#i can't believe anyone follows me

[bragganhyl]

oh what I would give for some crumbs about the relationship between Eothas and Magran pre-Saint's War 😔

#hablaty #like they are the light-themed gods #Magran was the OG rebel god given that her followers were burning Woedica's inqusitors while the inquisition was still happening #Eothas once had an ''i'll light the way but I won't force anyone to walk it'' mindset if the great western stag book is to be believed #which is similar to Magran's insistence to leave kith alone to sort themselves out without guidance bc she believes in their potential #they have a lot of similarities but Magran ultimately works to maintain the status quo and only makes sure that the other gods won't attemp #A power grab #Meanwhile Eothas has grown to realize that the system the gods maintain will always lead to the end of civilations bc the system is broken #So he wants to shatter it completely then remake it which puts him at odds with Magran #like you can't convince me that those two didn't once have a positive sibling bond only for it to break bc Magran would not go the distance #Eothas feels forced to go #pillars of eternity

[dragon-tamer-1]

I want to be able to reblog people's art without having to worry about people's negative reactions when it's someone that a majority of people don't like, is that so much to ask?

Why must it be a problem if I like someone's art even if the person believes in something others don't? Why must people treat people like they're bad for liking someone's art and writing when others don't like that person because of their beliefs?

I'm just hanging out and reblogging art and writing that I find enjoyable. In the end that's just what I'm doing when I reblog stuff. Enjoying it. If it's something I don't enjoy/like to see, I just block the tag or, if it's a specific blog that I decided that I didn't enjoy and don't want to see I block that blog as well. Otherwise just vibing. I don't hate anyone that doesn't like someone else of course, but the way people talk about that one person, it's like they think it's the worst possible thing for someone to enjoy that person's art and writing. I just can't hate someone based on that person's beliefs, it just goes against my own personal beliefs, and I can't help that I still enjoy those things.

I try to keep the drama and stuff off my blog cause I'm not about that. And it shouldn't be treated like some kind of crime to still enjoy someone's art/writing/etc just because other people don't like that person, in my opinion.

#vent post #i only feel this way cause someone on anon asked why i still follow a certain person cause i reblogged that person's post updating their fic #and i think it's weird that if people don't like that person. then just don't like that person #i just enjoy the art and writing #i only see hate going to that person yet that person has never spread hate for anyone to anyone #i just want to reblog stuff without it becoming this big thing of drama #discourse tw #stop spreading hate and just move on #at this point it just seems like toxic behavior (not attacking anyone. just how it feels to me) #like i said you can freely dislike someone #its just that it seems controlling when you want others to think like you do and dislike who you dislike and congorm to your own beliefs #I'm just here to enjoy art and writing #regardless of who it's from #unless that person has legitimately hurt people #just block certain tags and the person you dislike and move on #i don't think anyone is bad for liking or disliking people for their own reasons and personal beliefs #i also just cant hate someone for their own beliefs. especially since they're not hurting anyone with those beliefs #sorry for the down mood #this whole thing is just tiring for me and i just want to enjoy the things i like without being all “man people are going to dislike me - #just because i still like the art/writing of someone that everyone around me dislikes. i just want to enjoy stuff why must it be such #a controversial thing to just like something “ #can't we all just agree to disagree instead of being mean to someone who likes something /someone you don't? #liking and reblogging stuff that doesn't have any harmful stuff in it can't hurt anyone #i wish this stuff didn't make me feel as stressed as i did #I'll be fine #i just want to enjoy the art and stories that i came to love by the people who made them #regardless of their beliefs #cause i think that just because someone believes something doesn't make them a bad person for believing that

[aquaristintern]

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#the thing is: people would rather believe things are going to play out exactly how they are in the books that they'll point to anything #to back themselves up #interviews of cast members saying something that does not at all equate to 'armand is mind controlling louis' #or 'the domestic abuse did not happen' #rather than stop and engage with the show on its own #all the symbolism amazing writing and complex characters and new but fantastic changes does not mean anything #because they are more concerned about getting to a hypothetical point of the show where they'll be validated #like they can't acknowledge racism and abusive relationships and inter-generational trauma because they think doing so #makes them a bad person for....liking lestat? being white? liking anne rice as a kid? idk #and THAT'S how we get 'fandom is so toxic pcs were never this bad' 'being white gets you oppressed in some countries so pls be nicies to me #and 'these people are actually pretending to be black to cause trouble see these black people who agree with me? means i'm not racist' #'btw don't worry about the fact i follow racists and allow them on my platform i'm very popular after all that's not the real issue here' #fandom racism #iwtv discourse #to blacklist in case anyone is sick of hearing this

