#i dont even know if this is smthn that Is answered or if its something simply left up to interpretation.

[trainingdummyrabbit]

and how much was argalia Like That before the pianist???? how much of him is just Him and how much of it is him in the aftermath of dealing with this loss??? is this nonchalance just the way he is or was it a development to adapt to the new way his world works? who Is Argalia??????

#*this is why i can never fucking!!!!! speak for him!!!!!!! ineed to research SO BAD!!!!!* #i dont even know if this is smthn that Is answered or if its something simply left up to interpretation. #theres so many words Everywhere and i have only two eyes and one teeny little brain!!!! #but GOD i fucking love dissecting characters like this so bad. who are you little man. why are you like this. #not a Who Hurt You; but a HOW Did They Hurt You. What Did You Do About It. #piktalk #projmoon #characters with unspoken but implied facets my beloved. im gonna fucking bite and attack with teeth. #the horrors of character discussion on main. 'yea i could be saying smthn Or i could just be being the dumbest motherfucker in th world.' #whos to say. i dont think before i speak tho so YIP--

[snekdood]

I accept that ill probably be alone forever. I just wish it wasnt because people were so manipulated by someones fake narrative abt me.

#i wish it was bc i burned half the city down ir smthn #something to actually make me sit there and reflect on the actions i did #rather than trying to sit there and reflect on the actions my abuser said i did knowing damn well i didnt #but feeling like if i dont analyze it the ppl around me will think i dont care about anything #even. though. i. didnt. fucking. do. anyytthingnngggsnahehws i want to strangle you. #like i cant sit here and analyze actions i didnt do bc idk why someone would do that stuff bc i fucking didnt. i can sit here and try to #figure out why someone might do that shit but ultimately idfk because im not them. #im sorry im not this ultimate abuser you want to paint me as. im sorry its kot as simple as 'this person holds views i think are #problematic so that means theyre the abuser' #im sorry that you look at my blog. see someone you think is cringe. and decide my weird awkwardness is enough evidence. #idk wtf to tell you dude. your fave is the one who did it. idk what tf to tell you. #i also dk how you can see all their 'rape is fun' drawings and not even SUSPECT FOR A SECOND that it could be them lmao. #but whatever. ppl gonna listen to the most popular ppl bc thats how ppl are in abusive smear camapigns like this. #ppl will always side w the more popular person. thats just a fact like thats something i learned early about #emotionally abusive ppl like them. #i cant sit here and pretend for you to make it so easy. that im the bad guy and its just seewww obvious bc of whatever politics you think #i have. i cant sit here anymore letting you believe that. i cant sit here anymore letting you believe the world is black and white and #you can just sort people into boxes of good and evil. #im mot what you think i am and thats my final answer. if you cant deal with that reality then idk wtf to tell you.

[spookyscaryskidnpump]

my thoughts on spooky month 6

copy pasted from a page and a half of google doc. crying. spoilers inbound.putting it under the cut cuz its super long. also swear warning.

Ok to start off LILA. LILA MY GAL NO UR DOING UR BEST AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. Im crying im actually fucginf crying. She's trying. So hard. Skid is trying so hard. THEY'RE DOING THEIR BEST PLEASEEEEE. Father Gregor can go EAT SHIT. THEY'RE TRYING AND THAT'S WHAT COUNTS GODDAMNIT.

Susie… Susie no… please… she deserves better istgggggg. What happened to their parents? Are they actually just busy? Are they DEAD? Holy shit what if they're dead. Poor Pump, poor Susie, god please just let these kiddos be ok. PLEASE. ABUELO WONDER IS TYING SO HARD BUT SUSIE KNOWS IT ISN'T REALLY FROM HER PARENTS IM CRYING. SUSIE NOOOOOO

FATHER GREGOR I HATE YOU. ok well he obvs did some good but STILL. GREGOR. STFU GREGOR. I get that hes trying but U CANT JUST SAY ALL THAT SHIT ABOUT JUDGEMENT AND THEN JUDGE HER HER FUCKING HOUSE GOT BROKEN INTO!! YOU DONT HAVE THE FUCKING CONTEXT!!!! ARGHFDGHJSGHJKAGHSD. Also DAMN IS HE A CULTIST NOW?? IS HE DEAD?? WHAT?!?!?!

ROYYYYYY ROY MY BOI NOOOOOO poor guy :( i understand why he hates the kids they DID kinda ruin him so. At least he knows theyre trying now :( and ross n rob just ASSUME he did something bad isnt helping here!!!! I get that theyre also trying to help him and its nice to see him opening up to them about stuff (even if we dont get to know what specifically PELO WHY) but PLEASE get this kid an anger management class or smthn PLEASE. He needs SO MUCH THERAPY. I dont think hes gonna get therapy because im pretty sure his parents are Part Of The Problem but STILL.  Also FUCKER LITERALLY GOT POSSESED BY A DEMON?????? THATS GOTTA BE TRAUMATIC TF

Side note i love ross and robert dearly and i appreciate them doing their best to help on both sides i love them smmmmmm AUGH

KEVIN AND RADFORD FRIENDSHIP REALLLLLLLLLL i am SO fucking happy about that!!!! Also Kevin having conflicted feelings on the kids FAIR. Similar thing to Roy except hes an adult with a semi-functional support network and is able to understand that theyre just dumb kids and they dont actually mean any harm. He’s harsher on the hatzgang cuz theyre teens and old enough to know stealing is wrong but Skid n Pump are little kiddos they dont know better. Also him disapproving of father gregor REAL THO. also HE GOT POSSESSED TOO?? TRAUMA CENTRAL HOLY SHIT

PATTY DESERVES TO HAVE A GUN ACTUALLY. Also JOHN ANGST JOHN ANGST JOHN ANGST! IS HIS KID DEAD? IS HIS DAUGHTER OK HOLY SHIT. ALSO THEM HELPING THE KIDS PROPERLY IM CRYIG AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!

