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Somewhere only we know - Chapter 11 (Kendall Roy x Reader)
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Series summary: You met Kendall when you were six years old. You have spent every summer together and now years later you and him are still just as close.
This story follows Kendall and his best friend through their lives. Will they realize their feelings for each other before it’s too late?
Chapter summary: You get a call that Kendall is about to hold a press conference about the cruises scandal. Afterwards things get hectic but you have a good talk with Rava.
Authors Notes: i am so sorry that I have to make Honey and Naomi dislike each other I swear I love her sm! Thank you for reading 🤍
Wordcount: 3.1K
You’ve been on Paxos with Stewy for the last days and it has been really nice. It’s different with him than with Ken, starting with you and Stewy having different rooms.
But it is nice. You’re sleeping in, having great food and hanging out on the beach. You’re really thankful for Stewy to ask you to come with him. You really needed a break to deal with your feelings for Kendall.
You were meant to meet Stewy at this restaurant for lunch. He said he had to go there a bit earlier, something business related. You didn’t knew that he was meeting Kendall and his father.
Kendall starts insulting Stewy when he says no to the deal, Stewy glances at the time. Kendall’s tantrum couldn’t come at a better time.
You walk down to where the waiter told you he was sitting. You stop in your tracks when you see who’s sitting opposite of Stewy. Kendall and Logan. Kendall’s eyes snap at you, he says your name.
”Ken? What are you doing here?“ you’re really confused.
”We’re meeting for business, why are you here?“ he asks
”Nothing, just taking a little break.“
He furrows his brows as he looks between you and Stewy
”Since when, uh, since when is this a thing?“
”It’s not a thing. I just wasn’t feeling good and Stew asked if I wanted to come.“ you shrug
”It’s no big deal, Ken.“ Stewy says
”Uh-huh.“ he answers, eyeing him suspiciously before he turns towards you
”Why didn’t you tell me you weren’t feeling good?“
”Kenny, you had so much going on..“ he nods but before he can say more Logan gets up
”Hello Y/n.“
”Hello, Sir.“ you say to the man
”Kendall, we’re leaving now.“ the older man says and Kendall throws you an apologetic look.
”I’ll call you.“ he tells you and you give him a nod and a smile.
Logan tells you goodbye wich you say back.
On the way back to the yacht, where his girlfriend is currently waiting for him, he can’t help but think about how pretty you looked. Sun kissed, relaxed, your summer dress hugging your body perfectly. It’s been too long since he had been on a vacation with you. He misses it.
Stewy notices the way you pick on you food after Kendall and his father left
”Honey, you’ve been doing so good don’t let him ruin this.“
”I’m not.“ you huff and look up to be met with Stewy looking like he’s not believing you
”Shut up, I’m really not.“ you tell him before adding ”He just looked so sad.“
”It’s Kendall, he always looks sad.“ you throw Stewy a deadly look.
”Stewy, I’m not angry at him, we’re not fighting. I’m not going to talk shit about him.“
”Come on, let’s go to the beach.“
The rest of the day is spent reading on a nice lounger and getting more tan in the sun.
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It’s much later when Kendall stares into the water. Naomi’s words linger. ”He loves the broken you“. Kendall thinks about calling you. He knows you would know how to handle this. He could also call Naomi, but he’s afraid either of you two would talk him out of the plan his father has made. But you would be right, he thinks. You would tell him he doesn’t deserve this, no matter what he thinks about himself. God, he misses you at this moment. He decides to text you. He types in a message a few times before locking his phone again. What would he even tell you? Theres no need to worry you. Everything will work out fine. You’re on Paxos anyway, no need to ruin your vacation.
You sit on the couch of your hotel room, watching tv. Stewy wanted to go to some party but you weren’t in the mood. You see a message appear on your phone screen. Roman.
'Can you call me?‘.
You furrow your brows, they should still be on the yacht so why does Roman want to talk to you. You two don’t speak often anymore, sometimes there’s texts updating each other on how things are, a fucked up meme or a happy birthday message. So Roman wanting to speak to you while they’re on some weird family trip does make some alarm go off in you. You take a deep breath and press the green button to call.
”Hey, Rome what’s up?“ you ask cautiously ”Uh, hey y/n. Yeah so dad made this trip with us to find out who he can blame for Cruises.“ Roman says ”Uh-huh.“ you hum, of course Logan did. Wanting to offer someone as the scapegoat that wasn’t himself was typical. ”And- fuck- Uh, It’s- it’s Kendall.“ you feel your blood run cold. No, it can’t be. ”No, fuck. He can’t-“ you stutter and Roman takes a breath ”Yeah, I thought it would be Karl or even Tom. But- Dad he.. whatever- I’m sorry.“ he says and you shake your head even though he can’t see ”It’s not your fault, Roman. Thank you for telling me.“ you say sincerely. ”So, uh Kendall says he’s okay with it… But he can’t be… right?“ you hear the kid in Romans voice come through. ”I don’t know Roman.“ and you don’t, you know Kendall good enough to know that there’s a big possibility that Logan convinced him somehow that what he’s doing is the right thing.
”Oh how are you holding up? I heard about the hostage situation.“ you ask with a warm tone
”It must have been horrible.“
”Yeah, yeah i felt like I would shit my heart out but I’ve got to see Karl having a panic attack sooo..“
”Great to see you finding the best in every situation.“ you chuckle
”But seriously, you can call me anytime.“
After the call you sit on your couch looking out into the city. You don’t know what to do. How can you help Kendall? Should you call him? Why didn’t he call you?
You stay awake most of the night, thinking about what you can do. Around three in the morning you made up your mind. You get up and throw your clothes into a suitcase before walking over to Stewys suite. Thankfully he seems to be already back.
He answers the door looking like he had been sleeping
”I have to leave.“ You tell him as soon as the door is fully opened
”Did something happen?“ he asks worried
”No, not yet at least.“
He looks confused
”I’m not following.“
”You’ll see. Just- just follow the news.“
He opens the door a little wider
”Come in. And then tell me what is going on.“ you follow him in and sit down on the couch
”Honey, what are you talking about?“
”I just got a call from Roman. Logan is making Kendall the head of the cruises scandal, there’s a press conference scheduled for tomorrow where he is supposed to say that he’s responsible.“ you explain, Stewy is silent for some moments before taking a deep breath
”Oh wow.“
”Yeah. And I- I just want to be there for him.“
”I get that. You should go.“ he tells you.
You get your bags. Stewy goes into the lobby with you giving you a hug goodbye, he will follow the pressconference tomorrow and text you.
”Thank you for this getaway. I really needed it.“
”Anytime.“ he tells you
”Love you Stewy, take care.“
”love you too and you too.“ he waits for a second before adding ”Take care of Kendall too.“
”I will.“ the two of them still caring for each other even when they aren’t talking is so typical.
You get into a car that drives you to the airport where your jet is already waiting. You sleep for a while and when you wake up you’re almost back in New York. You get ready quickly.
In the car you tell your driver the address Roman told you yesterday. It’s the place where the press conference is supposed to take place. You find Jess, Karolina and Greg at the back of the room. Jess gives you a tight lipped smile, "Hey y/n.“ Greg mutters. Your heart breaks when you see Kendall approach the table. He starts to speak and your heart drops, knowing what had been planned. You can’t believe it, you know Logan your whole life but this was too far. But then it all takes a turn, Kendall tells everyone that it was his fathers fault. You’re speechless, you felt so proud of your friend. "Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.“ Karolina muttered next to you while tapping on her phone rapidly but you can’t help but smile for just a second. Would it mean that a lot of things would change? Definitely. But you are just relieved that he stood up for himself, you don’t want to imagine how the press would had ripped him to shreds over something he didn’t do.
You look at Greg for a second noticing the envelope he clutches to his chest. Kendall finishes his statement with "Today his reign will end.“ and walks off the stage again. You set in motion and quickly follow him through the mass of reporters.
”Excuse me, excuse me.“ you mutter as you make your way through the bodies. He walks through a door, you a few feet behind him. You enter an empty hallway and you yell his name ”Ken!“ he turns around. A look of surprise on his face, not expecting you here. You jog up to him and stop a few feet in front of him and then you rush the last few steps, throwing your arms around his neck. ”I’m so proud of you.“ you whisper into him and you could feel him hold you a little bit tighter. You press a few chaste kisses to his cheek, you two staring into each others eyes for a moment before parting.
”What are you doing here? You- you were just in Greece?“
”I came back last night.“
”Why?“
”Kenny…“ you shake your head, hoping he understands, he does.
He cups your cheek
”Thank you.“
You smile at him as the others catch up with you.
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Ken has locked himself into the bathroom and Greg’s threatening to break in the door to make sure he’s okay. You’re shaking your leg, getting more nervous
”Okay- Greg. Just let me.“ you gesture for the tall man to step aside
”Kenny? Hey can you open the door- or just let me in?“ it’s still silent from the other side of the door until the door opens and he walks out awfully motivated. You watch him with a worried look.
”You okay?“ you ask when it’s just the two of you, the others are already in the other room.
”Yes, of course. Come on we’re going to make history.“ he says before heading off too.
The five of you go downstairs into the waiting car. Kendall is taking your hand in his as he pulls you along with him. You sit next to him. As they plan the new strategies you just sit and listen. You are proud of him for not letting his father do something this cruel to him but you’re not stupid, you know Logan will not just let it be.
Kendall calls Naomi and you play with your fingers, when he tells her he loves her you have to take a shaky inhale. It hurts to hear it.
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It was mad in Ravas flat. People rushing in and out to talk to Kendall.
You sit in the kitchen with Rava while Kendall talks to different people. She always excepted you as a part of his life, unlike some other girlfriends he had throughout time. "This is insane right?“ she asks as she hands you a mug of coffee. "Thanks, yeah absolutely batshit.“ you answer taking a sip of the hot beverage. "I just hope this won’t kill him.“ you say slowly. Rava nods "I get what you mean. Don’t let it take you with it, okay?“ she looks at you seriously "I know you love him, I do too but you need to take care of yourself too, okay?“ she says and you take in a breath. You don’t want to lie to her but you know whatever would happen you would stay next to him. He is your best friend, the most important person in your life, he had always been there and you couldn’t leave him if you’d wanted to. "Rava I-" you don’t know what you wanted to tell her "I know y/n. I know.“ she gives your hand a squeeze
Kendall comes in to ask if Naomi could come over. After he left Rava turns to you "So… what’s your take on this?“ she asks and you shrug ”I don’t know, I mean she’s nice I guess..it’s just.. I don’t know.“ you answer. "Are you worried about the drugs?“ she says with a look that tells you she is worried herself and you nod before saying "Yeah but I think I’ll always be in some way.“ she gives you an emphatic smile. "I mean she cares about him and he’s happy with her and that should be enough for me to like her but I don’t know I feel like she doesn’t really like me somehow.“ you admit to the brown haired woman. She looks at you as if she’s contemplating something. ”After our break up. Me and Kens. I’ve noticed something and I want you to know that im totally fine with it, but you two did seemed closer and it seemed like there was something there… between you.“
”It wasn’t always-" you start wanting to tell her that you weren’t jealous and in love with him the whole time they were married. The feelings just came back the last year. ”Oh, I know. Don’t worry.“ she tells you with a kind smile. ”I also know that he loved me. But I can see the way you two look each other the past months. It’s okay, I want you to be happy and him too.“ you look at her your mouth slightly agape. ”I don’t know what to say.“ you admit and she gives your hand a squeeze ”You don’t have to. I just want you to know that I’m happy for you if it happens.“
”Even if, it doesn’t matter anymore, he’s with her.“ Rava gives you a 'come on‘ look before she says ”We both know it’s not going to last forever.“
”But he doesn’t like me this way.“ you look at the table in front of you. It feels good being able to talk to someone about how you feel.
”Well he’s an idiot. But we all knew that. I think he’s just, I don’t know manic? Maybe running away from how he really feels.“ she tells you, you look at her and she gives your hand a squeeze across from the table. ”Y/n I love you, you know that. You’re my friend. The right time will come.“
”Sooo, what about you? seeing anyone?.“ you ask with a knowing look
”Well, there might be someone I’m kind of seeing, but I don’t know.“ you squeal
”Tell me all about him!“
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Berry Schneider and Comfrey arrive and you watch Greg make very awkward small talk with the blonde. She catches your eyes and you shrug apologetic with a grin. Naomi comes over and that’s a whole thing after she tells Greg to open a bottle of wine that Ravas godfather gave her.
You eat dinner with Rava, Sophie and Iverson and it’s good to catch up with them. They have grown up so much. After the kids go to bed you feel like it’s time for you to leave, even though Rava offered you one of the guest rooms. You walk into the living room.
”Kenny? I don’t want to disturb but I think I’ll go home now.“ he stands up from where he’s sitting with his girlfriend. ”You don’t have to leave, there’s room for you.“ Kendall tries but you shake your head a little. ”I have work tomorrow and no stuff here. But I can come back tomorrow afternoon?“
”Yeah, that’d be great.“ he tells you and you can tell he’s sincere, that he wants you here.
You two hug goodbye and you tell him ”Call me if you need to talk.“ even though you doubt he will, he has Naomi here.
”I will. Thank you.“
You press a kiss to his cheek before you leave. You nod towards Naomi with a little "Bye“ she waves you.
Rava walks you to the door. ”It’ll all work out.“ she tells you as you hug her goodbye. A sentence that you don’t know will come true when the Roy’s are involved but you have to believe anyway.
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The next day you walk into the hall when you spot Kendall and a huge horse.
”What the hell is that?“ you ask with a chuckle
”Uh, your boyfriend brought it.“ he says and you furrow your brows
”Huh? What are you talking about?“
”It’s from Stewy.“ he nods his head towards the trojan horse and you roll your eyes.
”Okay. Ken.“ you step closer to him, holding his hands.
”I never had anything with Stewy. And I was never ever in my whole life attracted to him in that way.“ you look into his eyes the whole time. You hope the message gets through to him. You never were attracted to Stewy but you were attracted to Kendall. And he should know that since you’ve slept together back in college.
”Okay?“ you ask
”Okay. Yeah, sorry.“ he says and gives your hand a squeeze.
Jess comes in and Kendall looks towards her
”Shiv is here.“ she says and you snap your head towards Kendall
”Oh?“
”Uh, great let her up.“ he tell Jess
”I guess I’ll leave you to it then. Tell me how that worked out?“
”You don’t have to-“
”No, no it’s fine. Just wanted to see how you’re doing.“
You give him a hug and a kiss to his cheek.
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You’ve read the letter Shiv published. You felt sick the whole time. You should be less surprised by everything with the Roys but you still find it unbelievable.
You’ve tried to call Ken but he didn’t pick up and didn’t answer your message.
He had a tv show scheduled for today, wich was cancelled last minute. The host was pretty rough on him afterwards.
Meanwhile Kendall’s staring at Naomi. She’s sleeping and he should feel comforted by her presence but he can’t help but wish he was with you right now. Curled up next to you, feeling your warmth and your soft skin. He takes his phone and opens your message
'Read the letter. Seriously fuck Shiv!‘
'Call me if you want to talk. Love you.'
He wipes a tear from his eye before he types a message to you
'It’s whatever. Love you too.'
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Some of these ig :)
Roman + 😃 , 🐈 , 🎡 , 🎭
Kendall + 📿 , 🧡
Shiv + 🐈 , 😨 , 🌘
I hope I'm doing this right, I usually don't do these hc/ask game things but I just finished honesty and it was delicious so...
(also sorry for making you think about roman being happy)
Roman
hc + 😃 for a happiness-themed headcanon
omg this is tough... ty for apologizing bc this is a hardship...
i think roman thought of logan as the font of all happiness. i think, after logan's gone-- it's not that roman stops being able to feel happy or that the world has gone grey or whatever-- it's more that he can no longer trust the feeling of happiness, if it doesn't come from logan. i think logans death so subtly but completely unmoored him that happiness would start to feel wrong or traitorous.
hc + 🐈 for a pet/animal-themed headcanon
i mean why write a hc in a tumblr post when could've had a dog exists.
buuut i think roman probably shouldn't have a pet because he is just not responsible. BUT he would be capable of lavishing tremendous love on one periodically, if there were one in his life. i could see him being in a semi-sham relationship with a woman where neither of them is at all happy, and delaying the breakup bc she has like. a cute cat.
i can also very clearly imagine roman being incredibly emotional and irrationally angry about his pets. like he told shiv to feed his fish while he was away at military school and then he gets back and he's like "you clearly didn't feed my fish every day they look all pale and sad this is why you'll be a terrible mother"
hc + 🎡 for a hobby-themed headcanon
i think he's mostly a passive hobby person. going to the movies, etc. i think active hobbies feel embarrassingly earnest and also middle class to him. i could see an older roman having some kind of rich person conspicuous-consumption based hobby (collecting amusingly ugly but expensive paintings, maybe?)
hc + 🎭 for an arts-/crafts-themed headcanon
i think a lot about the 'roman wrote a screenplay' throwaway line, and my final judgment is that roman probably has the capability to write cleverly, but lacks all the work ethic and compassion and interest in others that would make a good screenwriter. i am also a 'roman secretly wishes caroline had put him in ballet lessons' truther. i think that's for aesthetic reasons plus the vague sadomasochism of a ballet master with a troublesome student being very gerri-esque and appealing, and i don't think roman would have ever acted on that wish.
Kendall
hc + 📿 for a faith-themed headcanon
im sure he had a TM phase, a Buddhist phase, maybe a Kabbalah phase back when that was a thing, but he also can't help but subordinate any belief he has to his larger belief in, like, The Market, and he lacks the commitment to stick to any one belief about the nature of the universe or his own spiritual practice.
he clearly believes in God, but not in any helpful or constructive way. he needs God in the sense that he needs the domineering presence of a belief in something overwhelmingly bigger than himself, which is why logan was able to be his godhead for a while. but he also clearly wants to believe that sins get punished and expunged, that he can have a clean slate and a clear conscience again, and he's yet to find any force that can really offer him that.
hc + 🧡 for a friendship-themed headcanon
kendall is the only sibling who lets people get somewhat close to him, for better or for worse, and that puts people like stewy close enough to see everything that's wrong but never close enough to help him (and maybe stewy just isn't interested enough to attempt to help anymore) when kendall tried to get stewy in bed with waystar, im sure every single one of stewy's instincts were like Do Not Do This and kendall was like "dude. name one good reason why you shouldn't be i the kenny business" and stewy was like "well you have half an eating disorder and an entire coke habit, and your rickety aging family business is held together with debt and duct tape"
(i kind of want to extend my kendall pov chapter from eat what's rotten into a full fic one day, because i like thinking about stewy's view of the roy dysfunction/the collective family ed.)
Shiv
hc + 🐈 for a pet/animal-themed headcanon
im team shiv resents mondale. i think she doesnt even like the image of having a dog-- nothing appeals to her about the christmas card with a big, handsome purebred. i think she internally sentenced herself to doing something nice for tom because she felt bad about something or other and next thing she knew they had a dog. i think shes disgusted by them being dumb, and undiscriminating, and messy. see again couldve had a dog
hc + 😨 for a fear-themed headcanon
i think shiv is mostly afraid of germs and her father. there's a lot of talk in the show that infantalizes shiv-- the pretend post office story connor tells, 'she sees monsters from piles of laundry on the floor' or whatever, 'he built you a playground and you think it's the world'. and it feels like it's just rank misogyny, and in many ways it is, but also that language suggests something that is true. shiv has a polished adult exterior, and hides it all well, but she is, as much as her brothers, still a petrified child who perpetually thinks she's in trouble with daddy. and i dont think the people around her completely see or acknowledge that, but they are dimly aware of it.
hc + 🌘 for a night-themed headcanon
insomniac shiv is very close to my heart. i like the idea that she thinks shes stronger than other people because she functions with very little sleep. like she was that person in college who was like 'ive slept five hours in the past three days and im going to a party tonight and ill have my midterm turned in before that'
#finally done with this! sorry#will rb the ask game again in case anyone else wants to indulge me uwu
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is it too late to request one more prompt perhaps 🥺🥺number 40 with bratpack because i was obsessed with the last one u did!! maybe the same childhood friends to lovers au just them as teenagers/young adults if u could xx
No it’s not too late at all! I’m still working on some, I just had to write this one bc bratpack has been on my mind today <3 Ty for sending this in!
40. “Don’t look down.”
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“Are you absolutely sure you want to go on the Ferris wheel, Synth?” Gia asked, “it’s high up and I know heights aren’t your favorite.”
