#i know it’s quite a pain

[cornsword]

#muppets #the muppets #why do we come to r’lyeh #i know it’s quite a pain #but when the bear does stand up #now THAT makes us insane

[novelconcepts]

I Saw the TV Glow is such a uniquely, devastatingly queer story. Two queer kids trapped in suburbia. Both of them sensing something isn’t quite right with their lives. Both of them knowing that wrongness could kill them. One of them getting out, trying on new names, new places, new ways of being. Trying to claw her way to fully understanding herself, trying to grasp the true reality of her existence. Succeeding. Going back to help the other, to try so desperately to rescue an old friend, to show the path forward. Being called crazy. Because, to someone who hasn’t gotten out, even trying seems crazy. Feels crazy. Looks, on the surface, like dying.

And to have that other queer kid be so terrified of the internal revolution that is accepting himself that he inadvertently stays buried. Stays in a situation that will suffocate him. Choke the life out of him. Choke the joy out of him. Have him so terrified of possibly being crazy that he, instead, lives with a repression so extreme, it quite literally is killing him. And still, still, he apologizes for it. Apologizes over and over and over, to people who don’t see him. Who never have. Who never will. Because it’s better than being crazy. Because it’s safer than digging his way out. Killing the image everyone sees to rise again as something free and true and authentic. My god. My god, this movie. It shattered me.

#i saw the tv glow #I saw the tv glow spoilers #it is SUCH a queer story #the disassociation. the hiding in fiction to feel alive. #the horror of watching time tick by and knowing you’re not who you’re meant to be #the unique paralysis of staying put in hell because it’s safer than what might be over the horizon #the tragedy of trying to help someone who isn’t ready to be helped #god it’s so much. god. rarely do I walk out of a film and just stare soundlessly into space #anyway. please see this movie. although I sort of hope if you’re reading this post it’s cuz you already have #eta: I used he because the main character never quite vocalizes another pronoun #but this is SUCH a trans story. suuuuch a trans story. it is not even a little subtle #it’s so good and so so painful

[tea-cat-arts]

Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will

#svsss #scum villian self saving system #shen qingqiu #shen yuan #the fact that people think scum villain #-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction- #is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me #especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater #heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series #he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters #(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy) #I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters #like example off the top of my head- #the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx #I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes #side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me #i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation #but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years #like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right? #being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain #the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too #+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu #as “so bland he's tempted to throw salt on himself” and “all he could do is lay around and wait for death” (<-paraphrasing) #bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people #another point on “Shen Yuan isn’t lazy” is just the sheer amount of studying that man does #also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be #he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students #and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing #+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this #but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Alas, this beautiful dream could not last.

#dungeon meshi #falin touden #dungeon meshi spoilers #better drawn mdzs #(<- my higher effort art tag. I need to get a new one.) While it's different from my usual style I really loved how this came out! #Strolling back to the art scene to remind everyone I am still a lover of botanicals. #I had a blast with the symbolism for this one: #White lilium longiflorum (easter lily) for rebirth. Purple hyacinthus orientalis for sorrow and forgiveness. #Red spider lily (Lycoris radiata) for loss and death. #'Rebirth into something new' is so well done in Dungeon Meshi. She is back but she is not the same. #The last few episodes/chapters gives her this dreamy quality to her. As if she's not quite real. She's so perfect in their memories. #And as we know of dreams - no matter how sweet- they must end once we wake up. #It is so painful to lose someone twice. To see someone you loved in a dream and wake up and remember that loss again. #Dungeon Meshi being a grief allegory is important to me. I'll explain more as the story continues B'*)

[measuringbliss]

People are acting so weird and possessive of Markiplier for the whole OnlyFans situation. He's an adult. He's an adult who's been a celebrity for years. He knows people thirst on him. That's why he had this idea in the first place. He's not some naive kid you must protect. He's not some innocent soul that the evil sluts of Tumblr and Twitter will corrupt. He knows the Internet, he knows his fans and he knows his job.

He's an adult and he can make his own choices.

