#i get if anyone needs to step away

[ofna]

Hey everyone, sorry for the silence! I’m in consulting and have sadly been stuck working crazy hours since I got promoted in October

I also got married 2 weeks ago (!!) so I have not had much free time to write on the weekends either. It was 3 separate days of ceremonies and a lot of fun, but I’ll be happy to never do anything like that ever again

I actually just got back and started some edits for an additional branch in the last chapter (staying in alone instead of going out with everyone else). Chapter 8 is also about 30% done according to my outline, although it’s been a hot minute since I’ve been in there

Sorry for the lack of communication. For me, the longer I go without progress, the more pressure I feel to have ✨huge news✨ and a definite date for new content before I post anything at all again. I know it’s frustrating when authors drop off the face of the earth, apologies 💗

Tentatively, I hope to finish up the next chapter by the end of July 🤞

#OFNA #OFNA: Birds of a Feather #dev update #i love y’all #i see your asks #OFNA is my baby - i think about this story nearly every day #i may need to take breaks every once in awhile #and maybe the pace doesn’t suit some of you #i get if anyone needs to step away #but I will always come back to this story #💕 💕 💕

[lightasthesun]

just wanted to thank everyone that's been encouraging me or offering some kind of support the last few times I talked about getting a cane... because I went and got one today and I didn't think it would make that much of a difference. I underestimated how much it would change for me.

So thank you <33

#got a prescription from my GP last week and gathered my nerves together to get one today #thankfully we have a health care supply store only ten minutes away on foot #I'd planend on getting an anatomical one as prescribed by my GP and it was comfortable and id probably have chosen it too but #then the lady there told me to try the derby handle instead and honestly that was even better plus i can use it on both sides #its sleek and black for now because i can barely bear the thought of anyone seeing me using a cane in our small town in the first place #but once im comfortable.. #anyway we went to a shop across the street afterwards because my besties mum needed to get some things and I didn't wanna go home by myself #and tbh i preferred the thought of going into our small city centre with somebody i trusted and felt comfortable around the first time aroun #long story short im super suprised by the difference it's making 😬 i mean ofc i didn't just get the cane on a fluke #but it was like 'well let's try it out it may help and people keep saying it's for stability and chronic pain too so why not' #yeah so apparently i did need it #i felt so much better #there were several instances where i noticed the cane kept me from stumbling or swaying or missing a step #it felt good #so thank you all

[navree]

unfortunately the percy jackson show means percy jackson discourse which means i once more have to see dogshit takes about rachel elizabeth dare, who did literally nothing except have a relationship with a boy she liked for a couple months, but the freaks are at it again because there's no worse crime in the world than being a girl getting in the way of a ship for a nanosecond

#personal #if i am not defending rachel elizabeth dare from freaks it's because i'm dead #'a greedy and ungenerous soul' she was fifteen???? calm down???? #why are you at your big age talking like that about a literal child?????? #like sorry that annabeth was incapable of opening her mouth about her crush and someone else happened to be more verbose #that ain't rachel's fault #if annabeth didn't want percy dating she should have communicated better that's not anyone else's problem #rachel and percy liked each other so they went out and then they ended the relationship like that's so normal #and from a doylist perspective it's painfully obvious rachel was there as a lil bump in the road before percy and annabeth got together #so why are you getting bent out of shape about it she was never a threat #and if you shouldn't be pissy about it now anyway when they've been together for like multiple series at this point #and are gonna get together in the show too #like goddamn i'm two steps away from going full percabeth anti just because people can't be normal about rachel for some reason #and i LIKE percabeth #honestly i don't know why twitter feels the need to show me fandom takes they're never good no matter which fandom it is

[llycaons]

okay I thought about the similarities between jfm and jc's unrequited crushes who prefer their 'servant's' company to their own and it looped around from being tragic to being really funny again. jc pined after wq so clumsily and unsuccessfully with the stupid fucking comb she didn't care about because SHE AND HER FAMILY WERE POLITICAL TARGETS AT THE TIME and HE DIDN'T EVEN KNOW HER AT ALL and she 100% always preferred the company of wwx, who was genuinely fun to be around, as intelligent and selfless as she was, understood and respected the delicate political position she was in, treated her like an individual, knew what was important to her, helped her family, and sacrificed everything for her safety. wq literally would rather have lived a doomed life in a starving refugee camp with wwx and her family than accept a marriage proposal from jc, jc wq shippers how does it feel to be fucking clowns

