#i get to see my friends etc etc

[oatbugs]

moving out tmrwww im so excited sjdhd

#i get to see my friends etc etc #aaa #and meet my housemates 4 the first time...and actually have . some peace #and ill feel safe going out at night etc . ill drink w ppl i care abt #we can cook together/for each other again. ill lose at mario kart again + my friends will stroke each others hair and lean on each others #shoulders and we can go over to each others houses again . ill get to wake up earlier and feel more at peace...ill become lovelier #and ill care more abt everything and ill get to study a lot and go to lectures again #and ill go grocery shopping and buy food i like #and cook food i like for myself . ill get solitude when i want it . i get to stay up at the library until 4 AM #ill debate with my pretty philosophers and lose to the clever ones and then ill smile when i think of it. ill learn #so much about so much. ill get to do my own laundry again and wash my own dishes again and fold my own clothes again #etc etc. i have an east facing window so ill wake up to sunlight again. im . rly excited .

[subsequentibis]

it's actually just hit me that there's like... not really romance plots in dungeon meshi. they don't pair the cast off arbitrarily at the end. basically any character could be read as aroace/aspec really easily. that's honestly super cool!! it's refreshing to have a mainstream piece of media with the kind of approach to character relationships that emphasizes how important everyone's connections to each other are without making them explicitly romantic.

#ignore me #dungeon meshi #like obviously i love to read romance in bc im a hopeless romantic #but i like having the option to read that in Myself rather than have it forced #and i like that my aro & ace friends can see themselves in the characters in that way #like.... shuro's driven by romance but his stuff is fairly minor in the scope of things all told? #but i think that & chilchuck's marriage are kind of easy to read as moooore like. #societal expectation that you get married & reproduce & etc than like Deep Romance. esp wrt chilchuck #anyway now im just rambling

[formulapisces]

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[mountmortar]

anyway anyone who thinks that blue is the poster boy for the "jerk rival" trope when silver is quite literally right there has clearly never paid any attention to any of blue's dialogue in the games, where there are Quite Literally Multiple Instances of blue giving red advice meant to aid him on his journey in the same way that many of the later friendly rivals and neighbors do, even if the tone of it isn't as sickeningly sweet as the later rivals are. blue literally, in the game, waited in the middle of silph co. to challenge red to a battle to make SURE he was ready to take on giovanni because he was worried about him. do some of you genuinely think that blue was so mean to red when they were eleven that red is like. still traumatized by it when they're in their twenties or something.

red and blue's whole journey is actually kind of hilarious because you have professor oak very clearly favoring red to the point where blue isn't even an afterthought and blue's clearly decided that he's sick of it and hates red now but he still shows up to give him advice and check on him to make sure he can actually handle fighting team rocket and whatnot. it's just a constant loop of "yo! red! crawl around in grassy areas to find more pokémon! go visit bill (who gives red the s.s. anne pass) and thank him for creating the P.C.! i waited here in silph co. for you because i knew you'd turn up! you collected all the badges, too? that's cool! i was looking forward to seeing you!" that he buries under another loop of eleven-year-old "I'M SO MUCH BETTER THAN YOU LOOK HOW COOL AND STRONG I AM" bullshit because again. he's just up and decided he hates red now because he's clearly & understandably jealous of all the attention professor oak is giving him ("you and your rival used to play nicely together when you were little, but lately, he has become mean." -> pokémon blue manual) but that doesn't change the fact that they've been friends since they were toddlers and that never once goes away no matter WHAT happens between them. do you think blue's phone call ("I'm Blue. Man, this guy called Red brought me down in a heartbeat. I haven't seen him in a long time...I wonder where he is and what he's up to… Come to think of it, you look a little bit like Red. Yeah, you do. Just...Just a little bit. Whatever...") came from nowhere. Do you think that isn't the sound of a fourteen-year-old missing his best friend. Grabbing you all by the shoulders here. Do you think they ever stopped being friends. If you answer wrong you get tossed into a volcano

#i don't know why i've gotten so fired up about blue these past few days but my god seeing the amount of people who make blue out to be worse #than he is..... Have you never been a jealous kid before. Did you even read some of what he was saying. This entire conflict is Oak's fault #and blue and red would literally get over it within the span of a minute after a round of 'sorry for being a jerk' 'sorry for disappearing #for three years' and then go take turns pushing each other off of ledges for shits and giggles #and then battling while concussed. they're friends. they've always been friends. that's the Point #anyway. ahem. glad to see them flourishing in bw2/sumo etc etc #rival blue #kanto

[theborzoiarebackintown]

I love these puppies as if they were my own litter ❤️❤️ from L-R, Swift, Vex, Riddick, Elle, and Pierre. Fate was at the bottom of the steps bothering my friend because ofc she was.

