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megumiivs · 8 months

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cw: cheating, manga spoilers (dont read if u havent finished the manga yet ty!), ooc mikey??

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to say mikey was the love of your life was an understatement. you two had grown up together, from snot nosed toddlers to reckless teenagers, through the thick and thin. to others, you guys were inseparable and it seemed inevitable that you would end up marrying him.

at least, that’s what you thought. it seemed that 18+ years of knowing each other and over 5 years of dating meant nothing to mikey. as you stared down at the instagram post, a wave of nausea washed over you. there he was, the love of your life, in all his glory, staring up at you from your phone. in the picture, he was sitting next to a gorgeous person, hand wrapped possessively around their waist. they seemed to be the exact opposite of you. to make matters worse, mikey seemed happier, too. he was smiling, and the usual dark bags under his eyes were missing. his whole persona was different. he seemed to succumb to the dark impulses around you. but the post showed no sign of dark impulses. was his other partner so amazing that they could keep a check on mikey’s dark impulses? something you couldn’t even do? was this why he had cheated? these questions gnawed at you, and it made you want to cry even more.

your heart felt like it had been split into two. mikey had cheated and by the looks of it, he had absolutely zero remorse. the post had proved it in a way. he had no problem with his other partner posting him on social media. yet, when you wanted to post a picture with it? it was a hard no. he had mumbled excuses along the lines of “not wanting the police to connect him to bonten” or that “everyone knows we’re together, there’s no need.” everything that he rejected appeared to be an exception for them.

you had stuck with mikey, despite him succumbing to the dark impulses after he had lost shinichiro, emma and baji. you had stuck with mikey, despite him trying to push everyone away. so why wasn’t that enough? why were you enough?

when mikey returned to your shared apartment that night, you couldn’t bear to look at him. to look at his handsome face, the face you had loved for the longest time. you sat montionless on the bed, tears staining your cheeks. mikey didn’t seem to notice your pain, walking right past you with a simple, “i’m back love.” the word ‘love’ drove you over the cliff. you let out a loud sob. how could he call you that after cheating on you for god knows how long. more tears began pouring out, clouding your vision. how could he call you love when how could he call you love when his neck bore a deep purple hickey?

you closed your eyes and took a deep breath, preparing yourself.

“let’s break up mikey.”

mikey stopped in his tracks.

“what?” he asked with a confused look on his face. “where is this coming from?”

“i know.” you say simply. “i know you’ve been cheating on me.”

he doesn’t say anything so you continue. “i saw their instagram post mikey.”

the tears begin flowing again. mikey stood there, face impassive. he took a deep breath before saying,

“okay?”

this simple word made you flip your switch. “sorry? is that all you have to say? we’ve been dating for five years and that’s all you have to say? you cheated on me mikey!”

he shrugs. “i know”

“you can’t even saying sorry?” you yell. “sorry doesnt even cut it but that’s better than fucking saying okay”

“what do you want me to do? i wasn’t trying to hide it anyway. you just took too long to find out.”

angry tears make its way down your cheeks. “fuck you mikey, fuck you for cheating on me, fuck you for making me think that we were going to last, fuck you for making me love you. i hate you, i hate you, i hate you.” you collapse against the wall of your shares apartment, curling into a ball.

The End 😊😊

i hate this and dont wanna finish this so i ended it

#[ lilith loves tokyorev 🌟]#tokyo rev headcanons #tokyo rev x reader #tokyo rev x y/n #tokyo revengers #mikey fluff #toman mikey #bonten mikey is toxic and im here for it #mikey tokyo revengers #sano manjiro

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petewentzisblack1312 · 2 months

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Gabe is engaging with people on twitter now too. Not even sure where to start with all he’s said on there in the past couple of hours. It’s a lot.

i am opening up twitter as i type this. and i dont think ill like what i see, but i think i should see it anyway.

read some of his replies. and its not as bad as i thought. which doesnt. mean. its good. i also dont know where to start. the idea that taking down the misinformation on your social media page with a huge platform is back pedaling. the weight he places on the icj finishing their ruling when theyve already proven that its a genocide in everything but intent yet. i havent gone through everything. i think itd be difficult to sort through it all myself. its technically an improvement in that he has repeatedly acknowledged the devastation of gaza. i guess. not really.

like i said in my tags, if were being completely real. hes not going to be yelled out of this by people he doesnt know on twitter. as someone who has changed some minds and hearts, the most effective way to do involves knowing them and being respected by them first and foremost. people dont logic their way into positions like this. especially in this case.

i have thoughts but i feel like theyll be muddled, so ill stop on this for now. my point is. i think he needs to log off and someone who loves him and respects him enough to check him on stuff like this needs to have a hard conversation with him. and i do think there should he social consequences to his terrible and cowardly views too, but direct confrontation from a bunch of people he doesnt know probably isnt going to hold that weight.

its sickening though that somehow just. seeing whats happened in the past few months hasnt made it click yet that its more than a 'war'. somehow. though.

