucchigiri

[lecliss]

I'll never be able to take the theory that Vincent is Sephiroth's real father seriously cuz I cannot stress enough how important I think it is to the plot that Vincent wanted to fuck Lucrecia and did not get to.

#once again i jest but now i have to actually talk about it #like. okay we have no proof of any actual timeline for the dirge flashbacks other than. it was at least 30 years ago #so who knows how long they were at the manor. could have been weeks before The Incident. or months. or maybe a full year! who knows #but to me a timeline of like. they fucked and like a week later vincent found The Evidence and lucercia had her little breakdown #AND THEN EXTREMELY QUICKLY SHE AGREED TO THE EXPERIMENT AND IT COULD GO ONE OF TWO WAYS #1. she knew she was pregnant and thats why she agreed to the experiment cuz there was already a usable subject #and therefore she must have fucked hojo like a week after she fucked vincent AND THATS STUPID FAST FOR THESE EVENTS #or 2. she didnt know. agreed to the experiment. fucked hojo. and therefore thought seph was hojo's and NOT vincent's #AND BY THE WAY. i dont even actually believe hojo fucked either!!! cuz theyre both scientists so why wouldnt they think IVF was the best way #okay. well.... hojo is canonically a fucked up little freak. so. he might have taken the opportunity to... get in there. #also when did ivf even start being a thing? cuz that may play a factor into this if nomura even considered that #well either way lets just unfortunately assume hojo got in there #ITS STILL AN ODDLY FAST TIMELINE #also. fuck man doesnt lucrecia have a later line in dirge where she actually says shes in love with hojo? or something along those lines #IMPLYING ITS BEEN AWHILE SINCE SHE HAD THE FALLING OUT WITH VINCENT. YOU WOULDNT FUCK THE GUY AFTER ALL THAT SHIT #AND WHILE CLAIMING TO LOVE/CURRENTLY FALLING IN LOVE WITH HOJO!!!! LIKE CMON MAN!!!! SHE SUCKS BUT SHES NOT THAT KIND OF A MESS #i dont think vincent would fuck her until they sorted out their issues anyway and that CLEARLY didnt happen. #its VITAL that that did not happen!!!! #its just. if vincent and lucrecia fucked. everything would have had to happen EXTREMELY fast within like a 2 week timespan #and im just talking about up to when vincent learns shes partaking in the experiment. it was probably another week or two until vincent died #SO. logically it must have been like #fall in love->learn about the gimoire incident->refuse to speak to vincent->get obsessed with hojo->fall in love(?) #and then thats where i think its ambiguous on did the experiment become an idea before or after seph started to exist? #like chicken or the egg ya know. experiment idea or sephiroth zygote? #that feels fucked up to say. im so fucking sorry to seph to talk about this. yeah sorry i have to debate who fucked your mom bro #god imagine telling him that. like not even as a reveal thing cuz he knows who his father is. just like as a sick joke. your mom joke. #NO OH M Y GOD I HAVE A QUESTION NOW #in accordance to him having a photo of lucrecia in ever crisis. after he reads that jenova is an ancient (incorrect btw) #does he think that picture is still her? what about when he takes jenova's body from the lab???? #oh my god 30 tag limit. FUCK. i need like a rant blog for all this vincent talk now. my brain is going a mile a minute

[actual-changeling]

one of my neighbours just said "servus" as way of greeting me while we passed in the hallway.

we're in hesse.

i'm from lower saxony.

my mother's said of the family aka the only one that matters is from east germany.

you cannot IMAGINE the utter culture shock i just experienced.

#alex yells at the void #in which i am german #PLEASE im getting flashbacks to the other side of the family tm #brother moin would be less of a shock than that and we're far from the coast #good god

[taepoppies]

the percy jackson show is everything i dreamt of, and more.

they really did the books justice. they didn't miss a single iconic moment so far. the characters are perfectly written, and the actors are amazing. i knew from the beginning that walker scobell was The perfect cast for percy, and turns out the whole cast is like that! it looks like they pulled the characters right from the book, made them magically real.

but i also love all the new things and twists they added. the story is so slightly different that someone with a vague knowledge of the story wouldn't notice but someone who's read the books multiple times would see, but wouldn't be bothered by it.

it's exactly the story i fell in love with over a decade ago, and never stopped loving. but from a slightly different angle. those changes are slight enough that's it's still That Story, but big enough that it feels like i'm falling in love with the story again. and it feels magical.

