#i actually can't stand them idk

[leafsfromthevine]

dallas and ian be normal with each other for more than 3 seconds challenge (impossible)

#i actually can't stand them idk #source: teen vogue “i dare you” #context: ian dared to put an awkward photo on his ig story #significance: it's the bts for the kiawentiio .5 that is likely actively shaping modern zukka nation #like the art for this picture was chef's kiss #and now. we understand why it exists #so i had to share with you all #their bromance is everything to me #and i cant help but project them onto zukka they've literally told us to #dallas liu #ian ousley

[hella1975]

there's a very specific kind of vibe that comes with living with your friends in final year that it just does not have in first year or even second year. like as a fresher it's usually the first time any of you have lived away from home let alone with SO MANY people your age and it's terrifying and exciting and randomised to boot so it's generally carnage for a whole year in the best and worst ways, and then second year you pick who you're living with and it feels like for the first time you're doing this adult thing PROPERLY. you have a place of your own now. these are the people you've chosen to live with. studying gets serious etc. but it's still fresh. it's still new. you still don't know how to navigate it. but final year? final year is when you actually get it right. you know how to manage your time better. you know what works for you and what doesn't. studying is the main focus and you've been out in the world for three years now and it's not loud and boisterous like it was in first year and you're not exciteable and awkward like you were in second year. you're comfortable. every single one of my flatmates has their own friend group and we mainly keep to our own social circles, but we'll still meet each other back at the house after a night out and sit in the kitchen or my room to do the debrief. sometimes i'll go days not seeing either of them despite sharing a house but every now and then someone will softly call up the stairs that 'the heating's on!' or one of us will sneeze and the other two will yell 'bless you!' through the walls. the lack of interaction isn't interpreted as dislike in ways it would have been even last year, because we're all just old enough to be past that now and settled enough in our friendship not to worry about it. idk. uni is very loud and unsettling a lot of the time so it's been really sweet to see how almost boringly comfortable final year is.

#like my day today was literally drag myself out of bed at 10am to meet my econ friends bc we're in a group together #and i spent two hours with them writing a fucking TRADE REPORT before coming home #and the rest of the day was kinda lost. i showered. i put a wash on. i had a nap. i mainly stayed in my room #which sometimes is the End Of All Things but today was quite nice #and i can hear in their rooms how my flatmates are doing the exact same thing. pottering about and getting on with uni #and we've barely spoken all day but earlier my one flatmate ran into my room all excited to show me her nails #bc she's been teaching herself to do gels and it took her 2 hours but im still one of the first people she wanted to show #and just now we all went to use the bathroom at the same time and it led to one of our Stair Sessions #where we all inexplicably just gather on the stairs and chat for no reason with a cup of tea #idk it's just nice. it's such basic shit but i can't belive in first year i used to spend EVERY DAY with these girls #and we were one single friendship group and that was all we had #and then in second year one girl branched off bc she lived in a studio and got into her societies #but me and the other girl lived together again and it was the same thing of she was a friend before she was someone i lived with #and weirdly that can actually be detrimental to a dynamic. but this year we're all just very solidified and confident in ourselves #and where we stand and yes we all have our own friendship groups outside of the house now #but there's still that love and simple comfortableness around each other that you only get with time and a hell of a lot of proximity #and a sense of being settled that maybe is just what happens as you get older #idk it's just really nice. if i had this exact same day in first year (doing economics and barely leaving my room) #it would've been a really bad depressive day for me so the fact i can find such contentment from it now is really heartening #i love my little life here im very proud of what ive been able to achieve :) #hella goes to uni #feeling nostalgic because SOME BITCH decided to ribs post

[lord-squiggletits]

Something else that makes me sympathetic to Pharma's situation is like. Idk if there's an actual term for this or if someone smarter and more academic wrote it about some real life context that actually matters.

But, so we've already established among Pharma stans that the circumstances at Delphi were blackmail/torture with no real way out that wouldn't involve Pharma being responsible for people getting killed (either killing patients for the deal or having everyone die bc he failed his end of the deal).