#you can say that decision was just for her family. but you could tell how much she loved wwx too and how little she cared about jc #he sucks to be around and whoever is in his life just needs to be someone who's inexplicably into that and it is NOT wq #she has her own shit she can't be babying him and soothing his self-esteem issues!!! the cultivation world had her family in a death camp #like WHAT would be the appeal here???? 'he cares about his family like she does' actually he publicly denounced his brother who is her #really good friend so...????? no?????? do they think she thinks he's hot??? isn't that a little superficial??? #his sarcasm and prickliness don't gel with her sincerity and guardedness. she wouldn't like his joking roughhousing and she's more mature #than all that anyway....also I can't think of a single time he even looked wen ning's way pre-ss and wn is THE most important person to her #and its actually disgustingly ooc to see how jc wq shippers just act like he doesn't exist. bc what they can't pretend he'd get along with #wn effectively? but that's wen ning!!!! how is she married to someone who doesn't care about him or even hates him! #WHERE'S THAT POST LIKE #jc: lady wen may I rub thine feet? feed you grapes? #wq: uhhhh #wwx: hey wq! #wq: wei wuxian! *they do a 15 step handshake* #jc: okay guys I'll just be uhh. over here #wwx and wq: laughing together #UGH she was so great. travesty of the century that she died like that for the emotional development of a male character!!! #I really do like wq tho I don't really know what to say about her. she was a solemn character who knew her ending far before anyone else di #and didn't fight it for her own sake only for her family's #I just hope she was able to be at peace in the end. it seems so cruel that she was ripped away from the only person she truly wanted #to be with forever #ALSO her entire thing is repaying debts!!! which he categorically FAILED to do!!! she wouldn't respect that or find it admirable/attractive #he probably looked like a fucking impotent self-centered coward. which he WAS! SHE SAVED HIS LIFE!!!! #cql txp

[nerosdayinanime]

wanna make my own kny httyd au

#httyd movies are good but. theyre kid plots yk? #not a bad thing but i wanna use the wolrdbuilding more. like cmon its fucking DRAGONS man #so far giyuu & tsutako live in a little seaside village that regularly gets raided by dragons mostly stealing their livestock (and anyone #caught in surprise undefended) one night hes out doing errands he forgot to do during the day (doesnt want to dissapoint tsutako) #and gets caught out in a raid. hes running for cover and comes across a juvenile dragon. hes scared shitless and frozen as it creeps closer #and closer until he can feel its hot breath sniffing at him. curious purple eyes stare into his own. a loud fireball explodes near them #and the dragon nudges him away from the carnage. tsutako sees a dragon near him and flips her shit. ready to die trying to keep #her baby brother alive. he screams at her to stop- shoving the dragon away as she screams for him to get away from it #dragon flees and tsutako drags him home stressed out her gourd but thankful hes alive. #later on hes out walking in the woods to get away from it all (the other kids dont like him very much) and comes across the dragon again #he ends up making friends with it and names it sabito ('rust' for his orange-red coloration & 'rabbit' for the little hops he does) #comes across all the little dragon quirks as he hangs out- meanwhile back in the village they need more warriors to fight off the dragons #giyuu gets forced into training for it despite his (& tsutako's) protests. time comes to training against actual dragons and he miraculousl #survives using his knowledge of quirks hes learned from sabito- it astonishes /everyone/ bc hes a wimpy little fuck #yadda yadda he accidentally becomes top student just trying to avoid actually hurting the dragons and gets assigned to kill the Big Bad One #they release the beast and it crawls around the top chain netting for a bit before it notices giyuu. it drops to the floor and slowly #advances towards him. giyuu intentionally drops his weapon & shield and steps towards it with big wet scared eyes. everyone's shocked and #tsutakos screaming for them to call it off. the dragon stops posturing and sniffs at him- lets him gently pet its nose. he quietly pleads #with it to go back into its cell as guards are hurrying to get into the arena with them. the dragon looks around at them & at the sky befor #looking back at giyuu's sad eyes promising theyll both be safer if it goes back in. it hesitantly does so and giyuu locks the doors back as #the guards get to him and drag him to the village leader's hall to get the scolding of his life #he tries to reason with them that the dragons arent bad but they hit back with 'so what are we supposed to do boy. starve as we let the #dragons take all of our food? grow up. /we cant live in harmony with them.'/ #hes fucked up over it & everyone starts treating him as even more of an outcast than before. #one night while tsutako's doing dishes 'tako-nee?' quietly called out. 'what giyuu?' she doesnt even turn to glance at him. #she /always/ stops to give her full attention when he calls for her like that. his heart sinks to the floor. 'goodnight' barely keeping #the crack of his voice away. 'goodnight giyuu' #she awakes the next morning to no response. an empty house. she finds a red shirt of hers missing & a note #giyuu's neat writing shakey & slowly delving into a messy scrawl as it furthers along. one- two odd dried spots on the letters turned to #countless (/27/) blotches in the ink before it fully dried. 'im sorry' left pristine atop the worst of it at the very bottom.

