#i dont cry easily but this made me cry

[brooklel]

#no but actually this song made me start fucking sobbing #I SWEAR I DONT CRY EASILY AT THINGS BUT THIS ONE HIT FOR SOME REASON #the fuckin swell at 3:43 is masterful i am in tears aaaaaa #pokemon #vocaloid #project voltage #music rec #bud says stuff

[anartificialsatellite]

Extremely frustrating thing to be aware that you're experiencing some sort of depressive episode but are powerless to stop it and so you just have to sit there feeling terrible for No Raisin until brain decides to work again, if it ever does

#mental health stuff #sorry gang #i cried at work today over something extremely mild #and kept saying “i dont know why im reacting like this” over and over #while my favorite boss kept trying to help but there was no helping it im just like this #I've cried super easily at any strong emotion for years #but lately it has been unfuckingreasonable #i wasnt even that upset #but i cant even just sit at home and let myself cry to release the tension #because if i do it for any length of time #it triggers an absolutely blinding migraine that has legitimately made me concerned i have an aneurysm waiting to pop or something

[louismygf]

girls when they just finished watching aotv

#ok this is my review #i didnt 'just finished watching' but u get it wtv #louis tomlinson #all of those voices #ok unless u wanna b spoiled u need to get off these tags rn! #i honestly thought there'd be more of the songwriting producing planning and bts footage of him working on his music #like i thought that'd be the main focus #more..... artistry and musicianship things yk? this thought made me want a behind the album doc so bad djfjf #but i do get it bc he set touring up as his ultimate goal as a solo artist. he said early on how it's his fave part in onedee #now im not saying touring ≠ artistry bc duh going on tour is fundamental for artists and for some like louis- it's what they love most #anyw thats just me. a behind the album doc could easily fix this. kinda my fault for expecting a whole different narrative hahshdj #OKAY BUT ANYWAY the first half was jam-packed with lots of feelings. heart rending gut wenching soul crushing stuff #it was so emotional i was with my sister and i didnt wanna cry beside her but i just couldnt help it 😭 #him and his family talking in depth about their loss felt gutteral. strong family... about his mom and about felicite #hm yeah </3 mmkay thats a wrap we dont need me sobbing again thinking about this family #so about the touring!! we see him struggling to find his feet to perform confidently through the years #yk... last 1d performance in xfuk. jho for xfuk. ultra fest too i think? ...ccme. telehit. scala... 2 walls tour (2020) shows in spain #aotv spoilers #its actually insane how massive his insecurities became during and post 1d 😭 #bro was acting small roles as a child. was 'popular' in school. lead singer in a cover band. main lead in grease & auditioned for xfactor #and post 1d??? man didnt know what to do with himself. it's sooo!!!!!!!! #it's evil actually leave that man's poor confidence alone! 😭 #the doc ended beautifully :> showing scenes of his show in milan. 30k+ people. ONLY there for louis! #by this point hes built up enough confidence to perform btm live for the first time!!!!! hard song to sing and he smashed it 🥹 #the title truly encapsulates everything huh. voices in his head. voices of industry ppl whispering in his ear. voices of criticism. and #voices of fans cheering and singing his songs #cathartic ending 🫶🏼 loved aotv!!! when btm played girl you Know i was gone 😭 #loved that he included the fitf uk no.1 too!!! it's a pretty little bow to this wonderful gift #i would Love to add more but i reached 30 tags LMAOOO yk what maybe i'll rb this with more tags😭💀 #louis u deserve the world the moon the stars entire planets and all the galaxies 🫂 mwuah

[dizzybevvie]

Feel free to ignore this!!! this is kinda like public journalling?? i dont wanna keep talking to my friends about it <3