And I feel like while "he's still in the wrong because he killed people" is part of it, another sort of implicit part is the idea that Pharma should've been willing to take more personal risk, maybe even risk dying? I mean, Ratchet does ask "why didn't you just detonate it near the DJD" (to which Pharma responds that he did try to get Sonic and Boom to do it, but they refused) so like

Idk I feel like we do have this social notion of martyrs as a very romantic ideal, people you can praise for being so brave and strong and righteous that they ended their own lives for their cause, while you can also coo about how sad and tragic it is that dying is what it took for them to do the right thing. But at the same time I feel like in reality, having an expectation that people become martyrs is kind of a toxic social norm bc like. It's very easy to demand that others sacrifice their lives for some Ultimate Moral Good when you yourself aren't experiencing the same hardships as they are. And ultimately it is kind of fucked up to tell someone "the moral thing you should've done was risk your life/kill yourself" because asking someone to pay their life to do the right thing is no small request. And sure, the typical response would be to call them a "coward" for caring more about saving their own skin instead of doing the right thing... but again, death is a really scary thing and self-preservation is a really strong instinct, so it kind of feels like having this binary view of "you're either a Brave Hero who sacrifices your life for everyone else or a Dirty Coward who's too scared of dying to do what's right" is kind of fucked up?

I guess the best way to describe it is that if someone willingly gives up their life as a sacrifice to others, it can be a noble thing because it's a choice they made willingly, but if it becomes a Moral Standard that in order to be a Good Person you have to be unafraid of throwing your life away and if you aren't willing to die you're a Cowardly Bad Person, that's when it becomes toxic.

Idk, I guess how this ties back to Pharma is that he was never in a position where he expected to make these kinds of moral decisions/ultimatums. He's a doctor who doesn't even get into combat, his job is to heal and not to kill, he's behind the front lines in a hospital that's supposed to be a safe, neutral place for him to heal people. So in the face of suddenly having a "murder people on behalf of me, or I murder everyone you swore to protect" ultimatum thrust upon him, I understand why Pharma wasn't """"""""""brave enough"""""""""" to "do the right thing" (whatever that would've been in the case of Delphi). You could argue that maybe a frontliner soldier accepted the burden of possibly dying for their cause and they've become used to it as someone who lives that reality every single day, but I feel like for Pharma, who's a doctor and a protected non-combatant (from what we can tell), that sort of risking of his life/living with the fact his life could be snuffed out any day isn't something he would've been prepared for at all.

And for me personally, from an outsider's perspective, it strikes me as kind of unethical to go "oh well he should've just detonated the bomb himself even if it killed him" bc again, there's a difference between witnessing a moral conundrum as a bystander versus being the person living with it and being under time pressure where it's do-or-die. Just as part of my personal standards, I feel like death is such a huge consequence/burden of someone's actions (literally you are no longer alive, any potential you had left is cut short, you cease to exist on this plane) that it feels rather callous to go "Well you should've just been willing to die for your beliefs if you really cared that much!!!"

#squiggposting #pharma apologism #this is only like tangentially related to pharma honestly #not to compare blorbos to real life but like. it reminds me of this phenomenon where privileged ppl in privileged countries #will tell ppl living in zones of war and strife 'oh well if you don't like your gov so bad just revolt against them' #like oh yes tell me how easy it is to stand up against the threats of torture and death #surely the only reason people would want to avoid that is bc they're cowards or don't want to stand up for their beliefs #contrary to what nationalism would have ppl believe. 'wanting to not die' isn't a moral position #everyone wants to live. no one wants to die. it doesnt make you a bad person to be scared of dying #esp (going back to blorbo's) in a situation like pharma's where every option he had ended in death #the death of his patients or the death of everyone at delphi or his death personally #on top of the fact he's a noncombatant who hasn't been desensitized to violence/risking his own life #and is dealing with a trained group of killers that he can't possibly match on physical terms #so yeah actually i don't blame pharma for what he did #he made shitty decisions in a shitty situation but was ultimately a victim #also if you want to view the blackmail deal from a framework of abuse #it is also fucked up to basically tell someone they werent brave enough to just kill their accuser or ask for help #isnt the entire point of such situations that the victim is both powerless to stop the abuse #and too afraid of asking for help/thinks they cant ask for help. and thats why they dont just get out #idk sometimes the best moral judgement is to forgive someone or view it as 'complicated' #sometimes regardless of the good or evilness of their actions the best choice is to not make a judgement #or to err in favor of a forgiving/'i cant speak for your experience' judgement #anyways the fact is that the rosy fantasy of being a brave noble soldier who sacrifices for the cause #rarely stands up to reality where youre just terrified and powerless and dont know what to do #and suddenly the rosy glow of The Noble Cause isnt comforting in the prospect of horrible torturous death

