#i have to take care of bills and my mom

[goingghostcomic]

Does the fact that DP now has an official canon continuation affect you while working on the comic

Like does the new canon stuff influence your own vision or has your vision for your reboot remained the same since you started?

Sorry it's taken so long to answer so I'll match with a long answer and update in my process, I'm so sorry lol

But no, an official canon continuation will not stop me from making the comic. And while I do own the new comic and plan on getting all the future official DP merch I can get my hands on, it wont effect my story in the slightest because I haven't read it. Plus I've already written my story and I'm very happy with it. I will someday read the new comic but not anytime soon, I'm just so happy it exists and that it's in my hands either way.

What might stop me (for a little bit at least) is a full on rebooted series, not a continuation/revival because the fandom has been around so long and we've all influenced each other in big or little ways. And since we're all playing in the same sandbox there's naturally some overlap. But this started as a pitch bible/proof of concept for a full on reboot of my own and if there's an active reboot airing I'd be very sad it wasn't mine (so silly I know lol but it's true).

What has stopped me is the a back and forth issue I have on the comic in general. I have found a style of comic I enjoy making, but I have gotten in my own head about it being stiff and bad. I know practice make progress and I'm getting more confident about it and also considering making it into a fic with art and slowly adapting it into a comic just so I can have some thing to post and put out there. But my iPad is dying and outside of sketches on paper I haven't been able to write or draw to the extent I'd like. I've been saving for a new one for a while now and about half way there but life happens and it takes a toll on my savings. So I'm trying to decide what's the best way to proceed and I have a lot of options and that's also a little overwhelming, which sounds silly typing out. But it's easy for me to feel guilt every time I try to commit to one game plan because all my best options rely on me getting a new iPad

#ask me anything #danny phantom reboot planning #going ghost comic #goingghostcomic #its been hard saving for an ipad lol #i have to take care of bills and my mom #plus im slowly getting merch to open a shop #and hopefully that'll help too #all ipad time i can get has been to prep merch for sale #im at over 40k words at the halfway point of my second detailed draft #one more sweep and it might be fic ready #i just haven't decided whats the best route to take because I have SO MUCH in the concept and rough stages still #i might be bitching and moaning in the tags about money #but im sure as hell not going to ask for it unless I have something solid and tangible in return #but this is why my art production has functionally halted #sorry for using your ask as an infodump update #ive been hesitant to make one because I dont want to let anyone down #not you or my followers or myself

[a-lil-strawberry]

Please pray that a complicated billing situation will be sorted out and covered by my insurance. It's for an ambulance ride I had in June for a panic attack. Some of you might remember me panicking about it a few months ago when I got the statement.

#it's a giant bill and my mom's insurance which is my primary only covered a tiny portion of it #and the ambulance service tried only once to contact my secondary insurance and they never even got it #so they never covered anything #but they were never contacted #so then i made them contact each other when it was made apparent that otherwise i would owe $2020. #yes two thousand and twenty dollars #and then i was waiting for them to deal with it #and today i just received another statement still showing that they never contacted that insurance and that i owe them the money by the 30th #so i panicked a little bit #then called the insurance and they said they had just recieved the claim on the first #so then i called the ambulance service and told them so and asked if the due date of the 30th was still in place #and she said no it's on hold and the insurance lady said most likely some of it would be covered #so hopefully it will go down drastically #and man this whole situation is like.... why did i have to do all the contacting back and forth #i thought that was y'all's job #but whatever #so now i am waiting again :) #fully aware that i may still owe a large chunk of that #but it's okay bc i am starting a new job and all will be well :))))))) #right??????? #all will be well?????? #and it was a dang panic attack that started all this #so i feel somewhat like this is all my fault #if i had never taken that thc gummy and greened out so bad and worked myself up none of this would be happening :) #but that's not healthy for me to think #it's in the past and i truly thought i needed to go in so in that moment i was doing what i thought i needed to do to take care of myself #i should be proud of myself for that #i just wish healthcare was different in this country

[anandasamsara]

SIMPLE COMMISSIONS OPEN

Ok, i cant find any other job nor other way to make some money rn. I still have to pay 450 for credit card, that we used to buy groceries, 450 for electricity and at least mom's phone. Ideally, 700 that we owe for the apartment payments, but we can keep pretending it doesnt matter as much.

