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The Long Haul

^Gorgeous art is a commission from the talented @holydean.

(Written mid-Season 14; canon divergent in that Michael and the Empty are both no longer threats.)

Rating: M

Tags: Destiel, denial of feelings, angst with a happy ending, first kiss

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Dean couldn’t remember the last time he’d felt this exhausted. What had initially seemed like a routine salt-and-burn just south of Wichita had quickly devolved into a case involving a set of cursed sex toys and no less than five very pissed off ghosts who’d apparently never quite gotten over their commune catching fire during an orgy back in the ’70s. He and Cas had managed it, but only barely.

As soon as the final spirit vanished with a burst of flame and several outdated--and, Dean couldn’t help but feel, pretty damn hypocritical, all things considered--slurs, Dean slumped against the nearest tree, closing his eyes and wincing slightly at what felt like at least one bruised rib.

So much for hippies being all about peace and love and all that crap...

No sooner had the thought crossed his mind than Dean felt a familiar, feather-light touch against his temple. The pain in his abdomen faded, replaced by a warm, tingling sensation, and Dean opened his eyes just in time to see Cas’s gaze return from burning ice to its normal shade of blue.

“Are you all right?” Cas asked quietly, withdrawing his hand, and Dean nodded.

“Yeah, ’m good, thanks. Man, talk about one for the books. Can’t wait to fill Sammy in on what he and Jack missed.”

Cas quirked a small smile. “Yes, I’m sure Sam will deeply regret not having been here for--what was the term you used? Oh, right: this ‘literal clusterfuck of a case.’ As for Jack, I’ll admit to more than a little relief that we don’t have to explain the particulars of, ah, group love. Truth be told,” admitted Cas with a thoughtful tilt of his head, “I’m not sure I fully understand all of the mechanics myself.”

Dean smirked. “Yeah, well, don’t worry, buddy; it ain’t all it’s cracked up to be. Three can be fun, but any more than that’s just too much damn work.”

That earned him a shocked stare that quickly softened into one of amusement when Cas caught the glint in Dean’s eyes. “You’re joking.”

Dean chuckled, pushing off the tree and clapping Cas on the shoulder as he brushed past. “Not about three bein' fun, but yeah, never done anything beyond that. So, you ready to head back? Should be able to make it home before dawn if we get goin’ now.”

“Dean, you’re exhausted. We should go back to the motel and leave in the morning, after you’ve rested.”

“Nah, place had crappy beds, and I miss my damn memory foam. Besides,” he added with a shrug as they approached Baby, “ain’t like I’ve never driven tired before.”

It was true. From the time he’d first learned to drive--which had admittedly been well before he was legally old enough to drive--Dean had grown accustomed to long hauls on the open road. Often it had been because his dad had been hurt after a hunt gone awry; on other, rarer occasions such as his parents’ wedding anniversary, it was because John was drunk, and Dean sure as hell wasn’t going to let him drive with Sam in the car. Even in later years, when it had just been the two brothers, Dean had continued his habit of refusing Sam’s offers to drive when they were both obviously tired, usually by bitching about his younger brother’s probable choice of music until Sam would roll his eyes and shuffle toward the passenger side in defeat. Secretly, Dean didn’t give a damn what Sam played on the radio, but he always smiled when Sam, almost inevitably, ended up snoring softly against the passenger door. Some things, Dean knew, you just endured for the sake of the people you cared about.

Dean was reaching for the driver-side door when his fingers were abruptly blocked by Cas’s hand covering the handle. Letting out a huff of annoyance, he turned to ask Cas what the hell only to find a look of equal if not greater stubbornness on the angel’s face. “And it isn’t like I’m not an angel of the Lord who doesn’t need to rest. You haven’t slept properly in days, and that fight took more out of you than you’re willing to admit. So, either you hand me the keys, or I’ll put you to sleep and retrieve them myself.”

If it had been anyone else, Dean would have continued to argue, but as he met Cas’s determined glare, he felt a long-familiar flush that he knew had nothing to do with anger creeping up the back of his neck.

Son of a bitch, not again...

