#i just wish i could hug my friends

[soyochii]

Quick doodles before I evaporate.

#jjk #geto suguru #satosugu #gojo satoru #Don't look to close these are so rough #“Girl dinner” I say to myself looking at the 500th tiktok edit of sato/sugu actually dry heaving wanting to crumble into dust #jjk is the worst thing ive done for my mental health in a while #anyway I still love them and wish they could have been happy together for a little longer #Didn't get a chance to hug your best friend and tell him how much he means to you in highschool #no biggie just do it in the afterlife #Jkjkjkjjkjkjk Everything is fine #my art #jujutsu kaisen

[peachyutdr]

i finished it, was kicked out of the game, and then spent the next 10 minutes drawing this. i will now go take a shower, most likely cry, and then go through the emotional turmoil of convincing myself to reset so i can do a geno run. i hate it here :D

#undertale yellow #uty #my art #<- ifg #spoilers under these tags beware. although it is mostly just me being very very sad #that entire thing was heart wrenching. anyways #CEROBAS FIGHT??? HELLO??? #i had to exit out of it the first time (i got to the last phase) to get better items but i came back and won pretty quickly #but THE CUTSCENES?!?!? #JFC NO WONDER THIS WOMANS SO MESSED UP. HER HUSBAND PRACTICALLY DIED IN HER ARMS AND THE LAST THING HE LEFT HER WITH- HIS DYING WISH- COULD #ONLY BE FULFILLED BY PUTTING THEIR ONLY CHILD IN DEATHS WAY. AND THEN WHEN SHE TOOK THAT RISK THE WORST THING HAPPENED AND SHE NOW HAS TO #LIVE WITH THE GUILT OF BEING THE ONE TO. MOST LIKELY. KILL HER ONE AND ONLY DAUGHTER #ALL THE WHILE SHE WAS PUSHING AWAY HER CHILDHOOD BEST FRIEND AND CONVINCING HERSELF THAT SHE WAS IN THE RIGHT TO SACRIFICE CLOVER WHO HAD #BEEN ONLY KIND MERCIFUL AND JUST THIS WHOLE TIME. EVEN TO THOSE WHO WERE TRYING TO KILL THEM. FUCK. #AAND WHEN CLOVER HUGGED HER I DOUBLED OVER IRL BC *THATS EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED TO DO IN THAT MOMENT* I HATE IT (read: love it) HERE #n dont even get me STARTED on after that. when clover started moving on their own and the gd white screen came up and we got flashbacks of #everyone's words. thats when the tears rlly started coming bc it clicked for me. 'oh. this is it. isn't it?' and IT WAS #WHEN THEY GAVE THEIR FUCKIGN HAT AND GUN AWAY TO MARTLET AND STARLO WELL THATS WHEN I REALLY STARTED CRYING #AAND THE GROUP HUGG #I WAS SOBBING WHENEVER I HAD TO WATCH THEM CRAWL UP AGAINST THE WALL AND DIE AND HAVE FLOWEYS WORDS PLAY OVERHEAD #AND THE FUCKOGN #THE F U C K I N G #AFTEWRCREDITS SCENE WHERE WE GOT THE 'You heard someone calling for help. You answered.' I GOT CHILLS SO BAD #to think that all the other souls have stories just as expansive and emotional as clover n frisks. how fucked up is that. in a good way tho #and finally the last scene where we got all 4 of our main friends sending us off in waterfall and we see clovers items end up in the dump #just waiting to be found by bratty and catty. fucken hell man this was a masterpiece #anyways time to reset and obliterate everyone and never emotionally recover from that ever!! really is feeling like 2016-17 again w the way #this game has me sobbing my eyes out and feeling the guilt of knowing that i dont HAVE to kill them all but im too curious not to #oh well. at least i have the balls to do it this time around instead of letting a youtuber do it for me ig

[elitadream]

For this Thanksgiving, I wanted to say how grateful I am for this community and all the lovely friends I have in it. Ever since I've reappeared on Tumblr a little over a year ago, everyone has been nothing but kind and supportive to me, and I can't thank you guys enough for the interest and enthusiasm you show towards my art and ideas. 🥹💐

Sometimes I regret that I can't be as active as I'd want to be, or that I can't comment on all of my friends' awesome work. There are posts that I will inevitably miss, and people that I won't have the chance to properly interact with... But just so you guys know, I'm always awed by the wonderful, inspiring, fantastic and beautiful stuff you put out there, and all these mentions, discussions and exchanges are the reason I make fanart. 🙏🎨