#dils declares #idk how to articulate how. complicated and overall disgusted i feel #i try to have empathy (NOT sympathy) with people i hate #in this case. it has been difficult

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joshhere911 · 1 year

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First, i want to apologize in advance for bad grammar and long paragraphs . I am not a writer, but instead a rambler at heart <3 some of this is just me straight up screaming LMAO

ALSO SPOILERS FOR THE EXTRA STORY OF PSYCHICS 1 N 2

I will not really be talking about the anime , since the anime covers most of the manga but is really quick and cuts some scenes (that i honestly thought were the funniest but it may be that i havent seen em before thst makes it funny) so i will peimarily be using the manga and novels (Extra Story of Psychics 1 and 2) as references .

Its in total agreement that saiki is a toootal tsundere, or at least i prefer kuudere for him (tsunderes are often aggressive or soft and generally alternating, whereas kuuderes are cynical and appear emotionless but of course have a soft side . Its just behavior difference but still makes a difference jn my heart <3) and of course what with it being confirmed By him in the manga its like Duh. But we dont necessarily see his soft side ? Bc of course we know his 'soft side' is generally sheep herding his friends and caring for their well being, but he doesnt explicitly like ,, say it . And im not counting what he said at the volcano and also i sort of rely on words so having a BOOK of words that i can grab at and string along to my brain is SO good for me honestly dude i love the books so unibelievebly much

Of course, like in any good saiki media the first chapters are generally getting caught up in his friends shenanigans. I was so delighted to note that it was all in perspective of saiki himself ! The first pov!! I usually dont like the first perspective , but in novels its more expected and also its saiki! (Im insane) anyways , we cant really rely on saiki as an output of his emotions to the reader bc hes an unreliable narrator, he doesn't necessarily speak out his emotions or show them that much .

Anyways, besties being besties !! Saiki quite literally follows his friends around . Everywhere . It still amuses me that even though he can just Teleport away when theyre not looking and they wouldnt find it super suspicious (hes done it before in the manga im like 80% sure) he still hangs out with them and now , in the last chapter of the first novel, we know why !! He usually says its an obligation or a social thing in a typical tsundere fashion , but in the last chapter he feels . Sad . THAT SHIT CAUGHT ME SO OFF GAURD . In this chapter , he stays home due to a premonition of his house being on fire . He takes a nap and wakes up to see kaidou and nendou hanging in his room, saying that Saikis mom let them in while she went out . They ask if hes sick and then go cook ramen for him , and he uses clairvoyance to make sure they dont set his kitchen and then his house on fire (being paranoid after the premonition, and end up caring for his friends safety) and afterwards he ends up esting their ramen and tries to send them home . He ends up getting another premonition in thst moment (doesnt explicitely say it to the readers yet), has seconds of the ramen (bc it wasnt bad) and then his friends go home, stepping on a cigarette bud that would have started the fire.

One thing that gets me when i read this chapter is that after the second premonition, he could have still sent them home ! He now knew the cause (that he now revealed) and he couldve nipped the cigarette himself but instead he lets fate do what it does best and they leave later and step on the cigarette then . Its so interesting ! And !!! Right after that, he claims he felt empty, that his room felt larger and more quiet . Of course, in his typical fashion he tries to reassure himself thst this is what he Wanted, and that he should feel happy that he could have peace and (mainly) quiet in his house now but he just . Doesnt . He says he feels lonely . And he explains thst in elementary and middle school he never had people check up on him at home, and thus he preferred the quiet. He is literally defending himself against his OWN FEELINGS . Oh my GOD that shit made me want to CRY . I feel mang emotions a lot of the time and THAT ? THAT WHOLE SEGMENT AT THE BOTTOM OF WHAT FEELS LIKE A BOTTOMLESS PIT OF LONELINESS WHEN YOUR FRIENDS LEAVE ? THAT MADE ME WANT TO CRY!! And even !! At the end, he says "I start reading a manga in my quiet room." OH MY GOD NO FUCKIN WAY .... first , he reiterates that his room is quiet ! Second, he says he starts reading a manga and considering that nendou had bought a manga for him and then gave him said manga when he first woke up, i like to think that he started reading the manga that nendou gave him !! This is SO important to me because hes being VULNERABLE !! In the manga, He never really expresses negative emotions towards the thought of his friends leaving, infact many a time he tries to play it off as a relief (he sucks at playing it off though) , so the fact that hes being OPEN about his feelings to readers about these emotions of a sort of lasting and lingering and Yearning and the fact that its Most Likely (im unsure but for now i will say that it IS) canon!! Hes so silly !!! My silly little guy! He literally says his friends are destined to be there with him!! Thats crazy!! And he proves it in the next volume !

