#and now. we understand why it exists

[leafsfromthevine]

dallas and ian be normal with each other for more than 3 seconds challenge (impossible)

#i actually can't stand them idk #source: teen vogue “i dare you” #context: ian dared to put an awkward photo on his ig story #significance: it's the bts for the kiawentiio .5 that is likely actively shaping modern zukka nation #like the art for this picture was chef's kiss #and now. we understand why it exists #so i had to share with you all #their bromance is everything to me #and i cant help but project them onto zukka they've literally told us to #dallas liu #ian ousley

[d1sc01nf3rn0]

I'm seeing a lot of people with neurodivergency, specially under the autism spectrum say that "Laios is annoying, never shuts up, is insensitive, and I can't stand him"; and the irony is not lost on me lmao.

#like im sorry dude did you think all autism is “anime obsessed dude”? #how did you think neurodivergent people behaved on old times? #also like #being unintentionally insensitive is almost a telltale sign of autism cause you struggle with social cues #if anything i think a lot of you are finally habing to face your own internalized predjudices #“he is annoying” yes that's how ableist neurotypical people talk about us all the time tell me something i haven't heard already #like how do i explain to you that a lot of neurotypical people tal the exact same eay youre talkbing about laios #and is annoying when they go “but im neurodivergent! i can be biased agaisnt neurodivergent people” #yes you can because being neurodivergent is not a monolith and you are mistifying being neurodivergent #by implying theres some sort of virtue in being under the spectrum when youre as capable of being a dick just as everyone else #like you think you have autism but suddenly wanting to taste things youre not supposed to eat and not remembering peoples names is too much? #some of yall never experienced beinf a “weird kid” at a young age and it shows #and im not talking the “geek bullied” weird kid kinda way #im talking “the adults think I'm weird amd don't know how to deal with me” #WHICH FITS LAIOS PERFECTLY BECAUSE WE ACTUALLY HAVE A SCENE OF HIS DAD SHOWING HIM FALLIN AS A BABY #AND NOT UNDERSTANDING WHY IS THERE NO EXPECTED REACTION FROM LAIOS #anyways im making this rant because is unreal how many posts of this exist #you think Laios is annoying cause he wont shut up? #congratulations thats how most people see us #now get over it or watch other series if you hate it that much #dunmeshi hell thoughts #weird rant i suppose #dungeon meshi #laios touden

[jeysuso]

Roman Reigns during Tag Team Turmoil (February 12th 2015) - for @jeonmahi1864 💜

#roman reigns #romanreignsedit #wweedit #wwe smackdown #february 2015 #in honour of throwback thursday 👅 #thank you for requesting it angel i hope you like it! #his hair was so longggggg during this time bro the kitty go PURRRRR #and there were usos!!! little baby usos!!!!! #as little baby tag team champions 🥺🥺🥺 #i never watched in 2015 so this was fun for me to see tbh #he's come so far but there's like. these glimpses of the roman we see now #esp. when he goes toe to toe with DB during the uso section #i can't get over the blue contacts though #for the life of me i'll never understand why blue eyes = conventionally attractive #when dark eyes exist #mygifs*

[mulletmitsuya]

random tokrev rant ahead !!

when i first started this blog it was going to be for random shitposts, groupchats once in a while, and mostly tokrev analysis but i was so scared of discourse that i just chose to do the funnier stuff 😭. when tokrev was at it's peak i'd be reading 20k+ words of analysis and it was so fun!! but i felt like i couldn't word what i wanted to say properly so that discouraged me but i wish i'd ignored that because there would have been at least one person who understood what i was saying yk?