Thank you for being there and for being such lovely peeps. I love you all. ☺️💞✨️

#From yours truly #No joke I've been in a constant state of motivated bliss ever since I've joined this community #I just wanted to let you all know how thankful to be here #There hasn't been a single day I haven't felt welcome and appreciated 🙇‍♀️💞 #So thank you once again. 🙏💫 #I wish I could give all of my friends and mutuals a hug 🫂 #Wishing you a great day and lots of happy vibes 💗🌅 #elita #thoughts and ramblings

[plasma-packin-peep]

The fact that there is no option to hug astarion during the end of his personal quest is heartbreaking

#like. i think emotions were running too high to actually go hug him when hes kneeling next to cazador and crying like that #i think thats one of the situations where it SOUNDS like a hug would be nice but a hug would NOT actually be nice #or maybe thats just my autism speaking LOL. #but anyway. even if i cant hug him then i wish i could hug him afterward at camp #when hes being all reflective and earnest #that man needs a hug. let me hug my friend. im really proud of him #ending the cycle of violence deserves a hug. #astarion #astarion ancunin #bg3

[cakeywakeyfakey]

Your style is like, an IMMENSE source of comfort for me /pos /pos i love your art sm!! :D

Dawww!!! Aren’t you a dear?!

I am so very filled with joy to acknowledge the fact that I managed to give you comfort through my art!!! I hope my art will continue to comfort you in the near future love! <3

Other than that- you guys are giving me a toothache! I think I’ll have to tell my mother about this… she’s a dentist! Maybe she can help!

(I love and appreciate you so much in a platonic way!!!!! <3)

MWAH MWAH

♥️♥️♥️

#YOU GUYS ARE SO SWEETTT!!!!! #I love you all!!! <3 #I am trying so hard to be sane #because right now I am shaking in happiness #like literally! #I WISH I COULD HUG YOU ALLLLLL #If you’re okay with hugs of course!!! #AGAIN AGAIN #I LOVE YOU ALL SO MCUH #I know I can’t stop saying that but that’s just how I show my affection <3 #I’m sorry loves <3 #my cheeks hurt so much!!!! #friendly friends ask <3

[muzzlemouths]

Muzz!!! Hello I hope you're doing well waa!

I hope you're sleeping also!! squints my eyes at you (affectionate)

KIBS!!!! HELLO KIBBS HI. I'm doing alright thank you for asking!! I hope YOU are doing FANTASTIC!!!!!! don't look at my sleep schedule though. it's fine I promise it's FINE but don't. look at it ok

#hi Kibs not to sound dramatic or anything but um. this ask made me sniffle. a little #i WISH i was joking but that's how things are rn #i have been feeling a little Not Great about my lack of presence over here on this webbed site #because I miss you I miss my friends #and I don't participate in the many many discord group chats i'm in because I am shy and bad at initiating conversation #and i don't participate in magmas because i'm too self conscious for magmas #but that just leaves me in a corner ALONE like a LOSER while everyone else is partying. like that one meme #which is something i could totally fix myself in under a day if i just got myself out there but that has yet to happen #ALL OF THIS TO SAY #I was touched by you reaching out and I'm going to be hugging this ask to my chest for the next few hours. days even #THANK YOU ILU I LOVE MY FRIENDS. I HOPE YOUR DAY/NIGHT IS WONDERFUL AND YOU GET LOTS OF SLEEP

[cliffburtonappreciation]

The things seeing pictures of this man smiling does to my heart.

#cliff burton #clifford lee burton #thrash metal #metallica #just look at him #i love him 🥺 #look at him #bass god #i wish i could go back in time and tell this man i love him #or just hug him #why do all my friends think hes ugly :( #am i ranting through tags? #yep #just found out u can change the font💀

[fluttersheep]

i wish i’d been properly socialized as a puppy so i wouldn’t be so nauseous before parties

#flutterspeak #i still just wish i could not go without upsetting my friend #i’m going to try sooo hard to be fun and happy but it’s going to be so draining #but one hug and i might cry so :|

[d0d0-b0i]

it’s weird how much lighter my life feels now. not that i don’t have any issues (because there are many in my life, as i am sure there are in yours), but they’re just so much more manageable than they were a year ago.