#So obviously i dont want to “make this about myself” but im gonna push that aside to examine my own thoughts foe a bit #obviously 6 hours isnt a good time scale but i want to get this out of the way #so ive journaled some thoughts about how I WANT to let myself feel discomfort #-and gross and stuff so I can release it instead of pushing it aside and just prolonging the feeling #I want my brain to know i forgive myself for feeling like this in spite of not being the injured person because its normal #I am not worried for the guy that got hit because I know that other than a broken leg he is all around okay #although i did find out that my age estimate of 13-14 was wrong and hes actually 11 or 12 #i feel bad for him obviously !!! #but this is for me to get out my own feelings #I am easily disturbed and his leg was VERY broken #ive not broken a bone before (or really been injured at all) and it made me very uncomfortable #I felt sick and/or like i was going to cry #I called my mum but she had to go in a rush because of Plans (totally fair!!!!) #The noise of the hit was insanely loud and definitely whats twisting me up the most #since i wasnt looking i dont know if it was just him getting hit OR if it was also the bone snapping #although the bone snap could 100% be something my mind made up #i think thats psrtly whats frustrating idk how much of this is real #like I thought i saw the inside of his leg but i almost definitely didnt #i dont know #im not like. DISTRESSED. #Im just feelinf kinda queasy i havent stopped thinking about the noise it made and how LIMP his leg was #I was so anxious crossing the roads on my way home #and getting off my bunkbed makes me think im gonna snap my ankle everytime #But its natural to feel that yknow?? like ill move forward and after that ill be able to move on too #I think feeling it is the easiest way to do this i dont want to push it down #i cant ask for a day off for reasons #oversharing on main #beverly says stuff #tw bones #tw car accident

[nomaishuttle]

on a semi related note there r like 2 specific times i remember expecting one of my safe foods and getting something entirely different and being SO insanely upset abt it even though the thing i got still tasted good

#the first my uncle asked me what i wanted 4 dinner while he was staying with us #and i said cheesy chicken and rice my fav food and he Made cheesy chicken and rice but it was like. a completely different dish than what i #refer to as cheesy chicken and rice and it was good food but i was rly rly rly upset. and i feel bad bc again it was good and my uncles a #great cook but i was expecting my comfort food and got something different #the other big one was i always get the wisconsin six cheese from dominos. and if i dont get the wisconsin six cheese i get the beautiful an #delicious pizza me and my mom named greg . rly funny story actually. but greg is basically. hes got ranch instead of tomato sauce and then #chicken bacon (always at least these 2) and mushrooms if possible for toppings. and hes great #and one time my mom was ordering dominos and asked me what i wanted and i said the wisconsin 6 cheese yk. and it came and it had ranch sauc #and my mom was like oph yeah i thought itd be fun to try the ranch sauce since we like it on greg so i thought id surprise you. and i #literally couldnt eat the pizza and i started crying over it bc i had been rly excited for the 6 cheese #but yes. greg is my goto pizza everywhere except dominos on occasion if they dont let u do rnch as a sauce we do alfredo instead #hes very trustworthy and i love him... we got him umm. the first time we ordered him was when we were doing my sleep study #so we were like waiting outside the hospital and we were like oh we should order something 2 eat since we havent had dinner yet #and we went to order and 4 somereason we couldnt get the 6cheese idk if like one of th cheeses was out of stock or something ??? #but we were like ok lets just make a new pizza lol. and we made him and then dominos was like Ok what do you want to name the pizza #and idk why i think it was late but that question was like. HYSTERICAL to us KJADBJWABD bc we were like what is it a baby #of course now i realize its so you can like. have that pizza saved to easily order it again yk. but we were like idk.. greg??? so yes. and #im ngl to you guys idk if it was just bc it had been a good day and i was happy and like kind of silly since i was at a hospital #but that was literally theeee best pizza ive ever had in my literal entire life. istg they put crack in that pizza it was soo good #sooo yes anyways sry 4 rambling.