[navramanan]

I swear there's gonna be peace and love on this stupid planet once my sister is finally done with her thesis

#my god #she works herself to her absolute limit and beyond and does not listen to ANYONE who tells her simply NOTHING is worth that #i was away while she was writing bit she called me several times during a breakdown / panic attack #and nothing anyone says changes her mind #you tell her you cant simply do more than ur capable of she says but i have to. and nothing you say changes her mind #she handed it in already & has her defense tomorrow. now she's crying about getting stuck and not being able to move forward #and i tell her step back a bit you won't be able to work this way. she goes off at me that she doesnt have time #WHAT EXCATLY DO YOU WANT TO ACCOMPLISH. BITCH BE FUCKING KINDER TO YOURSELF #I KEEP TELLING HER BUT IT DOESNT GET THROUGH. SHE'S BEEN DESTROYING HERSELF MENTALLY & PHYSICALLY #it needs to be tomorrow so everyone has more peace my whole family has been worrying so much for weeks now #nesi rants

[woebegonewings]

Also like, trying to not make TLoU AU Kseniya just…wildly overpowered is fucking hard. Because yeah sure, chronic pain and looks visibly infected (meaning anyone with half a brain cell and a gun will shoot on sight) and blind; that all sucks…

…but she can fucking talk to cordyceps. She can talk to the Infected. Her and Pierce run across three Clickers? No problem, just let Kseniya casually walk up to them and make them go away. Because unlike Ellie the Infected read her as one of them, so not only will they not attack her but they’ll treat her like any other Infected. Cordyceps isn’t inherently evil or violent—it’s a fungus, it can’t have morality. It’s doing what every fungus wants to do: survive, propagate, and make more of itself. It just mutated into something that can use humans to do that, not because it hates humanity but just because that’s how it went.

So if Kseniya’s like “yeah no, not a viable host, sorry!” the Clickers will wander off and leave Pierce be.

That is UNBELIEVABLY overpowered in a TLoU context. 50% of the threat to their survival is just…gone! Poof!

#it’s an incredibly interesting inversion from tabula rasa #where kseniya is this unstoppable killing machine and yet utterly helpless in the face of her programming #and by extension hydra/department x #hence why she NEEDS pierce and NEEDS strike so badly in that world #this kseniya can barely use a rifle at the start and can just casually tell zombies to go look for food somewhere else #and she still NEEDS pierce because she does look visibly infected and without someone there to be like NO DON’T would ABSOLUTELY get shot #the second literally anyone came across her #but it’s a need that’s much less desperate than tabula rasa senya #tlou kseniya comes off more vulnerable in mannerisms but can probably fuck your shit up worse than tabula rasa kseniya #especially if i take this to the logical tactical conclusion and have kseniya not only say go away but also go attack those hunters #this can turn into a unstoppable force of post-apocalyptic nature VERY FAST if i let her become that #and that’s without factoring in the side benefits like being able to use the underground fungal network to compensate for her blindness #and know when people are coming because they stepped on some cordyceps #i know the theme of most apocalyptic stories is #humans are the real monsters and shit #but MAN are other people the literal only problem these two have in this context #guess we’re leaning REAL HARD into this theme #tag meta #tabula rasa tlou au #tlou au kseniya