Moving onto the next book :D first , i want to address toritsuka . Though he is fucking crazy , its important to note that saiki Still cares for him !! In the book, first chapter in pov of toritsuka, reita says that saiki looks at him with pity several times and even in saikis pov at the end he feels bad that toritsukas luck is so shit bc his gaurdian spirit(nendous dad) is never around, and even debates talking to the guy . He feels genuine pity for toritsuka , so i cant say saiki is cruel or a distrustful guy bc LOOK AT HIM!! Caring for his buddies !! Even the less honourable and more crazy ones !!! :DD

Back on topic with saiki n his friends! The last 3(or 2 n a half??) chapters are all for one arc !! THE MOST SILLY ARC ! You have probably read it and i dont want to repeat summaries of chapters if yall have, so ill spare yall the big picture!! The chapter thst makes me want to swoon so Badly is the interlude, where saiki is under the spell thing of the parallel! Saiki Kusuo, so hes supposed to be in a dream . In this dream, he is at a festival . No powers . No limiters . He doesnt even know Why he is think of powers or limiters . He thinks hes starting to have 8th grade syndrome . The FIRST person that his subconscious places into his mind to talk to him first was NENDOU! He doesnt know anyone at this festival, all he knows is that this random guy with his face blurred and black out recognized him and is dragging him to a nice hideout . And he lets him !!! Without realizing, in all his thinking, his body moves by itsef, similarly to the chapter "eat all you can!" In the first novel, he just follows and doesn't necessarily register his total surroundings (trusting his body to whoever is guiding him - he can easily fend off anyone that Tries to attack, but right now he is subdued and right now he is a sheep until he becomes a wolf) and he just thinks ! Eventually, nendou leads them to a place to watch the fireworks and is SO genuine with saiki that saiki cant help hut realize just who is leading him, who he trusts the most with his subconcious and honesltly probably dissociating body is Nendou, and he says to Us (or namely to himself but yk) that the person that will Always be there for him, esper or not, real or a dream, is Nendou.

FUCK. i FUCKING LOVE THEM . Especially considering that he had teleported to a parallel universe where Nendou didnt go to PK academy, it brings so much emotion to me knowing saiki truly believes thst he and nendou are like . A destined thing . This could be taken romantically or platonically . i dont think it matters that much, although its probably meant to be taken platonically. its so much more meaningful thst Nendou has changed the course of action in his life because he was just being Himself to Saiki, because no matter what in Every universe (namely the only two parallel universes that he has been to) Nendou has attatched himself to Saikis side and isnt really meant to let go . The only reason why this parallel universe is like the worst ever is Because the Saiki Kusuo in this universe gets Rid of nendou, and then all goes downhill. Our saiki originally thought it was a good idea(in the way that he actually was concerned on where nendou was the ENTIRE time he was in class) before he realized just how shit it is without the power of Friendship . AHHHH I LOVE THEM SO MUCH !!! This is what caused me to keep thinking of saiki and nendou, intimately familiar with each other and stuck with each other until the end of days, because saikis omnipresence is all for naught without nendous stupidity . In the last chapter, Saiki even says that a life Without nendo is one he doesnt prefer to be in . Saiki is on the Right track, the Most correct pathway ever , from saving the dog in chapter 1 and indulging in his friends antics in every media ever, he is Correct .

The moral of the story is now my head is exploding st the seams with need for more nendou and saiki twinning . I need more saiki listening to his friends, seemingly uncaring but then reciting their stories or giving them gifts based on what they ramble on unknowingly to him . I Need more nendou not really getting social cues, but understanding his Pals uncomfort in certain situations . I need them to be Best Friends . Twinning . Sillies !! I miss them so much and i just i just �� im really losing it i love saiki and his friends interacting , he Knows that he Cares and protects Them, but he is like almost Clueless that they love him back and he most definitely doesnt realize or believe he doesnt need Their protection (AND THEN NENDOU COMES ALONG AND JUST . OBLITERATES HIS WORLD VIEW(LAST CHAPTER IN MANGA))

New challenge !!! Take a shot everytime saiki says "my name is saiki kusuo, and i am an esper(psychic)/i have psychic powers(esp)" <3

#saiki k #kusuo saiki #the disastrous life of saiki k.#saiki and his friends #saiki no psi nan #saiki #nendou riki #nendou saiki k #shun kaidou #rambles #friendship #i actually went insane writing most of this LMAOO #this is not the first long rant ive done about a special interest of mine and it wont be the last #i love saiki and his friends #they need to hug more #dont read all of it if you dont want to my bad it gets more incoherent as you go along