#anyway #i used to have a tagging system but i forgot so that's my bad #and the thing about discourse is that you could give a person all the canonical facts of the story and they'll still find a way to pretend #that they're right and i personally cannot handle that #i take things very seriously and someone thinking they won a argument when they didn't would make me rip my hair out #so maybe my blog not going into that direction was good for my metal health #i feel like fandom interactions always end up as fights for some reason #why can't two opinions co-exist #let's discuss and have fun why we gotta tell each other to kill ourselves😭 #like i saw a very well thought out and written theory about sanzu having autism or something along those lines #and a comment was like “stop trying to give him excuses he's a terrible villain and he's just crazy blah blah blah” #whole time this person's an izana apologist #like😐 #i love both these characters but a lot of characters in tokrev are more complicated than just a “crazy villain” #and it seems like they understand that about izana so???? #ok i'm done now i hope you guys get what i mean #tokyo revengers #tokyo revengers manga #tokrev

[lilacevans]

it’s amazing how men can just ruin everything

#literally just by existing #like at what point do i say that’s enough #like how many times do you have to repeat that what’s happening is nothing do with them and yet they’re still like #but what did i do #lol nothing i’m going through something i don’t have to share every detail with you #i don’t understand it #how do they make everything about themselves #please i just want one good one #please #one that will just go okay ur upset and i did nothing and you want your space cool #not try and start a fucking argument and follow you around like a lost puppy #fuck offfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff #like i’ve lost all motivation now #he’s just taken it #and just as i was about to start and open up my laptop #he wants to come to bed #after spending the few hours i had downstairs with my laptop trying to cause an argument and distracting me #and if i go okay i’m gonna go back down then so i can do want i wanna do #it’ll be omg why do u never wanna spend time with me #WE LIVE TOGETHER #WE ARE TOGETHER 24/7 #all the timeeeeeee #but it’s fine when he wants to waste all his days on fucking warcraft #fuck offffff

[songbird-is-crying]

i think we all underestimate the importance of recording every day life. normally we skip over marking the boring mundane things and only mark the extraordinary ones because we think we don’t need to pinpoint the things everybody knows.

but now that i’m getting heavily involved in historical research, god, those are the most important documents ever. i don’t care how a king looks on his coronation or what an infamous friar preached about. i want to know how the everyday commoner goes about their life, buying goods and talking to friends and how they interact day to day. when trying to write historical, the biggest holes stem from not knowing how a painter schedules a modeling session for a noble woman, or how long a servant has a lunch break, or what kind of games peasant children played with each other. and these things are so hard to find evidence for because people didn’t think their boring lives could be of any importance.

like i hate writing about myself. i’ve always hated having a diary because i never thought i had anything important or interesting enough to write down.

but maybe i should so in some hundred years, someone will know how someone like me lived.

#history #historical fiction #writing #research #and yes #i understand why the documentation of simple living is lost to us #because education was and still is limited to those who can afford it #thus the winners of history (the rich and the privileged and the conventional) survive longer through their preserved narratives #but that makes it all the more important to take advantage of our literacy now #and make sure that the narratives of minorities and the underrepresented live on #to prove that we cannot be smothered under the bias of history #and can prove our existence now and continuing in the future

[charmac]

x

#gonna go on a parasocial rant for a man i barely care about bc thats where i am #but honestly its actually a little heartbreaking #when you think about the fact that rob #who we know struggled in school and with behavioural issues #was a neurodivergent kid who had no idea what that even was #no resources or labels to help him #is now an adult figuring this all out #and seeing #holy shit this sports team i grew up with and love knows about this too #and theyre doing all of this #like do you realise he was a kid in the 80s with no knowledge of any of this #used sports as an outlet and to bond with his dad #probably imagining if this foundation had existed when he was a kid what that could have done for him #and i now have the money and ability to support this all #so hes donating and posting to raise awareness and encourage support #and he's spending time and money with his soccer team in wales to do this same thing #so neurodivergent kids who love sports are growing up with what he didnt have #and their parents are able to recognise and understand what his couldn't (no fault of their own) #im sorry but youre a very blindly heartless person to think that doesnt matter because rob is NOW rich #why are we acting like hes elon fucking musk #he came from nothing you ALL KNOW HOW SUNNY STARTED!? #yes hes stupid spending his money on nfts and the metaverse #can you not see hes fucking growing... and learning. like. probably through his own kids.... #i dont even care if you dont care #i dont think it matters at all but adamantly shitting on him to his (social media) face is so beyond loser behaviour #holy fucking christ most of twitter now has clearly been educated in the tiktok school of anti capitalism #that they think the moment someone breaks 1mm they lose their history and soul #rob is a centrist he posts copganda he owns a gun and is proud of it but youre biggest issue with him is he won at capitalism? #via doing something not only he loves but YOU love? and have a whole account dedicated to?????? #everyone in his quotes is britta perry from community