[autistic-shaiapouf]

Mystery bugs in my home and I don't recognize them! I've seen a few around at this point and might make a more formal post about it tomorrow but, mystery bugs below the cut if anyone wants to take a shot at helping me ID them:

Not the best pics but it's got an abdomen with clear markings that make me think either roach or earwig, but photos of the nymphs of either don't seem to be matching up; granted I only looked for maybe 5 minutes and mightve missed something obvious but this guy's not ringing any bells for me

#I'm about to head to bed and have quarantined the perpetrator; i feel a little bad but i dont know what he is yet #I'd feel comfortable letting an earwig or smthn like that hang out but. i have reasonable suspicion hanging around this man #bc the apartment is a little messy and. if he is a roach i may bail and look for another room U_U full respect to them #ive seen lots of pet roaches and they make me quite happy to see but idk if I want them free roaming my house... #especially knowing i can't kill them; last time i killed bugs it was a bunch of ants in the pantry and it took an emotional toll on me 😭 #I'd go the long and intensive route if it means i can keep them all alive but i know a lot of people don't swing that way #in that particular case i figured my roommates would prefer the ants to not be able to come back + the way to the backyard #door I would have taken them out of wasn't easily accessible so. massacre it was U_U #if you wanted to know ANYTHING about the type of person i am know that i physically cannot kill a bug or else I'll start crying #they're literally just little guys they're just existing!!! i can't punish them for just hanging out!!!! anyways #unfortunately small photogenic man may perish in captivity but that may afford better photo ops hmmmmm #i just need the knowledge base before i make any other judgements #you know what. let's put this in some tags actually; i was gonna formally rewrite this but may as well tag while I'm here #bugs #bugblr #insect identification #hoatm rants #I'm not overly concerned but ive seen a number of these inside now and this is the first one that's made its way to my room

[andthevillainshallrises]

i'm not anxious because of something in particular. i'm anxious because i'm alive, and someone decided that was reason enough to give me responsibilities and then left me unsupervised.

#screaming into the tumblr void #i think the back to school approaching is making me even more anxious #i dont know what to do with myself #let's just roll with the flow and if i die tomorrow then let it be a lesson #sometimes i'm so freaking stupid i forget to even breath hoW #i mean i'm anxious about everything all the time #what do you want me to say #i'm an overthinker #and i panic easily but i won't show it #i like to talk nonsense in the tags it's fun and giggles #if i dont laugh i cry so i made my choice

[kashmirichaiwithmehr]

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#i just finished goblin #no drama or movie or anything has ever made me feel that way #i laughed so hard #and i cried so many times #i do not cry over shows or movies ashdjkasldasdasdjaksd #but i loved this show sm yall dont understand #ive never been decisive about any of my favourite anythings #but i think i can easily say this is one of my favourite shows of all time #i love it sm #the entire cast but esp gong yoo ugh i luv him sm #mehrtalks #kdrama #kdramas

[shitbrainratface]

Srry i am very chatty today but i noticed the pipeline of

I want to die -> I want to be someone else -> I want to be me with a different life -> I want the plans I've made in my life to be easier to fulfill and that I could be more sure that I even can fulfill them

to be such a huge improvement and I'm proud

/ok to rb

#i find it funny when i talk about the state i am in and ppl seem so sad #like oh you cant drive oh you cant live on your own oh you need a caregiver... i wish you a good recovery #bitch i am recovered! just because my best point is worse than your lowest point doesnt mean i havent made huge steps #or like i talk about my insecurities #and theyre like well i hope you feel better about yourself #nonono its a good thing! because I get up and I look in the mirror and I feel negative emotion and thats it #i dont insult myself i dont feel dread or suicidal about it anymore #i just feel bad! and that bad feeling doesnt even last the rest of the day - I can forget about it easily now! #like ik ''i dislike how i look'' is sad for a lot of people but like... its such an improvement from ''if i look in a mirror i suddenly #develope delusions that my appearance is causing my girlfriend to cheat on me and that everyone wants me dead'' #its honestly like... i was talking with a trans woman who was thinking of coming out and transitioning #and she was like ''but im scared that i wont like the way i look #and everyone says i will but what if i dont'' #and i told her ''you have no idea how freeing it is to look in the mirror & dislike the way you look & still be happy and proud of your #physical changes'' #''imagine seeing yourself and instead of wanting to cry and scream and kill someone you go 'eh could be better' and then feel fine the rest #of the day'' #and the best part: I fully accept that there are other people who can find me attractive now #if i take a nude and i think it sucks then I send it anyways bc hey they see something in me that i cant and thats wonderful #and she said it really helped her bc that reality seemed so much more attainable than sudden radical self love #and maybe some day i will love myyself and love my appearance but even just where I am right now I think its pretty good #just.... i can not stress how freeing it is to be okay with yourself after a life time of thinking my appearance was the end of the world #im not going to lie - i am still incredibly jealous of hot ppl especially hot ppl who get a lot of compliments #but atleast being around hot people doesnt trigger me into a defensive scared mess anymore