[arklay]

DIANA x ALBERT WESKER / template.

#mine. #pair: ewskers #oc: diana #click for better quality ♡ #posting this before i start changing more things lmao but yes i went nuts and made my own psd from scratch... don't look at me #changed ages to birth years cause of how much time passes in the story!! and also gives cheeky fc for you hehe runs away #the checkboxes make me scream like he almost had a clean sweep it's so funny. and he could've had one more i'm not even joking. cause their #first kiss was technically both of them... like idk how to explain this but they were already standing close then diana moved even closer #and was tracing his jaw and such and they were just lingering while holding eye contact but he was the one who actually closed the distance #so i mean... yeah. she was just about to and he beat her to it!! but diana made the move to get them into that position in the first place #is what i mean. i just couldn't give him more it was already too hilarious lmao #can't tell if i like the lil icons but i can't doodle so peace and love on planet earth but yes i'm happy with how this came out hehe #clueless levels are cause they are clowns <3 i have a lot of thoughts about all that but yes they both take hints in some aspects but i #think they both have trouble telling if they are genuine or not or if they are misreading the situation or whether something is romantic or #not (unless ofc it's over the top and ridiculous. ahem. excella. cough. explodes her with my mind) but yeah hit him with the tism so he's #learnt how to read people very well as he's gotten older but i think when it comes to actual just genuine like wanting to get to know #someone and not just someone wanting to get in his pants he seconds guesses it a lot. and diana's all stems from being rattled by her past #experiences oughguhh and i mean her not actually having experienced proper feelings for someone until him lmao but she's got trust issues #also there were so many tropes i could use (thank you to bestie elliot for helping me finds names of things) but i had to do i got you a #drawer specifically because that moment has such a special place in my heart!! like i need to finish the wip where i talk about that cause #it makes me so silly i'm not even joking #anyway omg i hope the mentions work because doing this on the legacy editor after copying the html for beta one because the image just #didn't want to work in the beta image for some reason rip

[bumblingbabooshka]

Started watching SNW season 2 episode 3 and my eyes literally glazed over the moment they both came out in matching all black hoodie-leather jacket-jeans outfits and I couldn’t keep watching after that

#it was TOOO BOOOOORING for me............I want to see HIJINKS I don't care about augments or war or whatever #the augment thing was fine in the last episode bc it also had a courtoom drama and I /do/ like courtroom dramas and mystery plots #but this one was just La'an and [redacted] having a very boring date on modern day Earth which ties into something something augments Khan #the only fun part was Pelia v_v #my opinion is very biased I really can't stand more grimdark metallic war depression type plots #I skip a lot of the borg stuff on Voyager for that reason ... I'm an early seasons silliness type of guy #I hope the next episode of SNW gets back to aliens and hijinks and people in bright clothing trying to worm their way outta THIS mess #idk if this episode is fun for people who actually do care about/understand the khan stuff and the augments stuff #but please don't explain it to me v_v it will never penetrate my heart #idk how to describe 'grimdark metallic' but it's like Picard...it doesn't feel warm. It's glossy and cold. #I don't like that vibe for star trek v_v #also THIS is what it looks like when I'm not having fun so you see I was telling the truth when I said I had fun the last episode #even though I was making fun of it relentlessly...episodes can be fun-bad and I'll still thoroughly enjoy them I just couldn't get into this #please!!!! -dying- please...the goofs and gags..... #livetweeting #please star trek...the STRANGE (NEW) worlds.....not shitty earth...I'm ON shitty earth!!!