Synthia giggled and linked arms with Kendall and Gia. “Of course I want to go! I haven’t been afraid of heights since we were kids and I wanna see the whole fair from up above. What do you think, Kenny?”
“If you’re sure, honey,” Kendall said softly, motherly almost.
“I am sure!”
“Okay,” Gia agreed, reluctant in her reply.
They waited a few more minutes in line, Synthia and Kendall babbling about nothing in particular while Gia remained uncharacteristically quiet, biting their lip discretely.
When it was their turn to get in, Synthia took the middle spot, warm and comfortable with Gia to her left and Kendall to her right.
“Are you sure you’re okay?” Gia asked again just before the ride began moving.
Synthia nodded excitedly. “Promise! I’m excited to get to the top.”
As the ride slowly climbed higher and higher, Gia gripped the handle bar tighter and tighter until their knuckles were white. They squeezed their eyes shut, imagining they were anywhere but.
Suddenly, the ride stopped moving, signalling they must’ve been at the top, the car they sat in swinging gently in the wind.
“Gia, look!” Synthia exclaimed, “the fair looks so pretty, isn’t it pretty, Ken?”
“You’re right, this was a good idea, baby. Gi, what do you think?”
For the first time since they reached the top, Synthia and Kendall looked over to Gia; their face pale, eyes shut and tears rolling down their cheeks.
“Gia! What’s wrong?”
Nausea ebbed and flowed in their stomach. Sure they’d throw up if they opened their eyes, they swallowed thickly. “I’m more afraid of heights than I remember,” they admitted quietly.
“Oh Gia,” Synthia cooed, rubbing the back of their hand, “you’re safe, we’re all safe.”
Just as the words left her mouth, the ride creaked, all too slowly bringing them back down.
Gia blinked their eyes open, gasping when they realized how high up they were still.
“Don’t look down,” Kendall encouraged, reaching behind Synthia to rub their back while Synthia held onto their hand and coached them through breathing exercises, something they’d done with her many times before.
It felt like hours when the ride finally stopped at the bottom, meaning they were safe on ground level.
“C’mon Gi, open your eyes, it’s all over,” Synthia said soothingly, holding their hand as they exited the ride, Gia seemingly catatonic.
“Gia,” Kendall cooed, making them look at her, “you’re okay. We’re all okay.”
“ I’m sorry, I-I didn’t mean to let you guys see me like that.”
Gia, always the strong one, felt embarrassment turn their cheeks pink and warm.
Synthia shook her head and leaned in to kiss their cheek, only making their flush worse.
“Don’t be embarrassed, it’s ok to be scared of things. That’s what you always tell me, right? You just told me that the other day when we had a storm and the lights went out and I cried.”
Shrugging, Gia kicked up a rock with the toe of her converse, the ones that Synthia had drawn hearts on the rubber parts. “The dark is scary, heights aren’t.”
“Everyone is scared of different things. Like how I hate spiders and I make you come in and kill then everytime they’re in our apartment,” Kendall added.
“I guess, but-“
“No buts,” Synthia said, kissing their cheek once more, “let’s go get some cotton candy, that makes everything better.”
Gia cracked a smile, bemused by how cute they found Synthia. “Okay.”
The three walked hand in hand to the cotton candy stand, talking idly until they sat down to eat, eating quietly until Synthia spoke up out of nowhere.
“You know what I’m most scared of?”
Peaking their interest, Kendall and Gia looked up, quietly waiting for her to elaborate.
“Losing you guys,” Synthia said simply, going back to her cotton candy.
Gia smiled giddily, the type of smile only Synthia and Kendall could pull out of them. “Good thing you don’t have to worry about that.”
“Never ever,” Kendall agreed.
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Agent!AU: could we get some after math of the Stewy-gets-with-Roman situation? How stewy feeling after What He Did TM,,,,
Stewy doesn’t see Roman or Kendall for several weeks after the night he did something that can never be taken back. He doesn’t hear from them, run into them, or reach out to them, but they’re never far from his mind from the moment Roman leaves his apartment to seeing them both again for a debrief. Sandy organized the assignment, like always. Stewy and Kendall show up separately, but wind up in the same room pretending not to notice the other, as Roman sits on a table and sifts through the photographs the surveillance team put together for the three of them.
“It’s an easy handoff, I didn’t learn much new,” Roman says. “He’s not really into the whole fucking me on the kitchen floor thing, so my charms were useless.”
There’s just enough of a smirk on his face for Stewy to shoot him a glare. Roman knows what he’s doing. That’s the part Stewy should’ve anticipated; Roman will never let this go. This is unbearably good leverage and with it, he’s effectively already brought Stewy to his knees.
“Rome, get on with it,” Kendall snaps.
“Oh, sorry, didn’t mean to get your fucking panties in a twist. Anyways, my point is that we’ve been keeping an eye on Taylor and Mattson, right? So I’ve made some leeway regarding Taylor’s kid, as I’m sure you’ve all heard, and I think I found something better. My sources say that Taylor isn’t just devoted he’s…” Roman leans forward and makes a lewd gesture. “Really devoted.”
Stewy crosses his arms and considers this, trying to keep his mind on the job and not on Roman. “How so?”
“Well, first of all, he’s not really interested in anyone besides Mattson. Like yeah, he fucks around, but not with anyone who’s pulling him all the way to the bedroom, you know? He’s more of a ‘back alley, up the skirt, in and out before you sober up’ kinda guy.”
It’s not hard to read between the lines on that one, and Stewy makes a mental note of the people he has to talk to in order to get more information on that one. He has different contacts than Roman, and his may be willing to shed additional light on what Taylor does in his free time.
“But with Mattson, I swear to fucking God, man, people say he’s practically on the floor licking his shoes. I hear Taylor gets fucked six ways from Sunday in every room of Mattson’s house.”
“And you’d know,” Kendall snarks. “The only difference between you and Taylor is that you worship Dad and not Lukas Mattson.”
“Easy with the incest jokes, Kenny, someone might think you were bad touched.”
“Just keep projecting, man, see where it gets you.”
They’re much more bitter and aggressive with one another today, to such an extent that Stewy genuinely questions whether Roman said something about what the two of them did, although he doubts that such a thing would have occurred without one or both of them making sure Stewy was well aware of it. They know knowledge is power, but Kendall’s emotions and Roman’s bitchiness seem to overtake it from time to time. He has no choice but to hope that Kendall fills him in later, though he doubts Kendall will be anything close to honest or forthcoming with him right now.
“Anyways,” Stewy cuts in.
Roman looks away from Ken and smiles at Stewy with a shark’s predatory grin. “Anyways. So, I’m thinking that if we’re looking for an in, that’s it. Somebody needs to get Mattson’s attention away from his pet second hand, and use it to manipulate him- because honestly, if you think Taylor’s not pulling half of Mattson’s strings, you’re blind. He’d need the right person, though.”
“Not Ken,” Stewy says easily. “He’s not going to stand up to it. I worked on Mattson related ops a lot when I was younger. No offense, Kendall, but he’d chew you up and spit you out.”
“What about you?” Kendall asks.
Stewy pauses. “Normally, I’m all up for a challenge, but when we were actually going after him before, they had all their fucking analysts crunch the numbers on it, right? I can’t remember the exact figures, but it was like a two percent chance or less that I’d even survive. I’m not into that much of a risk.”
There’s a pause during which Roman considers this. Stewy knows because no matter how good Roman can seem at hiding his true thought processes, when he’s not keeping up an appearance with the two of them, his face goes statuesque blank in an overcorrection of revealing his considerations. He’s thinking about who they could send, and although he doesn’t show it on his face nor say it when he’s finished with his thoughts, Stewy knows what he’s decided. He’s going to send himself in. It could be genius; Roman may be the exact perfect person to worm his way into Lukas’ inner circle and take him down for good. Or, like many things, it could be a fatal overzealousness that leaves him gutted on his father’s front porch.
“So, regardless, that’s the way it’s looking,” Roman says. “So this is such an easy handoff that Kendall could do it on his own, but hey, what do I know? You two are always better together, aren’t you? Two peas in a little fuck pod.”
He hands Stewy the folder, all three of them aware of the intentional slight at Kendall. “If you can, just establish contact. Skye Taylor needs to know that we’re looking into this shit, alright? Stewy, I’d say keep your face out of it. Don’t get too close to him, he’ll sniff you out. He knows Ken already, but he’s going to assume Kendall is on his own and not a threat as long as he doesn’t think you’re watching.”
“Interesting game you’re playing, Roman,” Stewy replies.
Shrugging, as though it means nothing to him either way, Roman adjusts the buttons on his shirt as if they don’t fit quite right; it’s another tiny dig at Stewy, or so he thinks. The possibility that he’s being paranoid crosses his mind, but he also knows how much Roman loves a good game, and the fact that Roman wouldn’t pass up any opportunity to make Stewy’s skin crawl with the recollection of what they’ve done together.
“I don’t know how it’ll uh, how it’ll work out,” Kendall says. “Taylor is smarter than you give him credit for. He’s not like me or Shiv or even Gerri. He’s not a mindless drone.”
“Keep Gerri out of your fucking mouth. No Goddamn class, Ken, fuck. And I know that, right? I know where he came from before he was in Mattson’s back pocket. Mattson would never get that close to someone who wasn’t smart enough to challenge him. He’s easily bored. He’s restless. Someone like you, Kendall, he wouldn’t keep around because you’d get boring. He’s not like our dear Stewy. He’d figure out what makes you tick in a heartbeat.”
There’s a moment in which Kendall clenches his fists at his sides and Stewy worries how he might react, but like always, he winds up bowing his head and averting his eyes.
"We'll find a way," Roman says, dismissive. "Just talk to him. Feel him out. Who knows, maybe he'll get too frisky and you can slap him."
Roman leaves the room first, passing Stewy so closely their shoulders brush. He wants to make sure that nothing will be forgotten. In answer, Stewy just scoffs and acts as if there's nothing to remember at all.
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Winter’s Chill - A Succession Fic
a/n: We meet again! Once again, here is something exploring the Roys and their sibling bonds! Admittedly, I’m digging deep into some of my own weaknesses here, but I couldn’t help but write something after discussing the concept (Connor holding onto things that his siblings grew out of) with a friend. This takes place on the timeline of Season 1, but without any of the events transpiring that cause Connor to be brought into conversations surrounding the future of Waystar Royco.
Warnings: Brief Allusions to Death and Grief/Loss (actual loss is not present)
Word Count: 3222
On a regular January evening in New York, the soft sheen of snow leaves a film on all the windows of houses and apartments alike, and the sound of it brushing up against the panes has an almost transfixing quality. People outside brave the cold, swaddled in winter coats and scarves that are close to dragging on the ground. Crowded streets don’t have a chance to get very slick, yet the chill seems to coat everything the snow doesn’t touch. Those inside face a lingering shiver, with windows and doors locked tightly so as not to let anything in. If it weren’t so regular this time of year, it would be almost comforting. The isolated figures of the Roy siblings take refuge inside, not many miles from one another. The three go through the same motions, nearly. Funneling warm breath into chapped hands, shrugging off coats, as though they passed around the same mannerisms amongst themselves.
The same can’t be said currently across the country, where both Connor and his girlfriend bustle about inside his home, until Willa stops in front of what catches her eye.
“What do you have all this stuff for?” She asks, picking up a box that sits against the desk at the far corner of the living room. She sets it on the tabletop, leaving it unopened.
“What’s that?” Connor calls from the kitchen, meandering back into the living room to hear her clearer.
“You’ve got… boxes. I don’t think I’ve ever seen you open them.” She traces a hand over the cardboard as he rejoins her side. “Can I open this?” She looks up at him momentarily, her dark eyes meeting his light ones.
“Sure.” He says softly. He backs up, leaving room for her. It’s been a while. Usually, Connor goes through these things alone. He’s unsure, this might hold things that he’s kept so long he almost forgets what they are. Maybe that’s for the better.
So the box is opened. And immediately as her hands retreat, recognition tinged with regret washes over him. There’s no tape saving it from inspection, and the perplexity adorning Willa’s face stings, because there’s no right way—no proper way—to explain these seemingly useless mementos. But he’s kept them in any way he can, physically or otherwise. But now it’s the only way he has a piece of them at all.
He practically hides his face, like a little kid. Caught red-handed in sentimentality that he can’t look in the eye.
“Are these yours?” She holds them up for him to see. They’re like evidence of a crime scene. Of a better self. It feels like years and years ago. A lifetime. They’re one of various pairs of mittens: blue with a snowflake pattern. They’re the size of a child’s hand.
Tears clog his throat. His chin quivers.
“What’s wrong?” She looks at him with a concern that words cannot convey. She knows that his childhood—all of theirs, collectively—is a sore, tender subject maybe best kept in boxes. Her frown gets deeper with every passing second.
He wants to say that it’s nothing. But really, it shows fully how much time has passed. It's etched in the pattern, he swears. But lord, when did these get so small? How could they have grown? Even more than he remembers, much more than that. And he knows, of course he knows they have. But with the true recognition of it—years and years between them, even though it feels like yesterday—his chest tightens, releases, and then the words fall out.
“They’re Kenny’s.” He turns away. “And the red ones are Shiv’s.” He swipes a hand across his face and is unsurprised by the fact that when he draws it away it’s wet with tears. “Rome’s are at the bottom.”
No one penetrates the silence right away. Finally, Willa speaks tentatively. “Did something happen? They’re not…?”
“No.” He interrupts before she can complete the thought. “I-I talk about them like they’re ghosts. I mourn them like they’re gone. And-and they haunt me. But they’re not.” His shoulders come to meet his ears defensively, nearly folding in on himself.
She softens. “How long has it been?” She knows a lot about Connor’s siblings, he talks about them frequently and rarely spares any details. But she’s never seen them around, and there is—if nothing else—a rift surrounding them purely due to distance. Yet what she’s sure of, something he’s spent his whole life building, is a bond that connects them further than just through their father.
He clears his throat. “Uh, six years.” Since he’s seen them all at once. It was at Kendall’s wedding. Some big, elaborate thing. And of course, he never made the conscious choice to leave them behind. In fact, he devoted himself to quite the opposite as he left home at eighteen. By twenty-one, he had his own place which served as an unofficial second home for his siblings just as much as it did for him. So it’s difficult to articulate how or why this ever happened. But somewhere between then and now, it all slipped away.
Now, they paint a funny picture. Kendall, ushered into the business as soon he was old enough with Roman trailing at his heels, and Shiv holding her own trying to shoulder her way into politics, all around the little epicenter that is where they grew up. And, well, he’s somewhere in New Mexico. That’s all he can say. It slipped away.
He grasps at her hands, but stops himself short. His voice is a near whisper. “Oh, Will. I want it back so badly. I want to go back, turn time around and make it up to them. Because… I remember everything. When each of them were born. When I got home just in time to see Roman for the first time. Shiv’s first cello recital, when I taught Kenny how to swim. And his drawings. I doubt that dad ever kept them.” And then it breaks. “I was everything. Now I’m just… nothing. How do you… forgive yourself for realizing you spent as much time in someone’s life as you have out of it? How do you stop feeling sorry?”
It hurts him. It hurts him more than the multiple unspoken understandings he’s made throughout his life, some he only fully processed years afterward. More than knowing there was a day when his father decided he just wasn’t enough. And even more than the day where Kendall broke his arm, and Connor swore his chest felt the same impact. All the air was crushed out of his lungs. All it took was one thud and then grass—green grass, streaked through with summer sun—didn’t look quite the same anymore.
In the pause she brushes the tears from his cheek. “Sweetheart, you can’t just stop everything. You can’t forget that you have a life. You can’t be everything. You can’t.” She stands stoically, softening with the last few words.
“It’s not about that. It’s the fact that I promised myself I would do something, be something for them. I remember it so clearly.” His face hardens as more tears gather at his chin. He pretends they aren’t there.
“But you said it yourself. They’re not gone. Why have you waited? Why not reach out, try again?”
“I’m scared. I don’t… I don’t want to face them knowing I disappointed them.” It’s as though every year the reminder cuts deeper and deeper. He’s further and further from those days spent in the park, ensuring that before every outing they were bundled up tight, scarves around their necks with their mittened hands in his own. Somehow, he couldn’t imagine it. Anything else. It’s as though anything beyond the smallness of their hands was just pretend. Even as he saw it all unfold in adulthood, he couldn’t shake the feeling that it was like seeing a little kid in daddy’s suit. Trying to be big, drowning in clothes. Just playing pretend.
And then…. it wasn’t anymore. And now the rest comes rushing forward, and now that time finally caught up… it’s terrifying to admit.
Willa shakes him out of it further. “You can’t keep them like objects, Con. They’re real people. Real people you can talk to. And if you’re even half as good of a brother as you make yourself out to be they definitely miss you. You’re not disappointing anyone.”
He sighs, absentmindedly thumbing the fabric of the small mitten he’s just taken in his hands. It’s Kendall’s. He puts it to his chest and gives it a squeeze. He isn’t quite sure of how they’d see him now, like this. He laughs with tears in his eyes. He’s always been sentimental, sure, but he doesn’t think anyone knows that he’s kept these things.
“So come on. Tell me your stories.” She chuckles, coaxing him to sit as her hands hold his forearms. “You have some, don’t you? About the mittens. Of course you do.” She presses a kiss into his forehead. “And tomorrow, you’ll make this right again. Okay? Call. Write. Start with Kendall. Start anywhere.” Warmth blooms in her features and so they settle, stopping their bustling to reminisce.
“Now, go on. Remember the sweet things." It's useless to combat her smile. So he starts, telling her about when they went out in the cold and he taught them how to make snow angels. How their eyes brightened when they realized there was no restraint here, that they could enjoy themselves with all the giddiness in the world. And so, they made a routine of it. Every chance he got, trekking out of the house just to see the sparks in their eyes. Falling and laughing in snow. Even if it took up the whole afternoon, even if it left their faces red and chapped from the wind, their glow never left.
The next day Connor gathers up the courage to take Willa’s advice, and with a deep breath he dials the phone.
A voice on the other end appears. "Hello?"
"Uh, Kendall?" He's a little frantic, since he didn't expect him to pick up, honestly.
"Con? Are you alright?" He’s unsure exactly why Kendall felt compelled to ask, but he supposes maybe asking a question off the bat isn’t expected. Or, maybe it's the waver in his voice, on the edge of breaking, or the simple fact that he’s doing this at all.
"Yeah, of course. I'm sorry. I know it's a little out of the blue. Hey, uh, if you're busy I can always call back—" He backpedals. It’s too much to put onto him some random night, some odd years later.
"No." Kendall eases him, and takes a seat close to where he stands. "I'm good. We can talk."
Connor doesn’t speak right away, leaving a silence which Kendall scrambles to fill. “... Hey, um.” He exhales sharply. “Clearly you called for some reason, and if you don’t want to go through with it I’m not going to force you, but, it’d be nice. Y’know. To talk.”
He hates how tense he feels, how abnormal this has become. "I'm sorry, Kenny."
"Sorry? Why are you sorry? Don’t lie to me." Solid concern pools into his voice. And Connor can picture him like he’s right in front of him.
He weakens. He’s always had a tendency for this, to choke up when it comes down to it. “Gd.” He pinches the bridge of his nose momentarily. “Everything. All of it, Ken. I—I’m so sorry that I couldn’t stay. That I couldn’t be your big brother anymore. The way I used to be.”
“Connie… ” Kendall says, frowning slightly.
“Come on, Ken. You can’t do that to me.” Connor says, smiling sadly as he wipes away more stray tears from his eyes. “You just can’t. You know how I get.” The nickname feels charged, almost. As though it carries the weight of all the memories they forged when it was just him and Kendall.
“But I mean. You-you’ve always done enough. You were always there. You don’t have to worry about that.”
“But isn’t that all I’ve ever had, really? What else? What else have I done, or devoted myself to? As if I even did something that ever helped, that made you proud.” Connor huffs dismissively. “I’ve had my whole life to make things better, and what have I done? I retreated.”
“No, you didn’t. You made us a home, a real one. You always had our backs, and protected us.” It’s something Kendall has held close his whole life. And although he doesn’t talk about it with them, he knows Shiv and Roman house the same sentiment.
“But I just, I’ve been gone so long. So many things have happened and all I’ve wanted to do is ask. But, but, I don’t know. I just, I have some things of yours, from when you were kids, and I dunno. If you’d want them back, I can—I can… ” His chest is heavy. It’s leaden with just wanting to let it out, that he misses him. That he misses when they grew up, when he was their outlet, the doorway to the world beyond their walls. That really, his siblings are the only fond reminders of home. He covers his face momentarily, heaving out a watery sigh.