So, opening sketch and whump comms bc i cant bring myself to do more than that rn. I can barely bring myself to draw at all. I could even toss some notion of nsfw for an extra 10 bucks.

Prices, how-to's and more info >>here<<

Im relatively desperate, bc even tho i managed to pay the internet bill, it doesnt matter if electricity is cut down, specially as we're having heat waves of about 40C for the last week with no end in sight.

(I listed the amount i need in brazilian real, so it would be around 250usd. 400usd if we count the apartment things that im ignoring.)

#emergency commissions #commissions #help an artist #thankfully my aunt decided to buy us some groceries but it wont last much #paid a few bills with money my friends gave me as a christmas present but im still very embarassed by the need #even more so that i didnt manage to make it last more than a month #also my dad being home is becoming a problem #me and mom are trying to eat less so we can keep having food for longer #and he spends the whole day eating everything he sees #its been hard and i dont want to ask for help but i dont know what else to do #no one else will help bc we have a capable man at the house and why cant he go back to the job HE ACTUALLY HAS to keep us afloat #but he doesnt want to so now i have to take care of the bills myself #doesnt matter that i was fired bc the computer can do the same work i did #im very tired and trying to not spiral into depression yet again

[hestiasroom]

does anyone else's mom think they are "mean" for having boundaries? or is that just my mom?

#me: maybe there is a reason none of his 4 daughters speak to our cousin anymore. should we really invite him over to christmas? #my mom: i'm not ignoring red flags. i just don't feel the need to be so mean and not invite him over anyway! #me: okay. #she is so completely attracted to weak and failed men #the more they use her the more she wants to be around them #it's like... have you not noticed that this man only calls when he needs money or rides or a free caretaker??? #she will literally ALWAYS find the money to take care of men like this but will happily screw me and my credit score over if she doesn't #feel like paying a bill that month #literally my score is a 542 right now and i have mommy dearest to thank for that along with my own stupidity in trusting her not to be #an idiot when it comes to money but she will never change on that front #lol but she found a way to give thousands to my dad this year #it's honestly like she HATES any woman who is competent and not serving men #it's like she thinks it's her duty to harm herself financially to care for men

[handweavers]

instead of my dad flying with me back home in april he waited until i came back to canada in june to be like 'ok I want to go home now' (because he's getting evicted from his apartment so if he doesn't go back to msia asap he'll be houseless, and he already knew he was getting evicted before i left in april so he SHOULD HAVE come with me then esp because my flight ticket cost was covered by my grant but he didn't because hes insane) so now i'm going BACK to msia again in august because he needs a caretaker in order to fly and i'm the only one who both can and will do it, and then i have to return to canada a few weeks later because my fall uni semester starts in sept. dude

#the flight takes 24 hours . every time . #he thinks money falls from trees i cant even afford this a roundtrip is cad $2k+ WHY DIDNT YOU COME WITH ME IN APRIL? screaming so loud #i dont mind going back nor being his caretaker i love malaysia and i dont mind taking care of him #this second trip is just stupid wasteful like PLEASE #hes lucky my uncle/his brother is willing to foot the bill for my ticket otherwise hed be shit out of luck #cause me n my mom sure as hell dont have that money lying around GOD

[tittyinfinity]

I'm disabled and yes it is very wrong to tell your kids "get over it" or ''you're faking it'' their whole life and then turn around and expect your kid(s) to take care of you in the event of disability. Like no, you made your bed. "But I'll struggle to survive!" And so did your kids after years of abuse. Believe it or not, your kids have bodily autonomy, and aren't owed you their labor just because you birthed them. You wanna tell your kids that they're faking every fever and illness for attention then expect them to give a shit when you go down. Well, get the fuck over it.