#Markiplier #I've seen quite a few comments expressing discomfort and like. You can just. Not subscribe to his OF???? #That's a possibility. You can block people too. #I think some of you really need to learn about parasocial relationships and reflect on it #He's not your dad #He's not your friend #He's just a dude #A dude who has a job and it just so happens that his job revolves around appearing personable #Don't forget that you don't truly know him and MORE IMPORTANTLY he doesn't know YOU #He probably has various ideas on xho his fans are as subgroups but he doesn't know you personally #Actually it reminds me of Maisee Williams in GoT s8 #People had seen her (the character and the actress) grow up over the years and when she decided she wanted to do a nude scene #A lot of people said they were uncomfortable #In both cases. They're adults. They can do whatever they want. #I guess that was a rant but sometimes I find the fandom really off-putting #Deactivated reblogs because the RBs were getting boring and a pain

[000yul]

you’ve never once done what i wanted you to

#orv spoilers #full book spoilers in these tags btw #orv #omniscient reader's viewpoint #yoohankim #yoo joonghyuk #kim dokja #han sooyoung #im honestly. so obsessed with this trio's dynamic #ever think about how han sooyoung and yoo joonghyuk both express their love in an extremely vitriolic way #THE WAY THEY REFLECT EACH OTHER. SOME PROJECTING GOING ON PERHAPS? #and then theres kdj who cuts himself out of the picture at every opportunity emotionally. jfc #alt caption: damn one to save the other #but thats not quite complete is it #by the end of the book yjh is quite willing to be damned for kdj #and hsy doesn't know what to do with that!!!! #man. #my art #orv fanart #anyway if you got to the end of this i hope you enjoy yjh's snatched waist. a little treat sprinkled within the pain #unrelated complaint why do these three only wear like two colours between them. im TRYING to make a visually interesting picutre ok!!!

[sysig]

Chewtoy (Patreon)

#Doodles #Handplates #UT #Fellplates #Gaster #Papyrus #Sans #Squeeze him - he makes a squeaky toy noise #Everyone needs to bite Gaster! He doesn't yield like flesh so it probably doesn't even hurt right? Yeahhhh he'll be fiiiine #There is something very funny to me about him just sitting there and taking it tho lol - feeds into his martyr play ♪ #As if I don't already have a favourite martyr hmmm don't worry about it lol #What was he even doing why is he just letting 2-P bite him lol #Socialization? That's not a good thing to just let him do! He's still got a young mind! Boundaries are important #He does offer a way out - hehe ♫ - but he doesn't enforce it! You're setting them up for failure #Hehehehe #The bone gift was fun to doodle hehe ♪ He leaves it with him and it goes completely untouched while his arm is covered in teeth-marks pfft #Even with Papyrus a bit more unruly I still like to imagine he acts mean in largely harmless ways haha #Like yeah he's being naughty and biting when he knows better and offered other options - Gaster. Gentle enforcement - but he's not Hurting #He's not using his entire bite force - probably lol or he's just got weak little baby bites (though those can be quite painful!) #Sans on the other hand would absolutely go 100% full power - and still only do 1HP lol what an unfortunate design quirk for him #If only he had a jaw he could open! He'd bite the heck outta Gaster! Alas #I do like to imagine Fellplates!Sans has just fast-tracked to classic's conclusion of ''You suck and I hate you. Die'' about Gaster lol #Even the possibility of not being mean to him is so alien! What do you /mean/ not hurt you?? Do you know who you're talking to?? #He'll find another way to mess with him in good time haha

[coloursflyaway]

Okay, but imagine Charles calling Edwin his best friend for the first time.

Affection comes so easy for Charles, so I am sure he decides on it quickly, because this is the boy who read him to sleep when he was dying, the boy he has given up eternal bliss for, but for Edwin?

Edwin couldn't stand being around Simon when he only wanted to tell him he looked smart in his cap, and here is this bright-eyed, beautiful boy, grinning at him with sun stitched into his smile, and saying, "Well, we're best mates, him and I."

Love confessions when you know the other inside out are one thing, but I am pretty sure that Charles expressing any kind of love for him for the first time must have been the closest thing Edwin had felt to heaven so far.

#i mainly thought of it because edwin comes to say it so easily to the cat king #"we are best friends if you must know #how many times did charles have to say it until you believed it darling #because i think it must have been quite a few #dead boy detectives #dead boy detective agency #edwin payne #edwin paine #charles rowland #painland #payneland #paynland #chedwin #charles x edwin #edwin x charles

[astronomodome]

No More Skizzlepregnancy!