It’s ridiculous. Trying to rewind time, trying to force Kendall to understand after such a gap of time, or hell, choking up on the telephone. There’s just no easy way to say it. No way to put how he feels into words, especially if he can’t get it out. But honestly, there’s just a piece of him that’s never quite been filled. And while feeling completely whole is out of the question, closing the gap might help. It’s the only thing he’s holding onto.
Connor’s shoulders slump forward. “Just, forgive me, I guess. For how long it’s been.” Neither can deny that.
“Oh, Con. It’s—This? Please. None of it is your fault.” It’s all so much more than that. So much bigger than any of them can fathom, more than they can ever fully come to terms with.
“Still. I could’ve been there. I used to be.” He scoffs. “I don’t even know how you are.”
“You know I can’t blame you for that. Leaving.” Kendall reassures him. “I mean that.”
“So I guess that means things are hard, then.” Connor doesn’t even mean to jump there, it just happens. Because he’s the only one who had the chance.
“It means they’re like they’ve always been. I’m okay.” Kendall laughs softly, and it eases them both.
“Okay.” A small smile flicks to Connor’s face even as he tries to fight it. It’s a touch ironic, how Connor has to be reassured by Kendall now, when the roles were reversed growing up. He was always that figure, a pair of shoulders to be leaned into for comfort, looming above the rest.
And pretty soon, they slip into normal conversation. Trading simple anecdotes and jokes surrounding their current circumstances, time doesn’t quite rewind—but it does make it slow somehow. Laughter is easy, and somewhere they forget about the hurt that inspired the conversation in the first place.
Yet eventually, silence falls between them. Each brother tenses instinctively, fearing that the distance has been built between them again, that it’s too much to overcome. That they’ve waded deep enough that there’s nothing to fall back on; small talk can’t save them now.
“Connor?”
“Yeah?”
“Keep the things you have. My things. Okay?” Kendall pauses. “... And I miss you.” His heart tugs with guilt and fondness in tandem. And soon he’s spilling quiet tears of his own.
“I miss you, too.” Connor says finally, with a soft droop of his shoulders. The words are an exhale.
“So, um. Come back sometime. And uh, don’t be afraid to stay.” Kendall sniffs. “I’m sure the rest would want to catch up. You still have your place in the city, right? From when we were kids?”
“Yeah, yeah. I do.” Another instance of keeping pieces of the past. He doesn’t hesitate to smile, though.
“Good. Like old times, then.” Kendall says solidly.
“Yeah.” Connor nods to himself. “Yeah.”
“Honey? It’s snowing.” Willa calls sweetly, eyes and smile equally wide. It’s a sight that they aren’t graced with often, since they’re secluded from the depths of the mountainous ranges of the state, where snow collects on their peaks. He sneaks a glance through the windows and surely enough, light flakes dance to ground below them.
“Well, I won’t keep you.” Kendall’s voice is amused, hiding a chuckle. He’s heard Willa in the background. “But uh, can I count on you? Staying for a little while?”
“You can. I’ll let you know when, but it’ll be soon. I swear.” He’ll make it up to them, he knows he will. This time, he’s sure.
“I know. I always could.” The sentiment is enough to draw tears from them again. They’ve never tried to hide their proclivity for emotion, but it’s the rest that makes it stew in their stomachs—how attached it seems to be to when Kendall would collapse into his arms unthinkingly, with Connor already outstretched, ready for the weight—that makes it that much easier to falter. It’s not… sad, not happy either. Just the understanding that somehow they ended back up just like they used to be, with fragile arms instead of strong ones. When neither is big nor small, just something in between. Something a little too quick to break, something that toes the line between readiness and second-guessing, where both need something bigger to hold them up even when they stand heads above where they used to.
“Well, uh. Thanks, Kenny. I mean it. ” Connor says sheepishly. “Not just for this, even.”
“Take care of yourself, alright?” Kendall offers, like it’s a hand on the shoulder.
“I will.”
So that’s how they leave it. No intentional goodbye, yet it’s filled instead by knowing that this time, there’s a plan to return. He won’t let it slip from his hands or get shoved into boxes to become souvenirs of childhood. It’s as tangible as the phone in his hands or the snowflakes coming to rest on the landscape unexpectedly housing them.
He sidles comfortably up against Willa, and the two venture out into the cold. A shiver takes her by the shoulders and he pulls her close as they watch the snow fall gently. The mountains are far away, so the expanse of desert as it meets the sky—quickly blurring to white—seems to chase on forever. There’s nothing around to greet them, as though the world could swallow them up, and it’s not as though there isn’t an occasional wish for more beyond their windows, even when the sky is brilliantly blue. However, they’ve been granted another guest, even if it’s just fleeting snow that dissolves on their fingertips. They’ve been gone from the city for years now, and that’s a reminder on its own. But whereas the city goers let it gather on their clothes and hair without a second thought, almost with annoyance, Connor welcomes it—albeit childishly, without the thought of covering his hands—as an opening, a prospect, an occurrence that he can’t help answer with the tinge of laughter. “Huh.” He smiles, wondering if it’s snowing again in New York.
#gd bless please if you can please keep reading on my blog preview i know my desktop theme isnt very readable#anyway. i was insane for this#succession#my writing#could you all please. perhaps. give this a read.
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INVISIBLE - PART 3
Author’s Note: SORRY THIS IS LATE BUT I WAS BUSY MULTITASKING WRITING ANYWAYS IM SO HAPPY YOU ALL ARE LOVING THIS SERIES SO FAR AND OF COURSE IM GOING TO CONTINUE IT! HERES PART 3! ENJOY LOVES XXX M
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Invisible Masterlist
Masterlist
“Hey Siri”
“Yes?” I heard her say.
“FaceTime Isaiah” I said as I continued to search through my shoes.
“Do you mean ‘FaceTime Isaiah My Idiot Annoying Friend?’” Siri asked.
“Yes” I answered her.
“Okay. FaceTiming Isaiah My Idiot Annoying Friend”
I grabbed my converse sneakers and walked away from closet to my bed where my phone sat. I sat down on the bed next to my phone. I started to put on my sneakers.
Isaiah, annoying? All of the time. Isaiah, an idiot? Most of the time. I hoped he wouldn’t be an idiot in this moment. As much as I hated admitting it, I needed his advice.
I was about to go have tea or coffee with Harry, Kendall and their fancy friends. Correction: I was about to go have tea or coffee with Harry, Kendall and their fancy friends meaning that Harry and Kendall will probably be all cute and flirty with each other while their friends judge me and be passive aggressive at me. I was expecting the worse and I needed someone who saw the bright side of things. That person happened to be Isaiah. I mean, who else could get me go to a party I didn’t want to go to in the first place while I had a cut lip and yet managed to get the man I liked to talk to me? Isaiah did. I needed his help. I needed a lot of his help to get me through today. The question was if he wanted to help me. He missing my past five calls pointed to no. It might be last minute but I decided to call him again. I was desperate. I was drowning in my own anxiety.
“Hola. It is I” I heard Isaiah say in a cheery tone.
I looked to my phone to see Isaiah with his Afro hair in a bun. He must have just woken up. He usually had his hair down. I picked up my phone.
“You’re finally awake I see” I commented, referring to my missed calls. “Was your phone off?”
“Yes actually” Isaiah answered. “My sleep is more important than my phone”
I gave him a fake smile.
“Well, thanks for answering last second” I said to him. “I needed your help”
“Oooh” Isaiah said, becoming intrigued. “Are you going to see Harry again?”
“Yup” I answered him. “And Kendall. And all her model high class friends” I added, becoming more sarcastic with each sentence. “This will be fun”
“Wait. . .he’s still with her?” Isaiah asked, surprised. “I thought he would leave her by now”
“Well, we’re both wrong” I told him. “Anyways I need advice. You hung out with her at the party while Harry and I got ice. What did you two talk about?”
“We didn’t” Isaiah answered. “It was only Anna and I talking. Anna left when you two came back. Kendall was just giving us weird looks. Didn’t I tell you this?”
Looks. If she gave Isaiah looks, who did practically nothing to her, what was she going to give me? I’m more to Harry than what Isaiah is.
I looked to my alarm clock that was on my bedside table. 12:34 PM. In less than thirty minutes I was about to see Harry and Kendall. I wanted to back out. I couldn’t. Harry was probably on his way here already.
“I just wanted to give her a look back” Isaiah added. “She was rude”
“Great. I can expect rude looks from her and her friends then” I said, not at all being excited.
“That’s the spirit!” Isaiah cheered me on. “You should bump into her on purpose”
I let out a chuckle.
“I’m not going to do that” I told him. “I’m too kind to. Besides Harry would probably stop talking to me then”
“I still don’t see why. I would do it” Isaiah said. “Get hot coffee on her shirt”
Before I could even respond, our FaceTime got interrupted by another call. Harry was calling.
He couldn’t be here already, could he?
“Oh my god,” I said in fear. “Harry’s calling”
“Answer him then” Isaiah said.
“I don’t want to” I said back. “I’m scared of going now”
“Answer and go Y/N” Isaiah said. “What do you have to lose? They already seen you with a cut lip”
I took a sharp exhale.
“Okay” I said. “But can you call me in an hour? I can’t spend forever there”
“Adios” Isaiah said, hanging up the call on me before he could answer.
I had nothing else to do except answer Harry’s call.
I pressed the green accept button and held the phone to my ear.
“Hi!” I said, trying to be enthusiastic. “Sorry, I answered last second. I was in the middle of something”
“Figur’ed yeh were” Harry admitted. “I’m outside. Do yeh need a moment? I could wait”
“No, no” I answered. “I’m coming down now. I’ll see you in a minute”
“Al’right. I’m right outside” Harry said. “Range Rover”
“Okay. I’m coming” I said.
I pressed the red button, ending the phone call. I looked into my bedroom’s mirror, checking myself for the last time. I think I looked good. I didn’t wear to much gloss. My mascara made my eyes pop out more. I came off as natural. My intention was to be natural. Relaxed. Not worried.
I looked down, tightening my grip on my phone. I let out a sigh.
I shouldn’t worry. What will happen, will happen. I can’t and won’t be able to change it. Can I?
To say the car ride here was me being the most nervous I ever was would be a lie. I actually talked with Harry in the car. I didn’t have to worry about offending anyone. Well, I didn’t have to worry about offending Harry. He always makes me feel safe and welcomed. It was only him and I in the car anyway, unlike here. Here, besides Harry and I, was Kendall, Jeff, Glenne, Hailey, Bella and another Harry. Harry Hudson, to be more specific.
I knew none of them. I mean, I knew who they were and what they did but I actually didn’t know them. I still didn’t understand why Harry thought it was a good idea to bring me along. Apparently, everyone else didn’t understand either. The second Harry and I stepped into Kendall’s place, everyone looked confused. Kendall crossed her arms at the sight of me. I caught a glimpse of her along as Bella, Harry Hudson and Jeff raise their eyebrows at Harry and I in shock. I understood they didn’t expect or want me here but they didn’t have to give me mean looks. They stared at me as if I was a threat, except for Hailey. Hailey came off as nice and sweet the second we met. I think she was the only one who actually didn’t mind I was here or at least I didn’t think I was invisible to her.
I sipped my cup of tea again. It must have been the twentieth time I did so in the last thirty minutes. I was that thirsty to be clear. In fact, the tea was a little bit bitter for me. I had regretted telling Harry I wanted two sugars instead of three. The tea only made the situation worse for me. I would stop drinking but I needed a distraction. Instead of looking at Harry being cuddled up by Kendall, I looked down at my cup of tea. It was a silly distraction but it helped me cope. It was certainly better than crying.
“Our wedding was everything I dreamed of” Hailey continued to gush. “We were both tearing up from happiness during the reception”
I smiled at her story. She was telling me about her and Justin’s wedding that happened two weeks ago. It was an island wedding. Everyone here beside me went. So, of course, she told me about it. I didn’t mind the story. I actually enjoyed it and was glad she was happy. It kind of gave me hope that maybe that we all could have our happily ever after. Maybe. It was a maybe for me.
“It was beautiful” Bella commented. “If it wasn’t for you two, Abel and I wouldn’t get together again after our fight”
“Wait, I thought you two were already together by then” Harry Hudson told her.
“No. We were on a little break before the wedding” Bella said. “Kenny and Harry were too”
Wait . . .Kenny and Harry as in Kendall and Harry? On break? When were they on break? I thought Kendall and Harry began to date the second she left her ex. This didn’t make sense. It didn’t make sense unless-
“You’re getting the mixed up” Kendall said to him. “I told you this before on the phone but you never listen”
“I’ll explain” Glenne interrupted. “Kendall and Harry reconnected when she had a fight with Ben. Then she broke things off with Ben and Harry and her got together”
“Told you” Kendall said to him. “Maybe you should listen next time”
Kendall looked to Harry.
“At least we found a way back to each other” Kendall said to him.
Harry smiled at her with his eyes glowing with admiration.
“We always do” He told her.
I turned my head away from them to my cup again.
I was shocked. No, I was astonished. Actually, enraged. It all made sense. It all made sense and I couldn’t believe it. Kendall cheated on her ex with Harry. Then she left him for Harry. She cheated with Harry on her ex. Harry helped her cheat. He did that. He knew that. He rather be with someone who was already with somebody than anyone else. Oh my god.
I felt my bottom lip start to tremble. I felt my eyes start to water. I felt my heart beat faster. I couldn’t cry. I couldn’t cry in front of everyone. Not now. They would immediately relate it to what was just said. I needed a moment. I needed an excuse for a moment.
“Is there a bathroom?” I asked.
Everyone looked to me. Kendall raised an eyebrow at me. She then looked to Hailey.
“Can you show her Hailey?” Kendall asked her.
“Sure” Hailey smiled.
Hailey and I got up from the couch. I followed her as she walked to the bathroom. She opened the door for me.
“Here” Hailey said. “Take your time”
“Thanks” I said to her.
I entered the bathroom and closed the door behind me. I locked it. I bursted into tears, feeling several tears roll down my cheeks. I pressed my hands against my chest, trying to gain a steady breath.
I didn’t understand Harry. How could he do something like that? He chose to be with her when with someone else. Why? Why would anyone do that? Why did he? He could have anyone else but he chose her. Her. Kendall. Why was Kendall better than anyone else? She acts rude to people she doesn’t know. She wasn’t faithful and cheated in her past relationship. She acted so privileged and ignorant at times. It made no sense why Harry would choose her. She wasn’t his type. Harry’s kind and treated people with acceptance and respect. She didn’t. Why would he be with someone like her if she didn’t share his ideals? Why?
I looked into the bathroom mirror. My cheeks were flushed out red with my eyes almost bloodshot. My mascara was starting to run down my face. I had to stop crying. I couldn’t go back out with mascara on my face. I had to fix it. Thank god for Kendall being a model, she left the makeup remover wipes on her shelves. I grabbed some and started to wipe away the mascara stains on my cheeks. I couldn’t stay here anymore. I couldn’t afford to allow myself to cry in the bathroom again. Especially, not in Kendall’s apartment. I had to find a way to leave. I needed an excuse. My family, I thought. Harry knew I had a niece and nephew. He knew how close I must be with them. He could not force me to stay when I have to take care of them in a case of an family emergency. He had to let me go, especially when I would have an Uber outside waiting for me.
I carefully wiped the ruined mascara under my eye off. I could lie about my bloodshot eyes and puffy cheeks and say my allergies were acting up. I quickly threw away the used makeup wipes and took my phone out of my back pocket. I unlocked it. I ordered an Uber for myself quickly. I had four minutes until it would be here. Four minutes. Four minutes I had to explain why I had to leave.
I unlocked the door and exited the bathroom. I managed keep my breathing at a steady breath as I walked towards the living room. The sound of laughter made me more anxious of what I was about to say. Before I could say anything, Harry, Hailey and Bella looked to me. Harry and Hailey instantly became concerned at the sight of me. To my surprise, Harry removed himself from Kendall’s arms and got up from the couch, rushing over to me. Hailey got up from the couch too and did the same as me. Kendall stood up as well. She remained behind Harry with her arms crossed. The rest were either too hesitant or confused to do anything.
“Yeh okay?” Harry asked me. “Yeh look like yeh were crying”
“I am” I said. “It’s just my allergies flaring up” I lied.
Kendall squinted her eyes at me.
“Allergies?” Hailey asked. “How bad are your allergies are that it made your eyes red?”
I forced out a chuckle, trying to go on with my lie.
“Very bad” I answered her. “I have to go anyways”
“Yeh have to leave?” Harry asked, sounding a bit hurt. “Yeh just got here”
“It’s a family emergency” I said. “My sister has some sort of virus and wants to go to the hospital. So I have to take care of her kids”
“Ugh, that sucks” Hailey commented. “I was just getting to know you”
“It does” I admitted. “Sorry”
“Maybe Harry could bring you along to the Gucci afterparty later this week” Hailey suggested. “I’ll be there”
Kendall’s eyes widened at Hailey in shock.
“Umm Hail,” Kendall protested. “I don’t think Y/N would want to be dragged to that. It’s crazy there and she wouldn’t know anyone”
Harry looked to Kendall, then to me and finally looked to Hailey.
“I think that’s a good idea, Hailey” Harry said, disagreeing with Kendall. “And she knows us. We’re all friends”
“It’s exclusive though” Kendall pointed out to him. “It’s a miracle you even got in, H”
“Yeah but it said on the card I could bring someone” Harry told her.
Kendall stepped back away from Harry. She raised her eyebrows and looked to Bella. Something told me that wasn’t a good sign. Harry looked to me. His green eyes intimidated me more and more with each passing second.
“Will yeh?” Harry asked me. “Will yeh come with me’h?”
I didn’t know what to say. Yes, if I wanted to still be friends with him despite knowing I will get hurt again and knowing what he had done with Kendall. No, if I wanted to ruin our friendship and him to question my true feelings for him. Both options seemed equally worse.
“I have to think about it” I said to him. “I have to go. My ride is outside. Bye”
I walked away from Harry and Hailey before they could hug me or say goodbye. I walked out of Kendall’s apartment and headed to the elevator. I let out a deep breath.
I’m in love with a cheater. What was wrong with me?
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Messy 5
“@LaurenJauregui Do you watch Keeping Up with the Kardashians?”
Lauren has been told a million times, by possibly everyone she knows to stop lurking on Twitter so much. Or in social media, in general. She knows how mean and so rude everyone could be with the protection of anonymity of the internet. She knows what trolling is. And by all means, she is highly aware how some posts can easily get to her.
But, it’s where she can connect to strangers all the time. And it’s where she can find some random happiness.
And honestly… no one can literally tell Lauren what not to do.
Also, in Lauren’s defense… she was just retweeting some chart data, and positive response on their new single. So it wasn’t her fault that she saw that ‘random’ tweet in her mentions.
She was staring at the tweet a little longer than she had liked. Even ‘accidentally’ clicked on it. And she’s not even gonna lie that her fingers have been hovering to the keyboard for a while now without typing anything. She’s tempted to reply a simple ‘No.’. But one-word replies aren’t her thing. ‘No. Should I?’ She thinks. A little hope. Don’t be a snob. But then, she shakes her head. She can’t engage in things like this. If she had managed to not reply to any Kendall-related questions in the internet, regardless of the mentions she got when they hangout together, or the pictures and edits people tag her into in Instagram; she wouldn’t be baited by this. Shouldn’t. (After all the shit she gets at replying to haters getting under her skin? Yeah, no… No more.)
“Lauren! Lauren! Lauren!”
Lauren bites back a smile when she hears Dinah entering her room. Thank God for the distraction.
She hears Ally and Normani arguing behind.
“Lauren, would you rather live on a cold-snowy place for the rest of your life or—”
“That’s a dumb question. She’d somewhere be tropical. She grew up in Miami!”
“Exactly! It’s why she’d want to have a change of sceneries—”
Lauren doesn’t know what’s happening but Dinah cuts them off and says, “Lolo, are you in, or are you out?”
Lauren blinks back at her and says, “I’m gonna regret asking… but of what?”
Dinah stops in front of her and keeps her hand behind her back, completely ignoring the other two girls, with the other reaching for Lauren’s hand, but Lauren crosses her arms in front of her, while looking up.
“Uh-ah. Nope. No time for questions, just actions. Are you in or out?”
Lauren raises her eyebrow at how her blonde bandmate looks right now. “Considering the last time you said that, you had called a pizza delivery guy, made ME pay for it, and declared, ‘Surprise! You now have 10-minutes to get to know each other. This is Dinah Jane’s Awesome Dating Game!’, I’m gonna say ‘No!’”
