#god what i wouldn’t do for her

[zeb-z]

“What do you really want. And just say it, so I can fight for it” after refusing to equate letting Jay go as a favor for the armor, taking it off as she insists because no favor is worth losing his crew, his family, honor bound to his word. After going through hell with her and Chip, sharing his deepest secrets and biggest worries, taking some of it personally but shrugging it off because he has to. Keeping a clear mind to keep the others safe. Refusing outright to leave Jay in that tundra, even as his own skin freezes and hardens, moving close to help her, to give her his Blessing to help her at his own detriment. Always at his own detriment.

Gillion Tidestrider, champion of the undersea, hero of the deep, eater of grass kicker of ass, defenestrator of the adulterous, and above all else, Riptide Pirate, waking up after what should have been an ultimate betrayal, and wanting to know what Jay’s intentions are - not to gauge his own trust, but to let her know that he’s going to fight for her anyway. He’s going to dig in his heels and he’s going to fight for her anyways.

#gillion tidestrider the fish man that you are #it is his DESTINY to fight for his friends. honor bound as he is he will stick to it and stick to his loyalties #all of them went through the fucking ringer man fuck #and chip not rolling insight not trying to do anything with numbers just saying outright ‘I don’t believe that’ when Jay says it all meant #nothing #it never meant nothing. whatever intentions or plans or pasts it always meant something #and they all knew that. and that’s why they wouldn’t let her go #thank GOD for John and what’s his fuckin name #dray or smth ferrin #man #jrwi #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #z speaks

[whereismyhat5678]

“You should get some asks done”

“You should do some sketches of random stuff”

“Maybe you should start doing that portrait you said you were gonna do”

….Man. I’m gonna do somethin’ stupid-

The start was good but I think the last part went to fast so sorry for that :(

Anyways this took way to long to do-

(It still makes me chuckle though-)

#Pizza Tower #I should be getting asks done BUT THEN I DO STUFF LIKE THIS- #Hope you guys don’t mind 🙇‍♀️ #I found the audio a while ago and the idea only sprung when I got home so I had to 💀 #IT WOULDN’T LEAVE #Also Peppino was supposed to be doing a hand gesture that meant he was angry but I don’t think it’s that noticeable- #I WANNA DRAW HAND GESTURES WITH PEPPINO SO BAD THE IDEA HAS LEFT ITSELF IN MY BRAIN #MY GOD WHAT HAVE I DONE- #(Also I’m this context Noisette got the pizza for Noise because she at least wants him to try some of Peppino’s pizza) #(Noise is stubborn af though so he had her order something ridiculous-) #Audio I found lol- #Peppino #Gustavo #Noisette

[quietwingsinthesky]

See, the thing about the Amy episode that makes Dean’s actions so reprehensible is not only the part where he doesn’t trust Sam and goes behind his back to kill Amy or even the hypocrisy of Dean ‘you can’t change what you are so you’re going to kill someone eventually’ Winchester sparing the kid right after stabbing his mom, it’s that Amy is very explicitly supposed to be a Sam parallel. There is no other way about it, from the they’re both freaks part of it to Dean dropping the line about ‘the other shoe’ right before he kills her, she is Sam, how Dean reacts to her is supposed to give us insight into how he feels about Sam. And Dean. kills her.

The not very subtle subtext being that Dean is ready to off Sam if he goes too far off the deep end? He’s aggressive and mistrustful of Sam at every turn in the episode, lays the feet of it all at Sam’s hallucinations maybe leading him astray, but end of the day, Sam’s crimes here are A) was tortured in Hell and B) is traumatized by that in a way that makes Dean’s life more difficult.

And it is hard to watch. To spend this whole episode with Sam being completely functional on his own, making a rational decision based on past experience and on all the information about Amy he has available, and for the episode to end with, ‘but yeah, if dean thinks sam goes too far, he’s probably gonna kill him. because sam can’t change or be fixed, so it’s for the good of everyone that he be put down.’