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ackee · 10 months

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whats an rss feed? ive tried looking it up but the way its described confuses me ;w;

an rss feed is kinda like an update feed. i have an rss feed for my website, so whenever i do a major update to my website, i manually update my rss feed and say something like

"march 26th, 2023

- added a new page to my about

- redid layout

- etc etc"

an rss feed Reader is how you would get notified that i updated! you would add my website to your feed reader (basically, following my updates), and now you'd be able to keep up with me!

with my feed reader, i have folders (groups of different feeds). one for webcomics specifically, so i get updated when my fav comics publish a new page. i have another folder for twitter mutuals, so i dont have to check twitter Myself to see their art. a feed reader is pretty much a newspaper lol, allows you to be updated but not have to stay addicted to checking socialed medias 👍🏾 im sure you can even add tumblr blogs to feed readers but i havent yet!

#askee

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rosabienfuerte · 1 year

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I have a question, I've recently realized that posting my art on social media has led to me sort of obsessing with how that art is received and leading to my emotions about that art, and the art I make in the future, to be affected. How do you manage the problems that posting your art on social media can bring to your mindset/creation process while still posting your art on social media? You've spoken a lot about this,but still regularly post your art on here, how do you feel about this at the moment etc? Because I do quite like sharing my creations with the world, I just wish I didn't immediately get weird about it

Hello... Oh wow.. honestly i struggle with it like every day and have not found a solution to this.. unfortunately whenever i post i am mostly doing it compulsively / out of addiction for the feedback / out of fear of becoming irrelevant (+ also i need to open comms officially soon so i need people to like.. know that i draw) but even aside from the financial stuff its just like ..insane.

in my opinion.. what is probably hardest about this, aside from the fact that so many people need to be on social media and turn themselves into products in order to make a living , is that we rely on it so much for things that are genuinely and infinitely valuable (art , sharing what we make with other humans ,connecting) and because of the way the internet has become we are supporting these crucial aspects of our lives in the least ideal ways possible..

im not sure.i struggle with this every day really i recommend checking out this person's words on the topic of artists and socialmedia

my main focus ideally is to try to be outside even if its hard and work out and be in nature then i regain clarity little by little. right now my brain feels like its fried ive been on my phone all day. so.. im not sure. Definetly look into people's personal websites outside of social media like the one i just linked. but.well. I havent mademy own yet ive been putting off learning html ............... But yes personal websites seem like an infinitely healthier way of sharing artwork /generally expressing ourselves online far away from all this mess &addiction. Its always crazy to me when i visit any social media after going through neocities pages i like because we dont realize how artistically limiting this set structure is at all.. "content"= goes within the container

#asks #god sorry my reply is basically. i dont know #i actually have installed instagram just now to post stuff.:(#and because theres so much stuff i cant keep up with without instagram #irl friends and such #how insane is that #anhways #i wish you the best with this we got this we are all stronger together

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stormdog420 · 2 months

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about time i made a pinned post i think.

my names alexander ppl also call me stormy, im 21, transmasc, queer, poly, i use he/it pronouns.

im an emo metalhead stoner puppyboy. my favorite band is bring me the horizon.

ive been on tumblr since i was 12 and i will not be leaving any time soon lol. im not on any other social media.

my art side blog is @dreaming-of-decay i mostly post junk journal/collage stuff with darker themes referencing mental illness.

i also have a nsfw side blog, dm me if you want the @ but be warned i do post some extreme kink content there. i try to keep my main fairly sfw (unless its funny) but there will still be adult content here.

i have a neocities site, havent done much with it yet but it exists.

i have a discord server for all my friends feel free to join!

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singaporesainz · 4 months

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Bustamante doesn't get all of the attention because of social media, she gets it because due to her age and skill relative to that age. She's one of the actual genuine prospects for the future of women in F1. Marta Garcia is an amazing driver, but she's 23 and hasn't yet progressed through the normal F3, F2 track for potential F1 prospects. Historically, anyone who's made it to F1 in the modern era after 25 doesn't tend to do well, and if Garcia manages to make it and then doesnt' do well, shitty people on the internet will point and go 'well see? women can't be good in F1'. Bianca is 18, she has sponsor appeal (which to be honest, as much as I hate to say it is partly because she's classically pretty) and actually has a chance of progressing through the lower formulas before she's too old to be considered for an F1 seat. The Bustamate hype train is all manufactured because the FiA (and now McLaren) know this, and desperately want to get a women into F1 to shut up all the questions without realising that those who are criticising the lack of female (or, black, or queer, or any other diversity) representation in motorsport aren't doing it because they want someone to check a box, but because they want the grassroots level to do better.