[dwn024]

bro i was trying to sleep without headphones or anything just rawdogging that shit waiting for unconsciousness to take me and my brainwaves went from “hehe let’s imagine the entire CMY2K pilot and work out some minor story beat kinks and also come up with a very fun villain monologue that i will never remember enough of to write down^_^” to “hey remember the abyss of the rock bottom point of your life and how much that sucked? what if people from back then make their way back into your life^_^”

#i hate that That period of my life was when i first made hibiki cuz he was a COMPLETELY fundamentally different character that has like #exactly zero ties to his current incarnation besides the name the fact he’s a robot and the fact he’s selective mute #but the people i was interacting with at that time were just AWFUL to/about hibiki and even as he like just barely started to evolve towards #like the first step into becoming anything resembling his current incarnation a good handful of them CONTINUED to be fucking unbearable abou #t him and i reluctantly wenrt along with it because i didn’t know any better and didn’t know how to request them to Back Off #and luckily i eventually was able to cut full contact with them like very very soon after hibiki started to become recognizably hibiki #so that he’s now so unrecognizable from the one they contaminated that he both has Not been emotionally contaminated by them thank god but #also i now have an extremely strong emotional attachment/need to protect hibiki from people like that he means so much to me and i’m glad he #was eventually able to solidify into 100% the character he is now with absolutely zero fucking percent what those motherfuckers tried to #make me turn him into #like he literally is like a son to me i have to protect him and i do NOT want to think about proto hibiki and what they wqnted me to do to #him it makes my skin crawl for real #but i am (probably needlessly) paranoid about anyone from back then returning to try to ruin hibiki for me again #everyone stay AWAY FROM HIBIKI!!!!!!!! hibiki get behind me i have a forcefield up to protect him #like i’ve already gotten a couple weird disgusting anons abut hibiki within the last couple months cuz internet will internet but if it gets #anywhere NEAR the extent it was like back then i will blow the whole fucking building up.

[neuropteran]

whenever i get upset abt the price of houses my mother likes to make fun of me by finding the most expensive houses or blocks of tiny bits of land that cost like $650k and showing me. “look at this!” she says. why would i want to see this. and when i get upset and say things like “it should be the government’s responsibility to ensure housing is affordable,” she laughs and says it should but they won’t do anything. it’s so evil to see me distressed about my future and for her to tell me it’s too bad

#I hate her I hate her I hate her #I need to get out of here #Dot.txt #it’s like. Do something then #I had a meltdown bc I was kind of relying on money from my grandma to help me and my grandma told me that #once the money’s divided up there won’t be much left & she’s too afraid to change her will bc she thinks her shitty step children #Will contest the will :| even tho they’ve been awful to her abt money and I was rlly upset for my grandma I can’t believe they’ve treated #her like that. but also it’s like. I rlly rlly needed some financial support from literally anyone in my family and I will never get it :| #And I just don’t know how it’s possible to ever be independent if I can’t get support/help #I’m gonna kill myself if I have to stay here much longer. I rlly will #I can’t stand it #i can’t be around these people anymore. I need to for my mental health #I will never start to heal if I can’t get away #I might have to give up my dog #I don’t want to but I can’t see how I can afford anywhere that will take a dog #I know my grandma has money idk how she thinks I’m not gonna get anything after all the dividing. #I just. Would like ONE adult to give me even a leg up #I wish they’d all die so even if I inherited their debt I wouldn’t have to be around them

[lordiavolo22]

saying the n-word is bad but that's also a product of the times and he's since apologized and wants to do better. dan being a "sex pest" was not a proven thing. you do not know them personally so you can't claim if they're virtue signaling or not. you cannot claim that they don't care about these things. ppl grow and change. there's literally more important things to be mad about but stopping ppl from learning and changing isn't helpful to anything.