[twoheadedfather]

my therapist : imagine a life where you interact with people and get to make friends and form relationships! isn't that what you want?

me thinking about my life if i had friends or was in a relationship with someone (negative) :

#it would genuinely be so tiring like i can't stand people #me when my fantasies about being comforted suddenly try to develop the other “characters”😐 FUCK OUT OF HERE #WDYM I HAVE TO ALSO BE CONSIDERATE OF THEM #i sound like an asshole i'm so sorry LMFAOOOO #mental illness #mentally ill #actually mentally ill #cluster a #cluster b #actually traumatized #mentally fucked #idk i'm logging off fuck this website 😭😭

[forgotten-daydreamer]

why is it that every time i eat anything my belly hurts >:( i'm gonna need you to stop doing that right fucking now.

#i think i shouls take one of those at-home celiac disease tests because my guts and head hurt mostly after i eat pasta and bread #*should #and i don't even eat much so it's not like a food coma or anything #despite what one may think given the amount of “food as a metaphor of love” in my fics i'm not a big eater. i prefer cooking for others #but idk like. i'm lactose intolerant and can't stand eggs when they're the primary ingredient (e.g. pancakes & such) #but i've never taken an egg-allergy test bc i don't think it exists? idk. i just don't eat them #and- i can't eat bell peppers (;-;) & red meat because they make me sick as hell #so huh very limited choice actually #because you also gotta add what i despise like broccoli (sorry) spinach and artichokes (i *hate* them the most.) + fish except for salmon #so what *do* i eat? good question #i'm a-ok with all other veggies & legumes so there's that #same with most white meat #but like. if you take pasta and bread away.... i die. period. it's a zero conditional sentence. it's a fact. #food cw

[reikunrei]

it would actually be so sick (affectionate and derogatory) if like. it becomes true that el and jane really were two different kids. and thinking about this post james made re: blood transfusions and how it's very possible that some of the babies/kids who were born with/transfused with the "dimension x blood" rejected it and subsequently died. and that it would be really interesting if it comes out that jane ives really did die at some point due to this experimentation (shortly after she was born? not until after terry shot her way into hnl? could brenner have gone ham on the testing w jane as further retaliation for terry's behavior?) and that el really has no prior identity to speak of

i just feel like. it would be a really spooky twist to have el come across some sort of paperwork in hnl (still betting on "the crawl" to be a dungeon-crawl-esque scenario involving scouring the abandoned hnl for clues) that is supposedly about her (jane) only to find that she (jane) died

plus it would tie interestingly into "the whole creel family save for victor is dead" thing when henward was alive the whole time, vs the misunderstood identity within the mess of henry/edward/vecna/one and the wrong people being called the wrong names, vs el so desperately wanting to be normal and having this sort of distant/detached identity she can lean on if she wants to, only to have it ripped away??

something about that last bit just feels really appealing to me for el's character and her growth, especially since so much of it is about her finding her own identity. and yes, she can do that while having the "jane ives" identity in her back pocket bc it's about her taking it and making it her own, but also... it would be so neat if el had to grapple with the fact that she basically came "from nothing." like instead of having this "real world" history and mother and identity, she came purely from the lab (even if she did ultimately come from, perhaps, henward and brenner, etc. etc.)

#thinking about the lucas erica 'they're not even from the same planet' scene #and how that could tie into el and the 'other planet' being hnl and how it's a whole other world from outside #and actually. thinking about the babies being born w the blood and then rejecting it just made me think of smthn interesting #with stephen king's 'the stand' and how it was a select few people who survived cptn trips and then when #franny has her baby she's worried he won't live bc the father died to the virus so what if the baby can't survive it either #and they THINK the baby is gonna die when he's born. but because fran was immune to the virus. the baby was able to fight it off in the end #idk im really still sitting here like. i would read the stand again to look for more st parallels/possible inspo but it's SO LONG i can't #but im still Shocked that's not a confirmed inspo bc. i'd have to explore it all again/read the wiki or smthn but. there was a decent amoun #of stuff that made me go 'huh!' irt st. and this is one of them i guess lmao #i say things #eleven #stranger things