#is this kind of insenitive? maybe. is it funny? i'll let you decide. im really tired rn #anyway in all seriousness i hope skizz feels better soon :( from what i've heard shingles can be quite painful #i only know about it because of tv ads for the elderly which makes it kind of funny to me. despite its horribleness #your favorite mcyter is 20something and healthy my favorite mcyter has old man chickenpox. save him PLEASE #this is not going in the tags. #sillyposting

[yuhi-san]

I’ve seen a few posts pointing out how stampede vash lacks the anger that 98 and especially trimax vash has. Which is true.

And it is important. Because vash isn’t the too morally strong or good or kind to be angry or whatever. Vash has a lot of rage about a lot of things. he chooses to be kind despite it rather than not being angry at all.

His sheer determination to not give into anger and choosing kindness over and over again is very important to who he is.

(personally I think that while tristamp vash went through a lot already too, he simply has not quite reached that point)

What I haven’t really seen are post pointing out that stampede vash, unlike 98 and trimax vash, does not cry.

Vash cries a lot. Some of it is for the comedy and because he is dramatic like that and also he isn’t above trying to get pity that way (with little success lol).

But he also cries a lot just… because. I don’t know how to explain it.

Like vash has no shame or inhibition to cry when that’s what he feels. Not gonna lie, I know trimax mostly from spoilers so far (shame on me) but especially in 98 vash cries very freely. He cries when he thinks he will have to watch that ex-mob boss or whatever being shot. Cries after killing, cries after monev kills all these people and he wants to shot him but wont. And so so many more.

Like that time he just suddenly drops his donuts and cries in the middle of the street.

Vash is friendly and sociable on a surface level but he has cut himself off from so much. Keeps so many things on the inside. Crying seems the one thing he doesn’t hold back on. Maybe his only genuine outlet for the pain.

Vash hides his scars, his pain and much more but he never hides his tears.

Vash, in 98 even says ‘is there something wrong with that?’ when the kids note that he is crying despite being an adult.

In contrast to that, stampede vash never really cries. He even states that he doesn’t deserve to.

We see him shed tears just once, at the very end when it becomes clear to him that he can’t save nai and that his brother and him have grown so far apart that he barely recognizes him anymore. He sheds silent tears for nai, for them, at what he certainly believed to be the very end.

Stampede vash is not only a lot more timid than his counterpart but seems overall more repressed and and emotionally dulled/exhausted

#this reminds me that trimax and 98 vash as children would just follow knives around for a looong time with no agency of his own #vash cryinf after dropping the donuts kills me every time #i dont know how to say it but how vashs crying is handles compared to many other protags hits different #it feels more like seeing vash's pain and distress #and less like a visual reminder to the audience that this is a tragic situation #am i making sense? #maybe i am also just a little biased #also adding to this johnny young bosh was so good in that dub #none of the words vor abgestumpft seem quite right hmm #trigun #trimax #tristamp #vash the stampede #trigun 98 #he also tries crocodil tears on meryl but she shot that down when he was barely a sniffle in so there is that lol

[scandalousadventures]

Goth vampire doll! Inspired by Vampire the Masquerade Bloodlines (tremere specifically 🤭) and goth styles from the 90s. Her glasses were a challenge to make but I think they turned out so well; they're made from red acetate and wire covered in black paint and slathered in resin

#i love how resin looks once it's cured but using it is such a pain lmao #i made her quite a while ago too #would be fun to make dolls inspired by the other clans too perhaps. let me know if you think that'd be neat #vampire #dolls #ooak #my dolls #vtmb #vtm #tremere #goth #vampire girl #monster girl #ooakdoll #handmade dolls #textile art #sculpting

[kerryweaverlesbian]

What if I exploded into blood and gore and viscera just real quick and then reconstituted like nothing happened and then everyone can get back to what they're doing. I just feel it would be fun to do.