“Fine,” Dean grumbled, shoving the keys into Cas’s free hand before the angel could discern things in his expression that Dean would strongly prefer to leave unsaid. He stalked around to the passenger side, mentally kicking himself with words like Cas and off limits and freaking angel, for fuck’s sake. Dean had long since come to accept, albeit grudgingly, that he might not be as straight as he’d once thought, but that didn’t mean he was going to let himself go full-metal gay for his best friend just because the way Cas looked at him made him feel things sometimes. If there was one thing Dean was good at besides killing monsters, it was burying shit he’d rather not deal with.

They drove in silence, the late hour meaning that they had the road largely to themselves. Dean was determined to stay awake, but it turned out that pure spite wasn’t quite the energizer he remembered it to be, and he ended up drifting into an uneasy sleep about thirty minutes into the drive.

He dreamed that he was underwater, flailing and gasping for breath. Fighting panic, he made a frantic swim for the surface only to find that it was a solid, translucent wall he was powerless to break through.

No...God, no, please, not again...

He hadn’t been strong enough. Michael had won. And just like that, Dean knew that he was looking out through his body’s eyes and that those were his hands wrapped around Cas’s neck in the bunker kitchen, Sam and Jack’s crumpled bodies lying on the floor nearby. All around Dean, a horrible, smug voice echoed through the depths...

Because I can, Dean. Because I can.

Dean screamed. He beat his fists against the barrier until blood filled the water and stung his eyes, but it didn’t matter, nothing mattered, he couldn’t do a damn thing to put the light back in Cas’s eyes, couldn’t even catch the angel’s body as it too was tossed aside. He was helpless, he was useless, and this was all his fault, it was all his fault, it was--

“Dean!"

--all his--

“Dean!”

--fault...

“Dean, wake up!”

Dean opened his eyes with a gasp, jolting violently against an unyielding solid, and oh god, it hadn’t been a dream, he really was trapped, he--

“Dean.” Strong arms wrapped around him, gripping him tightly, and Dean heard the click of his seatbelt being released before he was pulled forward into a protective embrace. “Dean, it’s all right, you’re all right.”

“...Cas?”

“I’m here.”

“Michael, he--”

“Michael is gone. We beat him. You’re safe.”

So are you.

Dean closed his eyes, let his head fall forward onto Cas’s shoulder, personal space be damned. “Fuck,” he whispered, his voice weak and muffled against the rough fabric of Cas’s trenchcoat. “Fuck, goddamn it...”

They stayed like that, Cas’s hands moving in soothing circles against Dean’s back as Dean worked to regain control of his breathing. Dimly, he realized that Cas must have pulled over before managing to wake him: as he gazed sideways out the windshield, he saw wild grass illuminated by the headlights Cas hadn’t bothered to turn off. Part of Dean knew that he should pull back, that in his current position and state of mind he was liable to say something he’d immediately regret, but before he could muster up the energy to move, he was stilled by the soft sound of Cas’s voice:

“All the pain you’ve endured throughout your life...I wish that I could take it away.”

Dean felt a lump forming in his throat. “Yeah, well,” he managed to say, “’s’not like me cryin’ ’bout it’s gonna do any good. I can deal with it, ’s what I do.”

“I know.” Dean could hear the slow smile in Cas’s voice, even if he couldn’t see it. “You are the strongest being I have ever known, and in spite of everything you’ve gone through--”

“I’m a fucking mess, Cas.”

“--in spite of everything you’ve gone through, you are brave, and you are thoughtful, and you are kind.” There was a pause, and Dean felt the rough tickle of Cas’s stubble as the angel turned to brush his lips against the base of Dean’s neck. “You are good, Dean Winchester, whether or not you let yourself believe it.” Another pause; when Cas spoke again, his voice was barely louder than a whisper: “And if you cannot love yourself, then I will love you enough for the both of us.”

Dean stiffened in surprise, his breath catching in a way that should have been painful, except...no. No, he must have misunderstood, because there was no way, it just wasn’t possible...

“I love you, Dean.”

...unless...

Dean pulled back abruptly, just far enough to see Cas’s face. The way Cas was looking at him...God, it shouldn’t have been possible, Dean never thought it could ever be fucking possible, and yet...

...it was.