[silverbastardgoldenfool]

God i wish I had someone to make music with 😭😭😭 I've been writing lyrics like a fiend lately but can only make the most basic of demos with my limited skills on piano and guitar (which I sadly don't have time to expand atm, at least not in a meaningful or timely way). Wish desperately that I had someone with composition/production skills to collaborate with and learn from in order to bring these songs to live the way I envision bc they want to live so bad. I'm so sick of never being able to finish anything I start bc of legit barriers blocking the way. Like I know I could find ppl online to collaborate with but these songs are so damn close to my heart and my vision is so specific and like non-generic ?? idk how to say it but the point is I don't just need someone to throw a chord progression over a basic beat I need someone who GETS IT. I've always known I would have to really click with someone who genuinely sees the vision in order to trust them with my music (I've shared demos with literally ONE person and I had to force myself to do so) and like WHERE DO I EVEN START to find this person?? I'm a bitch w no social circle whatsoever which is something else I'm trying to remedy but fuck It's hard!!!! Do I just have to accept that these songs are trapped in utero until I manage to acquire the skills required to set them free?? Cos like I'll do it and the control freak in me prefers that version tbh but the path to that place is long and I'm just so sick of never being able to finish anything goddddd

#ignore me idk why im posting feelings on here its just so frustrating writing all these lyrics knowing i can't really do anything w them 😔 #after like 10 years of seriously working on songwriting i am finally producing lyrics i would actually stand by on a finished track #yet they're cast into google docs obscurity just like every cringe inducing attempt of my teens and it doesnt feel fair

[dennisboobs]

this is genuinely... so funny to me. like the hilarity of copypasting rational tweets. i'm literally right. it's not even a funny copypasta because it's literally just. objectively correct. it's a criticism of twitter culture and that makes it funny to you because...... god forbid you actually have empathy for other people. caring is for losers if you're on twitter dot com, you have to be snarky and funny at all times.

#moots & friends keep sending me shit and im just like. lmfao this is embarrassing for YOU guys. i stand by everything ive said actually. #i'm sorry you think trying to have a genuine conversation about harmful behaviours is cringe #you consider yourself an activist and will retweet every fucking post abt current events #but you can't actually be bothered to make a positive change in your own life......... #the fact that most of them stop responding after they realize im not going to freak out and give them something emotional is very telling #it's not even like most of them disagree they literally just want to make fun of me for...... caring. like ok. weird hill to die on idk #im at the point where im considering privating my tweets just so i dont continue to get ppl responding but #i think its important that ppl can see my responses. because i stand by them and clearly other ppl do too #theres been a lot of mixed responses but a lot of people have actually ended up agreeing with me after some back and forth #which i appreciate. i didnt want to start fuckin. twitter drama. but like. ill take it #i dont interact with sunnyblr at all so i think this is a good opportunity to potentially change at least a few ppls perspectives #and if youre too far gone to the point where you think that someone caring about perpetuating homophobic rhetoric is funny #i. dont really want to interact with you anyway lol. get better soon xoxo #last post about this on here im. putting this to rest. #ada speaks #genuinely disgusting how many of these ppl will say shit like. ppl are dying. like... yeah. what are YOU doing to help. #retweeting a donation link or someones random carrd doesnt do shit actually. performative armchair activism. #same ppl tweeting vapid shit while acting like theyre above engaging with me on this #i was venting about people qrting glenns old tweets with stupid shit because it was clogging my tl actually lol

[tarmac-rat]