[protectcosette]

there's something very special about hanging out with new friends

#certified protectcosette original #been hanging out more with this lesbian couple i'm lowkey obsessed with #met one of them a couple years ago and have been friendly acquaintances since. then they and their partner started coming to food not bombs #so we've been doing that together the past few months. and then we did trivia last week with another girl from fnb! which was very nice! #and then we carpooled to a ceasefire rally thing today and they invited me to have tea at their place after (and offered to feed me) #(i declined but its very nice) and its just like? oh they like my company they think i'm cool? they want to hang out with me? it's magical #like. all the excitement of the first few dates with a new romantic partner but steadier. more reliable #and i think it's really sad that we don't really celebrate platonic connections in art the way we do romantic connections #a couple weeks ago i was like. why is there not a wedding-like ceremony for celebrating friendships? #and now i'm like. i need songs to listen to that reflect being platonically smitten with people. but it doesn't exist in the mainstream #i'll write this shit myself if i have to but still this needs to be everywhere #aromantic #aspec #adding aro tags bc i think yall will understand

[cookinguptales]

Thank you so much for the tarot reading you did for me a little while back 💜 i'm sorry it's taken me so long to say that! i do rather think you have prophetic gifts, by the way- it was spookily accurate and helped me a lot 🔮

No problem! I'm glad it was helpful to you!

I do tend to get at least one message like this every time I do a tarot night for my followers, and like... you are totally entitled to that belief! What do I know about psychic phenomena and prophecy anyway? lmao. Maybe I am psychic.

But personally, I believe that tarot has a high likelihood of speaking to us no matter what, if just because the archetypal nature of the cards means that they're dealing with problems that we all struggle with. We all have self-doubt, we all have complicated relationships with money, we all crave love of some kind. We all have trauma in our past and we all want to believe that this time, things could be okay.

One of the reasons I like tarot cards is because they are inanimate objects that we imbue with meaning. They were just playing cards, y'know? We're the ones that gave them power over us, and we did that by filling them with our own stories. We placed a mirror in those cards, and while mirrors can be used for scrying, they can also just be used to take a good hard look at ourselves.

If I say "oh, you've had money troubles in the past," who doesn't that apply to? Maybe I'm thinking about me, when we were homeless for a while when I was a kid. Maybe someone else is thinking about the money they lost to gambling last week. Maybe someone else, someone wildly wealthy, is thinking about a stock market crash that brought their five mansions down to two. Maybe a final person has just never had quite enough to make ends meet. God knows that describes a lot of people.

I like tarot because we can all look at the same spread and see something different. I see a story to tell to the best of my ability, and that's how I do readings. But for the people getting those readings, they're often looking into little mirrors and seeing how they reflect their own personal experiences.

Because, you know, we all see different things in the same mirror! That's how tarot works, I think. Maybe some people are a little better at reading things in that mirror and interpreting what they see there, but we all see something new and different and deeply, deeply personal when we look at those cards.

Love that for us.