WHAT WAS EVERMORE DOING WITH THE HOBOMEN???? HELLO??????

I SAW THAT CULT NECKLACE UNDER IGNACIOS SHIRT. I FUCKING SAW IT. CALLED IT BITCH!!!!!!

Rick just has the WORST luck lmao

STREBER IS ALIVE LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOOOO

DEXTER NO PLEASE AUGH…… HIS MOM TOO……

JAUNE AND ROSS’S DAD… HE'S REAL HE EXISTS!! I get ur trying jaune but that is NOT the best way to comfort poor lila… AT LEAST SHES TRYING THO I APPRECIATE HER

THE ENTIRE NEWGROUNDS ENDING?? THE THIEVES AND THE CANDY DEALER IN CAHOOTS WITH THE CULT???? HELLO??????

MOLOCH IS GONE. he deserved it but also THE KIDS ARE SO SAD ABOUT IT? Like they don't really get it but they just watched someone they thought was their friend DIE. HOLY SHIT.

finally. SKID AND PUMP. KIDDOS NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Ok for real tho theyre so much more self aware than the fandom and bulk of the show give them credit for?? Like Skid is VERY aware of his dad being dead/possibly missing and legit just doesn’t wanna talk about it. He knows what death is and he finds fun in it to cope. My poor sweet boyo… and PUMP. PUMP ANSWERING THE CALL AUGHHHHHH HE WANTS HIS PARENTS BACK IM CRYING. SUSIE AND ABUELO ARE DOING THEIR BEST AND HE'S TRYING SO HARD AND AAAAAAAAAAUGH. Also him getting possessed by Moloch while having Star-Eyes basically debunks the theory of the Star-Eyes being a form of possession which is FASCINATING. Anyway that scene with Susie and Pump got me misty eyed and then during the ending with Skid and Lila i actually genuinely started crying. I just want them to be happy. Please let them be happy. Please. PLEASE.

#spookymisc.txt #spooky month #spooky month 6 #spooky month 6 spoilers #sm6 #sm spoilers #not tagging all the characters cuz theres too many mentioned #anyway CRYING.

[sulfies]

I'm curious to hear what your Altair and Ezio think of The Farm, should Desmond tell them about it!

I dont think my hc Desmond would outright talk about it unless they ask, but the other two would figure out bits from their convos.

Like Ezio would talk about big family dinners and how noisy it was and how he kinda misses it and Desmond would be like "Must be nice, my meals were mostly silent and quick" just bits and slips that hint on how isolated his childhood was. He maybe doesnt even realize how fucked up some things he says are.

I do love when in fics authors make it so Desmond was trained harder than anyone, but I find it funny that Canon Desmond barely had any idea wtf Assassins were or how they work till he got kidnapped, so maybe he talks about smthn and goes like "ooooh so thats why I had to do that *incredibly dangerous* thing as a kid"

Once they did learn/figure out tho,

Altair: would probobly be the person who understood the most since he grew up as a Assassin too, even tho his childhood was also crazy, I think he would almost Pity Desmond bc atleast he had a good father for a bit and the Assassins in Maysaf were still a community and not isolated from the town. Probobly would open up first about himself to get Desmond to talk about it but it might backfire a bit w desmond saying "oh god I got no right to complain their parents died infront of them😭"

Ezio: would be like "so u grew up with assassins whoa! Must be a huge family that has eachothers backs!" And Desmond is like 😬 "not rlly", once he learned he would be devastated, especially if its Ezio after brotherhood is established "thats not right! Its supossed to be a Brotherhood!" And just like be extra mad on his behalf and Desmond would appriciate him being loud for him. Might force him and Altair to family dinners with Maria and Claudia.

I think they would take the news of Desmond being made to genetically be a perfect cocktail of Assassins the worse out of everything and would have the "ur so much more than ur dna" group hug session

Overall I dont think they would Coddle him too much and Desmond wouldnt want to be coddled but It would strengthen their bond once he spoke about it, just regular old traumabonding

But If they ever saw Will for some rsn:

Ezio: his smile would drop as soon as he was talking or he looked towards Will, would give short answers which Will would think fo him being respectfull till Ezio disagreed with every idea he says (bad or good)

Altair: glares, silent, would use big words to show his superiority would say stuff like "oh thats what you guys do? Hmm we found that unnecesery and timewaste" "These swords? Hmm we dont use them due to bla bla bla but you do you" just find something bad about every single thing and like make jabs about it.