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#I like to implement themes and imagery a lot in my work and this is me putting the back wheels before the cart before the horse #But in those tag games I do sometimes I've always compared Riley to a coyote-- which I think fits #Coyotes are pack animals living in the desert w/ their social systems-- similar to nomad clans living in the desert w/ their social systems #And a coyote's perceived aggressiveness translates well to symbolize a character like my V who has a reputation for being aggressive #The idea of a pack animal separated from it's pack is what I was gunning for #But I never noticed that the dichotomy of coyotes and their stereotypical prey-- jackrabbits-- translates REALLY well to Johnny and V #Especially considering Johnny as a jackrabbit rather than a coyote (backwards I know but work with me for a sec) #Jackrabbits being a solitary animal that CAN live in a group but usually chooses not to #The idea of a hare looking similar to a rabbit but still being prey all the same #(idk why but my brain sticks with idea of Johnny standing out from the NC Vox Poppili but he's still just that at the end of the day-- prey #And running. Running at danger running for safety. The thought of Johnny always always always running #A jackrabbit can't move slowly they're often symbols of moving fast-- Johnny never slows down; he's always on the run from something #With the Coyote chasing after it for survival #In Dine mythology the coyote and the jackrabbit are both trickster figures and idk that sticks in my mind #Coyote wants to smoke Rabbit out of it's hole but when it lights the fires Rabbit kicks the embers back into his face #Cunning beaten with cunning in a sense like two sides of the same coin. Idk it just tickles me #The idea of two people both being so opposed but still having that emotional connection between them #Anyway thought blurb over #Honestly I'd've made this into an actual post but my thoughts aren't necessarily in the best order for it

[5s-missing-eye]

Why do I always get the worst fanfic ideas istg and they always have to be a crossover between LL and whatever new media I'm addicted to

So here's my newest dumb idea

Overwatch x LL crossover where a bunch of human garde form Overwatch when they see how hg are treated by regular humans. After a couple months of working together they see how hard it is to keep track of everything that's going on in the world so they decide to recruit someone more powerful - Five.

#i am so delusional #no bc #i know i wont even start writing this #but im still hyping myself up #also idk if ill include talon in this #i would def want moira and widowmaker in the story but idk where to put them #also idk how i would insert the omnics into the story #i feel like zenyatta is pretty important #and i want him to do whatever he did to genji to five #actually #five x genji crossover #overwatch cant stand five looking the way he does #so they build him a cyborg ninja suit like they did genji #in the meantime five and mercy get rlly close #bc she reminds him of marina #and she makes him feel like he got a second chance #imagine a five vs nine battle where nine doesn't know it's five in the suit #and while they fight nine gets a deja vu feeling but he doesn't know why #and then there's five who can't stop himself from smiling behind the visor #i have so many ideas pls #i'll write more later #also just as a disclaimer idk anything ab overwatch lore #i only know a couple characters' lore #and a couple general things #watch me get everything wrong #if anyone knows both ll and ow lore pls tell me i'll probably need you #actually take that with a grain of salt #bc i probably won't even start it #lorien legacies #overwatch

[lord-squiggletits]

It kinda sucks how Optimus Prime is a character who people (in real life) expect to be so Indubitably Good All The Time that they immediately shut down and refuse to acknowledge him whenever he does bad things or fucks up. Like I don't think I've seen any other character in this fandom get the same instantly negative reaction/never talk about him ever treatment that IDW Optimus gets.

Like, it's either him being a cop or the annexation of Earth. But instead of actually engaging with the story and going "so how does being a cop affect the way he treats and is treated by others" or "what led Optimus to annex Earth and how is this a reflection of his ultimately heroic ideal to treat organics as equal to Cybertronians despite the historical racism of his species"

people just instantly shut down and go "oh he's an asshole, he's stupid, he's not my Optimus, he's a bastard, he's edgy" etc etc and refuse to even like fuckin talk about him

It's so incredibly childish lmao especially when the IDW1 continuity in particular is already rife with characters who are also assholes that do stupid/regrettable things but people have no problems talking about/analyzing their stories.