#dogblr #petblr #puppies #borzoi puppies #puppy #borzoi puppy #dog #sighthound #borzoi #vex #Riddick #Pierre #swift is going to Oregon #Elle is staying in the area and I get to watch her grow up #and see her at shows etc. #I really really adore them all #forever grateful to my friend for letting me be so involved

[kerink]

idk man. personally i'm against human suffering and torturous, miserable deaths. i'm against the idea of spending 4 days locked in a tube without food or water, having to shit and piss yourself, unable to move or stand up, all the fighting and sobbing, a father cradling his son. i think it's terrifying and miserable and i hope they get found alive and get the help they need and this company is brought to justice.

i know the people involved are the elite and have likely caused human suffering on their quest for power. but the thing is... that's one of the things that separates the working class from the bougie... the working class care about the suffering of others.

i think this death would be poetic, and ironic. but i don't think it would change anything. the elite won't understand, they won't apply this experience of suffering to the suffering they cause their workers. they won't understand the irony of ecotourism causing a torturous death and parallel that to climate change. the won't see this as another example of elites trampling over mass graves for clout. they aren't going to take a global perspective.

these people will die miserable and tortured and afraid, the company may face legal and financial backlash, and that's all that's going to happen. and if they survive, the odds of any of these people using their power and fame to help others, to end their own questionable business practices and help others with mental health issues is such a small chance.

i hate watching people make jokes and laugh. these are human beings. you can see the irony in it, you can write essays about how this is another example of something rich white people have been doing for centuries. i understand and i think that's helpful and worthwhile!

but the number of posts i've seen cheering for these people to die is a lot. the number of memes and jokes i've seen is a lot. it's hard to look at sometimes.

#idk maybe this is just my sensitive nature but i really hate it #seeing even close friends laugh as people get tortured to death has really been heavy for me #i understand where people are coming from eat the rich etc #but my god.... #i dunno

[crippled-peeper]

it’s literally so funny how whenever I talk about my cis ablebodied friend the biggest saddest fucking losers alive on this site start sending me hate anons like “so you literally love cis men more then trans women? wow disgusting” with absolutely 0 self awareness

#just say you think trans men only exist for your personal use and get the fuck off my blog lmfao #I’m going to be friends with whoever I want actually because I’m a human person who lives in the real world and has his own feelings etc #I’m not just your personal fucking punching bag sorry!!!! #imagine seeing random strangers being friends with each other and thinking ‘ugh twansmisogyny :/‘ and you aren’t even a fucking trans woman #ugly fucking ppl on here

[chalkeater]

zombie armmmsss (For @krislet)

#deltarune #susie deltarune #deltarune susie #kris dreemurr #kris #p kris #myself #susart #i dont wanna lose this so im gonna put it here in case you lose it too lol #WOOHOO which means when you wake up youll see this notif where i tag you and you get to see it again BAHAHA WINNING!! #man … i miss fronting and just drawing for my friends #crushing you turning you into powder etc etc

[inkskinned]

i turn 29 on july 1st. i feel like i make a lot of these notes to myself, to check in. hi, me, here's what's happening.

hi, me. hi, you, too, if you keep reading. here's some rules i have been following:

when a book is bad, i put the book down. i choose something i like instead. when i don't like a movie, i don't make myself watch until the end. i care less and less what people think about me and focus more on being a good friend.

for the 6 months or so, i've been asking people what they think should be my next book or tv show. i ask them where i should go on a walk next week. i ask them what food i should try next, what hobby. and then i write it down in front of them.

the truth is some stuff slips through the cracks. but most of the time? within two weeks, i get to send my favorite kind of text - so i tried the thing you were talking about and !