I’m done burying this.

Before he could lose his nerve, Dean leaned forward into Cas and kissed him. Cas made a deep, needy sound in the back of his throat and pulled Dean flush against his chest, returning the kiss an intensity that burned away any trace of doubt still lingering in Dean’s mind. He wrapped one arm around Cas’s torso and brought his other hand up to tangle in the angel’s hair, gripping Cas just as tightly as Cas was gripping him and knowing in the most profound depths of his soul that this was good, this was right.

He'd finally gotten something right.

#dean winchester #castiel #destiel #deancas #supernatural #the long haul #spn #fanfiction #angst #angst with a happy ending #happy birthday rauko!#my writing

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Profound Member Post - January 2020

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The Masterpost is open for all creations by ProfoundBond members which are posted in their entirety during that month.

This months round up is extra special as PB celebrated its 2 year anniversary with a creation birthday bash. You will find submissions for this monumental occasion marked with a 🎂 emoji! Happy Birthday PB and thank you to everyone who makes this server, and our corner of the fandom so great!

MEMBER CONTRIBUTIONS FOR JANUARY 2020!

Featuring works by @nox-lee, @nickelkeep, @maleyah-givemetomorrow, @banshee1013, ArielAquarial, @castielslostwings, @butterflydreaming-writes-fic, @goldenraeofsun, @jemariel, @surlybobbies, @blueeyesandpie, @rauko-creates, @foxymoley, @maggiemaybe160, and, @andimeantittosting!

Masterpost below the cut.

noxlee - @nox-lee - noxlee - (Pillowfort)

Soft (E, 1.7k)

15x10 coda. Dean discovers that his new "normal" extends to his sex life as well.

Tags: coda, established relationship, mediocre sex

nickelkeep - @nickelkeep - nickelkeep

Tupelo Honey (E, 5.5k) 🎂

When one of his co-workers fall through on a photo shoot, Dean steps up to help out and cover it. Who knew that there was a such thing as a beekeeper's society? And who knew that a gorgeous blue-eyed man would be a beekeeper?

Tags: AU - Modern, Photographer!Dean, Beekeeper!Cas, Nude Photoshoot, Pinups, Cas acts like Endverse!Cas, Semi-Public Sex

Time Alone (T, 1.9k) 🎂

Dean wants some alone time with Cas. The best way to do that? Find a case and tell Sam and Jack to stay behind.

Tags: Canonverse, Casefic, Salt and Burn, Established Relationship, Secret Relationship, Impala Kisses.

‘Til I Found Salvation (M, 14k)

Finding your soulmate isn't hard when almost everyone has multiple soulmates; four, five even upwards of seven. It's rare to have only three soul marks and people who only have two? Sucks to be them. And the poor sons of bitches who only have one? They're the unluckiest of all. Dean Winchester knows a thing or two about being unlucky.

Tags: Canonverse, Canon Divergent, Soulmate Marks, Angst with a Happy Ending, Temp. MCD, Whump, Hurt/Comfort

Something to Talk About (T, 5.6k)

Charlie pointed up at her ear. "You don't hear that?"

"Hear what?" Dean closed his eyes and rested for a moment. He realized that music played in the background and started searching for the source immediately. "Wait, is that... Is that Zeppelin playing?

"Bunker, play 'Houses of the Holy,'" Charlie replied, a smirk on her face.

The first few haunting notes of the Zeppelin classic started playing, and Dean's head whipped around in surprise. "Where's that coming from? Did you buy one of those damned Alexa Despacito things for the bunker?"

Tags: Canonverse, AU - Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies, Charlie & Sam ship Destiel, Home Automation, Domesticity in the Bunker, Pranks and Practical Jokes

Balance to the Force (E, 7.5k)

When needing their privacy in open areas, Charlie and Dean have no problem switching to an uncommon language - Sindarin, from Lord of the Rings. But when they start speaking it at Nerd Convention, does Dean bite off more than he can chew?