Dinah pulls out handkerchief she was hiding behind her back, grinning, and says, “Yeah. Well like always, I don’t care. You’re already in!!”
She grabs Lauren and spins her around to put the blindfold on her eyes. She slaps Lauren’s hand when she would try to touch the blindfold. “Seriously Lauren. Would it kill you to say, ‘Yeah Dinah! Let’s do it!!’” Dinah says as she tries to imitate what an excited Lauren would sound like – or so she thought. “We’d have a much better moment right now.” Dinah ties the blindfold and taps Lauren’s shoulders.
Lauren didn’t even had the energy in her to fight this because she knows her efforts will be futile.
“So remember the time I asked you what you’re allergic to?”
Lauren opens her mouth, but Dinah beats her to it. “Yeah. Don’t worry. You won’t be eating any of that today.”
They were texting each other, almost regularly. And Kendall’s gotta admit that she considers Lauren as one of her really good friends now. In a short amount of time, Lauren has managed to sneak her way passed Kendall’s heart.
They were talking about Kendall’s family trip in Ecuador, when Lauren sent a screenshot to her.
‘@LaurenJauregui Do you watch Keeping up with the Kardashians?’
Lauren Potato: Should I?
Kendall: NO
Lauren Potato: I’m pretty sure somewhere in your contract is your obligation to promote it.
Kendall: I think we’ll do just fine even without your view.
Lauren Potato: Hmmm. Well you can’t stop me so.
Kendall: I swear if you do, You’d be a mash potato.
Lauren Potato: looking at where I can stream it now as we speak
“You guys have been texting a lot.” Hailey says, as she sits behind Kendall on the coach. Both just wrapped up their shoot.
“Look at this.” Kendall momentarily forgets their current conversation, instead she smiles as she scrolls up and shows her friend her conversation with Lauren. Lauren had just sent a picture of her with a baby. “They had a morning show in New York, and she literally stopped on the street when she saw a lady and a baby.”
“Cute” Hailey commented as she clicks on the picture. She turns to Kendall when the taller girl continues to tell her about the singer’s apparent love of babies. She then takes note at how her friend is obviously entranced by her new-found friendship.
“So when are we meeting her?” Hailey asks. When Kendall looked confused so she continues, “Dude, you won’t stop talking about her. We gotta see if she’s as amazing as you paint her to be.”
Kendall chuckles at this and says, “We’re barely in the same city anymore.”
“Your birthday is coming up. She’d be there?”
“That’s perfect! Oohhh!! You’re gonna love her!”
Clearly not as much Kendall does.
Lauren got a text from Kendall, inviting her to the model’s birthday party two weeks from now. She asks their handler if she is free that day and she learns that Ally has a show already scheduled and the girls all agreed to come and support.
So an hour later, she replies to Kendall.
Lauren: Sorry, can’t :( but I do have a gift for you that I think you’d like ❤️
Lauren remembers some random fans hounding her on the model’s upcoming birthday. It’s why she knew the girl’s birthday is coming even a month away. So Lauren may have had time to look for a gift. She knew she couldn’t compete with what other people gives Kendall. That girl just got a Rolls Royce from a random stranger on her birthday. But Lauren has been told by her friends that she gives the best gifts.
‘It’s Kendall’s birthday soon. Who’s waiting for Lauren’s long ass post?’
'Lol. Ally has a show on that day.’
'Watch it become Taymila 2.0’
She’s been through this all her life. Studying in a private school surrounded by rich kids, she’s always felt a little insecure when their birthdays are coming knowing she can’t buy anything her usual classmates can buy. Or host a big-bash birthday party of her own when it’s her turn. So she’s always made effort when it comes to their birthdays instead.
She’s sentimental. And her gift may not be at 5 figures, but she hopes Kendall would appreciate it. Just as she appreciates the friendship they have in a short amount of time.
Kenny: You have a show? I have tons of single friends I can hook you up with!!
Right. So Kendall might have mentioned that she would like to introduce Lauren to her friends because they were talking about Lauren’s ‘Miami crew’ and Kendall said, that Lauren would definitely fit right in to her friends. Lauren will never admit but she had heard of Kendall’s ‘squad’ and she knows it’ll be like high school all over again.
Lauren: Uh-huh. No thanks. I told you I’d be single for a year.
Lauren: Ally does. And we’re all coming to support.
Kenny: Where? But can’t you swing by like even at midnight? The party’s probably just starting by then. You can bring them if you want.
Lauren: I’m not sure, Ken. 😔 but i’ll mention it to them.
Kenny: mmkay. 😔😔 miss you.
Lauren: ❤️❤️ miss you too
And okay, maybe Lauren feels a little guilty for the relief she had when she knew she already has an excuse at the model’s birthday. As much as she enjoys Their conversations and little games, being friends with Kendall is giving her anxiety.
Three days later, Kendall tries not to be disappointed that Lauren isn’t coming to her birthday. She had been looking forward to it.
She gets a photo from Lauren, and at first she thought it was the picture of her gift. Lauren had been teasing her about it all day. — or Kendall has been pestering Lauren about it all day, rather
When she opens it though, she didn’t expect to see a picture of a laptop with her younger self on it. She immediately recognized that it’s from the early seasons of Keeping Up with the Kardashians.
She immediately replied to it.
Kendall: YOU DID NOT
Lauren Potato: OH YES I DEFINITELY DID.
She then got a series of pictures:
Of her younger self kicking Brody in the crotch.
of herself picking up dog’s poop
Of her wearing those awful color combinations. Whoever said those were cool must have been crazy
Kendall: Oh God 😂😂 Stop
Lauren Potato: I’m totally here for Khloe. I’m ctfu whenever she’s on. You’re ok
Kendall: she’s the life of the show. Haha
Lauren Potato: but you definitely get points for this. AWWW
Lauren Potato: AND THIS IS GOLDEN. 'YES IT DOES. IT’S PAPER. OMG’
Kendall barely remembers this but based on what Lauren had sent her. It was that time where she’s asking her dad for some money, and her dad made her work for it by doing her chores. Her dad would pay her double the amount of what it usually costs to cut Kendall some slack.. In her defense, the dog walking has been great until she saw the opportunity of having someone else do it for her. She blames it on the entrepreneur skills she got from her mother. Of course, all good thins come to an end when her dad comes home early and caught the helper Kendall hired to the chores for her. As punishment for playing him, she has to pick up dog poop.
Lauren Potato: I didn’t know this show is occasionally funny!
Few days later and it was Kendall’s turn.
Kenny: UHMMM WHY DO YOU LOOK LIKE THIS AT 14????
Lauren suddenly felt her heart beat stop and got nervous as she saw the picture. She looked very young and she was sure that was before X Factor.
She stares at the picture, trying to remember where it was from. She clumsily types a reply and had to rewrite three times over because of her typos
Lauren: …where TF did you get that?
Kenny: people tag me in this
Kenny: you guys did not even hit puberty, I cant even deal…
A sigh of relief came from Lauren’s mouth. She now remembers it’s the video Alexa made for her birthday. But that was what? A decade ago? How did people even…
Lauren: uhmmmmm excuse me but didn’t you start modelling at 14?
Lauren: AND STOP LOOKING AT PICTURES OF A 14 YR OLD ME!!
Lauren: PS. Alexa clearly skipped puberty, while I had rabbit teeth and bushy eyebrows.
Kenny: Hey, I told you to not watch the show and you still did…
Kenny: WTF are you kidding? If someone had told you you were ugly back then, then their beauty standards must have been impossible to compete w. If we were standing side by side, people would have picked you, no doubt.
Lauren: SIS, the 14 yr old you was on a reality show. Im sure you have no control over it, and im sorry, but those videos are like public record now. While the 14 yr old me is minding my own business.
Lauren: I had ‘passing looks’ enough not to be bullied every single day. But I wasn’t a head-turner. And I grew up in Miami………
Kenny: yeah, sometimes I hate being part of it. It wasn’t certainly something I was proud to flaunt at at school, growing up. And how people w cameras and equipment are all over the house every single time, it kinda made me feel anxious.
Kenny: and wdym?
Lauren: oh shit. Then I really feel sorry. It must have been weird growing up on that. I remember we had this thing when we were just starting. Where this camera crew will follow us around all the time and try to make a story out of it, it made me feel weird, cos I felt like I should play a role when the camera is on? And I cant really be myself. I cant imagine living through that everyday
To be honest, it’s why Lauren doesn’t want to hangout at Kendall’s place. She feels like there’ll be hidden cameras in there. And it’s one thing to be seen at public with Kendall, one thing to hangout in private, and totally another if she’s seen on the show. Though she knows she wouldn’t be on the show without her knowing, she still feel anxious over it. She’s embarrassed to say this to Kendall so every time the taller girl would invite her, she would always come up with an excuse.
Lauren: I love that place but lol, I wish it was all about who’s smart and pretty instead. But I told you I grew up w rich kids, and we werent rich. You know that novel The Clique? It was all about designer clothes and bags and luxury cars and who has the biggest house. I know you cant relate, but imagine not having that. Anyway, I was lucky enough to have friends that didn’t look at your financial statement to include me in their group.
Kenny: YES. It’s exactly what I feel sometimes, it’s why I feel weird hanging around uor own house. Bec it’s where youre supposed to feel safe and be comfortable but I wasn’t?? Cos it made me conscious that it is being filmed and that it’ll forever be there. Or when sometimes we have to do things and say things?? And im lile, why do I have to script my own private life?
Kenny: dude, everyone had this impression that we were rich right from the start? We started off somewhere in the middle class too. Im not gonna lie and say we struggled, but we we werent this rich snobs, everyone painted us to be. And okay, maybe we werent the most approachable to the public either.. Regardless of how we had money, Kim really helped our family out. Its only by 2015/2016 that we really started buyung things on our own.
Lauren: you know what’s weird is that nobody told us how crazy this life would be 😂 I mean I love my job but I swear, if I had known any better, I would have chosen something else instead. I remember when fans would ask for an advice on ‘how to make it’ and i’d be like, are you sure you want this?? Like this doesn’t look as easy and as pretty as it does. Instead, I HAVE TO SAY, ‘oh wow. Follow your dreams. Just do what your heart wants.’ I gag a little in my mouth
–
They were laughing at something when Ally said, ‘are you staying the whole night?’
Lauren was confused at this and says, ‘uhm… yeah?! I’m definitely up for an after-party!’ In which she high-fived with Normani who then twerked a little after. The girls cheered.
‘Oh. I just thought you’d come to Kendall’s birthday’, Ally says as she shrugs casually.
The girls were silent for awhile and it made Lauren feel uneasy. “Oh come on. I told you I’d be here for you!”
“And you were. I appreciate it. But it’s fine–”
“Yeah. She invited me. And I told her I’m unavailable 'cause I wanted to spend the night with you guys.”
One of the main reason Lauren didn’t want to attend Kendall’s party is the talk people are inevitable gonna have if she was seen there and not here. This was their last 'era’ together. And she’d rather spend every waking moment of it with them than with any other posse. It’s gonna look bad for her, and she didn’t want the girls thinking anything else. She knows she’s overthinking it, but she wouldn’t risk it.
She knew the backslash Camila got within the fandom when she was included in 'Taylor’s squad.’
She shakes her head at the thought rushing through her. This is why Kendall is bad for her anxiety. As much as she wants to say 'fuck everyone else. I know my truth’, she can’t help it.
“Well, what are we waiting for? This boot-ey needs to be shaken!” Normani says clearing the tension.
–
“Dude, where’s your potato?” Bella asks as she puts her arm around Kendall.
Kendall locks her phone after seeing that the said potato hasn’t texted her anything. She even checked Instagram while she was on glam, but the girl hasn’t posted anything. But who cares? She has all her friends in here with her. Her family having fun and no one is having any drama. She doesn’t care.
“She has a show. Or her friend has. And they were there to support or whatever.” Kendall hides her disappointment with a straight go at her drink.
“But is she coming?” Bella asks as she steadies herself. Kendall takes the drink from her friend and tells someone to go get them some water. “You know, we’ve been teasing our very own Lauren that we’d be meeting your new Lauren!”
Kendall stares blankly at her clearly drunk friend who was wiggling her eyebrows at her. Or trying… because her eyes are hooded and she looked like she was blinking so fast.
“Okay babe. You wanna sit down a bit?” Kendall says as she puts her hand to her friend’s waist and leads them to the couch.
“Don’t change the subject, Kenny!”
They dropped down at the couch at the VVIP section as Kendall waits for the water.
“We’re gonna make this photo… you know that meme where two people point at each other and was like shocked and you know. Like Margot Robbie? and Jaime Pressly?? Have you seen that? It was so funny!!”
Kendall taps her friend’s head who was resting on her shoulder. She hums and said. “Yeah. But it’ll only be funny if they looked alike. Lauren and… Lauren only has the same name.” At first, when Kendall was picturing introducing Lauren to the her friends, she had thought that it’ll be funny to introduce Lauren to Lauren… But now she felt weird saying their names in the same sentence.
“Daniel said we should call the new Lauren by her last name because it’s hot. How do you pronounce it though?”
“Maybe you guys should stop calling her the 'new Lauren’. I don’t think she’d appreciate that… and Lauren…” Kendall grimaces as she falls onto the trap, “Our Lauren won’t appreciate it either. 'Cause calling someone new makes it seem like we’re replacing her. And we’re not. okay?”
“I think you should tell her that. This new Lauren is all you could talk about.” Bella says as she settles comfortably onto Kendall.
The water arrives and Kendall hands it to Bella. “She’s not all I talk about.”
“Whatever. But our Lauren misses you… and do you? Miss her too?”
Of course Kendall does.
LaKe: Kendall Jenner and Lauren Perez
Kendall Jenner’s girlfriend Lauren Perez
Kendall Jenner seen with rumored girlfriend…
She knows the rumor of them dating took a toll on how close their relationship is. And so many things had happened last year.
“Hey babe! There you are! Khloe is finally here and we should take a picture!” Kylie comes in. Noticing Bella’s state, she asks, “Is she okay?”
“YUP!” Bella says as she pops the 'p’, and smiles dreamily at Kylie, while Kendall shakes her head.
“Can we call someone to look out for her first?”
–
“Hey Dinah?”
“Hmmm?” Dinah says as she puts Lauren on her bed. They had a great night off, and as always, Dinah took care of the rest of the girls.
“I don’t know if I had told you this, but I really wanna thank you for supporting me in everything.”
Dinah laughs at this as she struggles to remove Lauren’s shoes. “Okay there. Let me get my phone so I could snapchat this.”
Lauren sits up immediately and groans as she feels her head pound. “But for real. You’re so supportive of me, you know? Like you’re always happy for me. In everything I do. Ever work I do. And whoever I’m with, you’re always, 'Awww Lauren. I’m so happy for you!’ and you don’t judge.”
Dinah had to stop a moment when Lauren used her baby voice on her. It’s been so long. And okay, more importantly, Lauren might have been drunk off her ass. Dinah contemplates on getting her phone, but she forgets where it is right now. Damn.
Dinah sees that Lauren is looking at her softly, even with hooded eyes.
“Aw come on, Lolo. That what friends are for. Or sisters rather. We support each other. I mean, you’re with us, even though we all know you could’ve been with Kendall and all the right people.”
“I guess I’m a little afraid.” Lauren replies softly
“Of what?” Dinah asks as she successfully drops the first shoe on the floor. Lauren really had to wear this boots today, huh?
“That we’ll never be like this again?”
Dinah grunts as she works on the other shoe and says, “What do you mean?”
“I guess, one of the reasons why I stuck with this group, other than we had no choice, is that even though it sucks, it’s that we’re all there for each other, you know? Bad times and great times. And I know our friendship will always be there. But… when we’re all working on our own thing. And we’d be performing alone. And going to after-party’s. Who’s gonna take care of me? I just… I hate being alone.”
Dinah then stops pulling Lauren’s shoe and finally looks up to Lauren. “Hey. You’re never alone. And I’ll be there on your first performance! Just as I expect you to be at mine. And Ally’s. And Normani’s.”
Dinah gently pushes Lauren so the girl can lie down.
“But it’s not the same?” Lauren says as she puts her arm to cover her eyes
“It’ll be for the better.”
Lauren sure hope so.
–
Kendall sighs tiredly as she walks up to her bedroom. It’s barely 4am and her energy has run out.
The party has been a blast but she wonders if she should just keep it lowkey next year. She laughs at this because she knows it’s always what she had always said every night after her birthday, but never follows on it.
She jumps in surprise as she opens the light and she sees a giant potato plushie sitting on her bed. She tries to calm her heart as she walks slowly towards it. She had crazy experiences with fans but then she immediately thought of the green-eyed girl missing-in-action today.
She touches the plushie and grabs the card next to it with a curly handwriting all over it.
‘Happy birthday Kenny!!! (You damn scorpio lmao) here’s a cutie potato to accompany you when I couldn’t!) Thank you for the crazy genuine friendship! I didn’t expect to have this fun, worthwhile, amazing experiences with you! I honestly don’t know what I did to deserve you! Here’s to more late night/middle of the day conversations regardless of the time zones, to funny stories and crazy adventures!! Love always, your potato xx’
She suddenly felt her heart beat faster and went for her phone. She winces in pain as she stumbles on the edge of her bed and whispers, “Damn Jauregui.”
She dials her number and waits for the other girl to pick up.
And when she did, Kendall couldn’t help but smile so big.
She puts her phone to loudspeaker and squeezes her big plushie. Her heart flutters at how the plushie smells like Lauren.
“What the fuck? What time is it?” She hears Lauren groan at the other side.
“That’s the worst way to greet someone on her birthday” Kendall chuckles.
Kendall hears some muffled sound from the other line.
‘Oh my god I love Dinah.’
A gulp
‘Shut up Lauren’
“Wait a sec” Lauren says.
A soft thud
‘Dinah I think I’ve just broken my ankle’
‘Aw! Did you just hit me with my own pillow?’
‘Lauren get the fuck outta here!’
‘This is my room!’
‘OUCH! Did you just hit me again?’
‘If you don’t keep it down, you’re gonna be sleeping in your couch!’
Kendall laughs at this.
“Sorry. Dinah took care of me. And she just kicked me out of my room.”
“I got your gift.”
Lauren’s voice was hoarse as she says, “Mm-yeah? Did you like it?”
“I love you” Kendall says sincerely.
A moment.
“I’m guessing I nailed it, huh?” Lauren laughs.
“How did you–?”
“I talked to Jen. And she let me in when you left for the party. I dropped by before I went to Ally’s show. Did you really like it?”
“It’s the best gift I’ve ever gotten.”
Lauren snorts and says, “I’m sure.”
“It is!”
They both laugh, when Lauren says, “Can we catch up tomorrow?”
“Okay.” Kendall says with content.
Before she hangs up, Lauren stops her.
“What?” Kendall asks.
A pause.
Then she hears Lauren singing softly to her in Spanish.
“Happy birthday, Kenny. I really hope you had a great day.”
Realizing it now. Kendall wouldn’t have it any other way.
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Birthday
A/N
Updates will be slower from now on, there’s a lot going on my life, I know I said I’ll update every week but it’s hard to keep up because everything is on me right now. I’m so sorry, I’ll try my best to write when everything is alright.
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Deep breathes, that was what you needed right now. All eyes were on you, as the girls pushed you up against the lockers, spit flying out of their mouths. You closed your eyes, trying to calm your nerves, even if they were shouting across your face, you couldn’t hear anything.
The eyes and smiles on their faces made your heart hammer against your chest in fear, your rugged breathes getting heavier with each word that came out of their mouths. Suddenly, it stopped, the spit across your face stopped. The punching stopped, you opened your eyes finding a tall body infront of you as you sunk onto the floor feeling the pain all coming at once. Everything felt like it was burning, the pain taking over your fragile and bruised body.
Voices were shouting here and there, the only thing you remembered before the darkness came over you was a pair of concerned beautiful brown eyes.
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“When will she wake up?” A concerned voice said.
“Soon. It’s just been a few hours, she will be alright.” A deeper voice said before footsteps were traced after that.
“I hope so.” The voice whispered softly as it made closer to you.
You tried to open your eyes to be greeted with bright lights and soreness of your body bringing you down from doing anything. Your eyes slowly focused to find white walls and a girl beside you with a small smile on her face. The room was familiar, it was the room you always came too after getting a small beating, you huffed knowing it was the second time this week.
“Hi, Y/N.” She said softly as she brushed your hair out of your face.