i have a new policy for split-second choices - it's better to try it. i have social anxiety. i have to talk myself into doing many things. i am constantly battling the desire to run away as far as my feet will take me. and then i stand up and i do the thing anyway. i make myself act and dance and sing. sometimes, yes, i know-immediately never again, i hate this. but most of the time - i just have fun with it.

i have a new mantra - nobody is scorekeeping. at the end of my life, there will be no grand reading of how many calories i'd been eating. no reviews on how many boring documentaries i forced myself through, no calculation on how many hours i endured an extremely dull educational podcast. and so what if i try karaoke and i don't actually nail it? so what if i stumble over my words while trying to make a public announcement? so what if i wear something too-showy to go to the grocery store? nobody there knows me, and: nobody's keeping score.

life doesn't resolve with a grade (i know, i was as shocked as everyone else when i realized it). i am not falling behind, because there's no curriculum to life that i should be following. there are no checkpoints; nobody is making sure i have a fully-furnished life resume. i am just here for as long as the earth will have me, and i get to decide what makes me happy.

i don't have a partner or a house or anything that is supposed to belong to people-my-age. i spend most of my time focusing on being kind, compassionate, ready to listen without restraint.

and honestly? i feel good. like actually. i kind of like it this way.

#the really ironic thing #is that the less i care what people think of me #the more friends i have #the more i get along with people easily #19 year old me would kill me for saying this bc she HATED when people said ''stop trying'' #but it was that i wasn't trying to be their friend #i was trying NOT to be ME #i went from being like ''i think im too different for people to ever like me'' #to a decade later being like #'' ah i'll be okay i get along with pretty much everyone '' #it was true about food too #i wasn't kind to my body and thought it could make me look a certain way #if i was pretty it would make up for the way i was internally very ugly #but im now in probably the best shape of my life #and i have pretty much kicked my eating disorder to the curb (goodbye die in a hole) #bc i spend SO much more time seeing the chance to work out as a FUN THING #bc i don't make myself ''follow the rules'' of working out -- i dance or jog or whatever my body wants to do instead #do you know how weird it is #to go from being a COMPLETELY alone kid like NOBODY will talk to you bc you're a social pariah #like bullied ALL THE TIME bc ur stupid and flighty and strange and too loud etc #to being like the exact same person but now people are like ..... ''ur smart and funny and charming and happy-go-lucky'' #some of this does have to deal with the fact i got therapy and medication #and started being a better person and actually focusing on myself and the ways that i could improve #im gentler now. i don't crave attention in the same way. i don't mind things that used to destroy me #it DOES help that i finally got diagnosed with ADHD #anyway feelin things bc it's been 5 years of recovery <3

[orbitalbeetle]

Nim the Prince who fell from the Sky !!

yet another oc for Welcome Home :]c

#mine #i am rotating my welcome home ocs in my head. microwaving them #i have so many character interactions planned already GWAHAGDHS #fake children's book page ideas.... etc etc.... gwah..... #nim is so sillay i love him #they're a self-proclaimed sky prince...... who fell from the sky...... like the sky is falling you get it yeah #i imagine theyd see sally as a big sister #and would spend a lot of time at rosie's garden o(-( #this isn't even the main horror aspec of the arg i'm just having fun creating characters for a fake children's show LMAO #welcome home #welcome home oc #i love seeing everyone's ocs and sonas theyre so cooool o)-( #if you have a plant or weather themed sona..... hiiii..... our characters should be friends 👉👈

[vampirebiter]

guts + despairing over griffith looking down on him

#berserk #i rotate these in my head. often. many thoughts head full etc etc #also to be clear griffith didnt actually look down on guts back in the golden age. as femto.. unsure. its hard to get a solid read on femto #in general but especially in early chapters its hard to get a solid read on anyone since theres a lot of early installment weirdness #that said i dont see it being like. unreasonable for his attitude in guardians of desire to be kind of an act #since we know for sure even as femto and neo griff he still has feelings for and about guts #and guts. clearly. still has a lot of feelings for and about griffith. thats kinda the whole driving force of the series lmao #and personally i think even now after everything he still wants griffith's attention. he still doesnt want him to look down on him #even after everything he wants griffith to see him as his 'true friend and equal' #ghost.txt

[dimsilver]