[vampyreyes]

I watched electric dreams last night for the first time and sobbed for a while at the end

#i dont really like romance movies but i can easily say its the second best one next to edward scissorhands that actually made me cry #actually i like it a lot more than edward scissorhands #i like that madeline got to finally interact with edgar but i wish they had interacted more #it wouldve been cute if they were together and stuff #ill never forgive the ending :( #edgar is precious tbh #also fuck miles he was an asshole #death speaks #electric dreams

[dullahandyke]

sorry mutuals for not replying to your texts i am simply too busy analysing the utterly batshit behaviour of the sanders sides fandom and how the canon fed into it

#the writer's utterly hamfisted moral schism shit made it a breeding ground for absolute insanity #shirt that says 'i was around for the discourse around remus's first episode' #like genuinely i found out that that episode dropped bcos there was a post on my dashboard like #'remember to tag for remus guys tag when hes sympathetic tag when he appears' #and like im all too sympathetic to people who are easily triggered by fiction but like. #if you have to trigger tag for a main character acting as they do in canon. then maybe you should watch a different thing #the fandom was like divorced from the canon but in a way that ive seen no other fandom do. fascinating #btw im still in the latin test im just gonna cry at my mom when she comes up to check on me so i dont have to do it

[noriakicatkyoin]

The thoughts i hv about fujimoto and his characters one day ill be able to put them into words

#for now i reread his look back one shot and cry ab it #that one post saying how kyomoto reads as autistic and i go oh. screams. #godddd look back is like peak. its like the embodiment of my thoughts. the way that no matter the way the content is dressed at its core is #the inherent grief of knowing other people and having limited time in every relationship you have with everything and everyone around you #and how that time while you may grieve when its over it shouldnt be regretted and should push you to keep going #like i love how he writes relationships so much #its not oh everything is all about love oh we all need romance and love it is the core of our being how will we live without it #and instead its just he just shows all these varied and changing relationships and what they mean to different people #and how the relationships people cherish affect them and make them better in the long run. #and the majority of these relationships that he shows as actually beneficial being platonic. oh im just crazy now huh #look back is about 2 friends. csm centers on a friend group/family dynamic. goodbye eri is about 2 friends and a family #like yknow. its. its WEIRD its refreshing to me like its not groundbreaking maybe but like #i dont see relationships explored so casually so normally and made so important and theyre friends and platonic every single time #i dont like watch romance linger on the horizon and it turn into that and become some mess of tropes like #a lot of ppl i dont think really explore nuance in friendships. the weight and different kinds of friendships there are #aki has an older brother dynamic w denji and power. denji and power VERY easily read as qpps. kyomoto and fujino are best friends #and yet all these stories about their ties to each other are so heart wrenching and make u so invested in their relationships #i enjoy it !!! i just enjoy it. who cares how technically good it is. i dont. i like it and its fun and new to me and feels great #screaming in the tags #youve given me unnecessary feelings #im not putting this in any main tags i dont need ppl trying to communicate with me about things #rohan rambles #ig #yeah bc i need to find this later

[lamiaviridis]

Something about Abigail calling Amora beautiful whilst Amora, whom is a symbol of natural beauty, doesn't even register it because as she's looking at Abigail she's mourning what her girlhood could have been if it weren't taken from her..