Bc he is sadly a Mentor they wouldnt like go punch him in the face but they would do their best to annoy him in a way he cannot call out bc thecnically they didnt do anything. And ofc they wouldnt answer any question he asked and just say "u dont know? Hmm👀"

One of them almost always would be next to Desmond even tho he would be like "omfg stop acting like guarddogs" and litterally not rlly give a shit that Will was there anymore (basically over it)

#asks #I love these HC questions plz keep em coming #I am a sucker for “fucked up desmond childhood” fanfics #Im sorry for typos

[wiihtigo]

i sent an ask sayinh "NELL DIED????" but then tumblr gavev me a scary error message so maybe it ate it... sorry if it didnt but NELL DIED?

SOB...YES.....I DIDNT WANT IT TO HAPPEN..!!! i encourage you to go knock down the door of @megamind2010 for more in depth answers about nell lore if youre a ladybughead.

but the basic deal is that this happens...later...sometime later. in their lives. ladybug following the proud blue beetle line of being exploded in action (i drew smthn inspired by the despair i feel when i think about this ^_^)

this affects casey really badly. ARE YOU SURPRISED..? DID YOU THINK SHE WAS HEARTLESS? so did I. mm basically she goes like catatonic immediately after (even through the funeral which michelle has to guide her to like she could float away at any second)

michelle is a supportive presence for her during this because shes like jeez idk she might kill herself im worried. and shes ALSO fucked up about nell dying bcuz she was involved in the same event ladybug was killed in (goldstars very first crisis event we;re so proud of her) and you know. shes never experienced the classic superhero experience of one of your hero peers dying horribly tragically. so her looking after casey is probably also her way of coping, like a way of keeping her hands busy because shes realizing hero work is actually kind of scary

shes only broken out of her 0__0 state by ..um. BOOSTER GOLD COMING OVER BECAUSE HE WAS LIKE MAN..SHOULD I SAY SOMETHING? (hes genuinely a little worried) (BUT NO DONT)

ive posted these before without context but this was the context LOL

seeing booster breaks the dam in her heart and all her feelings coming flooding out in form of crazy migraine inducing rage (im getting deja vu) and she throws shit at him screaming at him to GTFO and hes like crawling away with a broken nose OK good talk and ted and michelle are like WHY TF DID YOU DO THAT?and after that casey goes into the worst state of depression shes ever experienced in her life...ive mentioned in an ask before i think that she doesnt really get sad? when bad things happen to her she just gets angry. she never cries genuine tears. so the state she gets into here is really scarily jarring because its so fucking WEEEIRDLY OUT OF CHARACTER. she spends all day crying and whenever michelle comes over now she feels sick looking at her and she cries and cries and cries and whines that she doesnt want to see her she wants nell and she stays holed up in their apartment until shes kicked out because no ones paying rent and shes moves cities without saying a word to anyone. she only realized after she died that she actually did love (EW. sorry) nell and now she doesnt even have any way of knowing if they couldve done anythng with that. she hates booster more than ever she hates ted she cant talk to michelle anymore she hates gotham she hates her life she hates everything, eventually she does get a job in the film industry as like a screenwriter/editor but she hates that its not exactly what she wanted that shes just barely almost there and she should be excited to be so close to her goals but shes not so shes just this grouchy miserable (but good at her job!) woman that no one wants to talk to and then she dies. the end.

(but look-- here they are reunited in hell..!)

wehwwww SORRY FOR JUST COVERING CASEYS SIDE OF THINGS AND NOT NELLS....i figure youd get more juicy details if you ask marty :)

#asks #her life isnt all bad she ummm gets a nicotine addiction. no. she..idk #maybe she gets a pet snake. to give her smthn to look forward to when she goes home every day #casey #caseybug #edit: Marty wrote that response going into ladybugs side of things. go look if you dare

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

hai ariiiiii :3 guess whos SICK . me . im sick

ANYWAY thinking abt sugubooboo taking care of u while sick ,,,,,,,,

u kno when u get that feeling ur gonna b sick in the morning the night b4 it all hits ? i think sugu picks up on that after u blow ur nose one 2 many times n he asks if ur okay

ur not. obviously . so he heats up some nice peppermint tea, and something my mom does when im sick is take some honey, mix it w ginger powder + some other stuff thats good 4 ur throat and make me eat a spoonful of it [its gross as HELLLL i hate it but i feel a lil better afterwards] then tucks u in2 bed [later after uve fallen asleep he calls out of work for tomorrow, he REFUSES to leave u alone + sick]

the next morning ur properly Sick and suguru wakes u up w breakfast in bed, all warm foods infused with clove, mint, ginger, and sets a few packs of tissues next 2 the bed

after uve eaten he lays in bed w u 4 a bit, kissing your head and fiddling w ur hands. eventually u ask abt work, he said he called out 4 both u n him.

he trusts u 2 take a shower on ur own, but when u get out hes holding a towel and wraps u in it immediately then just hovers around u as u do ur morning routine, making sure youre okay n not abt 2 like . pass out or smthn

once ur dressed and fully cocooned in the bed once again, suguru pours out some cold medicine 4 u and hands u water once that NASTY liquid slides down ur throat. he gives u a lil candy as a palate cleanser tho, hes not mean

i think after that u just fall in and out of sleep 4 teh rest of the day until u get hungry again or need another dose of medicine. sometimes u wake up 2 suguru humming and playing w ur hair while he reads a book, sometimes he joins u and takes a nap w u. the only time u wake up alone is when its lunch or dinner n hes in the kitchen making smthn spicy 2 open ur sinuses

everytime u take a dose of medicine, he kisses you on the lips then pushes a glass of water in one hand n some candy in the other. hed probably mumble 'good job' or smthn like that in2 the top of ur head as he cuddles u while ur trying 2 get the taste out of ur mouth

he does NOT care if u sneeze n get snot all over him, puke on him if u have a stomach bug, cough in his face, or r generally disheveled. u could never disgust him.