“Hi.” You croaked out, throat dry and in pain.
She quickly got a cup of water and place it at your mouth, as you slowly sat up feeling everything hurt. It never got this bad, it usually was just a few punches. You swallowed the cool water down your throat feeling better.
You looked at the girl to find those pair of eyes once again, she seemed to look familiar. Your eyes focused once again on her face, finding those pair of eyes curiously looking back at you. ‘Shit’ you thought, it was Kendall Jenner. She was one of the popular kids, why was she doing here? Is she here to mock you?
“Are you alright?” She whispered quietly, in fear.
“Er Yeah? Erm what are you doing here?” You croaked out, as you saw her flinch when you asked her why she was here.
“I was just worried. You look bad but seem to be so bea… st…” You couldn’t hear the rest of the words that rolled off her tongue. Her eyes seem watery, and her face was pale looking.
You swallowed an invisible lump, throat feeling dry again but this time you felt bad. It was as if you were the one that made those beautiful eyes watery and those tears on the verge of coming down on her pale cheeks.
“Hey, I’m okay.” You said trying to assure her, you felt your stomach flutter as her eyes looked into yours. “Thanks for bringing me here and saving me.” You said assumingly.
“No, it’s alright. I-I just did what I could.” She said smiling, those tears seem to be gone. Her eyes sparkled under the bright lights.
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After that day, you seemed to notice Kendall more even if she was one of the more popular kids. She would always smile and wave at you when you were in her sight. Sometimes she would try to start a conversation with you than be with her friends that were just giggling at you. You tried to brush her off yet how could you ignore someone that actually cared about you. How could you ever resist those warm brown eyes that seemed to make your stomach flutter or pouty lips she had when she pouted at you when you would give her short answers.
Her endless trying only made you a little happier that she wanted to talk to you. Some days of talking became everyday, she would try to talk to you, trying to get to know you. She would laugh at every little joke you made and sometimes she would look away and she would stutter infront of you. You wondered why but you did know a reason why but it was impossible that something like that would happen because it was way too cliché.
Maybe it was cliché but the endless nights you had thinking about her, every expression she had was stamped into your head. The little conversations ran through your head and the little texts she sent you at night made your heart patter lightly at your chest. You couldn’t ignore the small smile you had at every thought of her.
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“Hey Y/N.” She said as you reached your locker, she was extra cute today with her hair in a messy bun and her short skirt that brought everyone’s eyes on her which you made you feel some kind of way. Though you couldn’t blame them because it was sight to behold, you scanned her body up and down as she talked about something.
“Y/N?” She snapped you out of your trance. A red tint covered her face as she realised what you were doing.
“Er what? I’m sorry, wait I didn’t mean to. I’m sorry.” You said embarrassed looking down at your feet, trying to shut your rambling up.
You felt fingers pushing your chin up, forcing you to look up into her big brown eyes. “It’s alright, I don’t mind if it’s you.” She said shyly, the blush on her face getting redder by every single word.
“R-really?” You stuttered like an idiot.
She giggled and nodded, biting her lip before she ran back to her friends with a small wave.
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“Hey Kenny.” You said panting as you made your way to the mall.
“I’m sorry, I’m late. Where’s the others??” You asked as you saw nobody but her here, where was Gigi, Bella and Hailey?
She shuffled her legs uncomfortably as her eyes darted around the mall that was filled to the brim with people.
“They… they didn’t come. It’s just me and you.” She said mumbling, barely audible in the noisy mall.
You nodded but felt a little happy for some odd reason. You were sorta glad they didn’t come because that meant you had more time to spend with Kendall. You could feel a small smile creep on your face as you walked together around the mall.
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“Mmmm, this is good.” You said as you took a bite out of your burger.
She chuckled as she watched devour the large burger as she ate her burger modestly. You seemed to be in your own world as you finished the burger.
“Wait, you got a little something.” She said pointing to your lips.
“Where?” You said poking your tongue out to find the delicious taste of the burger that was now gone in your stomach.
“Right there.” She pointed once again squinting her eyes with a smile on her face.
“Here let me get it.” She leaned over the booth, wiping the ketchup off your face and eating it up instead of wiping it off with her thumb.
You blushed furiously, watching her eating her burger. Her face was so close to yours in that one moment, everything was so intense. Her long eyelashes fluttering and deep brown eyes concentrating on the small patch of ketchup and her pink tongue that licked off the ketchup off her thumb was scandalous.
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You were forced into some dresses and to walk out for Kendall to see which dress was the one. You didn’t even know what she meant by the one. You were now in a red little dress that showed off a lot of skin, it ended mid thigh and showed off your collarbones. You walked out, insecure and unsure of the dress, feeling uncomfortable as she stared at you. Her eyes roamed your body, with a red tint that glowed upon her face.
“It-it’s perfect.” She said, as her eyes were in a trance watching every one of your curves closely.
You felt your face flush too, noticing she was checking you out.
At the counter, she quickly paid for it with you protesting that you didn’t want her to but she did anyways. Forcing her cash to the cashier who was flustered when you said that you were paying but was fumbling to find cash. You got angry at her but the cute little smile she had on her face made you melt.
“It’s the one.” She said happily, carrying it for you as the both of you roamed the mall.
“What do you mean by that?” You asked curious.
“You’ll find out later tonight. Wear it tonight, I’ll pick you up.” She said as she walked towards the car park with a large grin on her face teasing you, it seemed that her shyness was all gone only replaced with confidence.
The car ride was silent except Kendall humming a tune you couldn’t pick up. You were still abit mad that she wouldn’t tell you what she meant or why she would force herself to pay for the little scandalous dress.
Everytime you asked what she meant she just replied “Something.”
You groaned as she dropped you off your small humble home.
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You got dressed up in the red scandalous dress and tried to do your hair up nicely, whatever the something was, it was bound to be something fancy. You patiently waited for Kendall, knowing she would be right on time when it came to going out with her.
You jumped in surprised as the honk rang loudly infront of your home, you got up wearing your high heels that matched the dress. It was difficult to walk but the way your ass looked made up for it.
“E-er hey.” She said as she opened the door for you which surprised you.
She was dressing a short black dress that showed off her long legs that were to die for. You gulped the lump in your throat feeling your face flush as your eyes ran up her body to find, her braless. Her nipple-piercing showing through the fabric.
“You look beautiful, Y/N.” she said breathlessly.
You blushed a deeper red but replied quickly, “You’re the most beautiful, charmer.” Speaking only the truth.
“So erm, where are we going?” You said nervously, pulling your dress down as she drove through the dark night of the city of Los Angeles.
“Somewhere.” She smirked as she made a sharp turn.
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“Keep closing your eyes, we’re almost there.” She said softly against your ear which made you shiver under her hot breathe.
Your eyes were closed as she brought you to that special ‘somewhere’ which you could tell she was excited for. You felt her soft fingers remove themselves and a loud popping noise with a shout of “Happy Birthday, Y/N!” You were greeted by Kendall’s friends and her standing sheepishly at the side of the party.
You were beyond happy, you thought everyone forgot, you could feel yourself grin widely as the party started. Kenny made this for you, without her you were nothing. It was incredible how one person could change your world. From being a nobody, you became somebody who had friends, who had an incredible friend that was to die for.
She was everything you dreamt of though you didn’t just see her as a friend. Throughout the party your eyes would constantly find hers, even if it was your party all you could think about was her and how much you wanted to thank her.
“Let’s go dance!” Hailey shouted, clearly intoxicated by the drink served on the party table.
She dragged you to the dance floor where the both of you danced, you were intoxicated too, the buzz felt good as the both of you swing your hips and grinded on each other with giggles. You could feel an arm tug you towards somewhere, ruining the fun you one had on the dance floor.
You looked up to see the arm was the one and only Kendall, which made you feel better, “What were you doing?” She questioned with a frown on her face.
“What?” you questioned as you were one of the rooms of the Jenner-Kardashian residency.
“What you were doing with Hailey?” She questioned cornering you against the wooden door that was cold behind you.
Her once deep concerning eyes were now on fire, you couldn’t speak, afraid yet so turned on by the sight of an angry Kendall Nicole Jenner. You stared at her with a small smile, adoring her beauty even if she was angry with you. The cute little wrinkle on her forehead and puffed up cheeks was so adorable.
The distant between the both of you was minimal, you wished it was non-existent. So your drunkself closed the distant, trying to feel those pair of lips that you craved for since day one. Her gasp made you stop but her hand finding your neck was pushing you into her, trying to deepen the kiss that just had started.
You felt as if her lips were soft pillows and the everything about them made you melt, the gentle fingers trying to pull you closer into the heated kiss. Your hands on her small waist trying to pull her closer too. Not wanting to pull apart but air became a problem, which made you stop and looked into each other’s eyes, panting heavily. Craving for each other’s lips even if it was a few centimetres away from each other.
“Happy Birthday, Y/N.” She whispered against your lips.
You smirked in bliss. “Is this my present?” You asked as you placed your forehead against hers.
“Yeah, one of them but I have exactly 17 presents for you, baby girl.” She whispered.
You couldn’t wait for the other 16 but from what you could tell the smirk on her face told you that one of the presents was not so innocent.
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Early Valentine’s || Kenton
Tagged: Colton Haynes & Kendall Jenner @ikennyxo
Colton goes to surprise Kendall, wanting to make up for blowing her off, and their non-relationship reaches new levels.
When: Sunday, February 12
Warnings: NSFW
Colton felt like an asshole, for blowing Kendall off the way he did. Especially since he really had zero interest in ever going back to Caity, everything had just hit him like a ton of bricks that night when she sent the letter to him and he got way too in his own head. But now he was determined to make it up to Kendall for upsetting her, and he was also a little determined to have somewhat of a Valentine's Day with the main person he really wanted to celebrate with. It was crazy, how he could feel this way for Kendall while still battling everything within him about Caity. But Kendall made him happy, and even if they were taking it slow and one day at a time, it didn't stop Colton from wanting to do these things for her. There was no rush, but Colton knew his own feelings were already developed for her, and he couldn't stop them. After making the few stops he needed to, Colton went to Kendall's and got threw security before knocking on the door and stepping back. In his hands were a bouquet of roses, a teddy bear, and a bag containing chocolate and champagne, all to give Kendall at least a little bit of a Valentine's from him. Colton sucked in a breath, a little nervous for how this could go, as he waited for her to open the door. "Hi," he said softly once the door was opened, shrugging his shoulders at everything he was holding for her, "I know we can't spend actual Valentine's Day together, but you're the only person I want was my Valentine. So I just thought, maybe we could celebrate early."
Kendall: Her head was spinning with all these thoughts running through her brain. In the back of her mind Kendall knew Colton and she knew he hadn't hurt her on purpose but still she couldn't stop herself from questioning everything. Her insecurities were hitting her again and she knew it wasn't just Colton's fault, he couldn't know just how deep some wounds she had received over the time cut her. So when he texted her he wanted to come over, Kenny quickly called downstairs to let him through before she looked at herself in the mirror, still a bit tired from a night out with Cara. She quickly put on some leather leggings and a shirt, opting for casual outfit as they were gonna stay in anyway. She just took care of the bags under her eyes, keeping her make up light when the door bell went off. "Com-" She trailed off opening the door when she saw the gifts he was bringing with him. "I... That's for me?" Raising her brows she stepped aside to let him through and closed the door once he was in. "You didn't have to get all that but thank you" Her lips curved up in a smile as she looked up in his eyes. "Come, let's go to the living room" She motioned for him to follow her as she walked into another room and sat down on a white sofa turning the TV on. "So... what did you want to do?"
Colton nodded his head as he walked inside, still waiting nervously to see how she reacted to what he had brought for her and what he said. "I didn't have to, but I wanted to," he told her, following her into the living room and setting everything down on the table. Once Kendall sat down, Colton joined her and turned to look her directly in the eye. "I just want to talk to you, first. So just listen, yeah?" he told her, running a hand through his hair that he hadn't even bothered to fix today. For once letting it lay flat on his head. "I wanted to, for many different reasons," he started, looking at her once again, "First, because you really are the only person I'd want to consider my Valentine. I like you, Kendall. And I'm not saying that just to say it. I really do. And taking it slow or not, it's how I feel about you. Which scares the shit out of me, because I wasn't expecting to like someone again so quickly, but you can't control your own feelings. And I don't even care to deny it, because it's true. And second, I did it because I upset you. Which is something I never want to do. I care about you too much to do that, and I should have texted you a lot quicker than I did. And I'm sorry that I didn't. That's my mistake. But I promise you that my intentions behind not showing up were purely for the right reasons." Colton let the words hang in the air, not wanting to add anymore until he heard her response. "And as for what we can do the rest of the night, I don't care. We can lay here and watch a movie for all I care. I just want to be with you."
Kendall: Kendall nodded as he said he wanted to talk first. She didn't know what to expect, the rational part of her brain not being able to fight off the dark thoughts. Hearing about how he developed feelings scared the girl so she gasped looking him straight in the eyes. Was it possible? Could they like each other while still having feelings for other people? The brunette was confused to say the least, she surely didn't expect him to admit all that to her. Biting on her lower lip, the model felt tears pooling in her eyes but she didn't want to cry. So she did the only thing she knew would make her feel better, she moved closer and wrapped her arms around Colton, hugging him tight. "I'm sorry I freaked out. it's just that I'm so tired of people promising things and then...."She trailed off swallowing her tears, tonight wasn't the night for that. Pulling away she still stayed close, looking him straight in the eyes. "I'm scared. I like you" She bit on her lip, realizing only now she had said it to him, she actually confirmed to him that she saw him like that too. "I think that's why I freaked out because I thought you'd get back with her and I know we said we'd take it slow but...." She trailed off swallowing the lump in her throat. "They fucked me up badly" She said in a low voice looking down at her lap before her head moved up so she could once again meet his eyes. "Can we do that? Just watch a movie together? And maybe drink that wine or whatever it is that you brought?" She asked with a small smile on her lips. "My Valentine" Kendall ran her fingers through his hair feeling a bit better they were actually talking about things.
Colton watched Kendall, wincing when he saw tears start to form in her eyes and was about to apologize a million times when he was cut off by her hugging him. His arms instantly wrapped around her, holding her to him in a soft but tight embrace, realizing he liked the way it felt to hold her to him. Something he knew he could get used to, something he wanted to get used to. "You don't have to apologize, I messed up. You didn't do anything wrong," he promised her, looking into her eyes as she pulled back a bit, "I don't want to get back with Caity. Not at all. I'm where I want to be right now, it didn't matter what Caity wrote in that letter. Her and I are done for good." It was the first time he had said those words out loud, and saying them truly confirmed it in his own mind. Sure, he still loved her and wasn't over her yet, but he had no interest in being with her ever again. "We can still take things slow, but we can be something with each other," he told her, feeling his heart clench at the words she mumbled afterwards, "I'm sorry they did that to you. You don't deserve it, at all. You're amazing, Kendall. You really and truly are. You're beautiful, you're funny, you're kind, you're protective, you're sexy as hell, you're talented. You're amazing, and those other guys are fucking idiots for not seeing it." Colton smiled, feeling her fingers through his hair and closed his eyes to savor the feeling for a moment while nodding his head. "Your Valentine. The only person you have to share me with is my goddaughter, since I'll be spending real Valentine's Day with her," he smiled, booping her nose softly, "But yeah. Let's watch a movie, and drink some champagne. And you can eat your chocolate that I brought you."
Kendall: Kendall smiled a bit as she nodded to his words, feeling deep inside that she can trust him. She didn't know what it was about Colton but he she felt she could put her trust in him, that he wouldn't betray her like other did. Maybe because they were friends first, because he was genuinely there for her before he wanted anything else. "Okay. You just seemed to shaken up that I didn't know if it was because you wanted her back." The model replied taking a deep breath in, it felt good to be honest about the two of them instead of just imagining things in her head. "I don't want any labels, I don't need one. But also no other guy has crossed my mind lately" If she wanted this to work and expected Colton to tell her the truth, Kenny knew it was only right she did the same. To lay it all out so no more misunderstandings were to happen. His kind words made her chuckle, for the first time in days it was a real laugh. "You sound just like Cara last night." A brief memory came to her mind, remembering a certain text Colton sent her not that long ago. "What happened to only admitting Keegan and Grant are pretty enough for you to say that?" She smiled making herself more comfortable on the sofa and taking the remote to see what's up on there, if she could find a decent movie to watch. "Well, Joe decided to join us so if you get a call from police in the middle of the night, please come bail me out of jail before my mom finds about?" She pouted knowing she could end up in trouble when drinking with Jonas brothers. "You know what's the best part of your Valentine not being the typical girl? She'll share chocolate with you every time because she's not obsessed with it" The brunette opened the box of chocolate and took one to taste it. "Do we need glasses or you're fine with sharing?"
Colton shook his head, making sure she knew that it wasn't like that. "No. I don't. It's just the first time we've talked about it since she told me she cheated, and it just all sort of came rushing back. but that's it," he told her, nodding his head in agreement at her next statement, "No labels. We can take our time to get to that point. But we're something. And no other girls have crossed my mind either. You're the only one." It felt good, to be on the same page about what they were and what they wanted, it was what was going to make this hopefully work for them in the long run. "Wait, wait, wait. I never said you were prettier than me or them, you'll have to work harder to earn that high of praise," he teased, sticking his tongue out at her playfully before laughing, "You three are going to get into so much trouble. And I'm going to laugh all the way to the jail to bail you out, and then laugh some more." Colton leaned back in the couch, getting himself comfortable as they both looked at the tv and he let Kendall pick whatever she wanted. He honestly didn't care, and he had a feeling he'd end up watching her more than he watched the movie itself. "So generous of you, you're a real keeper," he grinned and shook his head, "We can share. We've already kissed once, I don't think sharing a bottle of champagne is really going to be any worse than that." Colton laughed, feeling at ease and happy for the first time since the letter came through two days ago. And he knew the brunette next to him was the reason why, and she was a reason that he never wanted to go away. "Now come on, slow poke. Just pick a movie already before I fall asleep from boredom over here."
Kendall: She nodded. Kendall knew what it felt like to be cheated on, she had been in the past too and although her ex was a total ass about it, she was glad that Caity reached out to explain things to Colton. "Good. For everyone out there we're just friends but in here, between just the two us - we're just us. Colton and Kendall. Perfect jaw and legs to kill for, if you want it precise" She winked laughing about it, knowing about Colton's obsession with his own jaw. A smirk appeared on her face, her perfect brow raised at his next statement. "Just wait until you actually see me in the outfits I told you about. You'll forget those two even exists" Kendall winked letting him imagine her in whatever lingerie that to his mind. "I don't know why I thought it would be a good idea to invite Joe too, I'll never make it out alive" She shook her head, rolling her eyes at him. "Alright, alright" Flipping through channels she saw a familiar scene, the smile spreading on her face as she recognized one of her favorite movies. "I don't care what you have to say about it but I don't miss the chance to watch Pretty woman when it's on" Kendall snuggled up his side passing the bottle to him. "Now put those abs to some use and open the bottle." She giggled letting her eyes go back to the screen, the scene of Julia Roberts going down on Richard Gere playing in front of her. "What is it? Are those muscles just air? Chop chop, I want a drink." She smiled.
Colton couldn't help but to nod in agreement, completely okay with that being their current arrangement. Especially knowing the way gossip would spread if people started to find out there was anything between them other than being just friends, and that's something he didn't want for Kendall at all. "I think perfect jaw and legs to kill for is a pretty lethal combination anyways. The world needs some time to get used to us as friends before we could even attempt to tell them it's anything more," he grinned, which turned into his jaw dropping when she mentioned the outfits, "If I see you in those, I'll forget there's anyone on the planet other than you." Colton laughed at her comment about Joe, nodding his head in agreement as he imagined what she was going to go through with both guys in a couple of days. It'd be hysterical, that's for sure, and he couldn't wait to hear all about it. "I haven't watched this movie in a long ass time, so I'm totally okay with it," he told her, about to wrap his arm around her before she handed the bottle to him. Colton focused on the screen for a minute, watching the scene unfold before she began to tease him and he laughed. "I was distracted, shush up," he smirked, opening up the bottle and handing it to her for the first drink, "There's one thing I want to do before we have too much champagne though."