#my situation isn't this rough. but it's up there #my mom is starting to believe me now but didn't at all when i was younger #what I'm really mad about is that my siblings aren't disabled and one of them *literally works in hospice* #and they've been talking about how i the disabled one should be taking care of her in her later years #because ive lived with her on and off as if its that much of a privilege when i pay half the bills #just for someone to have the power to randomly kick me out at any time

[fly-sky-high-09]

hhhgh

#just demi aroace moment in conversation with mom #nothing serious just me venting a little cuz good friend implied #she'd want to try have me hook up with someone but she was very respectful about me saying no thanks #but it's been on my mind since and frustrating thoughts popped in my mind #I like the idea of a partner but the fact that I know myself enough where I can't just plop into romantic relationship like that #frustrates me a bit #and it's like yeah I can meet folks and make friends and possibly IN TIME MAYBE JUST MAYBE develop romantic feelings #but the fact that it would take so long I don't think just 'hooking up' would actually work. ever. #and I'm #I'm not easy to handle as a person. I think #I think I can be overwhelming and opinionated and it would probably read as 'picky' #idk. I'm just frustrated about this because I'm having difficulties handling life and worrying about the future #to even try and care about romance #even if in the back of my head it would be nice to have someone that close #I just don't yearn for it... #I want stable job and my own space first #and not worrying about health and bills and expensive groceries etc. #frustrated....

[scoreplings]

he wants to run away to florida

#also asked if me and jordan would move in with her because 'itd make him feel a lot better if we were there' #killlll yourself. you do not get to abandon your wife out of nowhere and then try and guilt your kids into taking care of her for you. #like we will. we aren't going to move in #i have spent my entire childhood + portions of my adult life i've had to live in that house trying to get out #but we are going to take care of her. she's our mom. #rrr i am mostly just so angry at him right now. i am a little worried he is actually going to kill himself tho is the thing. and i dont want #him to do that. #he's an asshole but he's still my dad yknow. #not too worried abt my mom #obviously she's upset and not doing well rn. but i think she'll be a lot better off without him. tbh. #idk if he's going to make it without her. #she had to teach him how to pay bills today because he hasn't done it since they got married over twenty years ago. and he'll have to now.

[tariah23]

My upcoming check is so pitiful wtf

#bad enough that they cut one of my days and a bunch of hours but lord what is this omg #and they expect us to bus it every time we come in but don’t want to pay us #I’m gonna start clocking in early again as usual and clocking out late and also taking a short lunch instead of a full 30 min unfortunately #just to make my full 8 hrs #which I shouldn’t have to do all of this shit #my check is like below 800 ain’t no way when they used to be almost 2k- kidding me bro #or at least a quarter of that #I hate this place #rambling #most of my taxes are already gone because of bills and stuff #man… #and I gave my aunt 300 to pay for our grannies headstone #I told my mom that I’ll take care of it so that she could save/keep her money for herself but oh man #and I still have to pay for her life insurance/ give her some more money because I always give her extra once at the beginning of the month #just so that she could have some money for herself #uajajajaj #emo… #if my boss comes over to me asking me again to not clock in early I’m gonna tell her that I’m barely making 8 hrs anymore and my check is #small as shit #no I am not editing my time

[cozypups]

holy shit can i go a day without a family member making me feel like i grew up spoiled because i was the youngest or that i don't even make an effort to try to get better??? one of my sisters said there were a lot of people doing things for me when i was little, so subconsciously i may have developed a sort of "princess syndrome" and she was going about it gently, but then she started unloading her own stresses onto me, and she even mentioned about how i wasn't grounded as much as she was in the past, and that at most my parents would let me do my thing but then send me to my room, and it took everything in my body to not blow up. imagine having siblings get mad at their parents for not treating their youngest sibling the same way as them as if it was a healthy thing to threaten to ground a little kid if they didn't stop crying by counting to 3 and then sending them to their room without anyone to help them regulate their emotions, or even at the age of around 20, made to feel like i don't have my shit together and even if i talked calmly and didn't look angry, i have ulterior motives and placed in the persecutor role, which has still stuck with me for years and years and not a single person in my family thinks that it's understandable, and just says "if i was stressed about something, I'd do something to fix it. I've had moments where i thought i couldn't do something, but i knew i had to push past it." GOOD FOR YOU? I'M HERE FEELING LIKE I CAN'T TALK TO ANYONE WITHOUT HEAVILY AFFECTING THEIR MENTAL HEALTH OR HAVING THEM GIVE ME ADVICE THAT I COULD LITERALLY GIVE MYSELF. it fucking annihilates me when anyone says i have the luxury of not having to do anything, even though i have to go everyday wanting to make money for myself, just do anything, but i can't and i can't say i just need to start saying i can because I'm fucking tired of that, I'm so so tired of being told i don't like being told what to do by my mom, I'm ok with being told what to do, what hurts me so fucking much is that if I'm mentally and physically struggling to get myself to do something, people take it as me not being considerate or never wanting to make an effort or work, there's no excuses, it's all me, i cause myself to feel like shit and i can easily get out of it, i just don't want to apparently is what I'm made to believe