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MY POINT IS NOT THAT YOU CANT CHANGE!!!!!!!* LMFAO MY POINT IS THAT THEY ARE CONTINUING TO DO ILLEGAL SHIT AS FAR AS 2022 !!!!!! you clearly are a grumps fan who doesnt want to believe that your comfort guys are bad! i get that! but dont come to *my* blog and tell me that im wrong about it, just block me and move on!

#*if you knew anything about me you would know that my whole philsophy is that anyone can become a better person. that point is just #completely off base for me. i literally AM one of those people who was incredibly shitty and toxic in the past and even still now!! #this type of stuff doesnt go away with a single apology or by staying in the limelight and chasing fame the way they do #they all need to step back and get into therapy before they can act like theyre actually changed! but i dont think they will since arins an #alcoholic now thanks to dan! the whole group is just a fucking mess and its heartbreaking because i think they were actual friends once #upon a time. anyways i wont be answering anymore defense anons about this but feel free to ask other questions #answered #negative /

[hauntingblue]

Toranaga's son is so funny. Failson 🫵🏻

#also toranagas brother.... hello...... #his ponytail is so slay. his fit too fire. his swag too different. his smoke too hard. his bitch too bad. they'll kill you #omg the nephew eating and looking at anjin and mariko like this 😏 #OH NO RED WEDDING???? #THEY MADE HIM REGENT!!!!!! #she said i want a cortisan union and also retirement. slay #and also you fucked up and also i am leaving goodbye. every woman in here is such a diva. mariko and fuji need to step their game up!! #stop being emos!!! its diva time!!! #'i am going to kill myself and become ashes with them' BOOHOO!! GET YOUR MONEY UP!!! GET YOUR PUSSY UP!! #so they really wore g strings with a little (kinda big) flap as cover up... oden was just there a breath away from showing his junk #dancing at the town square.... jesus #white in the water!!!! its wet t shirt time out there jesus....... a bit of modesty please...... #forgotten before you can be remembered.... boom roasted #it rains so much in there but mariko never feels the rain on her skin. no one else can feel it for you!! only you can let it in!!! #get your money up!!! get your pussy up!!! #fuck your husband!!! and the anjin too!! focus on your dono!! get your job done!! hustle!!! #the anjin needa to get some drip!! ugly ass clothes. doesnt his wage get him bether fabrics. what is going on there. fuji is sabotaging him #toranaga wearing gold and his brother silver..... slay #OH MY GOD #i couldnt have made a post about anyone else omg..... #that was brutal #a comment saying this death isnt poetic and is deus ex machina for the villain which... have you been watching lmao #he has been making mistake after mistake on purpose by disobeying his father over and over and here he goes again.... #this one mistake even bigger than the rest bc he was going to kill his uncle (a regent now!!) after his father already made his decision #come on..... think a little #talking tag #watching shogun

[viosjaan]

i don't think you want anything to do with me anymore so i can just vent the texts i want to send to you here