​what’s more; i love myself now. i may not be perfect. but i am trying my best, and i can tell that i am! i see myself in the mirror, and sometimes i just examine myself, and my features, and i smile. i feel so much more authentic when talking to people, not worrying about how they view me, because i don’t have to anymore. i wish i could’ve told 15-year old me just how good it’s gotten so far, i know that he would’ve loved hearing about the shitty sideburns we’re growing out right now :’)

#it gets better :) #i used to think that transitioning medically wouldn’t lessen the sadness and depression i felt #and to some degree it is still there since t isn’t a cure all #but by the gods it is so much fucking easier to deal with everything #when a major reason for my mental health being the way it was has been abated #it’s like the fog cleared enough for me to actually see the road i’m driving on #instead of assuming blindly that i won’t crash #once i get top surgery. #idk. i wonder if things will be even easier? #i’m almost a year in and already my life feels so much brighter. yeah there’s problems with keeping the house. and yeah #i don’t have an income yet and i don’t know if the internship will even be in the cards for me #but. i just feel that everything will work out. enough for me to enjoy the time i have here :) #sorry i am being sappy but god! i love and i love! so much now!! i feel so much and i enjoy nearly every day despite the Issues #the world is getting worse but still i find reasons to love and live #so maybe one day it will get better? maybe one day my love will have helped even #if you’re reading. i love you. even if you’re just a follower #even if we’re mutuals that haven’t talked before #i think about you often. i wonder where my oldest mutual went after they stopped posting years ago #i don’t think i can forget. and i love you. and i wish i. could give you a hug. we all need one from time to time #i love the friends i’ve made and the friends i’ve had. i love. and this past year has opened up my floodgates of emotion

[hazmatazz]

realizing how much physical affection means to me literally. like i always get that as my #1 love language for every fun test i do but oh my god they're right. i don't get enough physical affection or i don't get people saying they're giving me physical affection when they can't and suddenly i'm staying up that everyone hates me

#logically i understand my best friend loves me but oh my god. we haven't hugged in a week. what if he never cares to see me again #or like . i understand my guy probably likes me but haven't been told i'm getting affection in a while . my affection has been rejected. . #so . ugh. just need a fucking hug dude #i wanna ask my friend for niceys rn but it's 3 am so she's probably asleep and also . :( what if he doesn't like me #(<- guy who's been friends with it for years) #like . i wish i could tell someone like “hey give them reassurance rn” without.... asking for that #like i'd post “need someone to be niceys to me rn” because that's usually the most i can do to communicate that but he rarely is on tumblr #and what? do i send this post to my friend? no wtf #this happens with like. everyone close to me btw. i just care a lot about my best friend #so just. ugh. gonna try and sleep now. i'm getting a hug from him tomorrow #i really hope he plans something with me...i think that's all i need reassurance wise #i don't plan shit with people because what if they don't wanna be around me? but when ppl plan shit with me? YEAH . <3 #godddddd #🤞 please invite me to something soon i miss you and i feel like you hate me for no reason but that i'm sad always

[sparklymanacakes]

My best friend is hearing impaired and wears hearing aids. She didn't know about Sansok Khan so when we got here she was surprised to read that she was deaf. She watched her sign and read all of Okir's text about his being an interpreter and also about how Basran was working and shouldn't be pet. The one line Okir says about making sure we looked at Sansok Khan while he was signing was so very, very meaningful and it was such a simple thing really! But we took a break here so my bestie could feel her feelings and (happy)cry it out for awhile. I ended up crying with her too, lol! It struck me when she pointed out, "And she's a leader!" T^T <3333333 Lol. It just means so much.

#dragonflight spoilers #dragonflight #world of warcraft #// sharing with the group // #in this moment of my friend's joy i so badly wished i could just collectively hug the warcraft team

[alchemiclee]

jing yuan seems so sad and distant and lonely, especially watching his closest friends fall apart again and again....he's in so much anguish. it makes me wonder how he's still holding it together. how is he not completely broken yet like all his old friends...he must be really strong.

#sometimes I feel like the mara is knocking on his door and i'm so scared for him 😭 #i wish to see him be able to move on and open up to others. form new bonds and not bury himself in work and keep a distance #that could save him at least for a while. but i mean its hoyo. they cant be trusted with any of these characters LMAO #i just have big soft jing yuan feelings. hes a sad wet can of an old man and i had a dream i held him gently #very awkwardly though since hes LARGE and im kinda smol lmao #i also wosh for blade to be held gently 😭 #and dan heng needs a big tight hug by his express friends. i will send march and stelle to his room to snuggle him #its been so long since i had BIG FEELINGS for fictional characters idk what to do about it lmao #between these star rail boys and in genshin the fontaine siblings......S I G H S #oops im procrastinating my art again....