#🐬 #tw vent #it's so so so exhausting as well because i almost feel like i have to take care of my mom #and then she brings up bills insurance and laundry and everything else she does #i need my boyfriend to hold me and just have a mental breakdown and that's it #i don't need anything else from anyone i just want to feel normal #i might delete this later idk #i always get embarrassed when i randomly make these posts

[bennitastisch]

i wish i could fuck my parents up in the same way they fucked me up

#i wanna tell my dad that my mom cheated on him soooooooooo bad #but i also wanna see for how long my mom will continue to pay my phone bill #so i wont #but i really wanna hurt them #cause every day since they kicked me out im scared that the same thing will happen here living with the bf and his parents and im also like #100 times more scared the bf will break up with me since my parents kicked me out bc i always thoight well i know my parents dont really #support my life choices and they don’t particularly like me that much but at least they know im their child and they try to love me #and i dont know i think they still do love me but not in a way that is good for either of us #and it is only speculation by now bc we havent talked in a year #they prolly expect me to come back home like my brother did when they kicked him out #but i will never talk to them again #and i know i shouldnt care what they r up to now or how they are doing but i really really really want them to be miserable #and i know its no healthy but they hurt me so much #they did so much damage to my mental health that will take so much time amd effort and energy to buff out again that i just want them to hur #i once asked them if they kicked my brother out if they could promise me to never do that to me #and they said of course no one is going to kick me out #and then they did #and i know its stupid and im naive to have trusted them but knowing this #knowing they promised me they wouldnt kick me out and then doing it anyways #because i wasnt willing to be their little pet or doll or whatever the hell anymore it just hurts #they always wanted me to be who they wanted me to be #and as soon as i broke out of that mold they didnt like me anymore #they didnt like their own child anymore cause they couldn’t control it and i hate that i knwo that they r fucked up ppl for it and still wan #them to come crawling to my door and apologize and tell me they still love me #just so i can tell them to fuck off and close the door in their faces #i want to hurt them like they hurt me #i hate that they have that power over me #bc im not a malicious person #but i also want revenge #ben vents

[madnessismylover]

Tw: negative

Wish you could like... sue your depressed for all the time and money it costs to take care of it and anything else that results from it.

I never wanted depression so why do I need to pay for the things that make me not want to off myself? (Pills/therapy/etc.)

For the rest of my life I'll need to pay for the things that are gonna keep me alive because of something I cannot control. I can't just tell my brain 'hey, work properly so we don't wanna fucking die'

If I hadn't been depressed in school I would've planned ahead, I would have been better than where I am today.

I never thought I'd get to 18 and I'm gonna be 26 in April. I don't blame past me because they weren't doing well. Unmedicated. I don't wanna go back to that. It was scary. Actively thinking it's easier to die is fucking terrifying.

Living is so fucking expensive.

#tw suicide mention #tw suicide idealization #paid $400 today to take care of cavities that formed because I don't care enough about myself to floss amd brush every day #and this was just the first appointment out of three. #having no insurance fucking sucks why did my dental and vision end before life insurance? #i only have another two months of that and most of the antidepressants i take are gonna be too expensive #i have to get a new therapist because they don't take the only insurance I'm gonna qualify for #ik i never thought I'd make it this far but fucking hell i never thought it would be this bad #so many bills and it all just doesn't seem worth it #can't get a job have to take care of my 101 grandma who is miserable and actively prays for death (which ya know is great for ME to hear/s) #dads got cancer moms the only one working shes gonna be 67 and wanted to retire YEARS ago but can't afford to #no car so even if i could get a job i couldn't get there #everything is about fucking money #and i know people have it worse but that doesn't make my situation any better #I'm just so done.. #tw negative