Tags: AU - Modern Setting, AU - ComicCons, Gratuitous Nerdiness, Polygot!Cas, Language/Accent Kink, Strangers to Lovers

Space Oddity (SFW) 🎂

Art for @maggiemaybe160‘s fic Space Oddity

Maleyah - @maleyah-givemetomorrow - Maleyah

Where the Corporeal and Poetry Meet (E, 3.6k)

Part one of a series of ficlets exploring a season 9 divergence, where Cas is brought back to the Bunker and explores his humanity with Dean. "Straddling him as they make out, Dean whispers the suggestion that night. He binds Castiel’s hands with his own tie, which spikes Castiel’s breathing. He’s sure that if he still possessed his grace, his eyes would light up the dimly lit room in pale blue. His eventual orgasm knocks the breath out of him and it takes a long time to come back down into the safe circle of Dean’s arms.

They take it from there."

Tags: Human!Cas, Light Bondage, Light Dom/sub, Soft Dom!Dean, Soft sub!Cas, Poetry, Idiots in Love, Domestic Fluff

Where Kinks and Breakfast Meet (M, 3k)

Part two of a season 9 divergence series where Cas gets brought back to the Bunker and explores his humanity with Dean. "But he still wants to engage Cas. Fully. He’s only unwilling to put Cas at a similar risk, despite Cas’ persistent reassurances that his drop was related to the realisation that hit him mid-play. They do further research together. Into shibari. Into bondage. Into subspace. Drops. Both on the Dom and sub’s end. So he realises he suffered one in the wake of their moment and that he went about handling it the wrong way. A few days ago, Dean found a promising list, which he insisted they fill in to avoid a repeat performance. With everything they have been up to, Dean has faith (who knew?) they are compatible, but he wants clarity. He smiles at the feelings that loosens up inside his chest and huffs, rolling his eyes at himself."

Tags: Human!Cas, Kink Negotiation, Domestic Fluff, Soft Dom!Dean, Soft sub!Cas, switching implied, Sam Winchester Ships Castiel/Dean Winchester

Banshee1013 - @banshee1013 - Banshee1013

Texas Sun (M, 4k) 🎂

Ever since Cas and Dean tied the knot, they have been driving Sam *insane* with their inappropriately located and utterly spontaneous make-out suggestions. So when he finds them looking at filming locations for the movie "Tombstone" in Arizona, he suggests they take some time (and give him a break!) and road-trip it. Dean plans the route and takes the long way 'round through Texas - all the more time to spend with his angel, and show him some sights along the way.

Tags: Fluff, Road Trips, Sam Winchester is Not Amused, Honeymoon, Grinding, Canon Related, Established Relationship

ArielAquariel - ArielAquariel

Your hand in mine, we walk the miles (E, 11.5k)

With the big day finally there, Dean is more than ready to walk down that aisle and marry Cas.

Tags: Wedding Fluff, Honeymoon, Established Relationship, Alternate Universe, Castiel is Claire Novak's Parent, Fluff, Domestic Fluff

castielslostwings - @castielslostwings - castielslostwings

Slide Away (E, 51k)

Since meeting and falling in love in front of the camera a decade ago, movie star Dean Winchester and his husband, celebrity photographer Castiel, have been the media’s darlings. From the outside, it truly appears as if the couple has it all: fame, fortune, fans and most of all, a profound and unshakeable bond that sees them through all the highs and lows. Behind the scenes, everything is not as it seems. Beyond carefully-curated sets of photos and filters, Dean and Castiel have been falling apart for years. Their marriage is essentially over, the latest victim in Hollywood’s merciless grinder. As a last-ditch effort to punch out some positive PR before news of their split breaks, the boys agree to do one last PR stunt—a recreation of the photos that made the world fall in love with them (while they were falling for each other). Will this plan drive their relationship over the edge permanently? Or will Dean and Castiel finally realize that their fans aren’t the only ones who have been fooled by all the smoke and mirrors? Misunderstandings, miscommunication, and mistrust are only the beginning. But if our heroes can push past those mistakes, perhaps they can learn that it's never too late to start all over again.