#it also look like they changed the wrong things about the book #i screamed when i saw the camper in a wheelchair #and i've seen someone say they changed medusa's story a little bit #but it also shows in the way sally talks about medusa in the flashback #the only bad thing i have to say is that im EXTREMELY frustrated that i dont have the names of all the campers they show #i want to know who's the woman with grover #i want to know who's the kid hanging out with luke and percy #pleaaaaaaaaase tell me #god i could talk about it for hours #the pjo books are the best thing that happened to me. truly. and getting to experience some of that magic again is the best feeling ever #percy jackson #percy jackson show #percy jackson and the olympians #pjo #pjo show

[xo8ball]

i know everyone knows dance dance by now but god this song is actually so fucking good

#I CANT get tired of it... #sounds like fall out boy..... ohhhh ohh god #im getting flashbacks from patrick's dance at the end............ someone help me #fob #fall out boy

[aroacewxs]

istg if the wxs community goes crickets during quagmire canary again i will become violent. kusanagi nene doesn't deserve any of you

WHERE WAS THE HYPE. WHERE WAS THE PASSION. WHERE WAS THE LOVE.

#kusanagi nene #wxs #wxs nene #i need to write an entire post about the event story because my god. nene is so relatable and real and raw and nobody is paying attention #everyone who exploded when mr showtime dropped were nowhere to be seen when hakoniwa no coral herself was released #im gonna tier t200 when it comes to en out of 1) spite and 2) love #im not sure if ill pull for the event cards but we'll see!! nene's is so pretty im still not over it #but after temple of chronos fucked me over i fear that i will never be able to save and pull again #flashbacks to. getting absolutely nothing UNTIL PITY. GOT TSUKASA THROUGH GUARANTEE. THEN I PURCHASED RUI'S FROM THE SHOP. THEN #THE TEN PULL RIGHT AFTER WAS RUI. ARE YOU JOKING #and nene never did come home did she :) #im still grieving my losses #anyway. i love you nene please understand me #jay does a think

[coern]

isat sky and oneshot all have INCREDIBLY specific vibes to them and it's not about the main characters outfits or relation to light/stars I swear

#my post #i watched a oneshot playthrough a WHILE ago #and i keep having war flashbacks in the middle of grinding in isat to something that im PRETTY SURE is oneshot #or wandersong but i havent seen wandersong in an EVEN LONGER time #i gotta play wandersong at some point #anyway #also sky specifically the valley temple and vault of knowledge #god. the house reminds me of vault so much you couldnt even believe #i have got to draw something about isat and sky being similar #not until i finish isat but JESUS chrIST #im too much of a sky lore nerd for this. #after isat maybe ill get oneshot and play that

[frecklystars]

Holy shit. Thank you guys for all of the asks. I got exactly 50!

I meant to respond to them when I got home from work last night, but I didn’t have enough energy by the time I was done reading these. I’m still incredibly exhausted today, it’s like all of the energy is completely sapped out of me since I was in the emergency room the other day.

The heavy ache in my chest definitely lessened while I was focused on reading what you guys wrote last night. The reminders that my TF F/Os still love me is something I really need to hear, something I probably have to tell myself multiple times... I spent so long being conditioned to believe otherwise.  

A few of you also reminded me that Starscream had gone through heavy abuse, and he wouldn’t support someone who treated me the way Megatron treats him. It helped me feel better... I think that’s what got through to me the most. I’ve seen so many commissions/fics my ex-friend showed me where she was being manipulative, and that she would be loved for it. Seeing all of that visual representation of her being so tenderly loved by these characters while she was hurting me at the same time, for so many months, it really did some damage and made me internalize the belief that all transformers characters would want to hurt me the same way and love her for it. Especially when the characters she commissioned and talked about the most often were forming into PTSD triggers. For almost a year now, I have just assumed that all of those characters she wrote and commissioned, including Starscream, would encourage her to hurt me and that they would love to see me getting hurt. I don’t choose to feel this way, it’s just... trauma. 

But a few of you wrote about how... canonically, Starscream was so fucking pissed when he was abused, especially in RiD2015!! He was so broken up and angry just like I am!! His entire 3 episodes focused on him repeating how unfairly he was treated, how much he wanted to hurt Megatron for all the times he was put through emotional/physical pain, how years had passed since he escaped being tied to his abuser and yet he was so, so angry and still worried that he wasn’t strong enough bc that is what he was conditioned to believe for millions of years. I want to think that same bot would look at me and see himself in me, and hold my hand through this and tell me it’s gonna be okay and it’s gonna get better and he’d never want to treat me the way my abuser treated me. How could he bear it if his little starflower looked at him the way that he looks at Megatron? I don’t want to think he would support my abuser’s actions, no matter how many fics or commissions she has stating otherwise. When I escaped a toxic situation with someone else 3 years ago, I turned to Starscream for this exact same reason, I looked to him for support. He helped me get through it. Now, I need him again after facing treatment that was absolutely horrific, except I’ve been conditioned to believe he would hurt me too; I just feel so sad when I look at him and I wish I could feel loved by him again. It’s been really, really, really hard. Hearing other people tell me that he loves me and would never want to hurt me really helps, I need to be reminded of that, because I absolutely can’t believe it when I try to tell myself.