Kendall: "Anything more? So you're hoping to get to kiss me again?" The girl teased raising her eyebrow as she looked at Colton, the difference in her mood since two nights ago was so obvious. "If my sisters knew about this, they'd kill me" Kendall said, her sisters never hesitated to give their honest opinion on hot men and well, Colton was definitely a handsome one. But so far, she wanted to keep everyone out of their business. She had told Cara and Tom about him but she didn't want everyone prying in and demanding answers they didn't have at the moment. "It's one of my favorites actually, I love watching it." Eyes glued to the screen, Kenny had a big smile on her face without even realizing. "And about Kanye's show, I'll be taking care of Nori so you might get that Snapchat with her for real" The brunette moved her head to the side, looking into his eyes as he had previously agreed to come see the show with her family. Taking the bottle for him her brows furrowed at his statement so she placed the bottle on her thigh keeping it steady with her hand. "What is it?" She asked curiously not being able to come up with anything that would explain what he told her.
Colton smirked, quirking his eyebrows with a shrug of his shoulders. "Only if you're lucky," he winked which was followed by a laugh, "Why would they kill you?!" He was definitely excited to get to know Kendall's family more, and he only hoped that they all liked him. It would suck if they didn't, but he was determined to make sure that didn't happen. "I might be to snapchat with the princess of snapchat? You just made my whole day," he grinned widely. Watching North on Kim's snapchat always made him happy, mainly because he loves kids so much. He'd probably be a teacher if he wasn't in Hollywood. "Well. The first time, there was too much champagne. And I don't want to risk that happening again," he shrugged, sitting up so he could face her more. Colton hesitated for only a moment, before bringing one of his hands up to cup Kendall's cheek and stroke his thumb over her skin. "You can stop me at any time," he assured her. Not wanting to assume this is what they both wanted at this time, but it's definitely what he wanted. And he wanted it while they were both sober and clear headed. Colton slowly leaned forward, eyes fixed on Kendall's as he closed the distance between them and pressed his lips softly to hers.
Kendall: She snorted knowing very well that both of them wanted to share kisses. They may have not gone all the way through but she understood his reasons why and it was probably for the best but she couldn't help but wonder how he was in bed. "I made your day only because you'll get to have her on your Snapchat? Bad answer" She shook her head pretending to be mad at him. She didn't spend as much time with Nori or Saint, Kourt's kids were always around more but she still loved Kim's kids dearly. Furrowing her brows, the model looked at him until she realized where this was headed - Colton wanted to kiss her again. She thought it was sweet that he offered her the chance to avoid the kiss but the truth was - she didn't want to. Licking her lips Kendall smiled as Colton leaned in, kissing him back immediately. She could hear the voices on TV but she didn't care, for now she just wanted to show him that she wanted the kiss just as much. The brunette put her hand on his chest smiling even when they pulled away. "I guess I just got lucky" She winked remembering what he told her just minutes ago. "So... movie or making out first?"
Colton held his hands up, waving an invisible white flag as playfully winced. "Listen, you make my day in other more personal ways. But also by saying I might get to have North on my snapchat," he laughed, holding his hands in the air still. The kiss was soft and short, but it's all Colton needed to see that he wanted to kiss her as many times as possible. And that it hadn't just been the alcohol last time. "I think we both got lucky," he laughed with a shake of his head. For a moment, Colton pretended to think about and even made to turn himself towards the tv once again until he stopped with a smirk on his face. "There's only one right answer," he grinned, moving closer and pulling her into him. Colton kissed her once again, this kiss not as hesitant as the one before it had been and actually managed to pull Kendall even closer to him.
Kendall: "She's gonna have a blast, she absolutely loves being the center of attention" Kendall smiled knowing her niece and that she'll make sure to join Colton in whatever he wanted her to do in that Snapchat. This felt different than their kiss in Paris but she had to admit she liked the way he was kissing her. The brunette wasn't sure what his answer would be and seeing him turning away she thought he'd want to watch the movie so he caught her off guard when got back and pulled her closer to himself. She let him hold her in his embrace, her hand moving up to tangle in his hair as he adjust her head so she coud kiss him better. Thank you. For the presents and for tonight" Kenny was happy that he wanted to make it up to her and that he decided to come spend his evening with her. "So you really didn't use the charity date to kiss Lady Gaga? You're so lame" She teased when they pulled apart.
Colton felt his grin grow even wider from excitement. "This is going to be amazing. Hanging out with your family, getting the princess on my snapchat, and getting you on my snapchat. What could be better?" he mused playfully, knowing that it was going to be an awesome day. The fact that he was going to Kanye's fashion show was incredible, something he never thought he'd get to experience in a million years. The kiss was spectacular, something he couldn't even explain, and he laughed when they pulled away once more. "Anytime, babe. I'm just glad you let me in, I was afraid you were going to refuse to open the door," he laughed, which only grew louder at her next comment, "I could have. She's amazing. But there's only one girl I want to be kissing. And even Lady Gaga, and her amazing self, couldn't make me ever want to risk messing things up with her before they even get started."
Kendall: "So you're just using me for a free pass to Yeezy show and having Nori on your Snapchat, you're a cruel and heartless man, Colton Haynes. Your middle name should be Cruella de Vil" Kendall teased him knowing he wouldn't just use her like that. The more they kissed the more comfortable Kendall was feeling with it. She thought kissing someone after Saan would be weird but it wasn't. It was different but she liked it, enjoyed it. "Why wouldn't I let you in? You came bearing an amazing apology" She smiled snuggling up to him, loving how it felt being this close to him. "Oh, really? That girl must be very special then, we need to haunt her down and tell her to kiss you over and over again to make it up to you. You don't skip Gaga for a random girl" Kendall traced his cheek with her fingertips.
Colton thought about for a minute, bringing his fingers up to his chin. "That sounds about right. I mean, why else would I be here?" he teased, hoping Kendall he didn't mean a word of it. That wasn't Colton's style, even when he was in a bad place and messing things up with Willa, he had never used anyone. "Because you were upset with me and thought I wasn't worth it? I don't know, there could be many reasons," he shrugged, happy that he had been wrong though but then he smirked, "She's very special. She kind of snuck up on me, it wasn't something I was expecting to happen. But she's pretty amazing, and makes me happy." Colton looked her, liking the way her fingers felt against his skin and smiling softly at her. "Though, if I remember correctly, you're supposed to give me mouth to mouth to save me after sending me that picture the other day, aren't you?" Colton smirked with a glint in his eyes, looking at her playfully and licking his own lips. "I mean, unless you want to show me more and actually give me a heart attack before the mouth to mouth happens. It's entirely up to you, you're the savior here."
Kendall: "Heeeeeey" She pouted hitting his arm playfully although she knew he was joking. The guys may have disappointed her in the past, something about Colton made her believe him. "Just because I was upset doesn't mean I'd just shut you out like that. "You apologized and kind of didn't take no for an answer when you said you're coming so figured why not let you in so we can talk." She replied with a smile that led up to a laughter when he mentioned their agreement the other day. "You seem fine right now" Kenny winked trying to remember what kind of underwear she was wearing right now. "Besides, didn't I just give you mouth on mouth?" The model grinned leaning in to kiss him again. She lightly bit on his lower lip before tracing her tongue over it asking for entrance. When she was finally granted, she slipped her tongue in exploring his mouth. She moved a bit so half of her body was on his, slowly deepening the kiss just to show him how determined she was to keep him alive. "Now, is that a good start or do I need to show you more?" Kendall took his arm underneath her shirt to have him trace over her bra and let him imagine just how it looks. "I'm not sure we'd be able to stop if I actually showed you some of my collection."
Colton pretended to be hurt by her hitting his arm, but just grinned instead. "That was your first experience with a stubborn Colton, keep in mind, that happens almost all of the time. And I usually don't take no for an answer, when it comes to stuff like this anyway. When I want to see, I'll do everything I can to make it happen," he promised her. If there was ever something Colton knew, it's that he would always fight for the people he cared about as long as there was something to fight for. "That's because you can't see or feel how fast my heart is beating," he smirked, watching her carefully and shrugging his shoulders, "Can never hurt to be too careful, can it?" Colton instantly welcomed the kiss, returning it without hesitation and feeling pleasantly surprised when Kenny deepened the kiss unlike the others. All it took was a split second before Colton parted his lips, letting his tongue meet hers as he wrapped his arms around her to pull her closer. "I can't decide if it's making the whole rapid heartbeat thing better or worse," he said breathlessly, eyes glazing over when his hand was moved under her shirt and he felt his whole body almost freeze at that moment. "I don't think we would be able to either, so if that's not what we're ready for, then we definitely shouldn't do...that," he struggled to speak, his fingers tracing over the fabric of her bra and letting his nails scrape against her skin lightly, "You really are killing me here."
Kendall: "Then you need to know that I'm pretty stubborn too and if I want something I'll make whatever I can do get it. So if I ever do something wrong, you're gonna have a hard time trying to ignore me" She giggled, for the first time in weeks she didn't think about anything else but the two of them in the room. Colton managed to keep her all attention on himself and the only thing she wanted to do was to laugh and have a nice evening. "What should we do then? I don't want you to die here, keep that heart in check" Kendall teased her friend, smirking at the fact she was able to make him breathless, to have him wanting more. It has been a while since someone looked at her like that, or at least a while since she let anyone that close. "Is it bad that I don't care? I mean, it might be too soon but... fuck, this feels good" She let go of his hand and moved hers under his shirt tracing his abs with her fingertips. "Let's just not think and see where this takes us? If we don't comfortable later we can always just stop..." She offered letting her hand roam around his torso as she leaned in to kiss him again, allowing herself to make it passionate.
Colton shrugged his shoulders softly. "Honestly, that just makes me like you even more, so that doesn't scare me at all," he mentioned, happy to hear that she'd be willing to fight. That's all he ever wanted out of someone, and hadn't ever really experienced thus far in his life. Colton tilted his head from side to side, humming as he used his free hand to pat his own chest even though his eyes never once left Kendall's. "I think it'll be okay, at least for awhile," he promised, his breath still not fully returned to him from the previous kiss and the way she was causing his body to run on overdrive. The more Kendall spoke, the more Colton could feel his heartbeat speeding up and his entire body reacting to her, it was electricity was suddenly flowing through him in this moment. And that was all thanks to Kenny. "We're on the same page on everything, and we both know it means more than just hooking up for the hell of it. At least I hope you know that it would mean more to me than that, so whatever happens, happens. I'm happy either way," he promised her just before she kissed him once again. Colton's fingers splayed across her side, holding her body close to his and returning the kiss with just as much passion and fire as Kendall was giving him. For a moment, Colton broke the kiss but still kept his eyes trained on her as he removed his own shirt and tossed it to the side. "I figured that'd make it easier for you," he smirked, instantly kissing her once again and tangling his fingers into her hair.
Kendall: "You say that nooow" She sang the last word tryingto come off as weird and intrusive but she knew he'd see right through it. She didn't mind fighting for people and dreams she believed in so Colton would be no excuse. The model couldn't believe how good they were together, no pressure and just in sync. He didn't pressure her into something she might not be ready for and she was feeling so comfortable about it. The making out session was heating up, movie long forgotten as Kendall continued kissing the actor, shutting off her brain as she just wanted to live in the moment and enjoy her time with him. "Yeah, if it happens it's because we both want it, don't worry. I just want to make most tonight." The girl smiled but soon it was off her face as Colton took off his shirt causing her bit her own lip as she stared down at his naked torso. "Fuck" She groaned pulling him into a kiss, moving to straddle him as she felt his fingers in her hair. After a while it became too hot so she grabbed the hem of her own shirt and moved it up and over her head tossing it aside. "I don't like being overdressed." She smirked sitting on his lap, a lacy black bra the only item on her upper body.
Colton watched Kendall's face as he removed his shirt, his lips turning up into a smirk as he flexed his muscles no matter how cocky it made him seem. He had been working out the past year more than ever, and he knew his muscles looked better than ever. "Mhm," he mumbled against her lips, one hand in her hair and the other wrapped around her waist now that she was straddling him. The difference in this versus the night in Paris was astronomical, and he was so glad that they hadn't done anything that night when he'd barely had remembered it. If this went further, Colton wanted to remember every single moment of it and so far Kendall was definitely doing a good job of making sure he would. "Clothes are overrated," he breathed, taking in her half naked form and leaning forward to press his lips to her neck. Tongue and teeth both scraping against her skin, but being sure to not leave a mark since he knew she had shows this week. Even if he wanted to leave one, he knew it was best not to this one time. Colton dragged his teeth lightly down her neck, focusing on the skin where her neck and shoulder met as his hips moved up into Kendall without him even thinking about it.
Kendall: Kendall had noticed how less chatty Colton became as they started making out figuring he was too focused on what's going on between them. The model didn't think she'd have the courage to this in a long whie after the break up, her confidence was shattered on the day Sean dumped her but with Colton it was different. He made her feel, he made her feel as though she was enough and that's why she didn't mind having him look at her like that and kissing her. Closing her eyes, the model bit on her lower lip to keep her moan in as his lips went to her neck, it was one of her weak spots but not to the point where she couldn't stop herself from moaning. But all her effort didn't stand a chance when she felt his hips moving. "You little tease" She moaned quietly before placing her hands on his shoulders and pushed him down on the couch. "Two can play that game, you know" She smirked rolling her his against his before she leaned in and start leaving a trail of kisses down his neck, over his collar bone and then moving lower, leaving kisses all over his upper body. As she reached back up, Kenny looked deep inhs eyes, their lips brushing against each other when she spoke up. "You're making it damn hard to resist you..."
Colton smirked against Kendall's skin when she called him a tease, happy to know his involuntary movement had seemed to please her more than annoy her. And when skendall started to return the favor, Colton let out a groan of his own as his hands squeezed against her hips when they were rolling into him. "You don't have to resist me," he grinned against her lips, nibbling on her lower one, "But if you're wanting to, Im going to need to go take a cold shower real quick." His body has reacted to Kendall in every way possible, and he'd be shocked if she could feel the way he had harden beneath her. "I want you," he whispered into her mouth, kissing her passionately once again, "But not until you're ready." And he meant it, no matter how badly his body was reacting to her, he'd stop in an instant if she asked him to.
Kendall: In the back of her mind Kendall was wonderingf if it would be the right thing to go all the way with Colton. She didn't owe it anyone to keep herself, there was no one in her life that would be upset if she slept with him. The model wasn't really a girl for a one night stand, no matter what people thought about her, but this was someone she knew and someone who has showed her that it wasn't just a quick shag for him. "I don't wanna resist you" She whispered against his lips nibbling on his lip. "I've never done this with someone who isn't my boyfriend so I don't know if I'll freak out but... I want it. Want you" She nodded letting her hands roam around his torso, getting to know every inch of the exposed skin. Her lips were attached to his neck once again, her teeth gently scraping his skin as she wasn't sure if she'd be allowed to leave a mark there for everyone to see. "Should we move to my room?"
Colton looked at Kendall with an intense gaze, making sure she was looking at him when he spoke. "If it gets to be too much, you tell me stop and we stop. We'll come watch a movie instead. But I promise you that you're safe with me, okay?" He had to suppress another groan when Kendall went back to his neck, and it failed miserably as the sound escaped anyways. Colton nodded his head in confirmation of her suggestion, pulling her closer to him as he stood up from the couch and made sure her legs were wrapped around his waist. "I'll do all the moving though," he winked, leaning forward to kiss her once again but had to pull away to navigate the way to her room. When they were inside the bedroom, Colton gently laid Kendall down on the bed and instantly hovered above her to kiss her once again. "You're so beautiful," he mumbled against her lips, meaning every word of it.
Kendall: "Thank you, you have no idea how much it means to hear that" She smiled softly, the way Colton was touching her and looking her really made her feel safe in his arms. Hearing his moans Kendall smirked against his skin, it felt so good to be the reason why he was making those sounds in the first place. Seeing what he was attemptig to do, Kendall wrapped her legs tight and her arms around his neck as he carried her over to her room. "You didn't even see me in my sexy set yets" Kenny winked teasing him a little as she felt the bed underneath her. She put her hands on his hips pulling him closer to herself, wanting to feel his weight on her. She then moved her hands reaching for the button on his pants to undo it and unzipped them, wanting to get him out of his pants as well.
Colton rolled his eyes and bit down on her bottom lip, not enough to hurt or leave a mark, but enough to get her attention. "Save those for next time," he grinned, feeling her hands trying to undo his jeans and be pulled away long enough to slip out of them and kick them on the floor. For a moment, Colton just stared at Kendall as she laid there until he leaned forward to press a kiss to her stomach and slowly trail his mouth upwards. As his kisses trailed higher up her abdomen, his hands lifted her up enough to reach the clasp of her bra and remove the fabric away from her body. And as soon as Colton saw her lying topless underneath him, his eyes darkened and he felt himself grow harder in his briefs. Teasingly slow, Colton kissed his way up her chest and across it, purposely avoiding her breasts for a moment until he finally trailed back down and pulled on of her nipples into his mouth.
Kendall: "Don't worry, you have a lot to look forward to" She winked teasing his imagination. Kendall couldn't bring herself to look away as Colton took his pants off, the only thing on his body were his boxers now and she could see just how turned on he was. It brought a smirk to her face as they kissed again. As he moved her so he could take her bra off, the model almost covered herself as she way lying before him, her torso completely naked but the look in his eyes convinced her not to do it. He was already great at teasing her, Kenny arching her back and moving helplessly underneath him until he finally took mercy and had his mouth where she wanted him. She wasn't sure how he'd react when he moves to the other one, the pierced nipple but she was excited to find out. "You fucking tease" She rolled her hips against his again as she moaned quietly.
Colton practically growled at her comment, biting down on her nipple to show just how excited he was to see what she had in store for him. When he finally released the one and moved onto the other, his eyes lit up and he smirked when he saw the piercing there. "I used to have one too. So hot," he grinned, leaning down once again to pull the pierced nipple into his mouth. Swirling his tongue and biting down on it, all while his hand trailed down and his fingers teased the skin right along the waistband of her pants. Colton released her other nipple just like the last, his eyes glazed over as he slid down on the bed to slowly work on removing Kendall's pants until she was in nothing but her panties. And that sight alone nearly undid him, hands trailing over her legs as he leaned forward to kiss her once again. Their almost naked bodies pressing together, Colton loved the way it felt to feel her skin beneath him and he kissed her passionately to show just how much he was enjoying this. All while his hips began to rotate into hers, causing friction between them and pulling a groan from deep in his throat.
Kendall: Kendall smiled at his comment, a lot of people told her she was crazy for getting her nipple pierced but she liked the pain and it was her little act of a rebel. Her fingers tangled in his hair as he gave his full atention to her nipples, getting them oversensitive, making her want him so much more. She lifted her hips up in the air a bit to help him remove her pants, her legs wrapping around his waist as he laid on top of her again, their mouth immediately attaching to one another. All the doubts had vanished fro her brain as Colton made her feel wanted again. She used the kisses as distraction as she flipped them over so he was laying on his back now. "You're driving me crazy" She groaned as she started to leave a trail of kisses all over his torso, biting just above his nipple leaving a mark there, a shade darker than his sking. Her hand moved lower and she started palming him through his boxers. Kenny moved up, kissing his jawline until she reached his ear, nibbling on it. "Want my mouth" She whispered seductively.
Colton wasn't expecting to be flipped over, but once he was and Kendall's mouth was on him, he couldn't complain in the slightest. The bite she left only served to turn him on even more, loving the fact that she was leaving her mark on him. "Fuck," he groaned out once her hand was pressed against where he needed it then most and his head fell back in the pillows. "Yes," he somehow managed to husk out, eyes heavy but trained on everything Kendall was doing. All the while his hands were touching her everywhere they possibly could, lightly scraping his nails down her skin as his hips bucked up into her hand. "Look who's driving who crazy now," he laughed, though it was strained from trying to have some control over his own body.
Kendall: Kendall chuckled softly, connecting her lips to his for a bit finding herself enjoying their first time much more than she tought she would and it wasn't half as awkward as she imagined it to be. She started kissing down his neck again getting lower until she reached the hem of his boxers so she grabbed them and slid them down his legs, letting them fall down on the floor. The model then kissed the inside of his thighs, showering him with kisses moving dangerously close to his member but always making sure she doesn't touch it. She looked up at him only to wink before she opened her mouth and licked the underside of his cock giving it a taste before she put the head in her mouth. It has been a while now since the last time she had sex but having Colton in her mouth felt good. Relaxing her throat, the model started taking more of him in, bobbing her head slowly as she tried to bring him as much pleasure as possible.