Tags: Miscommunication, Misunderstanding, Fake Relationship, Idiots back to lovers, Movie Star Dean, Photographer Castiel, Accidental sex tape, divorce, mutual pining, angst with a happy ending.

looks_clear (chrysalisdreams) - @butterflydreaming-writes-fic - looks_clear (chrysalisdreams)

White Light // Black Water (T, 7k)

In 2019, the Baozhu, a pearl that granted the desire of Dean’s heart, changed the timeline from a particular moment in 2003. Dean is hunting alone when events set in motion before that year catch up to him.

Tags: Drowning, Temporary Character Death, Car Accidents, Baby Gets Hurt, Time Travel, Episode Related, Episode S8e12: As Time Goes By, Episode S14e300: Lebanon, Kale!Sam, Alternate Angel Lore

goldenraeofsun - @goldenraeofsun - goldenraeofsun

Dean Winchester and the Patron Saint of Blind Dates (T, 18k)

Dean Winchester's friends are a bunch of traitors. So he had a bad breakup two years ago and hasn't gotten back on the horse. Their intervention - a series of blind dates - can't be the solution. But if this'll get his friends to stop, Dean can choke down over-priced spaghetti, make forced conversation, and drink whatever random cocktail the weirdo behind the bar makes for him next. At least Cas has Dean's back. One word from Dean, and he'll make excuses for Dean to bail like a super awkward knight in shining armor.

Tags: Human AU, Bartender Cas, Dean has self-worth issues, minor angst, Benny & Dean friendship, minor Sam/Ruby

jemariel - @jemariel - jemariel

Spit-Polish and Shine (E, 1.5k) 🎂

You know how Dean Winchester doesn't wear shorts? Well. Sometimes he does. Unredeemed filthy porn on a car. Prompted by a PB botstat.

Tags: Plot What Plot/Porn Without Plot, Sex on a Car, Exhibitionism, Masturbation, Anal Sex, Established Relationship, Sam Winchester is Scarred For Life

surlybobbies - @surlybobbies - surlybobbies

I Like the Sound of That (T, 1k)

In mid-December, Gabe hangs a sprig of mistletoe in Cas’s foyer. Cas, resisting the temptation to strangle his brother, snaps a picture and sends it to Dean. Take it down or leave it up? Idk dude. U trying to catch someone under there? Cas hedges. I don’t want to kiss anyone who’d only do it because of a plant. Fair enough. Just leave it up tho. U’ll break an ankle climbing up ur rickety ladder. Dw u don’t have to kiss me Cas puts his phone down and doesn’t reply. He indulges in two glasses of wine and valiantly tries to avoid thinking about kissing Dean.

Tags: friends to lovers, christmas fic, fluff, mistletoe, au

Lucky Enough (T, 2.5k)

Dean opened his mouth, ready to argue, but then closed it just as suddenly, deflating. He sighed and ran a hand over his face. “Cas, I don’t mean to be a dick.” “Then stop being one,” Cas said simply, adjusting the blankets around Dean a little more securely. There was a pause. Dean blinked. “You’re supposed to say that I wasn’t being a dick in the first place.” “I dislike lying to you.” Dean scowled. “Why am I your friend?” “Because I spend my holidays looking after you when you’re sick,” Cas said matter-of-factly, reaching out to touch Dean’s forehead. [Dean's sick over the New Year's Eve holiday, but it's fine because Cas has got a bed to share.]

Tags: holiday fic, bed sharing, hurt/comfort, friends to lovers, new year's kiss, cuddling

blueeyesandpie - @blueeyesandpie - blueeyesandpie

Beginnings (SFW) 🎂

The door to Dean's room in the Bunker, with Cas's tie on the doorknob

Tags: the bunker, pb100, we all know what's happening in there

In the California Sun (SFW)

A commissioned painting for Slide Away of Dean and Cas standing in a pool.

Tags: slide away, commissions, the tension amirite

Commission for Slide Away (SFW)

A commission for Slide Away of Cas running into Dean's arms along a corridor lined with photos of their rekindled romance.

Tags: commission, yay they happy

The Kiss Cam (E, 8k) 🎂

Dean's excited about the tickets he got for the OSU/UofM football match, but his boyfriend Crowley seems intent on ruining the day (and possibly his life) for him. When the kiss cam settles on them and Crowley pushes Dean away, a blue-eyed man they'd met in line is more than happy to fill the void. Loosely based on the headline/prompt "Woman Kisses Man Next to Her on Kiss Cam After Date Snubs Her."