thank you for the info/lore. i feel like i should be more informed on her considering she is a filipina racer, but alas i am not.

this might be a hot hot hot take but i dont really see bianca getting into f1. ofc this is a very wildly probably incorrect take because as i've said i've never watched f1 academy, but also i've never seen her drive/race in general. i honestly never found it interesting to watch her or any woman in general and thats not really anything on female racers, its more of a me thing. like i just havent taken the time to watch and keep up. its my character flaw. i still root for women but im just not... actively keeping up if that makes sense. and i'm only basing this take on my gut feeling, and my gut has been often right and also often wrong so. yea. i don't know, i do not care for bianca in the slightest, and this is more than recent events. she's just not my cup of tea. but hey if she does manage to build her way up to f1, thats great! and if not, oh well.

i do hope that the woman who finally makes it up to f1 is someone no one can outright doubt. i hope that their skill is at the forefront of everything they do and not overshadowed by the fact that she is a woman in motorsport. so yea

#hot take hotline #bianca bustamante

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bastardbvby · 2 years

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amaya give me aftg fanfic recs (if you have any) cause even tho i was obsessed with the books i never read any and i feel like i missed out on great stuff

oh my god absolutely. um. putting this under the cut because i've realized that this has gotten super long but....hope this helps adfhdh

lessons in cartography (121k) is a definite must – it's a continuation of the series from where the books left off and honestly. anything by this author is a work of art ive reread this so many times

this roommate bullshit (13.8k) grad school au where kevin sees andrew (short, angry) carrying knives in the library and is like wow u should meet my roommate neil (also short and angry and wielding knives) also highly recommend anything by this author theyre amazing <3

they used to shout my name (now they whisper it) (46.9k) witch/coven au where neil is on the run and winds up meeting the foxes and joining their coven,, descriptions of magic in this one are unreal i love it sm

an assassin's guide to romance (12k) slight medieval au where neil is an assassin sent to spy on kevin and andrew is kevin's bodyguard. also there's a dog. so cute recently reread :')

the first breath (180k) omg it's like a sandman universe au this is genuinely one of my fav things EVER. and yes i highly recommend this author adfhfh also super recommend armies (342k) by them

and we'll be running (62k) necessary band au that every fandom needs,, havent reread in a bit but i remember loving how well the songs were written into this

red rabbits (292k) and red rabbits: season 2 (282k) this series gensrs changed my life like. i have yet to encounter anything quite as unique as this format and style. each fic is set up as a podcast but. idk how to explain it like it's not your normal kind of podcast/social media fic please just check it out if u read anything on this list.

be neither fish nor fowl (26k) and across the turtle's back (53k) mermaid/pirate au. so well written and the sequel is definitely like . top 10 fics

i realize that a lot of these are like Super Long fics mostly because those are the ones i tend to read the most but if u want shorter stuff lmk :] hope this is helpful

#btw so many of these are aus like literally anyone can read them and i HIGHLY recommend u do like every fic on this list is a BANGER #asks #thank u anon <3 #fic rec

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cmdonovann · 1 year

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okay so, ive been reblogging a lot of stuff from @fujowebdev this past month. in case i havent mentioned yet, yes, its because i am working on this project! (ive done some character design stuff for a few characters that havent been released yet, as well as some little illustrations for the kickstarter campaign, which you should check out here if you havent yet!)

(here's some of the art i did for the kickstarter, as seen here, and you can find a little more about what ive been doing for the project in this post.)

but you may be wondering why i am working on this project in the first place. well, good question! its basically a long series of random events that starts several years ago, so i wont bore you with that much detail, but the long and short of it is that i ended up joining a discord server called fandom coders for fandom folks who like coding and/or want to learn coding. (you can find them here, at their website, which i have also made some small contributions to!)

the fancoders are basically the coolest group of people ever; they've all been super nice, encouraging, and helpful! tbh, ive been feeling disillusioned by social media as a way of sharing my art for some time now, especially with the increase in sites that disallow/ban nsfw art in recent years, and the fandom coders discord (and especially ms boba, head of the kickstarter project and bobaboard) was more than happy to help me expand my skills so i could work on improving my own website. and the skill they helped me with that has been most vital... turned out to be learning how to use git and github!

so that brings us to the kickstarter. the main reason i've put off learning more about web development for many years was honestly just intimidation. i find a lot of resources that are supposedly aimed at people wanting to create websites are... really not all that friendly to amateurs or newbies! and for a long time, i had no one (and nowhere) to ask for help about this without being shamed for my lack of skill.

this is why i think a resource like the guide we are kickstarting is such a big deal, and why i was pretty much instantly down to volunteer my time towards making it a reality. i know there are TONS of other fandom folks out there who would love to make their own websites to showcase their love for their fandom, but not nearly enough resources that teach website-making skills in a way that is approachable and FUN.