if its sunny out, hell offer 2 take u outside just 4 a lil bit. if u dont think u can walk hes gonna pick u up. no complaining u NEED that sun, hell argue while sliding the patio door open

youll sit out 4 a bit, soaking up the sunshine then when u want 2 go back 2 bed hell carry u back and gently tuck u in2 bed

if ur 2 weak 2 even blow ur nose, hes holding the tissue 2 ur nose n waiting 4 u 2 blow. the chapstick might b all the way across the room n ur savior ends up being suguru and his long legs. the temp in the house is 2 hot? hes turning the a/c down and all the fans r coming 2 ur room bcuz he knows how slow the heating n cooling takes 2 change.

also everytime he walks in2 the room, hes asking how r u? do u need anything? does anything hurt too much? and he probably has smthn 4 u 2 do so ur not on ur phone all day [guess . guess who was on their phone all day . ME]

at the very end of the day, hes got u curled up in his lap on the bed, INCREDIBLY comfortable, and theres some movie on the tv in the bedroom. like juno or some other feel good indie movie. sugurus just kissing u everywhere on ur face and clutching u tight 2 him because u got super clingy after he had 2 run out 4 last minute groceries. since its past dinner time, he gives u lil candied ginger pieces 2 help w ur throat n other snacks 2 go w the movie.

eventually u fall asleep in his arms in the middle of the movie, smothered in warmth on all sides.

OKAY . WOW . moving on, HOW WAS UR DAY ARI ??? tell me abt that book ur reading rn !! u seem very enthusiastic abt it, id luv 2 know y ^_^ ! [personally my day was . ouchie . and ive got a book abt decolonialism checked out from the library rn :3]

ASHLEY !!!!!!!!! i’m answering this kinda late i hope your cold is gone by now 😔😔😔

BUT . GODDDDDDDDDD ARE YOU OUT TO KILL ME 😭😭😭😭😭😭 BE HONEST . how did you know sugu sickfics are my greatest weakness………… (i actually have . a whole fic just like this that i wrote a year ago or so 😭😭 YOU MADE ME WANNA GO BACK N READ IT HHHH this is very bad for my weak suguloving heart….) I’M JUST. I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO SAYY. you keep serving me meals on a silver platter n i’m just?!?!! eating gratefully …. thank you……

NO BC YOU’RE SOOOOO RIGHT YOU’RE SO OBJECTIVELY CORRECT :((((((( HE’S. THE SWEETEST. the best bf around !!!!!! he’s so good at caring for you when you’re sick…. sniffle……. AND OFCCCC HE’D PICK UP ON IT INSTANTLY TOO. his sixth sense is so crazy accurate when it comes to his baby </33333 and wahhh him making you tea and tucking you in and calling in sick for you 🥺🥺🥺 he just wants you to feel better……

WAKING YOU UP . W BREAKFAST IN BED. WHAT IF I CRYYYYY THIS CONCEPT IS SO DEAR TO MY HEART ASHLEY ….. and him just. hovering around you. i feel like he would stand outside the bathroom while you shower just in case you were to fall over or smth…….. he’s so caring :(((( and wrapping you up in a towel…… cocooning you into bed. sniffle. i need him to baby me sooooo bad it’s not a want it’s a need …… he rlly would stay by your side the Whole time………… cooks for you and tends to you and makes sure you’re okay . he’s so good. i feel like he kind of really loves it too….. he doesn’t love that you’re sick BUT . he loves being allowed to take care of you :’3 loves making you feel better.

ALSOOO him kissing you and praising you whenever you take your medicine T_T oughhhhhhhh one kiss on the forehead + ”good girl/boy” from him and i would be OUT like a light. collapsed. fainted. he would be so good at coaxing you into taking it ……… ANDDDDD the part abt you never disgusting him. SO true. you could never ever disgust him he just wants you to be okay…….. forcing you out into the sunlight………… asking if you need anything……………. making sure you aren’t bored…………………. ohhhhh he’s 2 perfect we need to put him down.

sugurus just kissing u everywhere on ur face and clutching u tight 2 him because u got super clingy after he had 2 run out 4 last minute groceries.

AND THEN . YOU TOP IT OFF WITH THIS. ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️ THIS MADE ME MELT….. i’m so…………. i have so many thoughts abt this. sugu would LOVE a clingy s/o but i keep specifically thinking of him w an s/o who’s shy w physical affection.,,,, and how he’d react when they get sick and suddenly get all cuddly . 🥺 he would love it so much. kisses you all over and holds you soooo tight and he’s just!!!!! so enamored!!!!!!!!! you’re like a lil koala. he loves you. sob.

WAHHHHH THANK YOU FOR THE ABSOLUTE MEAL MY BELOVED i’m not exaggerating btw this is gonna feed my sugu thoughts for weeks to come…… AND MY DAY WAS GOOD!!!! i’m sorry to hear your day was ouchie </3 i hope it’s all better now!!! pls make sure to rest and eat properly <33 it’s what sugu would want for you!!!!!