[peculiar--princess]

Thinking of all the kind souls I met while in treatment&residential… I could cry 😭

#my first day admitted was v day and a councilor made me a Valentine’s Day card and so did a patient so that I would feel welcomed & loved #every friday we would give each other notes to say we were proud of them after a hard week or w/e they needed to hear #One time I was very overstimulated during mindful movement class from the music and a patient just sat with me and didn’t say much just #so I knew I wasn’t alone #or how my friend to this day would give me a hug whenever I was crying and I’d feel safe and protected #&&& also how everyone snuck out at night to cause a lil trouble like flipping the therapists name tags & some patients even made a bingo #game for stealing stuff ( I never did but it was funny for people to steal something like a spoon for no reason ) #so many good memories and I wish I could reunite with all of those kind souls and hug them and remind them that I’ll always love them #😭😭 #personal

[the-yearning-astronaut]

Oh hello 3am existential crisis. Haven't seen you around in a while...can't say I missed you.

#i don't understand how i can feel so alone and so isolated while also having a number of good friends #all of whom im a little in love with in different ways #how can you love so many people so much and still feel lonely? #is it because of all my friends only one is in brickspace and i rarely even get to see her? #i know my lack of physical contact is rather alarming (i get one or two hugs a month if I'm lucky.) #(and even casual non accidental touches are rare. i get maybe one of those a week.) #is that why i feel so alone and isolated? the lack of physical connection? #i wish i had a friend i could move in with. i wish loving people didn't hurt so much. #i wish i could believe the sentiment that all relationships are important and that platonic love isn't lesser than romantic just different #but ive yet to actually see that be true. i feel like ill never be someone's most important person. or even 6th most important. #im just so fucking tired #of everything. #is it me? am i off putting? do i do things unintentionally that keep people at a distance? what am i doing wrong? why can't I connect? #i KNOW im not broken for being autistic or ace or aro etc etc but fuck if I don't feel broken most of the time #fucking hell #definitely time for bed #i bet these feelings are being exacerbated by pmdd just like my fibro and my stomach and my sleep #doesn't make the feelings any less upsetting #fox thoughts #☉

[bonojour]

i moved back to the netherlands last friday and i still really feel like someone is holding my throat closed and something heavy is sitting on my chest & i keep tearing up at the smallest things. it is only a temporary state as i am planning to permanently move to denmark in 2024 but holy shit the way my body is responding to being outside of it is shocking to me

#it feels like the covid period when denmark locked its borders and i felt the same feeling (but less) because i was unable to come in #i hate to be so in love with a country #especially one that is used by right wingers in NL as an example of how to deal with the migration issue #but there is something that just. makes me so Happy #but it scares me #because i put all my hope for my future in the hands of a country who is dedicated to making it More Difficult for me to even come in #and there are some things coming up on my path that are going to determine how easy my path will be #like the C1 level language test and getting accepted for a masters degree #But yeah anyway the thought of having to spend more than a year in the netherlands is absolutely crushing me #i wish i could be excited for the sake of my friends #but when one of my friends who i had not seen this year hugged me #i just felt.... deflated and empty #and i still do #although i am now on the flixbus to copenhagen and about 30km away<3 #but eh i might be a bit emotionally unstable the next period #because you can add on top of that that i have also been unable to Relax on my own for almost two months #so i am highly strung and emotionally just a sad wet rat thrown back into the sewers #text #sorry this is incoherent #and there are worse things in the world

[scattered-winter]

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#the worst part about all this is that i Literally saw her 2 weeks ago. we didnt have time to talk we just said hi and went our separate ways #i never even got to say goodbye to her. #and i didnt even know i needed to because this was all so fucking sudden. she was my age. healthy. etc #life is really fucking fragile huh. like it can be gone just like that. #im sorry im just. #i was super close with her mom too and i want to idk. text her or something. but what the fuck can i even say?? #and my other friends in that friend group are all unavailable rn for one reason or another #like. no contact in another country kind of unavailable #so im just. do they even know. has anyone told them. or will they find out when they come back. #i still cant even wrap my head around it tbh. its just. she was alive this morning. she was alive. this morning. #hh. anyway. #i called my sister and cried to her a little bit which was nice. but fuck i really really wish i could hug her right now #or cuddle my dog. literally anything. #im going to be such a fucking mess tomorrow oh my god #i dont even want to go to sleep tonight because if i see her in my dreams im going to fucking lose it #i dont know. i dont fucking know. #winter speaks #personal #tw death #grief tag #<- i fucking guess. i might be venting more in the next few weeks so ill at least make it easy to blacklist