#. ˚ ◞ ♡ CHARACTER STUDY ／ Diamond tears and burning lips. #. ˚ ◞ ♡ EDITS ／ I'm in control of everything except love #. ˚ ◞ ♡ OOC ／ Please dont talk to me i cry easily. #;; sighs #;; what was i made for is such amoracore it makes me want to explode into smithereens

[astranauticus]

went back into bilibili after a while and started watching through my old saved videos and oh... i remember why i was so unwell about bai choufei for those few months in 2021

#asto speaks #what was that thing i said #sex appeal inversely proportional to mental stability #HES SO. argh #the problem is that once i become unwell about someones voice theres no going back #i dont know WHY i obsess over voices specifically so easily and so hard but here we are #liu yunings voice... chefs kiss #honestly i did really like that hairstyle he got after turning evil that everyone kept making fun of #hes just so PRETTY honestly hes prettier with that silly hair style no im not taking comments at this time #especially with the white streak. my poor pathetic war criminal #also like bcf smiles so much more after turning evil and you look into his eyes and theres just something deeply wrong with him #look im like. more normal about him now than i was last year but like #lyn is still the only person whos ever made me go 'hes so pretty im gonna start crying' #im specifically referring to that one (1) outfit from the truth s1e3 #first time i understood what contrapoints meant by someone being so beautiful theyre painful to look at #hm i should go rewatch the truth at some point but also i dont want to put my friends through me being unwell on main again KSDJFHKSDJHF

[dazais-crab-addiction]

Shinigami-thighs is nothing more than a miserable sack of discarded body parts that her mother sadly failed to abort. She has her own anon off and that's why her friends are getting harassed but she doesn't care, as long as she is safe from harassment that's what only matters to her meanwhile her friends are dealing from her actions and she sits there on her couch and watches her friends face drama. Calling her ignorant would be an understatement - the amount of sheer stupidity oozing from her could fill the Grand Canyon. She is a walking cheap street skank that should have never been born but it won't change who she is: a loser who couldn't even save her own mother. Shinigami-thighs should have been flushed down the toilet the moment she was born.

Um??? Who the fuck are you talking about???? Are you like, fucking stupid or soemthing??? Like not only is everything you've said make you a huge asshole I also have zero idea who the fuck that is, so your messaging random unrelated people about it. What the fuck is wrong with you???

Normally I'd just block you, delete this, and move on with my life. But I just got done having a fucking breakdown that a friend had to help me out with and I opened tumblr to relax and calm down and this is the shit I have to see??? No. Just no. Go to fucking therapy you piece of shit.

#rant #vent #im so sorry to anyone that sees this i am just not doing well rn and already being worked up just made me so unbelievably pissed about this #asks #anon ask #crab says words #on todays episode of crab finally snaps and cusses people out on main #i am so sorry #i just had a really shitty morning and opened a lot of trauma wounds and my friend had to sit there reassuring me about shit and #i felt so guilty about taking up their time over stupid stuff when we both know im not even going to follow their advice #and i am shaking so bad because of all that and i just want some calm so i open tumblr thinking i can just scroll thru fanart to calm down #and i see super aggressive shit about someone i dont even know like wtf???? get help????? #im still shaking but now on top of that i want to cry too and for fucking what #because some asshole is throwing a temper tantrum and being a little bitch??? #im so tired of not being able to peacefully exist in my own little bubble of the internet #i forgot just how bad my swearing gets when im upset aha #again im really really sorry about this but im just so upset rn that if theres even the slightest chance anon sees this i want them to #and i hope they feel like the piece of shit that they are for fucking with completely unrelated people #i dont think scrolling through fanart will help anymore i think i need a nap now damn #i hate how easily i get worked up when im already upset :((

[soccerpunching]

it has come to my attention that i forget to reply on reblogs or replies here, only on what i catch at the moment. im sorry, my squirrel brain forgets

#i wish my brain do what i tell it to do #sometimes i already mentally replied to them and then i forget to type that in #i only remember to reply after a week when im already looking back to compile my posts to update my masterlists #the masterlist that existed bcs i cry and scream whenever i want to find a post i made and it's not easily accessible to #to me* #cw obsessive organization #-> ahead #u dont understand. if my posts are not easily accessible or not neatly compiled by type and date. my brain screams at me #and that is not very cool #not fandom lore #the reason why i have a lot of blogs is related to this