#that's what I eventually ended up studying in college btw #the way people construct personalized belief systems and vernacular religion #I got into religious studies to make sense of the world after I got out of an abusive religious background #and people always ask me what religion I am now #and I always say... y'know... I don't know what I believe #I don't know if magic exists or ESP or the supernatural or any number of deities #I don't know if I fully believe anything anymore #but I do believe in the power of stories #how we tell them and why we tell them and the parts of us that we mix into them to bolster their power #stories can ease a broken heart or they can be used to launch a war #they can create a belief system or tear one apart #we tell stories to make meaning out of the senselessness around us but we use them to CREATE meaning too #and sometimes the meaning that we create can last for centuries #they can make a little pack of playing cards into something that I was forbidden to touch when I was a child #that I was too scared to even be in the room with until I was in college #and the stories I tell myself instead can reframe those cards as something lovely I can collect #that help me make sense of the world in all kinds of ways #by helping me understand the emotions at the root of our experiences #and the stories we tell to give voice to them #and make them material; a thing we can finally touch #idk I'm rambling a bit but! those are my thoughts on the matter!! #replies #tarot #tarot shenanigans

[moe-broey]

GIRL......................... suspension of disbelief I know but.

Obviously you can pick out a BUNCH of the dragons as that Is an ongoing trope (dragons aging differently than humans, so they can look younger than they "actually are") (also while I did try to avoid including them to make them more comparable to Nino, I think Flayn can fit in either category for the purposes of The Context -- esp cause her dragon blood is meant to be secret)

Not only do we have Heroes skewing younger (a lot fitting into another trope of What If There Was A Baby Sister) we also have Baby Banner. Where the whole point is they are baby.

LIKE....... maybe I'm speaking way too soon and maybe the whole point IS this will backfire LMFAO, but it IS absurd to be presented with her art (which, def still looks youthful!) and having her say yeah I can pass as a kidnapped child. Which COULD be true! But also what do you mean no one is going to know you're a part of the Heroes. Why is no one fighting her on this. Not even including the dragons there are like a handful of Heroes who fit into her exact vibe. Some even MORE baby than her.

#fire emblem #feh #and that's not even factoring in charas like nyx (who's whole thing is she 'looks younger' than she is) #which. tbh. i personally never saw even in fates. like. that's just a short small woman. they do exist. #and adding to that are the other charas who read as short small women to me like celine (before i knew her in-game age is 17) #and eitri #and also youthful charas who are treated as younger yes but also as full fledged adults in their own right. like lissa #(treatment mostly comes from chrom tbh which is understandable LMFAO) #OH and that's not even looking at all the second gen/child units from awakening/fates/other games that include that #which i think is just genealogy and thracia??? i'm not familiar enough w those titles though #also like. in general. a lot of fe charas who have official ages are teens. nino is 15. i think ike was like 16 in por???? #which like! still a kid! but also! idk even what the difference is. is it just that ones a sweet looking girl #and the other is a boy who was trained to kill for as long as he's been alive (very lovingly by the rare good dad in fe) #i mean. i guess that makes a difference. #OH MAN I COULD HAVE INCLUDED LYSITHEA INSTEAD OF FLAYN. ALSO fits the bill perfectly #VERONICA WAS 13 WHEN WE MET HER AND SHE HAS ALWAYS BEEN CONSIDERED TO BE A CATEGORY 10 THREAT #SORRY i'm nitpicking like crazy LMFAOOOO but like. the people of askr should not be fazed by anything anymore. #and you would think whoever is causing problems like bandits or what have you. you'd think they'd adapt. #SANAKI. ALSO. WHO IS WHY WE KNOW VERONICA'S AGE ROUGHLY IN THE FIRST PLACE‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ #okay i swear i'm done now. good by forevwr 👍 #fe nino

[duahauuoplanh]

A very shy Junho (˵•́ ᴗ •̀˵ ) (III) Congratulations on your 10th debut anniversary as an actor, dude

#always next to junho #Dude's IG followers increasing like me losing my s #Success keeps knocking your door harder after so many years of hard work #dude is so global now #It’s Junho’s season now #Enjoy your season #We all hope all seasons are your seasons from now on #I actually become his fan as he is an actor #he keeps deleting his old posts #tho I think I understand why at some extents #it's just some times we don't like how we used to look or how we were or who we were with #so we delete old stuffs with the hope that those past of us would have never existed #Lee junho #Junho #2pm #shy junho #I put my heart into every gifset I’ve made #always next to Junho