#'och! a proccess has occurred!' #this post 🤝 my I want to be eaten by an alligator post 🤝 my I want castiel to hit me in the head with a hammer (gone sexual) post #I don't know what they say about my psyche but I know they're all connected. maybe it just says quite simply masochism lmao #it's not to be in pain it's to have an overwhelming sensory experience #where I am not in control and nobody would expect me to be #and I'm totally fine afterwards #anyway. back to my definitely completely unrelated large project that is all my responsibility and is 99% computer based #cawis creates #am I perhaps underestimated 🤔🤔🤔 #maybe I should try an exercise class or something

[loverboybrightsideghost]

who would win: super powerful necromantic supercomputer that is powered by thousands of stolen brains VS one boy's love for his cousin

#the one that got away...... #brock. when. haunting narrative. etc etc. BROCK RACKET #rqg #HOW OKD WAS BROCK WHEN HE DIED!!!!!!!!! #i'm assuming quite young but AGGGGGG brock. the pain. forever. #brock i love you i LOVE YOU #bluebird.txt #was he barret's son????? i don't know i don't remember i don't think it ever comes up but that feels so much worse

[esterigermaine]

You can all blame @animentality for this because their posts got me into durgetash (thank you!!!!!) and now I want to torture the villian couple. Probably won't make much sense because I drank enough caffeine to kill a horse today and my brain is going a million miles a second.

You know that scene where Orin shapeshifts into durge and tells them what she did to them? What if Gortash found out about it the same way and had Orin rub salt in the wound by then showing him the prayer for forgiveness?

She is cruel enough to do it and I can't think of any worse way to find out about what happened than for the attempted-murderer to shapeshift into their victim and describe what happened to them in explicit, gruesome detail. The attack itself, the tadpole, how they were abandoned to die alone like trash, how Gortash wasn't there to protect them, all of it. Only to show grieving Gortash the note

#orin the red #enver gortash #dark urge #the dark urge #durgetash #they were both doomed from the start the least we can do is make things even more painful #bonus points if she leaves it at leaving durge for dead so he has quite a bit of time to think durge is dead until reports start popping up #the pain of losing one of the few people you actually liked violently and having that act described to you by someone wearing their face #and the addition of then seeing a note praising you like that? not knowing untol after? #that has to be somewhere in the top few most emotionally painful things Gortash could possibly experience #regarding my note at the top #i seriously cannot thank them enough #because at first I was ehhhhh about Gortash in general then after playing Durge I was like oh they got along #and then after seeing their posts in the dark urge tag I was like damn now thats a love story how can I make their fates even WORSE #and I never would have even considered this ship and the opportunities it provided without them #seriously good stuff

[beaulesbian]

Trigun Stampede s01 || Vash + the reflection on his glasses

(edit: added one i missed)

( @crazymadredfox​ thank you for the mention of this part!)

#cant believe i missed this one when i specifically rewatched the whole season for this :') #trigun #vash #vash the stampede #trigun stampede #trigunedit #mine #gif:trigun #so i thought the reflective effect appeared in more episodes but it was only episode 1 #and then it kinda reappears when vash is not vash anymore in eps 11-12 #the first episode had a lot of bright lights (desert sun and then the lights from the plants) #which made the reflection seem natural to happen but it was interesting it happened quite a lot as a storytelling tool almost #like it helped to push across this introduction of vash bc at first we dont know anything about him (first time fans like me heh) #so they hide his eyes in important moments including his first appearance #and it goes possibly for how that reflection is how vash doesnt know meryl or roberto yet so it takes a while for him to trust them #and see whats their deal #i like that 7th gif with comparison of rosa beside vash.. you can see her go on a whole journey with just her eyes #but vash's thought process is hidden until the last moment where he doesnt want to fight the julai guys who want to take him #the last one is so creepy.. he's an empty husk! there could be pain or numbness or multiple other emotions in his eyes #but the glasses put them behind a barrier and only the movement tells us more that hes floating there trapped emotionless #its so sad.. uff i love this show

[kakapim]

I. I just saw someone saying they're giving movie 27 promotional cups in Japanese cinemas and I'm. WHYYYY WHY WAS I BORN IN LATINOAMERICAAA TAKE ME OUT OF HERE I NEED THE KAITOU KID CUP

#detective conan #Pain pain pain pain pain #😭😭 #dcmk #movie 27 #i know this one is going to be relatable cause i think theres quite a few of us here in tumblr #dont mess with us detective conan latino fans; there are like 5 of us 😎👊