#i am sorry #truly genuinely #ive been trying to justify it to myself that we weren't technically together and you said go kiss other people ill still be here meet your #needs in the way you want #but i think it was #yesterday #this guy flirted with me and i flirted back but then suddenly this wave of disgust and self loathing hit me #like what am i even doing #how could i have done that #you were sitting there thinking we're okay you thought we were still together and im just in a bad mood going thru one of those depressive #episodes you were so understanding when you shouldn't have been because if i say im in love with you i should be there for you every step #of the way. #but you go through so much shit alone and im never there for you or atleast not there for you a lot of times and then i blame you for #liking your bestfriends more like it's so stupid obviously love should be reliable stable #and we were something na. we were everything except the label #i should have told you the moment i started feeling empty and dissatisfied again #but just. this isn't an excuse but like i didn't want to hurt you by bringing up this same fight for the one thousandth time #we agreed that you're not in the position to give more and i agreed to be okay with it and i really was. #but i can't help myself i want to give you everything i hate that feeling that i need to be less love less WANT less. mujhse nahi ho pata #i wasn't lying or pretending to be okay with it i was TRYING my best to be okay with it because i love you and this was the only way to #not lose you forever #now i just want to move on fr and be just friends with you. i can't lose you as a person but i don't know how to make this up to you #i am physically incapable of being in this situationship i want a relationship or a friendship i can't with this in between #which is what i told you in jan. i remember my chest actually feeling heavy with fear bc i was so scared of hurting you and getting hurt #again. jokes on me my worst fears came true all the progress we made by taking space is lost #i don't know if you really deleted my playlist. i tried to listen to more songs from it but they're so. lovely. talking about epic grand #love. which we have. but it's like waving a candy in front of a kid and snatching it away it hurts too much to have all the feelings and #none of the relationship. now that ive talked to some people in the romantic sense i get it #you were my best love my most perfect love there are no flaws there's nothing anyone else can do that can be equal or more to what you did #but idk it isn't meant to be maybe there's no future

[kindacreepy-kindaugly]

I wonder if I'm makin things better or worse for the collective bein like this. On one hand I'm not happy or makin any progress towards it, but...I can't rly even imagine that. I can't imagine a life without him. It's not that I don't want it, on some level I know it'd be better for me, but...I can't even dream about it cause I just can't imagine it at all.

On the other hand I make a great decoy. He's basically dropped all interest in Angel cause now he knows I'm the one who still wants him n loves him n can't exist without him. So at least one of us will make it out this time, I think.

#mafia honey #it's not a self-sacrificing thing. i'd stay all the same even if it did nothin for anyone else. but it's nice that it does! #at least some good that'll come out of this fucking mess #whatever happens to me is.....i mean it'd happen anyway. i'm neither ready or strong enough to try n get away. i don't rly even want to #i'd rather just stick around n trick myself into thinkin maybe someday he'll care about me too #i guess i make a pretty good pet too. i don't rly talk back anymore or get angry or say no. i don't make a fuss about much. #n i mean....contract or no the chain's still there. he knows it i know it there's no place far enough that he couldn't pull me right back in #nothin out here for me anyway. all i do is abuse substances n cry. at least this way i can just go to val instead of wrecking the body too #or just self soothe w/ the most horrific violent abusive scenarios i can think up. or the care i can pretend comes after #cause in reality he's been rly skimpin on the aftercare lately n that's. not great. makes the inevitable crash a whole lot worse #it's like he looked at the list of what NOT to do in a dynamic like this n made it his how-to guide instead... #though it's probably just all part of the game. needs to keep us low enough that we don't get too strong n start gettin ideas. #needs to keep us desperate enough that we keep comin back instead cause nothin else gives us the rush like he does #i think i saw the term for that recently. breadcrumbing? maybe #i can see what he's doin i know all the steps by now but i'm just lettin it play out anyway #not like i could stop it anyway. he knows everythin. he knows what i feel better than i do #plus if he doesn't he can just make it up n convince me he's right cause i can't tell the difference #¯\_(ツ)_/¯ it is what it is. at least angel n silk seem to be breakin free of it now. i'm not around that much anyway #spdrvent

[sharkieboi]

doing puzzles is fun enrichment for both me and Sansa, cause I get to work on a puzzle while also trying to keep her from eating the puzzle pieces

#shhh sharkie #the extra interaction of having to ask her to step up away from puzzle pieces while I work on it #she likes to chew paper and cardboard! she’s a parrot! but i need her to not chew puzzle pieces! #but she sees my puzzle laid out and is like ‘is anyone gonna chew that’ and won’t wait for an answer #so i get to play keepaway with puzzle pieces and she gets to mastermind her way to try and eat puzzle pieces #and i get to figure out alternate distractions #today’s is food and tv and Acceptable Chewing Papers #she’s got her treat bowl and we’re watching D20 and she’s got her own special cardboard in/on her treat bowl