(and fun is exactly what we are trying to make this! hence the hot anime boys.)

anyway, that's my pitch! if you haven't already, go check out our kickstarter! we're already fully funded, but we have a couple of stretch goals that i think are really cool, so any extra funding helps us get to those! the first volume of the book/zine we're making covers git and github, so that you can learn version control and make your websites without the fear of breaking your site while editing and not having any way to recover the old unbroken version (TTwTT)b we've all been there...

#wOW that got longer than i intended. my b #fujowebdev #fujoguide #very hype to eventually reveal the characters i designed lol #that will probably be a couple volumes down the line tho haha

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pumpkinwastaken · 8 months

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So thanks to @gatethecat i'm also on bluesky now! If you havent been able to check it out yet. Think twitter with less features. Also tweets are called posts. But Winds would make more sense to fit in the sky aestethic. Anyway lemme link myself "https://bsky.app/profile/pumpkinfren.bsky.social" I will try to become active there, get back into social media and post things and rambles and whatnot. If i ever make drawings and paintings this blog will stay as my gallery till i ever buy a domain and just host it on my own website. But i am faaaaarr too lazy to build a website atm so thats a ways off. (not to mention greedy to pay for webhosting)

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x3kristax3 · 2 years

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After Duskwood - Chapter 24

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⚠️ TW: talk of weapons, death, dark Jake, and abuse.

I wake up back in the hotel room laying on the bed. I don't see Jake so I sit up, looking around.

"Hey" he says walking in the room with a bottle of water.

That look from before is gone and I pull myself up "Jake what happened?" I say with a frown and a pounding headache

"I got you safely away from him" he says sitting on the edge of the bed, handing me the water.

"I remember you came and saved me. I remember you picking the lock and your arms being around me and handing me a gun and knife" I say.

"MC, I found you passed out in the hallway not locked up" he says.

"What?" I say scared of what actually happened.

"You did have a gun and knife but they werent mine. I have no idea who gave them to you" he says, pulling me close.

"Jake I’m scared,” I look into his eyes. “I dont want to live here" I say in tears.

"Okay we won't" he says kissing my forehead. "Can we just see Hannah and Lilly?"

"Of course maybe we can spend a few more days in Duskwood but I definitely dont want to stay here anymore after everything" I say with tears rolling down my face.

"I'm so sorry I had no idea he was gonna do that. Also do you mind if I check you for anything he might have done to you?" he asks.

"You havent yet?" I say looking into his eyes and he seems concerned .

"No, I wanted to wait for you to wake up," he says, kissing me gently.

I get undressed and he see some marks that werent there "fuck" says Jake.

"What?" I ask.

"What kind of room did he have you in."

"When I came to it I was locked in a room with just a bed and a toliet. Why?" I say to scared to look.

He pulls me on his lap "I think he raped you" he says and I just fall into tears right on his lap.

"Can you join me in the shower?" I say.

"Absolutely" he says as he carries me in. Setting me down and turning the water on letting it warm up as he undresses and takes my hand as he pulls me in with him.

I lean against him as he washes me down gently. He reaches a spot on my back and I flinch in pain "shit what did he do back there?" I ask scared.

"He definitely left bruises and marks on you and that's a bad one" he says as he stops what he's doing and pulls me against him.

We finish up and I get out looking in the mirror and I see the new marks and I fall to the ground with just a towel around me. Jake grabs me and puts me on the counter pulling me close. "What did he do for you?" I say with tears running down my face.

"He helped keep the FBI off my back while I was on the run. If I knew he was gonna do this once I got free I wouldn't have ran" says Jake, looking away from me because he knows he’s the reason for my pain.

"Did you because of me and hannah?" I ask looking into his eyes as I move the match his eyes and I see how sorry he is.

"I did it because of you. I didn't want you going into that mine or anywhere near Duskwood. Then when I saw you that first day even though you had barely slept and had traveled for so long and you thought you looked like shit. You absolutely took my breath away and I knew at that moment I had to become free from everyone's grasp" he says.

I wrap my arms around his neck and I see the marks on my arms as I pull away and push him away. He doesn't fight me even though that's the first time I've pushed him away like this. I get up and throw on an oversize shirt as I go and lay back in bed. I'm laying there scrolling my phone and Jake is on his computer. I'm watching some videos on social media when a text comes through.

Jake: I'm sorry for putting you through that. I never meant for this to happen.

MC: I know you didnt. I’ve been through hell but this is different and as he took me away I could tell you wanted to kill him.

Jake: I did. I would have burned that place to the ground to save you.

MC: Come here please.

Jake: I have to check all our devices. He knew our location and everything.

I walk up to Jake "can i sit on your lap then?" I ask looking down at him.