AND . THE BOOK. YES. it’s called giovanni’s room by james baldwin and it’s sooooo <33333 yeah. it’s so good. i LOVE baldwin’s prose so much??????? and the story is just . AUGH. i’m still not finished but i’m so obsessed. it’s basically abt a closeted guy in like … the 1800s-1900s? who goes on vacation in paris while his girlfriend is in spain. and he meets this rlly mysterious charming italan barman called giovanni……….. the book is abt their relationship + their own experiences w homosexuality + their tragic ending (it’s revealed at the very beginning of the book that giovanni will meet his end by the guillotine)…..

so it’s just . yeah. it’s such a gorgeous book :’3 and just so . idk. raw? visceral?? i love giovanni a lot. and more than anything i loves james baldwin <333 i’m planning to buy another of his books too!!!! it’s called tell me how long the train’s been gone :3 I RLLY RECOMMEND BOTH OF THEM!!! i hope the book you just got ends up being good too <33

#MWAH one big forehead kiss for you!!! #thank you again for this i’m slurping all ur sugu thoughts up through a big straw :333 #sniffleeee i love him so much……… #pls take care of yourself!!!!!! 😭 i’m chasing your sickness away w a pitchfork…. hopefully it’s all gone now tho………… #sending you allllll my coziest vibes <3333 #ask tag ✩ #ashley !! ✩

[queer-advice-hotline]

Okay im a different transmasc nb anon (i promise lol) and i havent tried packing in years and i want to try again but my issue w starting isnt anxiety but a different problem?

Im (i guess the term is) hypersexual? like i just cant help it- i trybreally hard to not be but its smthn ive struggled w for years. and when i do try to pack i get rlly rlly distracted but i have such bad bottom dysphoria. i try to ignore it but... it doesnt ever last long : (

i know this is a weird tmi ask and you dont have to post or answer this- i get its weird

i just would really appreciate tips on how to cope or baby steps my way to it

: (

Like you said, baby steps are the way to go. Try starting for even just one minute, then stop. Then the next day try two minutes. Working your way up from there might help you get used to the feeling, and it'll feel more natural and you won't think about it so much.

Another way to try and get your mind off it is to do something else while you're packing. Wear it while you do chores around the house, or are working on something so you are focused on other things.

#1-800-queer #queer advice hotline #gender calls #advice calls #trans #transmasc

[razzmothazz]

I refuse to go to professionals because I've had a bad experience with a counselor already...but also I'm afraid of what happens if I *was* diagnosed with something... especially something stigmatized.

Also misdiagnoses too

UR SO REAL!!! few years ago i had a psychiatrist that seemed like she didnt believe a word i said and just seemed bored during the appointment also when i tried to talk abt smthn specific she literally told me off because thats something i should "tell a therapist not a psychiatrist". mind u ive never spoken to a therapist or a psychiatrist in my life before that visit i had no clue what the difference even was at the time. and its like okay girl i am 14 years old and i dont know whats happening you could at least pretend u care i am breaking down crying in front of u now because u made my stress worse. now it sucks for everyone even more.

also i just have very bad anxiety in general especially for like doctors and stuff idek why but hospitals especially terrify me... like rn im getting some stuff done to check out my knees and i am still going to the doctor with my mom. she goes with me to the dentist too i CANNOT go alone its too scary i will literally crumble and cry [also my mom knows way more about family and/or my medical history anyway so she will know how to answer if the ask anything like that which i stress about a lot too]

so yeah i get it. this is why i dont get my stuff checked out untill it gets bad enough that i physically and/or mentally cant Just Ignore It

[knightish-angel]

knight theres something ive been mulling over for the post hour and its finally that time for me to ask it.

theoretically.

THEORETICALLY

if i were to,,, maybe,,, write silly short elitello stories would you maybe be chill with that???

they would probably only ever get shared in your askbox, but i would absolutely lovelovelove to be able to write some because- writing is like, the one creative thing i will admit im good at, and i wanna write more but motivation mean, so im thinking maybe if i write with the idea that the writing will be shared, even just in your askbox, maybe ill actually be able to finish smthn???

no pressure to let me if course! i just want to know if your ok with it so i dont go and write some just to find out your not comfy with that.

you........

YOU WHAT?? BESTIE YOU WHAT

I WOULD BE SO HAPPY IF YOU OR ANYONE WANTED TO WRITE ELITELLO LIKE !!!!!!!!! I would legit die of the happ fr!! like even if it was just a sentence or smth I would treasure that forever and ever *shakes you like a bag of chips*

so to answer your question; Y e s. I Am Chill With That

#oc #oc elijah #elitello

[lucellion]

I deeply appreciate your thoughtful, well informed response. However, I regret to inform you this is the best mode of communication. You see, I myself am part of a system as well, however we are incredibly turbulent. Our host disappeared quite a few weeks back and everything has been in much disarray. If I communicate to you through anon messages like this, I do not have to worry about an overprotective part from cutting off communication. But that is enough about me. I have a few more curious inquiries, if you do not mind. You do seem to have a strong and good working communication system (humor intended). With that in mind, is jealousy a thing that comes up at all? I have seen even singlets talk about jealousy coming up as something to navigate within polyamorous relationships, and you spoke of being in contact with your partners, as well as their alters. I assume that is a lot of feelings and emotions to consider and navigate?