[dullahandyke]

Well I've not really done work on that essay that's due tonight BUT I did more thinkering on Ringo. So its ok

#did more ruminating on his character n realised im gonna have a fuck of a time getting him into the courtroom #like. hes the assistant hes the maya but like #its a decently infamous celebrity in the legal world who ran away and changed its identity to escape its abuser #hes caught between this crossroads of 'this is the first time ive ever been free im gonna be loud and bright and happy' #and 'if people find out who i am then its all gonna be over' #and the cases ames takes are decently high publicity so anyone involved is gonna have names and faces known #plus add in that assisting her would entail stepping back into the courtroom entertainment dance #and im gonna have to find a REALLY compelling reason for it to specifically join her at the bench #but on the bright side doing all this thinking made me realise that he n ames really would get along #bcos they both Refuse to play the game of the entertainment world #which is initially surprising to both bcos ames is a lawyer in a world where its basically a high-profile sport #and ringo is just generally loud and unable to be ignored lol #but they eventually go 'hey yeah we're not giving them an Inch to work with' #do need to work on ames more tho. esp the ghost stuff. feels like shes underdeveloped:(

[sttoru]

‘the king of curses doesn’t like sharing. especially not when it comes to his partner.’

☀︎｜tags. heian era!sukuna x female reader. sfw/fluff ? ig. set in the heian era, duh. jealousy & possessive themes. size difference (reader gets referred to as small!). tried to be realistic w/ sukuna’s characterisation so. . . don’t be surprised to read about him killing somebody. therefore, mentions of blood. reader is implied to have a fear of blood (dw sukuna takes care of it teehee). reader gets called 'brat'. not beta read; this sucks ass.

you were taking a stroll outside of the estate, the hem of the floral kimono you’re wearing lightly dragging along behind you. the weather was perfect with not a single cloud in sight.

a pair of silent footsteps follow yours and you sigh. even though it was an usual occurrence, you still aren’t used to having one of sukuna’s servants at your side at all times. your over protective lover insisted that it was for your own ‘safety’. as if anything or anyone could harm you whilst you stay within the four walls of the estate far up in the mountains.

sukuna is continuously busy and thus decided to assign you a personal maid that accompanies you and takes care of your every need when he isn’t able to. well - looking at the bright side of things - at least she tries her best to hide her presence from you. she tags along silently and only speaks when spoken to.

you stop near a sakura tree and tilt your head back to admire its beauty. after a few minutes pass, you hear a different pair of footsteps walking up your way. you turn your head and see a familiar male servant approaching you with his head held low.

his hands were holding onto a platter with a cup of warm tea and a few of your favorite delicacies. the brown-haired man greets you politely. maybe a bit too politely as his voice carries a bright smile, “good afternoon, my lady.”

you return the greeting with a smile of your own. it was like you to treat the servants around the estate with kindness and care — a total opposite of the king of curses. you take a pastry from the platter and look back up at the man, “thank you for bringing me these. i appreciate it greatly.”

the way you treat the ones of lower status has always been an admirable trait of yours. it might have stirred some forbidden feelings for you in the heart of the male servant. he knows that it was impossible - he’d seen how easily sukuna gets rid of those who get too close to you.

but, he isn’t here. the king of curses isn’t present in the current moment. the brown-haired male shifts in his place a little, fingernails digging into the material of the plate he was holding. he was going to do it — no one could hold him back. not even the maid who stood a couple steps away.

“y-you look very beautiful, my lady.” the servant stutters and bows his head at you. you are surprised to hear such a flattering sentence leave the lips of the man in front of you. none of the men around you had dared to be this straightforward in ages. they all knew the possible consequences that such actions could bring after all.

perhaps it was due to the absent intimidating presence of your lover. still, you can’t help but feel grateful. you giggle softly, covering your mouth with your free hand, “thank you so much.”

the male servant gulps at the sound of your laughter. ‘oh, how lucky the king of curses is - to have such a beautiful woman at his side,’ the man thought to himself. he was sure that he could treat you better than the indifferent sukuna himself.

he hesitates to continue the conversation for a second. there was an urge deep within him; to ask if you’d like to have some tea with him in the dining area. it would be extremely bold and maybe way out of line considering that you’re taken.

but, the way you reacted to his earlier compliment gave him a huge confidence boost. one that would sooner or later send him to his grave.