🙏🏻

#would appreciate prayer! #I am getting a cold #and I need to do 16 hours of driving tomorrow! #as well as seeing and enjoying friends and my sister and a gray havens concert #if the Lord wills we will live and do this or that etc

[lucabyte]

I am literally obsessed with everything you do that involves sifloop you are THE sifloop artist to me

thank you!!! it means a lot to hear that haha

I've been like... near exclusively an OC artist for like 8 years at this point so every time i post fanart and ESPECIALLY ship art i feel like i have to fight every screaming cell in my body to post it because i feel like... RUDE? for projecting my own thoughts onto another creator's characters LMAO... so it's reassuring to know people actually like what i'm contributing!!

as for sifloop as a ship. i really should draw more isiloops because . rotates all three of them in my mind. but yeah. I think the thing I like most about the dynamic really is the like... way Siffrin and Loop canonically aggress each other despite an extremely persistent undercurrent of caring about the other not suffering.

Like. the back and forth between Loop constantly talking past/through Siffrin to really painfully insult the pair of them, and things like the [Forgetting Mirabelle's Name] event being so astoundingly gentle. just as a general example. (RNG event that only triggers after certain actions so you may need to look it up)

THEN adding the element of throwing them in postcanon with neither of them wanting to upset the party and thus having to keep a lid on it... I like the potential dynamics of such a painful and conflicted relationship having to be almost hidden and downplayed so as to try and not worry anyone, and thus becoming softer and introspective while still keeping a bunch of the more insidiously toxic behaviour.

Both of them acting with genuine best intentions in mind but still understanding each other to have way *way* more sadness and anger and guilt than they let on, and thus being able to clock it. Both for good and ill. Neither of them enjoy confrontation, but it's almost unavoidable when they KNOW the other knows what they're probably thinking.

. but yeah i just think they're neat! also a bunch of stuff related to asexuality but . shh

#also since. well. i dont know where else im gonna put this. because its CERTAINLY not going in the body of the text #an early way i worded my reading of Loop's characterisation when talking to my friends was: #'Loop is sexually frustrated in the same way as a poorly kept parrot' #WHICH SOUNDS INSANE but hear me out. if you know things about parrots you know they'll imprint on their owners. and it ruins their brains #parrots like this will see humans as potential mates and get AGGRESSIVE when nothing is happening! because... they aren't human. #the 'sexual' part of my reading is a bit of shock hyperbole but i basically mean they are socially/romantically/etc frustrated in this way #they are asexual obviously (... as am i for the record). but yknow. they and siffrin are both still ravenous for physical touch. #and loop... no longer being human. having that disconnect. BEING human FEELING human. but not being. #as well as literally physically lacking the ability for certain things. (staunch 'loop has no mouth and cannot kiss' truther here) #+ i think this is FASCINATING in context of both Siffrin and Loop's asexuality. its something i like thinking about. #two freaks who want intimacy but not in the 'normal' way. again as an ace myself. i think abt it #lucabytetalks #isat spoilers #sifloop

[dykevanny]

had a really funny idea for an ask blog ft. Vanny and another plex employee oc,,

#Get this right. 2 pizzaplex employees accidentally get tumblr famous bc someone has been leaving weird graffiti everywhere and #Getting up to other shenanigans and sends asks abt it to this one like urban exploration blog. Who later gets an ask basically like #Hey I work at the plex?? This is some insider info only another employee would know???? #The two anons are constantly back and forth in this persons inbox and are eventually assigned nicknames #‘Pix’ for the mystery vandalism employee because she shows up as nothing but weird pixels and glitches on cameras #The other employee is ‘Cam’ because they have been monitoring all this on the cameras #One day they get each others blogs and keep sending each other death threats and shit jokingly but one day pix warns cam not to go to a #Weird late staff meeting #The next night it is literally just the two of them and they think this is so funny they start a blog trying to uncover why everyone else #Just isn’t coming in. At first they are like well layoffs duhhhh #But then ppl send asks and messages like ‘hey have u seen this employee it’s my brother/friend/etc’ and they realize shit is actually going #On in here #One night cam is live-blogging their shift and sees a weird intruder in a costume with a knife and runs around eventually escaping and find #Pix lying at the bottom of a stairwell unconscious with a bloody nose later #Takes pix to the hospital. Only to be alone in the plex the next night and suddenly get a phone call saying that pix left the hospital. Bc #Pix left cam as the emergency contact because ‘she didn’t have anyone else’. #Cam has to survive the masked intruder #eventually starts recording everything but when the intruder gets closer the footage gets glitchier #Eventually there’s just one fuzzy image of the intruder with Roxy and Monty standing on either side and that’s the last we hear of cam. Nex #Post is pix saying hehe thanks for following our little story aha !! Bye now it’s over!! And that’s it…..heheheheh #Killer rab blog has become a little boring for me so… might start this soon…. #I’d have to make like 2 blogs plus some fake dms too probably . Damn