Colton laid back on the bed, watching Kendall carefully and groaning loudly when her kisses started on his inner legs as he felt his cock twitch with close she was. The way his body was reacting to her was insane, and it wasn't just because he hadn't had sex in so long, it was because of how badly he wanted /her/ specifically. And when her tongue finally made contact, Colton thought he was going to lose it right then and then. "Holy shit," he moaned when she finally took him into her mouth, head falling back as his hand reached up to curl into her hair. Just needed to touch some part of her as this was happening, as his chest heaved with every bob of her head down onto him. Colton bucked his hips, doing his best to keep it soft, but needing more of her with every passing second. "My turn," he managed to husk out, somehow managing to pull himself away from her and pull her up into a kiss as he flipped them once again. It wasn't that Colton hadn't been enjoying it, that was the farthest from the truth. It was just that he didn't want all of his pleasure to come from just that, and more than anything, he wanted to taste her. He had always been the type who loved to give even more than he loved to receive, and that's exactly what he planned on doing for Kendall at this moment as he began to kiss down her body once again. Kissing over the fabric of her panties, directly onto her center as his nails dragged down the sides of her body until he hooked her fingers through the fabric and pulled them down. After discarding them to the side, Colton leaned down to tease her thighs the same way she had teased him, his teeth dragging over the sensitive skin before he finally reached her center. With one quick smirk up to her, Colton flicked his tongue along her went folds and practically moaned at just that bit of a taste of her until he allowed his tongue to begin drawing lazy circles around her clit. Slow at first, teasing and exploratory, savoring the moment until he pulled the bundle of nerves in between his lips and sucked on it softly.
Kendall: She enjoyed having her mouth on Colton, although they had never been anywhere close to this, it felt good to be pleasuring him and wanting to have him enjoy their time together as much as she was. Kendall didn't mind giving a blowjob, she wasn't selfish in bed so she wanted to please her partner the best way possible. She groaned as he pulled her up, she was only getting started but she figured they'd have another chance for her to get him over the edge with only her mouth. Right now, they were too curious about other things to just leave it like that. As he took off her last piece of clothes, Kenny felt exposed but didn't let herself get stuck in her mind, she blocked out all the negative thoughts as she saw the way Colton was reacting to her. "A fucking tease" She moaned a bit louder as she felt his tongue, not being able to gain control of herself as she felt him sucking, making her writhe underneath him, her fingers tangled in his hair trying to get a hold of something, anything. He was so good at driving her crazy already that she didn't know how she'd be able to keep up once he finally enters her. The need for him was starting to get unbearable, her eyes closed trying to focus. "I-I'm on the pill b-but.." She trailed off as a moan interrupted her. "But there must be condoms in top drawer" She managed to get it out, no matter what the brunette was always taking care of herself and making sure she's safe. "Colton.... I /need/ you." She groaned urging him to get back up and kiss her and finally to unite their bodies.
Colton loved the way skendall tasted, enjoying every second that his tongue explored every inch of her center until he was finally teasing her entrance. And just as he was about to continue, he heard her voice and looked up with a grin before allowing his tongue to slip inside of her once. Then twice. Three times until he finally gave in to her wants and kissed his way back up her body, focusing on just her until he had to look away to find the condoms. "Better safe than sorry," he assured her with a kiss, showing that he didn't mind having to wear one. The last thing they needed was any accidents happening before they had even figured out what they were going to be. Colton finally found the condoms and made quick work of getting the wrapper open and putting it onto himself. Words were nearly impossible as he moved to hover over her once again, leaning down to kiss her as he lined himself up with her entrance and slowly pushed himself inside. A groan escaped from deep in his throat as her tightness enveloped him, and he sat there still for a moment, allowing her to adjust while he looked down at her. "Are you okay?" he questioned softly, hoping she understood that he wasn't asking if she was physically okay. That he wanted to make sure she was mentally okay and didn't want him to stop.
Kendall: Kendall smiled watching he take the condom, it had been a while since she used one but she figured they would want to be as safe as it gets. Their feelings were already one giant mess, they didn't need to add the possibility of a baby into it. She returned the kiss with passion, her entire body excited for what was about to happen. Feeling him enter her, the model groaned softly, it had been a while since she had sex so she needed to adjust to the feeling of someone inside her. They way Colton was treating her and making sure she was comfortable made her feel safe, made her feel wanting more of him. Looking into his eyes deeply, the model nodded with a soft smile on her lips as she reached to peck his lips. "Better than okay." The smile grew wider as she moved her hips as to show him she was also physically okay and that could start moving. "Please don't stop" She looked him straight in the eyes as she felt him moving, the pleasure already taking over her, all the tension was leaving her body. "So fucking good" Her fingers danced around his back as her hips rolled to meet his trusts.
Colton felt the weight lift off his shoulders when skendall confirmed she was okay, in more ways than one and he smirked against her lips. "I don't plan on it now," he promised with a bite down onto her lips. Slowly, Colton began to move his hips and pull almost out of her only to push right back in. Keeping them movements slow at first, but getting a little faster and harder with each thrust inside of her. There were no words left in his mind, the only thought was that he needed to make sure this felt as amazing for Kendall as it did for him. Colton once again began to pepper kisses down her beck, sucking softly on her pulse point as one of his hands moved in between them to allow his fingers to circle her clit. Giving her every ounce of pleasure that he knew he could right now, even as his hips began to move much quicker and harder, pushing himself deep inside of her. "Fuck," he moaned against her skin, biting down softly as he snapped his hips over and over again.
Kendall: "You feel so fucking good" Kendall moaned softly as she felt him thrusting faster, her mind filled only with thoughts of Colton and how good he was making her feel. She wrapped on leg around his waist, urging him to go deeper but when she felt him rubbing her clit, she was starting to lose it. Colton seemed to know her better than she ever thought, using the right moves to pleasure her, the model enjoying every second of their first time together. With a smirk on her face, Kendall flipped them over once again. "Told you I take what I want and how I want it" She smirked putting her hands on his chest as she started to bounce on his member, moving her hips in circles once he was burried deep inside her. The sweat was starting to glisten on her forehead but she didn't wanna stop doing thsi just yet. "So fucking good" She said moving faster on top of him, the room filling with the sound of her ass slapping against him.
Colton smirked against his her skin, not even caring about if he left a mark at this point until she was suddenly flipping them over. And Colton didnn't mind on single bit, not as he looked up and saw Kendall on top of him. "I like this view, so that's totally okay with me," he grinned, reaching up to grip onto her waist as his own hips continued to move in time with Kenny's. This was so much better than Colton could have ever imagined it being, and he knew his groans and moans were showing Kendall just how much loved it. "Holy shit," he ground out, his breathing rapid as his grip on her hips tightened once more. Colton used his remaining energy to thrust his hips up even harder, burying himself as deep inside of her as he could possibly get as one hand once again moved to let his thumb circle her clit.
Kendall: She just smirked at hiw words, taking control in bedroom wasn't strange to her at all. Kendall groaned louder as she felt him thrusting in sync with her. "Fuck Colton" She moaned out his name once she felt him rubbing her clit bringing her even more pleasure, completely losing control over her own body. She leaned in to kiss him once more, just to keep her mouth occupied for a bit to stop herself from moaning too loud. The brunette had no idea how much time has passed, she just looked into his bright eyes darkened with lust while still bouncing on top of him. "Fucking close.... fuck" She moaned out knowing she wouldn't last much longer. It had been a while for her and Colton making all the right moves had her already losing her mind, chasing her release.
Colton was thankful that Kendall said she was close, knowing he wasn't going to last much longer himself. The thought practically kicked him into overdrive, determined to make her orgasm as intense for her as possible. Colton welcomed the kiss, returning it with passion as he adjusted his body to get more control of his own hips. Snapping them up hard and fast, all while his thumb continued to stroke her clit and his moans were lost to her mouth while the kiss continued. "I'm...almost," he warned, barely able to string the words together as he felt that familiar tightening feeling and sped up the movements of his hips and fingers. Colton could feel it happening, any second now, as he thrust deep inside of her over and over again until he couldn't hold it back any longer. "Fuck, Ken!" he groaned out, crashing his lips to hers one final time to contain the sound as he hoped this last snap of his hips brought her over the edge with him.
Kendall: Seeing Colton losing control as much as she did, enjoying their sex to the fullest had brought Kendall closer to the edge. After few more thrusts the brunette just couldn't hold it in anymore so she let herself go, her whole body trembling as she came with a loud moan, moving her hips fre more time as she rode her orgasm out as she felt him cum too, Kendall slowly moved up so his member could slide out of her rolling the filled condom off him and tossed it into a small trash bin in her room after tying it up. She then fell onto the bed next to him exhausted, trying to catch her breath. "This was sooooo good." She smiled looking up at him still trying to get her breathing back to normal
Colton couldn't form anymore words as the two of them rode out their orgasms, with him continuing to roll his hips to make sure Kendall got every ounce of pleasure possible. But as soon as felt himself slide out of her, Colton fell onto the bed and laid there with his chest heaving and sweat covering his body. "That sounds like an understatement," he laughed, his breathing still rapid but beginning to finally slow. Drawing what strength he had left, Colton turned on his side so he could look at Kendall with a grin on his face as he brushed her hair out of her face. "Thank god we weren't drunk because I would hate to not remember that," he smiled, leaning over to press a kiss to her jaw.
Kendall: Hearing his praise Kendall's smile only grew bigger, feeling so peaceful and happy that he wasn't disappointed in what just happened between them. She closed her eyes for a second feeling his lips on her skin, so thoughtful and tender. "Yeah, I'm glad we waited until now too" The model grinned up at him, pulling the covers up as she didn't want risking getting sick in the middle of her busiest time of year. "Do you have to go right away?" She asked biting on her lower lip not sure what she was supposed to do or was she even supposed to cuddle up to him. This was a new thing for her after all. "I wouldn't mind you staying even if only for a while"
Colton nodded his head in agreement, because he was glad that they had waited and not just used it as rebound sex. "I can stay as long as you want me to," he told her honestly. Not wanting to overstep since they didn't have label or any real idea of what they were doing, Colton just knew he loved getting every second possible with her that he could. "Come here," he grinned, opening his arms up so she could cuddle with him if she wanted to. "If you me to stay, I'll stay. But if you want me to go, I'll go. I just want you to be comfortable."
Kendall: Kendall couldn't stop herself from smiling as she moved closer into his open arms and snuggled up to him, wrapping her arm around his waist while tangling her leg with his. "Don't go." She moved her fingers around his torse, fingertips barely touching him while she finally started breathing normally again. "I think we should do this again sometimes" Kenny chuckled teasing him a little a she moved her head up placing a kiss just under his jaw. "I don't know if this is weird but I like being like this with you. I thought it could be awkward but no, I'm really happy like this," she smiled at him.
Colton smiled the second that Kendall cuddled into him, wrapping his arms around her and holding her tightly to him. "I won't," he whispered, placing a kiss to the top of her head to show he was here and didn't plan on leaving tonight. Colton laughed with a shake of his head, closing his eyes at the feeling of her lips on his jaw and smiling. "You won't hear any objections from me when you want to do it again," he laughed again, but turned serious as she spoke more, "Its not weird. Just because we're taking our time and not putting labels on anything yet, doesn't mean we can't do these things without the label." Colton looked down at her, bringing a hand up to cup her cheek and smiling softly down at her. "I'm happy too. You make me happy, Kendall. And I want to do these things with you whenever we can, and I don't just mean the sex," he grinned, "I mean, just spending time with you and holding you and stuff like that. Because when we're behind closed doors, we can be like this without having to worry about what anyone else thinks. Not that I care what they say, but we don't need that drama on top of everything else we're both still dealing with.
Kendall: It felt good to be in Colton arms, the smile on her face was permanent as Kendall looked at him listening to him talking. "So when I ask you to go Grey insane on me next time, you'll just go with it? Who knew you had that in you?" Kendall winked obviously teasing him as she'd never been into /that/ kind of kinky. She laughed waiting for her words to sink to see his reaction. Hearing that he was happy too and that he didn't mind cuddling up or doing stuff with her made her feel good too. The male was slowly building her confidence up, making her believe things could be that simple for them. "I actually like that, us having a secret from the world, keeping this private. So I get it, don't worry. It's not that we're ashamed, but no one else needs to know about us. I'd like keeping you as my secret for a while, don't want everyone in our business anyway." She smiled up at him reaching up to peck his lips. "Doesn't mean I won't use things to my advantage, like teasing you when we're somewhere public" She smirked.
Colton felt his eyes widen and he looked down at her with a shake of his head. "I don't mind doing some kinky stuff, but we're not going to that level," he laughed, hoping she was joking. Colton enjoyed some fun and different stuff, but not quite that insane. The idea alone made him feel uncomfortable. "It's our secret until we're ready for everyone else to know," he grinned and returned the kiss, "You really are trying to kill me. Is that your overall goal?" Colton laughed and wrapped his arms tighter around her, snuggling in close as he fought off a yawn. "I vote we get some sleep. Someone wore me out," he teased, pressing another kiss to her forehead.
Kendall: "Maaaaaybe? I've never killed a man so I might as well try now. No one knows we're this close anyway" She shrugged casually with a smirk dancing on her lips. Kendall didn't even realize how tired she was until he mentioned it, putting a hand on her mouth as she yawned. "What a coincidence, same happened to me." The model chuckled with a smile on her face, reaching up to kiss him, she didn't even think about the action, she just put her lips on his for a moment. "Sweet dreams" She quickly pecked his lips again before she rearranged her head on his shoulder fixing the duvet to make sure they're both covered with it before she closed her eyes smilling.
Colton scoffed playfully and shook his head. "Nuh, Grant knows and he would come looking for me!" Another laugh escaped him as they kissed two more times before Kendall settled in, Colton's arms still tightly around her as a happy sigh left his lips. "Goodnight, Kendall," he said, closing his eyes and feeling happier as he went to sleep than he had felt in awhile. And he knew it was entirely thanks to the girl in his arms.
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*** Scott & JT’s Vintage Vault Refresh reviews are a chronological look back at WWE PPV and TV history that began with a review of WrestleMania I. The PICs have revisited these events and refreshed all of their fun facts that provide insight into the match, competitors and state of the company as well as their overviews of the match action and opinions and thoughts on the outcomes. In addition, Jeff Jarvis assists in compiling historical information and the Fun Facts in each of the reviews. Also, be sure to leave feedback on the reviews at our Facebook page. Enjoy! ***
Monday Night Raw #117
June 26, 1995
Danville High School
Danville, PA
Announcers: Vince McMahon & Shawn Michaels
1) Smoking Gunns defeat Jason Ahrndt & Black Phantom when Billy pins Ahrndt with the Sidewinder at 2:15
Scott: So, after… well whatever the hell happened last night in Philly we open with the Smoking Gunns. I’m still trying to wrap my head around what pile of crap I watched last night. Of all the talent in that tournament, MABEL WON? Seriously? Then Mo mush-mouthed his way through reading the scroll as Shawn Michaels just alluded to on commentary. I’m glad I’m not the only one who noticed that. At least Bret Hart won and we don’t have to deal with all this foot nonsense. The Gunns win in a pretty quick squash here, but as we continue I will delve more into last night. Grade: DUD
JT: Hey! We are finally back live here on Monday Night Raw and we are less than 24 hours removed from a very bizarre night in Philadelphia as the third annual King of the Ring is in the books. Vince McMahon and his old commentary buddy Shawn Michaels have the call for us here tonight. Michaels flamed out quickly last night, wrestling Kama to a draw and bowing out in the first round of the tournament. I would ask why they even bothered having him in it just to go that route, but whatever at this point. Vince notes that Michaels is here because the King is still cleaning out his mouth after the foot fiasco following his loss to Bret Hart last night. The Smoking Gunns head out to the ring for our opening bout as they look to rebuild their credibility and relevance a bit in the tag division. Vince and Shawn talk about Mabel shocking the world and winning the KOTR crown while Michaels quips about not realizing Mo could read. The Gunns make really swift work of these bums and pick up the win. Grade: DUD
*** Jerry Lawler joins us from the office of his personal dentist Isaac Yankem, DDS. He is there trying to get the brutal stench and smell out of his mouth after his tough loss in Philadelphia last night. Lawler vows that Hart will pay for what he did and that their issue isn’t over yet. He also mentions that Yankem, a former great wrestler, is promising to extract some revenge as well. ***
*** Barry Didinsky is in the aisle shilling the official King of the Ring shirt and hat as well as a Bret Hart hat and sunglasses combo. Order now! ***
2) Skip defeats Scott Taylor with a Frankensteiner off the top rope at 2:00
Scott: Ah Sunny…oh sorry. As I was saying, last night’s show was trash. They just had a recap to shill tomorrow’s Encore Plus of the show. Who would buy that? Anyway, Skip and my girl Sunny are here to pretty things up. I love how even Shawn rips Vince’s hair, even while a babyface. So it appears Sid begged off during last night’s tag team match. That’s an abomination. Even as a heel, Sid’s not a coward. They are totally ruining his character, turning into a typical WWF heel and not the heel he should be. Skip is getting roughed up by these jobbers before he wins matches, which isn’t helping his character in my opinion. Grade: DUD
JT: We head back down to the ring as Skip and Sunny hop on down to the ring to both fat shame the fans and beat down Scott Taylor. Michaels brags about his skills with the ladies as the Bodydonnas rant in the ring. Taylor actually starts off hot with a flurry until Skip drops him with an enziguri to take over. Vince and Shawn talk more about Jerry Lawler in the feud that just won’t ever go away. Taylor dropkicks Skip outside, where he stooges around a bit before turning the tide again. Skip chewing gum during these matches is pretty funny, as is Shawn’s clear disdain for his name. Skip hits a pretty crazy splash off the top rope to the floor and then wins with a top rope Frankensteiner, busting out the high spots in this throwaway bout. Even though he probably gives a bit too much to the jobbers, Skip has a really unique arsenal, even impressing Michaels in the end. If only he had a better name, maybe he could be a legit player, as he has really looked good in limited action thus far. Oh, and Sunny. He has her too. Grade: 1/2*
*** We check out footage from a celebrity softball game in Oklahoma City. Diesel took part of the game and all proceeds went to the families affected by the Oklahoma City bombing from earlier in the year. ***
*** We then join Todd Pettengill for a report filed last night from the Corestates Spectrum. Todd recaps all of the results from King of the Ring. He also reveals that Diesel will face Sid in a WWF Title Lumberjack Match at In Your House #2. ***
3) Man Mountain Rock defeats Phil Apollo via submission with the Whammy Bar at 1:00
Fun Fact: Tonight we say goodbye to Man Mountain Rock after a short stay in the Federation. He had asked to be an announcer when he came into the WWF, but his request was denied. During his run, he had several injuries, including a serious hernia. He also became addicted to pain pills and downers along with smoking marijuana. His substance abuse issues led to his release.