[lilgynt]

having a small cry sesh in front of my mom 🤪

#personal #i was driving her to the pharmacy and covering her meds #and it’s just been a bad week as you all know #anyway blah blah back story #we’re driving home and she’s talking about the price of the phone bill #and i’m like is that good is that bad? and she’s not answering and i’m like do you want me to start covering it?? if that helps with #budgeting i can do that and she’s like no i just wanted to let you know you buying me meds balances out #and i’m not even sure why that got me but i just putting my head in my hands practically crawling into myself and just silently crying #and she’s like god why are you crying i can never talk to you #and i’m like mom. i don’t care about the phone payment i dont care about the meds #i want you to have them #i’ve just had a super bad week and you just haven’t noticed cause all we talk about is you #like did you know i went on a date and it went super bad? no. cause we don’t talk about anything. else but ur meds and ur life #i’m not worried about the meds i’m worried about my own finances this doesn’t have to do with you #and she’s like you never mentioned that and i’m like i’ve been trying to talk to you about WHATEVER for months! i leave you a conversation #bit but you never take me up on it and talk to me! you just never pursue conversation openers i give you #she tried asking about it but i just kinda camped out in the bathroom crying for a bit #i feel like a huge baby but also i want a mom oh my god

[lizard-dumbass]

I had a dream where my family had a cat and it was a really nice and friendly cat and i got to pet it but then i woke up and now i remember that i don't actually have a cat and now i'm sad

#lizard-dumbass talks about stuff #text post #i want a cat so bad but my mom is allergic #there are hypoallergenic breeds but my mom doesnt like hairless cats and siberian cats are expensive as hell #i guess i can get a cat when i move out but there's still the whole allergy issue to get around #plus i've already made a 20 year commitment to my cornsnake Dori #if i had a cat then the cost of taking care of an animal would basically double because then i'll have 2 pets #not to mention vet bills #so yeah tl;dr i want a cat but i cant have one >:[

[flammenxci]

In light of recent events I am seriously thinking about buying an MMA dummy I can body slam.

#i need to take out some aggresion #physically exerting myself with rhythm games in vr isn't cutting it anymore #but also need it to serve as a body double to get shit done #you have no idea how frustrating it is that you have the ability to help someone you care about #and. they. don't. take. you. up. on. your. offer. #my dad's been in a massive amount of pain in his back and arm #to the point where he can't lay down to sleep #he slept on his knees propped up against the bed facing it and then moved to his chair #i asked multiple times if he needs me to take him to the doctor #i even slept in my clothes last night just in case he needed me to rush him to the er #but since he's 'feeling better than he did that last few days' he doesn't see the need to rush to the doc #ASGDHGKAHDJGAJMDHL #this is like him being against me helping him pay the bills until eviction was staring him in the face #BRUH! #Like my good sir why the FUCK do you think I bought a house in my name and let you live here #TO HELP YOU YOU DENSE GUMBY! #i let him buy another golden oldie because he had to sell his to pay for divorcing from my narc mom #let him use my old suv to bring an antique fridge home home he wanted to fix and use #but as soon as he really needs my help it's 'oh no I don't want to be a bother' #MOTHER FUCKER I HAVE HELPED YOU THIS MUCH DAFUQ MAKE YOU THINK I DON'T WANT TO NOW?! HMMMM?!

[kazuwhora]

I hate how society puts so much of someone’s self worth on how independent they are because there’s some people like myself that no matter how hard I try I will never be able to be the type of independent that non disabled and neurotypical people expect me to be

#all of my bills havw to be attached to my moms bank account and I send her the money for them because if the money stays in my account #I spend it #and I literally had to file for bankruptcy a couple years ago BECAUSE of this #and the only way I can pay my bills and not spend that money is doing it this wat #and despire the fact that I have 4 jobs I still cant afford all my bills on top of my course tuition #im always going to need some kind of support #and yet despite the independence I do have having lived on my own since I was 16 #to working 4 jobs and taking care of my cat and going to school #the fact that I need my mom to help me pay for some bills and have her account attached to my withdrawals #negates what independence I have worked for in the eyes of neurotypicals and non disables #and I hate it #anyways just a rant