[puppyeared]

if escape rooms as team building exercises became popular im not sure if id be more excited or terrified

#if it isnt already anyway.. i can see it happening as a school frosh thing. idk if it would catch on as a workplace thing #i kind of find the concept of being locked in with strangers and working to find a way out weirdly exhilarating though #at least compared to icebreakers cause i dont have to spend 10 minutes racking my brain for something to blurt out abt myself #as a bonus u could like. put people into groups and give prizes to whoever escapes first second third etc. apparently they also do themed #escape rooms.. maybe let people pick a theme? or voluntary sign up? actually this would be really fun for smth like a blind friend date #although if i found out i was locked in a room with an online friend id be too excited to actually escape LOL #ive never done an escape room before so sadly i cant speak from experience. its like up there on things i want to try next to rug tufting #workshop and visiting new art exhibits or conventions. i seriously need to get out more if it wasnt for the horrors <- school and anxiety #i was planning to invite cass to a drop-in art workshop in town but neither of us could go bc typography is making us go thru hell and back #AND THEY HAD A BUTTON MACHINE TOO #im nostalgic bc i miss working in groups and not being awkward abt it or worrying abt schedule conflicts #i realized that i learn best in groups and its a little corny but i like sharing ideas and talking through a problem #in elementary i could just sit down with friends for review and come out of it energized *and* more familiar with the material #and i could technically still do it now. but as adults we're more picky abt who we work with on top of being way more busy outside school #maybe im lonely. im shy and grew up not talking to ppl unless i absolutely have to so its hard to make friends on my own i guess #only thing getting me thru it is telling myself that humans like helping and that my cringe is overblown in my head. but its hard #hence the escape rooms. i have been able to talk to 2(!!) people though!! mostly abt school stuff but im glad to be on friendly terms #i dont really know how to be happy these days cause im constantly scaring myself abt my portfolio and finding places to work #not being ambitious is part of not wanting to put energy into something that wont work out while also not having the passion to do literall #anything else.. i should probably talk to my counsellor ugh #yapping

[bunnihearted]

lately i've been finding it so so hard to be positive and hopeful. and it's making me so bitter and hateful. i hate it but i dont know what to do about it

#idk it's just all too much to deal w #i have sm pains and physical discomforts. money issues. stress bc my avpd is making school very hard for me to finish #i have suicidal thoughts and really bad anxiety every single day. i've basically begged the mental health care system for help for 7 months #like i've kept contacting them and asking them but they havent done anything at all for me. i dont even get to see anyone and talk #i just dont know what to do or how to handle it #im so stressed abt the future. i have to finish school but then choose smth so i can go to school/get a degree & get a job #im holding my mom down and back and i need to find a way to kove out from her and support myself #i have no friends to meet or hangout with and destress with etc etc and im really feeling the lack of it #idk the list just goes on and on and on #nothing is working and idk how to fix it. but also i know that me and only me have to find a way bc there is no help #i struggle bc of my avpd and mental health but there is no treatment for me to get. they just dont wanna give me *any* help at all #im just so frustrated. and every day is the same. everyday is full of some physical pain anxiety stress worries suicidal thoughts etc etc #i cant break free idk how!!!! my life is so fkn boring and pathetic and miserable #i never get to relax bc all of a sudden last year i got extremely noise sensitive. and it's never quiet anywhere in this city #anyway yeah i could just keep going. and like now im feeling anxious bc my tooth is aching :(( #it -everything- never stops or lets up or relents. and it makes me wanna die even more. #so... idk im just incapable of being hopeful abt anything and that's really killing me idk