[pancakejikook]

So, I used to pretty active here, some of you might remember me. I'm not an army anymore but I still have a soft spot for jikook so I occasionally check on what they've been up to, but I don't delve deep at all and miss a lot of stuff. In the past few days however I was overcome by a sudden jikook-missing wave and started going through some of my tags from when my blog was active which made me miss them even more (and also made me realize that the overwhelming majority of the blogs I used to reblog from have since deactivated or just stopped posting/turned their blogs into something else, which was a bit sad). So I went to the jikook tag and started browsing a bit to see what was going on in the shipdom. I was a bit surprised to see how little activity there is in the tag compared to a few years ago, and there seems to be quite a mess going on: extremely polarized views compared to before, dubious amounts of delulu theories, and especially a lot of jikookers dropping the ship for one reason or another, although most or the reasons given make little sense to me (yes, I did see THAT post and all I'm gonna say is.. yikes). And like, you do you. We don't have to agree on everything. You know more than I do anyway lol, since I don't follow jikook closely. But there was one specific thing that kinda baffled me. The JM tattoo discourse. I'm late to the party, I know. I'm sure a lot was said at the time, but I wasn't around back then checking the tag. I was vaguely aware that jk talked about his tattoos in a live, and claimed the ARMY tattoo on his hand referred to armys (duh) and the J referred to Jungkook (makes sense). I literally didn't think anything of it at all at the time, I just thought it was nice of him to explain the meaning of his tats. But while scrolling through the jikook tag these past few days I realized that quite a lot of people considered that to be some sort of "debunking" that the JM stands for Jimin, sometimes to the point of dropping the ship because of it, or considering it the ultimate proof that jikookers have lost it if they still believe it stands for jimin and are now moving like teakookers or whatever. And I'm just, confused. I was like where is the debunking. Now. I'm not one for delulu theories. I think they can be fun sometimes, and I used to reblog some of them from time to time but for the most part I just thought they were cringe and always preferred to focus on jikook's actual actions and words (I never really actually cared if they were "real" or not, I just love their relationship and have enough reasons to believe they have feelings for each other and are attracted to each other, but how they deal with these feelings and attraction isn't really any of my business). However, the JM thing. I wasn't even aware it was considered a theory. For me it's just.. there. His ring finger literally spells out JM. Not a theory, it's a fact. Jk knows that JM is frequently used to refer to jimin, we literally have abundant proof of it. Jimin knows it. Armys know it. So unless you think Jungkook is a complete idiot who has somewhat never realized how that's gonna be perceived (which is possible I guess, but very unlikely), it was obviously deliberate. However, I never, ever, ever for a second thought that Jungkook would ever "confirm" it verbally one day. I see it as a statement on its own, that doesn't require an explanation and will never get one because it doesn't need one. It's just there, it speaks for itself, you can just choose whether you wanna see it or ignore it. So I was just puzzled to see people think there was any "debunking" going on. He didn't lie. Of course the M is part of ARMY. Of course the J is for Jungkook. But the JM is still for Jimin. He's not gonna say it because there is no need for him to. In a way, it's comparable to gcft. It's all there for everyone to see, and he knows it, but he's never gonna spell it out. He's never gonna say this is my love declaration for Jimin in video format. He doesn't need to, you'll see it on your own if you're open to it.

I really mean no offense but I feel that sometimes some people go so hard with the whole "I am SKEPTICAL because I'm smart and not a delulu shipper like you and I don't wanna be associated with you clowns" that it ends up circling back to being delusional except in the opposite direction. Apparently some of you genuinely think he just happened to put the J above the M, on his ring finger, and it just HAPPENS to read JM vertically. He also concidentally happens to never cover up the J with rings, and regularly gets the JM touched up but not the other letters (and I DID think jikookers were being delusional about this at first, but it kept happening and became undeniable so what was the point of denying it, I thought). All a coincidence. It doesn't mean anything, because Jungkook pointed out the obviousness of ARMY meaning his fandom and J meaning Jungkook. Did I miss something huge here?