#and then of course there’s the issue of the subtext setting something up that gets no resolution like. there is no point where dean is ever #really going to be able to kill Sam. no matter how bad his hallucinations get. not even a mercy kill crosses his mind later that season #which means that the Amy episode gets rewritten later from ‘explicit Sam parallel’ to ‘well we can use this for Brother Drama™️’ #god. god. and really what gets me about the Amy episode in general. like Thee Horrifying Part to me. #most of their hunts are very life or death. that’s how we get around the morality of it. either they kill the monster or it kills them. #Amy’s. not that. Dean tracks her down while she’s running and kills her while she’s asking him not to. #like if she had attacked him the scene would be totally different. but she doesn’t. she doesn’t even fight back. and he kills her. #like she has a kid and Dean is an unfriendly hunter in her motel room. it wouldn’t be out of the question for her to try to kill him #to protect herself and her kid. but she doesn’t. she doesn’t. I don’t know what you can take away from that except that she was telling #sam the truth about not wanting to be a murderer. if she won’t even try to kill Dean to protect herself. #there is no way to look at this episode that makes Dean come out looking good unless you’re willing to claim everything Amy said was a lie #AND that Dean would be right to kill Sam for *checks notes* Being Visibly Mentally Ill #fucked up. why’d they do this. #spn #dean winchester #sam winchester #amy pond #like to be clear if you’ve got a different view on this that’s. not the above thing I just said. please tell me. #because from where I’m standing Dean doesn’t come out of this clean in any way

[pregstiel]

really hate absence trying to equate felix the snake and mary. the snake is a.) not a person (that jack thus had a very different relationship with) and b.) was premeditated (not trying to frame jack as a serial killer, given that the snake was slowly starving and to jack, putting the snake down seemed very). while jack killing mary was completely accidental, done in a moment of stress and panic, and immediately regretted. the writers trying to frame it through the characters as jack having an “absence of good” and trying to “solve a problem” makes no sense in this scenario, and is such a weird way to try and frame jack’s actions

#a scenario that could have worked for me if they actually wanted this snake thing is like #what if nick actually needed mary to bring lucifer back #for whatever reason he gets her #is seconds away from doing it and jack can’t reach nick or hurt lucifer. and his snap decision is to kill mary to keep lucifer from coming #back #even that wouldn’t super work for me but it would be better to try and fit the stupid snake thing #god. i should be allowed to kill

[freakwiththeknifecollection]

It's kinda laughable to me when people bring up Meg telling Jo that Dean only saw her as a little sister as like, definitive proof that's how he felt. Like demons never lie just to fuck with people

#Dean's blatant advances are 'up to interpretation' but the word of a demon is incontrovertible #yes when Jo asks if demons ever tell the truth Dean says yeah sometimes #but that was meant to make her BELIEVE that what Meg said is true (you know for angst reasons. also as a good reason for Jo not to be on th #show for awhile) not proof that she was telling the truth #people also assume that what Meg said about how her dad died was true which I mean it's very believable but #we also can't know that for sure #ALSO has anybody considered that maybe Meg said Dean only sees her as a sister because that's what Sam thinks? #Sam's perception is also not sound. why wouldn’t Sam believe that if Dean never slept with her? because up until then Dean had been very #promiscuous. so if he didn't try to sleep with her he must not like her right? #Sam wasn't listening to the wrong place wrong time conversation he doesn't know that #and again all of this speculation literally doesn't matter because we KNOW it was a lie because actions speak louder than words #em rambles #not to be bitchy on main but. come on #also please for the love of god do not use this post to bring up Zachariah's au okay Zachariah's au didn't mean shit because it wasn't real

[mustlovesteve]

I’ve read some excellent one-shots but… Are there any longer Steddie fics where Steve doesn’t tell Eddie about the Russian torture trauma and agrees to be tied up but gets triggered by that?

#Steddie #torture mention #I couldn’t write this myself because I don’t do smut and I don't understand BDSM/bondage lmao but like #I had some specific Ideas #Steve not wanting to be difficult or whatever so he just goes along with it #can he hide his panicking? does he make an excuse to run off afterwards? #either way he’d be avoiding Eddie for a while. this wouldn't get resolved that night. #and Eddie might approach Robin about it because it turns out Steve is excellent at hasty exits #Robin would know because Steve would tell her and she’s the only person who would truly Get It #so she would be evasive too. it's not her place to say much. #god and what a difficult conversation for them if it's taken days to talk about it at all oof #as for why steve wouldn’t say anything during #I could imagine him getting really stuck in his head where #it becomes less about not disappointing Eddie and more about ‘there was nothing I could say that would make it stop’ #and then he feels stupid afterwards because that wasn’t the case here at all #BUT ALSO. were they dating? or were they just fooling around? either way has its own horrible angst potential.