-🐾⭐️

i totally get it, i hope your system finds some peace too! ive been in a similar place before myself and Ough its rough

i personally haven't had any jealousy issues. it doesn't seem to come up in a lot of poly spaces in General but i know some people do struggle with it regardless of the situation. honestly i interact with my partners Very separately from one another, and i don't often bring up my other partners unless theyre friends/dating or w/e. so chances to really talk about jealousy and the inner mechanisms of everything dont come up often

i do think a big part of it is that 2 out of my 3 partners have Other Partners so they can rely on them if they need it. and the other partner ive been with for like. 10 years so we've rly worked out all the kinks about how we wanna navigate poly stuff in that time.

if smthn was to come up itd just be a really candid boundary conversation and then we'd adjust polycule rules accordingly! even tho im sure thats The Most Boring Answer lol

#🐾⭐ #anon

[juyomiao]

NAURRR I FORGOT TO SCREENSHOT THE NOTIFICATION💔 but tumblr was being saur cute sisbissnks it was like

juyomiao has posted

we noticed they're one if your favorites❤️

or smthn along the lines of that and ACK IT WAS SAUR CUTE PLS JSBKSNSKSKA-

anyways idk if u can answer the first one but it's still cool hshshshs

✩ do you have/ can you give some not-so-spoiler spoilers for o.o? (hahajahs u made me obsessed w this and im not complaining)

★ your mtl biased member in cravity? (just ur preferences, u may put reasoning if u want :] )

✩ fav/recommended tbz songs? (im really planning on stanning they seem fun ajajasjs)

★ *IF* w1 is really pursuing with the greek mythology shit, which god/goddess (there's a possibility) do you think bin is going to be? (and state ur reasons hshs)

omg tumblr being cute (unexpected)

��� uhhhh idk how to give spoilers without spoiling everything so all i can say is what i alr said : its getting more angsty bc i like being cruel n ruining things 🤭 BUT dw it will have a happy ending and the funny elements of the fic r not going anywhere bc thats still the most important part to me

★ okay omg this is hard wait

disclaimer ofc i love all the members

minhee : he was my bias in x1 too so even when i didnt rlly stan cravity i still considered him my cravity bias lmao hes also the proof i have a 'type' when biasing idols bc . the minhee - younghoon - sunghoon trinity explains a lot abt it

serim : he was the reason i got more interested in cravity bc i was watching a cravity park episode n realized how fine he was so ,, yeah . kind of surprising bc he was one of the two members i didnt rlly know abt before stanning (i knew minhee hyeongjun wonjin n jungmo bc of produce n knew seongmin taeyoung n allen bc ppl talk abt them a lot) but im so insane abt him to the point something i said after seeing one of his pics became an inside joke in my friend group

seongmin : my bbg hes so cute n pretty n soft n i love his voice so much . n lately i've been wanting to eat him too .

hyeongjun : ofc knew him bc of x1/pdx n already loved him back then but now even more . in the nicest way possible hes insane hes not normal but thats exactly why i love him

this is where it gets more complicated bc i cant rlly rank them ? like probably woobin n then jungmo wonjin n allen more or less on the same level ?? like even i would expect jungmo n wonjin to be higher but . heres a fun fact‼️i watched produce without subtitles ! so i remember little to nothing abt it n had no idea what was going on ⅔ of the time !! bc i used to watch it when they livestreamed it on youtube n then was too lazy to go look for the subbed ep ,, then i got more attached to minhee n hyeongjun bc they were in x1 obviously

that was so long im sorry but u cant give me a perfect opportunity to infodump abt my special interest / hyperfixation n . expect me not to do it

☆ OHHHH OKAY so idk what music u like more so this list might be a bit questionable bc i like everything even noise music . but i'll focus on b-sides !!

walkin in time , only one (obviously , the queen who inspired my fic title) , melting heart , l.o.u , text me back , daydream , espionage , shake you down , scar , salty , goodbye , checkmate , shine shine , insanity , prism , kiss me if you can , hush , kingdom come (i'll never get tired of saying it , tbz were robbed on that bitchass show FUCK MNET) drink it , out of control , nightmares , merry bad ending , hypnotized , russian roulette , one dance , sweet , c.o.d.e , survive the night , levitating , awake , savior

tbz's entire discography is honestly perfect have fun stanning them u wont regret it‼️‼️

★ honestly idk😭😭 when i was younger (n we r talking abt 5yo until 14yo so it was . a while) i was sooo obsessed with greek mythology but my brain just . wiped all that information away😭 so i genuinely dont know

#☆ free speech corner

[daydadahlias]

2, 11, 20, 32, 49 👀

hello amanda i am also mad at u but i will answer these asks anyway

2. What are you obsessed with right now?

ok, so i said previously that I'm obsessed with mini solo cups. I am also obsessed with... uh... looking around... thinking. OH I GOT A CACTUS PEN that i am really into. hold on lemme take a pic

i just think he has so much character and pizzazz.