[presumenothing]

watching the last 10 eps of mlc with the novel still rattling around in your head is truly just an extended experience in alternating between *chinhands* and (overwhelmingly) *head in hands*

#on the one hand i finally have context for various posts #on the other hand it is truly just. *gesturing wildly* why was this necessary. like i get diff formats etc etc but also. Why #legit hats off to cheng yi's portrayal he is the main thing selling it to me here but also.. #surely there has to have been some less 狗血 way to spice it up for screen???? #anyway congrats to sgd's wholeass existence and plotline for singlehandedly winning the Changes I Really Don't Care For At All list #with the fun secondary effect (probably) of pushing lxy's portrayal into legit 傲慢 territory in service of that narrative like #i desperately need a slower reread but novel!lxy never to my recall does the whole 没有李相夷不行 thing but welp #here we are and. once again with feeling. why #(necessary clarification that i don't dislike the drama per se it's probably better treated fairly as its own thing but also #every now and then you see the bones of the novel poking through – albeit rendered slightly hypocritical in the sense that drama!llh is #very much not zen and understandably so given this backstory edition – and thus the copious head in hands-ing) #*strums guitar while yelling into the void.mp3* #ramble tag #mysterious lotus casebook #edit to add: DISSONANT the damn word i wanted was dissonant

[boomerang109]

i came home, panicked about one thing, and my toilet was leaking. bathroom floor is covered in water and brown particles. oddly, this has not improved my mood

#i just want to be a child again. i understand being a child was also miserable I am not glorifying my childhood #i was in pain and sad and lonely #BUT I WAS SAFE AND CARED FOR AND I NEVER QUESTIONED THAT no matter how much pain I was in #what I wouldn’t give for everything to hurt because I was so overstimulated by school and being bullied #being a kid had such clear cause and effect. being an adult is just…I am guilty and I want to cry everytime I think about the fact that I’m #here. i miss something that never existed and I’m the only one who is trying to remember a person who never existed but is important to me #(cause it’s me—I’m the only one who cares about preserving my childhood. my parents don’t give a damn. they were so busy surviving they #don’t remember it or care either) #why the fuck am I getting emails about a pizza party we didn’t ask for were an actual club now we don’t need your planned events fuck off #the way I was about to brag about our club name by just name dropping my school which would then make it so easy to find me holy shit my #internet safety is getting lax 🙈 #boom’s bad days #omg I just got reccommended ‘boom blogs high’ what if I got high I would feel so much better #i keep just coping sober cause like. not relying on substances. but I don’t actually have skills rn to improve my issues so like. substances #are more helpful tbh 🙈

[knowlesian]

working on a short post (…maybe? look. anyone following me knows what my version of short looks like, when it comes to media analysis) about why from a structural/implications level, i don’t love the read that ed’s desire to throw a talent show is an indication he needs to be brought down to earth by any means necessary 

(ft why that read also makes that scene between ed and lucius in the blanket fort sort of… narratively atonal in a way that also strips it of the poignance of connection)

#look i just think there’s a lot of ground between ‘ed’s fine now the talent show means he’s fine’ which i am certainly not arguing #and ‘the talent show is an indication ed is attempting to start finding out what he likes’ and thus a hopeful thing #he knows what he does NOT like #also don’t love the implications of arguing izzy was calling ed a nambypamby (which:we all know what unsaid implications exist there) #(calling a man effeminate pulls on some very basic shit we alllll understand lbr) #and saying he’d wish he let ed die in response to ed being unhealthy and needing to be snapped out of it lends an air of righteousness #i would argue ed is trying to change and izzy hates change is the point of the scene #among other things of course but like: why is ed putting on a robe and singing unhealthy? #stede bonnet did not sing and he does not have a monopoly on robes #so unless we’re saying ed can’t possibly like singing or robes… #etc etc etc i’m gonna work on the piece now

[cinnamon-notes]

i have been ghosting my friends for idk a month??? and they have been doing the same??? except for when we meet in a workplace cuz somehow our jobs decided to cross over :)