[autistic-katara]

writing would fix me

#i just need to figure out how to do that #i have ideas but idk how to make them actually into fics #and one of them is one of those “how would they act in this situation” things except it did happen in canon just off screen #(nico coming out to hazel) #bcz idk normally i’d just look for fics of that happening but i’ve read fics and they feel so ooc #like u gotta find the right balance between “nice person who cares abt her brother and wouldn’t discriminate” #and “someone who went to catholic school in the 30s and 40s” #bcz i love hazel and she’d never call him a slur and say he’s going to hell or smthn #but like internal biases are a real thing and chances are he’s the first openly gay person she’s talked to #so like i gotta figure out how she’d react #and then i gotta consider what circumstance this is happening #like is this an “i wanna tell my sister i have a boyfriend” thing or just an “i wanna tell my sister im gay” or even the more angsty #“my sister said some shit and i accidentally blurted that im gay” or smthn like that #and yk how long am i gonna make it who else is gonna be in it god this is so complicated #writing #pjo #ryan shut the fuck up

[stunfiskz]

does anyone know where/if i land on the whole “romance averse -> indifferent -> favorable” thing if i really enjoy fictional romance but any real person being involved, not just me, makes me feel uncomfortable. like is that a thing or is that just me being miserable

#like it’s the thing where. #like. i feel bad but one of my irl friends talks about her boyfriend a lot and every time im like oh my god can we PLEASEEE NOT #or like. what’s making me ask is realizing that it’s like #that exact feeling is what also makes me feel viscerally uncomfortable w x readers or self ship stuff #and i feel bad because obviously there’s nothing wrong with them you can do whatever you want forever etc #but it just. ughhhh makes me feel so weird #like it’s almost like a. ‘you guys actually want this? you wouldn’t feel trapped and miserable?’ feeling #but idk. i think because i don’t feel this way about romance as a concept just with irl stuff that it’s probably just. idk #me being miserable about other people being happy or some shit #txt

[i-am-church-the-cat]

Okay no one talk to me bc I haven’t watched the race yet but I just finished Nightbane by Alex Aster and am currently Losing It. I need the third book rn.

#lightlark #nightbane #spoilers for the book from this point on #OH MY GOD #WHAT DO YOU MEAN SHE’S GOING TO KILL ONE OF THEM???? #ALEX #ALEX PLEASE #I HATE LOVE TRIANGLES YOU CAN’T DO THIS TO ME #wait if it’s possible to bring people back to life in the Other World then could she theoretically bring Oro/Grim back? #also SHE’S DEAD???? WHAT????? #also are the dreks what Oro was talking about when he said Grim was protecting them all from something in the last book? #WAIT BUT- #SHE’S LIFE AND DEATH SHE’S BOTH #SHE’S BOTH ALIVE AND DEAD #YOU CAN BRING SOMETHING BACK FROM DEATH SO WHAT WILL SHE BRING BACK FROM ORO/GRIM’S DEATH? #also what are your bets kn who she kills? #atp signs are pointing to oro especially with the stuff that enya was saying #like isla is basically born to be his doom #but also i don’t think isla wants to go to the other world atp #idk I NEED THE THIRD BOOK #also if she’s going to shack up with grim now: how is he going to act knowing she isn’t only his? #how will they act together? just bc isla loves him doesn’t mean they’ll be all domestic like she and oro were #and god idk which couple i love more #they also hate each other so polyam seems unlikely #i think the only thing that makes sense here is that she dies as well #she can’t go and kill one guy and then live happily ever after with the other #she’ll be haunted by the loss of one of her great lives #and whoever guy lives wouldn’t be able to bear it #honestly in situations like this i’m always an all or nothing person #also i hit 30 tags so i can’t say more but gods. this series man

[the-river-of-light]

sorry about your boyfriend btw. yeah I transed her gender. she's a girl now. wait you're cool with that? oh

#professor layton #rangela #randall ascot #hershel layton #angela ledore #r does an art #trans headcanon #btw: masked gentleman is now a woman. she transed her gender even harder after she fell #and descole's letter was addressed to her deadname ofc bc he wouldn’t know she transed her gender #so she's like. ok that isn't my name. but god i can't believe my friends would do that to me. i'll join you if you don't call me that again #descole a fellow deadname haver: okay yeah sure #idk *what* she would choose as her new name in this scenario tbh but #i don't hc angela as a lesbian btw but i think the phrasing of her coming out is ambiguous enough where it could be any sapphic orientation #idk how to do the 'sorry i did something to your boyfriend' meme i tried

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

Still thinking about my convo with my friend this morning and just a little sad that we can’t share this thing we enjoyed so much together anymore. 😕 she’s perfectly entitled to her opinions just like I am mine so I absolutely respect hers (which is why I won’t even bring it up anymore) but it just kinda sucks that not only do we not agree on Taylor anymore but that it would actually be a flashpoint at this point I think.

Ah well, that’s what Tumblr is for.