11. If you could teleport anywhere in the world right now, where would you go?

Boston! lol idk... I'm not a very traveled person. But I think if I could go anywhere, I'd probably teleport to one of my lil internet buddies. sorry if that's a lame answer. Yali is sick rn so I think I'd like to go to her house and make her some soup or smthn.

20. What is something you’re obsessed with?

fuck i have to talk about MORE things I'm obsessed with??? omg the pressure is immense and overwhelming, you know how much i hate talking about things!! I'm so unpassionate and shy. uhh, I'm also really obsessed with Rhett and Link today. I've been watching through their sextember segment in their podcast and that's been a lot of fun! My internet dads <33 I also just love hearing people talk openly and positively about their experiences with sex and how their viewpoints have matured as they've grown older. Rhett had a little recording of when he gave his 9 yo the sex talk and it made me laugh a lot <3

32. If you could live in a fictional world, what world would you pick?

idk, man, I really like This World, actually, even with all its flaws. any other world would just have so many too... like, immediately i went "ooh superheroes" and then I thought of someone killing me with their laser eyes and i was like "maybe not"

49. Who do you text the most?

Fuck, I dont know?? I'm a chronic over-texter. Molly has said I basically livetweet in my friends dms and she's right. Like I just make conversation with the air. There's a lot of friends I talk to daily or almost daily. I talk to you a lot! I think we talk pretty much every day. And I talk to Yali every day!! I talk to Maya every day I think or almost every day. I usually catch her at 2 am before I go to bed. Only after I've said "good morning" to Maya can I truly sleep peacefully. I talk to Monse pretty much every day! I talk to Ashley almost every day. I annoy Anna most days. I livetweet at Molly almost every day. I talk to my irl friends Grace, Monroe, and Brilynn every day. Yeah, basically ig what I'm saying is I that I have a ton of super cool nice funny friends because I'm also so cool and nice and funny and we just cant get enough of each other day in and day out :/ yknow how it is. a real burden.

I think if we're measuring this numerically, the person who has gotten the most texts from me ever is Molly. I text her about dicks a lot.

for context, most of my other very close friends have about 20-30k messages from me.

nosy asks

#purposefully not tagging any of my friends #so they just wont see this #are these good answers #probably not but that's life #luv u amanda #and all my friends!! #shoutout to the people that deal with me on a daily basis my god #and also i apologize for the severity of these name drops #i dont mean to brag about having friends but #i have a lot of really great friends #except for anna who is mean #pigeon #amanda

[salt-volk]

i know its a salt blog so theres inevitably gonna be some negativity & hot debates about the same things that go in circles over n over again, but srsly some of u are SO quick to assume the worst & make innocent mistakes or simple actions into being some obviously malicious scheme, when most likely is that whatevr occurred is just harmless or misunderstood. 

"never ascribe to malice that which is adequately explained by incompetence" pls remember that!!! anji is not some evil witch making the site bad on purpose to scam everyone, not every user is out to get u or secretly talking sht about u, customs owners arent all evil rich babies who want the entire site to cater to them but everyone else to fcking die in a hole, usually ppl are not intentionally trying to upset u or others, & so on... most ppl is just doing the best they can given the situation theyre in & what info they have at the time. of course sometimes eveyeone makes mistakes or look stupid, but i doubt the intent is to be as harmful as possible always.

like how some ppl take it super personall when they dont get a text back immediately & start thinking "oh my friend must hate me, oh my bf is cheating, oh theyr ignoring me on purpose to get back at me for somethin" & all of that when usually its literally just.. ur friend was busy with family stuff or they were using the bathroom or lost their phone or whatever. not actually as big a deal as it may seem with the first impulse!

good exmple is the recent talk over having private customs on wishlist, that its done to disrespect the customs owner, a show of callousness saying u dont give a shit about them or their wishes or all that. when srsly the easiest answer is just that maybe the person putting the item on the wishlist just didnt think about it that much. they saw the item, thought it looked cool, & put it there. maybe they dont even know its private since some ppl dont have obvious info about thers, or maybe its just there for their own reference or smthn with no biger meaning than that.

i personally dont give tons of thought to examining every single miniscule action i take on dv or how even just making a wishlist can possibly be misintepreted or scrutinized by others in a hundred different ways (sounds exhausting) & im sure plenty others are the same . sometimes literally ppl are just not thinkin about stuff that deeply!! the easiest answer is likely the correct one, theres no deep complicated aulterior motives, the person literllay  just wasnt thinking about it!

(& im not ssaying ppl should be let off the hook for doing genuinely awful sht just because their intentions were harmless! (like how u can be uninentionally racist but that dosnt make what u did suddenly not racist or suddenly not still harmful & something u shuld take responsibility for, its obv still bad intended or not), but on here SO much of whats beig talked about is incredibily minor stuff like someone putting a wishlist item up or pricing an item too high or phrasing a comment a little too emotionally or coloring a pet like 3 shades off or whatever & in those cases why not be lenient)

idk idk idk... really just pls just remember that at the end of the day this is just a silly web site. sometimes things get really blown out of proportion & i know its prbly all just venting stuff , but sincerely just try to be cautoius how u speak & think about others, try not to let ur negative feelings of dissatisfaction with dv overall cloud ur judgement too much to the point where everything even somewhat related to it is instantly posioned & seen in the most negative light possibel. its not good for u or ur mental health & is also not good for other ppl who end up having drama caused ovre it. sometimes just take a step away to relax before forming immediate reaction or impression, if u think u know what someones true intentions are, take extra time, think about it again later after the drama has died down & ur mind is more clear. we all as a userbase could be kinder & more undertsanding to each other, to be part of fostering that better community!!