He pushes the chair back and I sit down and lean back against him. He starts going through all his devices and I put my phone next to his so he can check it.

I must've fallen asleep because I wake up he's still sitting at the desk but instead of working he's watching videos.

“How long was I out" I say.

"Not long but I don't know what he gave you so I wanted to let you sleep" he says kissing my head.

"Did you lose his tracker?" I ask.

"Yeah he even had your phone hacked. Not sure when he did that" he says.

I shiver "man he makes me feel so violated."

Jake reaches for his hoodie and hands it to me. "Here put this on," he says.

I pull it on and it smells just like him between his hoodie and his arms around me. I just melt in his arms.

"There's my babygirl" he whispers in my ear. I close my eyes and smile as he holds me tight but gentle not to hurt me..

I finally get up and move to the bed and I look at him and he knows what I need "before let's get you some food" he says. He opens the fridge and grabs some of the Chinese thats in there and puts a little bit of everything on a plates for us with two forks.

"Seriously, how did I get so lucky with you?" I ask as I lean into him.

"I'm the one who got lucky. What Nate said is right. You deserve someone who could take you out from the moment you fell for them" he says.

I look up at him "I've had that and you see what that ended up. I fell for you Jake, no one else and you treat me like a princess" I say.

"But you hate when people call you that," he says.

"You can call me that but only you" I say reach for the ring and feeling it.

"No you're my queen" he says with a smile as he grabs a forkful of fried rice and puts it up to my mouth.I take the fork as I blush with him calling me that. He sees me blushing and kisses my cheek "your way too cute."

"Only you do that" I say.

"Also I'm still surprised you spit in his face when he slapped you. That made me proud" he says.

"I would have used the knife but when he pinned me against the wall I dropped it."

He laughs "I know I saw it drop I dont think he realized it though."

"Can we get out of here?" I ask.

"Where do you wanna go?" He asks.

"Anywhere everytime I look around this room right now I'm just reminded of what happened. I didn't want to come out from hiding cause I knew he was trapping you to make you call me but I could hear the hurt in your voice. I just wanted to protect you" I say as I look down at my lap.

"Wanna do that tattoo?" He says with a smirk.

"Not with trix. When we get back to my home I know who to go too" I say pouting a bit.

"Okay" he says as he leans in and kisses me as I pout. I get up and throw on jeans leaving his hoodie on. I pull up the hood and it covers almost my entire face

"You should really get your own hoodie," he says with a laugh.

"I have my own but yours are way more cozy" I say. "Plus if I get fiesty i can make it a dress."

"You do that in public and remember what happens" he says pulling me on his lap on the bed.

I lean in and kiss him deep. He pulls away and moves the plates as I'm still on his lap grinding. As his hands run against my skin under his hoodie and my shirt I feel some of the bruises left by whatever Nate did and I stop and climb off his lap. I pull off his hoodie and my shirt standing in front of the mirror looking at them all.

He comes up to me "I wish I knew he did that to you" he says touching a spot that doesn't have anything.

"Please tell me he's not coming after us again" I say looking at him and I in the mirror.

"What do you remember?"

"I remember you and me finding him at the exit. Him saying something i pulled my gun and shot but then i heard another one then i woke up here" I say.

"Your shot did hit him but I shot him again to make sure."

I spin around and lean against him. Realizing I’ve never felt safe in someone's arms even as my body is hurting. I look over my shoulder to see my back and Jake grabs my face "please let me see'' I say looking up at him.

"It's gonna break you if you do," he says.

I walk away from him and sit on the bed. "Jake when Nate mentioned the police reports I looked away not because it hit me but because that means he saw my past. I’ve filed alot of police reports for abuse. I’ve seen all the marks on my body from photos and looking in the mirror at them day in and day out until they heal'' I say .

He walks up to me and kneels down in front of me "I know you're a strong woman who can handle yourself including seeing your body bruised. However, youve dealt with those without me in your life. I'm here now and I plan to keep you safe even mentally. I wish he didn't find us but he did and when I look at you and see those marks it breaks me because I didn't keep you safe" he says and I see tears forming in his eyes.

"Your right about me Jake and I know before me coming into your life you had made a lot of mistakes and letting him keep you safe was one of them but know this. No matter our pasts before eachother we keep eachother safe. I know you promised my parents but I promised myself I would do the same for you`` I say leaning my head against his.

There's a knock on the door and Jake goes to answer it as I grab my shirt. "What do you want, Trix?" he says.

I spin around and i hit my back on the wall and fall in pain from the bruises "fuck" I yell.

Jake turns around and asks me "what happened?"

"I hit my back on the wall."

"Nymos dont tell me you hit her, '' she says.

"No dumbfuck Nate got his hands on her," he says.