#jikook #I can't believe I'm engaging in jikook discourse in the year of 2023 but here I am apparently #ngl I was taken aback by the state of the shipdom rn #I'd have many things to say but I doubt anyone would be interested #but this specific thing about the tattoo really rubbed me the wrong way #so I decided to address it #but seriously did I miss something? #was there a follow up where jk categorically claimed no the jm doesn't stand for jimin?? #will probably delete later

[betweenheroesandvillains]

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#talking about violence against women with men is so exhausting #always having to reassure them no no haha not you of course or anyone we know haha just other men #like it isn't statistically likely that it's them or their friends or brothers or fathers #but mention that it might also be someone they know and like and watch how fast they do a 180 #'Oh well that was a different situation' IT WAS STILL VIOLENCE #or even worse 'yeah well what am i supposed to do that's just how it is' #you know what. maybe truly everything is lost. I don't want to believe that but with how often i have now heard men be defeatist #or straight up claim it's not a problem at all idk what to do anymore. #Girls learn how to rip a man's testes off and how to break a nose I guess #and i'm not putting the usual disclaimers here bc i'm tired of it i put so many disclaimers for friends colleagues and family and in the en #it's all just so they can lean back and say 'but not me though' like ok cool wish that could be me but can't #anyway rant over and if i see a terf or Classical Radfem or political lesbian on this i block on sight this is just for me and my 5 followe

[solvicrafts]

One of these days when I'm in the right mental space for it I really, really want to post about how incredibly isolating it feels to be neuro-divergent in the pagan community and, at the same time, more or less following a near-reconstructionist path despite how extraordinarily difficult it is because my brain just wired differently so I basically have to fight own instincts and inherent nature in order to practice my religion but at the same time I fight entirely of my own accord because it falls in line with my personal principles and--

#solvi's personal ramblings #it's late for me so today probably will not be that day #but I've been wanting to write a series of posts on this topic and others #because there's an immense feeling of isolation that I deal with in the pagan community that I don't talk about #and weirdly enough I feel like my non-pagan followers on here would understand it a lot more than the broader pagan community likely would #especially my abbilen in the Legend of Drizzt community #but like to put it simply for now I genuinely feel like Kimmuriel and maybe a bit like Drizzt sometimes #especially in my offline social circles #because certain people in my personal life who have grown progressively anti-theist over the years #will actively shit on anyone who believes in or worship anything because in their mind it's all Christianity #and all of Christianity is the Westboro Baptist Church #and on those rare occasions where I do manage to slightly challenge them they give me the Drizzt treatment #'man drow suck they're awful they're just the worst I can't wait to kill them... oh well except you 'cause you're OK I guess' #like because my brain just doesn't work the way other peoples' brains do there are aspects of religion and spirituality I struggle with #so I don't really fit in with the crystal woo crowd but I also don't fit in with most other recon-leaning polytheists #and then I get really actively shat on by anti-theists I know because they can't separate modern ex-Christian baggage #from literally everything else #like it does not compute in their mind that extreme American Christian beliefs =/= ALL RELIGION or ALL CHRISTIANS #and nothing seems to get it through to them and they take everything in bad faith #so I feel very isolated at times because I don't seem to really have a place really anywhere #because my interpretation of religion and spirituality and my ability to practice it will always be different due to my inherent nature #so I'll basically never 'belong' anywhere #I'm gonna join Kimmuriel in the 'I shoulda been born an illithid' thing except I don't know what I should've been born as #I just know that the person I was born as just doesn't seem to fit in anywhere or have a place in the world

[jinkoh]

new layout hehe

#not sure if i'll stick to it but i'm just unhealthily obsessed with shinwons looks from today and i've been meaning to redo my layout anyway #let's say it's to celebrate that i've hit a milestone today #which. i can't believe happened #i mean it's probably not that big compared to other writers or whatever but it rlly rlly feels like a lot to me #especially since i mostly write for ptg #so thank you @ anyone who decided my blog is worth following #i love u very much #kaffeeklatsch

[apocalypticdemon]

being friends with someone who constantly throws pity parties for themselves is fucking exhausting.

#this isn't about anyone that follows me here or that i follow here. #but i have a friend in a group where just..... every time someone says something good about us as a group #they feel the need to put themselves down on main and interrupt the conversation. #it's fucking tiring. #the comment was 'i can't believe we're all academics' and i responded 'it's wild but great' #and then they just go 'i feel really dumb but i guess i'm an academic sometimes' and then the convo gets derailed #like the two of us were literally celebrating that we're all nerdy academics together but now it's managing their emotions on how stupid- #-they feel. #i am so tired. this happens all the time. #i get it. i get it. when i had horrid self-esteem (as if i don't have that now) i felt the need to do this #but like. it's not productive and it's killed the vibe. and i wish they would knock it off but it's unfortunately a pattern of behavior #that happens all the time. and i wish i knew what to do about it bc it's getting on my nerves. #like i said. nobody here is doing this. this is a different person. if you think it's about you No It Isn't #(and if you think you know who i'm talking about no you don't) #idk i just wind up in the position of talking them down all the time and trying to steer them in a more positive direction #and i'm running out of energy for it and it's wearing on me. #they're fun to talk to sometimes but i think over the last few years i've turned into their therapist friend. #'how do i ask someone out' 'do i drop my crush bc i haven't confessed and they aren't acting the way i'd hoped' #'why do i feel like shit all the time' idk man stop fucking asking me #i'm not cut out for this. One Single Class stressed me out so badly i wound up in therapy again. like. i'm Unqualified. #and i'm dissatisfied that i'm stuck in this role and idk how to get out of it