Scott: Wow, I thought they had shit canned Phil Apollo by now. Before this match we had Todd Pettengill doing a KOTR wrap-up and he announced the main event for next month’s IYH #2 from Nashville. It will be Diesel vs. Sid for the WWF Title, in a lumberjack match. That will likely be better than that snorefest they had in May. Man Mountain Rock has a cool WWF guitar, but that’s about as much as his charisma goes. He’s a mediocre worker at best, and poor Phil Apollo has to job to him. Grade: DUD
JT: Back to the ring we go as Man Mountain Rock is shredding his guitar in the middle of the ring for his prematch concert. Michaels takes shots at Bob Backlund for his stance on rock ‘n’ roll and then makes me chuckle when he says Phil Apollo has a big movie coming out: Apollo 13. Vince plugs the Superstar Line, where Jim Ross has more updates on the health of Razor Ramon. MMR picks up the layup win with the Whammy Bar. Too bad this is the last time we see the big guy because I felt like he was actually gaining some momentum and starting to establish himself a bit. The gimmick and look was pretty good, too bad he ended up flaming out so fast. Looks like Bob Backlund will win the war. Grade: DUD
4) King Mabel defeats Kenny Kendall with a belly-to-belly suplex at 1:45
Scott: So here we are. With all that talent in the tournament, they give the KOTR to this talentless hunk. I’m getting a sinking feeling that this guy is going to get a mega push over the next few months and that means…GULP… a WWF Title match. Ugh. This is an ugly squash to continue to push. Grade: DUD
JT: We waste no time getting to our next match and it is a big one as it is the first bout for Mabel as the new King of the WWF. In a nice touch, he is decked out in full royal regalia and is carried to the ring on a throne by some scrubs. That certainly adds to his presence. That said, he was clearly a very questionable and controversial choice to win the tournament, especially when you consider the other talent that filled it up. However, on the other hand they took it as an opportunity to make a new star, someone they have clearly been interested in pushing for a while now. Michaels calls “Mack Daddy Mo” the biggest piece of luggage you will ever see and jokes about his reading again, so I guess he isn’t a fan. Vince puts over the efforts of Savio Vega from last night as Mabel mows through Kenny Kendall, grabbing his first win as King. Grade: DUD
*** We pay a visit to the beach to check in on Waylon Mercy, who will make his official debut next week on Raw. He says that his opponents’ lives are going to be in his hands, you know what he means? ***
*** Todd Pettengill narrates us through a video package recapping this past weekend’s WWF Hall of Fame ceremony. ***
5) Savio Vega defeats Jeff Jarrett via disqualification at 4:45; Jarrett retains WWF Intercontinental Title
Scott: At least one positive came out of last night’s PPV, and that’s Savio Vega’s performance. He wrestled four times and almost won the tournament, and with that he’s earned an IC Title match against Jarrett, who for some bizarre reason didn’t wrestle last night. We had NO TITLE MATCHES last night. That’s bullshit. What color is Jarrett wearing? Looks like some kind of brown velour. It looks like it came off someone’s couch from 1978. Savio is taking full control and even caused some heel miscommunication with Jarrett decking the Roadie instead of the challenger. Jarrett eventually took control as Savio’s ribs are sore after Mabel’s post match beatdown, in which he also ended up attacking Savio’s friend Razor Ramon. Vega tries to make a comeback, however the Roadie trips him, and as a result Savio kicks him into Shawn Michaels at the broadcast table. Shawn and Roadie start jawing, then Jarrett tries to go after Shawn and Michaels starts throwing bombs. Roadie then ends the match by going into the ring and clotheslining Savio to force the DQ. The match really didn’t get going but it looks like we may have Shawn Michaels’ next feud. Grade: *1/2
JT: We head down to the ring for our main event of the evening as the Caribbean Legend Savio Vega is set to challenge Jeff Jarrett for the Intercontinental Title. As Jarrett and the Roadie strut out, Vince tells us that the premier of Jarrett’s music video “With My Baby Tonight” will air on Superstars this weekend. Vega had a monster night last night, winning three matches before falling to Mabel in the KOTR finals. It was a night that certainly put him on the WWF map as a threat. Not sure what the hell is going on with Jarrett’s tights this week. They are shiny plush shit brown. Roadie tries to jump Savio at the bell but Vega catches him and then works over Jarrett to compliments from Michaels, who is shocked he is a step ahead despite all his work last night. Jarrett turns the tide by slinging Vega into the corner but Savio came right back with a clothesline and right hands. Roadie gets involved again but Vega dodges a Jarrett charge and the two buddies collide on the apron. Michaels messes with Roadie’s hair and that draws Jarrett over to get in Shawn’s face. After a break, Savio pitches Jarrett back inside but Roadie punches the challenger and Jarrett gets to work with some kicks. The champ follows with a swinging neckbreaker and a nice suplex for two. Roadie got involved again but Savio fended him off and turned the tide, picking up a close near fall and then dropping Jarrett with a big uranage. Roadie again made his presence known, this time tripping Savio, who then dropkicked him right into the announce table. Michaels got in Roadie’s face again and Jarrett came to assist, leading to a brawl. Once the champ got back inside, Vega rolled him up but Roadie pounced and clotheslined Savio for the DQ and to save the belt for his pal. After the bell, Michaels got in the ring and he and Vega eventually ran off Double J and the Road Dog. This was a spirited match as Savio continues to impress, however it was all about getting Michaels into the path of Jarrett as it looks like these two will now start to feud. Roadie was real good here too, doing everything he could to help Jarrett retain and I also liked the psychology of Vega being a bit tired and Jarrett fresh after not competing last night. Grade: *1/2
Final Analysis
Scott: After the F-quality PPV last night, our episode tonight has the aforementioned King of the Shit Mabel, which at least means they’re going to strap the mini rocket ship on him. The Gunns get a win and perhaps can finally be the top babyface team they’re meant to be. We get an IC Title match which is nice, and then probably Shawn’s next feud is for the IC Title, which means he will probably win it because, well he’s Shawn. How did Undertaker lose to Mabel by the way? How did Mabel beat anybody? These next few Raws are going to be like a car accident. You probably know it’s going to suck but you can’t turn away. I won’t trash this Raw because they’re trying but there’s no light in this tunnel right now. FINAL GRADE: C-
JT: We bounce back from a tough night in Philadelphia with a pretty energetic night of Raw as they start to steer the course for the rest of the summer. We still have way too much damn focus on Jerry Lawler and his mouth issues and not as much mention or even appearance from Bret Hart. Also, I will say it was a treat having Shawn Michaels back in the booth after weeks of foot jokes from the King. Mabel is our King and we will see if the push works at all, but again at least they are trying to mix things up a bit up and down the card. The best course would be a slow burn push to build credibility but we will see. With Michaels on the face side, bumping him down to an IC Title feud makes sense because he can’t be in the main event picture with Diesel still there. It also helps elevate Jarrett and that strap a bit too. Over the course of 24 hours, Savio Vega is suddenly a reliable workhorse star for the company, and that is a good thing. Despite the grim night in Philly, I thought they actually rebounded well enough here with very focused stories and a quick paced show. We just didn’t really get a strong anchor match to really make it stand out. Final Grade: C
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Messy (Lauren Jauregui/Kendall Jenner)
Timelines are a mess, but whenever that is, this is 4 months after Tyren’s breakup
PS. This chapter is gonna be a bit OOC, esp to Kendall, but hey. This is RPF so everyone will at least be 10% OOC.
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If you ask Lauren ‘when it really started’ then she’d probably answer this, because we all know how dramatic and sentimental she is.
She was up really early for a show they are doing, and she’s been up late last night(or this morning??) with Dinah, but #professionalism so here she is. Though the cranky mood the green-eyed girl has wouldn’t go unnoticed, she tried her best to show off a polite smile to everyone and greet them. Ally, God bless her, gives her a cup of coffee and reminds her that she loves her but that she has to pretend that she is having the best time of her life even though she’d rather go have another hour of sleep. She begrudgingly thinks of Dinah probably still sleeping. Of course, she’ll always be the second for glam, while her party-buddy picked fourth.
She notices her phone lights up for another incoming notification. She would have ignored it, but it has been the sixth time it lit up in 2 seconds. She suddenly felt a slight tinge in her heart, wondering if something happened while she was asleep.
‘What is it now?’
Clearly someone would have said something, right?
Regardless, she took her phone and read the message.
It’s from her best friend, Alexa.
A sigh of relief, uncontrollably left her lips.
‘YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE IT!!!!’’
‘LAUREN!!!’
‘I JUST GOT BOOKED TO WALK FOR TOMMY HILFIGER!!!’
‘I WANTED TO TELL YOU FIRST BECAUSE I KNOW YOU’RE MY NUMBER ONE (and ONLY) FAN’
‘YOU BETTER BE MY PLUS ONE TO THISSS!!!’
‘I CAN’T BREATHE LIKE OMG I CANT BELIEVE THIS WOULD HAPPEN LIKE HLPPP??’
Her eyes widen, and had to re-read it for the fifth time to make sure she’s not dreaming. She immediately dials her friend’s phone, in response.
She frowns when she keeps redirecting to her friend’s voicemail. She just got a message from her two seconds ago. What even?
With shaky hands, she quickly types, ‘Well, answer my call, so you can hear me gush about youuu!!!’
She got a reply soon too, which confuses her more.
‘Talk later. I’m about to go to class!’
She laughs lightly, she’s about to respond when she sees her friend typing.
It reads, ‘I know what you’re thinking. But I DID NOT shed blood and tears until 3 hours ago, studying for this pain in the ass exam I have at 7am in the morning, only to fail it.’
Instead of another remark, she settles in with, ‘Well go make me proud mama. Kick ass in your exams!! Xx’
“Weren’t you up until 2am? What got you smiling?” Normani asks as she takes Lauren’s place in front of the mirror.
“Ally’s coffee” Lauren said as she offers the cup to Normani, which the girl quickly declines, “Ew no. That’s too sweet for my taste.”
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A few proud post here and there on how proud she is to her BFASFLAH, then flash forward … True to Alexa’s words, she invited Lauren to the afterparty of the show. Alexa, has been one of the models for Gigi’s Collection, has been booked to walk in their Fall collection.
So there Lauren is gushing to everyone she knew at the event on how amazing and beautiful Alexa was, just like the proud mom she is.
“Hun, I love you. But one more drink and you’re gonna start embarrassing us both.” Alexa takes away the drink from Lauren’s hand. “Mostly you.”
“I’ve only had two drinks!!” Lauren insists, but Alexa just gave her a pointed look. It is true that Lauren did more talking thank drinking, but she knows an excited!Lauren is pretty much like a puppy wagging its tail endlessly begging for attention.
She can be cute, but better be sure than sorry.
Not a moment later, a man tapped into Lauren’s shoulder. It’s one of Zayn’s team, who told her to take a picture with Zayn.
She asks Alexa to come with her, but Alexa said she needed to go to the bathroom. After a quick nod, Lauren follows the guy on a suit to Zayn’s location. It’s not like she’s buddy-buddies with Zayn, but they were once in the same label, so it really wouldn’t hurt to have some nice photos out there, right?
Zayn recognized her and offers a smile. They posed for a picture together, then quickly conversed in a small talk until Gigi’s group of models came in.
Lauren suddenly felt out of place, being surrounded with skinny attractive people.
“Hey there, stranger! What’s up?” She’s surprised to be addressed by one of them.
She wasn’t sure it was directed at her, but after a moment of silence, she decided not to embarrass herself more, and say. “Uhmmm. Hi? Nothing much really…?”
…and obviously failing miserably.
Zayn, comes to her aid, and Lauren takes note how she owes him big time. “Kenny, this is Lauren…”
“Of Fifth Harmony, I know. We met a couple of times.” Kendall smiles at her, even offering her a drink. When Lauren didn’t take it, she adds, “…we even talked at that concert one time. And I’m pretty sure we exchanged some ‘hellos’ at like, every Harper’s Bazaar!”
At this, Lauren decides to take the friendly gesture Kendall is sending her way, “Yes, yes! Sorry, I didn’t think you would remember me.”
“You’re kinda hard to forget.”
At that, Lauren finally grabs the drink Kendall had laid out for her, and drink it one go. Yup. This definitely is a dream.
“So who are you with?”
Lauren found herself connecting to Louis the most even before, but right now, she really is considering extending her social list to another One Direction member, (even ex-member at that).
“I’m friends with one of the models…” Which reminded her, holy shit, where the fuck is Alexa?
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She hasn’t had the chance to look at her phone until the afternoon the next day. She and Alexa had spent the night together, went out on a late-brunch, reminiscing how much they both enjoyed the event, with Lauren continuously telling Alexa how excited she is for her, now that she has opportunities at her door step.
She rarely had time to spent with her long-time friend so she decides to make the best out of it. Filling their day casually strolling at the New York streets, which they managed without getting mobbed by fans – pro at disappearing when she wants to!! They went back to her hotel so Alexa can get ready for her flight back to Miami.
At that time, Lauren finally takes her phone and see the aftermath of the event.
She had only managed to post one photo in her Instagram of her and Alexa, so she went there first. (She knew very well, if anything else, Twitter can be such a mess)
Smiling proudly at how the comments are mostly filled with positive ones, she casually scrolls through her feed to like some pictures.
She checks her tag, inevitably, and see some of the photos that night. Most were candid pictures of her on the event with Alexa, and some of her solo shots by the paparazzi’s, and there were some of the pictures she took with the celebrities at the afterparty.
So far, no embarrassing pictures yet, or anything worth-harassing her in Twitter. She quickly checks her Snapchat to see what the other girls are up to. Once satisfied, she notices that Alexa is still humming in the shower, so she decides to open her Twitter app to spare time.
She rolls her eyes at the battalion of shipper comments in her mentions, again.
Gigi was literally at the corner of the photo of her and Zayn, and people are still shipping her and Zayn. Things people do for aesthetics.
She scrolls past it, and wonders where do people got the ‘hot potato’, that keeps popping up here and there.
She reads some tweets and came across the one that shed the light (but not really)
It’s the picture of her and Kendall, that apparently, Kendall posted in her story.
‘w the hottest potato in town @laurenjauregui’
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What?
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Surprisingly, they were having decent conversation. Lauren had introduced Alexa to everybody, whom some of them already knew, and turned out, it was Lauren who was needed of the introduction. Even though Lauren wasn’t comfortable with the crowd she has never been with, she decided to stay so Alexa can socialize to her new circle.
Few comments were, ‘it’s finally great to put a face on the name’
With some few pictures here and there, Lauren learned how, a ‘squad’ like this really enjoys showing people off when they’re together, and she thinks at how this will affect her. She lowkey expects some ‘social climber’ thrown at her face by some haters, but what can the girl do?
They were laughing at something until Kendall puts out her phone and says, ‘Hey, we’ve always seen each other around at events. Let’s take a picture together.’
Lauren shakes her head and says, ‘oh no. I’d love to, trust me I do. But I literally look like a potato.’ Her own insecurity now resurfacing.
Kendall lets out a laugh, “Are you kidding me? You’re killing it in that dress, and your eyes just blows me away every time! If you’re a potato then you’re be the hottest potato in town!”
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Right.
So that happened.
She blinks a couple of times as she stares out the ceiling.
‘So you sort of gained a new friend, no big deal, right?’
Only that, Kendall is probably one of the most followed celebrity in Instagram, and part of this crazy family-filled with drama on a daily basis. Yeah sure, no big deal.
She chastised herself for being pessimistic on this newfound friendship (sort of) just because of Kendall’s reputation. She vaguely remembers the 5-minute conversation they had before she and Alexa parted from the group.
She shakes her head and tries to reel back into reality. She checks back in to Instagram and taps on Kendall’s story.
And there she is, in one of Kendall’s story.
With Kendall finally following her back.
“Hey, what’s up?” Lauren finally looks up to see her friend fresh from the shower, drying her hair. “You look a little pale?”
“Honestly? I don’t know anymore.”
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Hey guys I decided to post this out early since I’m having exams next week, I’m sorry if updates are slow. I’m just really worried about exams and life in general though I promise you I’ll update more after the exams.
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She would wake up with a huge headache and you would wake up sore. But she would wake up feeling emotionally better and that was all that mattered to you. Her smile and her sweet thank you was all you needed to continue this torture for yourself. Her face always a few inches away yet you couldn’t afford risking it. Risking it for the sake of selfishness, just because you love her you can’t do this to her. She loved you but in another way, she was your friend.
Some nights you were rather just imagine what if she loved you in another way, the way you wanted her to love you. The depressing songs were back but all of them were just about her, the way you felt around her, the way you couldn’t do anything about it because you were scared. Fearful of the results. You could possibly lose her forever and you couldn’t imagine that.
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Today was a night of celebration it was your birthday. You held a party inviting all your celebrity friends and normal friends, you wanted it to be amazing. When Kendall walked in, all you could was stare in awe, it was like the first day. You couldn’t take your eyes off her even you tried your best, she was in a red satin dress. She was approaching you and all you could do was stare at her mindlessly, her hair done up and the dress hugging her in all the right places.
You took a deep breath and snapped out of it when she passed you a present and wishing you a “Happy Birthday, Y/N” she said giving you a kiss on the cheek, making your head feel woozy not from the booze but from her soft lips. Her lipstick probably on your cheek yet you couldn’t care less about it, you were just happy she showed up.
She left you saying “I’ll be back, I’ll grab a drink.” Chuckling before heading to large bar. Many people approached you, handing over a present before congratulating for making a successful 21 years. It has been 2 years you’ve met the lovely girl that you fell hopelessly for. Her smile still got you feeling things, you don’t think you could ever forget her or let go of the feelings.
You saw Kendall approaching with a drink in her hand and Gigi behind her. Gigi passed you a drink, and you sipped it. Conversing with Gigi about everything yet nothing, Gigi soon became one of your bestest friends after you met her when Kendall invited her over at your usual hangouts. She had also found out you had fell in love with the brown-eyed girl. Who wouldn’t have noticed, you could only gaze at her lovingly.
Even if you and Kendall had arguments about each other, you would always just gaze at her lovingly at the end of the day. Apologising even if it’s not your fault, she could tell you were thoroughly whipped. You wondered if you were really that obvious, sure many people ship you guys together but you have ships with other people too and so does Kendall. They usually never get on your nerves except when she’s around Jordan.
They always seemed so real. It scared you that maybe it was true, the tabloids and the kissing they had. You knew you never had a chance since the beginning but you always had that small spark of hope in you. The jealously that ran into your clenched fists and furrowed eyebrows were mostly the reason of your arguments. You couldn’t help it but feel jealous everytime they had went out together or did some PDA.
You felt jealous eventhough you had no right to. It would always be unrequited love.
The drink got you feeling more tipsy, you dragged Gigi and Kendall to the dance floor to find a tall man falling behind shortly. You couldn’t make out his facial features in the midst of the dark club yet you had a hunch it was Jordan. You could feel the tension leading towards your shoulders, your clenched fists and your gritted teeth. Feeling the jealously that you hated having you pulled Gigi closer had decided to just dance with her to forget about them.
Gigi chuckled at that, “I’ve got a boyfriend ya know? Calm down Y/N, I think Kendall likes you way more Jordan.” She turned her head around to the couple a few feet away. Her body so close to his, you could feel all the blood rush to your head. It was your birthday yet you felt like shit.
The rest of the night was torturous and all you could was down all shots you could. Downing them as if it was water.
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You couldn’t remember what had happened last night as you are now in bed in your jammies. You turned around to find a body in your bed, you groaned. You must have slept with someone to get rid of your jealous rage. Rubbing your eyes, observing closely it was the girl you dreamt in your dreams. Her silky hair on the white sheets, fluttering eyelids opening to reveal the warmest brown eyes you’ve ever seen.
“Good morning.” She said in her raspy morning voice, sending shivers down your spine. You could only stare at her in awe and amusement. She was truly an angel, a beautiful angel that you wished you could tell that you loved her. “Good Morning, Kendall.” You replied back too in your raspy morning voice.
She moved closer towards you, was it true? Did something happen last year, her face inches apartment but she pulled back after grabbing her phone on your side of the bed. You nearly had a heart attack, she was so close… yet it could never get closer than that. You just stared mindlessly at her, her hair in a mess, freckles on display and her oversized shirt.
You felt like it was now or never. You can’t keep doing this to yourself, you can’t keep going with this because you wanted at least some closure. You took a deep breath before speaking “Kendall, can we talk?” she placed her phone down looking at you confused. You sighed looking down at your thumbs fiddling, “Honestly, it’s been 2 long years and it’s been the most amazing time in my life. You made me understand things that I never understood before. You made my life a happier place, your truly amazing Kenny and I have to tell you this. I hope that even if it doesn’t turn out well, we could still be friends.”
You looked down and took another deep breath before continuing, “I’m in love you.” You whispered out, looking into the brown eyes that you fell in love with on the day of the concert you had sold out. Remembering the way she made you feel at just a glance. You could tell her face was in shock, it was at that moment you knew everything fell apart, you got off the bed with tears running down your face.
It was the first time you felt like your heart had been shattered, this sinking feeling your stomach, uneasing you. The pounding headache from last night didn’t help either. It was just too much to handle.
But, you couldn’t run away. Her gentle fingers wrapped around your wrist stopping you from going anywhere, “Honestly, I’m in love with you too.” Her voice shaking, you turned around to see her in tears. You couldn’t stand the fact that it was you that made her cry and the fact that she loved you too. She loved you? No, she’s in love with you. The queasy feeling was gone, the headache still there but you could only feel as if you were being filled with happiness, bliss and content. She felt the same way. It was not an unrequited love.
You jumped into the bed hugging Kendall, both with flushed cheeks and running tears flowing down your faces. The embrace was so simple yet so warm, it meant so much to you. She loved you… She fucking loved you. You pulled away from the hug, wiping each other’s tears before closing any space between each other, soft lips against each other. Passionate and slow, all the waiting was worth it. The sad songs and the arguments were all were worth for this kiss. The kiss that made you feel fireworks and shiver under her touch. Her gentleness, arms wrapped around your waist pulling you impossibly closer.
It was magical, nothing compared to anything else. In your 21 years of life, you could say this was the best moment of your life and she was your favourite person. There was no doubt about it. You pulled away from the kiss breathing, looking into her soft orbs, caressing her face in adore. “I could stare at this sight forever and I wouldn’t ever get bored.” You voiced out unconsciously, then she giggled. In that moment, you were euphoric, it was what you craved for since day one.
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