#positive #submission #anonymous #mod yoshi

[st4rfckerz]

since you asked so nicely my love

im kidding, but do apologise for my silence, i cant stand having to use my brain for actual university work and not reading smut, i never mentioned what my diss was on presuming it was tmi but its about social media and mental health literacy bc im a psych student AND WHY I DID INTERVIEWS WHEN I HATE SPEAKING TO STRANGERS i do not know, its due in just over a month and i am fearful, im not even doing anything for my 21st bc its at an inconvenient time w how much work i have, but im going on holiday after to barcelona with friends so there’s an up to it!

how have you been my love, im always 👀 asking personal qs bc we’re just two people on the internet but smthn i wanted to know is where abouts in the world are you bc im in england and i have no clue when to send something in, (obviously dont have to answer if thats private) and how has your week been! anything interesting, even if its not idc i have ur notifs on ill be reading it :)

- 🫦

going to barcelona sounds so fun! i’ve always wanted to go tbh. i’ve been pretty good, i’m currently working on a fic rn but it’s taking me forever because it might be a little lengthy but it’s worth it!

#anon 🫦 #nai answers! #st4rfckerz

[npclibrarydump]

(wishing i didnt have to wait another... two months? for my teto nendoroid)

nyway, how do people not know shit about their interests? i dont mean it in a "youre wearing a band t-shirt? hah, name all the drummers theyve ever had" way. (although some ppl then act like it isnt weird to wear merch for a thing you havent even tried to look into? which.. its not like gatekeeping meaningless designs, its a thing!! at the least listen to a song or look up the name?)

i mean it in that im audhd as hell, and everything ive ever been interested in consumes my life so much i think i'd go insane if fan-wikis didnt exist. it just makes sense to me, you like something a lot so youre gonna watch all the spinoffs or whatever. and look for fanfiction and extra art, and look into merch, and take a glance at who wrote it.

so why is it that some fans just dont know basic info about the stuff they like? i cant fathom that it's hard to learn this stuff, and btw im talking about VOCALOID not some obscure 80s anime or niche sci fi novel. its the day and age of digital information? use the internet guys??

at some point it just has to be that other people dont.. care as much as i do. weird as hell. anyway at the least recognize when you arent caught up enough on a subject to comment on it, or when you can search smthn up and skim a wiki article to answer your basic af question.

(op is tired of seeing ppl not getting the diff of vocaloid/utau)

[tired-demonspawn]

netflix avatar episode 4 :D!!!

my funky lil thoughts and feelings.. if you even care

okay i dont really know how to feel about this episode

i liked most of it, both katara and sokka going thru the secret tunnel plot and zuko rescuin iroh plot i really liked. my issues mostly lie with bumi i s'pose.

i dont really like this depressed-pessimistic version of him. not that he doesnt make great points and i 100% get where he's coming from but i dunno it just rubs me the wrong way. im sure that a first time viewer(as in someone who hasnt seen the cartoon) wouldnt have an issue with it. i guess it was as good a reason as any to have him and aang fight, though i wouldve liked the lil trickery yknow. was a big fan of "choose your fighter" "lmao wrong choice bucko" yknow?

im afraid a lot of people will shit on this portrail of bumi. id be sad to see that, i mean yeah it does stray far from the original, but i dont think its a particularly bad direction. do i not like it? yeah. but sure hope it's not gonna get too much hate :(

i really like his rolling stone ass throne, its neat. plus omashus whole arabian nights ass rizz, really like that. also the crystal growing effect??? shit looked fucking stunning. the first encasing of aangs feet i mean. really liked how they grew almost like a plant of some sort.

i really like zuko infiltration, the whole bit where he absolutely rolls a nat 20 deception check. don’t really like that a guy had to tell him like “so what are you gonna choose” tho.

if I recall correctly yea in the cartoon someone also asks him this but that was his subordinate, asking smthn like “what are your orders sir”??? or maybe it was just silent show don’t tell??? im really sorry i havent seen the show in a while i dont recall. point is i dont like that the guard says it to him like that, in that context, really dont like that.

lu ten funeral scene is something i didnt know i needed, but damn, it hits a lot of the nice spots.

moving onto kataras and sokkas sidequest, really liked how sokka got into the whole music thing and then pretended like nothing happened, loved that lil bit of commedy.

they made oma and shu lesbians... i would say love wins but the point of that story was decidedly not love winning. it was scaring a fuckton of people into peace via stone magic.

only reason im forgiving sokka seeing some funky shiny rocks of the wall and figuring out they prbly glow in the dark is cuz they decided to change the answer to that particular riddle... which i will not forgive. the glowing rocks were a perfectly fine answer to the riddle, you didnt need to make up a different one.

"says the girl who fell for a terrorist" LMAO GET HER ASS!!!!

now, for my closing thoughts: SECRET TUNNEEEELLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!! SECRET TUNNEELLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THROUGH THE MOUNTAIN!!!!!!!!! SECRET SECRET SECRET SECRET TUNNEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#avatar the last airbender #atla #netflix atla #netflix avatar #natla