Tags: manipulative crowley, non-explicit dean/crowley, minor sabriel, strangers to lovers, angst and fluff and e-rated shenanigans, NOT a sports story, pb birthday bash, collaboration

Say It Straight (T, 1.7k) 🎂

Something went wrong in that milk run to Kentucky, but neither Dean nor Cas want to explain what happened. When the truth does come out, it isn't at all what Sam expected...though really, why should he be surprised?

Tags: PoV: Sam Winchester, Sam ships it, Idiots to Lovers, Canonverse, drinking to cope, PB Bot Prompts, first time, no spoilers past season 13

rauko-creates - @rauko-creates - FeaRauko

Sing Love (T, 2.7k)

Castiel comes back from a grocery run with Sam and overhears Dean singing in the shower. ***or*** That one where Castiel finds out that Dean might love him too.

Tags: canonverse, singing, idiots in love, first kiss, fluff, some angst, love confessions

foxymoley - @foxymoley - foxymoley

Hell’s Companion (G, 350 words)

This is for saltnhalo's birthday!

It's hard to write for someone so talented but I scoured PB for any prompts she had shown an interest in and apparently she 'needed this'! Lol So here we are!

Prompt by Sky: You’ve heard of witch!cas and familiar!dean now consider this upgrade to demon!cas and hellhound!dean - hellhounds, of course, having a secret human form in this au.

Tags: Castiel/Dean Winchester, Demon Castiel, Hellhound Dean, non-explicit/implied torture of random unnamed demon, mention of Boy King Sam

Roll for Dragons (T, 2.8k) 🎂

Dean is offered up as a sacrifice by his corrupt hometown. Written for jdragon as part of the Profoundbond birthday bash.

Tags: Castiel/Dean Winchester, Charlie Bradbury, Jo Harvelle, Dragons, Alternate Universe - Historical

Mithril (G, 1k) 🎂

Dean makes an interesting discovery in a bunker storeroom so he and Sam perform some experiments.

Tags: Established Castiel/Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Weapons, The Lord of the Rings References, Men of Letters, Bunker, Soft!Dean

MaggieMaybe160 - @maggiemaybe160 - MaggieMaybe160

Birthday Wishes (M, 3.5k)

Dean recalls his past birthdays before going out to celebrate his 41st.

Tags: Graphic Violence Warning. Heavy Angst. Anti-John Winchester.

Broken (M, 700 words)

Dean snaps out of a dreamlike state and found he's made a huge mistake and it's Zachariah's fault. All part of a plan to get him to say yes to Michael.

Tags: Graphic Violence Warning. Major Character Death Warning. Heavy Angst.

Demon Deals and Prayers to Angels (T, 4.5k) 🎂

Dean makes a deal with a demon so he can go back in time and change the future.

Tags: Major Character Death Warning. Heavy Angst.

Sleep Oddity (T, 1.5k) 🎂

Based on a prompt: "I just want to go home," said the astronaut. "So come home," said Ground Control. "So come home," said a voice from the stars.

Tags: Major Character Death Warning

Falling (T, 2k) 🎂

Cas remembers all of the times that Heaven was against he and Dean getting together, and the repeated times he didn't care.

Tags: Graphic Violence Warning. Happy Ending.

Memories on Display (T, 2k) 🎂

Cas is in shock after a battle and is going through memories to try to cope with loss.

Tags: Major Character Death. Grief.

andimeantittosting - @andimeantittosting - andimeantittosting

On a Breath of Snow (G, 4.5k)

Once, Castiel, Duke of Rexford, gave up the love of his life in the name of duty and honour. He has dedicated his life to raising his son Jack. Now, a fierce snowstorm brings Dean, Viscount Winchester back into his life on Christmas Eve. And as North Cove Castle's fires burn warm and festive, so do Dean and Castiel’s feelings of hope.

Tags: Regency AU, Getting back together, Christmas, Alternate history

#Profoundnet Monthly Masterpost #january masterpost #dean winchester #castiel #destiel #spn #sorry this took so long guys!#the past months have been A Lot

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