#*small voice* do I think she’s overreacting about the Celine thing yes #but who am I to judge what people’s breaking points are #lol it’s kind of reminding me of when I was a kid and I bought my first CD which incidentally was a Celine album #and I was so proud of myself for using my own money to buy it! #and then one day a friend of my mom’s was over and saw it on the shelf and was like #’oh my god WHY would you ever buy HER ALBUM it’s such schlock!!!’ #and I was right there and my mom was like ‘actually it’s waves’ and she chose it and bought it with her own money she saved for it’ #and even though I appreciated my mom sticking up for me #that was one of the first times I was like ‘oh wow I have to hide something I like because other people will mock me for it’ #and while my friend wouldn’t mock me for this #I know she is enraged by Taylor in general now and used this as an excuse #and it woudlnt be a good thing for me to express any support of Taylor in her presence #(and the fuck of it all is that I also wasn’t thrilled with Taylor last night for other reasons! but I didn’t take it personally lol)

[realcowboysdrinkjuice]

barely anyone follows me so this will get zero notes but i do not care i am so excited and need to share this somewhere

I GOT MY FIRST COLLEGE ACCEPTANCE LETTER!!!!! FOR THE UK!!!!! SO NO MATTER WHAT THE OTHERS SAY I HAVE A YES!!! AND IM SO EXCITED HOLY SHIT!!!! ITS ALL I WANTED!!!!!!

and i was so fucking scared especially with covid making my gap year long and making everything scarier but i did it and no matter what happens i have a place to go and things are finally moving forward again and holy fuvk i’m going to study illustration overseas like i wanted to before shit went BAD because OOF CLASS OF 2021 NOT A GOOD YEAR especially not a good year in the united states of america where they didnt do jack all to try and prevent it DEAR GOD !!!! bUT OH MY GOD!!!!!!!

usually i’d yell to my family but everyone is asleep oops because it’s almost 6 am my sleep schedule is WRECKED RN so nobody is awake and i did. text anyway cause it was big enough to do it anyways but i was still just yelling into the void so i’m yelling into the void here too

#anyway that’s all now i’ll go back to not making my own posts ever #my post #i’m so fucking happy i opened my email cause ever since i applied in june i developed a subconscious habit of just opening my email and #refreshing it whenever i run out of things to do #so i just occasionally idly refresh my inbox without even thinking #and i did the same like thirty minutes ago not expecting anything cause i wasn’t even thinking #and i was like huh. an email from zoom. that’s annoying and oH MY GOD WHAT IS UNDERNEATH IT #but i know it’s imposter syndrome but i was genuinely so fucking terrified id get five nos and be stuck #because you can’t apply again on the website till the next school year #so if i got five nos i genuinely wouldn’t be able to apply again for the full year #and i already will be 21 when i start which feels fucked even though i know logically that’s okay like calm down aging isn’t bad it’s okay #it’s okay and it’s understandable there was a fucking pandemic ofc the gap year went off #still wild that my sister started college a year before me cause it’s her first year this year and my first will be next year #but yeah #but i know it was the imposter syndrome but i was still so fuckin scared #so getting my first response and it being a yes genuinely brought me to tears #i should have kept writing the post this is all just the same flavor as the post was just in the tags instead

[winnie-the-monster]

Me at the legacies writers

#and it’s not just Landon/Hope/Handon #it’s all the characters/‘friendships’/storylines #the truly messed up the last two seasons of the show #they would write Hope/Landon occ just for the sake of whatever they wanted to do #they would have these big speeches/moments to show good friendships(panda promise Hope wouldn’t fight alone only for Hope to fight alone) #a whole speech about how Lizzie couldn’t kill Hope to Lizzie trying to kill her the very next episode #talking about how they would never leave a friend behind but would gladly leave them behind if it was convenient for them #I bet the wouldn’t have even tried to save Cleo if they didn’t need her muse powers #and so on #or them foreshadowing something only to make all that foreshadowing for nothing #spending a whole season setting up something only to make it pointless #making a big deal about malivore wanting Cleo to use her muse powers/gave him a vision and did nothing with it #save them with him taking Hope/golem Landon’s hair & ripper Kaleb #OG triad was over before it even began. idk if I can call the god storyline a storyline at all #limbo?? they kept changing limbo like it was nothing/even the ferryman thing made no sense #oh and does anyone else remember before s4 started they said all would be revealed? revealed nothing/gave us more questions #as well as so many other things #I don’t when or if I’ll ever be over what they did to show #bc it truly says something when the show ends with me only liking to characters and wanting justice for them