[offier]

"for your own good", leah horlick / yellow.jackets / game shows touch our lives, the moun.tain goats / anonymous / the silt verses season one chapter five / carson greenhalgh / klim musalimov / gwendal cottin / cassandra: a novel and four essays (tr. jan van heurck), christa wolf / winter love, h.d.

a study in abigail goode and @bravevolunteer's mich.ael a.fton, yellow.jackets edition

#the dedication led me down a rabbit hole i cannot believe its anonymous but i cannot find anyone who attributes it as anything else. #to all those ghosts that follow you around say we're lost and delirious and can't be found (abigail & michael | bravevolunteer)

[retro-memo]

When The Serpent Is Sick

Word Count: 3,057

Warning: Swearing and minor (very minor) blood

Summary:

It's been weeks since the end of the world was averted and Aziraphale was setting into a new routine of not having to worry about looking over his shoulder for Heaven.

Crowley had also been around a lot more, spending more time at the bookshop. However, when one week his friend goes suddenly silent, the angel starts to worry.

What he finds is certainly wasn't in the realm of possibilities that he thought of.

Aka my first Good Omens fic

#good omens fics #good omens ao3 #Omfg I can't believe I've written my first GO fic #Sorry to anyone who follows me for irondad and spider 😭 #This angel and demon have left me with a heavy case of brainrot #Heads up its a sickfic

[avenger-hawk]

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#I should get back to fandom activities #update my fics #and similar stuff #but I am so involved in following the war. I mean #the Ukrainian resistance against the rashist aggression #I can't believe ppl around me don't support them. are fake pacifists #believe russian propaganda blaming anyone except russia #I'm so angry and pissed off tbh #I can't focus on anything else #it's kinda like the culture and certainties I was raised with were destroyed and now I know it was all rashist propaganda #I'm glad I know now #and I'm angry that others don't see it and still cling to that shit #(btw this is just my personal vent. I'm not complaining or trying to put myself in the center of attention thus stealing it to real victims) #i mean I am totally complaining but as a personal thing. about how sad it is when ppl around us see things through a shitty filter #of propaganda and nothing helps. I've been reading so much and I tried explaining them but nothing

[septembersghost]

I am not even fan of color or etc but I understeand why they feel like this and they have alright to most of the fans love her because of her personality not just music and they love her because they can relalte to her and now her dating him just feels wrong after all things he said against black people and etc

i am white but also ethnically jewish, and have experienced virulent and damaging antisemitism (some of which was literally played off to school administration as a "joke," when it was anything but), and yet i recognize that i don't and can't know what it's like for black women/women of color (and he targeted multiple different ethnicities). i'm chronically ill, but invisibly, so when he uses ableist slurs, they wouldn't be aimed at me, but it's still shocking and hurtful. we should be repulsed by it no matter what, we don't have to be a part of one of those specific groups to be disturbed and upset, and it's even more important to stand with them in empathy and solidarity so that they know they're not alone right now. seeing black fans feeling abandoned in the fandom is terrible. seeing anyone feeling as though a safe space and source of happiness for them has been taken away/diminished/changed breaks my heart. that's why i want fans affected to know that they are being heard right now. even if it doesn't change anything, they're not on their own.

we do tend to love not only her music and artistry, but to care about her, and a lot of the distress here is coming from this being antithetical to the values and compassion she's told us she has and has shown. we wouldn't be upset in this way if we didn't like and care about her tbh. no, we do not "know" her, and we never have directly, but we believed in her and what she's shared with us, and to so publicly be with someone who represents the opposite of a lot of that is understandly distressing. she's choosing to platform him. she's choosing to make this public via articles and appearances despite her previous stance on privacy, during a massive tour and ahead of an anticipated re-recording, when she's already getting so much press, so of course this is going to draw even more attention, and take focus from her art. at this point, she has no one to blame for that gossip but herself. we can't just look away. it's just...sad and frustrating and i care most about the fans being hurt in all this. this comment on the sub really got me:

#like anyone who has followed me for any amount of time knows how much she means to me. not only her music which has saved me repeatedly #but taylor too. so you have to believe me when i say i take no pleasure in any of this. it hurts and it's exhausting. #the voices of the fans impacted *matter* and our values *matter* and we can't condone the things he's said and done #and all of that reflects on her now #anonymous #letterbox #thrown out speeches #anyway anon i appreciate you <3

[toygirljackal-archive]

Fuck I feel so dumb

#vent in the tags #she doesn't follow me anymore. why does such a simple thing hurt so much. #I'm mourning a relationship that barely even happened... but it feels so impossible to move on from... #I... really hate that I feel this way. it feels unfair to people I love now... #vaguing but do you ever instantly hit it off with someone and fall immediately in love but then fuck it up and become unable to interact #for like weeks. and she cared about you and you cared about her but it didn't work and it was your fault. and you try to move on... #but every fourth thought is about her and how much you wish she was in your arms and you in hers. and you love other people but not like he #like somehow this person you've only known for a week and a half is more important than anyone else but she's the one person you forced awa #and it's been weeks and you still can't say anything because you know you'd only hurt her. but what if you could make her understand? #but if she can't you'll just be hurting her over and over and you can't bring yourself to risk that. bc you love her #you love her too much to love her. cruel irony #and maybe if she wanted she'd text you. but maybe she's feeling the same way and is waiting for you. so you're torn #do you share your feelings honestly and risk hurting her or leave her alone and risk hurting... #would it be better if you made yourself the bad guy? would she hurt less if she believed you were as bad as you think you were? #would it be better if you told her a lie. that you moved on. that you didn't love her anymore. or would it break her heart? #all I want is for her to be happy. and I know I can't give her that... #and she shared her struggles to feel worthy... and I KNOW she's worth it all and more... a million times more than I could ever give her... #I feel like I gave her false hope and broke her even worse... she said I didn't hurt her. I don't believe her but I really hope it's true #I think I'll be thinking about her forever. wondering “what if”s till I die

[kyouka-supremacy]

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#The amount of new followers / notes I gained on my backup account in the past 24 hours is absolutely ridiculous– #and has me growing so mad at Tumblr nnnnnnggggghhhhhhhh give me my blog functioning back... #Tbh I wasn't even expecting for people to start following that blog? #I thought they would have opened the blog‚ see the notice‚ follow this blog #Mh 🤔 #It's such an unexpected outcome because I always believed people followed me mostly for reblogs– #and original posts were just something they kinda had to deal with lmao. But now people are following my original posts exclusive blog #which according to previous logic should have never happened? #And it's making me reconsider abandoning the blog once the issue is finally over actually #I don't think I will switch to that because this is my home now and I can't wait to start posting from here again #But maybe I could keep that a blog for my original posts only reblogging them from my main? #Since they usually get a little lost along the way #Or maybe I really should just switch to posting from there permanently and keep this a reblog only space #Uhm... I'm just rambling but if anyone has suggestions on what's the better course of action hmu actually #random rambles

[alfredfortnitejones]

idk how I'm supposed to do homework and function like a normal person when less than 24 hours ago my crush and I were holding hands and running through Times Square like we were in a best-friends-to-lovers cheesy romance movie

#crush #unrequited crush #unrequited love #best friends to lovers #friends to lovers #friends to best friends to lovers #the best romance tropes fr #(well‚ them and soulmate au) #i can't post this anywhere else because my irl friends follow me on all my other social media accounts but i need to scream this into the #void because i still can't believe it happened so now any random tumblr people who come across this get to hear it lol #(i don't talk about my crushes with my irl friends) #(because i only have like three close friends (including the aforementioned crush) and we're all in the same friend group and i don't #want word getting back to him lest he not like me back and i make our group awkward forever) #(also for anyone who may have seen other posts i've made on this blog this is my best friend who likes owl city)

[lesenbyan]

Thancred: Before you make some quip about age catching up with me─you'd be out of breath too, if you had to drag Urianger out of the sea without so much as a warm-up.

Sir, did you or did you not (you did) say some bullshit about being able to hold your breath for like, 5m in SB?? I don't think you get to be out of breath just 'cause you dragged a grown man out of the ocean, esp bc it's not the first time

#jay plays ffxiv; #casually gives anyone following along at home whiplash jumping from 2.55 to 5.x #God I can't believe ShB made me like Thancred #and not only like him but ship him with Uri #ShB was (is) so good #(tbf I wasn't Anti Thancred either except for in 3.x bc idc his excuse but the rest of the time I thought him annoying at worst) #(Now I actually Like Him and find him Interesting) #(Like a neat rock or a caterpillar in a jar)