#feeling so bad about it but like i cant bring myself to interact with people right now but i am also constantly sad because i dont interact #with anyone out of work :/ but working makes me socially exhausted & tbh all i wanna do is be depressed with my books & my movies &my tunes #but i also crave affection like i realize i have zero social life and i sometimes schedule some hangout with my friends but it's almost #become like idk a task? something i look at through work eyes. like- i arrange our hangouts the way i arrange work meetings. it's so sad. #i know it is. but still- i cant help it. through all my life ive been missing having a lifelong friend who knows me like the back of their #hands and i know like the back of mine. never had it. cant cry over that. it's passed. i cant invent lifelong friendships that never existed #and i gotta make peace with that. plus- what am i complaining about if im just incapable of keeping any friend for longer than a month??? #after the first month- maybe the first couple of months- it all gets boring and dont get me wrong i really love my friends but somehow they #lose interest in me and i lose interest in them and we become just people who know each other and occasionally hang out but like- i've never #had a friend who's there for me when things happen in my life. i've always had friends to tell things to afterwards. like- i know i cant #really pick up the phone and say “hey. im having a bad time. can we take a walk? talk on the phone? can you tell me about your day? can you #just be here for me?“ and i cant even idk just randomly pop up with a ”oh my god i hate him i hate him i hate him it's a whole montague vs #capulet but if romeo and juliet never existed kind of hatred!!“ i just cant vent right away. ive always thought that that's my problem. #and maybe it is. but still- how's come they can vent to me? im always there right away. i do love my people and i show up for them. #sometimes my depression makes it soooo difficult to hang out constantly but if there's one thing that cannot be said about mw is that i dont #care. cuz i do. and maybe that's the problem #and maybe it's just easier for me to care than let others care? idk? but then again- i did try to open up. i did try to let them care. i did #try everything by the book & off the book but still- idk it's always just an “im sorry” never an “i care so much to say more than im sorry” #and yeah it's my problem cuz i am not a constant person im not that steady in what i do. i still dont know if it's because i havent found #yet the people worth doing it or if i am just traumatized (my ex is knocking on this door lol) but- idk it makes me extremely sad!!! #and ive rambled on way too much but i jusg needed to let some things out of my mind cuz i cant understand whats wrong with me and why i #crave true friendships although im hella scared of and bored of and unwilling to nurturing one :) #cinnamon diary

[selfindulgentfandomstuff]

Well.

I took the exam.

I’m gonna go stick my fist into a wall now 😁

#vent #vent tw #tw vent #honestly maybe I just shouldn’t pursue physics. like if I suck this bad at CALCULUS 1.. well I can’t even imagine how I’ll fare in higher #level math courses.. let alone the bits of the physics courses where we actually have to apply the concepts we’ve learned in math #maybe I’m just not cut out for this #I want it so so so bad I want to understand things about the universe how it works why it does what it does I want to KNOW #but ig I’m just too stupid to even get down the entry level stuff :( #I hate this I used to be smart I know I was #I had a basic understanding of the concepts of quantum physics and specifically a few of the existing string theories out there #by the time I hit 7th grade I was actively learning as much as I could get my hands on about everything astrophysics quantum physics and #cosmology related throughout 8th grade along with keeping top of my class grades easily #then I went to high school and while I did stay near the top of my class (my grade level class not individual classes I mean) #it took more effort and I burned myself out far too much and that’s part of why I failed so miserably at university (mental health crisis #that caused me to have to come home like 4 months into the school year) #I know I used to have potential but I think I smothered it with overworking myself in high school trying to juggle hw and class work and #extracurriculars and chores and sleep and and and the list goes on #I think I murdered her. the little girl who used to dream and wonder and learn voraciously #now I’m an aimless young guy with no real potential left anymore. #everything is so foggy in my brain I can’t see to retrieve information when I need it #I KNOW the information is in there. somewhere. locked away in a place I can’t reach right now #I hate it. I want to be her again (but as a guy obviously) I want to have that passion and ability to learn and perform academically #sorry guys for this I just don’t know what to do