My kingdom for a fandom that's willing to talk about IDW Optimus without immediately shutting down and just going "he's bad he's a bastard he sucks"

#squiggposting #discourse #idw op love #it's very annoying and kind of why i don't try to talk about him as much as i used to #i'm kinda tired of bracing myself for negative reactions every time #and tired of the general fandom silence about him #worse than hating them ppl also seem to make an active effort to ignore or to erase him #and it's the spite of that. like it's one thing to just not be interested or not care #but it's another to actively shun and ignore and erase him #it's not even just the cop thing either. ppl refuse to engage with any idw op specific lore that isn't like.... #idk his relationship with sen. SW? but that's for shipping purposes #of course ppl care about OP lore when it's time to ship him with someone else #but how many people care about IDW OP for who he actually is? hardly any #even w/ continuity soup people take out the cop part they dislike but they never try to write idw op's personality #so like it's not just cop hate. ppl just genuinely don't like idw op's personality or care about him in general #which i have to ask why the hell not because this is literally a feral and flawed prime that people keep saying they want #people keep saying they want an OP who isn't universally beloved and gets criticized for his hypocrisy and stuff #IDW OP IS RIGHT HERE WAITING FOR YOU TO ENJOY #ppl just genuinely can't stand the idea of an OP who's a real person and not just Inoffensive Fun Dad or Sad Woobie

[boysdontcryboycry]

thought y'all would find this funny, leading a double life where most my mutuals don't care about st and don't know about. gestures to my entire blog. is actually so hilarious sometimes

#honestly idek why i still follow them like our only shared media was tma and i moved on from tma a long time ago #idk i think some of us bylers are guilty of what this post was talking about but as always everyone thinks they're right #but then immediately displaying their hypocrisy by making mostly baseless claims about a fandom they haven't actually delved into #anyway i reblogged the post from someone else a few posts down if yall wanna read it i think it's good to take to heart #byler #no but actually i can't stop laughing at how yes. him standing in front of a closet was A piece of gay mike evidence. groundbreaking really #but uh. pay no attention to the 783924939 words of other analyses. the hour long gay mike video does not exist you don't see it.

[semercury]

people keep saying shit like "you only hate this character because she's a woman and is confident and gets close to the male character you enjoy, you're just delusional and weirdly jealous" and it's like. maybe i actually don't like her because i have eyes and a low tolerance for emotional manipulation.

#stuff sarah says #like listen. i support women's wrongs. trust me #and yes. it's true i'm part of the crowd that wants to self insert with Specific Man Character #and like. i really want to like her. i want to be like wow neat morally gray fucked up character! #but i just can't! #and i'm sure people are also like oh you don't ship them bc you can't stomach the idea of unhealthy ships you baby #and like. actually no. i'm all for the ships that are fucked up and unhealthy. i think it's interesting #i just see so many people be like uwu they're perfect for one another and it's like no? she doesn't care about him? #she straight up said i kept you alive bc i thought you'd be useful to me #and honestly? i'd be really interested in like a fic that explored the fact that she def has conflicting feelings about him #but as a whole. no. i don't like her #there's smth about lying to someone who is trusting and caring and taking advantage of both those traits that i just can't stomach #like yeah yeah she pulls a gun on him. but it's the emotional manipulation i can't stand at the end of the day #idk. i just don't want to be lumped in with the ''i hate this female character because they get in the way of ships'' kind of people #bc that's not it #idk. i'm just thinking of how i'm going to deal with certain things in my fic #blah

[coldflasher]

i’m catshaming

i just started letting valletta out and i THOUGHT she knew how to behave, but apparently not, bc she climbed over the fence into the neighbours’ garden, only to discover she could not climb back out, so she sat there crying pitifully until i had to go round and knock on their door to ask if could come and rescue her

#i have lived here for a year and never introduced myself to them before #had to go round and be like yeah please can i come rescue my dumb cat #she can't figure out how to get over the fence #they were like aw bless her. she'll learn #she's only young #i was like haha yeah... #in actual fact she is 11 but she's also apparently an idiot #anyway im currently googling ramps so that i have a way to help her get back if she does it again #also considering like. spikes for the fence but idk #the thing is i have a fairly strong suspicion that she probably COULD have figured out how to get back eventually #but sadly i am a sucker and couldn't stand hearing her cry like it wasn't her own fault she got into this mess