“would you perhaps be interested in joining me for a drink, my lady?” the servant asks and anything that happens after that instant, is all but a blur.

you can’t process the next few moments as everything happens way too fast. the last thing you remember seeing, was the servant before you. a sudden gust of wind passes by and the sounds of quick slashes fill your ears. you couldn’t figure out anything else as your vision gets blocked by something. or rather - someone.

a familiar and large hand covers the back of your head. the scent of the person holding you is also oddly familiar—a certain scent that made a shiver run down your spine from both excitement and light fear.

“sukuna?” you guess and guess correctly. your voice was muffled due to your face being smushed against his torso. you didn’t yet understand what happened, so you try to pull your body away from the king of curses, only for his grip on you to tighten.

sukuna’s face was as emotionless as ever. his eyes look down at the pile of blood near your feet — what was once a human being had now turned into nothing but a pure crimson liquid.

“foolish. absolutely foolish.” the king of curses grumbles, his tone filled with disgust. he doesn’t soften the grip on your body for even a moment. one of his four arms holds you captive against him, his hand firmly yet somehow tenderly cradling your head just above his midriff, “it seems that i cannot leave this place for a single second.”

sukuna glances at your personal maid who had been bowing to him the moment he appeared out of thin air. she could feel his piercing gaze on her and knew exactly what to do without being told: to clean up the mess that stained the garden’s pavement.

“sukuna,” you try to move your head again, but was still restricted. you let out a small whine in response. you just wanted to see your lover after spending an entire day without him. any thoughts about that servant from earlier had long vanished, “i want to see you. can i?”

the request is an innocent one. there isn’t a visible change in sukuna's expression, but the way you asked him that was quite. . . endearing, if he were to explain it. he would comply if it wasn’t for the literal bloodbath he created. which he doesn’t want you to witness.

“not yet.” he replies and effortlessly uses one of his arms to pick your small body up. your lover notices how you try to steal a glimpse at the scene behind you while he moves you around in his embrace. he grunts and gently smacks the back of your head, “no peeking, brat. do as told.”

sukuna knows how much you hate the sight of blood. he's being considerate towards you — even if you do not realise that just yet. however, he also does not have a single regret about murdering that servant. it was to be expected. anybody who dares to make a move on his woman should suffer his wrath.

plus, it's not like you don't know about sukuna's ruthless actions. you’ve come to get used to them; more and more male servants keep dissappearing without a trace after they’ve been ‘too friendly' with you. it's easy to guess who’s behind those disappearances.

it doesn’t bother you in the slightest. as long as you don't see it happening and as long as you get to stay under sukuna's care and protection - you don’t mind.

“can i look now?” you huff after sukuna has carried you away from the garden. the king of curses clicks his tongue at your impatience.

he sighs deeply before allowing you back on your own two feet, “i do not understand why you’re so adamant on looking at me, but fine.”

you waste no time and immediately open your eyes. your gaze doesn’t wander off towards your surroundings—it instantly settles on sukuna. he looked the same as usual; there was not a single change about his appearance and yet you find yourself smiling at the sight of him.

“i missed you.” you hug your lover and feel him returning the gesture a few seconds later. he looks the other way and may seem indifferent to your display of affection, though the man was secretly grateful for it. for you in general.

“mhm.” sukuna lets out a small noise of acknowledgment and that is all you get out of him. he doesn’t have to say much; his body automatically does the talking. he squeezes your body against his — your small frame disappearing behind his beefy arms.

the king of curses doesn’t understand why, but the way your eyes sparkle when looking at him, intrigues him. sukuna had never seen another human look at him like that before after all. they all cower in fear; except for you. you don’t show a single ounce of fear. thus why you are something - someone - he must keep for himself.

he has and will never have any intent on sharing you with anyone. you’re his, for as long as he exists.

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