I’m sorry I’m not able to respond to your asks at the moment, I’m extremely exhausted from. everything. Today has been difficult as well so I will be offline for the rest of the night. I don’t know if I’ll be online tomorrow. 

I’m not 100% sure when the commissions will open up, I was really hoping it would happen this week but I didn’t expect to have that panic attack Tuesday, it really drained me. I am hoping that I’ll have comms open by next week, it all depends on how I’m feeling. I might spend more time offline to limit seeing any potential triggers bc I’ve been very fragile since I went to the emergency room, things that normally wouldn’t make me spiral before are probably things that I will have more trouble handling right now, at least until I can calm down again. Normally it takes me about 3 to 5 days to calm down from a severe panic attack like that. But I gotta spend another $400 on new glasses tomorrow morning so... I really do need to open comms soon :’) They will absolutely be open within the next 2 weeks, I just don’t know exactly when. Anyway, thank you guys again for the nice messages, I really needed them and you helped me feel less alone last night ❤

#woof #and all of the asks were nice!!! thank you!!! #im sorry i gotta turn anon back off :( #i didnt get any bad messages or anything but im just cautious #dw i wont keep anons off forever. some of u were asking me to keep it on #i just dont want to read something negative or see any reminders of my abuser #bc then when im at my concert i will be more prone to having flashbacks instead of enjoying charlie puth bangin out the tunes #but ill turn them back on uhhh when im feeling a little better i guess #i just got some ppl trying to talk to me abt my abuser last week like 'ooh shes posting abt u!' #'shes spreading rumors about u. thought u should know' well i DONT want to know! thank u! #anyone who brings her up telling me what she's 'posting about me' is automatically blocked at this point #if she wants to spread rumors that is her problem. and i dont wanna know about it #bc shes dead to me and im keeping it that way ❤ #anyway. to all the ppl who wrote 50 nice messages!!! thank u! i needed them #i will reread them the next couple of days while im feeling rly sad and missing my starlight #god i cant wait to get the hyperfixation back. i cant wait to feel safe w/ them again. #one fucking day

[anxiously-sidequesting]

I like doomed narratives but my ultimate Wizard101 NPC ending is the Young Wizard living in a nice secluded place with all their friends (all the necromancers, Ceren, Nolan, fuck you Boris you can live outside, Dasein, the Schismist Soldier, Mellori and the Bat) like a little village but they're all roommates and they do things like farming and brewing hot tea on Sundays free from Ambrose and the rest of the damned Spiral

#ik thats a lot of people HALSJDLDHDH #but in my version of Wizard101 that's everyone's ending. they get to heal together #i know i said all of the necromancers but i think i like it better if duncan was like maybe separate #not because i hate him but because im a huge believer of not being able to heal when the person who hurt you is right there #AND EVEN THOUGH WE DIDNT HURT HIM ON PURPOSE we're still a source of his trauma and i cant see duncan living with us right away yknow #like maybe later on in life but i like him better on his own off in the spiral to see the world and humble himself #*with artur and susie because he loves them #BUT YEA my wizard lives with everyone else at the Very End. fuck you ambrose /lh but /srs #the odd ones out honestly are ceren and nolan bc iirc in canon they dont go thru any type of shit. theyre fine #the rest of the group i mentioned have FLASHBACKS. theres some Trauma Periodt. in their cereal for breakfast #but i mean ceren and nolan can come if they want its fine #i MEAN IT about boris he CANNOT COME #yeah i said the schismist soldier. thats just my personal fantasy ik he hates us #here i am saying duncan cant be around us but thr schismist soldier ABSOLUTELY cannot be around us. but in my world he can! im a hypocrite! #itd be funny if he was still like. just a liiitle bit obsessed but its not because of his inferiority and god complexes he's just gay for us #......yeah im biased okay look he's hot leave me alone /lh #wizard101 #w101 #wiz101 #text posts

[nomazee]

i want u guys to know that if you want to chat with me in my inbox u can.... Im like an open door and if u walk through you might get a surprise (ie mindless babbling)