"Let me look at what he did" she says.Im in so much pain I can barely move but as she comes in and closes the door I flinch at her. "Please let me check you out" she says and I can tell she actually wants to.

"Trix it's pretty bad. He came in here and threatened me and took her and locked her up for a couple hours. He also drugged her so she doesn't remember much of anything that happened'' Jake says.

I move away from the wall and she lifts my shirt up in the back "why the hell haven't you taken her to the hospital" she says.

"What are they gonna do? Ice it and give her pain meds" he raises his voices.

"How bad are they? I haven't seen those,`` I say.

"Not bad" says Jake.

"Not bad my ass. She needs to make sure he didnt break something and she's not bleeding interally" says Trix.

"why didnt you tell me" I say looking at Jake.

"Cause it wasnt bad,'' he says.

She positions two mirrors so I can see my back for the first time and I grab the waste bin and throw up "coming from someone who's dealt with a lot of abuse that is bad. I need to go get checked" I say looking at Jake. "Especially because we don't know what drugs he gave me" I say without looking in the mirror.

"Okay I'll take you, '' he says. He goes to grab me and i try and move and I'm in pain.

"Nymos habd me your keys i came on the bike. I'll drive you guys so you can stay in the backseat with her" she says.

"Jake, I'm scared" I say looking into his eyes.

"I know, I'm sorry I didn't think it would get this bad" he says as he hands her his keys and he helps me get up and he picks me up. I wrap my arm around his neck and lean into him.

"You haven't given her anything right?" Trix asks.

"No cause I didn't know what he gave her. All she's done is sleep, eat, and taken a shower" he says before we walk out of the room.

"Okay i just wanted to make sure. We both know how Nate is" she says.

We get to the hospital and waited in the waiting room. The only way I’m not in pain is in Jake's arm so he has me sit on his lap.

"I gotta admit I’ve never seen you like this before with a girl," says Trix.

"You don't have to stay" he says.

"No because while I might have called her a princess. She doesnt deserve whatever he did to her and I wanna know to make him pay" she says.

"I already did," says Jake.

"What did you do?" I ask.

"Don't worry about it just now if i knew this it would of been worse" he says and I look in his eyes and Isee a darkness.

"No we're not going down that path" I say as they call me back. Jake gets up with me in his arms and carries me. They grab a wheelchair and he tries to put me down but i cry out in pain.

"I'll carry her back just show me where her bed is," he says.

"We need to see her move herself," says the nurse.

"Let me walk Jake" I say and he puts me down but holds his arm around my waist for safety.

Him and I walk with the nurse into a room with a bed and I sit on the bed and Jake in the chair. We tell the nurse what happens. He calls the doctor in and he comes in and closes the door. I pull my shirt up and the doctor touches it. I'm flinching in pain with every touch. Jake moves closer to me and holds my hand .

"Sir, do you mind giving us a moment" says the doctors .

"Please, anything can be said in front of him" I say.

"I just have some questions for you about what exactly happened," says the doctor .

"I'll answer the best I can but I don't remember much. I already told the nurse what I remember" I say.

"I just need to verify to make sure this isn't domestic abuse" he says.

I tell him the same thing I told the nurse with Jake right there.

"I promised, doctor I wouldn't do this to her. When I got her out I didn't realize how bad it was until now when I brought her in" says Jake.

"I just have to make sure because we see this often" says the doctor looking at bruising and marks. "I do need to run some tests to make sure there isn't anything broken or any internal bleeding" he says.

I look in Jake's eyes with such fear of what's going to happen as I squeeze his hand. "Can i stay with her?" He asks.

"For most, yes but there will be some things you won't be able too but you can stay here" says the doctor .

It's been a few hours and they don't find any internal bleeding or anything broken. The do find out what drug was given and its a date rape drug. They give me some pain meds and something to help the bruising.

Jake and I walk out him holding my waist and we see Trix in the waiting room. "You didn't have to wait," I say to her.

"Yes I did" she says holding Jake's car key.

"Thank you Trix." I say looking down.

"Look I know I called you a princess but your a tough girl to handle whatever he did to you to get those bruises" she says.

"No because i dont even remember it" I say as I feel weak.

"Want me to carry you?" Asks Jake.

"Please im so sore the meds haven't kicked in the bruising hurts so bad after everything they did" I say leaning into him.

He hands trix a bottle of water i had him get me and picks me up carrying me outside to the car. He puts me in the front seat so I'm a little more comfy and Trix climbs in the back seat after handing him his keys back. "Nymos?" she says.

"Yeah" he says looking back at her.

"Don't walk away from this one. Also what do I have to do to nate?" She asks.

"I won't. And don't worry he's taken care of" he says.

I pass out in the car not paying attention to the conversation they are having.

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