#i had a five second flashback to when people would send me an influx of anon messages back in like #2020... dear god #this blog is too old #i must delete it (i wont) #im like a toddler rolling around on the carpet and pounding my fists and yellling “PLAY WITH ME!!!” #and the playing in question is my tumblr inbox #anyways #new ratio drabble coming out tonight! everybody get hyped.... im just... a bit of a ratio fan i suppose... #just a little... #nora speaks

[joyridingmp3]

cancelled all future singing lessons 😌

#sweet motherfucking CHRIST that bitch was annoying #i tried soooooo hard to overlook those things and see the good in her #but when she looked at the clock 18 minutes into our 30 minute session and then KEPT. TALKING!!! i was over it #also. very hard for me to sit there #while someone im PAYING MONEY to teach me a skill #tells me aaaaaaaall about their abusive father who used to physically assault them #meanwhile I'm having flashbacks to my OWN trauma when MY abusive father used to do all that #but i have some decorum and tact and sense of context and time and a place #and I also value my privacy #so i never said anything #but i just had to smile and nod and politely say 'wow. that's must have been SOOOO hard for youuuuu :((' #like oh my GOD #can we just fucking SING?? #can we just do the thing I paid you to do?? #I don't fucking CARE!! #mine #sorry I'm so anxious rn it's translating into anger i guess #but I'm glad that's over and I'll never have to deal with that again #I'll just google it and teach myself to sing #that's what I get for relying on others #every time i seek help from another person. or rely on them for something #they ALWAYS let me down. and I have to figure it out for myself #I don't know why I thought this would be any different #I can do it myself. I always have. and I always will. i don't need anyone #also when she said for a whole MONTH that she'd teach me this technique next session. and didn't. #it was sooooo over

[ruffgem]

group work is Not It. I should have known better than to enroll in an engagement course that involves planning workshops with a group of other students……. guess who is doing all the work! :^) Back in tha day my teachers called me a ‘natural leader’… fun fact!!!! I am actually not! I do not like being in charge! it is actually just that people take advantage of me! Hope this helps

#God. I wanted to take the class so bad bc it’s about the history of art in prison systems #and it involves a weekly art workshop in a prison #the group that runs it is pretty blatantly abolitionist and partially run by formerly incarcerated ppl #so it’s made pretty clear that we're not ‘teaching’ art bc thats weird and enforcing a hierarchy if ur a 'teacher' #its more like a way to get materials inside and basically hang out with and make art alongside incarcerated ppl #under the guise of ‘volunteering’ as the dept of corrections labels it #anyway that’s all off topic but basically I am doing all the fucking work lmao we’re supposed to go in for the first time tomorrow and #my group members suck shit at communicating and the person who’s supposed to drive is like radio silent whenever I ask #where we should meet and shit #FUCK!!! I hate logistical shit like this #its taken us a million years to get cleared by the system (on purpose i stg) so its literally midterm time and we havent gotten in yet #i swear if our first one gets jeopardized by this girl who refuses to check her damn texts or emails or even come to class im gonna be so #pissed. lmfao #goddddd this is giving me flashbacks to when i took the class where we were supposed to do workshops at an elementary school #different vibe because in that scenario it was definitely supposed to be educational and we lowkey were 'teachers' #but my classmates also didnt do shit and i also ended up doing literally everything #WHY TAKE A CLASS LIKE THIS IF U DONT WANNA DO IT LIKE SERIOUS QUESTION #maybe they just want to put it on their resume LOL #they need a vetting process for this class i stg like interview these bitches before they enroll #cuz some of these people fr do not care

[tinyfantasminha]

Oh shit we are finally getting episode of savanaclaw manga coming out in december

Obvs I'm looking forward to see Jack content in the manga but mmm I'm also a little worried? I'm not really a fan of how the new artist (Oda Suzuka, Pretty Boys Detective Club artist) drew Leona cause he looks too... Soft-looking? (his skin also looks very pale 💀) and that expression overall just seems ooc to me

From seeing their works, all of the characters they draw are bishonen (slim, pretty face, soft features) so I'm lowkey worried about how they will portray Leona and Jack, I'm just hoping they won't twink-ify Jack and make him less muscly and give Leona a shoujo-protagonist face

Anyway I hope that I'm wrong and that they will do a good job portraying savanaclaw 🙏

#this is just my personal opinion!!!!! #the new artist sure has a really pretty style but i just dont think its very fitting for savanaclaw #personally im not a fan of how some artists will draw leona with a pretty softened bishonen face #(and almost always comes w whitewashing as bonus) #and jack god...i always get flashbacks of that jp artist that draws him extremely slim and peach-skinned #I might be overreacting srry DHHJDSJFD its just that first leona illustration gave me the wrong impression #i just need jack to not be twinkified and ill be good #twisted wonderland #savanaclaw